WAIT STOP CAN I POST THE MONOLOGUE I WROTE FOR THEATER WITH FUCKING INDONESIAN DAVE STRIDER IN MIND BC I REALLY WANTED TO COSPLAY HIM ON STAGE. BECAUSE I THINK ITS KINDA FUCKING GOOD HOLD ON
Maaf, Kak. Aku tahu bahwa hal ini mungkin sulit didengar.
Seumur hidupku, sulit aku bedakan rasa sayang dengan rasa sakit. Lagipula, itu, kan, cara satu-satunya dia berinteraksi denganku.
Aku tahu, bahwa kam- maksudku- dia, hanya ingin membantuku untuk menjadi lebih kuat. Dan, sejujurnya, aku tidak pernah membenci- dia untuk hal itu. Lihatlah aku! Aku telah menjadi ksatria yang paling kuat di alam semesta ini. Dan itu semua... atau mungkin, separuhnya... berkat dia.
Tetapi, kalau aku melihat orang atau bahkan benda yang bergerak terlalu cepat, aku langsung takut. Setiap kali aku melihat baja di sudut mataku, jantungku selalu berdetak sangat cepat.
Kau berhasil, Kak. Aku sekarang kuat. Tetapi, aku juga takut.
[Dafa menghela nafas.]
Maaf, Kak. Aku tahu bahwa kau bukanlah kakak yang membesarkanku.
Tetapi, sejujurnya, tiap kali aku melihat wajahmu, hal yang terjadi saat aku melihat baja atau besi atau orang dan benda yang bergerak terlalu cepat terjadi lagi. Detak jantungku menyesakkan nafasku, dan aku takut. Aku sangat, sangat takut.
Kau bukanlah orang yang sama. Tetapi, hidungmu sama. Ekspresi mukamu sama. Dan kekejaman itu yang bisa kulihat dibelakang matamu sama. Dan susah bagiku untuk bisa tenang dan ingat bahwa kali ini, kekejaman itu tidak akan diarahkan kepadaku.
Kakakku yang sebenarnya sudah lama meninggal. Tertancap pedangnya sendiri, oleh serigala bersayap yang kita lihat waktu itu, apabila kau masih ingat. Aku lihat mayatnya dengan bola mataku sendiri. Dan aku tahu, bahwa kau bukanlah dia yang sebenarnya. Tetapi hal ini bukanlah sesuatu yang bisa ku hentikan sendiri.
Jadi, maaf, Kak. Walaupun kau adalah versi alternatif dia dari realita yang lain, aku tidak bisa menghilangkan perasaan itu.
Dan aku akan selalu takut padamu.
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Hi! Do you know any books in English about the Estado Novo Dictatorship and the subsequent 25 Abril Revolution?
Anon you asked this like months ago sorry I'm only answering this now, are you still here.
(Sorted alphabetically)
Estado Novo:
Fado and Fátima: Salazar’s Portugal in US Film Fiction
From the Armed Struggle against the Dictatorship to the Socialist Revolution: The Narrative Restraints to Lethal Violence among Radical Left Organisations in Portugal
Under the Sky (documentary about Jewish refugees in Portugal during WWII, audio is in English but subtitles in Portuguese)
Meeting Salazar: Irish dignitaries and diplomats in Portugal, 1942—1960
Home Bound: The Construct of Femininity in the Estado Novo
Memory of Resistance and the Resistance of Memory: An Analysis of the Construction of Corporatism in the First Years of the Portuguese Estado Novo
NATO's Secret Armies: Operation Gladio and Terrorism in Western Europe (Chapter 9: The secret war in Portugal)
On student movements in the decay of the Estado Novo
Portugal, Jewish Refugees, and the Holocaust
Re-reading the Photographic Archive: The Propagandistic Staging of the Portuguese Estado Novo in the Braga District
Salazar: A Political Biography
Salazar, The Dictator Who Refused To Die
Saloio Women: An Analysis of Informal and Formal Political and Economic Roles of Portuguese Peasant Women
Sixties Radicalism and Social Movement Activism - The War Against The War: Violence And Anticolonialism In The Final Years Of The Estado Novo
Territorializing Maoism: Dictatorship, War, and Anticolonialism in the Portuguese “Long Sixties”
The Memory of the Portuguese First Republic throughout the Twentieth Century
The Opposition to the 'New State' and the British Attitude at the end of the Second World War: Hope and Disillusion
The Portuguese Armed Forces and the Revolution
To Talk or Not to Talk: Silence, Torture, and Politics in the Portuguese Dictatorship of Estado Novo
Women's Organizations and Imperial Ideology under the Estado Novo
Ghosts of war: China’s relations with Portugal in the post-war period, 1945–9*
Wartime Macau: Under the Japanese Shadow*
Colonial War:
Amílcar Cabral's writings in English
Evading the War: Deserters and Draft Evaders from the Portuguese Army during the Colonial War
Killing Hope U.S. Military and CIA Interventions Since World War (Mentions the CIA's role in the Colonial War + subsequent involvements in Africa during their civil wars)
Modern African Wars (2): Angola and Mozambique 1961-74
Portugal’s African Wars: Angola, Guinea-Bissao, Mozambique
Portugal's Guerrilla Wars in Africa
Samora Machel Speaks, Mozambique Speaks
The Retornados from the Portuguese Colonies in Africa
The United States and Portuguese Decolonization
25 de Abril / Carnation Revolution:
Another Country (documentary about the revolution seen first-hand by foreign journalists, available in solidaritycinema)
From the Armed Struggle against the Dictatorship to the Socialist Revolution
Out of the Shadows: Portugal from Revolution to the Present Day
Portugal, the impossible revolution?
Revolução (small video from 1975 with images and speeches from the time)
Scenes from the Class Struggle in Portugal (documentary, quality is a bit bad)
These are all the articles, documentaries and ebooks I have in English, but I have plenty more in Portuguese if anyone wants. Some of these are not *necessarily* what you asked but eh. Do note I haven't read all of these. Let me know if any of the links don't work!
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Tell me one of your favorite and least local dish!
Omg nobody asked me this before but djfjslaksla okay so like there's this one dish that i really really like its Chicken Coconut Curry with Green Chilli (or in my native language its called Masak Lemak Cili Api) and oh god Im so obsessed with this dish, if I ever go to a local restaurant for lunch I will order this with sides of white rice and spiced fried chicken. Idk how to explain the flavor but it doesnt taste like a curry really, its more like a creamy tumeric with a heavy hit of chilli (which is why it's yellow). I am a picky eater but I would literally add more rice if my mom ever cooks this at home.
Seasia cuisine is very flavorful and unique and I cant deny it but sometimes I just don't like some of it.
Everyone like Sambal Belacan (it's a sambal made of shrimp paste usually mixed with chillies, onions and lime juice) I dont really consider this as a main course dish but more like a side dish where you eat with raw veges and herbs or as an accompanying dish to white rice. I don't want to yuck someone's yum but for me it just smells too strong to me like if you ever smell shrimp paste you understand how overpowering the smell is. It's also usually made raw and not cooked on a stove and personally Im a bit picky when its related to raw food.
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Indonesia isn’t necessarily possessive of Netherlands but he is pretty possessive of his feelings for the man. All his fondness and disgust, love and hate, and he doesn’t necessarily like others being nosy or questioning them, because these ARE exclusive. This is between him and Ned only. Ok this is projection but I think many if not most ppl here are like that about this one country lol, and it’s not as simple as a hatred aimed at a colonizer from a former colony. IF ONLY it could be as simple as that, lol, and Indonesia has had his fair share of existential crisis and angst over it at the dead of night, etc etc. He’s not an inherently angsty person tho, don’t expect a lot of it from him.
The hatred for a (former) enemy is of course expected, but it’s not just that. Indonesia also hates him for taking over his brain, for lack of better word. He’s not head over heels for the man or anything but he’s like a tumor in his brain, not lethal but very much annoying. And it stays. That’s the most unfortunate thing.
And he sometimes just. Relishes in those feelings, for these are the only moments Netherlands is his, and he is Netherlands’.
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