#totally count as an active activity for me

[aihoshiino]

chapter 150 thoughts!

Chapters Since The 143 Kiss Happened And Went Entirely Unacknowledged And Unaddressed Count: 7…. ttttttechnically? they don't actually mention that the kiss happened, so i'm counting it…

ladies, gentlemen and those who know better, our long national nightmare is finally over

after… literally I've lost count of how long it's been since we had some proper Aqua introspection, our landmark chapter 150 is almost entirely dedicated to putting us back in Aqua's head (quite literally!) and sort of catching up with him. Some things about Aqua that have been mostly only communicated through showing over telling are explicitly told in text and i'm ngl, there's one or two things where seeing textual confirmation of them got me barking like a fucking dog. Overall, while the pacing of the start of this arc has been bit clunky and this chapter itself isn't free of that either, it actually feels like things are moving and meaningful characterization is happening which after the Movie Arc is a bit of a luxury lol.

As usual, I want to gush about Mengo's art before I touch on anything else. Setting the majority of this chapter in a dream sequence allowed her to do some incredibly fun things with the staging and imagery here. Aqua in that eerie void with his feet drenched in blood… Aqua and Gorou still stuck in that hallway where Ai died, while Ruby has managed to take steps to leave… It's so fucking good.

There were some absolutely top tier Kanas this chapter, too… her little baby tantrum in flashback and that gorgeous final page of her… But I'm getting ahead of myself.

While I described this chapter up top as being communicating things about Aqua, it very much feels to me like it's also serving as closure for Gorou, both in the sense of him as a person and resolving the posthumous arc that he's been going on as part of Aqua. This chapter at last draws a clear and explicit distinction between the two, that Aqua is no longer Gorou, even if he might have been built on the foundation of his identity. Gorou is even described as a 'role' that Aqua has been compelled to play that Gorou himself is now urging him to step down from - he is offering to relinquish Aqua's future back to him… if that's what Aqua wants.

This was how I'd initially read the relationship back in my 143 review - that 'Aqua Hoshino' created from Gorou, his core values and driving ideals, but 18+ years of living a whole new life in a whole new social role, meeting people and having experiences Gorou would never have and literally having a different body and brain in the process have made him different and the sum total of those differences is the person we call Aqua Hoshino. This chapter seems to lean into this interpretation, casting them as a pair of briefly intersecting lines that once crossed but have now diverged onto their own paths.

I also just really liked the dynamic that they were shown to have this chapter. Whenever we've seen this conflict externalized in the past, Gorou has always been this frightening, overwhelming presence whose existence actively prevents Aqua from having any kind of happiness or peace. Here, though, they have a much less adversarial energy, which is a really nice reflection of Aqua being able to gradually start pulling himself out of the shit he's been stuck in. Gorou almost feels fatherly or big brotherly here, not just in how he behaves in regards to Sarina-as-Ruby, but for Aqua, too.

But……….. okay, I'll stop dodging around the elephant in the room now lol

After over 25 chapters of very deliberately avoiding putting us in his headspace, 150 finally puts the ball in Aqua's court vis-a-vis the AquRuby tension and he answers in a way I think would be pretty hard to walk back: That Ruby is his precious sister and that's it. That her feelings for him are the result of her projecting Gorou onto him, chasing a ghost that is fading from this world and that she does not actually love him. Whoof.

This was another thing where seeing it in text felt pretty great. I'd caught pretty early on that there was a weird divide in the way the story was handling the AquRuby dynamic - namely, that there wasn't an AquRuby dynamic and all the supposed ship development of it was largely happening in retrospect, beefing up the intensity of the GRSR relationship and having Ruby express her feelings to Gorou-through-Aqua. When the idea of Aqua and Ruby romance was floated, by contrast, it was always treated like a gag. With the Movie arc being as much of a mess as it was, it was hard to work out what the intentionality of that was (if there was any to begin with) but this seems to make it about as clear as it can be: neither Gorou or Aqua have any had any feelings of that sort of Sarina-through-Ruby and neither of them want to pursue romance with them.

Once again tapping into my powers of Claire-voyance, I already know a lot of people are trying to insist that this is Aqua lying to himself or 'settling' and that he does secretly want a relationship with Ruby for reals! but that really isn't how it comes across to me in the art. He's calm, speaks straightforwardly and without hesitation and makes his point pretty clear. We know how it looks when OnK character lie to themselves and this isn't really it. It would also just be strange for that to be the case when this is a scene about Aqua starting to consider the idea of moving past the things that hurt him and live out his future with someone.

And who that someone is… seems to be coming into focus, but I don't think we'll be getting there quite yet.

I will say that for as much as I liked this as a chapter and as a goodbye for Gorou… it kind of doesn't really make a lot of sense as a resolution for his guilt lol. This chapter frames things in such a way that centers his guilt on Sarina and that seeing her live her life as Ruby has given him some catharsis over it. This is a sweet idea but… that's, uh, not how this was framed anytime prior! When we've seen Gorou intrude on Aqua's happiness before, his self hate and his guilt all center on Ai's death and his inability to save her. The last time we saw him in this capacity in 95, that's what he was saying with his whole chest: that he deserves to suffer as punishment for Ai's suffering, Ai's death. I'm sure that knowing Sarina is living on as Ruby was very cathartic but… it has nothing to do with Ai! Why is this being framed as narratively resolved in this way?

Like… if I chew on it a bit, I can make it make sense: since chapter 1, Gorou has been pretty open about projecting Sarina onto Ai, processing his grief that way and imagining her living vicariously through Ai's success. The idea of Ruby doing the same by continuing Ai's legacy and keeping her radiance alive being the thing that gives him release over Ai's death is interesting and I can understand it emotionally, it just feels like a weird unexplained leap for the narrative to make. I was talking to a friend about it, trying to work it out by externalizing it, and they theorized that this was always the intended endpoint of Gorou's posthumous arc but that the story had drifted in the middle section and Akasaka hadn't quite realigned them. This makes a lot of sense to me and I wouldn't be surprised if it was the case.

I will say that it really bugs me. I've already talked about the ways Ai's importance to the twins as their mother has been gradually downplayed and diluted as the Movie Arc has gone on. In my original post, I attributed this to Akasaka trying to amp up the intensity of the GRSR -> AQRB relationship in a soap opera-y sort of way, but given that this chapter seems to shut down AquRuby, I don't really know if that's the case. In general, Ai has been treated as sort of narratively 'resolved' as of 137, as if that chapter was the capstone to her posthumous character arc and while that might be the case for Ruby… I really don't think it is for Aqua!

It's possible that this is intentional. Aqua still has a shitton of work to do on unfucking his relationship with Ai and the ways his view of her, as implied by the Movie Arc, is warped by his grief. I could see this final stretch of the story being primarily about that - after all, this chapter is about confronting Aqua with the binary choice of revenge or love. In a lot of ways, this has always been what he's struggling with but putting the ball this firmly in his court establishes Ai's death entirely as his own trauma that he has to work through on his own. After all, Aqua might have confronted Gorou in this chapter, but there's a certain someone we also saw in chapter 95 that Aqua hasn't dealt with yet…

I'm talking about Kana, obviously! (ducks thrown tomatoes)

I don't have a ton to say about the AQKN romance setup in this chapter other than… yeah, I kinda saw this coming! It's interesting to see Gorou, the representation of Aqua's guilt and self destruction, be the one to so directly confront him and push him towards trying to find some happiness with her. Aqua quietly noting that he knows the things he likes about Kana and he knows that moving on with her makes a lot of sense - but what makes this especially interesting is the way it mirrors Kana's own reflection on her relationship with Aqua at the end of the chapter.

I like that a lot of the AQKN moments the two reflect on are just… mundane, everyday instances of the two of them stumbling through life together. I've seen a lot of people say AQKN is 'boring' or 'flat' because it lacks the drama of AQAK or AQRB but honestly, I feel like this is what makes it work (when it does work) - their relationship, whatever form it takes, is a safe and quiet space where they can just exist outside the drama and transactional utility of so many of their other relationships.

That said, while those montages mirror each other, what makes them interesting is their divergence point. Kana decides to commit to choosing 'love', with that absolutely gorgeous full page panel, but Gorou hands the knife - the symbol of the violence that blighted Aqua's life - back to him and makes it clear that love or revenge, the choice is now entirely in Aqua's hands. We don't see what he chooses, but… if Oshi no Ko really is a story with a happy ending, I think it's a foregone conclusion. And that makes me really happy.

Not that it's happening anytime soon, lol. I'll be very shocked if Kana's confession doesn't result in a rejection from Aqua, at least at this point in time - there's too much else going on in the story for this to be the right place for Aqua to commit to Kana. She's still an idol, after all and Kamiki is still around. The bets I'm placing right now are that AQKN are going to get their resolution, whatever form it takes, at the Dome concert during or after Kana's graduation.

As for their date… Call me cynical, but I also don't see it going particularly well. After all…

Aren't we forgetting somebody?

#oshi no ko #oshi no posting #onk spoilers #chapter reviews

[geometricgiovanni]

oh, well to simplify it, there's like four body classes of Draco's

Dragons, wyverns, drakes and wyrms.

Dragons are the most prevalent and well-known members, with them described as having six limbs. Their front two legs, their back two and their set of wings, and often described as having talons, armor plating, razor sharp teeth and other reptile features. Though not all dragons have six limbs, as eastern dragons fly with the support of magic making them due to have four limbs only.

Wyverns, on the other hand, are much alike to dragons but with the lack of frontal legs and which use their wings as support for most activities, if it be standing, running, flying, all the sorts of movements.

Now now, Next up are what you questioned- Drakes. Drakes are described as lacking wings and flight but still counting as dragons, due to many features of the alike said above. Armor plating, Scales, teeth and much more. They either move like canids or move bipedally. More than often, they pack up like canid's Aswell for better chances with prey items as Drakes are more than often roughly the size of an adult timber wolf.

One last class is Wyrms.

Wyrms are as you can assume-Wormlike or snakelike Draco's that have only two limbs: Their pair of wings for nearly everything. Mostly their tail drags behind them because of the lack of back leg support. Though one may not be fooled, because Wyrms are intellectual and strong Draco's, making them difficult opponents.

Hopefully you listened in about my little informative talk of Draco's, was just wondering in case you were actually a Drake instead of a typical Dragon, sorry if i yapped too much but here you go, now you can tell the difference inbetween Dragons, Wyverns, Drakes and Wyrms. :D

OH, WELL THAT'S SUPER INTERESTING, ACTUALLY ! IF I'M TOTALLY HONEST, I'M NOT SURE EXACTLY WHAT I AM PART OF, SO I'VE ALWAYS JUST ASSUMED IT'S JUST A DRAGON. A DRAKE WOULD MAKE SENSE, HOWEVER, AS IT ISN'T EXACTLY THE DRAGON PART OF MY THAT ALLOWS ME TO GLIDE WITHOUT A CARE !

#geometric asks #im going to be coming back and reading this when i please #dracos are very cool

[tenrose]

Yes I spent most of my weekend playing DAI but I also found time to go out a bit Saturday without any reason to do so, clean one more little thing in my apartment, found a pet sitter for my holidays. So I say it's an improvement from the "lying in bed all day doom scrolling" usual weekend 🤷

#misc #actually video games just like watching a show #totally count as an active activity for me #i mean active for my brain #most people say watching a show on the sofa is not doing stuff #but they don't know these things require energy #when i say i do nothing the weekend #i really mean I am in my bed on my phone #and feel like shit the sunday at 5pm because i feel guilty #so playing a game does not make me feel guilty #actually i've noticed recently #im more inclined to do things #like cleaning a bit/cooking/taking care of one single task #so after i can play or watch a show without feeling the guilt #truly a massive fucking improvement #im telling you #now that being said i didn't watch poi s5 cause im absolutely fully immersed in dai right now lmao #call that an inability to finish things and focus on more than one activity at a time #brain be overloaded too easily #anyway im kinda happy

[radinclus-not-radqueer]

Don't cry. Radqueer community is dying, ok?

#anti radqueer positivity #anti radqueer #anti transabled #anti transid #anti transx #anti trace #anti transage #former radqueer #anti transautistic #ex radqueer #positivity #this is inspired by me doing a little bit of math and realizing that there are probably less than 100 people in total who are radqueer #MAYBE closer to 200 or 300 but thats really pushing it #this is because radqueer ideology is dumb and bigoted and nobody willingly supports it except for bigots <3 #if anyones wondering: bc i was active in several radqueer servers i know that there are usually the same 15-ish people in every server #and thats only counting ppl i recognized. id say probably close to 25-30 of the same ppl are in every radqueer server #with a few extras (lets say about 20 extra ppl across all the radqueer servers) #and then double that to factor in ppl who dont use discord #so abt 100 ppl give or take a few #thats only ppl who are actually radqueer - not counting ppl who are anti-transid but pro-c n such #the biggest radqueer server i was ever in only had abt 60 ppl and over half of them were inactive (most likely they abandoned their accts) #so rlly it sometimes seems like a lot of ppl but theres rlly no one tbh #but ya. if radqueers ever act like their community is huge just know theyre lying :3

[unopenablebox]

i was looking back at my old knitting posts to check on a thing and like yeah i really did just rocket right up the knitting skill tree over the course of a few months. no wonder i'm convinced i can knit literally anything i've spent ten minutes reading and watching videos about.

my personal knitting trajectory is that i learned to knit at age 8, stopped knitting at age 16 or so, and did not knit anything more complex than circular knit legwarmers with mild shaping at that time (so i could make rectangles and tubes and slightly widen the tubes). (ok i also did one lace scarf for about four inches but it was very bad.) then i got back into it at the end of college, and my projects were lace cowl > multiple stranded colorwork hats > socks on dpns > elaborately cabled sweater (which i finished only the back and half a sleeve of, admittedly, and am now picking up again) > most of a beaded lace crescent shawl in the span of, like, five months. and then a bunch of other shit after that! i literally can just learn to knit whatever the fuck i want, that's just uncontroversially true. what a fantastic hobby

#truly an all-time activity for me who loves to learn new things and then be instantly great at them #one of my many super likeable qualities. #knitting #box opener #this was a great sweater concept im jazzed that i get to pick it up again bc i think nowadays i might not start it #bc ive convinced myself that garments are too much knitting for my bad wrists #but it's worsted! so it might be literally the same total stitch count as socks #and also. i can knit whatever the fuck i want #to be clear i think 'this thing is too advanced for [the rhetorical knitter] to knit it' is kind of a fake idea in full generality #there are specific patterns that might need a lot of scaffolding to start with bc of what they assume about your knowledge base #or that are like poorly written or w/e #and there are skills where it might be *easier* to learn to do x in a less complex form/not simultaneously with other things #but the best thing to knit is the one you are jazzed about trying to knit. imo. #YOU can knit whatever the fuck you want‚ in all likelihood #true beginners i might advice to start with something that's square for a while. like several inches of being square. but it doesn't have t #be square the whole time! if you're ready to introduce new ideas!

[agueforts]

if anyone was curious. current url breakdown: total is 20, counting main & not counting inactive sideblogs (which i keep on a seperate account). currently, 5 blogs in use, 6 former urls i'm holding onto, and the rest are all unused saved ones. for theming, 3 for marvel, 4 for d20, 1 for battle for beyond, 5 for critrole (one of them is stealth though), and 7 unthemed (one of which is an art archive for my space porbe rp buddies)

#on the seperate account. 10 total counting main (main + 8 used sideblogs + former url of one) #and also all my active blogs but those are already counted no need to double up #aspen tag #this is actually a rlly good number for me. believe it or not #at one point circa 2019 i got over 200. couldn't even tell you how i managed it #this post has been edited to my post-pruning total btw. which brought it down by 14

[rowanhoney]

insisting on a celibacy phase was maybe a bit much but honestly it fixed me

#I’ve basically spent most of my time since puberty either with a crush or heartbroken #and as an adult that means I’m usually trying to distract myself from being sad over whoever #by dating and hooking up with other people #because that’s what everyone always said was what worked #but it doesn’t and it got me into some messy situations #whereas now sure I’m not totally healed from my last heartbreak #but I think this particular one might live w me forever #so I’m learning to live with it? #and I now don’t rly have any active crushes #not including my customer cos. yeh just doesn’t count #so I’m not crushing I’m not completely heartbroken for the first time in my life #and I have no desire to date #and I’ve been saying hey if someone I was interested in asked me out I wouldn’t say no #and someone did. and he turned out to be too😬 before our date #v not good vibes can’t explain #and I’m not sad abt it #we kinda just stopped talking and I’m relieved #look im lonely in a lot of ways but that’s p much just. I wanna hang w my friends I miss my friends #and I should say big love to my fwb who’s lovely. and an actual great friend #and satisfies the physical side so I don’t have to date just to get some

[benevolenterrancy]

So about the Hogan's Heroes Dating Sim...how do you even write a story like that? I'm intrigued as to how you turn something that's more of a video game thing into a fic.

Oh yeah, no, if I actually drag this thing to completion it will straight up be a dating sim, like as in a playable game. (Well. "game".) Trying to read it like a fic would be a NIGHTMARE, like the world's suckiest choose-your-own-adventure.

For the moment I'm still writing it, but I do have a website that I think will work for coding the stupid thing into existence, it seems to have a sufficiently simple "Fisher Price My First Coding" style system in place for tech-illiterate people like me.

As for how you write it, so far it's involved a desperate stack of lined paper with a lot of diagrams, colour coded spreadsheets, and the most deranged labelling system known to man in order to keep track of all the threads...

#maybe it shouldn't have been included in an ask meme about fanfiction but it's close enough that i felt it should count #my google doc has gotten to 35 pages and over 20k long god in heaven #i have the whole basic thing plotted out on lined paper but i'm now at the ''flesh it out and make it WORK'' portion which - #you may be shocked to learn - is an ENDEAVOUR #man when i do get back into this i'm going to have to totally reread what i've written and relearn my tagging system... #needing to write a story that has plot flags that can be activated and deactivated is a fascinating mental exercise though #i started this when i was REALLY STRESSED because it's hard to stress about things when you're trying to make sure that the different #story paths meet back up with each other and you aren't accidentally breaking the game by adding this interaction rather than the other in #whoops i got rambling in the tags sorry #thanks for asking about it it holds a special place in my heart and i kills me that i can't post chapters of it like i could with a fic ;^; #bene speaks

[dummerjan]

I posted 5,200 times in 2022

That's 4,797 more posts than 2021!

167 posts created (3%)

5,033 posts reblogged (97%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@rythyme

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I tagged 3,728 of my posts in 2022

Only 28% of my posts had no tags

#kinnporsche - 1,444 posts

#the eclipse - 256 posts

#art - 190 posts

#hannibal - 169 posts

#bad buddy - 168 posts

#jeff satur - 164 posts

#meins - 164 posts

#the untamed - 127 posts

#music - 94 posts

#my tooth your love - 92 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#even when he teases kan about liking thua it’s never in a derisive or cruel way. it just seems obvious to him. normal. not shameful.idk man!

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

imagine vegas trying to seduce pete in nothing but his murder suit

45 notes - Posted October 9, 2022

#4

See the full post

71 notes - Posted September 27, 2022

#3

I'll never be over Kim just straight out telling Chay to write a love song about him what a loser

88 notes - Posted December 1, 2022

#2

See the full post

187 notes - Posted August 29, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

emotionally I am always on a rooftop somewhere in Bangkok

273 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #this is basically just evidence of my obsession with kp #meins #oh this is fun #the year isn't over so it is only like 11 months and 1 week in review unless the go back to 8th december of last year #this shouldn't be bugging me :D #this is still so interesting to see #i want this for my entire tumblr history #that high post count tho is totally due to kp before mid of may i had been barely active on tumblr for years (and yet on here daily :D) #the top blogs i reblog from is interesting 'cause the tumblr crushes has been faulty #for most of my time on tumblr and isn't accurate #edit: i checked i tagged kinnporschw 1500+ times it's even worse

[vyladromeave]

anyways hi how are we all doing.

#artfight DESTROYED me which is why i havent been super active here #literally by the end of it i had an average of over one attack per day. #and a total of over 100 attacks counting the ones ive made from previous years. #so thats where im at right now hiiiiiiiii

[orcelito]

ITNL chapter 5

moving things along!

#speculation nation #itnl shit #starting to get some actual fic length now. this chapter was 4.1k words & brings the total up to 17.5k words #with the next chapter I'll overcome the word count for Sentido #honestly it's kinda wild to me how after 17.5k words this fic is still in its infancy #and will remain so . basically until we meet wolfwood again lol #that's where the vashwood begins. and the Relationship Development... #i. have never had a fic take this long to get to the actual romance stuff. #it's just thousands and thousands of words of vash grieving and doing shit. #it's building up to stuff tho. i just hope it's entertaining to read even w/o wolfwood actively there. #lol @ wolfwood and knives being in the major character tags but neither showing up for real for chapters and chapters and chapters #we get knives in chapter 1 and (baby) wolfwood in chapter 2. and as for when they show up again? It'll be a bit. #keeping them in the tags just bc in my plans they have a big role. it'll just take some time. #anyways i need to shower already. and then go to bed lol. man it has gotten late huh. man.

[actualaster]

Despite being told that people see my comments on posts Escape Containment sometimes it's always still wild to see somebody reblogging some post from months or longer ago that's how many reblogs removed and my comment is there in front of me.

Especially when it's people I'm not mutuals with asdhgkg

Also especially odd when a mutual who wasn't online reblogs a post of mine days later from somebody else because it's still being passed around asdjtjgj

I don't think I'll ever get used to it, it's always a surprise

#this is not a bad thing mind its just always a surprise me to XD #for the record i am Not A Big Blog #i dont have like 10k followers i dont even have 3k and a fair chunk #of my following count is from long-abandoned accounts or else the same person following from multiple #so the actual number of still-active unique accounts is probably significantly lower than my total count #(one reason im so glad that number isnt public--ppl conflate a high number w/ activr followers and all) #so it feels weird #also i do Not want to have a massive following lol #i got as much as i do over like 10 years and i cannot fathom going up thousands more that would suck #i like being Dumbass On Main :p

[fingertipsmp3]

I swear to god everything from the weather to my equipment to my neighbours to my own fucking body is conspiring to make sure I don’t get a good run this week

#let me see if i can get the timeline right here #tried to run on sunday but my treadmill was acting up by making the loudest knocking noises i have ever heard in my LIFE #after some consultation with google and the manual and my mother (who i assume knows everything) i realised i hadn’t oiled it since i bought #it in uhhhhhh fucking september. so i oiled it. couldn’t run on it same night because i was worried about oil #so i was like fine okay. postpone one day. that was monday. my period arrived 4 days late and with a ferocity that had me hiding #under a blanket and praying for death. fine. postpone one more day #tried to run yesterday and my leggings kept falling down. so much that i rage quit. i think i ran 5 minutes in total #i didn’t even think oh let me get changed and try again. i just decided it was all over for me #postponed until TODAY. the hottest fucking day i have experienced since last summer. fab #tell me why i was 100% in the zone and my neighbour came and BANGED ON THE WINDOW AND SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME #we are all very lucky i didn’t fall off. if she’d caused me to dislocate my knee (my recurring body problem 🙃) i would genuinely have killed #her. she would be an ex-person #and the kicker is ALL SHE WANTED TO KNOW WAS IF I WOULD FEED THE HEDGEHOG AND WATER HER PLANTS WHILE SHE IS GONE #this isn’t a personal pet hedgehog or anything like that mind you. this is a wild hedgehog. it can feed itself #i was like yes of course i will IF you promise me you’ll never surprise a person on a treadmill ever again #she slunk off home like a kicked dog. like i’m sorry but if you don’t want to be yelled at about the consequences of your actions #don’t be a dick #i’d be less mean if she hadn’t witnessed me this time last year hobbling around with a cane #if she didn’t know the absolute MONTHS OF AGONY i went through just to be able to stand long enough to do normal activities like cooking #and showering; i’d be a little more lenient. but woman you can see me running on the treadmill i bought TO TEACH MYSELF TO WALK #WITHOUT A LIMP AGAIN. back in september i was stumbling along on that thing at 2km an hour. do you want me back there?????? #drove me a little insane tbh #anyway i did finish my run. i wouldn’t say it was a GOOD run. almost having a heart attack kind of took me out of the zone #and i never got it back again. count your FUCKING days jean #personal

[windfighter]

I also added another game to our gaming district :3 Those of you who watched the hermzitslympics know what this is!

The redstone underneath it is my own though and I'm very proud of it!

#minecraft #updates from my realm #I want to play this with more people #me and core tried it but I want to do a 2v2 as well #it would be nice with more active players on the realm but it is what it is :3 #anyway this brings our total amount of games up to 4! #and a half if we count the unfinished one that you could technically play but it's lacking the build around it x3 #one day we'll be able to arrange our own olympics!

[lesbianjudasiscariot]

you're really cool & i want to interact more. but i'm terrible at interacting :')

hehe tyty ♡

#ask #nooo you so should!! #i'm bad at it too! #the important thing to remember is that nobody really expects you to be “good” at it ya know #if ya got something to say #say it #if not that's also chill #i think people (me included) get caught up in the idea that socializing is a skill that can be improved #rather than idk a group activity that involves other people? #like it's kinda like that one quote “self-hatred is another form of self-obsession” <total paraphrased that but #in the same vein if you wait to interact with people until YOU have the most perfect script that will theoretically win everyone over #and not make an effort to interact the other 90% of the time then that's gonna hurt more than help both you and others #so just go for it :) #so yeah make the back to the first bit talk if you want don't if you don't #this doesn't count as a response cause its in the tags lol #and sorry for the unasked for advice lol #♡

[weebsinstash]

Sitting here watching that clip of Valentino with that demon girl going "you're gorgeous! Do you need a job? 🥰" and started thinking of Val either intentionally or unintentionally making Reader feel massively insecure and ugly and Val using that to manipulate them

I've mentioned "oh what if your job is serving him drinks at his club" but what if he also starts dragging you along when he goes out like some kind of weird PA. Like he's just throwing random bills at you that he clearly isn't counting like it's pocket change in a very "yeah sure whatever just do it bitch" kind of way so you put up with it, it's good income, but it's still... WEIRD. He's going to get his antenna done at the salon, and you're like. Having to STAND THERE beside his chair, you're not even in the lobby waiting room, you've gotta be WITH HIM, and you just get all these windows into his cunty personality where he's spoiled and mean to service workers and is a total fucking diva and it's extremely off-putting I'm sure

He's in a night club hitting on people whose bodies are absolutely insane like I'm talking GYATT city, ass and titties, you've got twunks and you've got hunks, and you're like, in sneakers, off to the side, head down playing games on your phone since you can't even put earbuds in because you unfortunately have to keep an ear open since he'll order YOU to bring drinks, not just for him, but for these complete strangers who don't even work for him too, AND he'll let them be fucking mean to you. You bring some bubble butt twink who's on Val's arm the daiquiri he asked for and he gives you a very clear look up and down before laughing, cuddling up to Val, "yeah I can SEE you need new employees 😋" and they all laugh Including Fucking Valentino

I dunno, I'm on the fence. It really changes with the story. You get the yandere who are obsessive but more abusive-adjacent and then you have the more true-blooded kind that won't accept any slander of you at all. Like can you imagine Valentino's smile just dropping off his face because some chick like, tells you you have cellulite or even something MILD like your mascara is bad or idk what are, male insults.... you have a flat ass??? And Valentino just instantly shoves them away "okay you're done bye, let the door hit you on the way out 🤭"

But today we're talking about angst and feeling fucking miserable so. Over time it just, makes you feel so horrible about yourself to go to these nightclubs. It isn't even about fucking Valentino, it's about how you're sitting here watching everyone EXCEPT YOU receive all this fawning and compliments and attention, even if Val is faking some of it just to lure in more workers. You see a girl who has the perfect skin and you run fingers over an ice pick scar on your cheek, male reader sees a guy who's tall but muscular with nice facial hair and you feel your own baby face and smaller build, there are people thinner than you, curvier than you, stronger than you, smarter than you, and you watch all of them get called gorgeous and beautiful and handsome and sexy and you're just the fucking dweeb who gets teased, mocked, BULLIED

One night Valentino is sitting there talking to another girl, "oh my gosh, honey, I would TOTALLY do body shots off of you. Hey, can we get some shots over here? .... helllooooo, I SAID can we get some shots? ...bitch if you make me repeat myself again--" and he looks over and you're not even there. It's like ice. Suddenly without warning you're not there and he doesn't know what to do because you're ALWAYS there and whenever you're not it's because he LETS YOU leave??? Like??? He's immediately standing up even if it knocks away the people hanging off of him and he's looking around, "you BETTER be in the fucking bathroom--"

And over the crowd of people he sees you on the opposite end of the club, as if you were actively trying to put as much distance between you two as possible, and you're with a guy, some big furry monster boy, and you laugh with a big smile and Valentino GRINDS his teeth as he realizes it's been ages since you laughed around him, let alone at anything HE'S said, and you're actually drinking with this guy where you would always be way too stiff and cautious around Val (although he also really wouldn't let you drink anyways, being more of a waiter when you're 'on the clock')

Obsessed with the idea of Val making Reader carry around combs and brushes to comb his antenna/fur and Val sees you using them on another guy. like I think he'd go absolutely violently fucking crazy honestly because 1. Those are HIS and he is a bougie Gucci material man like those are high quality things being used on some RANDO 2. Those are for HIM, you're using them on someone ELSE 3. The person using them on someone else is YOU, YOU'RE brushing another man, YOU'RE cuddling another man like some kind of UNGRATEFUL WHORE--

When I say you suddenly look up and you're being GRABBED, HAULED UP to your feet by your arm, grip on you so tight it's ready to fucking bruise, and Val just shoots this guy in the head, like cartoonishly powerful gun just splatters the dudes head from what should have been just a single bullet hole I'm sure. You're like vaguely traumatized and trying to tell yourself the man will regenerate and be fine but now Valentino's got a gun in his hand and he's furious and you just start CRYING. He doesn't even CARE about the people he was flirting with anymore, if he has any employees in the club with him he doesn't even call out that it's time to go, he just starts DRAGGING YOU to the limo and will just LEAVE EVERYONE there because he's in such a rage, also, have you guys seen the posts where people point out there are moth squeaking effects when he speaks sometimes. So he's just fucking mad, voice cracking, shouting, squeaking, and i think it'd be funny if he spends like 15 minutes screaming about THE GUY while he has you like all but glued to his lap on the ride home and doesn't say a single thing about what you did. Just manic ranting on his phone as he HAS to call Vox, "oh my god you wouldn't FUCKING BELIEVE what this piece of shit did in front of me, the ugliest fucking guy I've ever seen was--" and you're like trembling wondering when he's going to pivot and realize like, you were also. Intentionally willingly sitting with that guy.

But he doesn't even like. Acknowledge it that way. He just keeps ranting about the guy touching something that doesn't belong to him, he's gotta replace all his fucking combs now, oh my GOD Vox like SERIOUSLY-- and then it's probably Vox that's like, with a disinterested voice, "sooooo.... WHICH whore did this happen to again???" And Valentino without hesitating just straight up says your name, "the nerdy one, you KNOW which one I'm talking about"

And that's when you just start to blubber cause you're tired and you're tipsy and you're mentally worn down, "oh OF COURSE I'm 'the nerdy one'!! You drag me all over the fucking place and I never get any time to myself and I have to WATCH everyone ELSE have fun, and when I finally find someone who calls ME cute, calls ME pretty, you fucking SHOOT HIM!" and you're just, face in your hands crying and you can't see it as Valentino GRINS like some fucking MONSTER because, "Aw, pobrecita, is that what this is about? You're lonely? ❤️w❤️"

And you're just mad and crying and pouting and you're telling him to go fuck himself and actually starting to get a little mouthy and have an attitude with him and he doesn't even care because how upset you're getting is going right to his head. even if you don't want to, you're jealous of him giving other people attention instead of you, and now he's watching you get all upset and sniffly over it and he's so full of himself, this makes him feel so powerful that he's reduced you to this insecure bawling state, and he's rubbing your shoulders, "awwww, don't cry mami, you should've told me you were wanting some 'attention'"

At this point you could be literally slapping his hands away but he's gonna keep pulling you close to him on purpose and NOW, now he's laying on all the fucking compliments, stroking the tops of your thighs. He knows exactly what scent you're using in your hair. Oh, you're wearing the nail polish you bought during one of your first months here; he's always liked this color on you. He's commenting and bringing up things you didn't expect him to notice let alone remember about you and... you're just so weak to it.... you're lonely... and he's here... and maybe it's the smoke or his cologne or what but he smells so good, he's so close, your head feels a little funny--

The rest of your night blurs together after that, but when you wake up, you're not at your place, or the studio, or anywhere you mildly recognize. You're in a bed way too big for someone your size, and you're especially not used to SOMEONE ELSE BEING IN IT WITH YOU. Val just has you caged in all of his arms and is passed out drooling in a post alcohol, post drug, post fuckathon coma, and you can FEEL in your muscles and in your body that you two were up to some wiiiiiild shit together.

IF you may manage to sneak out of V Tower without being stopped or caught, it won't make hin suddenly forget all the things you told him, or him now knowing how it feels to have your hands on his body, or how it looks to have your big sad wet eyes looking up at him and then sparkling with one of his compliments. Usually he WANTS bitches to be gone when he wakes up but, this time? When those eyes open and you're not there? Instantly feeling rejected, mad, irritated, he can't exactly identify why, he's just MAD you ran off without telling him and he's instantly blowing up your line to figure out where you are, and now you have become a recipient of The Voice-mails

"Heeeeeeey, baby, so, it's so funny but I just woke up and I can't find you in the tower? Did you run off to get breakfast somewhere? You KNOW you shouldn't run off without telling me first; I need you to come on back here ❤️"

"-- so answer your phone you fucking SLUT!! You better not be with another fucking guy, or I swear to fucking GOD--"

"--It just stresses me out that there are so many different kinds of people down here, I worry someone might hurt you, amorcito. I can't help protect you if I'm not there, soooooo, why don't you just, tell me where you are--"

"Is this fucking funny for you, you cunt?! You get all worked up about how PATHETIC AND SAD you are and then leave me? Leave ME? ME?! You're LUCKY i even TOUCHED YOU AT ALL--"

"Heeeeeeey, oh my gosh so this is so funny ummmm, Vox just let me know that Velvette borrowed you for something, soooooooooo, please don't listen to any of those other voicemails, ok? You know how CRAZY you make me, right? Don't forget you have a shift tonight, and if you even think about not showing up, I have some hellhounds that know your scent already and they'll drag you back here by your hair, sooooo, see you later love you byeeeeee ❤️"

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