#this was really lovely actually

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[stil-lindigo]

bite of winter.

a comic about a princess who died in the snow.

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#cw: blood #cw: gore #cw: dismemberment #cw:death #hope im covering all my bases there #the emily carroll inspiration is really jumping out on this one #tbh her comics were the main reason i started making them in the first place so maybe i can count this as a homage #snow might personally be one of my more beloved protagonists #she eats people but she does it in the name of love so its fine actually #i stand for womens rights AND womens wrongs #literally the type to rip a man's chest open and go 'oopsie!' #love you snow #ash will be getting her own comic later down the line #comic art #lgbt #horror #sapphic #queer comics #hearteaters #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[possamble]

hiii everybody are you normal about Falin showing Laios the same little spell that Marcille showed her? are you normal about Falin remembering it fondly enough that it was one of the first things she showed her brother while trying to teach him magic?

#dungeon meshi #marcille donato #falin touden #laios touden #farcille #not really but im going to see it as that anyway #the way falin's love for marcille is always implicit and unspoken drives me insane forreal #marcille doesn't know how much falin loves her but laios does #because falin's always talking about her and thinking about her when she's not actually there and it's just laios seeing all of that #even the audience has to go hunt for it in the little details #and marcille doesn't even know!! of course she doesn't really care she expects nothing in return for her devotion to falin #but she doesn't even know that it's reciprocated!! she doesn't even know!!

[flowergirlmiwa]

first three words you notice describe your 2023!

#my post #lesbian #wlw #sapphic #meme #making a word search online is really easy actually #yuri #girls love #transbian #lgbt memes

[cakeanon]

Help me prove my family wrong!

I don't know if this post will break containment, but will you like/reblog if you are or know a man who is asexual? All of the people in my life seem convinced that being Ace is a 'girl thing' and that Ace men don't exist!

#Asexual #I love my family but they're all cishet and sometimes it Really Shows #Idk if this will actually make it outside my tiny followers but eh worth a try #Also to clarify this is trans + nb friendly

[bloominflowers]

The Duke 🐺⛓

#i love him so much sos #when characters look scary but then are actually really sweet - the reason for my death #wriothesley #wriothesley fanart #genshin impact #genshin impact fanart

[appaeve]

homesick

#big ordon village enjoyer #uh uh maybe hot take I actually really love the slow opening in tp #getting to run around ordon village and meet everyone made it 10 billion times worse when The Horrors struck #twilight princess link #link #midna #twilight princess #legend of zelda #loz #Snowpeak Ruins #comic

[flamingthespian]

#um actually #brennan lee mulligan #tal talks #i just watched this today and thought this bit was so good lmao #i for one would love a reverse Indiana Jones who breaks into museums and re-steals stolen artifacts to bring them back to their home culture #AND gets with really old women

[sevinite]

a modern witch and their familiar

#illustration #digital art #oc art #my art #love you george love you merlin. he is big as fuck bc he is a maine coon btw #i don’t really like coloring fur it is a pain in my ass but i had to for him #george is actually an ESPer btw. but oomf pointed out that they are basically witch and familiar so #george would def think of merlin as her familiar

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael Afton let his FNAF trauma slip again…

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #mike schmidt #ballora #fnaf #fnaf movie #sister location #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #I’m so sorry to Michael Afton once again #my boy just misses his mom #TBH he must have mixed feelings on Ballora #similar to with baby Fredbear and spring Bonnie #it just reminds him too much of his mother despite her not being his mom #Ballora is just based off her from what we know #Mike can actually sympathize here though he also misses his mom #Mikes just get mommy issues it comes with the title #Ballora at least is also sympathetic to this #love you dearly Ballora 🩵 really wanted to draw her again

[akantorrr]

#wow akans is back to drawing ultrakill stuff? impossible! #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabv1el #digital art #v1 #akans art #I actually really really really love how this one turned out #starting off 2024 with a banger (at least for me) #absolutely inspired by that other coahuilaceratops piece I did the other day- on my alt #tarot card or church stained glass; I don't know what this is but it's becoming my comfort art style #drawing/doodling like this is therapeutic for me istg xD just straight lines and circles and dots :>

[beybuniki]

they should go on a fishing trip pt.1

#DONT COMMENT ON THE BACKGROUND I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWW #anyway this is day 1. they take a bus. the bakugo household has fishing gear so ´deku is wearing bakugo's onesoe (?) and bakugo is wearing #his dad's. and notices he has grown :') #anyway they take a BUS and don't feel like doing this at all it's awkward for so many reason #also trying to relax after everything is neurologically just really hard they might be hyperivgilant dik #and there's so much they never got to unpack bnut they have to and they have to start somewhere and with someone #deku makes that flower crown while bakugo preps everything and they both look at it and are thrown back into their childhood 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ #and at first they just sit and wait for the bavarian fish to bite (rody should make a cameo tbh) but then bakugo breaks the iceeee. #and he starts with their moms because their moms have been such a stubbron connection between these two :') #and deku answers with the usual 'good :) how's your mom :)?' and to everyone's surprise he actually opens up #and tells deku about his mom's insomnia because she watched her son die (that shit was live streamed tpo 10 bnha tweets btw) #idk i love to think of their moms being a very easy subject to connect through i think it's easier for them that way to be more vulnerablei #and then some fish biteeeeeeeeeeee #but like 3 small ones so they have to gather berries and mushrooms and make stew (dw there's an aldi this is bavaria after all) #but yeah day 1 is a bit weird like it's just them in the woods with no distractions #which is so different from whatever went on during their 1st year of high school #don't read this i will throw up i just need this somewhere this is my public scrapbook #bnha #deku #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki #the flower crown on their knees makes this a bit homosexual but fishing is always homosexual im not fighting against that #au: #fishing

[mydairpercabeth]

#did i do the meme right #its giving TONY STARK BUILT THIS IN A CAVE WITH A BOX OF SCRAPS #that bot really shifted her entire life around #changed her perspective #this is so funny actually #percy loving her so loudly and unconditionally to prove it too #theyre soulmates your honor #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percy and annabeth #percabeth #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson the lightning thief #pjo tv #percy series #pjo tv show #walker scobell #leah sava jeffries #travis kelce #coach andie #how about that superbowl btw #percy x annabeth #smartwater

[panstarry]

my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

#pan draws #pan designs #zine #risograph #i'm not gonna lie i don't love how this one turned out OTL and i think the wording is not done but well... a deadline is a deadline #i'll probably touch it up and rewrite it in the future but who's to say.. i need to stew on how to articulate my feelings coherently #anyway my transness is so closely tied to my experience as a person of color. the current political climate is so fucking ass to exist in #but more than anything i am pissed off at white punks & leftists & trans people that refuse to have meaningful solidarity with us. #so yeah anyway. i was stuck on this one forever and only really got anywhere with it after attending 2 punk noise shows in a row where they #actually used their fucking platform to do like. anything. our struggles are connected you need to careeeee YOU HAVE TO CARE........ ok bye #tdov #trans day of visibility #<- i was sitting on uploading this for a while so the stars kind of aligned for it to be today huh.... happy tdov i love you

[pencilscratchins]

to everyone asking when i’m gonna post art again… hey guys i recently acquired six incredibly large clown paintings so i’m sort of booked at the moment

#no one is asking actually i just want to talk about my recent clown acquisition #6! for $20!!! and they’re really good! #my cat loves them my roommate is bringing in his witch boyfriend to cleanse them #he has told me it’s him or the paintings #and i’m telling him it’s always gonna be the paintings #anyway this account is now my public diary #no art anymore just me posting these things #welcome to my twisted mind #not art #delete later

[ferretenjoyernineteen19]

[tw: gore, horror content]

Not sure how much the mlp infection AU has taken over tumblr yet, but I hope you enjoy my take regardless! :3

#my little pony #mlp #mlp virus #mlp infection au #mlp infected au #fluttershy #twilight sparkle #my art #horror art #fanart #really loved making this actually #working in grayscale was hard but definitely worth it #mlp brainrot #save me mlp brainrot #mlp brainrot save me #ferretenjoyerart