#this is part of a much much longer piece

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Culture Shock

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xiao xingchen #xue yang #a-qing #As I sit here and type out my thoughts I realize that the last panel looks like A-Qing is crushing XY's candy...oops. #she's supposed to be crunching her *own* wrapper for dramatic effect. XY's candy is still in XXC's hand. #Hes still standing there. 180 degrees out of frame. Which is where your heart is! MEANING: XXC is in your heart right now #holding out a little piece of candy that has yet to be taken. #This comic was so close to being on the chopping block. Honestly I'm still not sure I should have kept it in #but I liked this scene a lot*** and tbh the yi-city arc isn't around for much longer. Let them have fun while it lasts. #not to mention I have few opportunities to build up spanish speaking XXC. And we are close to the pay off. #XY is in his 'oh god I need to start learning the basics of this language or I will drown' phases. Lets see how well he does! #***The candy represents so much! It's a symbol of unobtainability! Of comfort and status! Both A-qing and XY crave candy as much as they- #-crave those 'unobtainables'! XY has money to by candy (part of status) but he lacks love and comfort is his life! #So XXC offering them this little piece of candy is more than just a treat! It's a piece of love! #But as sweet as candy is....it cannot last.... #(this also makes the scene where XY disrupts A-Qing's comfort by offering candy very interesting to analyze)

[agentark]

whatever you do, don't imagine a young J Corvin waiting every day at the end of their drive, hoping today is the day the mail carrier finally brings a letter from their very best friend

#i'm personally about to start sobbing #how many letters do they try sending #how long does that sweet gentle soul wait - I actually don't want to know #little too close to home frankly lmao #grandpa i don't CARE that something evil lives in fernweh and wants to eat me or control me or whatever - that's my bestie!! #I just did James's route and this part hurt so much worse #fernweh saga #like J is SO scared to ask MC if they can write this time & they're trying to be SO supportive-- #--of the fact that the last time they tried MC was going through an incredibly difficult time in their life #but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt so badly #and like it's obviously not MC's fault bc they never even got the letters in the first place #but now I want to cry thinking about how my MC hugs James at the police station when they meet again and how he's probably like ??? #my MC missed him and James is like 'weird reaction for someone who couldn't be bothered to write back' #'and shattered my little fifteen year old heart into pieces' #i'm making wild assumptions about the inner workings of J's mind here but anyway #j corvin #all i'm saying is if my best friend was ripped out of my life and I tried writing them I would be religiously checking the mailbox #probably far longer than I should but still trying to hold out hope

[thelittlespanielthatcould]

found a very cool park with a very cool dog

#i cannot begin to express how grateful i am to no longer be in florida #or how much it means to me have brought the most important pieces of home along with me #my boys #its grounding me watching goldfish find his favorite sun spots #and seeing kovu learn his new routines #i didn't expect the size of this park. you can't see one end from the other. there were TRAILS #Its 15 mins from my house #finding our haunts #finding our rhythm #it's been grounding #moving isnt easy for me #for any of us really #but nobody can bounce back like kovu #little by little I am seeing his love magnify my resilience. my optimism. my love for the world around me. #he's changed me in all the best ways #he is so much a part of me #I love him so much #kovu #never could've moved cross the country by myself without him #my heart and soul #my boy #kovus face #joy is stored in the spaniel #trails #parks #15 MINUTE WALK BY THE WAY. NOT DRIVE. I CAN WALK PLACES NOW

[ice-sculptures]

for miwip wednesday, an excerpt from my mike-finds-out-about-the-painting fic: two lives intertwined (one yours, one mine)

#most of what i see in this fandom is mike being very in tune w his own feelings and already being aware that he's in love with will #so i wanted to explore the scenario where he doesn't know yet and it takes longer for him to come to terms with his sexuality #the purpose of this fic was for them to talk. really talk. and hash out everything that's changed between them since november 1984 #mostly the painting ofc but also the rain fight. the lack of communication in lenora. hellfire club. vecna's impending return. #i just want them to communicate haha that's pretty much it #also they don't get together immediately here btw bc it's part of a slowburn series of one shots set during a hypothetical season 5 #ofc they will end up together when it's all over. but not in this piece #fic: two lives intertwined #miwip wednesday #rae writes #rae.txt #byler #stranger things

[talentforlying]

john and his niece going for a walk, arm-in-arm, so gemma can confide in him about her ghost problem without worrying her mum......i'm severely unwell about them.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #unfortunately mike carey kinda popped off about the two of them growing apart + gemma trying to follow his footsteps alone #gemma had so much to deal with at home and john provided a picture of stability and self-government that he simply does not really possess #and therefore by extension? so did the world of the occult #her descent into resentment + rebellion + risky behavior was fully in character for a troubled teen in an unhappy home #and it SUCKS bc the breakdown of their relationship was all due to john wanting SO BADLY to be a good influence on her + be there for her #and succeeding in the most monkey paw of ways #gemma never ONCE saw the cracks in the mask until she got close enough to his orbit to see him fail her in the WORST way #and that is a FUCKING tragedy #and we do NOT speak of the bullshit peter milligan pulled in his run because FUCK. THAT. NOISE. #in my canon they tentatively reconciled after the empathy virus. gemma's making her way through university #(see: studying part-time and still pursuing the occult on the side. but doing so Much more cautiously) #(no longer trying to be a Constantine TM but just trying to help out friends here and there) #and they meet once a year on december 2nd to honor cheryl's memory and catch up #( gemma masters. ) THAT'S MY NIECE YOU PIECE OF SHIT! #( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD. #sched.

[mhaynoot]

sometimes wanting to be saved is not enough, sometimes you'll always need at least one person to bravely put their hand forward once more and say, "i will save you so please want to be saved."

and sometimes being saved meant saving yourself.

even as the dream and miracle you desperately want disappears right before your eyes, you have grown ever so strong and courageous to keep living on.

orv asks us what does it mean for a story to save someone? How can we save someone? Or, perhaps, should it have always been: how do we save ourselves?

Someone has saved you. That someone will be you.

#orv analysis #orv spoiler #this is a small part of a much longer piece analysing the theme of salvation in orv but i wanted to drop it here just because i really liked

[sunflowerpirateart]

Heard we were doing unhinged Mihawk art

#dracule mihawk #takanome mihawk #one piece #tw blood #cw blood #digital art #ipad art #fanart #sunflowerpirateart #Imagine being the navy and hiring a guy who was dubbed ‘the marine hunter’ #then after essentially firing him you have the audacity to think you can go and arrest him that easily #that’s the funniest part for me about the aftermath of abolishing the warlords system #it’s established that these pirates were made into warlords because they were too much for the navy to handle #and then after they’re no longer warlords the navy thinks they can just waltz up and ‘take them out’ hilarious #like don’t get me wrong the warlords system was broken and definitely needed to be shut down #it’s just funny that the navy got so comfortable that they forgot the reason they hired these scary fighters in the first place

[apollos-boyfriend]

in better news. i’m now just thinking about how cool crumb’s main sonas are and the gimmick they embody/story they tell

#icarus speaks #WHERE is my amnesia analysis #like gahhh i love how the little cat grew to become her public sona #her brand. her limelight. her celebrity status #and box who is so much more human as its personal life. crumb the teenager instead of crumb the influencer #and anthro just being. emotion. the pure embodiment of that divide #recognizing yourself as split but being unable to do anything #and amnesia as the pure crumb. the parts of a whole #and they’re scary!! amnesia is often depicted as creepy/villainous #bc it Is scary. coming to terms with yourself and picking up all those pieces #but also. it’s freeing. it’s GOOD. amnesia isn’t evil. he’s a necessary reality that they all have to face #and while he’s come to terms with that. the others take a bit longer to accept it #blows up and explodes and dies

[fluffywhump]

i'm also not a fan of how even when going the trad pub route, authors are expected to use social media to market their books. and many times it feels like being expected to sell a personality to get people interested enough to look at your work

#just leaving this as that #i drafted a longer version #talking about drama that had popped up about the book 'the black witch' and how booklr tore it to pieces years back #saying it was racist #and mainly repeating what others were saying so i doubt most of them even read the summary #but i lost the plot of my own post so i stopped #i only saw mentions of ppl harrassing muir and bardugo so i don't know much of what happened there #i think in muir's case it was ppl finding her homestuck fics? #and i remember ppl freaking out about 'the love hypothesis' being reylo fic w/ the serial numbers filed off #ik lots of ppl hate the 'mix of x popular media and y popular media' way of marketing #but that can't even be put on the authors for the most part that's usually a pub house choice #but some indie authors might use it too b/c the big idea is to catch someone's attention so they'll then read the actual summary #and then hopefully the book #losing the plot again #i'm just annoyed and auntie isn't answering my text when i need to be there for dinner

[elegyofthemoon]

ok but do i want to actually sit and read through all the clockie animation stuff so i have better foundation for what i want to say? i guess

#avil plays hsr #idk if i actually want to write this ramble because i started rewatching a bunch of scenes that i needed to figure my thoughts out #but the more i gather the more im getting lost with myself so im like MMMMM #i gotta line these pieces up first #i think the trickiest thing about gallagher is wondering how much of what he says is true vs false #UH #ill just tag this as #hsr 2.1 spoilers #because thats the ramble in the tags #but like as a follower of enigmata hes prone to lying and conjuring even more riddles to confuse you #so i just have to wonder too #and if his whole facade as gallagher is fake. then how did he actually become part of the bloodhound? #sunday points out how gallagher stoles features from so many members of the family so. i just have to wonder #he couldnt have changed his identity without being noticed #so thats where i get confused. like How did you get in here in the first place using your disguise? #how did you fool people? #ANSWER MY QUESTIONS MAN (SHAKES GALLAGHER) #at the very least though: i think what he says about mikhail is true #i want to believe those are true even despite his false front #the things i want to talk about is like #well first i wanna make a whole timeline of the historical events of penacony #and that will give me a better idea of how things led to one another to present time #and THANKFULLY i rewatched because now i understand what gallagher meant possibly by traitor #but how did the family come to be? #how did the dreammaster come to be? (SHAKES THE GAME) #ok so i have to read more. so this will take longer #unfortunately maybe by the time i get all the information i want itll be too late and someone else wouldve said #SOMEONE PROBABLY DID #but i like the satisfaction of pulling the pieces together myself. thats the satisfaction of solving cases and puzzles ✨ #my desk looks ridiculous now because its like. sticky notes everywhere because im like I HAVE TO MAKE NOTE OF THIS

[todayisafridaynight]

i be so normal and then someone post arakawa on my tl <- frothing at the mouth and just might turn into a werewolf

#snap chats #LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOROAAAAHHHHHHHH #whenever someone posts art of arakawa i explode into a million pieces like YES.YEAH THERE HE IS #he's so pretty...... //gross sobbing// why do i like his face so much #cutest old man ever idc idc #when i was watching WMA3 last night nakai laughs sometimes in it and i cried cause he got the cutest/goofiest laugh ever #god took arakawa away from us cause if he went on any longer he would HAVE to laugh at some point and then id explode #i am. going to the city soon LMAO im just waiting for my fave restaurant's happy hour to start. cause im cheap. #i dont even think they offer sake as a part of the happy hour deal man fuck this house WHATEVER #the karaoke's there at least..... only $10 baby that's like six dollars more than in rgg... five even... #i dont know what im gonna sing yet though i promised no mcr. to myself. i promised myself no mcr again #went to my dorm's bathroom for a sec and i stfg who smoked weed in there im MAD

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all! I got some comments on my “what to make next” post, and it got me thinking. Do you want me to make a post explaining some of how I do pattern designing for sewing?  And if so, do you want me to use the round elephant pattern as the example, or should I make a new pattern so I can show you from start to finish how it goes?

#I think I might've posted a little about it before but not much #because I had been feeling a little imposter-sydrome-y #but like after a certain point of plushifying art and making designs exactly the way I imagined them #(if maybe grumpier looking than intended lol) #I am no longer feeling imposterish #my techniques are not the most technologically savvy and if you have more computer art experience than I do #there is almost certainly an easier way to make a digital version of the patterns #but my way only requires three things: paper a pen (preferably a brush-tipped marker) and something to measure 1/4 inch with #also scissors for cutting out pattern pieces #like there are several extras that I use now and again when pattern designing to make doing certain parts easier but it's like #a pipe cleaner. some yarn. I do have a compass but it's super terrible and I think I've had it since I was like five #wait is it a compass? the angle measuring thing #I don't actually use it I just eyeball the angles tbh

[unkillobel]

i need to bitch about my job for a minute in the tags

#ok so a senior role was made available in my team that i could’ve applied for #and there’s two of us in the team so. yknow pretty certain that one of us would get it #it was sort of replacing someone who left who handled a fucktonne of work across two other teams i work with #and ultimately i decided not to apply for the job because 1. the other guy on my team has been there two years longer than i have #and 2. my health is fucking precarious #mental and physical. i already work slightly reduced hours to try and manage my chronic fatigue but even then i have frequent crashes #and whenever my workload gets too much i just shut down. like the worst stress response ever #so my coworker got the job and a hefty pay rise and im like good for him :) #and then he went on leave for 6 weeks so i got handed 60% of his workload #and when you get handed people’s projects you get a good insight into how they work and how they coordinate shit/write documents etc #and not only are these projects a piece of piss compared to the aid programme stuff i’ve been doing #his actual work is like?? not great #i know i’m a perfectionist and i put way too much effort into my documents and reports but #there’s no way this guy is being paid $30k more for this!! #so now i’m like why didn’t i fucking interview for the senior role!! #i have this terrible impostor syndrome even though i’ve been there a year and get good feedback on my projects #part of it because i’m 22 and i am constantly like how the fuck am i here with an arts degree. i don’t know Anything #but shit man. if this guy’s mediocre work is worth a senior role #i have had a couple of job offers with a decent pay bump which is still wild to me. you want to pay me WHAT #<- well aware this is a great ‘problem’ to have #anyway i think i need a pay rise. we’ve just had a mass exodus from our team. i reckon if i threatened to leave they would lift my salary? #but i don’t know if i want to blackmail my manager lmao

[mildcicada]

#U Have No Idea How Much I Miss Her. #i need to start actually drawinf again its been a hellish 6 months #its really easy to just fall out of the habit of it #i used to obsess over never being someone who just suddenly stopped drawing for weeks/months #it scared me. like a core part of my identity would have to change for that to happen or would be changed by that happening #and then once i didn't draw and wasn't drawing i felt like i needed something to violently change about myself to get me to start doing it #again. but i didn't need that i just drew something again and that was it. like that stretch of time didn't happen #drawing is just an activity you can choose to do or not do and there are no consequences for whatever decision you chose to take but it felt #so serious to me it is like i viewed it like death #which i was right about in a way but mostly in how death is just a thing that happens and that it wont be that sudden and insane #you will just be and then not be just like how you weren't and now are. its just like me drawing or not drawing lol #but that comic of ht papyrus by jnpie where he's looking at the puzzles he used to make and wondering if he'll ever do that again. or if he #wants to. its like that feeling. it always sticks in my mind #i have like a fear of thinking about when i will no longer care about something i care about now and its so weird when. realize i stopped #wanting to do something and caring about it and. i feel nothing on account of no longer caring about it lol. but i know that past me #is currently looking forward at me now and terrified. this is unrelated to that comic a lot but its like. thinking about how i will change #words #mine #IM NOT TAGGING THE ART bc i wanna actually finish some of these pieces tbh and like they are just the backdrop for my thoughts... #feels so hashtag tumblr to talk to yourself about some vague ass feelings or situation that no one else will look at ugh thats like #The tumblr experience. but i love reading other's personal posts and tags though..

[soysaucevictim]

Hhh... didn't appreciate just how intense the winds/storm have been up in my neck of the woods.

I respect that delivery services are out of commission.

Just. Timing for me not taking care of myself on various fronts could definitely be better. (Like sleep and meds would stabilize me more in terms of emotions and meal planning. But bleh. I'll have to figure my own shit out here.)

#i'm hungry atm and the shit i want to eat isn't at arms reach atm and a tiny part of me is being petulant about it #and i totally recognize that fact #i just made some sriracha/soy-glazed almonds for protein... but it's too much salt for more then a couple pieces at a tiiime #i got rice... i got beans... i just need to do something w/ 'em #it would def settle me for longer if i diiid #food/

[8512121589]

like i have a BIG interest in cut content in video games and it sucks how there's a ton of it for sky but nobody can post anything about it because it's hacked. who give a shit. i want to so badly to pick apart and examine everything i can find, if it's light awaits content or concepts that got scrapped before they even made it to beta or the little bits and pieces of concept art they release... it's all so interesting to me and there's so much i don't know about because hacked content is shut down immediately

#i know i go back and forth between ‘’i hate sky’’ and ‘’me and the bestie’’ but there’s something about it that just intrigues me #the lore. the gameplay. the spirits and storytelling… the literal goldmine of unused content #obsolete systems and mechanics and assets that were once used in the pre-beta and no longer serve a purpose yet remain intact and abandoned #the invisible boat in prairie which once a core part of the village and ferried you to each island #when activated‚ it begins its coded path‚ circling around the islands. it bumps into every dock and piece of land that has been added #since its abandonment. sorry for writing so much about this boat it’s one of my favorite things in this game