#today was me just pacing around

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[originalaccountname]

that one interview

#i neeeeeed to see my boys next episode 😭 #today's episode broke something in me #i've been doing great waiting every month for an update but knowing it's one week away #AND 5 DAYS AWAY FOR THE PREVIEW #is making me pace around i can't calm down i'm just aaaaaaa #bsd s5 #apparently i talk sometimes

[ginjithewanderer]

[Tetora Nagumo] What I Like 4☆ — The Back of a Man Among Men

Writer: Nishioka Maiko || Season: Winter Character appearances: Tetora, Arashi

"What about you, Tetora-kun? Have you found anything you like yet?"

Translation under the cut

Tetora: Hmhmhmm…♪ I’m back~

Arashi: Oh? Tetora-kun, welcome back.

Arashi: Are you done with work already? You're back surprisingly early. Didn't you say you might be late? I thought for sure that you wouldn’t be back until late at night.

Tetora: Ossu. That's what I thought, too, but I got done earlier than I expected~

Arashi: I see. Well, I'm glad you got done without any troub—

Arashi: Kyaah!

Tetora: Woah!? Wh-what's wrong? You startled me just yelling all of a sudden, y'know?

Arashi: Tetora-kun, this is bad! Your ear! Your earlobe!

Tetora: Huh?

Arashi: Your earlobe is bleeding!

Tetora: Hm…?

Tetora: Ah, it really is. My piercing hasn't healed all the way yet, so I guess it might be bleeding because my earring got caught on my clothes or something.

Arashi: Uh-uh. You can't just wipe it off so casually like that! What if it gets infected!?

Arashi: Okay. Come here. I'll give you a hot soak.

Tetora: H-'hot soak'…? What's that? It sounds kinda like 'hot soup' in English, so I guess it's something yummy?

Arashi: Nope. A hot soak is when you use warm salt water on the affected area to help it heal better.

Arashi: Piercings are delicate, so you can't use regular disinfectants.

Arashi: Don't worry, this won't hurt. Come on, come here and sit still.

Tetora: Ossu. I'll take you up on that, then.

Arashi: Dab, dab…And, there.

Arashi: Oh? This earring…It's not the one you usually wear, is it?

Tetora: Ah, yeah. Today's work was kinda formal, so I wore this clear one that isn't really visible from a distance.

Tetora: I wonder if this piercing is even worth it for me if it’ll keep getting caught in my clothes~. It probably started bleeding because it got caught on something in a weird way.

Arashi: Hmm, that is strange. I wonder if it keeps getting caught on things because you’re not used to it yet.

Arashi: You can’t take the earring out until it heals up, though, or the hole will close up…

Arashi: I know. How about we go shopping for new ones the next time we’re free? I’ve been meaning to look for some small ones for myself, too.

Arashi: I can recommend you a shop, but would you be okay with that?

Tetora: Oh. Can I? If it’s one you recommend, I wanna go, too!

Arashi: That’s decided, then ♪ Let’s go out the next time we’re free.

Arashi: Kyaah ♪ All of them are so cute. With this many choices, I’ll never be able to decide.

Arashi: Oh, well~. Even though there are so many cute things, I want to save money this month…They’re all so tempting.

Arashi: Ah, I can’t get distracted and have fun on my own like this. I’m not here to shop for myself today.

Arashi: What about you, Tetora-kun? Have you found anything you like yet?

Tetora: U~myu. Let me think…Ah, these are nice and simple.

Tetora: I like this kinda thing, but I don’t know how fashionable they are…

Tetora: I don’t really have much of a fashion sense. That’s why I wanna hear your opinion. What do you think of these?

Arashi: Hey. You don’t need to worry about every little thing like that. After all, the most important part of fashion is wearing what you like!

Arashi: Besides, it’s not like you don’t have a good fashion sense. These earrings are nice, aren’t they? I think they’ll suit you.

Tetora: You think so? If they have your seal of approval, I’ll get them~♪ That said, which ones do you like, Narukami-senpai?

Arashi: Me? Well—

Arashi: I like these, and earrings like these are nice, too…Ah, these! I like these ones. Mmm, it’s too bad I can’t buy them. I’ll have to come back when I have some more money.

Arashi: Oh, well, that’s okay. Our main goal today was to get you some earrings. We did achieve that.

Tetora: Ossu. I’ll go pay for these, then!

Arashi: Okaaay, see you in a bit. I’ll go look around that clothing store over there. Please do call out to me once you’re done.

Arashi: I’m so glad you could find something you like.

Tetora: Ossu! It’s just as I’d expect from a store you like. All the accessories there were designed really well. It was really neat.

Tetora: I wanna go there again. Thank you so much!

Arashi: Hehe. Just hearing you say that makes it feel worth recommending it to you.

Tetora: —Also, here.

Arashi: Huh? What’s this package?

Tetora: It’s thanks for today. I’m sorry it’s so small.

Arashi: Huh!? You don’t need to thank me, though!

Arashi: But…thank you. I’m glad. Is it okay if I open it?

Tetora: Of course!

Arashi: —Oh, my! These are the earrings I liked from that store! When did you…

Tetora: Heheh. I’m not great at giving presents, so I wasn’t sure what would be good enough as thanks, but…

Tetora: Obviously, you’d want to give anyone something they’d like, right? That’s why I didn’t buy anything beforehand. I just quietly did my research and bought these earlier.

Arashi: …You’re amazing, Tetora-kun.

Tetora: Huh? Did you say something, Narukami-senpai?

Tetora: Ah! Are these not good enough as a thank you!?

Arashi: Nope. Not at all. I’m really happy with these. Thank you so much. I’ll treasure them ♪

Tetora: I’m really glad you like them! Let’s go home, then.

Arashi: (Mm~…And I thought you were still just a cute junior. I really look forward to what the future holds for you…♪)

Tetora: ? Narukami-senpai, what’s wrong~? You almost got left behind, y’know~?

Arashi: Yeah, yeah. I’m coming, Tetora-kun!

#so can we talk about the tetonaru dynamic #and more importantly about the name of the story vs the end with arashi looking at tetora's back #the symbolism of it all. expect a ramble on my other blog tomorrow #the moment i read this (earlier today) i knew i had to tl it. my friend and i have 4 hours' worth of messages of us just screaming about it #i had to pace around my room from all the emotions this made me feel #<- most normal tetora fans #enstars #ensemble stars #tetora nagumo #arashi narukami #enstars translation #an's translation

[milkweedman]

Setting up the warp for some towels. Wanted something lower stress to figure out the warping board on, plus my mom is visiting in a couple weeks and ive been promising her more towels for ages now.

Far as i can tell i kind of just need to take this off and start another one whenever the board is full (as it is now). Maybe thats not the right way to do it, but i do not (as of yet) see any downsides to that, so it's what im gonna do. Idk, im used to doing direct warping and just walking the warp.

Warp is all millspun cotton, leftovers from the cotton stripey scarf i did on commission last year.

This is 62 warp ends and i need around 180, so i guess i need 2 more of these.

#gonna try and set it up so that im only using treadles 1 and 4 #have been able to drive on my right foot altho it does suck #but not as much as walking. so i assume trying to walk my feet down the treadles would be bad as well #went to joanns today to just get a tiny bit more of the white yarn for the warp #using my crutches. turns out theyre moving and had already sold out of all the yar #yarn* #but i only got about 10 paces into the door before i realized there was probably not more yarn in the back #and if i had to get myself over there to check id probably break down crying #n then i had to repeat the whole experience at michaels altho at least they did have it #but it is so fucking painful and exhausting to use those crutches #maybe too much to ask for but i should have been given a wheelchair #or something that i can actually move around in without constant gutting agony #aaaaanyway. am back home at least. trying not to move around too much #my foot is barely even bothering me the actual problem is that staying off my foot puts all the strain on my other leg #which absolutely cannot take it #but it means at least that if im stationary its not so bad #weaving

[thestalwartheart]

the spaceship

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Relationships: James Bond/Q Additional Tags: Fluff and Angst, Domestic, Developing Relationship, Q's cats, Happy Ending Summary:

Owner calls the nest I am sitting in The Spaceship. --- The best view in Q's house is from the cat tree.

[Read on AO3]

#007 fest 2023 #teambondvillains #00q #james bond #i know i know i'm bombarding you all today #this won't be the pace every day of july lol i promise #i'm just excited today and my brain is going SHOW THEM THINGS #also i'm actually around to interact! #going on holiday next week and might not be around as much #anyway look at me justifying being cringe and doing the thing i love - i'll shut up now

[astranauticus]

todays orv mood: standing at the water dispenser under my dorm building waiting for my instant noodles to cook just pacing in circles and swearing

#orv liveblog #should i tag spoilers for like. ramble in tags?? #ok i'll do it just to be safe #orv spoilers #idk in case my webtoon only irl friend suddenly decides to log back into her tumblr after 3 years #context chapter 311/46th scenario #ok theres a lot going on here #first off 1863th round yjh is a character made to haunt me specifically so when the name hell of eternity came up wow i was feeling like #500 emotions at once and none of them were good #second i saw someone on lofter say today that most of the talking kdj and yjh do in this book is through fights and just #LIKE I JUST. cannot get over how our perspective of their relationship is just always being filtered through these two people #who are just fuckin INCAPABLE of TALKING ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS like NORMAL PEOPLE #like it drives me so insane that this book is so show dont tell by necessity bc kdj is a fucking moron so we just get these #insanity inducing details like yjh paying to extend his midday rendezvous with kdj for 3 years and just using it as a personal journal #and then you get past all the fuckin. the two of them beating the shit out of each other by way of communicating and its like #'i want to lock you up so you'll stop dying because im scared im not strong enough to be able to stop you and we cant lose you again' LIKE? #SIR WHAT??????? HELLO?????????????? #also the line that made me start pacing in circles around the water cooler while swearing in mandarin was specifically #'i couldn't be the protagonist. i couldn't save someone else' #says the DEMON KING OF SALVATION. like damn its 'sacrifice's will is a stigma that didn't really suit me' all over again #like i love that kdj has the nerve to be like 'of course i dont want to die' and yjh just absolutely does not buy it for a second #god. i want to hit him on the head with a brick.

[sysig]

Haven’t seen you around these parts (Patreon)

#Doodles #Deltarune #Rouxls Kaard #Pink Addison #Blue Addison #I feel like it might be a bit out there to say that Rouxls Kaard and the Addisons are equivalents to their respective chapters but like #Hear me out for like half a second lol #Handsome masc salespeople with an interesting relationship to the Secret Boss - yes I fully admit to being No Suit trash lol #I know you can't buy from the Addisons in the same way - like they don't get the vendor close up but they're Super trying to sell you stuff #I'm just saying there are enough similarities to justify mushing my previous fave with my current - faves I guess lol #They're all very Design y'know how it is - I think I still love Rouxls more but he's more difficult to draw so it's getting harder to tell! #It's all Blue's fault anyway lol as soon as I started drawing Rouxls again I had to have them meet somehow - he's literally in Chapter 2! #Why not wandering around lost lol #Me? Projecting onto my current fixations?? Psh no - they think he's handsome totally irrespective of me definitely lol #He is handsome ♥ If they happen to notice well what's the harm in that lol #The pirate hat is very goofy but I forgot about the eye patch :( It's also quite a handsome accessory! #You'll never get any sales if you get flustered by handsome customers! Very unprofessional! #Pink recovers but poor Blue lol - gotta be aggressive in today's fast paced market! #I do love the idea of the Premium Travel Package just being a map lol - ''You can find your way there'' thanks Pink #I am very pleased with that last panel haha they all turned out so cute! Poses and legs and expressions ah! Fun! #Maybe once he turns them down they can talk shop lol - literally

[brittlebutch]

ok. we are now over 40k words and wrapping up the final draft. i think the first chapter will get posted on sunday :3c

#N posts stuff #my sense of the week is All fucked up bc my manager has been scheduling me So odd lately i keep thinking it's already like. thursday RIP #so take Sunday with a loose grain of salt - it's just the first day i'll have a day off so it's a good anchorpoint; but it could be earlier #today at some point around work i'm going to sit down and read the entire thing start to end #and take notes on anything that bugs me - pacing; accidentally dropped imagery/themes; etc #and then Tomorrow i'm going to sit down and go through and fix it all according to those notes #i'm not anticipating that taking a long time thankfully; if i hit a good stride it could easy be done pretty quick #but my saturday shift is causing a lot of stress so i'm trying to plan for if that fucks up my flow - hence why i think sunday at the lates #and then i'm thinking i might keep an 'every three days' posting schedule; seems fitting lol #bleed more fic

[rrandomtthings]

Just finished rewatching Opla ep 2 & is it a hot take to say I liked Orange Town more in the la than in the animanga

#I feel the same exact way ab syrup village too #like I was just rewatching orange town in the anime earlier today #& just …… this is so good #the pacing of the episode ?????? the acting from not only buggy but also luffy ??????? #not to mention Shanks & Luffy ??? #10/10 episode . I genuinely forgot I was watching an adaptation at some point #just … the first time around I knew it was good #but being able to rewatch it allows me to appreciate it so much more #one piece #opla spoilers #one piece live action

[lixbf]

insane that i was only awake to receive this phone call by pure chance but now i'll be entering the life of an employed person this year

#im so fucking excited holy fuck #but rly im only awake rn bc i stayed up until like 9am on sunday and then decided to go to bed directly after dinner bc i was tired #so then i woke up at like 2am today and ive been awake since then vjdvcksvcksbxnsb #man if i had decided to get out of bed later this phone call couldve come in while i was still taking a shower..... #but seriously i was just chilling in my room eating breakfast listening to mitski and rereading a fanfic i remembered abt yesterday #when i suddenly get a phone call and like i do Not pick up phone calls 9 times out of 10 #but then i saw that it came from the city where my job would be and so i decided okay fuck it #and!!!!!! #i have no fucking words so like just imagine me giggling and pacing around ok

[klonoadoortophantomile]

why does school actuallymake me feel like im going crazy this shit is not that difficult

#okayprobably isnt helping that i havebt been eating very well lately but #💔 #ACTUALLY WHAT IS WRONG W ME HELP #<- read that in a comedic tone . like im just kinda baffled at this point #will i change my behavior? work to improve myself ? probably not #god i did literally nothing today i have a million overdue assignnts #i shouldve been working on. i didnt even do anything for fun ive just sat in my room watched a letsplay episode and thought abt #getting things done. i was pacing around in circles for like literally an hourjudt now my feet hurt so bad what the fuck #this is incrediblly disjointed sorry. im literally just ramvling to complain #i need to start keeping a diary or some shit . if only writing didnt hurt my hand so much #whatevrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ill get over this probably im just going thru it for some reason #inqusitivewaltz.txt #vent #tagging for filtering purposes this is kinda just me oversharing vaguely. idk

[jesterwriting]

32, 34, 50 for the asks!

Song which makes you productive?

around the world (la la la la la) by a touch of class was my top song on spotify last year because i would write like 4k words daily while listening to it. i use this songs powers sparingly.

A song that hits different?

first one off the top of my head? womanizer by britney spears. best song ever, ez pz. everytime i listen to it britney herself materializes in my home and clocks me over the head with a metal chair.

How frequently do you listen to music?

SO MUCH BRO. so basically i daydream almost constantly and when i do, i pace up and down the main hall of my house for hours. and i mean HOURS just listening to music and daydreaming. whenever i write, i have music on. whenever i read, i have music on. sometimes i just have it on WHILE i have a whole separate thing on the tv because im understimulated and need More Noise. i always always got some tunes on.

#.jesterasks #my maladaptive daydreaming slay #also pacing is one of if not THE stim of all time whenever i get excited i go for a walk #if you ever see me in the tags like THIS MADE ME RUN AROUND i am being so serious about it #i walked like 16k steps the other day just inside. lemme check today #im only at 5k today but its been a slow brain day for me

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[peapod20001]

I wonder how many times I’ve googled whether I’m having a panic attack or an anxiety attack...

#vent #hohohahhaoho anyways #I am sooooo bad responding to things.... #anyways I’m literally less than five seconds my heartbeat shot up to 144 bpm so. fun <3 my lucky number 44 wouldn’t have it any other way #anyways I need to cry but I can’t cry so you understand. I’m pacing my room and standing with locked knees #and trying not to fumble or bump into things while makin my sister a snack while smilin and being normal <3 #do u understand. ough what is with TODAY whhhhh. is it the aderall?? did the adderall fuck me up today?? or ?? wha?? #oghghgg why am I so sweaty JUST in my pits like that’s the WORST spot to be sweaty in #kitty is here <3 she can sense when I’m crazy 🤪🤪 #I’m at 160 now <3 ogohohoo ahhhhh I can’t lay down right like that the one thing you shouldn’t do with a fast heart rate #hoho anyways the crippling fear of not being who I need to be for the people I need in order to be #sounds chaotic and strange cus of phrasing but. you understand #anyways my heart doesn’t even get like this when I’m like. performing a full page monologue in front of my peers #I can pretend to be a cat for a minute and a half and tell the dog to stay in their place and not get into mine #uhmmm yea idk I want people to feel comfortable being serious around me and prove I’m the friend to go to for things or be the one who under #understands. but I always feel like. a pariah. is that the word? idk. when I feel confronted with things all I can do is like. run away. cry #suffer alone cus it’s what I deserve. yeaaaa I’m going insane can you tell I think this is the first time since like. February where I feeL #SO bad ugh idk what. I did this to myself the fuck?? haha. hope it doesn’t stress me to hair loss and skin picking and disorderd eating and #bad (or should I say worse HA) sleep habits. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm sorry my problems are minuscule to others and I haven’t had a day of #any real discrimination or struggle in my life #i have everything I need. all I have to worry about is doing class work and attending lectures and watching plays. I don’t have to get thing #a myself or worry about food or a place to live. wooofff uhmmm. I wish I had someone here to squeeze me until I don’t feel like crying any #more. oh I feel so bad what the hell. and my nail is breaking ahahaha imagine. a life where my biggest problem I have to face is #a nail breaking mhmhmhaha #haha when you hold in your tears so hard your nose drenches your chin. sorry that’s gross ahaha idk what I’m doing flooding your dash with. #whatever this is. I’ll try to stop now. sorry

[daz4i]

girl i should kms just to spare the world from my brain. not bc it's hurting others or smth but bc it's literally so shitty that it actively makes the world worse

#so I'm still awake 😭😭😭😭 bc i literally can't calm down enough to fall asleep 😭😭😭😭 every time i do i get a spike of adrenaline ig. #took a clonazepam but now I'm mad at myself bc i should've done that 4 hours ago #yknow since i went on these pills i tried to maintain a relatively steady sleep schedule so i can take them around the same time #but today is out to fuck it up 🤪 bc i can't fucking sleep #it's been awhile since i was up for like 20 hours in a row. def before i got on these so at least 2 months #I'm stressed bc that means I'm gonna be late with them too and idk when I'll be able to get my shot at this pace #(bc seeing how fucked up i am today i doubt I'll be able to fix things for tomorrow) #and this stress is just. making me more awake. i hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #this is my villain origin story i don't need to fall into toxic chemicals or w/e to become fucked up my brain has enough of those #vent #sorry. will delete this eventually i hope #straight up crying from frustration akskflglhh god i want to fucking die

[weenhands]

.

#kinda gross bc im gonna talk about my period #<- had mine waking up today #ive never had cramps this brutal in idk how many years oh my god #good thing im alone so i can like. make audible noises of pain and stuff #i kept pacing around my house in pain #and vomit warning but i havent puked in more than five years bc it freaks me out and i Did today bc #the pain was so bad my body wanted to feel like it was rejecting jt #and ghen my nose started burning #but now its better #and instead of sleeping in my bedroom im sleeping .... in the living room bc i was pacing from so much pain #and i just had to sleep #i need a new mattress since the couch is more comfy #but jesus fucking christ this was Late arriving and extremely painful and i havent vomited in a long time and i was scared to choke 😐 #anyways i just woke up idk im fine now