#i mean active for my brain

[tenrose]

Yes I spent most of my weekend playing DAI but I also found time to go out a bit Saturday without any reason to do so, clean one more little thing in my apartment, found a pet sitter for my holidays. So I say it's an improvement from the "lying in bed all day doom scrolling" usual weekend 🤷

#misc #actually video games just like watching a show #totally count as an active activity for me #i mean active for my brain #most people say watching a show on the sofa is not doing stuff #but they don't know these things require energy #when i say i do nothing the weekend #i really mean I am in my bed on my phone #and feel like shit the sunday at 5pm because i feel guilty #so playing a game does not make me feel guilty #actually i've noticed recently #im more inclined to do things #like cleaning a bit/cooking/taking care of one single task #so after i can play or watch a show without feeling the guilt #truly a massive fucking improvement #im telling you #now that being said i didn't watch poi s5 cause im absolutely fully immersed in dai right now lmao #call that an inability to finish things and focus on more than one activity at a time #brain be overloaded too easily #anyway im kinda happy

[art-soboro]

COME ON, PEOPLE, YOU'RE LETTING ME DOWN

#golden kamuy #gk #ゴールデンカムイ #tsurumi tokushirou #tsukishima hajime #koito otonoshin #usami tokishige #nikaidou kouhei #shoutouts to u/Kai_973 for the proper jp translation of the song's title #and to gglp/som for the wisdom and feedback...... the color scheme really took some Deliberation here but i think i gots it #pairing tsurumi with depeche mode songs has been my favorite brain activity for the last couple weeks or so #this motherfucker would Not mean any of the lyrics but by god would he have fun with them #fanart

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At rest, your lungs wish to deflate, and your ribcage expands outwards.

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Friday the 13th! #This is scientific fact btw! #Ventilation operates through a series of active and passive forces #The active forces being muscular contraction with inhalation and exhalation having their own set of muscles. #but the interesting part is the passive forces at work: #The lungs have a certain level of elasticity to them - meaning the more they expand the more the those elastic forces are functioning- #-to try and return the system to rest (exhalation passive forces). Your diaphragm is the main force - pushing against the lungs at rest. #Your ribcage on the other hand is under a state of being pulled outwards. It *wants* to be as open as possible. #These to contradicting forces create a constant push and pull which assists in the ebb and flow of air. Most significantly with exhalation. #Now that being said - the primary action of inhalation ventilation is through control centers in your brainstem. #If you lose connection to that due to trauma you're going to need ventilation assistance. #Small note: Respiration is the cellular event of chemical exchange in the alveoli. Ventilation is airflow and pressure. #They are both important but also very different things. Sadly used interchangeably. #My anatomy nerd brain is screaming over the inaccurate ribcage...but its...recognizable. I will get it right one day. #Okay nerd rant over (I cut out a lot of stuff about pressure gradients. They are cool. To me.) #This is a redraw of an mspaint doodle I made back in april. I yearn to make the Yiling Laozu eerie as he deserves #Tear that bitch (affectionate) apart! #Been playing around with hatching for a while and its amazing how many styles there are! Not sure I'll stick with this one (but it was fun)

[coquelicoq]

when you're the only person who keeps living through the time loop, the people around you cease to be people and become mere characters. your treatment of them doesn't matter because they're not real and they won't remember. the only way to give anything meaning is to end the loop; their actions don't affect the loop and therefore are meaningless. you're the only one who has the ability to change the future, so anything you do in service of that goal is justified.

but. kim dojka looks at yoo joonghyuk and says no, actually, these characters are people. whether they remember or not is beside the point because they are real right now. and you don't give your life meaning by achieving some accomplishment that retroactively makes everything that came before worth it - you give your life meaning in the living of it.

#'meaning' isn't a reward you get for clearing a scenario...it's something you actively create every day as you make a life #kim dokja: it's WORTH IT! i know it's worth it because we are making it worth it!!!!! #ohhhhh waoaohhohh getting a transmission to my brain...suddenly feeling the urge to rewatch palm springs (2020) #time loop fiction is sooo fucking potent like ok you can read about this person who alone out of everyone has agency #thereby alienating them from all their fellow creatures...but watch out #orv #time travel #agency #existentialism #kdj #yjh #omniscient reader's viewpoint #my posts #f #also the fact that it's kim dokja - the 'reader' - who's creating meaning...sorry excuse me. there is something in my eye. #and this is coming from the guy who is very much committed to reaching the end of the scenarios! that is very much his goal #and what he's working toward. but the meantime is not something to get through. it's life and he's choosing to live it #he's like maybe this is fiction maybe we're all characters but it doesn't matter because the story is real to the people living it #his whole thing is that he refuses the idea that the story is unchangeable. he refuses the lack of agency #he's like well i will just make my own story. i will make my own meaning #and if there's some author out there that i'm the character of well good luck keeping up with me. mwah

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

*Traps howdy in a large plastic jar*

iykyk

#i had to think for a solid minute 'Should I Make This Joke' #yes. the answer is yes. #am i laughing too hard? maybe #i tried to ignore the question but i just... i cant i cant lmfao- #i was almost able to - i imagined gently releasing him #but then laughingstock brain activated and i pictured barnaby holding the jar and. well. again. if you know you know #i will say nothing more on the matter otherwise ill need to give this post the xxx tag #ahbkafjaflnjafnl IM SORRYYYYYY- #i mean uh fuck um #My Most Formal Apologies. #I Will Now Be Exiting Stage Left. #rambles from the bog #throttling myself while wheezing 'this is not that kind of blog this is not that kind of blog-'

[molabuddy]

that star creature species of mine again :] ive decided they can become Big & Strange after a long time

#original characters #original species design #creature design #original creature #artists on tumblr #'adult' here means like . thats the age they stop being actively taken care of by older members #god i have so much in my brain about these guys but i have no idea how to express them #should i make a toyhouse page or similar? should i make a big textpost on here? should i keep it all in my brain until i explode? #idk . you can ask me questions about them tho if you want #star creature species (oc)

[rocksanddeadflowers]

The hyperfixation so strong I had to physically restrain myself from getting this at the thrift store (I would literally never wear this) bc it vaguely reminded me of Marius von Raum

#i mean he wouldn't even SAY that he would actively claim to be a doctor (bc he is one believe him) !!!!!! #but it said doctor and my brain goes (lyf voice) “von raum” #the mechanisms #marius von raum

[junipers-insects]

Are they friends

The

Fell Papyrus and Fell Flowey

Are they

Are they not friends

What is going on here

This is a cry for help

#everytime there's a new news letter I get dizzy because Toby just fed my brain worms and now they're active #Papyrus&Flowey friendship literally means everything to me and I just realised I never thought about them on the context of underfell #I NEED TO KNOW #utmv #undertale #underfell papyrus #papyrus au #papyrus #fell!papyrus #underfell #underfell flowey #fell!flowey #flowey

[ratcandy]

do you think that zote ever gets bullied for having mismatched horns

I guess it would depend on how much symmetry is valued by bugs hDKHSG. which caused me to look things up and find a study that tells me Yes bugs can in fact recognize Symmetry/Asymmetry to some extent if trained to recognize it. So that's neat

ANYWAY your question. I'll go with a Maybe. I'm sure it gets pointed out often enough considering he's one VERY few asymmetrical guys around here. With the only other one coming to mind being Divine due to her mask

But I dunno if it would be as much bullying as it would be "hey why are your horns different sizes? did one break and you couldn't molt a new one properly" and he goes "YES I lost it in a great battle. It was a devastating blow no bug could've seen coming. But I did. Alas. The beast was too quick even for my nimble reflexes. it got a Lucky strike and I earned a heroic scar " or whatever.

i could assume it's commented on to the same extent that like. heterochromia would be commented on. Brain sees asymmetry and goes Woah that's Asymmetry that's Crazy

#again not sure if Bullying would be the term for it #save for like. Kids I guess. but like #I would assume it'd be seen as insensitive to some extent. especially if it is seen as a case of losing a body part #and being unable to do anything about it. but considering it's Horns and theoretically they serve little function outside of #what I can only assume would be mate selection stuff and/or competition #I mean. I dunno!!!!! bully him for being unsexy by Some Bug Out There's standards due to asymmetry. #I'm sure there's something like that out there #I dunno. Many possibilities. Ur activating my bug brain and I don't think you meant to do that. #clamtalk #zote

[cerealmonster15]

rewatched That One Scene to get the Vibes for this. it’s fine. okuyasu just needs 2 have his mind palace moment 😌

ref:

ty @gaminegay​ for sharing the cool pose refs post w/the world ily

[the post in question] [send me some suggestions if u so desire]

#jjba #josuke higashikata #okuyasu nijimura #josuyasu #Cereal tries to draw #ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #jojo jumpscare. angst jumpscare. not the brand of my usual things LOL jksdlfjds #it's ok hes fine he's FIIIIINE im allergic to perma angst #<- watches jojo which is full of perma angst #BUT THIS SCENE ISNT SO #‼️IT'S FINE ‼️ #anyway. i love josuyasu. i miss them i need more of them in my life always and constantly #usually i just copy paste the pose ref in the image but #i didnt feel like it this time bc i been here for like an hour or two LOL #i did not. mean to sit here for this long #i have therapy in da morning i gotta go to BED #ok anyway bye !!!!!!!!!!!! this was fun. i want to do More Of These #i LIKE the selection of poses #brain activated #not now tho it needs to deactivate so i can slep #BYE!!!

[destinationtoast]

Casual friend who teaches theater: So we set the opening to a Peter Gabriel song, and -- Me, derailing the story: Which song? CFWTT: Uhh, not, like, a super well known song... Me: WHICH? CFWTT: Uhh. Did you know that he did the soundtrack for a movie called The Last Temptation of Christ? Me, inside my own head: Oh you mean just the soundtrack that caused me to start talking to my first ever significant other online, because we were both so obsessed with it, and that I therefore later attempted to lose my virginity to? tHAT SOUNDTRACK?? Me, externally: I'm aware

#virginity is a silly construct #I was fairly convinced even at the time #but there was a particular activity I'd been looking forward to that turned out to be infeasible without more supplies and patience #still the music was great and a good time was had by all #:) #peter gabriel #it's a good album (and by good I mean fantastic) #anyway my brain has always been like this #fannish I mean #but whereas once upon a time I would have permanently derailed the story #now I was able to let CFWTT finish without too big of a tangent #op

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future'' #things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol.. #Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

[blinkpen]

i do genuinely miss having anon on bc some of the best "this inspires me to draw something fucking awesome" moments have happened bc of anons and some of the kindest words i've ever received have been from anons but unfortunately too many people wanted to use anonymity to be assholes and this is why we can't have nice things

#sporadic warbling #the bonus layer here is i generally would refuse to even humor messages like that i'd simply block/delete and sleep so much more soundly #knowing whoever set it was probably checking up on my blog like a maniac to see if i responded yet/gave them an opening and then i never do #and due to my memory issues i Literally Forget them unless i actively CTRL+Search my brain for People Being Mean to Me and like #i don't make a habit of running that prompt bc it fucks up your mental state the more you indulge it #so the harassment accomplishes Literally Nothing but ruining other peoples' ability to have as much fun as they used to

[abeterger]

Discord Icon we made for a man that has INVADED OUR BRAIN... Literally. It has been YEARS since we have THOUGHT of this series. Where did he come from. Girl I am possessed by a Ghost now. He has described his own canon to me that loosely follows the actual thing. Girl help. Girl. Can anyone hear me. Hello.

#lord betrayus #pmatga #pacman and the ghostly adventures #or is it. #pac man and the ghostly adventures #or do we HYPHENATE IT IDK MAN ITS 3 AM !!!!!! #my art #system art #anyways he literally just. popped into our brain out of NOWHERE #EVERYONE ELSE WE SPLIT WE GET LIKE. A PATTERN TO IT. WE BRIEFLY THINK ABOUT OR SEE THEM AND THEN WHOOPSIE DAISY THERES AN ALTER #NO!!! THIS GUY JUST APPEARED. THE ONLY OTHER GUY TO DO THIS IS KER.ALIS BUT EVEN THEN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SITUATION AS WE ARE AN ACTIVE FA #anyways expect more art of this guy to be uploaded at some point because I dont think he is going to leave #also this is the one time ever I think we would ask for ppl to refrain from using this as like. a pluralkit or rp icon of any sort #eyestrain #just incase because that backrounds a bit bright #this guy has a whole aesthetic thing for like... weather radars? I mean given he also goes by Tropos and his last name is Spheros I GUESS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i have never felt this uniquely insane about a character <3 i cant get a read on him

#what is his DEAL #im usually really good at pegging a character's intentions / general vibe #BUT IM GETTING SO MANY MIXED SIGNALS THAT I JUST DONT KNOW #his off the charts rizz is fucking up my geiger counter #is he evil? is he a victim? a pawn/minion? does he have good intentions? neutral ones? bad ones? #I CANT TELL #welcome home #wally darling #i mean im team 'wally is a victim just trying to help / protect his friends (maybe the 'viewer')' #and home is maybe the main villian but also not bc the villain is the abstract force of cosmic horror manifesting as the chasm under home #and it has simply infected home or possessed it #and welcome home's whole deal is cosmic horror from a puppet's perspective #and they all need to stick together like glue to get through the Ordeals and Situations #and wally's just trying to keep his friends safe and the neighborhood together and fix home #BUT if it turns out wally is straight up evil then. yknow. i support his wrongs <3 #he could do literally anything and id be twirling my hair cheering and clapping #i love his big hair and gay little outfit #ever since i watched night minds video he hasnt left my brain. i think he's eating it #like i want him dead. i want him to be happy. i want to beat his little body against a wall until his stuffing comes out. i want to hug him #he is everything to me. he activates my maiming instincts but also my cherish instincts #i want him to get all the hugs from his friends #god i cant wait for this whole enchilada to kick off its gonna be a DOOZY #i trust clown's brilliant mind no matter which way they take this #absolutely fascinating stuff. i already know im in this for the long haul

[mokeonn]

I think the most upsetting thing about being a recovering addict is seeing how other people talk about addicts. A vast majority of Americans fucking DESPISE addicts and they are constantly demonized at every turn, God forbid that addict is homeless. It's honestly shocking to see how fast addicts are brought up as a "gotcha" to shoot down arguments for social or housing programs.

Like damn, I'm already dealing with trying not to abuse this substance and getting my life together, which is hard enough on its own, I don't need the knowledge that the average person thinks I am the scum of the Earth. I don't like knowing that if I am ever homeless or in a tough living situation, I will be one of the first people thrown under the bus. I'm already going through enough, I'm already the victim of a very upsetting illness, I don't need to deal with the vile hatred of the average person in my country, too.

#simon says #i wanted to vent because i saw a post talking about 'i would rather help everyone. even addicts too' and I was so upset #like that is such an odd thing to clarify but also they had to because you just KNOW if you dont it'll be assumed they're excluded #or people will write comments wanting to exclude them #and it's so fucking sad and upsetting #ill see posts saying to make things better for homeless people and a majority of the comments are arguing because addicts are mean #'oh they dont wanna get better' if I was homeless my sobriety would be the first thing out the window #it's just so upsetting to see and hear nearly every other day #like im suffering from a mental illness that makes me crave and want to actively abuse substances that harm me #and im the bad guy here??? #im the bad one for destroying my body because my actual brain demands it?? #fuck you.