#today just sucks for news lol

[vannscooter]

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#today just sucks for news lol #like i'm still gonna see the mcu stuff he's in (bc lbr i doubt he's lost a job) #but i'm not gonna watch anything he solos in beyond that #but what a (n alleged) fucker #keep your expectations for all celebs LOW folks #don't put anyone on a pedestal #assume theyre assholes until proven otherwise tbh #i'm just so sad. if it's not true then i hope to GOD they figure out how to clear him swiftly but #i hope ... she recuperates fast #OOC. #domestic violence //

[bmpmp3]

man in his mid 20s who says tee hee

#art #traditional art #watercolour #oc art #ocs #oc group: lia crystal darling #oc: bibi #I DREW THIS a while back u can see the date in the corner LOL but i didnt scan it because it was like #a tiny little drawing from a tiny little watercolour paper pad and i. lost it JHKDSDds i forgot i had it #BUT I FOUND IT AGAIN so i scanned it finally ~ #today i had a slightly wretched critique in one of my classes. kinda incomprehensible. oddly harsh with very little actionable advice #i think ive been really lucky in school with critiques at least post secondarily. most have been very useful and fun and interesting #even if i dont find all the advice useful usually i can at least glean something like a communication issue or something im having #but this one was wack as FUCK only advice i got was basicaly all the work u did sucked u should just redraw year old unrelated work instead #my professor seems to think im on the right track tho i think it was just the TAs who came out the gate swinging LOL #theyre like my age so maybe theyre just overwhelmed about trying to lead a critique like this i think theyre new at it #so i'll try not to be too discouraged but MAN.... so now. i need to post drawings of my anime boys to bring me back down to earth #look at my anime boy. he even has hair covering one eye <3

[lacomandante]

GAH sorry for being AWOL I promise I'm still here I've just got lots of exciting news!!

Assumpta asked me to stay for a month with her to help finish organizing and scanning her archive!!! I'll be there from late March-late April

After buying my ticket Assumpta then asked me to stay longer bc she wants to take me to Gerona with her!!!!! Thank god I bought a flexible ticket but girl could you not have planned that before

Jason Salkey and I have been talking and in the near future I may very well be meeting up with and helping him with his Sharpe archive (SCREAMING)

If I do end up staying longer in Spain, there's a huge reenactment ball for the Victory of 1812 (when Madrid was liberated). I've been invited to go but have nothing to wear and have been frantically sewing this past week for something to at least wear on the off chance I do get to go

Also I have a ton of Sharpe artwork I've been working on but all this news effectively made me pause, at least until I get some sewing done LOL

Thank you for bearing with me ilu all and I will try and be more active on the dash I am just frantically trying to get as much done as possible!!

#;ooc #(just call me the sharpe archivist) #(i'm here to preserve everything. but mostly photos of assumpta LOL) #(i have been doing so much sewing and learning new things) #(suck at buttonholes but at least i'm done for now) #(i should be done with my chemise and petticoat today)

[oscill4te]

wet socks/clothes is the worst feeling in the world. I love the rain and all but this is 😬.....

#im so tempted on my break to buy new socks but that also feels so wasteful. i really dont need socks. i should start packing a spare #like in my work backpack #my umbrella sucks too..... it barely does any coverage for the days where it POURS #its fine for mild rain but it was pourrrringgg today #my shoes unforunately arent water proof but they r special shoes for nerve issues #so im scared to try a new pair of water proof ones. i hate feeling like theres a knife being driven into my big toe #i wish they were waterproof tho. fuck. #i just hand washed them to and they r soaking lol

[nighthawkes]

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#I am having such a bad time at work today it’s unreal #I fucking crashed on Friday afternoon and it’s been ebbs and flows of just trying to manage my stress and disappointment #and layer it with having fun #I do not think the emotional vulnerability I gave into this weekend helped lol #I’m ​not a crier but I’m literally tearing up at my desk rn bc somebody reacted poorly to a mistake I made that was really stupid #it’s not even life or death it was just dumb and embarrassing #I want to say I feel stuck or hopeless or anything but I mostly just want this to be over #I want to not have this job and I feel so up against a wall with wanting to search for a new one #this sucks so bad

[arolesbianism]

Sier? I haven’t even met her! Laugh.

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #eternal gales #today has been a shit day but Im feeling a bit better now that I’ve drawn sier #long story short one of my friends is being harassed by their ex #so I’ve been in a blinding rage all day and combined with me not getting enough sleep and cleaning all day today quite sucked #but hey. I drew sier and made them a new mini ref so that’s gotta count for something #but yeah sier my beloved I’ve been thinking abt them all day they’re just so cute and I love drawing them #I forgive them for being a human character they’re silly and have shapes #I now have only 4 eg refs to go I think? which is honestly a lot closer than I thought I was I thought this was gonna be another year of #last minute refs for artfight and some that don’t get remade but honestly this is super doable #rly the only big problem is going to be fydd since it’s been so long since I’ve drawn him properly #the other three are just dodie tali and bloom which shouldn’t be too bad at all #now idk if the icons are happening but it’s definitely feeling a lot more doable now so idk maybe I’ll get to some of them #key word maybe I make no promises #thankfully I don’t rly have any other ocs that I feel pressed to make new refs for so I can take it easy leading up to artfight this year #I’d like to get some of them icons but that’s not necessary #hopefully sier will get drawn this year she hasn’t been attacked since her old design from years ago lol #but sier is also a character I’ve gotten other pieces of art of over the years so I won’t be heartbroken if they keep getting ignored lol #I don’t rly know who I’d like to see attacked most tbh #obviously I’m always happy to see art of any of my ocs but usually I do have a preference #so Im excited to see who gets attacked even if it’s only a few of them #I’m willing to bet teke will get at least one attack I believe in him #hopefully teka gets drawn too I love her dearly as well #anyways shower time and then sleep time gn gamers

[anxiously-sidequesting]

How much have you spent on w101? Because BROOO I'm embarrassed of how many crowns I've bought 😭😭😭

Listen my brother you are NOT alone 😭😭😭😭 my wizard hyperfixation has cost me well into the hundreds. I haven't been counting so I don't know the numbers specifically but I literally wasted all my allowances and birthday money on Wizard101 when I was younger and everyday I want to kick myself in the ass for it

#i could have used that money for OTHER THINGS. LIKE OTHER GAMES /j #i remember how many crowns i spent on the hydra pack bc the hydra mount was my dream. (shudders) #i always bought the 13 thousand crown pack and that was like 20 dollars? which was my allowance back then #and sometimes i saved up to get the next crown tier which i forgot was like maybe 50 dollars? i did this for months #i wasted so much fucking monry on the hydra ALONE #and then there was the baba yaga house mount....... which i still never got #and who can forget the gamestop wizard bundles??? the ones that cost like 30 dollars each???????????????? #i got.... too many of those #and then my dumb fucking dummy dumbass would basically just recycle the items from the bundles i didnt want- #so THAT was basically an even MORE colossal waste of money #this is why im broke today. this is why. #also contributed to me not playing w101 anymore its too expensive LOL #you cant do shit without membership and basically everything new costs crowns so #this isnt like a new thing to say but being a f2p in wizard101 sucks ass #ANYWAYS. yeah i sold my firstborn for wizard101 /j #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #asks #bubba609

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[theygender]

Man getting old sucks. You finally get to the point where you want to do shit like deep clean the bathroom and you're looking forward to the day when you'll finally have time to get it done and then once you do finally get a chance to do it you throw your back out cleaning the tub. A cruel irony from whoever is in charge of my spine

#i got this new scrubber brush set and i was SO excited to use it #it has three detachable brush heads. one thats bristled for getting in between grout/cracks #one thats kinda like a scouring pad for cleaning off soap scum #and one thats just a regular sponge for polishing the shiny bits #it finally came in and i was rly excited to get to use it but i just had to wait until i had time #finally had time this weekend and i had a fucking BLAST. our tub/shower has probably never been so clean #im really glad i got to do that and i feel really proud of how good it looks #but now this morning i woke up with severe back pain and ibuprofen is only helping slightly ;-; #almost called in to work it was so bad but i think i can sit at my desk with a heating pad #ive got a chiropractor appointment today tho (had to reschedule my last one) so hopefully thatll help #just sucks that now that i finally WANT to clean my body can no longer handle it as well lol... #start out being able to clean but not wanting to and end up wanting to clean but not being able to 😔 #rambling

[stonerzelda]

it would be kind of funny if the reason i do get fired which i keep irrationally thinking is going to happen to me is if they see all my blog posts about work. Idk what id do if my boss asked to talk to me and showed me the picture i took of my failed training exam with the cats ass puckered up

[robyn-goodfellowe]

my brothers birthday today

#i miss him so much man #gunna visit him today… bring him a nice bouquet and some stuff for his grave #there’s a chance we might run into his sister (not mine) and im not sure if i can handle that today 😅 #it just kind of sucks #we can’t leave a lot of stuff for him because it’s in a shitty area #so it’s like… everything gets stolen #they fucking stole the vase from his grave like 3 different times it makes me so angry #but yeah #that’s it for today #looking forward to seeing him i have a lot i want to tell him #delete later #death mention #new goodfellowe family tragedy lore just dropped lol

[widevibratobitch]

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#coming to tumblr for the first time in three days just to bitch because i feel like shit <333 #sorry if i havent responded to your message i will as soon as i get a grip but rn im just too busy #both with uni and with crying because a friend said a mean thing to me lol #and because im tired of this new friendship already and tired of hearing this girl talking how great she is lol #am i jealous? fuck yeah i am. #and it's not like she's mean like straight up. cause like. #when i say im really considering quitting and dropping out she tries to encourage me ig #but then she follows it up with 'ofc *I* never had a problem with this and that because it always just came naturally to me teehee #but yknow. dont give up uwu' #and she keeps sending me recordings of her singing to tell her how good she is and always tells me how her teacher praises her #and like. its cool. like i get it that its a nice feeling when you do something well and wanna share that joy with a friend #but idk. i just think its kinda. well not mean but a litt #*a little tone deaf? when ive just been telling her that im in a Bad Place rn and my voice isnt working as it should #and my pianist is bullying me and i end up crying on almost every lesson #and she hits me with a 'damn that sucks fuck that pianist dont give up tho <3 #now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?' #also when i tell her that im sorry that im not very social and i just cannot stay and chat cause im having a horrible day today #and really dont feel well and she's like 'yeah i havent noticed anything you're always like that... *side eye*' in a way that suggests #im a horrible friend cause im not talking with her enough and yet again im disappointing her (aint that familiar lol) #i just. idk. the last two-three weeks have been absolutely horrible to me. i cant get out of bed i havent done a single colorful make up #in so long ive basically forgotten how to do that. and i loved doing fun make up looks that make people tell me i look like a clown. #but i just dont have the energy to do anything more than put on a random tshirt and spray dry shampoo on my unwashed hair #i dont even wear my rings anymore. ive stopped caring about being the pinkest slayest queerest looking bitch in the room cause i just. cant #and even some casual friend of mine asked me yesterday if im okay cause they can see something is Not Right. but SHE not only doesnt notice #anything. i have a feeling she feels like im disappoing and neglecting her because i cant be bothered to text with her 24/7 #like idk. maybe its just my imagination but i barely even feel like an actual person. more like just a homunculus made to trail after her #and listen to her bragging about how pretty/talented/unbothered she is #oh and also for her to keep dissing m/ozart lol like idk why it hurts me so bad but then ig its not that unusual to feel shitty #when someone keeps talking shit about something you really love and are passionate about and making you feel like an idiot #because you like it. because its stupid and boring and you're a simpleton for enjoying it instead of liking sth more 'ambitious'

[ask-artsy-oncie]

I think it's worth noting that I have, indeed, sunk a considerable amount of hours into ACNH...

... but do you know how badly you have to fuck up where I'd still rather play an older entry in your series, even when this newest game is the only one that let's you cook?????

#If you put cooking in any game its automatically what I will spend the most time doing #But even ACNH just doesn't have enough substance otherwise #God it is *beautiful* and has the best museum to date #But everyone on my fucking island is braindead and the single player experience feels so devoid of sentiment #Which is the BIGGEST THEME OF THE SERIES??? #And the soundtrack fucking sucks too #Uuuuhhhhgghhhghhh... #Anyways I'll probably start a new og animal crossing save today lol #Stupid shit

[todayisafridaynight]

GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3

ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie

Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3

Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3

AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….

OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..

#snap chats #cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3 #anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda #A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM. #HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD #WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER. #I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET #its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT #$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this #at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig… #STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20 #NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on. #at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy… #was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester #and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’ #and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name…. #the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve #today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today… #i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5 #plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO #anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴 #this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3

[orcelito]

Feeling some buyers remorse for buying 2 shelves yesterday online. But it's getting eclipsed by the excitement of thinking about where I'm gonna put them and rearranging my apartment a little bit

Is this what it's like to be an adult? Lol

#speculation nation #work sucked today but in brighter moments ive just been buzzing in excitement about furniture #i bought some storage shelves and then a bookshelf #im gonna put the storage shelves at the far side of my living room & put as many of my boxes as i can fit on it #removing Box Island from the center of my living room lol #i wanna also sort thru the boxes to figure out what things would be considered permanent storage (archival things) #which would be priority placed on the storage shelves #and then figure out what boxes i would potentially want to unpack in the coming months. to keep in easier to access locations. #yes ive been living here for 2+ years and yes ive only got like half my shit unpacked. such is life. #for my new bookshelf i wanna do a little more rearranging #the cats' fancy litter box is in the little hallway leading into the bathroom #placed there bc it was the easiest to access outlet for the self cleaning litter box #but it's chunky and gets in the way and with the non clumping litter those things are like fucking legos on the floor #crunch crunch crunch under my slippers. id like the litter box more out of the way. #so im gonna put it in the cat area of the living room. rearranging some stuff over there to make it fit. #and then where it is rn in the hallway. im gonna put my new bookshelf. #i dont know what books im gonna put on it yet. probably my less personal books. probably no manga. #im supposed to get a bookshelf from my dad sometime that's bigger than both my current and my new bookshelf #and im gonna put it in my room. clear the space behind my TV. and Theres where i wanna put out all my manga thats been in storage #idk. shelves!!! potential!!!! its all so exciting. #nothing like new furniture to make me feel like im gonna try to get my life back in order. #and Honestly having the living room suddenly so much cleaner has been... nice. #im gonna work on cleaning my room soon. it is Long overdue.

[steamedeggs]

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#i feel like im constantly always like 'i just need to get through [insert thing i've been dreading]- #-then i'll be able to live my life and feel okay' #but then once i get there there always a new fucking thing that im dreading that i have to deal with and it just repeats #and living life like this kinda really fucking sucks lol #sigh i just wish the good moments didnt feel so fleeting compared to the bad ones #oh i just noticed its mid autumn festival today #me offering nothing but my melancholy ass thoughts on mid autumn festival lmao #anyway happy mid autumn if you celebrate🌕