#this might be incoherent but yeah

[bipbopdepmop]

man I love hermitcraft. just. there's so much love in it, at the end of the day. its a conversation a connection a partnership between creators and creations. every block is planned and placed with thought and care. every build has a story. countless hours, days, weeks are poured into the planning and the gathering and the building and the recording and editing and releasing. if you follow the season from beginning to end, you watch the story get written and there's something so special about that.

just. take a moment. remember the stories.

see, scarland, years in the making, a dream made reality. a magical, whimsical place of colours and brimming with life! as grian put it, everything you make contains a part of your soul. and it's so full of light and goodness, vibrance and energy.

see, decked out two, dungeon of doom and terror. the ravagers and the wardens and the vex and even good ol one eyed willie. see the redstone, tangled and infinite and moving and changing. see the citadel itself, see the games they played. the final runs, the group stumbling after each other, laughing and dying and hunting and dying and laughing, laughing, laughing.

see the museums, standing tall and proud. light and dark, cluttered and open. king's reign, empires, the whole history of two years at your fingertips, meticulously gathered and collected. see the hidden secrets and stories all waiting for us to explore.

see the pinball machine, every block placed to scale. see the exterior, galaxies hand-picked by eye and a photo.

see the charity stream area, the minigames they played and the chairs they sat in. see how much money they raised, how many people they helped.

see the ugly as sin starter house, and remember.

see the minigames, bin-go and blood on the clocktower and false's elytra course and the blue river raceway and countless others that I'm sure I'm forgetting.

the bases. all the bases. bdubs and his amazing builds, straight out of a painting. doc and his massive perimeter, walls depicting ancient myths, telling ancient stories. grian and his rift, bringing us to other lands, other stories. scar and scarland, oh scarland, the stuff of hopes and dreams. cleo's atlantis and jevin's castle and xisuma's skull and impulse's dwarven forge and gem's elven palace and pearl's alien landscape and false's amazing castle and stress and iskall's western area and keralis's amazing city and zedaphs wacky zany zedvancements and so many more.

and a note on grian's signs of affirmation in his finale. see the care and respect the hermits have for each other. hermits helping hermits, both the group and the action.

the king storyline, the resistance assistance, the soup group! empires crossover, the pranks, the secret santa, all the events! decked out opening, again, the charity stream!!! friends of hermitcraft, skizz and martyn and even that one guy, hbomb, coming to play. make-a-wish visits. the buttercups vs. doc and the great filling of the perimeter. the button! alive to the end. the TCG!!! jevin's egg hunt. tango's astral library, and the nether tunnel system, more efficient than ever before!

hermitcraft is a love letter to art and creation, to friends (family). and above all it's a love letter to us. the viewers. without us it wouldn't be possible, at the scale it is today.

I love hermitcraft and I hope you do too. the hermits love hermitcraft. and they love you too.

this post came around again on my dash and it is a nice end bit to this: a message from scar.

#i know I'm forgetting a lot #theres so so much more but I am only one person and it is three am #so. put it in the tags? #hermitcraft #hermitcraft smp #this might be incoherent but yeah #i just. feels. #hermitcraft forever <3

[spideymichelle]

This been buzzing my head for a while... They say Euphoria is a teen show (meant for teenagers). But this seems like an R-rated TV Show, literally... And then you have my cousin who's like 12 years old watching Euphoria and he was like "Mom gave me the right to watch it because it's actually a TEEN Show"... Why is Euphoria titled as a Show for teenagers when the Show dive into much deeper (and I mean like really deep and consternating), triggering aspects of life?

how is euphoria a teen show WHEN IT IS ON HBO (i'm not american but i'm pretty hbo is mostly focused on mature audience unlike hbomax originals that is more for teen audiences) like if you let your kid watch hbo that seems like bad parental decision to me ... like euphoria is very 18+

like not even for the nudity because the show has a lot of triggering content and since media literacy is mostly dead not everyone always understand the point of certain scenes (and maybe that is partly mostly sam's fault ngl)

like the scene maddie portrays herself of being a bad bitch for independent and mature for her losing her virginity at 14 by some random 40 year old we as the audience are supposed to see that she was clearly taken advantage of but some people will maddy's thoughts/rue's narration as what actually happened (rue is the most unreliable narrator btw)

like euphoria should not be watched by young teens because they will simply not understand the nuance of the show or have the maturity to understand what is actually going on screen

like i'm saying this as someone who was reading books and watching tv shows at 13 that had no business even knowing it even existed

#asks #this might be incoherent but yeah

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

i think im having a stroke

#what is happening. what am i watching. where am i #anyway i am mostly incoherent but i have. a thought or two #this man is so repressed that he skipped right over the part where a guy can't handle any suggestion that he might be gay #instead our boy gregory is getting ahead of everyone (including and especially himself) #by joking about being gay and specifically about being in love with wilson #because hey! that must mean he couldn't possibly be repressed :) #he's just that secure in his straightness :) #... #...yeah #house md #hilson #house season 2 #the mistake #op

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

*posts this and runs away. i trip and fall into an open manhole, dying instantly*

#incoherent noises etc etc gotta say the line: Theyre In My Brain #fuck dude they sure are!!! they sure are. #oh my god when did it become seven. i forgot to sleep again. gonna make a breakfast taco instead #but yeah uhhhhh come get some laughingstock crumbs #pspspsps cmon take the morsel #tumblr is pigeons to me <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #can yall tell i never practice drawing kissing. like never. ever. lmfao #its never been part of my skillset but by Fuck i might buckle down and add it #ive just never had to learn!!! #for my entire life ive drawn primarily dragons - i actively avoided people! #and dragons dont have the facial anatomy to kiss 'traditionally' #so i simply never practiced or even attempted #i only started seriously drawing people a couple years ago #and scribbling characters making out is very far from my top priorities in Learning #even though i taught myself how to draw. hm. other things. somewhat. #my priorities are a mystery even to myself #Anyway anyway im tired and rambling and that taco is calling to me like the sweetest siren #and babey im ready to Drown #agh no wait im not done yet #puppets are honestly really difficult in this aspect #like??? their faces are so flat??? their noses are Strange? how push together???? #dont get me started on the intricacies of perspective and im not sure how to tilt their heads properly yet #so for now Cringe!!! Cringe Alert!!!! Cringe on Main!!!! #sometimes i need to remind myself that it doesnt matter if i dislike pretty much everything i scribble. someone will dig it.

[kijosakka]

alejandro,,, so fun <3 OKAY I HAVE MANY AN IDEA SO TO BEGIN WITH: panopticon

as established, panopticon is a Thing in this au mainly as a theme (but also a very very big influence in the creation of this in the first place).

panopticon itself refers to an institutional/prison design wherein a central guard tower and the construction thereof makes the prisons unable to tell if theyre being watched at any given moment; thus, self regulation.

^ dramaturgy, as an AU, focuses on noah acting ‘in accordance’ with the cameras in a genre-savvy adjacent manner; he self regulates. the ‘central guard tower’ to him is the audience.

to alejandro, however, the audience is not a variable. his competing does not factor in the audience and public the way noahs does; instead, his focus is shifted to his castmates.

to slot it in now, im talking about alejandros perception of the audience and the perception of him thereof (which, this and the above will be compounded upon with the stuff below further explaining alejandros facade/masking).

^ again, the audience just isnt a necessary variable to alejandro (at least, beyond *his family). playing in the manner he is, orchestrating and manipulating, you just cant fit in the time to placate the audience to make them love you. the more important thing is the opinions of his castmates, who are the real variables impacting his win.

and so, in short, alejandro is polarizing. people love a villain, but there is still the in-universe distinction of it being a reality show. it is real people; so, some part of TD’s audience will account that and denounce alejandro for being so comfortable in manipulating his peers so shamelessly.

[*his family, as seen in canon, seems to be something he is acutely aware of. he would be aware of how he presents himself, and would do so in a manner pleasing to them.

this is not to say hes unaware of the audience. he knows theyre there and speaks directly to them in the confessionals in a shifted manner (exaggerated/nitpicked for the purposes of this AU).

< where most characters speak about their competition to the audience, alejandro often speaks directly to the audience. tiniest distinction but i feel i should make it and emphasize it]

and now,, his actual facade; what it portrays, what it hides, and the reasons/motivations.

^ restating another post (ty ophe), alejandro has a mask of a person hiding antagonism. he acts like an idealist version of his actual person; kind, sensible, intelligent, considerate. athletic, helpful, goodhearted, compassionate, attractive to boot. taken to an extreme, holier-than-thou and patronizing. diminished, way overcompensatory, or maybe doormat-ish.

while this version of noah comes off as uncanny valley because no real person is so detached and lifeless, no real person is so perfect either. alejandro would trigger the same bells but to a much, much lesser degree. more like there were pieces of a puzzle missing rather than something distinctly wrong.

because alejandro seems like a person, he portrays depths and facets to himself (while all positive), and interacts with his castmates like how people interact with people.

it is, again, a the veil of an idealist person hiding antagonism. i don’t think alejandro is a cartoonishly antagonistic, unremorseful supervillain character (and hes not really portrayed as such in canon, but just to say), but he is absolutely not the perfection he portrays himself as.

now is a great time to add that alejandros mask heavily relates back to the expectations his family pushes on him; not only is it good socially (for the purposes of the competition) but theres probably a sense of validation there aswell (if shallow, because its still not an appreciation of the ‘real’ him).

^ and thats a Thing as well, the ‘real’ alejandro. flawed and imperfect, able to be irritable and snappy and meanspirited with arrogance hiding the cracks of overwhelming inferiority. as a person, that is, in intent for the game hes, well, an eel. conniving and slippery and manipulative and sly and vindictive and unapologetic.

and as for reasons,, staying in line with the burromuertos ‘high society’ position in this AU, maybe it was something like a way to prove himself; he works the social game and shows business promise because of it, and brings a hefty sum of money home to his family that he earned.

and his facade is an easy one, not only a way to show a sense of professionalism and keep the burromuerto name ‘untainted’ by blatantly unsavory behavior similar to someone like duncan, but a way to keep his castmates none the wiser while the steals the money from under them.

BUT within the au itself things umm do not go to plan as noah makes it his mission to unmask alejandro as just as fake as he himself is.

which brings about the topic of a very specific cast relationship: noah and alejandro

as,, yk,, the backbones of his entire au (ok its more like nervous systems. noah is central and alejandro is peripheral) i want to save a full digging into their relationship and developments for another post entirely (probably going episode by episode until pre london focusing mostly on alejandro, and then another post after i figure out the actual events of WT going through the changed canon)

but to just go through it very quickly; noah doesnt trust alejandro and sees through him. alejandro eventually catches wind of the fact that noah doesnt trust him, and i imagine it would trigger a wondering of how? spurred on by noahs whole ‘no substance’ thing.

and besides, nobody has anything on noah despite him being their castmate going on 3 years now. and now that he’s thinking about it, what does he himself really know about noah in the same way he knows things about the rest of the cast? that’s interesting. *

^ i imagine alejandro would be wary but not worried about noah knowing, simply because of the passive nature he’s read of the other. < poor alejandro. it is not nearly that easy.

[*interesting,,, i will cover that more on the actual post going ep by ep for their relationship. because i do have Thoughts]

#ramblimg <3 #i wrote this in a frenzy and hit post right before my melatonin kicked in #hope it isnt too incoherent but if it is then uhhhhhhhh #yeah. 👍 #alejandro is so fun and interedting actuslly #i did mean to rb that other post with this but. #hmmm #dramaturgyAU #total drama #td alejandro #character analysis #might alter the details of this a liiiitle bit but for rn this is ok

[seaquestions]

i dont know how it took me this long to fully come to terms with it but. im literally just aro. or something to that effect.

#incoherent turtle noises #‘often when i play a game w/ romance options i accidentally play the most aroace protag ever’ <- does he know? #‘these are my fav characters i love them. btw theyre easily interpreted as aro.’ <- Does He Know? #and most egregiously of them all: #‘yeah let’s get friendmarried im never gonna wanna be in a romantic relationship anyway.’ <- DOES HE KNOW? #like. i can indulge in romance and sexuality in the hypothetical. for any gender. so im bi. #but truly im too disinterested to engage w/ it in reality. ive accepted the asexuality but aromanticism felt untrue bcos ive had crushes #but. rewind the tape. ive never wanted to kiss anyone. or do couple stuff. i just wanted someone to think im special & pay attention to me. #surprise that doesnt have to be romantic! and im fully satisfied being in a qpr. god the fact that my partner was just like. like. #’yknow ive been thinkin abt it i think i might just be aro’ ‘Yeah. I Know.’ and i didnt??? <- He Did Not Know. #the fact that this all finally processed in the brain yesterday. on valentine’s day. love loses!! lets gooo!!!!

[daisywords]

girl help I'm having ideas above my ability-to-kill-my-darlings level

#trying to get back on this time zone so i've been lying in bed but not falling asleep for long enough #that my brain just started being like. hey what if...ok but WHAT IF #picking up the pace with every rotation #specifically about starlightverse and let's just say #if I did this it would involve changing a lot of elements that I really like #(book 1 would stay the same. it's like for the rest of the series arc. specifically about shuffling some focal characters) #let's just say for a premise involving mind powers I have not been using that to its full advantage in terms of the...narration ig #but anyway if this might be the coolest idea I've ever ever had #so maybe...I'm going to have to get a little cold-blooded #my brain is so completely fried I just gave up on sleeping and filled my notes app with incoherent ramblings #(yeah there was the big epiphany but also several smaller ones) #i'm sure this s also unreadable but anyway hello everyone my brain is on fire

[guntapon]

oh my god i love msp so much. oh my god oh my god oh my god

#talking to myself* #my school president #my school president lb #i am OVERWHELMED by how much i love this show actually #i don't even know what to say #the way it balances depth of emotion and absurdity is brilliant and aspirational #i feel giddy and stupid and happy and also sad and also excited and also frustrated but mostly i just FEEL #AHHHHH #also gun has quickly and ruthlessly taken the 'favorite character of the year' title #of both this year and the last #i adore him so very very much #you know when a character just clicks with you? yeah. Yeah #ok this is a pointless incoherent post lol i'm going to go gif now #actually i might come back to ramble to myself later. we'll see

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

Maybe "do any of you know what treason is?" "I know what torture is" is the true heart of the show

#bbc robin hood #because listen it's about how the waters do get muddied in a situation like this #a man come home from a real war having to fight as a tiny force against an overwhelming evil #and so if you're given the opportunity to take out your enemy in one fell swoop you'd want to! #but that's not helping your friend who might be dying #'this is for England' Robin says but England doesn't need more bloodshed #she needs more people saving the people they love #and maybe!!! it's about how high ideals HAVE to be put into individual practice or their worth is lost #treason is all well and good but right now Guy is betraying no one #and Djaq is being tortured #and that should be the priority #oh! oh! it's also about doing the right thing in the moment and trusting it works out! #this is incoherent but yeah #idk mags does this make sense

[goldenspirits]

i wasnt anon but im curious too, please tell us about your near death experience

Alrightie!

I attempted suicide, overdose, and almost had a seizure.

I think I /did/ have a seizure. I just didn't seek medical help.

I was tripping balls, basically, whole skin felt like stactic, if you know a thing or two about seizures, that's a sign. Nothing felt real. My brain convinced was in a coma at the hospital, I thought the only way to wake up from the coma was dying, so I tried to jump from the balcony, although I was stopped.

Sometimes it felt like the 'coma world' was like sweeter and kinder than my usual life, because my parents seemed... Worried about me, more than usual, (If you know a thing or two about my parents, you know they are pretty abusive, and lowkey neglectful), but I thought was all a façade, because, in my hallucination state, my parents were fleshy, shapeshifting, lumpy monsters (I think it's because my mom didnt believe I tried to commit suicide, even though in my tripping balls state I told her I had attempted to. She just didn't believe me, thought I just had a tummy ache, and tried to gaslight me I had just dreamt I tried that. Thanks mom.) I assumed I was in a coma because I /Knew/ I had attempted, so I assumed my mom was just my brain trying to make it seem less painful, I assumed my mom lying was just my brain trying to make reality more acceptable and less horrifying. But I still assumed she had /evil/ intentions, therefore, lumpy flesh shapeshifting monster. (Possibly a metaphor for abuse.)

And while I was lying down on bed and I felt like most my organs stopped working. I was just lungs and a brain. Until I felt like I was just a tiny particle, just a tiny speck of light, roaming some galactic-dark-blue-halls and I met some entities there, cloaked figures, and they explained to me that if I wanted to die, I'd have to let myself fade away.

So I tried.

So with my eyes closed I saw this entire network of lights, like a whole city. That was my brain, those were my neurons, braincells, whatever you want to call them. They would slowly fade out outside-in, as in, they started turning off from the corners of my vision and would close in to the middle, and I'd have to let them all turn off to die. So I tried.

But every time all the lights were almost all off I'd see flashes of my Cats and someone really important to me and I'd jerk back awake, making all the lights turn back on. When you're almost dying, your survival instincts kick in. That was basically it.

After 12 hours of tripping balls and being convinced the world was trying to kill me while I was in a coma, I snapped out of it. I was like from 9pm to 9am high as a G6 and didn't sleep one bit. I felt like I had learned more about the world, though. Surprisingly.

#cw death #cw suicide #cw seizures #cw parental abuse #open to questions about it too but be brave enough to show your face about it. #incoherent since this is a polished copypaste from a message i sent one of my best friends after they asked me abt it #unreality #hallucinations #update: im quite sure i got brain damage from it too #because i got way more sensitive to light after that happened #i used to be sensitive to lights due to autism but now i think it might be brain damage/epilepsy #especially since one of my antipsychotics is an anticonvulsant #i get way way way wayyyy worse without them #so yeah #edit: typos fixed #better formatting

[ghosts-of-love]

not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.

#think the arm shake thing might be stimming (??) i referred to it as pogging and was informed that i've been using that word incorrectly #but yeah stimming ig #the arm shakes!! we all know them... #anyway do you ever get the feeling that other people experience happiness differently to you? #idk last week i was v depressed and now ive had a couple days in a row where ive been giggling with people and ive been cuddled and kissed #and today i took myself off on a walk and i was so so happy and then as i was walking back to my car #i had the gut wrenching feeling that i needed to text my parents that i'd been outside and had a good day and saw multiple cool animals #and that i loved them. because i suddenly got really worried that i would die on the way home and no one would know i'd been really happy?? #even though id literally sent my bestie loads of photos and texts and a literal voice note while staring at a robin lol #anyway and then i was floored by the realisation that i carely deeply about whether i died or not #because i was pmsing last week and that is a terrible time for me and i end up being kind of passively suicidal ig #so to have such a big change in the space of a week was a huge shock #these tags are sooo incoherent and span so many emotions #i promise i've had a really lovely day. i just am anxious all the time and depressed sometimes #in a way that is harder to predict now my periods have stopped. #im realising this is the kind of stuff that should probably go in my diary but i've got this far with the tags that i can't be asked. #if anyone is still reading #you do not have to respond to this or like it in any way. i promise lol

[bonojour]

i moved back to the netherlands last friday and i still really feel like someone is holding my throat closed and something heavy is sitting on my chest & i keep tearing up at the smallest things. it is only a temporary state as i am planning to permanently move to denmark in 2024 but holy shit the way my body is responding to being outside of it is shocking to me

#it feels like the covid period when denmark locked its borders and i felt the same feeling (but less) because i was unable to come in #i hate to be so in love with a country #especially one that is used by right wingers in NL as an example of how to deal with the migration issue #but there is something that just. makes me so Happy #but it scares me #because i put all my hope for my future in the hands of a country who is dedicated to making it More Difficult for me to even come in #and there are some things coming up on my path that are going to determine how easy my path will be #like the C1 level language test and getting accepted for a masters degree #But yeah anyway the thought of having to spend more than a year in the netherlands is absolutely crushing me #i wish i could be excited for the sake of my friends #but when one of my friends who i had not seen this year hugged me #i just felt.... deflated and empty #and i still do #although i am now on the flixbus to copenhagen and about 30km away<3 #but eh i might be a bit emotionally unstable the next period #because you can add on top of that that i have also been unable to Relax on my own for almost two months #so i am highly strung and emotionally just a sad wet rat thrown back into the sewers #text #sorry this is incoherent #and there are worse things in the world

[rainbow-flavoured-skittles]

Yang in the dc au is… complicated at best. he took Cole in because there was this extremely powerful meta who just died and no one is looking for him. and there was going to be an opportunity to play with necromancy soon, so he took the chance and sent Cole through the rift. his original intention was to get himself a highly trained and obedient attack dog, for lack of a better word. he didn’t really ‘care’ about Cole much in the beginning, but over time he did get attached to him, which is why he let Cole go back to ninjago city.

#I’m really tired right now #this might just be incoherent rambling #but yeah #Yang is fucked up and definitely isn’t a good person but he still cares #kinda #he wasn’t even sure if the rift would work #because nobody had ever actually come out of it #he still chucked a 15 year old’s body in there like it was nothing though #ninjago x dc au #ninjago yang #yang ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago #there might be a one shot about Cole’s time with Yang if I can force myself to write it #I have ideas I just need to figure out how to get them out of my head and onto a Google doc

[cicada-candy]

I have a lot of half-finished WIPs I really need to get on those-

Brain: but what if. Completely dead 10 year old webseries, hmmmm? What if??? What if?????

#That is also Absolutely Radioactive to you for about 6 seperate reasons hmmm??? #the fics are GREAT tho ive got a rant about one brewing that i might put in the tags of the next post #which. yeah Brain Won drew the silly Gmod characters ✌️😔 #maybe she’s born with it #maybe im ✨️blatantly deflecting massive issues by swooping in to fandoms from when i was 8✨️ #so uh Thank You Brain and Sorry Mutuals Lmao #my next post will be. probably incoherent ahshsjak but we will Resume Normal Programming Shortly #delete later #thecicadasbuzz

[a-hypnos-v]

Idk how much longer I can handle romanticizing the weird repressed queer Asian catholic kid that desperately dreads the ideals, values and life put upon him by his family, as well as the fear of only further peddling the capitalist machine when joining the work force but being too scared of losing the comfort and privilege he was raised in to do anything, these comforts and privileges that my family justifiably enjoy and indulge in, these being things they strive to upkeep never sitting quite right due to the class consciousness and cognitive dissonance, as well as being in a constant limbo of never feeling quite grateful enough for my situation, but also having that situation clash with the values I am steadily building for myself thing I got going on

Then again I’m like 13 so idfk anymore

#punk #punk? #maybe? #incoherent rambles #i feel like a burden to my family #ramblings #random post #tumblr diary #diary entry #might delete in the morning #baby punk #more like fetus punk I barely know anything about the scene or where to begin but yeah #it’s my blog i post what I want that includes the doom writing at 11pm

[dire-kumori]

Oh and i had a question about, like, logistics of the reaper au!

Assuming there's a possible ending where reaper Mike dies and young Mike manages to live... do you think it would change things? Would it matter, in the end?

Or is Evan still fated to die at Mike’s hands, is Liz still fated to die, too? Is young Mike still fated to grow up and get scooped before ultimately dying while trying to kill his younger self? (Which is just... very, very sad and horrific in so many ways)

Because if none of these things happen, it could create a paradox; where would reaper Mike have come from if Evan and Liz never die, and Mike never gets scooped?

...Very good question.

Okay, so I like to think that Reaper Mike's mission is ultimately doomed to fail. Obviously he's never going to successfully erase his past self. But after a while, it's stopped being about 'making things right' and 'protecting Evan' and more about 'hurting (kid) Mike as much as possible,' so that doesn't really matter to him. At a certain point he just kind of stops being 'Michael Afton' and just becomes 'the Reaper.'

But Reaper Mike isn't the only one who's changed by the repeated loops. Even with the memories fragmented, young Mike is living out... weeks? Months? Hell, maybe even years in this loop. He's growing up, essentially, but without aging. I mean, of course his emotional and mental maturity is skewed because - [vague gesture at the blood-soaked death parade he's trapped in] - but after a certain number of loops he isn't quite the same person who would have thoughtlessly shoved his brother's head into moving machine parts. Especially not when he still has the broken images of Evan sobbing hysterically and begging the somebody to stop hurting his brother (the Reaper turning its fury onto Evan for daring to get between him and his target, past Mike throwing himself over Evan's little body in a vain attempt to at the very least save Evan's life, if not his own) floating around in his brain.

Can you tell I'm just word vomiting at this point? I kind of lost track of the original question.

I'm not 100% what this would mean for the Reaper Mike because with past Mike growing and changing, the Reaper would inevitably change as well. I like throwing characters up against forces or circumstances beyond their control, but I don't like saying things are just fated to happen. If things play out the same way again, it's because factors leading to those events are still the same. It might actually be that so long as Reaper Mike is stuck outside of his own time, he's largely unaffected by changes made to his past aside from some ripples in his memories. He was pretty shocked when his past self made choices he was certain he never would have made, such as seeking vengeance for Evan's sake after the loop where the Reaper killed them both. So scratch what I said above, past Mike is growing, while Reaper Mike stagnates, wallowing in his self-loathing.

#sorry I feel like this was more of an unanswer than an answer #I apologize if this is incoherent I typed with with a brain full of bees #but ultimately yeah I do think that things would change for Mike and his siblings #I wouldn't want the events of the time loop to just vanish once it's resolved #I want that whole thing to stick with past Mike even if he can only remember pieces of it #it might be that some events still play out the same way as the first time while others change #timelooped Mike wouldn't be jumping a the bit to torture Ev after all is said and done #but he would have no way of knowing to worry about Elizabeth at Circus Baby's unless Reaper said something #and that depends on how much he remembers bc if I recall correctly #serenefig's idea was that it was the face to face confrontations with his killer that Mike didn't remember (clearly or at all)? #but since he DOES retain some memories of these multiple loops #I want to say that even if he resolved the time loop and erased the Reaper who started it all #he'd still hold those memories #and therefore those years he spent fighting for his and his siblings' lives #maybe that would make him a tad protective of them and he'd be watching Liz close enough even without a direct warning from the future... #I should got to bed now my brain's melting #ask #lonelyfreddles #Paradoxical Reaper AU #time travel bullshit that probably makes no sense lmao