#thinking about a very different kind of biochem

[sandinthemachine]

You know what be cute cuddling with horangi with a deep voice more rumbly just waking up and he give the best hugs.

Sure he might let you go of you give a few kisses and cute bumping of the nose. He needs you to giggle first and he lets you go.

And okay you being stubborn and don't want to sleep okay carry you bridal style. Or maybe carry like those mama cats carry they kitten cause you're being to wiggley

The thought of someone being carried by the neck like a kitten is so funny to me ngl, that's a König thing to do for sure. But this is so sweet aww

Alright, ya got me. Have a little good-morning fluff drabble. On the house

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A sudden shiver pulls your body from sleep, bleary eyes taking in the deep blue-grey of the room, soft and fuzzy. Just dark enough that all of the sharp edges and corners blur, making the entire room feel wispy and ethereal. Comfy.

A cool breeze tickles over your exposed shoulders, sending another shudder reverberating through your ribcage.

Ah, that'll do it.

You had never bothered to shut your window last night. It had been...a bit too hot for that.

You smile at the thought, slowly sliding a leg out from under the sheets into the frigid air.

A warm arm tightens around your torso.

How does he always know?

You let yourself fall again, pulled back against a pillowy chest. You wiggle, shifting your hips, and another arm slides around your waist, holding you still. The delicate outline of a nose and lips press into your neck, soft breaths tickling over the sensitive skin.

"Horangi."

He only grunts, gravelly and deep, shoving his face even further into you.

"I need to close the window."

"I'll keep you warm."

You giggle at the slurred voice, heavy and resonant. It always is when he first wakes. With a sigh you shift again, curling your fingers around one of his arms. Tracing the lines of ink you know by heart.

He shivers.

And with you so tight against him, it sets you shivering too.

"Will you let me shut the window now?"

A sound, gritty and rough, rumbles his throat. Halfway between a groan and a sigh. His head tilts, nose and lips skating over your skin.

His tongue darts out just as fingers slide up your side, and you squeal, writhing against him.

A laugh shakes his body, rumbling thunder crackling and rolling, his chest heaving against you before he lets you go.

As you roll, a hand catches the back of your head, fingers curling into your hair, guiding you back, and his lips are on you, warm and wet and too soft. His fingers are tight in your hair, but the knuckles of the other hand stroke your cheek, gentle and smooth.

You sigh, head falling back into his hand, feeling his smile against yours.

And then he's pulling away, tucking the blanket over his whole body as he flops belly first into the mattress. "Better close the window, then. And get right back here."

You grin at that, skipping across the room to slide the pane closed, pausing to watch the rivulets of water run down the cool glass. They merge into each other, streaking across the canvas, stray paintbrushes full of blues and greens and greys, shining first this color and then that as the low light catches them.

Hands wrap around your hips, tugging you back, and you squeak.

'Wha-hey!"

His hands rise, flinging you up and catching you, arms tight under your legs and shoulders. "You took too long."

"It was five seconds!" You throw your head back, laughing as he lays you on the bed. "I'm sure you can wait that-"

Your retort is cut off with an oof as he drops his entire weight onto you. "Too long."

You giggle, wiggling an arm free to brush his hair off his forehead. "Whatever you say, tiger."

He rumbles happily, burying his face into your chest. And within seconds, he's asleep again.

#wrote this in a biochem lecture #thinking about a very different kind of biochem #whoops #horangi #horangi x reader #still not really sure about his characterization tbh #so I'll just be learning as I go #also horangi has a cool tattoo sleeve because tattoos are hot #and he speaks in grumbles and unintelligible sounds in the morning #anon replies

[ms-demeanor]

(remaking the post because you can't edit polls and i gave the wrong options)

Alright I'm registering for classes and someone needs to talk me out of doing stupid shit but I'm unsure of what shit is stupidest.

Winter term:

I just finished an 8-week photo class that ended up being a huge investment in time just to go and shoot. However that was introductory photography and there is a 6-week intermediate photography class over winter term. I am signed up for photography. (Elective option for AA in Visual Arts)

There is also a 6-week introductory python course over winter term that I am signed up for and will be taking. I'm solid on that one, as long as I pass my C# class this term I'm going to be taking Python for 6 weeks at the beginning of the year.

Spring term:

College Chemistry Saturday class. 7am to 12pm for sixteen weeks. Lab and lecture; this school doesn't offer any chem classes that are after standard 9-5 hours during the regular week or that can be taken even partially online. Pretty sure I'm going to be stuck with this one and am configuring the rest of my schedule around being *less* miserable because of this class.

Survey of Western Art - Online, seems like a gimme. Does have a textbook but not one that I'm going to pay for. (Required for AA in Visual Arts)

2-Dimensional Design - Online, seems fun and like a gimme, Free/No textbook. (Required for AA in Visual Arts)

Object-Oriented Programming - Online, seems difficult, expensive textbook. Will probably be very necessary if I end up going down a more CS/tech path. Probably going to force myself to take this class.

Java Programming - Online, seems not unapproachable, expensive textbook. I don't particularly wanna but my school offers really limited options for computer science and I want to get what I can out of it before I go somewhere else.

Rationale for these weird combinations:

I'm applying as a nursing student at three schools and a biochem student at one of those schools (nutrition programs are apparently only for first-time students; 2nd Bachelor's applications are a lot more limited. I could apply to major in Francophone Studies at one of the schools though). Supposing I get accepted, these classes certainly won't hurt my status at any school that accepts me and the chemistry class is going to be really really necessary. This is the "i give a fuck about nutrition science and also directly helping people" path and if I go this way I'm interested in NP programs down the line. LOTS more school of the serious "I can't work and do this kind of school at the same time" variety.

If I *don't* get accepted to the programs I'm applying to, I'm going to go to a different community college and start working on a couple of AS degrees in computer junk (network admin and security management, computer and networking technology) and get some computer junk certs. I don't think I want/need a BS in compute science, this is the "practical" route of "I could finish this stuff pretty easily and continue working in a field where I have a lot of connections and familiarity with the industry but I am indifferent about a lot of it (pretty passionate about security and accessibility tho). Also allows me to keep working while I just churn school in the background, and all of the computer classes are transferable between the two schools.

Art classes: I think having multiple degrees is funney. I am currently 5 classes away from an AA in visual arts, at the end of this term I will be 4 classes away; if I take all the classes here and can take an elective over the summer I'll have a degree in visual arts. (There is a reasonable possibility that I'll continue taking bullshit classes behind the scenes to get silly degrees regardless of what happens otherwise)

Pretty sure the sensible thing is to drop *at least* photography and survey of western art and also possibly Java and 2D design. I'm somewhat concerned that if my spring term is just Saturday chem and object oriented programming I will start biting things.

So:

[queerbaitesque]

i think the reason re8 wasn't as well executed as re7 is because they tried to convey too many things at once.

in re7 the main villain is a 10 year old girl abused by a secret corporation that wants to turn her into a bioweapon when all she wants is a normal family. however she has only ever known authority and hierarchy, not the love and affection that should exist within an actual family, therefore she is only able to create a toxic home with a strict hierarchy where every new member is at the bottom of the food chain. jack is the abusive father who delights in torturing his children, marguerite is reduced to her reproductive organs, as her role is solely that of the mother who bears new children, and is otherwise just a very disguting annoyance. lucas is the product of this toxic home, showing that it isn't genetics that play the biggest role in the child's education (he has been cured of the mold and is acting solely of his own free will) and that cycles of violence and abuse are not easily broken. however they can be broken, and we see that in zoe, who goes out of her way and risks her own life to help ethan. mia, while technically the "younger sibling", is probably just a step above lucas in the hierarchy because of her bond with eveline and her ability to adapt. when ethan "joins" the little family unit, he is nothing but the scared little kid who's just trying to run and hide from his father, a practically impossible task in the claustrophobic house.

this all works because this is all the game is about. it's not trying to be anything else or to make bigger statements or commentary. the first re game was about the collapse and moral corruption of modern society (with the cannibal zombies) as well as the obsession with modernizing warfare by developing bioweapons to be used arbitrarily on the civilian population, who become mere test subjects for the military industrial complex.

re7 focuses on the moral decay of the family unit as a sort of case study for the larger aforementioned collapse of modern society, as it is both a direct result of a human-made biochemical disaster and the sum of every toxic and abusive ideal of patriarchal society.

re8 at its core is about pollution, with moreau being the most self explainatory case. however, the problem with re8 is that every one of the four lords represents a different thing, and the player doesnt really get enough time with any of them to really unpack anything. re8 tries to recreate the family unit we had in re7 but at the same time it wants to talk about how the nobility is nothing but a very pretty looking blood sucking parasite, and also about how pollution is bad for the fish, and about how technological advancement requires the utter annihilation of the natural landscape to make way for factories that produce machine-human hybrids, but it's also about family.

mother miranda tries to make a family for herself, but she fails miserably as she isn't interested in any of her "children", instead focused on exploiting them to create the perfect child. alcina, the nobility, has some pretty evident issues with authority; she's used to being the ruling class, the one with all the power and who exploits those below her; she also has daughters of her own, so she clearly isn't interested in miranda's plans. moreau is the most pathetic and also most obvious Lord Of Pollution, as there is nothing else really going on with him. he is a poisonous creature the spreads disease at his every breath. heisenberg is the rebellious son who wants to break away from his overbearing mother's control, the mother who put him on earth without his permission, who changed him without his permission, but he is the worst kind of pollution that exists: war. he cannot break the cycle and is not interested in doing so.

donna is the one that stands out the most to me, as she doesnt really represent any kind of physical pollution, but rather something that is plaguing our modern society on a much larger scale than ever before: metal illness. she is also the one who, more than any other lord, personifies the theme of the sick and twisted family; she taunts ethan with his insecurities about being a parent, about his own body and his own "wrongs" that his child might have inherited from him (scary giant fetus). she also makes him to take apart a mannequin modeled after mia, his dead wife, forcing him to deal with his grief and and fear to lose the only family he has left: rose.

it's not a bad game at all, and every lord is a very compelling villain (except maybe moreau) but the game doesnt give any of them nearly enough time to be developed fully and to be truly, undeniably monstrous. not to mention mother miranda, who barely feels like a villain by the end of the game, she's just annoying.

tl;dr: it's a good game, i realy liked it, but it could have benefited from having less characters and from focusing more on the horror than on the action doom-like style of gameplay

#just random thoughts sorry. also im relatively new the RE universe so bear with me #resident evil #resident evil village #re8 #re7 #resident evil biohazard #oh btw i know the other games after re1&2 are more action than horror but re8 is very much advertised as a survival horror game #just like re7 but i think re7 does a much better job than re8 #gaming

[holocene-sims]

What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

What is your favorite thing about your OC?

For Grant Please!

thank you so much!! 🤍💖

1. what is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? how different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

honestly, grant has so many "butterfly effect" moments. i'll try to list a few of the more interesting ones (starting the most obvious one but impossible one, which would be "grant's parents were actually nice and his sister didn't die, so he's a well-adjusted human being with no trauma.")

two alternate paths depend on his career! obviously, we know in canon that he was first an aerospace engineer and secondly a pilot (though currently a bartender - we'll see what happens with his dream job soon!). however, his parents wanted him to be a doctor, and he grew up playing hockey, including in college.

if he hadn't lied to his parents about his college majors and had instead done biochem for them, he'd be MEGA unhappy. he'd be good at his job because he is very smart and willing to learn and he does like looking after people, but again, unhappy here. i'd say he'd be in a specialty that would let him work at a hospital because i think he'd get bored if there weren't a change of scenery/some excitement. specifically, i could see neurosurgery. one, some excitement, and two, i think if he were a doctor, he'd also be insufferably stuck by coincidence in a specialty that his parents would be TOO proud of.

if he stuck with hockey, he'd also be unhappy. he never wanted to do it professionally anyway but let's say he did. it'd be terrible. he'd still have the problem that is his incurable autoimmune disease, so he'd either (1) continue having his previous painkiller addiction fueled by doctors who don't give a fuck about you and only want you to play, or (2) still figure out his own shit and choose to step back from the sport, which would just put him back at square one.

another alternate option for his life would be that he didn't leave los angeles when he required surgery for his condition. then he'd be basically all alone when you know who *cough cough, his ex* cheated on him and that would have been ugly. he also would have been very unhappy here, too, because california was never a place he enjoyed living. he's fine with living outside of his home state but only if he chooses the location (and los angeles was not chosen by him). after the päivi incident, it'd be worse.

last one: what if he didn't break up with päivi? if he stayed with her, he could make it work, but it would NEVER be the same. he'd always be very uncomfortable and fearful around her, and they'd continue to be in conflict. plus, he'd have to consider the reason behind the cheating, which was because she was homesick. 100% he'd be too nervous to assert that he does not want to leave the country to live in finland, a place that he's not super in love with because of his dad, and he'd be stuck probably moving away with her. he's not going to reject her on that if he doesn't break up with her.

SORRY THAT WAS A LOT

but you know, ironically, grant is on the best path tbh, given that his early life is an unchangeable horror that he couldn't control. had he chosen any other path i mentioned, he'd be MUCH worse off. and i didn't even delve into all the times grant attempted to kill himself. had he been successful...well, he'd be dead, but the repercussions on his family and friends would be heartbreaking.

2. what is your favorite thing about your OC?

this is going to sound VERY basic but honestly, i like that grant is just a nice guy despite it all. shannon conveyed to him in a story post that it's amazing he manages to remain so kind and that's true, i think. he COULD be a hateful and bitter person, but somehow, he still tries to see the best in people and would give up everything in him to take care of or be kind to someone.

it's tragic in a way, you know, but still impressive.

i also like that he's learning to know when to put his foot down. he is figuring out that some people actually don't deserve that goodness in him. like i said above about the alternate lives thing, grant is smart and willing to learn, and even though healing is painful and leads him to make some of the most embarrassing "mistakes", he is still learning. he can admit he doesn't know everything (and he certainly doesn't know everything about life.)

#tw suicide mention #hlcn: story extras #hlcn: oc info #hlcn: grant #honestly the AU/alternate life choice questions give me SO many ideas #i tried to answer it shortly but i could do a whole debrief about him had he chosen those other paths

[blorbologist]

Growing up, if Percy hadn’t been so interested in engineering and metal work and instead, took the path of biological sciences, what kind of character/person do you think he would be? In your mind, how do you think that would affect the story and whatnot?

Heyo! Saw you sent this to @essayofthoughts - hopefully our answers are different enough!

You have no idea what a delight it was to receive this as a biologist myself >:3c

First point: (fantasy) engineering is something that works on a completely different timeframe to (fantasy/early) biology, and with different rewards. Percy can make a seige arrow in a night of unbridled guilt - you can't grow a flower in that time without magic, let alone make an entirely new morph or something. A lot of biology, until fairly recently, was done with knowledge being the reward, the takeaway, which could then be used, while engineering can make, you know. Guns.

Today of course we can make trangsenic strains of all sorts of species, and do tiny surgery on tiny organisms to lesion regions of the brain or inject something in them, but this is likely beyond the abilities in the setting - again, without magic. Biology just works on too long a timeframe... usually.

I think, first of all, that a more nature-inclined Percy would be more patient than we see in canon - again, long timeframes - and with less DEX but more WIS (for observation) and (even more) INT. Still likely fairly introverted before the Briarwoods, but drawing more satisfaction from knowledge than he already does given he can’t really create much. Given his broad interests in canon, I could see him dabbling in all sorts of fields: basic anatomy and neurobiology (I think neurobio would facinate him, but ofc early neurobio is... dubiously ethical at best. Very best. Fuck.), botany (the poison garden was likely fun), ecology and zoology (the Parchwood is right there!), genetics (as a noble family, the de Rolos likely had horses and hounds of quality, maybe falconry birds too - I could see him having an interest in the breeding of domestic species, and livestock and crops too), maybe some basic microbio (maybe he invents a microscope? If we wanna give him a potential avenue to be a Gunslinger like canon - use microscopy + biochem as the stepping stone to guns).

Next big question, of course, is: if Orthax can't inspire him to produce guns, assuming we don't just use 'Percy invents the microscope which gives him the experience Orthax needs to produce firearms'... what tool of vengeance will Percy use?

My first thought is bioweapons. Weaponize some new pathogen - to which he also produces the vaccine, but no cure because this is *vengeance.* Maybe this Percy is still a Fighter - focused on swords instead, getting right into the fray to unleash the toxin near enemies and stab it into their flesh methodically. Or maybe an Artificer, with things reflavored to be based more in science than a touch of magic. Or Orthax compensates for the lack of guns by making him a Warlock (maybe Percy tries to delude himself his powers are all perfectly non-magical, but... he's not stupid.)

I think it would be very difficult for Vox Machina to sympathize with this Percy. Sure, the guns are terrible, but they're very practical and usually kill quickly enough. They're cool. Bandits dying, frothing at the mouth, as some preternatural poison eats up their nerves... that would be way less easy to justify. Keyleth especially would likely struggle with it, despite getting along with Percy more otherwise. Vex might be a little freaked by it, too, though with Vox Machina and Trinket (and any really trusted allies) vaccinated against it friendly fire shouldn't be possible. How would Vex feel about poisoned arrows, I wonder? How would Percy poke at Fenthras, lighting up with ideas? Would he combine his tallents with the girls' to devastating effect? Use this species for brambleshot, the spines are actually glass. Dragons are reptiles - they usually can't breath and run at the same time, use this to set a trap.

Part of his crawl out of vengeance during/after the Briarwoods arc would likely involve making a cure for his bioweapon. Because though no one can directly reproduce his weapon here, it can spread naturally - through immune individuals or asymptomatic carriers. Hell, probably spreads more quickly than the guns, if the pathogen acts quickly enough to be used in combat.

Of course, I'm die-hard Perc'ahlia, so I can't help but wonder how their dynamic would be impacted. I think they would both still grow close - Percy isn't in sniper's roosts with her anymore, but they can bond over their love of the natural world. This Percy would be absolutely fascinated by Trinket - how the ranger bond and adventuring impacts his behavior, how Vex trained him, etc. which would certainly endear him to her despite the whole 'weaponized virus or whatever' deal. Maybe he loves the Sun Tree, too, used to (pathetically) climb into it as a child despite the protests of the religious because he wanted to know and learn and he shows Vex his initials he carved before he knew it bad to scar a tree like that. Maybe they take time to point out interesting plants or tracks or critters to eachother. Maybe Percy's Nat 20 in the Saundor fight fires something terrible for trees right into the fucker, and for all his curiosity he encourages Keyleth to burn all that remains to the ground. Maybe Grand Mistress of the Grey Hunt means even more, because he had wanted that title for himself when he was young - that's what he was going to be, before, and he’s giving it to her instead.

Tldr; I think a bio-oriented Percy would be fundamentally different to our engineering Percy, due to the rewards and reward timeframe offered by this area of interest. He would also be a far harder character to sympathize with, given the special kind of awful of bioweapons. Like a terrible, angsty Louis Pasteur and Charles Darwin crossover.

#campaign 1 #critical role #percival de rolo #cr percy #cr au #ask #i just request that if you use this long ramble as the basis for an au or a fic that you Ask First and credit appropriately please ;; #percahlia #perc'ahlia

[thompsborn]

ooh ooh!! if it’s not too late: could i get a quick backstory on why the Gang is majoring in what they’re majoring in?

YES ABSOLUTELY OH MY GOD !!!

okay so peter has already stated what he intends to major in. it was in chapter four when he was talking to harry:

Harry’s brows quirk up, just slightly. “Oh, really? What are you planning to major in?” The question makes Peter perk up—these prerequisites are soul sucking, but he can’t lie, he’s excited to eventually make it back into a lab again. “Biochemistry, physics, and chemical engineering,” he says. Then, more as an afterthought, feeling that bubble of energy that he used to get when making a new discovery in the labs at the tower, or coming up with ideas with Ned, he adds, “I’ve also considered mechanical engineering and doing a chemical physics degree instead of separate physics and chemical engineering, but the more I looked into it, the more it seemed like a good idea to do the individual programs first, and then maybe come back one day for chemical physics in the future, you know?”

i picked these degrees because 1. when looking into them, they just felt like what mcu peter would be most interested in, but also 2. the main majors that peter tends to have in the comics is biophysics, bioengineering, and photo journalism, and since photography isn't as big a thing for this version of peter, the other two felt more fitting, but i thought regular physics better suited mcu peter. and then chemical engineering, while often connected to like industrial chemical plants, is basically the development of products through chemical processes. which is like. literally peter making his spidey webs lol.

i haven't officially stated any of the other characters majors in the fic yet so just to be safe i'm going to put theirs under the cut and use the spoilers tag for this post in case anyone wants to wait until it's brought up in the series! (warning: harry's answer is Very Long)

harley's was obviously going to be connected to engineering in some way, that's just like. very obvious in my head for any version of harley that's based on canon and not a total au. specifically, though, i see harley more of like mechanical engineering. while i see peter as more about the chemicals (even though he would also be good at mechanical engineering, esp considering in homecoming it's mentioned that he used to be in the robotics club) i see harley as more like a bot builder, a tinkering kind of dude. kinda like tony. mechanic, you know? i pretty much feel like every version of harley i've written would major in mechanical engineering.

though on my alt ao3 babyloveparkner i have a fic with harley majoring in mechanical and aerospace engineering, electrical and computer engineering, and minoring in chemical and biomolecular engineering, so like... i think mechanical engineering fits him best but i could see him double majoring in something else.

for homeward bound harley specifically? as of now, where we're at in the first fic, he's planning to major in just mechanical engineering, but as the series continues he may become open minded to doing a double major or minoring in something as well. i can definitely see hb harley getting attached to electrical and computer engineering. i haven't decided yet for sure if he'll actually add something else but at the very least he'll consider it at some point.

gwen was kind of hard to decide tbh? because like canonically she is also a stem major, in the comics she specifically majors in biochemistry, but like. idk i wanted to keep her stem and an absolute genius but i wanted to try a slightly different approach.

currently in the fic she's technically undecided other than knowing she wants to go into stem, but as the series progresses she's going to find a passion for criminal justice and forensic science. i may also have her double up with something else, maybe she'll still also get a biochemical degree as well, but with her being involved in peter's investigation and her dad being a cop i can just really easily see her wanting to combine her love of analysis and science with a passion for solving things and helping people. specifically for hb gwen!!

harry was the hardest to figure out because no matter how much i have looked i have not been able to find a single confirmed major for him in any version of canon. like he's also incredibly smart in most versions of canon, especially the most recent game where he's shown to be as nerdy as peter (even though he also states that peter is the smart one out of the two of them) so it's like...

it's really hard because obviously homeward bound harry is VERY different from any version of canon harry, which was done very intentionally because of the fact that in no way home norman mentions the fact that oscorp doesn't exist (which is why i made it so norman exists in hb but that he tried starting up his business during the five years between snaps and in the same industries as stark industries so, while oscorp does exist, it isn't a huge skyscraper like it usually is, which is why raimiverse norman wasn't able to find it and assumed it didn't exist at all) and then norman says "my son..." with this pained expression on his face, basically implying that harry doesn't exist either. but, like with oscorp, i wanted to make it so that harry does exist but norman wouldn't have been able to find him even if he tried going to like a local library and looking him up.

hence the name change - harry lyman - and, also, by making him harry lyman, peter doesn't recognize his last name and connect that he's the son norman mentioned at FEAST. but also that means harry can't know who his dad is, because if he mentions that his dad is norman osborn at any point then peter will be able to connect those dots anyway. therefore, harry doesn't know his dad, and oscorp is a little starter business between norman and otto that's struggling to make it off the ground and build any traction.

but that fundamentally changes harry in a lot of ways, you know? he doesn't have the same daddy issues he has in canon because he doesn't know who his dad is and has had no influence in his life from norman. the most significant thing about his dad is that he was never in his life to begin with. but that also means harry wasn't raised rich, he wasn't raised surrounded by his dad's business, and he isn't expected to take over the company one day like in canon.

so that crosses business degrees off of the list, because without the influence of oscorp and norman, i don't see any reason for harry's character to be interested in any sort of degree relating to business. plus, there's still the fact that his character is shown to be super smart, so a stem degree would make the most sense, and then also there's this connection between him and his friends because they're ALL going in some kind of stem, which i think is cool.

but what stem degree fits harry? specifically homeward bound harry?

i looked through a lot of lists and did a lot of probably unnecessary research into various different types of stem degrees, and i kept hb harry in my head the whole time - the way i've developed his personality, what would make the most sense?

what i've decided on is applied mathematics.

the reason for this is because i can very easily see harry loving math. i haven't really gone in depth with his background prior to the start of the fic - all that's really been established is that he was raised by his single mom, emily, in the suburbs of new york, and up until esu, he never had any friends, which contributes to why he values his friendships with peter, gwen, and harley so much. and, obviously, he doesn't know who his dad is and doesn't really care to find out.

his background is going to be explored more down the line in the series (i've said this before but by the end of the series there's going to be scenes from the pov of everyone in the spidey squad, including harry, and also one shots from various perspectives as well) but what i'll say here is that his childhood was pretty confusing to him. he was happy with his mom, yeah, and he may not have been raised rich but he was never poor, either - he never worried about food or clothes that fit or losing their house. he grew up comfortable.

but also he grew up unsure about a lot of things. he was never able to make friends because he didn't really understand how. the kids at school never seemed to struggle with talking to each other and making up games on the spot and becoming friends in a matter of minutes, but his brain just never worked like that. he could never figure out what to say, he could never really get into the games the other kids wanted to play, and while he liked running around a playground sometimes, he always preferred a book or a worksheet.

he's not neurotypical, is basically what i'm trying to say. then again, literally none of these characters are, but harry was never like a "normal" kid. (harley is kind of similar in the fact that he never really had any friends in rose hill and he never wanted any, either)

so basically, harry struggled to understand a lot of things, like how to make friends, like why he didn't know who his dad was (his mom has always told him that it doesn't matter, which is kind of why harry now doesn't care because he's always been told it doesn't matter so why would be care about something that doesn't matter, right?), and various other things in the world and the people around him.

but he could always understand math. it's consistent. there's rules. sometimes the rules are confusing and kind of convoluted, but with enough practice, even the confusing and convoluted ones can make sense. there were always things he was curious about, too, though, so while he found comfort in the structure of math, he also found intrigue with other stuff, too. he loved to learn. always has.

applied mathematics feels like it makes sense for homeward bound harry, because applied mathematics is literally the application of mathematical methods in different fields. it can apply to physics. it can apply to medicine. it can apply to finance and business. computer science. engineering. biology. robotics. SO many things.

he loves to learn and i think he would love to be able to apply math, something he's always loved and found some comfort in due to it's consistency and that he's always found fun due to it feeling kind of like a puzzle he needs to solve, to various other fields that he would also love to learn about. it's all encompassing.

that's a really long explanation i'm sorry i didn't mean for the answer to end up this long but!!! those are the majors that i've decided on for the core four in homeward bound!!

#homeward bound fic #homeward bound fic spoilers

[inkofamethyst]

March 8, 2023

No one would ever get this out of me irl but I very occasionally, at the peripheries of my thoughts wonder what might have been if I had agreed to go out with that guy from biochem. (Can you tell that Hadestown has had an effect? This is dizzying. Next thing you know I'm going to be begging to have a crush (but also I'm very picky about my crushes bc they can't be undergrads (lol tbf I'm only barely not an undergrad myself), they can't be in my department, and they have to be someone I see somewhat regularly (no passerby crushes)).) Because part of the reason I said no was fear and part of it was that I was in excruciating pain when we had that study date (mostly the fear though), and then there was also the whole being devastated about not getting to show off that solo that I worked really hard on. Bad vibes all around. But he wasn't a bad guy. I was just scared.

Even still, I can't seem to remember his name.

[edit, next day: I wrote the above last night and you would not believe the butterflies I got today when all I did was make eye contact with some (very attractive) dude before a class. Ridiculous. (I have the need to catch his eye again.) This is gonna be like bike-boy from junior year lol. Or the caving dude, also from junior year (literally who did I think I was, trying to go caving just to get close to a man??? Lowkey still wish I'd been able to get in on that trip, but alas).]

God, I really cannot dance. Was recently informed that alum from my undergrad uni would be restricted in their GDrive space so I went in and culled (will ultimately have to remove half of what I have stored) a bit. In early pandemic days there was some Broadway challenge (it was basically a big ad but it was fun and free (and very successful, incredibly marketed), so) where each week you'd have to take time to learn a song or dance or something and post it and I saved my dance video to my uni GDrive and it's AWFUL. Like the steps are all there, I can remember them (because I drilled it hard) but I'm so clunky lookin--it's dreadful. IT'S SO BADDD. (keep in mind it was newsies though so like it is bad but the choreo isn't helping either) But. If nothing else, I keep that smile on lock(down). I haven't watched any of the theatre tapes from high school but that doesn't make me excited to see them, beyond hating the recorded sound of me singing, bleh.

Found out what next year's stipend numbers are going to be and there's still literally no way I'd be able to make it work with my current savings rates (25% (also I'll be increasing my estimated taxes to 30% from 25%)) without help. It feels kind of weird to say this because I truly miss my grandmother so much like it's not even funny, but she's helping me so much right now.

Want to make a text-based, randomized, hunger-games-style battle royale game in python for my friends to play. In a different life, I think I could've been a game dev. Literally. Writing, music, computer science (I don't really do visual arts though). To be fair, like, there's nothing stopping me from trying. On the side, just for fun, coming up with minigames. I think I'd need to become like Brandon Sanderson though, where I relax by doing something (actually, now that I think about it, I'm not that far off, it's just that I don't have a ton of access to my favorite hobbies rn (music, sewing, etc)).

Today I'm thankful for how beautiful biology can be sometimes. I love how we find reflections of the same ideas at all levels!!! Recently I was thinking about multicellular organisms, and how they're just a bunch of different cell types that have different jobs with the goal of all working toward the greater good of staying alive together. And you don't just see this in things like animals! There are unicellular organisms that form colonies when times get tough, and they sometimes will even divide out work amongst themselves. And at the multi-organismal level, people banded together during those early days of covid to make sure the elderly were fed, that we were getting fitness classes, that we could see performances. And I know this is a basic idea in biology, but that doesn't stop it from being beautiful.

[edit: I finished all of my pre-spring break homework!!!! Let the breaking begin!!!!]

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

You know, one thing that does frustrate me with the societal approach to mental health is the focus on curing things. Specifically why this frustrates me is with situations like mine, while the depression and suicidal tendencies might still be there anyway, there's deep systemic problems in my life that need addressing

And like... I don't take meds. This isn't some superiority thing, it's a combination of having trouble even getting through antibiotics at the right time for a while week, not liking side effects, and knowing that there's concrete things that need to change in my life before I can feel better

It gets frustrating having well meaning people be like "well I hope you find a med that works for you". I'm not looking for one, I don't want that. A crumb of affection would do more for me than any medication

So the frustrating part is I'm very supportive of people who find meds for any condition help them, I just wish people would support me in making my own health choices

Honestly I don't even want to not be depressed. I don't mind the depression. What I want is to be able to consistently get the things that are important to me done (and if I dare to dream big, be treated in a way that lets me slowly work on my self worth, even if that's unlikely to every truly fully heal)

I don't know, just a thought. Saw something about using mushrooms in conjunction with therapy (which I'm for) but the focus of the story was on how it cured a lot of people of their depression and... I don't know... I get tired of that focus and that narrative... I feel very left behind by it because that will never be me in part cause that's not what I want for me

I want to improve my little slice of the world, and I want to be loved (which I honestly don't believe is possible at this point, it's gotten to the point that's in my core beliefs). If I had those two things I'd be pretty happy. I can be pretty happy while being depressed, I'm just not right now

It's really tough because I hear this kind of sentiment from clients a lot, and it's like a 50/50 shot that eventually they DO hit on a medication that (while not a cure) is revelatory for them in some really significant way.

I had the same thing happen to me. Took decades, but I eventually hit on the med triad that did the trick. Weirdly, adding a blood-brain-barrier-permeable antihistimine to my routine has done more for my depression than an SSRI has ever done. The joys of autoimmune disorders I guess.

I don't think meds are magic, but they are often life rafts. Something to cling to and keep you afloat while you rest for a bit and then gradually teach yourself how to paddle in towards shore from the deep ocean where you've been drowning. I wish they were talked about in that capacity more in mental health care because I think that would help a lot of people feel more comfortable and informed during the decision making processes around meds.

That said, the more we learn about mental health, the clearer it becomes that "cures" aren't really the goal there. The goal is increased quality of life, and that's....basically it. I really like the language that diagnosis has started to take on of "remission" for mental health needs. You aren't cured of your depression if treatment is successful. Your depression symptoms go into remission when treatment is successful. It leaves so much more room for different versions of what makes a "good ending" to treatment, as well as taking away the ability to treat renewed symptom presentation as a failure on the part of the person or past treatment.

Then you've got diagnoses like ADHD, autism, schizophrenia, personality disorders, etc where neurobiology tells us that the mental health needs and experiences go beyond the functional/behavioral and biochemical. There are structural differences to the way people with these mental health presentations experience cognition, sensory processing, memory, etc. In these cases, you don't even seek remission, you seek accommodation.

When you reframe mental health care as being about increasing a person's quality of life, and combine it with client-centered care, you create a lot more space for the vastness of neurodiversity to be seen as part of "successful treatment" which I think matters a lot in how providers end up conceptualizing their care.

This is all pretty simplified ramblings to be sure, but I don't think yall want to hear about my methodological opinions on specific modalities and theories lol (although the popularity of some of my recent conversations about conceptualizing autism might suggest otherwise).

Anyway, your point about how environmental factors are really impactful of the outcome of treatment is super important and something that, during my MSW, we as students actually spent A LOT of time talking about. It's one of the reasons I chose social work instead of psychology as a professional degree despite the fact that - from a research and specialization perspective - psychology might have made more sense for me as a licensure arena. Social work tends to recognize the necessity of supportive environments as a foundational componant of care and treatment more consistently than psychology does imo. At any rate, I see a lot more visible acknowledgement and discussion of how to help clients when their environment is clearly a primary source of concern. It's still something a lot of providers struggle with tho, for a variety of reasons.

The explanation that tends to be most generous towards my profession is that it would be literally impossible for us to be both therapist AND caseworker for our clients. Those are two drastically different roles, with different skillsets, both of which are extremely resource-intensive for us as providers to the point that a single provider simply would not be able to do both. This is.....not always the most appropriate explanation for why problems around environmental needs arise, but it's certainly a baseline issue that exacerbates all the other less generous criticisms of providers. Having been on both sides (casework and therapy) of this co-occuring care, I can say personally that every time I was someone's caseworker I wished I could ensure they were getting equivalently quality care on the therapy end, and as a therapist about half my cases would benefit IMMENSELY from a good caseworker if only I could ensure access to that for them. Being able to only address one half of the needs is....frankly rage inducing and a little traumatizing for me as a provider. I know that the care being provided to these dual need clients is inadequate, but logistically there is very little I can do about it aside from keep offering a referral to the other half of the care they need.

I can think of 3 clients on my caseload right off the bat whose presentation would probably change over night if they could be provided with a) financial aid, b) a total deep cleaning service, c) a professional, mental health care informed organizer, and d) a regular source of peer support. It's frustrating because I am able to provide none of those things. I can suggest them, or support tiny framework changes that make the needs they would resolve less intensive, but that doesn't change the underlying need that the clients have.

I dunno where I'm going with this exactly anymore, but essentially I think that it's really frustrating, as you say, when mental health care treatment fails to take a holistic view of a person's environment, survival/thriving needs, and systems of support.

[ssickprimus]

if rick and jerry switched bodies, what do you think would have happened?

oh man, me and dee talked about this concept a very, and by that i mean very, long time ago. and well, i must say, that there are some intriguing plot-points in this trope! like there is charm in all that possible exploration….

i guess, the most appealing to me personally, is the sort of things, that they will notice and learn about one another, if they had to endure a whole day in a wholly different body. they’re so very different. starting from age and ending up with height/weight. and rick is a scientist, which is why i imagine, that it would poke his big, fat brain for a whole separate reason alone. like he’s inside a fully human, average body, but then it’s jerry…! he prob be kinda a tad overwhelmed, while jerry would be stunted and dealing with his own part of the ‘problem’. 

for one, they have a different manner of walking/moving. and it’s really a huge deal, if you spent half of your life doing just that one thing, in that specific way, but now you kinda just can’t, bc it’s not your body. it doesn’t know what you want it to do! and like, how fast and well, will they adjust? i mean, rick will prob get a swing of it way faster, since he most likely already had an experience like that. but jerry? dang, it would be a disaster for him to try and control rick’s not always coordinated limbs. esp if rick’s body is intoxicated and jerry finds himself swaying, and being nearly black-out drunk. the drool pours out of his mouth, uncontrollably, he slurs and he’s dizzy. always unstable, and those fingers are too long, and he feels so unclean, bc rick’s underwear sure be crusty as hell, and he kind of wants to piss? and what the hell are those weird hair even? how these hairs even exist? like jerry will have a lot to unpack. while rick will touch jerry’s cheeks and be like, huh, such soft skin and cheeks are smooth, fatter than rick’s own. and there aren't any deep wrinkles, or any age dryness to it. his mouth feels like a fresh mint, and he’s so oddly clean, smells of soap and cologne, and ugh, that belly is kinda annoying? moves when he does? fingers shorter, fatter too. how to do smth cosmic and cool with these?? 

it’s smaller things, that show just how different they are. and how differently their functions work. like si-fi usually loves keeping it casual. the trope being there for giggles, but i love the edge of them just being shocked with how the other feels like. and how they feel like him. it almost like a demon possession, haha. 

and then, while rick will work on ‘cure’, they will have to endure all those changes and attempt to make peace with them. adapt to how to move that new body and how to make sense of how they feel. jerry’s body be more healthy, and rick’s be more beat-down, high with energy, but also some robot parts would feel weird, i imagine. not work like normal organs and how many of them, rick have? i personally love rick that doesn’t have a lot of modifications, but maybe, his liver will be idk biochemical and jerry will feel, that smth is off. it might bother him, since he might assume, that rick is kinda sick, and not just has smth different inside his organs. like jerry doesn’t know that stuff! meanwhile, rick creepily touches jerry’s body (his for now) and collects new data. dang, jerry is so fucking sensitive. has a lot of places, that make him feel weird, if he touches or rubs them. and then, there is a lot of that sweat and his skin crawls from some simple stimulation. huh. such a sissy, jer is. 

eventually, they will have to take a piss or whatever, and then, the dick on itself is also very different, haha. while there will be no actual panic, bc it’s not different for the brain. like how exactly to pee. but jerry will be unpleasantly surprised with how huge the cock is, if you’re a rick, and then how there is also an age factor there too. saggy balls and not all that great working bladder. a lot of blue pubes, and huh blue there too? and then, the horror. he has to touch rick’s dick, that is kinda his for the time being. so this will be another shock wave. like he touches rick’s dick, but he’s the one who feels, what rick would have felt. mindfuck ensues, haha. but rick is — rick be less pansy about it. rick be actually curious to peek down jerry’s pants. as he expected nothing too impressive down there, but prob a bit bigger, than he expected and it's a young dick, haha. and he’s sensitive there too, bc jerry is just one jumping nerve, it seems. and rick thinking about touching jerry’s dick, might actually give him an erection. in jerry’s body. so now, he can also collect data on how jerry feels, when he’s jerking off. it’s a separate experience on its own. jerry can only dream of being this bold, or is he…? it’s not like rick would know, anyway. *shifty eyes* 

but their clothes feel different too, i assume. jerry will be wondering how rick can stand so many layers. and rick will have to get used to v-collar, since it’s kinda weird and jerry has so much hair-gel used, and what for? would he even bother to make his hair, doubt it, haha. and not to mention, that they will also have an access to each other’s mimic now. can make one another make any face. make one another say anything, literally whatever in each other’s voice. like jerry coming up with compliments to himself in rick’s voice, getting riled up bc of it lol. sjefherg. that’s some good stuff. and rick making jerry say dumbest shit ever, telling beth to eat shit, bc it would give jerry troubles later. tell his kids to go and get a job, or do their fucking chores. being dick to everyone as jerry sounds oddly fun. in very childish way. and then, praise rick (himself) in his voice, in front of the whole family lol. everybody be like ooohh okay, weird again then? jerry in rick’s body attempting to do some damage control, but then remembering that he was supposed to act like an asshole and shit on everyone’s existence. and then, surprisingly being good at it, bc he’s drunk and has a latent actor talent, and rick as jerry be like *two can play this game*. and parody jerry to a hilariously poor extent. in the end, they will kinda rp-ying almost, all while attempting to solve their problem. 

on a more shippy, naughty note. it’s not all that hard to picture them noticing stuff, that this body likes about them. like getting an odd sense of tingle, if they touch and it happens in the whole other body, but is it their own brain, that makes the sensation or…? and speaking of the brain, i kinda wonder if the intelligence level would stick with the original body, bc it’s not part of personality, it’s more of a biological matter. so jerry is now a genius, but they both don’t find out about it, till later. like all this time, rick was using his memory, not pure intelligence capacity per say. and jerry is like hey, this just come to my mind and does smth, that only rick can do, bc it’s rick’s brain and jerry’s fantasy. his motivation. so it’s even better vs what rick would have done. bc they think differently still. and he finds how scaringly capable jerry might be and it’s…ow, it’s terrifying actually. must keep him dubm forever lol. and jer is low-key oblivious to it, so rick attempt to gaslight him and be like okay, so maybe you should fix/make the thing, that will return all to normal. he talks jerry through it at first. but jerry be like hey, this would kill us wtf. and does smth differently. and it works. and rick be like yeah it f-fucking worked bc of my huge genious and it’s not – urrpp - that’s not you, jerry. 

then, when back in their bodies, i wonder what will be different. like rick will find out, that jerry took a shower, and dressed him in fresh clothes. maybe, even forced rick’s body to ear a proper meal. and jer be like, dang i smell, and what is this feeling? did he take my blood or smth? rick is a shitty host, after all, haha. 

*clears throat* well, it got hella long, but i think, that there is a lot of fun, that can be done with this particular setting. it’s like literally letting your otp be under the other person’s skin. feel like them. see like them. talk like them. move like them. see how other people treat them. this is as close as it can get to knowing one another, really, haha.

literally knowing one another inside-out.

#ask #jerrick body swap #haha had a bit more fun with one than i fist assumed

[baezdylan]

Jo, jo, jo, jo!! I recently came up with a Nerdy Sciency Analogy for relationships,and i thought you might appreciate it.

In our Microbiology Course we learnt this term “pleomorphic”: having no concrete shape, but being able to change shape according to the condition. What if: some relationships are pleomorphic?

in the sense that they dont fall into definitions or romantic or platonic love, they just are, in their unique existence. They can change roles when appropriate: they can be siblings or lovers or the parent and the child, the teacher, or each other’s biggest fans. And the only strictly defined thing is: the love they have for each other. this fluidity makes that kind of bond so rare to come by, so special, but also fragile.

Im pretty sure some (platonic) otps came to your mind with that description? 😉

I UNIRONICALLY LOVE YOU FOR THIS?????? OK OK HEAR ME OUT!!!!! I'M GONNA BE VERY WEIRD ABOUT THIS, BUT HEAR ME OUT!!!!! Soooo pleomorphism is usually related to bacteria and it's primarily dependent on the environment. BUT MY FAVOURITE THING ABOUT THE CONCEPT IS: the term isn't reserved for the three common bacteria shapes (cocci, bacilli and spirochaetes), like it doesn't mean those three are the only available options, SOME OF THESE ARE PEAR-SHAPED, SOME OF THESE DON'T HAVE A CELL WALL, SOME OF THESE ARE HELIX SHAPED IT'S ALL SO SJDJSJDKDKKDKSKDKD IT'S LITERALLY MAGICCCCCC LIKE DUDEEEEE ❗❗❗❗❗❗ And with relationships it's more like... take all of those different shapes and call them pocket realities... one relationship + pleomorphism -> (take love as the catalyst here) infinite number of pocket realities for said relationship, infinite number of (impressionistic?) paintings set in motion...

THE FRAGILE BIT!!!! Y E A H !!!! That's making me think of... the time vortex simultaneously connecting and separating these pocket realities... what if there's some kind of crack in the time/space tissue and all these indefinable relationship forms start to slip into realities that weren't meant for them... Maybe that's what happens! Maybe that's why we can't label them? Because with pleomorphism the environment is a huge factor... but biology and biochem are... so different in theory and in practice... like with bio the improbable thing in theory isn't the least likely thing to happen in practice, most of the time it's an inevitability actually... So these relationships are functioning on the for each heart - a word principle and we just don't have that many words...

You're my person, you're literally my person, I'm gonna change my platonic otp tags right this second...

#💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #saved 👻 #DW CORE #sorry for being a big time nerd i had a microbiology phase in sixth grade #this is so chaotic and so Out There but hopefully i'm making sense #like this is very JoChase's Mind (unfiltered version) #did i just invent a chemical reaction for this? HELL YEAH #i wonder if it's a reversible reaction... hm #bro i just love chem and bio so much

[hemipteran]

things I do / to do bc the current state of the world makes my mouth feel so fucking parched it’s like a death desert of creativity in this bitch

reminder: u do not have to do any of these things. humans just have a noose around their necks that is self created (sad truth) and these do actually help. Our boy in heaven endorses ;)

1) don’t freak out. Or do. But it doesn’t help. Everything only scary bc ppl made it scary bc they are scared. Sad! Go watch people act weird. Mentally note what you are not personally keen on and find constructive ways to make a better version of urself that is more u based on that.

2) Lawn grass the most watered agricultural plant in the US? And not even at a length to foster biodiversity? Fucking nauseating. Get a mega pack of your favorite kind of plant seeds and sprinkle them wherever u deem necessary whenever u deem necessary. I used to buy individual seed packets now I just get the giant bulk bags of mixed seeds on Amazon. They have good options. “Oh but amazon bad” oh but plants good idgaf about bezobozo it’s cheap and the Earth needs this shit. I am poor. Sad but true! Bonus points (unnecessary but nice) if you mix in some rooting hormone, a dash of some kind of fertilizer or organic matter (fiber, chopped up compost bits, a dash of fertilizer), soak em in water, and lightly clip the shells of the ones that might not otherwise get the nutrients they need.

3) Try to draw a mandala or maze or whatever other puzzle (bonus points for making a new game or puzzle) yourself by hand and be like damn that shit is hard this kind of looks like shit. And then love it because it looks like shit and you made it we need more of that. Post it to ur tumblr or smthing. Take pride in the fact ppl might look at it and be like “wow I fucking hate that.” That’s good, it means ur an individual. Haters will hate at least ur a real boy u know what I’m saying.

4) do weirder things with art. If something freaks you out draw it in a way where it doesn’t. If everything feels hopeless write about where you dream about being in a year or two. Acrylic pens are a personal favorite you can draw on literally anything with those. Think of the options. Another fun idea: oven bake clay and just leaving it in random spots where strangers can find it and take it home if they want. Afraid it will get thrown out? It won’t. Humans secretly love that shit.

5) Learn how to make soap. Or lip balm. Or learn how to make smthing ppl haven’t made before and give it a name. Give urself a tattoo. Or don’t that is probably a bad idea unless ur committed and please for the love of god use actual tattoo needles and ink if u do. (U can always go over it again & again if it heals like shit just make sure it doesn’t look like shit the first time, and it doesn’t get infected, and it is moisturized)

6) Write a letter. Write a book you’ll never publish. Or one u will publish. Or one you’ll use in a different way. Or one where you post sections of it to your tumblr or Facebook or whatever else so people are like wtf is this what does it mean. Laugh at them. (doesn’t have 2 mean just izzz)

7) Set an alarm for a certain time of day and do something that feels worthwhile to u at that time of day. Options include but are not limited to: DRINKING A BIG CUP OF GREEN TEA, taking some form of omega 3 &/or fiber supplement (garlic, onion, ginger, and tumeric w black pepper are also great) (cream of tartar is basically just potassium if you suck at getting that electrolyte in) (creatine allows ur body to restore ATP [energy molecule] way better under stress it’s not just some preworkout shit) mmm good biochemical concoctions make body and microbiome happy, reading a couple pages out of a book, coloring, brainstorming, drawing something while focusing on the best shit you can imagine, observing the patterns within nature, taking a few pictures / drawing something you find very nice, find a way to meditate that works for u it doesn’t have to suck and be daunting, find a new thing to add to ur daily life (could be 5 minutes of work on a goal or just that generally), think about the shit that annoys you and what the coolest possible solution would be. Thank other humans for the good template but don’t feel bad about wanting more. and ways to implement it that feel doable. There is always a way.

8) Look at the news or some other over processed mess say wow this is shit humans are shit at making good content why does everyone micromanage creativity and then vow to not micromanage your own. Give yourself a pat on the back. Find a new creative way to show you are thankful. Watch a video on speaking skills / another life skill you want to improve on or an exercise technique you find interesting. Google a word or term you don’t understand. Watch a fractal video. Think about sacred geometry and the pyramids. Try to balance on one foot as long as you can. Think about how the fuck people are able to do cartwheels that shit is crazy.

9. Take care of yourself as well as u you can, trying to hurt as few other sentient things as possible, always and forever, and may anyone who tells you to do differently be smited by GOD. Just kidding. Go somewhere else or ask intricate poignant questions about why they want to make you feel sick until they feel sick and then smile at them like the joker and nod. Take life less seriously. Or more seriously. Or whatever feels most suitable at the moment. Hehehe

AMEN HALLELUJAH

#ideas #æ #ohm #99 #to do

[s-sania]

Is Paracetamol A Cure To All Kind of Fevers?

Question: What is fever?

Answer: Fever is the body’s way of heat-killing germs. Just like we try to kill germs by boiling or burning, the body increases the body temperature in an attempt to kill the infecting germs. The more severe an infection, the higher is the fever. Also, for those germs that are heat resistant, the body has to increase its temperature much higher. Viruses are very heat resistant which is why viral infections often results in very high temperatures, and is not easily controlled with normal fever medication like paracetamol.For example, dengue fever symptoms do not abate completely with paracetamol.

Question: Why do we try to control fever?

Answer: Our body can function most effectively within a narrow range of temperature called the “Optimum Temperature”. Outside this temperature range the biochemical processes of our body cannot function properly. Therefore we need to control the temperature. Also children between 6 months and 6 years may be prone to developing seizures with temperature particularly if they have a family history of it, so we may want to reduce that risk. But most importantly, it is to make the child feel better, eat and drink better and help parents cope with their child’s illness. We must remember that controlling fever with fever medicines does not treat the actual cause of the fever which is the infection.

Questions: Is there any downside of actively controlling fever?

Answer: By actively controlling fever, we are actually suppressing body’s own mechanism of fighting the infecting germs. Recent evidences that have surfaced over the past few years are quite surprising. Recent researches have shown that the higher the temperature in severe bacterial infections, the better is the survival. Treatment with paracetamol has shown to increase the duration of illness in diseases like chicken pox and malaria, and the period of infectivity for normal cold. It is very common to prescribe paracetamol after vaccines for children. But researches show that giving paracetamol reduces the effectiveness of vaccines. In the wake of these research findings, a massive HEAT Study was conducted on patients admitted in intensive care with serious infections, which showed that if we do not control moderately high temperatures and instead restrict the paracetamol use only to very high temperature, more patients will survive. This has given rise to the concept of “Permissive Hyperthermia” where, for children, we administer paracetamol only when the temperature goes above 104F rather than the usual practice of using paracetamol for temperature more than 101F. But the biggest danger that we need to be worried about is that paracetamol that all of us think is a harmless medication, is actually the most common medication that causes serious damage to the liver that needs liver transplant, a facility not widely available in India.

Question: What is the danger of getting Liver Failure from paracetamol use during fever?

Answer: We do see this often. Paracetamol is generally safe when used strictly according to its recommended dosage. But problem arises because we often do not realise that we are inadvertently exceeding the recommended dose. Recommended dose for paracetamol is 60mg for each 1 kilogram body weight for an entire 24 hours. And it is given usually at 6 hourly gaps i.e. a total of 4 doses a day. Thus a 10kg baby should have a total of 600mg in a day, usually given as 150mg every 6 hours. Very often, particularly with viral infection, where temperature does not fully get controlled with paracetamol, temperature either does not come down to normal, or does not stay down for full 6 hours. At these times there is often a tendency to repeat the dose before schedule, or giving another formulation that may also contain paracetamol in it as a combination with some other medication. We think it is a different medication but very few of us actually read the composition to find out if it contains paracetamol or not. Thus unknowingly we overdose our children with paracetamol and then find that the child has become jaundiced and once we take him to the hospital we find he has got Liver Failure which is potentially a life threatening condition.

Question: What are the medications that contain paracetamol in combination with some other medication?

Answer: There are many such medications. The Most common ones of which are: Ibuprofen + Paracetamol and Diclofenac + Paracetamol – mostly used for pain and swelling, and sometimes unwisely used for fever as well, owing to the preconception that any medication that relieves pain and swelling (inflammation) also helps with fever Decongestants (often used for cough and cold) contain an antiallergic and a decongestant as a fixed dose combination with paracetamol. Many times we prescribe just plain Ibuprofen, but the medicine shops may inadvertently dispense Ibuprofen’s fixed dose combination with paracetamol, for often the name is similar, with just a “Plus” written next to it. The problem arises for Ibuprofen “Plus” that contains Ibuprofen which is meant to be administered every 8 hourly is combined with paracetamol which is meant to be administered every 6 hourly. Thus if we use this as a substitute for paracetamol and give it 6 hourly, we are giving an overdose of ibuprofen which may cause damage to kidneys, and if we use it 8 hourly, we are not giving adequate dose of paracetamol.

Question: Fixed dose combination medications can be very confusing!

Answer: Indeed. That is why we hardly ever use fixed dose combinations in Developed Countries.

Question: So what to do if fever is not controlled with Paracetamol?

Answer: First we need to decide how important it is to control the temperature. Often a little bit of a temperature may be acceptable. If temperature returns within 6 hours of a paracetamol dose, and we need to control it, we need to give a dose of Ibuprofen to alternate with paracetamol. Ibuprofen is to be given every 8 hours and paracetamol is to be given every 6 hours. Caution should be exercised while using Ibuprofen in dengue prone areas particularly the Dengue seasons, and your doctor should be consulted before starting Ibuprofen for your feverish child. But most importantly if you are prescribed Ibuprofen, you need to make sure that you are not given one of those “Plus” formulations that contain paracetamol in it.

Question: So is it important to check the composition of the tablet or Syrup?

Answer: Absolutely. It is very important to make sure that the composition of your Ibuprofen formulation does not mention paracetamol. If you are unsure, Feel free to inquire with your pharmacist to examine the composition on your behalf.

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ive been thinking about it now and i think i might switch majors for the sake of my sanity bc real talk the amount of work is insane and i cant properly function it's crazy out here idk how people do this... i was thinking maybe health sci since i already have most of the credits for the degree and ive always wanted to be involved in the healthcare field... im gonna see my academic advisor on monday and see what they say because holy guacamole i want to be able to enjoy school w/o crying every time i think about it

omg that got long but those have been my thoughts for the past few days BUT ANYWAY that's so good!!!! im so happy for you big brain energy we love to see it!! ive got a biochem midterm this week (which is the cause of my mental breakdowns BUT KLSJFRG) and ochem is in 2 weeks but as i said might change majors and ochem is not necessary... so i'll prob drop it haha

the last season was so good. i found it a bit slow in the beginning but once it picks up it's going like i could not stop watching it!! i havent watched bcs but i heard it gets better near the end again?? ive watched el camino tho

that's how i felt abt crocheting at first like im the type of person to try something for a little bit and then give up right after but honestly!!! it's so fun because you can make all kinds of different things like clothing, bags, accessories and it's so fun!! i've been picking up knitting too and i've made some socks and i'm working on a sweater rn

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highly enjoyed the break. have a great weekend too!! <3

-mightychondria

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I can't help but feel that we always get back to where we were. I think that we properly explored some of the consequences of previous season endings but this one just kind of spends the first few episodes undoing it.

There are some reappearing plotlines, some stronger than when they were previous but I don't know, it's just weird to be repeating some of them. It's cool getting the new cameos and characters though, I mean Margot Kidder? And wait a minute is that Dean from Supernatural?? I'm not even spoiling, this is just the first ep.

I talked about how it's weird that they don't go to any classes but I found another weirder thing, they go to the hospital like it's nothing. Almost strangled to death but not quite? Just go to the hospital even though everything is alright. As if healthcare is free. I understand this is a fictional Kansas but it still takes place in America. (they even poke fun about dog allergies later on)

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But I can't help but feel that they have a little too much of a bearing on Earth, I mean Kryptonian treasure maps? I get having Jor-El scope the place out to make sure it's fit for Clark but centuries of hieroglyphics and clues for Kryptonians to find...actually that's kind of cool the way I worded it but what does it lead to? What is the goal if Krypton's not there? Why not just give him the stones in his spaceship? Or at the very least, make the finding of each stone a history lesson in of itself, like why is it there of all places?

But there's just too much weird stuff surrounding it, like Lana gets this tattoo from touching a rune of her ancestor who was a witch which then leads to her being possessed...oh...now I see why Dean from Supernatural is here. But yeah, gotta be the worst episode so far. And it goes beyond the episode, THAT'S LANA'S ARC! I could care less for her character anymore. Luckily, the only bearing it plays on Clark's story is just one of the pieces for the treasure map and a reason to give her powers.

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March 24, 2023

I have to admit that I feel a little bit bad holding on to three PhD offers knowing that there might be people on the waitlist vying for a position at one of these places.  Truth be told, I wanted to know where I was going before Spring Break hit, but my Choice E didn’t invite me up until late March.  Technically, I suppose I could (and, probably, should) let go of Choice F or Choice G if I really thought about which one would suit me best should my Choice E visit go poorly, but I am privileged enough that I can willfully choose not to think about that possibility at all right now.  It feels a little selfish and a little immature.  I suppose it brings me some comfort to know that I will (ideally) make a decision over a week before the April 15 deadline and that hopefully someone can make it off the waitlist in that time.

I spoke with an alum of my Choice E lab today and gah it’s really feeling like the place for me.

Recently, I’ve been into watching bento (and husbento lol) box videos??  They’re super aesthetically pleasing, and it’s really fun to watch people make healthy, delicious lunches with lots of variety!  It might not be the most efficient, nor the most cost effective habit to maintain, but it’s calming and I enjoy the ideas!

On a similar note, I have to really start using up the food in my apartment pantry and minimize my grocery purchases.  I only have half a semester left in my apartment, and I’m going to be travelling for (essentially) two of those weeks, so I’m going to need to make a concerted effort to clear out my frozen foods and canned/dry goods.  I’ve got quite a bit of protein stocked up, noodles (so many kinds of noodles), rice... aside from fresh produce/dairy, I shouldn’t need to buy very much at all, really.  I could probably start making more elaborate bento-like lunches myself.  After break, I’ll go in, take inventory, and set out a rough meal prep schedule so I won’t have to take home too many food products, if I can help it.  I really gotta get back into trying new recipes anyway.  Since I’ve been home (and have mostly recovered from The Ailment) I’ve tried two new recipes in two days and am about to go for a third tomorrow, I think!  Having a full spice cabinet certainly makes a difference.  [edit, a day later: uh so the “Gigi Hadid Pasta” that’s been all over pinterest is actually pretty flavorless and I had to add so much extra spice... at least the color was pretty.  I’d make it again but change some of the proportions and also add spinach.]

Half a semester left.

I got my first grad school related reject, so that’s fun.  It was for an outside fellowship I applied for, and I’m luckily not in a position where I needed it for admission anywhere, but it still would’ve been nice to have an extra boost or to defer funding in case I needed it.  The reviewer’s comments were useful, but I think it’s funny that my 3.9+ GPA in related disciplines could be considered average or even below average (upon critical thought, I believe they might have been considering my course history and were wondering how exactly orgo and biochem were going to help me pin down functional morphology, and that critique makes sense).  I suppose I agree that I should have sought more awards, but ughhhhh UGH.  I don’t wanna beg to be recognized and then maybe not even get it (though that’s exactly what I’ve done here with that fellowship so)??  This certainly won’t be my last outside grant/fellowship attempt because I do want to be recognized.

Of all the Lost-esque shows I’ve watched, my absolute least favorite has got to be La Brea.  That show might even be one of my least favorite shows I’ve ever watched ever.  The writing, plot, and logic are just so terribly bad and I might have to drop it after this season because I am simply not impressed at all.  I love sci-fi and as a result am pretty good at suspending my disbelief, but this show is based around time travel and they’re not explaining any of the intricacies or limitations of the technology, so every solution works Just Because and any potential problem that is irrelevant to the central plot is not discussed does not exist and I hate it.  There’s so much hand-waving that it does not feel immersive to me.  I genuinely do not think very much while watching television, so the fact that I’m constantly frustrated by the holes I’m poking into the plot/solutions/logic irks me.  And then any problem that does arise to occupy any characters not involved in the main plotline that episode feels gimmicky and fillery and dumb.  Some of the main characters are barely compelling and others are simply not, and in this economy my attention is too valuable to be wasted on things I don’t enjoy.

Today I’m thankful for that conversation I had with the alum... I’ve heard nothing but good things about “my” lab in particular aieeee I’m so excited for next week’s trip.. literally a Spring Break Part 2 (except it’s not really a break and I’ll kind of be pretending to be an extrovert for four days straight (which I guess is okay because I’ve been a total recluse for the past week)).  Since it’s probably where I’m going to attend (and because they wanna be touristy), both of my parents will be “joining me” (aka existing in the same vicinity but entirely leaving me to my own devices unless I need them) this time, and I’ve assigned them homework to check out some of the neighborhoods and apartment complexes to get an idea of the best places to live.  Very thankful for supportive parents, very thankful for a financial situation that allows them to support me in this way.  Also thankful for my two profs who record lectures... they’re really the unsung heroes of my semester tbh.