#this happened awhile ago but still

[bloodymoons91]

yk whats traumatising? reading the secret history in class, your mentor walking by saying he read it (twenty years ago) and not even ten minutes later getting to THE jailbird brother scene💀

#it was traumatic #the secret history #charles macaulay #camilla macaulay #tsh #donna tartt #richard papen #francis abernathy #dark acamedia #i want to cry #this happened awhile ago but still #kill me please #he also said it was impressive i read it in english #but english is my second language and i think in it #i had to sit there in shock #i still haven't recovered

[babisawyer]

Jackie realizing she’s gonna have to take care of shauna and jeff’s ghost baby

#🐇 #yellowjackets #truly it’s so interesting to me how much better this season is than the first that literally never happens for me #the current timeline is finally getting interesting. Jeff is still the best part #love how fast misty took to being a cult that is so her™️ #Jackie liking poppies is interesting to me both in the Jackie is gay camp and also you know the whole thing with wizard oz and her death #the ending was so fucking depressing I need a nap now #like I’m so happy they didn’t eat the baby that would have been so incredibly cheap but glad to finally have answers #like do we think shauna was dreaming or had she temporarily crossed over because like where was Jackie and the French dude #I’d say it would make sense that Lottie could be there somehow #idk it reminded me a lot of Jackie’s death of course so I have many questions #I will say the cop story line is pretty stupid like no fucking way is any of this legal and also let’s kill that creep cop shauna #I will help you girl I will drive the get away car #I was also like wondering awhile ago if Lottie’a camp is near where the plane crash was #and my best friend and I were like no there’s no way and then they tell us it’s in New York so like possibly close to the boarder? #I tried looking up cherry hill but I couldn’t find anything idk it’s probably totally unlikely and they just also happen to be in the woods #I didn’t get a preview for next week is there a preview? idk #my complaint this week is where is Jackie lmfao where is her ghost why wasn’t she in sex ed give me something I’m not ready to move on!!!!

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[captain-mommy-issues]

Overheard two guys in the hallway.

"HEY [name]!!!"

"Yeah?"

"GO TO THE BATHROOM!"

"Why?"

"PLEASE!"

"Why???"

"I NEED TO SHIT!"

"And you want me to come with you???"

"YEAH!"

"Okay!"

And then they both held hands and skipped off.

What is this school.

Why don't I have friends like that.

#//based off a true story #//it didn't happen today it happened awhile ago but i still think about this a lot #arven posts #pokemon #pokemon irl #irl pkmn #pokeblogging #pokeblr #rotomblr

[biteapple]

part of me still feels like i might be sort of genderfluid and/or bisexual but just traumatized about it. no idea anymore

#like. remember that. remember following me back when i was bi and genderfluid lol. awhile ago now #its like whatever to me now. its really hard for me to pin anymore #like when i feel like genderfluid and bi again i feel like i can be a lot more open about shit #but i dont really even know. its hard #i feel like. and this is just like. me yknow. i feel like if i wasnt dating a man i'd be missing out on something that i want #like i dont know if i would be content just marrying a woman and being satisfied if i. didnt have a husband. yknow what i mean #and its like. if *I* wasnt a man i'd be sad. if in a relationship i wasnt someone's boyfriend or husband i'd be sad about it #so this is what wraps back around to me being a gayboy about it yknow #its complicated because no matter the gender label outcome. i would STILL want testosterone and surgery and masculine terms #and i KNOW this doesnt mean anything for some people. like some women do all that and are women #so i could just be not-a-man and still want all this anyways #but i also know it doesnt make it any less complicated for some of these women. who also had to think about themselves a lot in this way #its this weird notion of whatever ends up happening i... physically want the same shit anyways. THAT stays almost completely static #so that for me is a breather. its just like.... idk ... if i ever got in a relationship with a woman #i'd feel like i would be intrinsically. missing out on something i wanted #which i think is what a lot of burgeoning gay kids feel generally. right #like if you went down this stringent path laid out for you that you'd be missing out on. your life that you want. right. #i dont know what i want out of that really. sometimes i feel like im too out of it to pursue anything romantically anymore anyways #i do sometimes think it'd be cool to be a butch woman. kinda..? #i think what i like about that is the masculinity of myself is gender non-confirming if i were a woman #which if im a masc guy i'm just like. your average dude. like. right #but i wanna be a bear about it. i wanna fag it up about it. and my metric of being transgender im not ... average about how i present mysel #can someone teach me how to fag it up. the construction worker part of this is working right #sighhhh.... i have to go shower. maybe i;'ll have a shower epiphany or something. sighhhhh #sometimes in my head being a woman would be alright. but its like.. i dont even know how to decode it #i think some people would call what im feeling being genderfluid. some people might call it something else. it depends on like. you yknow #and what you want. and what makes you smile. me? not quite so sure anymore #and i think its like. this sounds like its laid quite bare right. but its hard to word even. #but sometimes im like. am i just like. talking ...? yknow what i mean.

[duck-n-clover]

Not knowing anything about breaking bad/better call saul sometimes leads to situations such as telling darby yeah there's this pretty bald guy I see on my dash sometimes don't know his name though and them being like... Walter white???? NOT what i meant but horrible phrasing on my part yeah damn.

#this happened awhile ago just saw the guy on my dash tho. so i rember #i still dunno tho hdjdj #there might be a few bald guys i dont kneow

[bangcakes]

.

#still crazy to me that i live in a world where i can just ??? message him whenever i want n he replies ??? #we've come such a long way its insane #like this time last year we hadnt even messaged unless it was thru like. the class dc server JDJDJDJDJDJ #actually like a year ago yesterday he blew my fuckin mind bc i was walkin from the parking lot to class n he was just standing there #waiting for me ???????? it blew my fuckin mind bc at that point id given up on him right. i was like ok no way this guys into me but JDJDJDJ #i was super early for the test n he said he had to go put something away in his car n he happened to see me n we talked all the way to #the exam and all b4 JDJDJSSJNSNS #our relationship is so weird. like just so weird #i feel like we gravitate toward each other its..... idek JDNNDDNNDNZ #this has never happened to me b4. like usually i talk to the guy n its like o .... actually ur not what i imagined djdjsjsjs #but this guy #... so annoying bc he gets better every time n we've known each other for over a year now #idk i just.... ive talked about it b4 but our similarities are insane. and like the way we kept bumping into each other ???? #idk its so weird JDJDZJJZJZJS #i think its mutual i really do. i think its just gonna take awhile to make a move. idk if its gonna be me or him but... #yeah im not really worried anymore #personal

[spaciebabie]

if i had like tiered things on kofi that you would pay for "special access" ta things what would u want

#spacie spoinks #dont b shy! #reply on this post or leave me an ask #trying ta figure out if i wanna Do Things #which includes commishes #may or may not do that this summer #depending on how i feel artwise as i get out of this funk #if i do hold comms they'll b on kofi. but you'll also see a post abt it so when/if it happens you'll know #also stickers! still wanna do those #i hafta find the post i did awhile ago ._.

[leguin]

i am capable of getting worked up into the most dramatic knots bc of the 23 year old and was in one half the month, but wednesday we went to a (bad) sushi place and then saw little simz (really good, highly recommend if she's coming to your city and the show isn't sold out yet) and then got pizza (pretty good) and took the bus home together and also drank a lot through pretty much the whole night, and it was a great time all around, and if i could just keep that in mind next time i'm about to make myself miserable about things...

#probably none of which would've happened had we not run into each other monday after he spent a month avoiding me/everyone #for what i assume were the usual unspecified reasons #which. i think the thing that gets me worked up is that never in my life have i had somebody do that shit on a regular basis #and still genuinely want to be friends? it's unbelievably annoying. somewhat hurtful. etc. and with anyone else i would assume that was tha #after the second time it happened. let alone like. the seventh. #but then we end up having such a good time between those times...idk. i think we probably should've gotten drunk together awhile ago tho.

[sagau-my-beloved]

Lost my 50/50 trying to get another archon and now I am 100% sure it’s Venti’s doing

Me too 😭

My fourth loss and on Ei's banner, there's no way I'm gonna be able to save enough to get her now there's just not

I'll be honest I actually teared up, I really wanted to win this one cause who knows when she's gonna show up again, but I guess I have a guarantee for whoever the heck comes down the road I want to pull for, after saving another 90, I'm honestly deviated 🥲

At this point actually winning is going to be cause for week long celebration because I've been playing since late July, almost half a year now, and I haven't won a single banner, every limited character I've gotten has been taken by force

It's getting harder and harder for me to believe that it's actually 50/50, they have to be buffing their numbers or something

I mean what are the odds of flipping a coin on tails 4 times in a row? 1/16?? 6.25℅???? And one loss was on the weapons banner which is supposed to be 75/25℅, so that puts me closer to a 3.125℅ chance that what happened to me could have happened

If this is Venti's fault I'm going to dropkick him istg, I'm broke and running out of primo opportunities, just give me a little mercy pls

#genshin impact #hey look i'm talking #it was like two days ago and i didn't didn't get back on for the rest of the day #it wasn't even a standard five star i wanted #I'm not kidding i have weirdly bad luck in that damn game #from artifact rolls to domain drops and pretty much everything else that requires any ounce of luck #i still haven't gotten a bow billet #I'm pretty sure I've only ever gotten one #this entire game is so frustrating #so many things are based on luck and i just don't have it #on the bright side this made me break out the probability math which I haven't done in awhile #If I lose again it'll be at roughly 1.5℅ #but fr I'm gonna have to start doing character hangouts to get more primos cause I've really been exhausting all my other ways for Ei #my standard banner luck isn't much better i got qiqi twice #let me clarify I've only won three five stars on standard and two of them were qiqi #Which apparently only has a 0.4℅ chance of happening— #wtf is my luck exactly

[mieczyhale]

not sure if tumblr is being tumblr or if i've been dumped by a beloved mutual with no idea what i did wrong

#i wasn't paying a lot of attention bc of family drama + physical illness + mental illness and noticed a day or so ago that i #hadn't seen them on my dash recently so i went to their blog and i wasn't following them anymore #so i followed them again and messaged them and now today i'm not following them apparently #idk if thats on purpose or not #if it is the only thing i can think is that i messaged when i wasn't positive they were taking messages yet #something they had requested people not do for awhile for mental health stuff #so maybe i fucked up there #but otherwise i am at a loss #and tbh really heartbroken about it if it was on purpose #and they had two posts about tumblr and unfollowing and one was how it was dumb for making people unfollow them but the other was how #someone messaged them that they didn't want to hear from ever again #and i dont have timestamps #so #but they werent following me either #so i guess the problem is me?? #quelle surprise #it always is #but i like to at least know why i'm being left #its bad hours of the night / morning and i just discovered i'm still KING at being left #i was just thinking the other day that this hadn't happened in awhile and apparently the universe took that as a challenge #my hope its a glitch paired with my lifelong abandonment issues = a weird unpleasant state of being #maison speaks

[bhaalbitch]

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#I wish there was a way to say something for everyone to see but no one to see at the same time #ugh I just wanna be able to confide to someone without worry but also not feel like I’m saying too much #I’m just thinking abt this shit tht happened awhile ago and how I never told anyone and it’s like whatever it’s resolved but also I feel li #like it’s still affecting me and idk LOLLL #prob delete later because paranoia but UGHHHH UGHHHH

[nedsseveredhead]

I got perma banned from the morbid reality subreddit because while i was in an argument with someone I told them i was gonna kiss them on the mouth (with tongue) and i forgot thats not something you can just say to someone outside of tumblr/niche ffxiv groupchats

#cryp txt #this happened awhile ago but sometimes i still think about it asdfg #for the record i only ever really use reddit to argue with people its catharsis

[arrowpunk]

Gosh this week started out just... so extremely shitty, but these past couple of days have been just... so good. I dunno if I have ever felt more loved and protected and cared about and fought for than I have in the past two days.

#still sucks that the shitty things happened but it's not anything I can help or fix #but just... the outpouring of care I have received from my friends and loved ones in the wake of it all is amazing #so extremely comforting #it's just like usually when I'm navigating difficult situations like the current one #it's stuff that i've got to handle mostly on my own- like there may be people emotionally in my corner- #but nobody who is able to or willing to defend or fight for me #and these past couple of days have just been... so comforting in that regard #so uh yeah y'all know who you are- thank you #it's like a burden has been gently lifted off of me #I was at like the lowest point I've been in Awhile just a couple of days ago #and now suddenly I'm not going it alone- suddenly there are people next to me helping me lift it or just straight up taking it from me #and telling me to go rest for awhile- it's not my responsibility anymore #I can rest #and it's so so so comforting and I am GOING to cry about it the next time I shower #ramblings of an arrow #I love my friends and my friends love me

[probablygayattorneys]

So I was reading a review of GAAC, and it said this…

And then I looked at my own stats…

And I think that maybe…….. I am not as good at these games as I thought I was……

#the great ace attorney chronicles #the great ace attorney chronicles 2 #i mean I did make a post awhile ago about Barok making me feel stupid #but… even if we assume that thirty was for each individual game #so we double it #we’re still barely halfway there #though if you’re looking at my stats for the original trilogy #that is what happens when you played it as a child and remember a lot of it #you can breeze through it #but GAAC was all new and maybe I’m not as smart as I thought I was

[faustsus0]

thinking abt my biggest crush calling me "my love"

#it happened awhile ago but im still like #zoo wee mama