#they are a crucial part of me now

[respectthepetty]

This is random I follow you for the BL content but I just saw your Magicians posts and SAME like no show ever betrayed me like this show did, to the point I gave up on it completely and never went back. Thinking of queliot still fills me with both joy and rage to this day lmao. What a nonsense waste.

@inrainbowz, I'm a sucker for a monster taking over a character and a person he loves having to find a glimpse of him within that monster.

Like the Nogitsune plot in Teen Wolf when STILES STABBED SCOTT, yet Scott still knew his friend was somewhere in there and didn't want to hurt Stiles even though he could have killed him.

Because Stiles had saved Scott before when Scott was going to kill himself but Stiles brought his friend back by reminding him of all the good memories between them (SEASON 3 SUPREMACY!).

So of course I was going to love when everyone believed Eliot was gone, only for Quentin to know his friend was still alive in his body hiding from the Monster.

And right when he was ready to kill the Monster believing even if Eliot was still in there, he was suffering, Eliot came through BECAUSE OF HIS LOVE FOR QUENTIN!

WHO GETS PROOF OF CONCEPT LIKE THAT?!

So no matter how many times these shows do me dirty, I will always be a sucker over seeing the person you love turn into a monster, but loving him anyways. Seeing the body of the one person who your soul calls to become the villain, yet still believing that somewhere in there is good. That somewhere in there is the person who would fight to save you if the roles were reversed. And the love between you two being the thing to save you both.

*sobbing* peaches and plums, motherfucker

#the magicians #queliot #teen wolf #sciles #loving a monster #loving the villain #seeing the beauty hiding inside #I'm gonna be stuck here for a minute #it's been ten years since season 3 of teen wolf and I'M STILL THERE #five years since A Life in the Day and I'M STILL THERE! #never getting over them #they are a crucial part of me now #they have shaped me #they rewired my brain #they are a core part of my personality #crying in the club

[heartslobbf]

hater alert! far too many people say that juri’s character arc ‘isn’t about her being sad about being gay, it’s about being sad about unrequited love that happens to be gay’ and. well. that is not true and by saying that you are completely flattening the brilliance of juri’s character arc which literally culminates in her being able to accept her own lesbianism despite her unrequited love, despite all her shame and self-loathing, despite this pursuit by Some Fucking Guy to try and ‘save’ her from these feelings. like if you think juri’s entire character is just ‘sad about shiori’ how do you appreciate even a modicum of the emotion packed into that final juri duel. it is both about shiori and, even broader, her lesbian identity and what that means to her intrinsically as a person, removed from romantic relationships and just purely as like. you know. Who She Is. the idea that even when juri’s locket is cut from her neck she is still a lesbian that’s still who she is and she cant change that and, crucially, she doesn’t want to even as she is agonised by these feelings. that’s why she forfeits the duel!!!! she’s clocking out she’s quitting she’s saying no!!!!!! this is me and ive got to be ok with that this is me and i can accept that this girl might not love me and i can keep living despite that. like. god im so normal arisugawa juri im so sorry that no one understands you and your intrinsically unapologetically lesbian storyline like i do

#ok got that out of my system now (rewatched ep 29 duel too many times) #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #idk i just see that argument so much and it makes me so sad #bc i get where ppl r coming from there r a lot of unnuanced ‘sad bc gay’ narratives out there #but juri’s whole arc is about actively challenging and deconstructing that idea #and it deals with the sadness that comes with being closeted with knowing youre gay and not really liking that about yourself #and eventually she does accept and embrace that aspect of herself but CRUCIALLY she doesnt do it via romantic validation #in fact she does it in the face of like. All Opposition Ever #no one says hey juri if you were gay that’d be totally fine actually haha #ruka tries to save her from her lesbianism!!!!!!!! like!!!!!!! #it is juri and juri alone who makes this resolution and that is just So Fucking Important to me #shes so. she is the queer character of all time to me i literally dont care no one else will ever come close #LIKE!!!!!!! THE CASTLE WEEPING ON HER WHEN SHE MAKES HER CHOICE!!!!!!! #accepting that part of yourself and having the symbol of matrimony and heteronormativity WEEP over you #no one ever validates juri’s choice to accept her queerness but she keeps making that choice #and her in episode 37…….. god i just might keel over and die girls when juri utena touga parallels…… #anywayyyyyyy love and light i love juriposting #shut up daisy

[samijey]

You have a funny way of showing it

#roman reigns #jey uso #the usos #wwe #wweedit #wanna know what the worst part is? #in roman's fucked up brain he DOES love jey #or what he currently believes love to be anyways #and he's also terrified because he's seen it here #just like he saw it in sami at wargames #he knows jey is a hair away from leaving him #so now does he pull the trigger first #or does he risk being vulnerable at a crucial time aka wrestlemania #if he turns on jey before jey turns on him IMAGINE how tragic that'll be for jey #knowing he had multiple chances to leave roman but never took them #also this version of roman is the greatest villain in wrestling history don't @me #vince mcmahon is often referred to as the best heel in wrestling but does it even count when you're a villain irl too??? #ooooh i feel woozy now #p sure i just made myself sick making this set #stuff i made

[lunarharp]

qifrey's birthday and silly stuff

#witch hat tag #orufrey #excerpt is from my 30k failing eye fic (link in pinned) which has a birthday scene. i revisited and edited it again and it is now 30k :) #kerplunk thing is because of a mysterious game that shirahama has drawn orufrey playing before and to me it looks like Kerplunk. #a kids' game from this 'Real World' which we live in. card game is Cheat from neopets. but it's a real game. i want to play it for real.... #you lie and cheat in it..hence the name..and 'branston the eyrie you are a bold one' classic neopets tumblr post...no....ok then..... #'hey qif i know we're obsessed with witches' kerplunk but we used to play cheat all the time what happened to that??' #'oh. i just..don't like lying to you. i don't like how it feels.' 'oh haha i guess that's a good thing. ok let's play kerplunk instead ^_^' #'mm. *dying inside crying in the rain in my soul*' #i dislike trying to illustrate my writing. i resent myself for having described oru's captivating mysterious smile so perfectly #i can't draw that. i know what it looks like perfectly in my mind and i am right there on that roof but i can't draw it satisfyingly enough #writing comes from a different part of my brain. there's different things in there. i'm glad i wrote out some of what i can't draw. #then there are things that i don't write or draw but which are still a crucial ongoing facet of my orufrey mindscape. #the Written orufrey the Drawn orufrey and the Unspoken orufrey... three faces of a beautiful irreplaceable jewel in my heart... #could a depressed person do THAT.

[drbtinglecannon]

Do you ever think about how Hooty's relationships with Eda, King, and Luz all significantly improved the moment he befriended Lilith? Cuz I still think about how mean they were to him in S1 vs how important to the family he is now at the end of S2

#toh #lilith clawthorne #toh hooty #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #king clawthorne #like. hooty is crucial to the dynamic at toh now. hes not just the butt of the joke even when he still is (like in EL when he caught luzs #soup on his head. or in COTH his outburst about clothes) hooty gets treated with so much more respect by both the fam & the narrative in s2 #i rewatched wing it like witches a day or two ago & ngl its def one of the more ''ah kids show'' cringe eps but at the end when everyone #trampled hooty & he was genuinely distraught by it i just felt so sad. it wasnt funny! that kinda humor doesnt vibe w me yknow #tc posts #the owl house becomes a beloved part of the owl house family in the show the owl house ;____;

[unalteredgraces]

saddest headcanon i have is probably that ellie went back to the zoo after joel died and sat in the space shuttle by herself listening to the tape that he went to the ends of the earth to find for her 

#can u imagine her trying not to feel like this crucial part of her is now gone with him #and that the one thing that she ever let herself fully love was ripped from her #IMMM NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY AGAIN #they make me so. #ellie williams #joel miller #the last of us #tlou spoilers #tlou2 spoilers #the last of us part 2 #always crying about them fr #im gonna write a fic about this one day

[tiredyke]

i honestly feel like the cis vs. trans debate depends on how we’re defining the terms. “trans” as in “no association with your agab whatsoever”? probably excludes a good sum of trans people. “cis” as in “only expresses their gender through stereotypical presentation and/or never experiments with the concept of gender”? probably excludes a good chunk of cis people. but this doesn’t necessarily conflict with or negate the cultural significance of being cisgender or transgender and labeling those experiences as such. cis and trans people obviously receive very different treatments and privileges, so it’s less about strictly defining what it means to be cis or trans and more about how these terms (as broad groupings) help us understand and identify where we stand. they’re communication devices first and foremost, not diagnoses. i hope that makes sense

#which is why i bagged on that post. the point of cis/trans/gay/straight/allo/ace is that they’re labels created to express a part of us and #describe experiences that impact our social power and how we are treated #straight and gay are incompatible as tangent labels not because they’re like polar opposites or because they’re different species or smthn #but because they are two different social classes at an institutional level #and because the words were created to identify this inequality. ‘straight’ literally means ‘exclusive opposite gender attraction’ which obvs #conflicts with the definition of gay. like to say you can be both is to say that these words are essentially meaningless and were invented #as borders that don’t actually exist. and there’s a sliver of a chance that in a different world this could be true #but right now in this political climate the distinction matters. abolishing and disregarding the meaning of these words literally helps #no one #having words and labels and language to express ourselves is very crucial so i’m really not interested in arguments that are essentially #‘i use words regardless of what they mean or the weight they carry because it doesn’t matter to me’’ #besides if you told a gay person irl that they could be straight also or that there’s no difference between them and their oppressor they’d #fucking punch you lol #neon talks

[d0d0-b0i]

honestly cannot overstate how much happier i am nowadays, and how a large part of it is because i get to finally have the puberty i wished i’d had earlier. i love being a man!

of course testosterone and how deep your voice is and body + facial hair isn’t everything there is to being a guy, but these are things i’ve wanted for myself since i was seven years old, hopeful that i’d be an outlier and have the same existence as my friends( was wrong :( ). i was so scared i’d never get to feel this way, but those fuckers on reddit and tumblr weren’t lying; it gets SO much better

and despite what some fearmongers may say about t, it doesn’t make you more aggressive if you already know how to regulate your feelings. people are above their emotions, and mine already had to be taught young that it wouldn’t solve anything, and therefore hasn’t been an issue!

glad (despite the horrors) that i live in an age where this is possible

#IT GETS BETTER!! ALL YOU PTHERS LIKE ME IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE YOU #gonna sleep now i think #just felt like talking about this again i guess #because i don’t see this as a large part of me or my identity #but it is still a fairly crucial part despite it all #and i know it can feel hopeless #and you may feel too tired to keep going #but it’s worth it i promise you #it’s all worth it cus when you get past this road and see the one ahead #you’ll be so glad you stuck around :) and i’ll be waiting to walk it with you

[monards]

do you guys ever think about that one albether / rhinealice hot chocolate fic. Because I do

#idk #it’s just very crucial to my life #I reread it a few days ago and it reminded me of thespian because of the albether #and now #I need to get brain worms out #guyss pls plsplpls #go read #sweetest delights #by catgiri #rhinealice isn’t like a huge part. but it’s so cute and it’s just sososo lovely #albedo & aether

[fructidors]

LOOK WHO I GOT

#yes that is my les mis collection on the shelf it is a crucial part of this photo #he will forever be watching me at my desk now.

[casiavium]

I have no interest in high school AUs anymore partially because I'm not in high school I know now it sucked but mostly because SwS Link is a college student. He just graduated. He has debt. Every time he thinks he paid it off there's some other bullshit he's got to do. He misses deadlines by five minutes maximum and is told oops ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ should have turned it in at 4:59 pm on the Wednesday before class started, you're too late. He can't get the accommodations he needs for his asthma. He's tired all the time. His roommate doesn't sleep. There's always a useless reminder from Blackboard or Canvas or Master Sword.

#Ghirahim is five years into a dissertation he has realized he *can't* defend but he's not about to give up now damnit #if he could just find the Gate of Time (it may or may not exist based on one ancient source) #it reminds me of my friend who wrote a thesis on how a (minor) Greek god was real (based on a real person) and how he absolutely hates #Herodotus and thinks he's bs but a crucial part of his honors thesis is that Herodotus is correct

[bitegore]

ao3: runs a donation drive

random people on the internet i've never heard of and who definitely do not provide a free service i use regularly: oh my god everyone who donated to ao3 owes me money, I deserve it more than the [libel] [bullshit fearmongering] [misuse of legal term] website!!!! these gross cumbrain fandom losers are taking money away from me personally!

#i don't donate to ao3 most of the time anyway because i don't have the spare cash to for the most part #i do not have a job #but like lmao every time i see one of those posts #that's like 'oh my god ao3 made money because people like the service it provides. i am a random blogger online' #'how dare you donate to the Ch*ld R*pe *ncest website and not to me. a stranger who you don't know but who hates you personally' #i go 'okay so now i want to take any money i woulda maybe considered giving to you and give it to ao3 instead' #at least ao3 isn't running around pretending that donating to individuals and donating to organizations that provide services are the same #i have some people id donate money to because i'd rather my money go to people wholl be able to appreciate it than services who will get #more from others than just me. but like. crucially their posts are like 'if you like what i do' #and not 'i am clearly on par with the website of fiction you read when you're bored so you owe me money'

[hella1975]

you cant make edits to vampire empire by big thief bc the moment i hear that song i have to start singing it dancing to it acting it out throwing up clawing the walls etc. could be the best edit in the world sorry bossman im not watching that shit. im busy

#YOU TURN ME INSIDE OUT AND THEN YOU WANT THE OUTSIDE IN YOU SPIN ME ALL AROUND AND THEN YOU ASK ME NOT TO SPIN #everyone on tiktok are soooooo annoying about this song (unsurprising) #basically a summary of the 'drama' in regards to this song: big thief released it as a snippet MONTHS ago #and the snippet sounded very jaded and heartbroken and CRUCIALLY it had the lyric 'i walked into your dagger for the last time in a row' #to then be followed by the lyric 'it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was OBSESSED with it i was obsessed with it everyone was so buzzed about the release #and then MONTHS later like truly a taking the piss amount of time later they finally released the song... different to the teaser #like they changed the WAY it was sung to sound more angry and like a scorned lover and they also straight up changed the lyrics #in certain parts like it's now 'i walked into your dagger for the last time / it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was like??? that sounds jumpy anyway but now we all know the old lyrics it sounds SO odd to get rid of 'in a row' like that #like what was the need??? and i backed all of that bc it was frustrating and more than anything it was just really odd and unnecessary #but oh my god tiktok fucking CRUCIFIED the song for it. imo both versions of the song are great on their own #i actually prefer the angrier sound of the official release as well as preferring the original lyrics #but ive seen multiple tiktoks made where people are like THIS IS THE WORST SONG EVER HOW COULD THEY DO THIS?!?!?! #and it's like. you guys truly cannot have a middling opinion about anything. it HAS to be some sort of extreme #declan mckenna's bridge for british bombs was actually a tiktok prediction. if it's not a fucking outrage... #anyway i started ranting but this is still one of THEE songs of the summer for me and you should all listen to it asap #song rec

[ferretwhomst]

MAHOGANY!!

RUNS AROUND IN CIRCLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#THE JOY THIS BROUGHT ME #late night drives were such a crucial part of my childhood. so yes absolutely<3 #asks #friend tag <3 #ferret rambles #ok i swear i'm sleeping now

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly lmao 2024 lambda literary award finalist wynnstannery

#have probably already heard of these awards w/o absorbing it but has a sizable [twitter acct you follow follows this acct] overlap for one #wikipedia blurb ''to recognize the crucial role lgbtq writers play in shaping the world...celebrate the very best in lgbtq literature'' #Lol! naturally everyone set to laugh abt Individually being lambda award finalist Authors amidst 40+ anthology contributors. sure #and of course oh absolutely crucial cam stone page. we did make the back of book blurb too after all #born of [crucially soph nothingunrealistic (a) investigates that akd role which (ai) leads to me also checking it out. later (b) #investigates this Call For Submissions For All Trans F&F Zine which (bi) leads to me going ''oh so true cam stone Needs to be there''] #all originating in The Wrong Fake ''Fans'' Show Up For Billions By Way Of Beloved Character Winston lmao #b/c fr imagine the trans f&f zine Doesn't have a Did You Know That???? page abt a delightful akd role & canon nonbinary f&f character #but this amidst Plenty of ''fake'' ''wrong'' ''fans'' messing around w/the concept of Fast & Furious as a Work throughout #as i said & got the feedback of [hell yes You Get It] that the premise Guarantees you get a very Varied & inherently Playful response #not b/c playfulness need be ''unserious'' but it sure need not be ''serious.'' like f&f itself; as part of [the premise guarantees it] #& that the Range of ways ppl can approach this broad concept is like the Range of ways ppl can approach the broad concept of Gender lol #& not Unearnest but needing no Gravitas / ''serious'' ''legitimacy'' guaranteed in turn to ''validate'' your efforts #and your not being the ''right'' or ''expected'' audience getting the perhaps straight(tm)forwardly intended experience here lmao #so in many ways it did feel very resonant / relevant to wynnstannery #embracing [the one use of: editor's note!] and [the one use of: the word ''autistic''!] #2 trans 2 furious #which is probably gonna get a physical reprint sooner than later; pdfs still available despite the lack of link there #was already The Intention if vaguely so; now with the added ''can put the 2024 Lambda Award Nominee / Finalist on the cover lol'' #page 54 (i believe) brought to you by a couple of quantnoisseurs; rushed to finish last minute then ft. some post deadline edits lmao #classic....nonzero other works i've Heard Of! nice #which: sure does seem like the focus here is like ''did you hear about these books? :)'' as many ''awards'' can ultimately be #like i Am hearing about them now. had seen abt Being Ace on twitter interesting interesting. hi honey i'm homo hell yeah #do we have one or two f&f films left? put cam stone cameo in there for real. Fast furious worth the effort worth the cost #& just shoutout to the like bifurcation of Akd Role Types. [intense in a relatively restrained affect way. some dramatic flair for sure] #and [spontaneous! vivacious! bright! playful! pretty emotionally open!] that's right lmao

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

so sane. and normal.

tw // existentialism , derealisation , suicide ment , bright colours (?) for the drawing under the cut

(please dont read the text below too if youre not in a good state of mind)

#vent art #derealisation #ive been told how this story ends and im still naively hoping for a better one like the fool i am #sorry . god sorry i know i should be normal and better than this #thank you ghost and judas and em for grounding me through this insanity with the convos im #ripping my hair out . im going to get coffee so i can properly think about this and then promptly ignore it #more derealisation in tags #more vents ahead cause i cant fucking. fuck. if i dont present this somewhere itll be forgotten and wiped off by force #if theres the chance that one person sees this or that its etched into the internet - then theres no point in forcing to erase it off so i #get to keep this process #okay more vent -> #okay im 19. nothing much has addressed It. so that means i should live my life as I have #ignoring It completely right? #if It was a crucial part of my life; surely something about It would be mentioned by now. surely. #so it doesn't matter if It stares at me for every waking moment. it doesn matter if It plays a crucial role in what I am and how I exist #it doesnt matter if once It is ripped away #so will my existence #It doesn't matter that its Incomprehensible yet I am forced to comprehend it in every waking moment #it doesn't matter that It is extremely tied into my existence. it doesn't matter that if It is gone - i will be too - and it doesn't matter #that its logical to assume that #its logic and it makes no sense #none of this makes any sense #but im 19 now. nothing has associated itself to It. nothig resembles It. #i should ignore it #me when the incomprehensible horror makes me go insane if i dont acknowledge or process it at least once a week I Am Doomed As A Human Bein #i will never be able to feel connected to living. i will never be able to feel connected to other people #pathetic ass life i need to get better at living actually AUAUUAAAAAAAAAAA