#this didnt turn out how i expected

[hypnosis-microsys]

HI-FU-MIIII

-doppochin-

#hypmic #hypnosis mic #hypnosis microphone #hifumi izanami #i didnt expect him to turn out so good. kind of a slay tbh. #as i was drawing i realised he already has pretty cat-like eyes. #and since he calls girls his -kittens- i figured a little fang would suit him well #also i wanted to add a little extra to his hair so i opted for a little ponytail. but i didnt know how to draw that exactly so i looked up #a ref. and i thought doesnt cheng xiaoshi have a lil ponytail. and then i realised these guys basically have the same haircut. #except hifumi didnt have the ponytail. but now he does. #so uh. i unconsciously noticed that ig. and filled in the ponytail because of cheng xiaoshi. #also he kind of reminds me of dio now. finn agreed. #now ive only got jakurai left but hes giving me some trouble. #tedpost #tedart

[aria0fgold]

Thinking more about my isat au and I'm gonna need to change a LOT more than I thought. First things first, Siffrin's connection to the wish. Since in Of gems and pages, all the wishes stayed the same. So why is Odile the one looping and not Siff? So basically, what I think I'd do in my au is that the Universe decided to change things up a bit.

The first time the Universe granted Siffrin the means to fulfill their wish, things went horribly bad (just look at Loop). So this time, the Universe decided to give this new Siffrin, something a lil different. They still gave Siffrin the timeloop But made Odile his proxy. So that Siffrin may have helpers in this new timeline, with Loop as the guide and Odile helping as well, it Should go better, right??? And since the wish is connected with Siffrin's emotions, the Universe can't just completely make it Odile's problem now, sooo basically... Siffrin can still remember Parts of a previous loop PRIOR to their deaths.

That means during the beginning of canon when Siff was crushed by a boulder, he remembers that. And found Loop as well, but when he accidentally ended up touching a tear, he now Doesn't remember being crushed by a boulder but by being frozen in time. At the same time, he ALSO doesn't remember Anything else prior to it. So he doesn't remember that there's a boulder that can kill him by the entrance of the House, he doesn't remember Loop. All he remembers is that somehow, one way or another, he was frozen in time within the House and needs to be more careful with the tears. And because of the way that the loops affect Siffrin now is faaar too different than how it affected Loop, he can't go forwards or backwards in time. Siff will always awaken back in the meadow and Loop will always have to do their whole speech all over again (which would most likely annoy them immediately cuz why? Why is it so different now? Why can't this Siffrin REMEMBER?)

Odile on the other hand, remembers ALL the loops and finds a lot of discrepancies with Siffrin. It takes awhile for her to meet Loop and they get to talk to each other. Their meeting would be pretty... rocky at first. Loop still getting regarded as a stranger by Odile, Loop finding out that Odile is the one getting affected by the timeloop from their own selfish wish. Even if that Siffrin isn't them, it doesn't change the fact that they both made the same wish. Loop thinkin bout being such a favourite cosmic joke of the Universe that not only were they turned into This, one of their family members are suffering cuz of them. And she doesn't even recognize them. It'd be pretty hard at first too cuz Loop doesn't know that their appearance changed yet, there's no mirror. For Loop, they might still look like Siffrin, right? But Odile's reaction to seeing them says otherwise.

Anyway in this au, stage wise, Odile is the actor, Siffrin is the director, and the Universe is the audience. Book wise, Odile is the character, Siffrin is the writer, and the Universe is the reader. Why is Siffrin the director or the writer and not the Universe? That's because the timeloops are Still connected to his emotions, if something he didn't want to think about happens like, that argument with Bonbon (just as an example. I'm wondering if that'll still happen here considering that only happened because of Siff had memories of all the loops in canon. He doesn't have that in this au anymore), time would loop back still, so in a way, Siff Is writing how the timeloops go.

#aria rants #isat spoilers #isat au #of gems and pages au #ogap au #also why did the Universe choose odile? i like to think that the Universe finds her as being skilled enough to be able #to easily help fulfill that wish considering that she Was able to deduce the timeloop when given enough clues #at the same time. odile also seems to be both really close to siffrin (the fact that they go on secret quests before) #and far away from the party emotionally. odile doesnt regard anyone as ''friends'' and so convinces herself that theyre just colleagues #but deep down. she also knows how much she cares for everyone to the point of willing to do unspeakable things to anyone that #dares harm any of them. she cares so much but doesnt know the word to describe it. friends doesnt cut it. the idea of them #being like family to her hasnt crossed her mind yet when the only family she knows of and have is broken and incomplete (her mom left them) #so shes seems to be emotionally distant from them. she wanted to ask bout continuing traveling with the others but doesnt know How #the Universe sees that and thought that should there be anyone that can easily help siffrin then itd be odile. unfortunately #for the Universe. they didnt quite expect siff being too closed off and dodgy in regards to his own emotions #so it still end up being difficult. even more so now that odile doesnt have the Full picture at all. she has no idea why #this is happening to her in the first place. she only knows it has something to do with siff and during the sequence #before new loop+ happened. the Universe most likely gave odile that chance both out of pity and hope that everything #will finally turn out better This Time. but because of the fact that odile Was dying and she exhausted her craft powers #she cant be brought back to the previous loops easily anymore cuz even if its still connected siff. her ability to be #brought back to loops hinges on craft power as well. siff is just the switch to it. so in a way. shes Supposed to be dead now #but the Universe heard siff's wish and granted the means to save odile as well as grant the previous wish he made #its just that such a wish cant be without a penalty. and that penalty is the timer on odile's life. they have only 99 tries left

[daydadahlias]

Deal Breaker

I had this idea and I ran with it :) happy holidays!

Summary: Michael guffaws. “I know, right? Anyway, sorry, what was I saying?”

“That going to a cabin with my boyfriend’s family for the week is a really bad idea and I should fake my death to get out of it,” Calum grunts back, balling up his briefs haphazardly and cramming them into his bag.

or, the one where Calum's boyfriend invites him to a family Christmas and Calum ends up falling for his cousin.

Word Count: 17,055

Pairing: Ashton Irwin/Calum Hood, Calum Hood/OMC

Rating: T

Content Warnings: homophobia & racism

Read on AO3

#i wanted to finish this before christmas but two days after isn't too bad!! #and it's not really. a Christmas fic #this is a little angsty #yeah i dont really know how to describe it #i just had fun writing (: #and this will be my last fic of 2023!! omg !! #and with this fic !!!! i surpassed my wordcount from last year !!! omg !!!!!!! what a way to end the year im so happy (: #i didnt think id be able to do it but i did ! #i hope some of y'all enjoy #i am not expecting a big turn out with this fic lol #and please let me know if there's any more specific tags or content warning it needs!!!!!!!!!! #lapis

[bluesidedown]

hnggghhggg

#just realized a little too hard that im packing my entire life up into a single suitcse and hitting the road for a month. in a month. #im also turning 24 in a month #both of these things perturb me in some direction or another. #its also 1030pm but i am Vibrating unfortunately #also realized vividly today that ill be attending my college graduation less than 48hrs after landing back in canada #and that will be after 30+ hours in transit coming directly from a 12 hour time difference #so that'll be fun #not really how i imagined graduating when i started my freshman year? #actually dear lord i could not have fathomed Being Here when i was 19 and starying college #i remember hearing about the program im currently doing and thinking 'wow that's incredibly cool but im just not the kind of person #who can do that sort of thing' #i still periodically have moments where i just look around and have to be like Yes I Really Am Here #and yeah turning 24. in a month. that's far too grown up of an age for how i feel inside. #and yeah trvaelljng to 5 vountires in a month again? wild. #didnt think anything could top seeing the great pyramids for out of body wild experiences And Yet. we sure are gonna be going some places. #also being in a serious relationship huh. didnt think this was going to happen until i was 35 if ever. #skmeone needs to tell me why my brain decided to watch wedding dress youtube shorts today with a vague expectation that might be relevant #to my life within a decade. #so yeah all that to say my life feels fucking insane to me. #I Am Not Qualified For This Experience Help #(this is not entirely negative im just ??????)

[clay-pidgeon]

every time i see a yt video without captions i get closer to the end of my metaphorical rope

#krill chirps #my stuff #auditory processing disorder #auditory processing problems #auditory processing issues #apd #like i hate the autocaptioning #4 the censoring and the mix ups #its careless as hell; yeah #but what really gets my goat is when they dont have ANY captions #like didnt even turn on the option #DUDE. ITS THE BARE FUCKING MINIMUM #obligatory also i hate it when captions cut out “unnecessary bits” #not how language works! #you cant just clip out bits of dialogue for ease and expect it to convey the exact same message #AND EVEN IF YOU COULD #disabled ppl deserve to know what people are fucking saying just as much as anyone #doesnt matter what you think is unnecessary #make the bare minimum effort for people. christ

[bunnyb34r]

Having to explain to my mom that 5min crafts is a content farm/what that is. That sure they have some genuine hacks, but a lot are genuinely dangerous and bad

It's like I'm not trying to be the parent, but I've been on the internet daily since I was 9 years old and you respectively have only been on it for maybe 8 years? Consistently? And only on Facebook. Like man the shit I have seen has aged me a lot more mentally than I care to admit.

It's so hard too bc I know I should like a know it all/conspiracy freak when I tell her not to get a reddit bc she's gonna get sucked into a WS cult and get radicalized, or when I tell her Facebook reels is the same as tiktok. Which she has continuously forbade me to have since it came out (bc evil chinese company. It's okay when it's an evil American company though). That she needs to be careful and not just believe whatever she sees, but it's like for once I DO know more and I DO need to be the adult.

Like I remember having so many fucking talks to get her out of that SAVE THE CHILDREN shit and debunking the wayfair shit, and the Hillary Clinton shit, and all this shit. I constantly am telling her "nope that's antisemitism in disguise, heres why" ab stupid theories and shit and why they're harmful and it's like I want to fucking scream

Idk where I was going with this but like god I'm tired

#and she gets mad when im 'parenting' her and its like well then fucking use your brain!!! think before you share shit! ask questions!!!! #had to explain that the reason jfk had a diff coffin on air force one wasn't like a body swap but bc the first casket wasnt secured right #and the man was LEAKING in the fucking casket and they had to get a clean easier to transport one #that it was his family that didnt want it open not the gov like the man had half a fucking head at that point!! what did you expect?! #and then shes like well how do YOU know all this shit. how do you know YOURE right and Its like bc i check my sources?? bc i know how to?? #bc i actually use my brain and dont sit in a digital echo chamber validating what i want to hear #thankfully we dont actually get fox in our house somehow (god probably) and we dont have cable so she cant watch fox & friends #but Facebook is it's own fucking up hill battle and it's like go back to playing 1010! and shit on your phone instead #and she stays on Facebook for that dopamine hit and its like i know you have adhd and your dr doesnt believe you but for godsake #i stg she's the reason my body hair is still turning white. it initially stated bc my dad was causing us so much fucking stress and then #it lessened a bit but now im finding more and more like my body is eating the pigment sgdgdgdgd #im gonna go gray by 35 i stg i have ONE white hair on my head and have gotten several on every part of my body like eyebrows and armpits ect #the funniest is leg hair like oh okay go grandpa #ANYWAYS im tired and i guess i needed to get this out #marquilla

[hi-im-otter]

in red

#ofc i had to make that scene redraw why would i not #i had this in my wips for like a week and a half and thats a lot for me lmao #i mean sorry for the bad perspective especially on the chains they were so hard to draw #and i didnt use a pose reference so the leg looks wierdbut #i still like it tbh #it turned out pretty well for my expectations #the eyes dont look as i imagined but i didnt know how to do them #so this is it #i might draw some sskk doon cuz i miss them #and i have so many manga panels saved you wont imagine #anywaysss oop long tags #hxh #hunter x hunter #hxh fanart #kurapika #•marou art•

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares. #however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up. #the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills. #like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

[ashenberry]

did clicking the right stick always bring up the unity placeholder text or was that a debug tool accidentally left in

#ashen.rambles #i expect you to die #ieytd #consequences of buying game TOO soon #GLAD I KNOW WHATS CAUSING IT THOUGH NOW I CAN TURN IT OFF!!! #with how often i am apperently clicking the stick i have to assume it didnt happen in the last games #ALSO AUDIO ISNT ALWAYS PLAYING but i have. captions :3 #<- THE CAPTIONS SHOULD SHOW UP IN THE FINAL MISSION WHEN IM BLACKING OUT CRINGE THAT IT ISNT. WHAT IS THE BESTIE REGINALD SAYING

[ethereal-engene]

day six: when you became a carat

#forsvt #OML #what i did instead of reading or my studying #YALL I DIDNT NOTICE HOW PRETTY ROCK WITH YOU MV IS LIKE #i had to rewatch this #and be like wow #everything about this mv is beautiful #some of them are kind of simple but i love how this turned out #took a lot longer than i expected #seventeen right here #Seventeen #seventeen gifs #i wISH I GOT EVERYONE BUT IM TIRED IM SO SORRY WOOZI 😭 AND DK AND SOMANY MORE #s.coups #svt gifs #creative carats back at it again #wonwoo #jun #hoshi #vernon #seungkwan #jeonghan #mingyu #attacca u will be forever special to me <3

[barney-x-logs-is-otp-archived]

JUST FINISHED DEAD END SEASON 2 AND I AM NOT OKAY

#dead end #dead end spoilers #LOOK IM TAGGING SPOILERS CUZ IM GONNA RANT IN THE TAGS HERE WE GO #well first of all i started a drawing for nad//yah week last night and now idk what to do with it #cuz like. badyah turned out to be straight #and good for her! straight ppl exist!! #i wouldnt ship a lesbian with a man and the same goes for straight girls with other girls #i just. idk it's a thing thats been on my mind now #ALSO ASMODEUS!!!! #and barnlogs was somehow even more disastrously gay and i love them #COURTNEY FALLEN ANGEL THEORY REAL!!!!! #LOGS HAD AN EMO PHASE AND I NEED TO DRAW IT ASDGSKDHKDHDJD #omg the way norma said 'im bi logs! bi bi bi bi biiii!!' #also lets just pretend pugsley didnt ********* ***** ******* cuz it made me cry #<- (joking! kinda. it was well written and its just the kind of fcked up demon stuff i would expect from this show lmao. i just. yeah) #also i like how the angels werent like. stereotypical angels if that makes sense? #like they werent what normally comes to mind when you think of angels #yknow like feathery wings and white robe thingies and golden halos #ig these angels still have halos but like. different #WAIT I ALMOST FORGOT THE SCENE EVER #'*something about the new thread count of the shirts* i want my old shirt back‚‚‚‚' #'why dont you... take it off?' #I ACTUALLY DIED #also barney whos making fun of you for your weight and your binder?! i want names. i just want to talk 🔪 #k well its midnight so time to go to bed and cry over a cartoon dog 👍

[silverislander]

rereading a book i loved in high school to annotate a copy. remembering why it connected w me so much

#its the miseducation of cameron post btw #i read it literally 3 times in the space of 2mos almost back to back #i brought it on two trips- that was the year we went to austria and the year i went to national music camp #and like. yeah. yeah i guess that was why #smth abt that book just really cuts to the heart of what it was like for me growing up in the church #my church wasnt the wbc or anything ofc but like. they also werent/arent queer affirming and its hard to explain how it hurt me #bc everyone expects a story where someone sits me down and like. threatens to beat me if im gay or whatever #that didnt happen. its just that i figured out by osmosis from this environment that i was wrong and that i should be ashamed #and nobody ever challenged that assertion so it stuck for years afterwards #its like growing up in a house w mold in it youll never really know that its there until youre told but you know smth is hurting you #and by the time you realize what it is its gonna take fucking forever to remove #and thats how it is w cameron! she knows long before shes sent to the camp #i just keep coming back to how everyone who went to nationals w me came back talking abt this amazing spiritual experience they had #and how much it meant to them to be able to go #and all i was thinking was that i didnt make even 1 friend and everyone treated me like i was fucking diseased the entire time #the guys didnt want me around bc i was a girl and the girls didnt want me around bc i wasnt a girl to them #my roommate acted scared of me from day fucking one and i still dont really know why. wouldnt stay in the room w me #i would sit down somewhere in the common area and people physically turned away from me to have their own conversations #i think they knew. i wasnt out at camp ofc but im p sure they knew smth was up w me #levi.txt #idk. i dont have a Trauma to point to but i feel like calling the effects of what the church did to me religious trauma is appropriate #it fucked me up so so bad. i had to work through so much shit and im still not out of it #today im not ashamed of being queer but im still discovering new issues that living like that gave me all the time #ultimately. im ok rn dw just thinking a lot. its a great book im glad to reread it and really analyze it! its fun

[lunar-fey]

:( i was so close to finally getting my sleep schedule fixed but for some reason my alarm didnt fucking go off so i slept a full 8 hours instead of taking a 3 hour nap. i was supposed to to to bed in like. 5 hours. not gonna happen now 😔

#this is genuinely upsetting ive been trying for a MONTH now to readjust things so im not sleeping #during the entirety of the day #bc i like have Important Shit To Do #but i simply cannot stay awake when the sun is out and i simply cannot sleep when it is dark. just end me #like genuinely about to cry. ive been needing to call the fucking office about my work program #bc they forgot to . im acruwllt too upset to words right now. but theh forgot to “something” and ive #been trying to call them for WEEKS #but no matter how many alarms i set my ass is UNCONSCIOUSS for all of their business hours. #im so fucking sick of it i was sleeping just fine at night just two months ago. #but i physically cannot stay awake for a full 16 hours #so i keep taking a nap when i mean to sleep - just sleeping like an hour and then being physically unable to sleep more #and then when i try to take a nap i just sleep for 6-8 hours no matter how many alarms i have set. #i THINK the problem is im able to turn off my alarm without waking up. #i have to solve a little puzzle to turn it off but that doesnt help :( #like it aint aeven entirelt about me bc i could sene thenoffice an email whenever. #but id prefer to do it during business hours cause i already sent one in the night and they never responded #but More Importantly #the animals keep not getting fed at all bc im asleep :(( #oh and Also my stomach is fucked #bc i wasnt expecting to sleep so long so i didnt eat beforehad..... now im so hingry i feel like im gonna hu #hurl*