#this year will be rough but at least I have my writing :)))

[can-of-slorgs]

Final surprise boop attack for @yowassupitsred!!

Faeran would 100% be really obnoxious about Calamari, and would intentionally make others appreciate her boopings haha.

(Secret second boop attack to @starbiology in revenge to the april fools war because even though i didn't know if you had any characters, I think of her as your character by this point and I found this scenario hilarious in my mind)

#neopets #neotag #gelert #vin doods #vin memes #technically at least JKSHSJ #I'm so sorry for the late response!! I didn't want to basically leave u on nothing and I had had this sketch saved for a week by this point #nice gelert my dood had some fun drawing him hahaha #it was only appropiate to draw Faeran for this case #also yeah i just found out Schnellys are cross eyed forever its just a characteristic for them #anyways its very late for me i had a really rough day at the lab lmao #my back hurts so much but i needed to come home and finish this or i'd have gone mad by how late im doing this #also Star Im sorry if i drew her completely off i haven't practice humans in a while D: #ur blog was a great reference on how to draw her when canon images are just... yeah #also idk why i drew my dog so little he's not that short but oh well #she's on a pedestal idk #ok too much rambling i should probably stop writing so much on tags #but year that's just about it hope u like the images!! the boop war was really fun and i just needed to draw something to save that moment

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah, now that october is octover i can queue up a backlog of all the scribbles ive. uh. scribbed over the last month or so

#there were a couple baseless-panic-filled nights in there where i filled the hours with frantic doodling #break month over! lets see if brain takes the bait! #pspspspspsps heyyyy art motivation cmere pspspspspsps #perhaps more dragons will be in this month! #OH FUCK NEVERMIND ITS NANOWRIMO AND IM DETERMINED TO PARTICIPATE #im pretty deadset on actually doing it this year! #i have a partially done outline and everything! #fuck art all my homies hate art. writing is my best friend now #absolutely unprompted #cmoonnnnn roughest rough draft lets see if i can Get You Done! #or at least mostly done! 50k is a lot of words! #but i like to ramble and that carries over into my writing unfortunately #i dont know when to shut up... #i have 17 posts queued!

[kj-munch]

new pfp new mee babyyy trying to remind myself that this is MY account i can do what i want with it . disconnecting myself from the madcom theme, ill still be drawing it ofc but like i mentioned on another post a weekish back i want to allow myself to post non madcom art too. hoping to start drawing more frequently again soon

#scraps #this sona doodle is teeny but cute #also ive had this signature design in mind for a while now just never a real excuse to use it #but here we go now YIPPEE #also unpinned my intro post bc i genuinely dont feel like the person who wrote that anymore #these last couple years have changed me and im still in a pretty rough patch rn but as of writing this rn i at least feel more like a real #person again hence why im trying to take the reins on this acc back after just kind of decaying for a while #no new pinned yet just because im not really sure what to put in it? #besides like. name age pronouns. which ill just put in my bio at that point #while im already rambling ill mention i still have those reqs i asked for a few days ago in mind im just slow getting to them #umm what else. fun fact for anyone still reading its 4:30 am here rn as im writing #gonna queue thissssss now

[mainfaggot]

guys i think I found something that makes me want to kill myself LESS oh my god

#im acting like this is some grand revelation but get this: literature #i used to read/write/analyze/study various languages so intensely in hs but by the time i hit 17 i was so mentally ill i couldn't do #anything but stay in my bed and house in general i was like so horribly suicidal until march 2022 .. #anyway enough back story like last year was rough too i was suicidal during most of winter and spring too.. #but. #two semesters of advanced spanish. a lot of forcing myself out of my comfort zone later. still reeling from feeling idiotic and undeserving #of opportunities and praise. i have realised. i quite like this in comparison to everything else #am i still dealing with major depression? yeah. and the anxiety and the other thing too but its more bearable for the 80 minutes #im in Spanish class dissecting sentence structure and analyzing literary devices #so yeah. i had a good class today! highlight of my day was the morning lol #i fear for the rest of the day going to shit but its okay. at least i had a good hour so far today. a whole hour and thirty minutes!!!! #my spanksh professors have been so nice and cool i really wish them all the best #*spanish #¡Viva Latinoamérica! fr fr #z.post

[backhurtyy]

it should be illegal for me (fine arts student) to have to write a scientific paper. i have no clue what i’m doing

#i haven’t written like this in like. four years #and i wasn’t good at it then either #i also left it for two days before it’s due. which isn’t helping #at least it’s just a rough draft!!! it doesn’t need to be perfect!!! #…doesn’t make writing it any easier though #i have a half assed introduction and my methods. and that’s it. #they do be rambling

[snaillamp]

This next chapter of WHCK is gonna be so brutal ahdkgskake I’m so excited to publish it tomorrow :D

It’s so good to be doing Keh-yah stuff again I’ve been neglecting him and Enjar tbh, I just was really struggling with Keh-yah’s story and now I’m actually somewhere I wanna be.

Poor Nathaniel with his religious guilt, don’t worry it’ll be a happy ending for him, just not how you think! >:)

#snaillamp #not whump #I’m just happy to be writing this again!!!! :D #Enjar stuff is being worked on too I’m on a roll rn :))) #there’s even Cody and Cameron stuff in the works :))) #I’m so happy I’m writing again afte r the last few months of nothing :D I’ve just been so stressed dealing with personal stuff #and car accident stuff that I’ve just been drained #and also depressing stuff happening irl makes me wanna write whump less so yay that I’m at least doing better :D #this year will be rough but at least I have my writing :)))

[tovaicas]

I literally can't believe you do not get a one-on-one section or conversation with estinien until the VERY END OF THE GODDAMN EXPAC

#saint.txt #spoilers #major spoilers #estinienposting #YOU KNOW? THE NEWEST GUY HERE WE KNOW THE LEAST? #WHO'S CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT HAPPENED OFFSCREEN? #DEVELOPMENT THAT HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED HIM AS A PERSON SO WE CAN'T COAST OFF HIS HW CHARACTERIZATION? #WHO NEEDED THE MOST HELP BC OF HIS INHERITED WRITING PROBLEMS FROM HW? #(yes I know they wrote a short story abt him. my rule is that I am fairly harsh on important character details and lore that is not #communicated in the primary medium. ie. if I have to go somewhere else to learn core character lore it should be in-game.) #but no. he's just here to be vr.tra's hype man. and I like vr.tra but goddamn. #like no wonder he feels like a side character just tacked onto the scions bc he's consistently treated as one by both them and the narrativ #and nothing is ever really done with that bc it COULD be a genuine conversation on the insularity of the scions and their work #and his perspective as an outsider with a completely different background and history and experiences could be a genuinely interesting #addition to the group dynamic as a shakeup but no!!! he's just here to be funny bc man stupid and nothing else happens!!! #he could comment on how genuinely uncomfortable his joining was (where he was basically press-ganged into it) and how he's been treated #re: the failure to keep him in the loop and the rough way he slots into the group dynamic and the pure fact that he is an outsider #to a years-long established group of friends and unintentionally or otherwise treated as an intruder / obviously doesn't feel comfortable #hanging out with his colleagues bc he passes up every opportunity to do so and how his position here is still 'mercenary' #and not 'friend and ally' AND how he's one of the few ppl here who can genuinely connect w/ the wol re: the lightwarden thing #sorry I'm ranting again but this man's writing is all over the goddamn place and I really do not get the sense that his promotion #to main character status was like. planned out in advance. bc nothing is really done with it other than hey vr.tra here's your dude.

[cosmicloved]

i can’t play the crisis core remake until january (bc i’m at my parents’) but maybe, when i do play it, it’ll convince to finally use my cloud blog.........hmmmmmmmmmmmm

#« 𝐂𝐎𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 (ᴏᴏᴄ) » / 「 ooc. 」 #don't think i'll ever feel tempted to lug a whole fucking ps5 back home #i kept my cloud blog going for a few months and yet did TWO ic posts #bc i'm a coward #got too nervous #i'm actually a little scared it'll reignite my long forgotten genesis muse #my first ff muse <3 #but i also have wanted to write for cloud for years #u can imagine the kind of stress i;m under #writing canon muses is so rough for me bc i overthink it ALL #but at least i remember not giving a shit when i wrote genesis ASDFG

[gatheryepens]

Week 2 of exams done one more week babyyyy ;)

#in one more week I’ll be done and chilling ;) #so updates #paper 1 chem was really nice #ocr a is being really nice year which is great to hear #BUT #they only gave one sheet of extra paper in the back #my guy at least put two 😭😭 #I had to use the extra paper that is very fancy 🎩 #but I’m hopping I did the added writing correctly #but finished the paper with quite a bit of time to spare to check #someone also asked me a question before the exam and I felt so smart like thanks for putting your trust into me 😭😭 #maths paper 2 was rough ngl #probably my least favourite exam so far #I ran out of time which isn’t great but looking at it positively and hoping the stuff I was able to answer is all correct #tbh I didn’t have loads of question left which is good #and bio paper 2 which was today #I was really hyped with energy for no reason but it also was a pretty nice paper #once again ocr proving to be the superior exam board #I had probably the most amount of time left one this one and the 6 markers were also really nice one was a gap fill #which I wish was just asking to actually write the process because it’s easier to visualise in my own words #but like before the exam I was giving a quick overview on some stuff to people which didn’t come up which I’m sad about #since the topic is really nice #also one of the invigilator took her shoes off in exam and whenever you’d put your hand up she’d be like put them back on and it was funny #I also was sat at the front and put my hand up and the invigilators were stood like two desks down talking and didn’t see me and I’m like 🙃 #gatherrambles #gatherbeingstudious #gatherstudies #g/alevels #also I’m ill rip :/ #which affect my studying motivation :(

[officiallycake-blog]

Missed you today, friend! How's everything going for you?

#not to state the obvious #but COVID sucks #it's milder than when I first had it for sure #but hoo boy am I tired #and bummed to be missing out on friends and church #my husband has it rough this time too #but my daughter is a champ about it #we really wore masks everywhere while we were out #but the baby can't and my in laws didn’t and we have no way of knowing where it even came from #i'm not a huge fan of our thanksgiving trips since our relationships with that side of the family are kinda shallow #(it's for the best really - they are not people we could be intimately close to) #but i hope your holdiay was spent with at least some people you enjoy deeply #on my end-if nothing else-COVID isolation means i get to see my husband more #i'll see what i can write you in the two weeks before we play again #it's a busy time of year so maybe not much but hopefully at least something #:)

[urbanfiltered]

i cannot stop talking huh

#oh man #finally saw my favorite band live yday but then spent today teary and in despair #the come down from all that adrenaline was so ROUGH i feel so empty and sad #like don’t get me wrong it was like a top 10 night for me i will never forget #the lead singer & i got to chat and exchange jewelry after the show and like afterwards i was full body trembling like a chihuahua like #i’ve never loved life more #but now everything feels so grey and unsatisfactory #ugh!!!!!!!! #i’m TIRED of it grandpa i’m tired of constantly planning enrichment activities for myself so i don’t leap off a building!!!!!! #also i thoufht i wss going to do a lot of wholesome hobby stuff once i moved out #like start drawing and writing and reading again and perhaps even picking back up instruments and stuff #but instead i have to schedule social interactions constantly back to back to back bc i cannot stand being alone #but then conversely when the stars aligned and my friend’s lease was ending and i wss up for transfer i was like no #i can’t do it i love being alone actually #a roommate would probably be good for my brain but at the same time i’be spent the past two years bouncing in between #stifling living conditions that never gave me my own space so now i do have to sit here and fiercely remind myself that i NEED this #anyways one ray of positivity is that i made a soup today and oh my god it is so delicious #my second soup i’ve made in this apartment and i do consider myself a culinary genius of just this genre #it’s just annoying that this is the only day this entire week that i blocked out to make myself sit in my apartment and not see anybody #but yet i’m still fiending for at least a phone call and hoping a friend texts spontaneously #i’ve been running back to back between my friends and i was like ahhhh ok i finally get a day to relax #but i do think it was a bad idea to place it right after the show bc i DEFINITELY needed company today #half the time i didn’t even know why i was crying

[slippery-minghus]

i haven't had a bad body day like this in a while, and i'm really struggling with how exhausting it is. like, the chronic pain is always fuckin chronic, but this was an extreme. it's taking some serious effort to just not sit and stare at the wall. which i'm only avoiding bc i don't want to feel like i threw away my afternoon. not that there was much to have anyway...

really hoping i feel better tomorrow. i could dig my pto debt a bit deeper and stay home if i need to, but i'd really like to avoid that so i can save it. i really want to take off the monday after botw2 comes out ;)

#i really wanted to write but i'm just so tired #i would've had plenty of time this morning but work was really rough today with the new system switch we had #also i'm hoping i'll just feel better in general soon since tomorrow i start a new med that's supposed to fix my guts #and allegedly won't have the awful side effects of what i did last year #so we'll see how that goes #i still have a little while before i need to slee but i might head to bed soon anyway #at least my shoulder isn't as painful as it was this morning #personal

[lotus-ignis]

The worst part is that this fic is for someone that I would like to consider my friend (not that it takes much for me to consider someone my friend) and I don't want to accidentally massacre their favourite characters!

#it's not for them as in I want to gift it to them #more like our shared fandom is the first one in which I'm comfortable enough to actually write fanfiction #and the characters seemed pretty easy to get on paper #and now I really want them to like what I write #and me and my perfectionism worry that they'll hate us if the fanfiction is bad #how did my 11-13 year old self manage to start writing a bellamione fanfiction on wattpad #with only the vaguest of ideas where she was going with this #and still managed to have fun? #whilst I'm over here having at least a rough plan and still being completly stressed about everything #OVER A FUCKING ONESHOT!! #tbf even back then I only got about two chapters posted before I just stopped #Jo's fanfictional adventure

[astral-catastrophe]

So I had an idea, and might entirely revamp an original story idea I haven’t touched since I was a freshmen

#aka it’s been two years???? #know what #I’m gonna get the laptop fired up #And I’m gonna write once I have dried my hair #And I am gonna finish this story (at least a rough draft) before I start senior year #I’m gonna do it #(watch me crash and burn within a week oop-) #Anyway #remind me to actually be productive #And eventually buy myself one of those fancy waterproof notebooks bc I desperately need one for thinking’s in the shower #Have my best ideas when I am getting power washed /hj

[thebleedingeffect]

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#ahhhhhhhh i just wanna talk cause no one else to talk to really #i think the isolation is getting to me. my last job gave me just enough human contact to be really nice #but since i was forced to leave for a very dumb reason- im back to isolation and my brain just doesn't like it lol #my brain is in this weird fog atm where im just forgetting to be nice to myself and its just rough #starting up therapy again but im still very hesitant from our last appointment as it ended badly. but i at least want to try #i think i just need to make myself understand that everything is okay and that I deserve softness. that i genuinely did my best #and ive been forced into a really hard couple of years #sometimes i forget that my father only went away around 3 years ago. the last time I saw him being 2 #god i just need to be nicer. get a handle on my mental health. and go on medication if i have to #anyway gonna write to feel better ^-^

[apocalypticdemon]

wondering out loud, but do people usually post snippets from fics they're working on just apropos of nothing? is this a thing that's normal? i feel like i've seen it done, but i'm unsure if that's typical or not

#not that im posting anything yet. im swill wrangling with an ending and organizing my outline #but like. i really do want to post something this year. i do #but is it bad practice to post bits? id it better to just slam dunk the finished product onto your blog with no lead-up? #is it a personal preference thing? #i have. not been paying attention to how authors in fandoms im in do these things. #on the presumption that I'd never get close enough to even consider posting. even though i really do want to post this year #(not in the next week or so though. god. i have to write three papers between now and then.) #but like. idk. ive written down The Scenes i want to write with these characters. the scene that inspired the work in the first place. #or at least rough drafts/outline notes about those scenes #so all that's left is getting the characters together (very close future) and denouement (much more ambiguous) #so like. i very well could have an outline done by next week and have the chance to just Start Writing #and idk if people like. even want snippets in the interim or if i should keep it to myself. #just musing out loud no worries im not being bitchy. i am just oblivious