#theyre so fucked up and fascinating

[toolazytodecide]

Oh no I can feel my goldfinch hyperfixation returning

#the goldfinch #maybe ill write a fic this time #lord knows ive read everything on ao3 #i had some ideas but i never got to writing them #maybe i should #I just wanna study Theos brain #Boriss too tbh #theyre so fucked up and fascinating #ive been reading ff and god im sick of kotku slander #like i get that its easier to hate her than admit Boris was an abusive fuck but nothing she could have done would have excused what he did #also why act like Kotku is irredemable when Theo and Boris both did way worse #like i get not liking her #but dont pretend shes evil #also Theo is such an unreliable narrator and him hating her makes it easier #but even Theo couldn't explain why he hated her #the answer is jealousy #obviously my guy was so in love with Boris

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

#homestuck #eridan ampora #karkat vantas #death //////// // / #just straight up one of the funniest moments from the comic #erikar #tagging that because this conversation fascinates me #karkat is LITERALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF YELLING AT ERIDAN FOR WAND MURDER #and SCARED FOR HIS FUCKING LIFE because of gamzee #and he CALMS DOWN because he's talking to fucking eridan and fucking eridan is a fucking idiot #moirails you guys theyre so moirails for each other

[electricpurrs]

tex red vs blue is insanely transgender but im the only one who sees it that way because im crazy in the head.

what if there was a past version of yourself. a woman, a wife, a mother, with long hair and a sweet smile. and she died long ago. and you are her. but you are not her. you're nothing like her, but the people who knew her desperately want you to be her, want to preserve the memory they have in their minds of the woman they loved through you. but you never asked to be her, never asked to carry the burden of someone else's expectation of who or what you should be. you have a new name. you prefer to go by this one. people remark on how weird it is that it's a guy's name. sometimes the people who loved [the past version of] you call you by your old name. they are not referring to you when they say it. you live in the shadows of someone who's long gone, and you're something different now, but you don't feel like you're ever allowed to define yourself on your own terms, to be your own person, to control your own life, because you exist solely through the memories people had of you. and the longer she has been gone for, the more desperately people try to get her back, the less you resemble her and the less you know who you are, or if you ever even got to be anything at all. what i mean is that transition could have saved him

#🧃 #rvb #red vs blue #DONT ask me why i got up in a cold sweat at 7 am with thoughts on tex red vs blue. i miss her so bad #anyways i do think if anyone in rvb could ever be actually trans coded (which nobody is because theyre created by fucking rooster teeth) #its gotta be tex #but because i know a trans subtext couldnt ever possibly be intentional i also think tex is a fascinating subject on the #''dead wife'' trope and the way stories like this treat female characters #and how tex's existence somehow seems surprisingly self aware as she actively rejects being the Dead Wife #and its brought to attention how existing solely as the angst memories men had of their dead wives #actively denies her of agency as a person inside the narrative #but also more generally denies dead wife characters agency in any narrative theyre written on #tex's struggles as a character inside her narrative are also the struggles of fridged/killed off female characters outside their narratives #on a meta textual level by being written by men in male centered stories who dont allow the women they write to exist as people #tex is a fascinating character and i am fucking furious she exists in a that stupid ass show. ill save you girl. ill take you out of there

[mcybree]

i need to start hating other characters besides just scott apparently. does anyone have suggestions

#Sorry i dont. care enough about the other guys. #I mean I do i rlly do but like. not enough to feel comfortable saying i’d hit them with my car #I get to say I’d hit scott with my car because i’ve thought about him for 15000 billion years and #am cursed to the scott favorite blorbo hell dimension #I cant start doing this with like. idk. bdubs. I dont know him like that #I could hit bdubs with my car recreationally like for fun. I think he’d flatten like a pancake and then stand up just fine #bree barks so fucking loud #On an actual note: ive given a lot of thought to why cscott gets hated specifically and it’s actually really fascinating #theyre of course just theories though I’d need like. more personal testimonies to back them up. #since i think im an outlier in the “i relate to 3l jimmy so of course I’d hate 3l scott specifically” department and therefore dont have— #extremely relevant personal insight on the topic #also usual disclaimer that when i say i hate scott i also love scott he’s my favorite etc etc

[nishihii]

rennala marika toxic yuri i cant get you out of my head

#long rant incoming #it is very much implied that marika and radagom are their own people/personalities. theyre just stuck in the same body #i am of the belief that radagon was created or manifested after marika ascended to godhood #as his presence is mysterious and miriel was actively confused as to why just. some guy. some champion would have so much control over an- #-army (referring to the caria/erdtree war) #i think its fascinating to think radagon and marika are the same person. not just in the literal inhabitance of the body. like two- #-different sides of a person #but the lore very much leans towards them having their own conscience #as much as i like the former idea #BUT the description of the preceptors hat/mask has implications that rennala possibly knew of this secret #because what other secret does radagon have to hide? #and like. she stayed with him despite this. #(sorry for the amount of this i said imply/implication) #there is not much material to go off of for marika/renalla but its not like there isnt ANY #toxic yuri...... #i once talked about an interesting parallel between them but i literally have to fresh myself up on that #as i dont think about them very often #edit: oh fuck me dead i forgot to tag spoiler #elden ring spoilers

[piosplayhouse]

A lot of people on the mpreg survey have distinguished between mpreg (male pregnancy) and what I like to call mmpreg (monsterfucker male pregnancy) which has led to some fantastic discussions on egging. I think if you were to put mpreg on some sort of iceberg chart this would likely be the second layer, and then at the very bottom is whatever the hell happened in starving anonymous (bisexual man cannibalizes immortal man in order to birth hundreds of clones of the immortal man out of his own flesh, and then after he runs out and dies he and the immortal man survive by fusing their consciousnesses together into a jellyfish. somehow. and from the jellyfish they adopt a random ass abandoned child and give their powers to him so he also becomes immortal and can rebirth them temporarily in the same way as before. cannibalistic mpreg found family unbirthing)

#SORRY I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT FUCKING MANGA #genuinely like. why. not even in a cool way i think the author just ran out of ideas #but im fascinated by how they ran with it. like who comes up with this for the final battle of your manga #starving anonymous spoilers #tw mpreg #ill start doing that since some people have said theyre uncomfortable w it on the poll just lmk if theres another tag you want so you can #blacklist!!!

[spinjitsuburst]

I’ve been reading a very very very dark Skybound Fic all night and I feel slightly ill but I’m so so obsessed with literally every “how Jay’s lightning works” headcanon

#IM FINE LMAO I OVERESTIMATED HOW DARK THIS WOULD GET BUT IM ALL GOOD #I’m waiting until tomorrow to finish it cuz like Dear first master #it’s #6 in the morning #but I stay silly :3 #my mom’s gonna be like are you okay when I’m a zombie tomorrow and imma be like #NO #CUZ JAY IS STILL ON THAT FUUUCKING SHIP #LIKE GOD HOW MUCH MORE CAN HE TAKE #WE’RE SIX CHAPTERS IN AND THERES STILL SIX TO GO WHAT ELSE CAN THEY DO TO THIS MAN #in case you’re wondering it’s bending but never breaking #DO NOT #READ IT #IF YOU ARE A MINOR #AND HEED THE TAGS BECAUSE THEYRE ALL ACCURATE #but holy fuck it’s FASCINATING #ALSO KUDOS TO THE AUTHOR FOR JAY CONTINUING TO BE SNARKY THROUGH ALL THAT HOLY SHIT???? #ESEPCAILYL CHAPTER 6 LIKE LITERALLY ITS SO LONG AND SO FUCKED UP #BUT LIKE THE IDEA THAT JAY CAN KNIT HIS WOUNDS BACK TOGETHER WITH LIGHTNING AND SHIT THATS SO COOL ALSO THE BODY HORROR FROM NADAKHAN IS SO #SICK NOT ENOUGH PEOPLE ACTUALLY MAKE HIM MONSTROUS (physically he’s obviously a monster) BUT LIKE #MAN #I JUST CANT GET OVER JAYS LIGHTNING THO #I’m gonna find the post where #cuz I found the fic from a post #cuz the post talked about it #the lightning stuff so imma reblog that probably #that was a long winded ramble uhhhhh #anyways I literally reached my tag limit so rip i rambled here huh #spinjitsu screams #I’m not tagging ninjago over my unhinged rambling in the tags at the crack ass of dawn I’ll be normal tomorrow maybe

[todayisafridaynight]

ohhhh my god im going to fucking throw up thinking again about the scene where sawashiro almost lopping off ichi's pinky parallels the scene from earlier where arakawa's mom threatens him with scissors

#snap chats #IM GOING TO BE FUCKING SICK !!!!!!!!! #i havent mentioned it before. or if i did its been A Hot Minute but god i think of it a lot #sorry i was just having my morning Arakawa Family In Retrospect thinking and im going to throw up #AND IT WAS OVER MONEY TOO. and the topic of insufficient income was brought up.. fuuuuccckk YOOOOU #triggering myself rewatching the scenes just to validate my points and im going to be even MORE sick #its the way both ichi/arakawa glare at sawashiro/his mother and then getting reprimanded for it. via sharp implement #and the way arakawa interrupts sawashiro and ichi like how his dad had to step in between him and his mom Shut UP #jesus. arakawa wasnt even confrontational bout it like that either bro just walked in on it #his life is a flat circle And What If. I Threw Up. #i thought of translatin this concept via a comic buuuuuttttt </3 no time </3 #or energy tbh #im tempted to at the very least make comparative gif sets for these scenes... its so important i point them out.... #anyways wow !!!! i love the arakawa family !!!!!!! youre all fucked !!!!!! <- crying #i love the arakawa family because it's so easy to see each member as a protagonist of their own stories #which No Duh Everyones A Protagonist In A Way but it's just espsecially easy to dig into the arakawas' perspectives and feelings #theyre ALL so interesting in how they think and react and the possibility of how theyre thinking and feeling in situations #like im so invested to want to know their perspectives because there's always extra layers to them and its fascinating.. #the arakawas are just so intertwined .....

[gemwolfz]

grrmamas with heavy influence from sketches by @femadjecent, plus some mindless doodles

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #gem art #i think. the scars shouldnt be so pink. on a character with ourple skin #but im not really sure how it would interact with the white underbelly??? #yknow?????? #apparently earth amphibians just. don't scar often #theyre really good at regenerating skin. #fascinating #the colors still arent meant to be completely final but they work. #other grrmom note shes hard of hearing as well. #which is to say completely deafened in her right ear #she still got up and went back to military service for another good many years once she recovered. shes crazy for this #the entire grr family is going to get so much fucking hearing damage

[blee-bleep]

How does somebody whose only shipped lesbian ships before become so obsessed with Erehisu?

Y'see, anon, it's a little something called "bisexuality"

#i actually watched aot becuz of yumihisu but then i read the manga and i slapped my head and said #'shit why did they cut off so many scenes of them together' #them being erehisu #and then ymir fritz dropped and THEN i listened to that Linked Horizon song where a baby wailed at the end #then im like yooooooo fcuking hell theyre future parents to this poor girl omggggg #honestly i stumbled into erehisu by my own becuz after reading the uprising arc in the manga i felt like i had to do the ship justice #just cuz how overlooked it was and how i realized that they probably had the better chemistry #the more i looked into their characterizations and parallels to each other #like them being burdened putting up a fake facade just for others and having to come to terms to it #as well as the way their family shaped them (carla frieda and freckled ymir are the goats) #it wasnt much back then BUT THEN i read apple and lamp theory #and its soooooooo fucking beautiful it just seared into my mind forever. #Enemies To Humanity is something so unbelievable yet fascinating to me as a dynamic but it all clicked the moment i put it in its context #i dont support whatever the fuck the alt-right part of the fandom has of it thats another ball game #i ship erehisu in the way i percieve it to be the most fitting to the mature themes of the story #its not the first 'straight' ship i liked but it IS the first ship where i think it's ultimately superior to others including the wlw ships #thats why im so obsessed with them

[rukafais]

i think my favourite little horrible (positive) callback in the Generations trilogy is where Drizzt tries to insist that Zaknafein was at peace when he was dead an he was Fine and Okay and you CAME TO ME IN A DREAM AND YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE FINE which is a reference to him having a dream after he rescues Wulfgar from Errtu about his dad, and his repeated ‘i’m really trying to convince myself despite not knowing anything’ litanies of how Zak definitely went to a good place and was at peace after he died because his death has to mean SOMETHING, right, he earned SOMETHING, right,

and Zaknafein’s answer is “I literally don’t remember that. I don’t remember anything. It was just darkness.”

And on one hand I genuinely think Zaknafein getting to Stop Thinking for like a century and it being like no time passed at all, he just went into stasis, was the kindest thing any kind of god or afterlife could have done for him but it also just, doesn’t comfort Drizzt at all. And it’s a really subtle but very interesting underlining of how, even in these basic survival impulses, Drizzt and Zak diverged hard and are sort of mutually ???? about it.

#generations spoilers #legend of drizzt #drizzt gets to speedrun 'viewing your father who you idolized as a hero as just a fucked up guy trying his best' in real time #its heartbreaking to watch #theyre just completely different people now and their relationship can't be simple #maybe it never was #but there's a loss of innocence and connection that was taken away from both of them that zak has no idea how to mourn #and drizzt thought he was Over The Whole Dad Thing but nope he's still got more in the tank! #it's so fascinating and so sad #zaknafein is such a fun character because he is essentially just 'proud warrior sword guy archetype taken to logical conclusion' #its like he made himself into a sword and the sword became all he was #and a sword doesnt know how to do anything else but kill #thats what it's made for after all #spoilers

[queseraphita]

i need to do like low effort doodles to organize my thoughts on the Things

like how do i eloquently elaborate that the "God" and watchers from Drakenier would absolutely send a plague or disease that turns people into stone and then inadvertently have said humans discover and use the energy from the human soul "ergo" to advance the speed of their own destruction.

What I like about both said games and stories of that world is that its a story about pain, misery, hope, secrets and lies are all such human things. I often think about the protagonists in Yoko Taro's works and how you don't necessarily have to be good or bad you just have to think you're right. I feel so excited thinking upon these scenarios that can be applied to P and his own dilemma on being "good" and the choices the player can make telling lies or the truth in any given scenario, I feel like what makes this really effective in the setting of Krat is that all of the cast and characters have a secret, withheld information is kept away from the player to be discovered. An end to justify the means. Meanwhile the whole world seems to be falling apart.

#mikh talks #drakenier #lies of p #shouuuld i tag spoilers or is this vague enough #bro i was like bouncing when i realize how morally fucked up the alchemists are and also the 2nd phase of Simon Maus fight #it was soooo cool #i also just love metaphors using puppets/androids/nonhuman entities discovering the meaning of being human #its literally in my url its my jam #when they intentionally obscured what the bosses said i was like ohhhh they're gonna do it theyre gonna knock me upside the head #THE SHADES #im sorry if this looks like the ramblings of a mad man you could literally just ask me questions if you wanna know what i think of it etc #i think its fun to think about and i know just a stupid amount of drakenier lore and short stories #also yoko taro works have a history of referencing fairy tales with some sort of twisted reveal so its refreshing seeing more interpretatio #i never really thought much of the source material of pinnochio but this has me fascinated

[yellowocaballero]

hello! i really liked your fics, especially the dc-xmen ones, and they made me interested in reading the comics. do you have any recs for starters? thank you :D

So a long-running gag between my sibling and I is that they aren't allowed to send me any panels or information about the X-Men, because I don't like the X-Men comics. Have I legitimately read a bunch? Sure. Would I recommend any of them? No.

I'd say X-Force (starring private eye Jamie) wasn't bad, except the 10yo girl got aged up into an 18yo and started making out with the lead. Cable & Deadpool probably barely counts as X-Men but it's definitely the best Cable and the best Deadpool comic simultaneously. My X-Men fics are based almost entirely off the children's cartoon X-Men Evolution, which is the only X-Men media I can say with my whole chest that I really enjoy. I heard that X-Men Blue was good.

As for where to start with DC comics...I'm struggling with a personal opinion on that too. I can't give a single comic that's the best Batman comic to start with, because the popularity of the Batman arc has an inverse relationship to its quality. The best Batman comic is some random one-off by Denny O'Neil in the 70s that was never mentioned again. I'm not sure how often this rec is given but Batman: Black and White is one of the few one-off Batman things that is sincerely gorgeous and moving (unlike The Dark Knight Returns or Arkham Asylum A Serious House on Serious Earth or The Killing Joke or Batman: Year One or The Long Halloween or Under The Red Hood or). If you've rolled up here for the Batfam exclusively then Cassandra's 90s Batgirl run is unironically pretty good.

If you enjoy reading teenagers being awful the late 90s-early 00s Young Justice comic by Peter David is delightful - if you enjoyed Impulse in it, then check out my favorite comic run of all time Impulse (not best, just favorite). The 90s Mark Waid Flash run was lovely. Outside of the heroes I've actually written, if you're pretentious as fuck the the 80s Denny O'Neil Question is fantastic. If you're not pretentious and want something much lighter then the early 00s Blue Bettle and 70s Shazam comics are unbelievably fun.

That probably doesn't help much! I love Batman so much but I couldn't believe that I couldn't actually list of any famous Batman arcs or stories that I genuinely love. Life of a Batman fan. I'm so sorry I can't actually recommend an X-Men comic. I'm sure there are good ones I just haven't read any.

#granted most of the modern x-men ive read has been joss whedon so #and he's a fine enough comics writer he just rarely goes in any particularly interesting directions #disclaimer that i haven't read any modern batman comics in a VERY long time so if the list is looking a bit antique thats why #weirdly enough im much more of a DC girl #but I can recommend more of Marvel. huh. #my asks #also im not joking about cable&deadpool it was really definitive for the actual deadpool we know of today #he was a very different character before that. also it did a miracle and made cable sufferable #legit dont read any dp comics other than that one theyre trying too hard #the 90s run is fascinating but mostly because he locks blind al in a torture chamber whenever she annoys him #not even in a funny way. its fucked up he kind of sucks.

[pcktknife]

I should really play sun and moon ...

#everytime i read lusamines wiki im like damn. u good girl? #im fascinated with the idea of space time distortions/wormholes how theyre connected and what the fucks up with them.. #and if anythin else is happenin w that #swsh didnt have anything abt weird time wormholes did it?? #and if it did then where are we going with the idea and will it come to a close or just be a loose end #anyways i think my friend has a copy so im using this as a reminder to ask her lol #kae.txt

[youngpettyqueen]

sorry I keep going on about Julian in this book (what do u expect from me he's my favourite character) but another really interesting point thats made multiple times through his POV is that he has to forcefully think of himself in his situation as Lieutenant Bashir and not Doctor Bashir because he is struggling HARD with how torn he is between his duties as a leader and his duties as a doctor

like. Julian has killed multiple Klingons in this novel. and they weren't pleasant deaths- these Klingons actively suffocated to death. he could've helped them, but couldnt, because he's had to keep going and try to re-take the station and save everybody. he's had to stand by and do nothing, literally watching Klingons he could try to save slowly suffocate to death. and thats where the internal conflict for him really comes in, and we see him struggling to keep going as a leader and a lieutenant, because at his core he's a doctor and he's violating his Hippocratic oath several times over, and there's nothing he can do about it

#star trek: ds9 #vengeance #julian bashir #Worf just took command and Julian BEGGED to help the surviving Klingons before they died #and Worf wouldnt let him because a) theyre the enemy and b) they need to keep moving #im not screenshotting the entire pages where this is happening but its fascinating to read #I love this internal conflict and how much its tearing Julian up #again this author has such a command of these characters and understands that at his core Julian is a doctor #he's a healer and all he wants to do is help #so forcing him into this position where he has to kill people #and let them die horrible painful deaths #makes for a fucking fascinating read

[starsprlte]

squid styles

#liquid.png #splatoon #i have never played splatoon and i probably will never play splatoon. BUT the inkling hairstyles have been fascinating to me for so long #these arent really ocs (one of them is just straight up me) theyre just colors i thought would look nice together #also reallly hoping with all my heart that these colors look normal #the last time i tried to color skin on procreate it turned out SO FUCKING DESATURATED when i exported it