#therapists can just be.. so annoying sometimes lmao

[steviesbicrisis]

Stranger Things S2 rewatch thoughts

I finally finished rewatching S2 and this is everything I've written down as I was watching lmao

KEITH USED TO WORK AT THE ARCADE?? Also the arcade is right next to family video so Keith just moved next door in season 3 lmao

Steve omg you’re so cute stop

FINALLY MAX IS HERE

Okay Billie is bad, yes? We all agree Billie is bad, right? But Dacre IS SO HOT I CANNOT HE TOOK A “PORCA TROIA” OUT OF ME LIKE IT WAS NOTHING

Honestly they’re so dope for dressing up as ghostbusters and going to school with matching outfits

Ugh Nancy and Steve are so terrible for each other

Steve’s face during the bullshit scene really broke my heart 🥺

People being annoyed at Joyce for being super protective of Will like what?? That boy was proclaimed dead, they had a funeral and he turned out to be in another dimension??? I dare you to not be at least a little paranoid

I’m getting the gayest vibes ever from this basketball + shower scene I’m not even joking, Harrington 100% felt what it is like to be a girl objectified in a nightclub

Billy calling Steve pretty boy is so fucked up like are you Eddie Munson? No so imma need you to back off ✋

Jfc no wonder Vecna chose max she’s a walking gold mine for therapists

One drive with Billy would be enough for me to become a target for Vecna I swear

A part of me will always blame Dustin for the cat’s death 🥲

Stranger things is so good I cannot fucking believe my eyes sometimes

First Nancy, now Hopper… can they like, stop going inside creepy ass portals all by themselves? FFS

OH MY GOD ERICA WAS SO SMALL HOW CUTE SINDFKJDF

Lucas telling Max “if I tell you the truth, you could be arrested or killed. Do you accept the risk?” Hits different now

FINALLY THE DUSTIN/STEVE DUO IS BORN

I was today years old when I realized Nancy broke up with Steve in S1 for a month but then she got back with him because she got tired of waiting for Jonathan

Dustin’s proud smile when Steve told him “good call dude” I CANT IM WEEK IM CRYING ON THE FLOOR

I will never get over Dustin’s pure adoration for Steve in this season

JUSTICE FOR BOB

BOB NEWBY THE SUPERHERO 😭😭😭

Everyone: it’s like the mind flyer! Steve&Max: don’t speak nerd in my presence pls

I’m sorry but Mike holding that small trophy as a weapon LOL

I CANNOT BELIEVE THE KIDS WERE AT THE WINDOW WHEN BILLY CAME ARE STUPID

I cannot believe they wanted to leave a beaten-up and concussed Steve behind, are you crazy???

I totally forgot that Steve, in a span of a couple of hours, pushed his girlfriend to be with another guy, got beaten up defending kids he barely knows and then went down - all beaten up and concussed - the upside down tunnels just for said kids?? ARE U EVEN REAL MAN?

Will turning to Mike when that girl asked him to dance 🥺

Nancy is so fucking right, those girls are so stupid turning Dustin down like fuck you who do you think you are????

Jopper at the end, I love my parents so much

Here my thoughts on S1!

#I know I took a long time #I wanted to savor it okay?? #Steve season 2 is premium quality #I know I mostly talk about steve but like #have you seen my blog??? #you should be surprised when I DONT talk about him #stranger things #stranger things rewatch #random st thoughts #season 2 rewatch #stranger things 2 rewatch

[crime-wives]

ouat 1x01 thoughts

god regina, you dramatic bitch. “I shall destroy your happiness if it is the last thing I do” ok darling, you can destroy me if you’d like

henry is so small, his tiny cheeks awww

not to be gay but… emma swan in the pink dress. fuck. i forgot how attracted to her i was. and the HAIR, the fucking princess curls. jesus christ her ARMS.

“bail bonds-person” i love her

yesss bitch, strut across the street like you own it. absolute icon behavior, slamming that asshole’s face into the steering wheel.

babe you’re so sad and pathetic with your vanilla cupcake. i bet she wished for family.

not her apartment door saying ‘cast a spell’

“My name’s Henry, and i’m your son” agevgsvegw STOP

her having a panic attack in the bathroom, so real.

once again, her ARMS, i want her so bad

henry’s cute little freckles, i can’t do this.

idgaf abt snow and charming “She poisoned an apple because she thought I was prettier than her” shut up bitch, you know that’s not why

“Oh kid, you’ve got problems” emma swan, insulting children since 1983

ok but the fact that they chose the name ‘emma’ in a fairytale world, lmao

evil queen theme song playing as they enter storybrooke

emma swan wearing the most dyke outfit possible. getting ready to impress milfs

not that there’s any significance, but emma’s license plate is: 836•M4X

snow and charming are so annoying istg

ewww the blue fairy, i hate that bitch (derogatory)

regina running towards henry and wrapping him up in a hug. her eyes are wet. good lord, her first reaction is concern and worry, not anger.

“I found my real mom” my HEART. her face after he said that, so stricken and hurt, baby…

emma’s little flustered, ‘hi’ when talking to a gorgeous milf. ok babe, we get it, you’re gay.

graham leaving bc of emma and regina’s immediate sexual tension. and regina’s eyes roving over emma.

first ‘Miss Swan’ of the show at exactly 21:00 minutes.

emma swan is so desperate to impress regina. it’d be funny if it wasn’t so pathetic (affectionate)

“Sneaky bastard” once again, emma swan insulting children since 1983

crashing into the storybrooke sign like the absolute icon she is

the cgi 💀💀

yay!! curse time :)

emma waking up in a jail cell. she just does not give a fuck about this shit.

her lips parting when she she’s regina, ok babe, she’s hot we get it

LIP SCAR

god mary-margaret pisses me off

go regina, knock over mary-margaret’s shit, absolute queen

“She’s kinda a hardass” yes but that turns you on, doesn’t it?

gina’s so hot when she’s evil

putting a newborn through the wardrobe to save themselves, a+ parenting

henry mills, once again, the most mature one in a situation “You don’t have to be hostile. You like me, I can tell. You’re just pushing me away because I make you feel guilty.”

“I wanted you to have your best chance. But it’s not with me. C’mon, let’s go.” go emma! be the mature adult i know you can be

petition to get emma swan a therapist so she can deal with all her issues (trust me, she’s got a lot of them)

“Look, your mom is trying her best. I know it’s hard, and I know sometimes you think she doesn’t love you, but at least she wants you.” emma swan, standing up for regina mills since the moment they met

mmm regina’s voice is so hot.

her unhinged laughter, i love her so much

“Where are we going?” “Somewhere horrible, absolutely horrible” takes them to maine

emma swan is so fucking desperate for regina’s approval. she wished to not be alone on her birthday, baby…

second ‘Miss Swan’ of the show at 38:43 (i will be keeping count of all of them :D)

regina fidgeting with her blazer pockets, she’s so anxious

first “He’s my son” at 39:01 minutes

“I will destroy you if it is the last thing I do” babe, it’s kinda gay to have a nemesis, just saying

third ‘Miss Swan’ of the show at 39:32

baby… gina is coming apart at the seems

god, not to be gay, but regina’s HANDS at 40:27 agevvegse

emma’s only staying because of regina’s provocations. she wouldn’t have stayed for henry.

gold is so icky.

she’s staying a *only* a week, sure babe, sure.

also side note, i forgot how good the coloring was in ouat. like its very faded, maybe indicative of storybrooke being stuck in the past???

#i will do this for as many eps as i feel like #is anyone going to read this. absolutely not #but i’m having fun #ouat #swan queen #regina mills #ouat rambles #anya rambles #once upon a time #i sound insane i’m (not) sorry

[diacripticcomplex]

My absolute favorite DL characters in no particular order:

🌸 YUI KOMORI 🌸

Never understood the hate towards Yui. Again the anime is a promo for the game and it did not do her character justice at all. The prequel and sequels for some of the mangas did her character justice. She’s a very kind and compassionate person, she’s HUMAN and grew up in a church, she’s a soft girl who doesn’t like violence so y’all can only imagine what this girl has to go thru meeting a bunch of bloody thirsty horny vampire boys, who have severe parental issues and a bunch of other abusive behavioral problems, but she is very patient with each and every brother in all the routes and I love that about her, she’d be a really good therapist too lmao. She’s an Angel, must be protected at all times. I won’t tolerate any Yui hate on this blog.

❤️‍🔥 AYATO SAKAMAKI ❤️‍🔥

Poster boy for the entire franchise. A lot of people find him to be annoying, he is annoying and we love his Aries self for that. While Ayato is a menace to society he’s got a good side to him as well and for the most part knows right from wrong, more than some of the fandom gives him credit for. I also really like his character design, he kinda looks like a mean little bat. They give him a lot of cute and playful moments with Yui and I think that’s beautiful especially in a dark themed game series, they have serious moments but also a lot of light hearted moments and I think that’s important to lighten up the mood sometimes.

👨‍🌾 YUMA MUKAMI👨‍🌾

First off, I absolutely love his character design, the messy long hair and he’s a giant too plus they gave him realistic human hair and eyes to show that he used to be human, maybe I’m thinking too deep on it idk. I absolutely love the identity crisis he had due to his amnesia and the connection with Shu, it brought that twin flame connection back, I love those best friend tropes a lot, his voice actor also is Mako from Free! So I have no choice but to Stan Yuma. Yuma also has a lot more self awareness then the rest of his adoptive brothers and thinks ahead due to his past experiences, he knows that he’s a vampire now but still has a garden for food and has sugar cubes with him at all times, he uses his past experiences and acknowledges that it happened then moves forward he doesn’t dwell on it too much.

🔪AZUSA MUKAMI🔪

He’s a lil creepy, and socially awkward at times but he’s just so relatable sometimes. He’s very soft spoken and he a lil wild with his pain tolerance and some of the out of pocket shit that he says, but I think he’s such a sweetheart, protect him at all costs as well, even his brothers know to protect him at all costs.

🎻 SHU SAKAMAKI 🎻

Shu will forever be my favorite DL boy, he doesn’t like doing anything but can do everything and do it perfectly too. He has severe ptsd, depression, and detachment issues. No you can’t fix him even Yui realizes this and just accepts him for who he is because that’s the only way it’ll work. He’s also hilarious without even trying to be, he says some mean shit at times but it’s so unhinged like damn Shu you don’t have the energy to eat, shower, wipe your ass but you got the energy to completely disrespect all your siblings with a few words. Also his beef with Reiji is somewhat familiar grounds especially if you have a sibling that is constantly irritating your soul. I always felt like I could relate to Shu the most due to him having a hard time getting close to people after losing his best friend, he can’t just get over it either, I don’t like when people would say “oh it happened a long time ago” yes it did but everyone heals at their own pace and it’s important to acknowledge that as well.

#diabolik lovers #diabolik boys #yui komori #shu sakamaki #dialovers #ayato sakamaki #diabolik brothers #yuma mukami #diahell #azusa mukami #favorite characters

[seleneprince]

Hear me out

With the growing popularity of transmigration webtoons, I assume we've all read those ones about a random girl or fan reincarnating in the villainess' body and changing the original plot completely, and often finding out the villainess wasn't so bad and the MC was the real enemy all along.

I'm obsessed with that trope and I don't care how repetitive or predictable it gets sometimes, it fuels me. It gives me life. And since I recently started to re-read The Remarried Empress on webtoon (i'm following I Abdicate my Title as Empress now and the nostalgia hit me), I had an idea I can't stop thinking about. Well, two ideas:

A fierce fan of The Remarried Empress dying in an accident or falling into a coma, I don't care, and reincarnating in Rasha's body, right when's she found by Emperor Sovieshu on the trap. She's a BIG supporter of Navier and hates Sovieshu with passion, blaming him for everything. Her opinion on Rasha is the same as the average fans...until she experiences the girl's trauma and hardships herself, and realizes that there's more depth in the unfamous webtoon villainess than she thought. Despite her new identity and knowing most of the plot, she cannot bring herself to stay away from Navier and show her adoration for the Empress, acting like a fangirl whenever she sees her or hears about her. She helps push all the strings to guarantee Navier and Heinrey's love story to shail, because even though she wants her close, she wants Navier to have the happy life she deserves.

Or the original Rashta going back to the past after her death and, feeling terrible for what she did, vows to not commit the same mistakes again and decides to do her best to help Navier from the distance whenever the Emperor fucks up. She doesn't want to be empress, just have a cozy and secure life away from slavery, so she's resolved to make Navier stay and if she has to act as a marital therapist for them so be it. She knows her position is secured with her baby, so it's not like she needs the Emperor's affection on her, just his promise to look after her (plus she resents him a lot now, so the less she interacts with him, the better).

These ideas were born out of my new found realization that Rashta, while she works amazing as a pitiful villain, her character was deeply misunderstood and forever condemned to be mocked and attacked by everyone, both in the story and the fandom. She wasn't a saint, sure. She did bad things out of selfishness and purposedly went against Navier to steal her place, and I was satisfied with the ending she got. But most of the flaws that made her so annoying for the fans are actually reasonable within her character's past. Rashta was sold as a slave by her own father when she was a child, placed in a house with masters that abused her and treated her like trash simply for existing (Lotteshu even gave her a dead baby to let her believe it was the one she lost, how the fuck no one talks more about it?). Then, she escapes and the Emperor saves her, showering her in affection and riches and promising her a fairytale love story. She think she's safe, that she can finally be happy, but Lotteshu re appears and begins to blackmail her, and then turns out the Emperor doesn't love her but wants to the heir she can give him. Ergi is her only friend in court apparently, but he's manipulating her from the beginning and eventually betrays her. And Rashta wasn't purposedly rude to Navier at first, the girl was illiterate and knew nothing about etiquette, but she admired Navier and wanted to be close to her, but Navier assumed she was mocking her instead. And Sovieshy obviously never helped this situation.

I want to see a story where Rashta's traumatic past is properly explored instead of showing it as side information, and she gets the development she should have had. And what better way than with a reincarnation story? At least in my opinion

Anyway, thanks for coming to my ted talk lmao

#the remarried empress #empress navier #navier ellie trovi #heinrey alles lazlo #sovieshu #emperor sovieshu #rashta #remarried empress #navier x rashta #unmarried queens #reincarnation manhwa #remarried empress reincarnation au #we hate sovieshu here btw #he's the one i never felt sorry for #he got what he deserved

[babyfairy]

i feel like i need to find a therapist again. i’m getting so frustrated with how often i come off wrong and i feel like i have so many issues with communication that i genuinely don’t know how to address because i don’t feel secure communicating no matter who i’m talking to. i’m always second guessing or overthinking it. and i know that has a lot to do with my OCD and anxiety but i feel like it’s done so much damage to my interpersonal relationships and other peoples’ perception of me and knowing that is so embarrassing for me it makes me want to just stop talking completely. but even when i do that it upsets others and comes off wrong. i wish i could wipe everyone’s memories of me sometimes and just start over. like it’s gotten to a point where i’m scared to deepen my relationship with my more casual friends because i’ll just end up upsetting or disappointing them somehow. like i feel like i need to be coached through things that everyone around me is able to handle and i hate that.

mental health resources here are so lacking though and after my last experience with a therapist + trying to find resources for family members in crisis i feel so drained and frustrated with everything i just don’t want to bother. on top of looking for another job and worrying about my family and not being able to enjoy my hobbies anymore and never being able to sleep well i feel like i’m at my fucking wits end dude like i don’t understand why regardless of how hard i try or what i do nothing seems to get any better. and all anyone has to say about it is they’re sorry. no one knows what to say. and like of course not because who would have all the answers but sometimes i just want to fucking tear my head off because i don’t think anyone realizes how fucking badly i just don’t want to be here and it takes constant effort for me to not think about anything but being dead rofl like i think maybe some people think im exaggerating or joking or trying to make people feel sorry for me but i genuinely loathe being alive like actually fucking hate it and think im not supposed to be here. and everything is a reminder that im not good enough at something or not where i need to be. im tired of always whining lmao i know it’s annoying like i can feel that people around me are fatigued with me being like this but i don’t know what else to do anymore like i don’t know how much more im expected to take? i don’t have anything going for me and there’s nothing to look forward to. anyway if you read this thanks for caring and again im sorry this blog has turned into me just nonstop complaining but it’s just like. Lol. i don’t know how anybody does it. i don’t see the beauty in life anymore. im just tired. i feel empty 90% of the time and i cry almost every day. i just wish it would stop. i don’t understand what i possibly could’ve done to deserve this level of unhappiness but i genuinely believe god fucking hates me and is punishing me because i’ve done something wrong in this life or maybe a past one. i miss my grandpa and i wish i could disappear

[platonically-loving-alastor]

Hazbin Top 5

I was going to make a top 10 character list, but realized after the first 5 I didn't know where to place anyone- But in case you're curious, some contenders for the remaining 6-10, in no specific order, were Angel Dust, Charlie, Emily, Niffty, and Sir Pentious. Now here's my top 5 with reasonings and appreciation for them all!

5. Lucifer

Obviously bro is relatable, not only for his awkwardness and hyperfixations, but he also happens to be the same height as I am at about 5'2" (according to the sources I've seen). Being the same height as Lucifer is my biggest flex lmao- I still have no idea why his hatred of Alastor seemed so instant. Like yeah, Alastor was trying to annoy him by being a better dad to Charlie, but the whole 'fuck you' moment happened before any of that started. Did he just sense the bad vibes off of him or what? Anyway, his awkwardness and desperation to connect with his daughter make for probably my favorite lines of the episode, such as the "Hey bitch!" and the whole "You like girls? So do I!" situation followed by him being so distracted he called Vaggie by the wrong name. Perfect comedy

4. Lute

I love her an insane amount for someone who shows up so relatively little with so few lines, but here we are. I've already made an entire post about her, here it is if you want it, so I'll keep this short (Spoiler alert: I failed). I actually don't think I mentioned just how attractive this woman is, so let's get that out there right now. I know I'm not the only one who thinks this, about half the people I've seen react to Episode 6 have seen Lute without her mask, took a pause of recognition, and we all knew what they were thinking before the pressed play. Istg my taste in women (and sometimes even men, thanks Vox) is just "Can they murder me without a second thought? Yes? That's hot". My favorite line of hers is when she's hyping up the army with Adam and says "Rip Vaggie's cunt mouth out her ass!" and even Adam has to be like "damn girl chill what the hell-" She's so feral I love her so much

3. Rosie

Everyone needs a Rosie in their lives. I don't just mean a regular therapist, I mean a person in your life, friend or family member, who will talk you out of your downward spiral and gently call you out on why those paranoid thoughts are actually pretty unrealistic (the other side of the same coin would be Husk, he's just more blunt about it). I'm also still completely convinced she has some interesting and sad backstory based on how she was talking to Charlie and I need to know about it so bad. "It can be difficult to admit to things you're not proud of, especially if those things hurt the ones you love" Ma'am what did you do? I find it hard to believe it's just about the cannibalism. I don't know if in this instance, she's the one who hurt someone or someone else hurt her and she was the one who failed to forgive them, but either way I need answers.

2. Vox

Y'all know I love this man in more ways than one, he one the hottest Hazbin character poll for a reason. But I swear everything about this man makes me love him as a character more. First, I always love a technology based character, his electricity powers and literal screen head are the coolest thing in the world to me. He's voiced by Christian Borle, which was a fantastic choice, along with the glitched effect his voice gets when he's mad, I love to see it. Apparently it's also canon he can fly (with rocket shoes)?? He just keeps getting the best character design choices possible, this can't possibly be fair- The fact his first introduction was being done with Val, telling him to call tf down, and treating him like a child ("Now that's why they pay you the big bucks!") was a pretty good first impression for me lol, made even funnier when it was followed by him losing all sense of rationalism when Alastor entered his line of sight.

1. Alastor

The character my blog is named after, this should not be a surprise. Shockingly enough, despite my obsession for him and acknowledgement of his charming nature and generally attractive design, I' do not simp for him in the slightest'm not personally attracted to him in the slightest. I simp for a TV and yet apparently deer man with permanent smile is where I draw the line idk- The most I want from him is to be as good of a friend to him as Rosie is (well that and to touch his ears but that's a given). But this is another character I love literally everything about. Who would've thought the concepts of 'radio host', 'serial killer', and 'literal deer' would work so well together to create this dapper yet terrifying fucking cryptid. Not only can he be either incredibly scary or a silly guy, he can and has done both at once. Example: Episode 3 when he's just casually eating a deer carcass in his room (in which he summoned a whole ass bayou). I was genuinely so glad when the 'this face was made for radio' thing happened in episode 1, confirming that they were still gonna lean into his creepy-as-fuck distortion and general vibe he had in the pilot. He's horrifying and evil and I love that about him. Meanwhile he also says shit like "Now he's pissy, that's the tea" (definitely taught to him by Rosie) and kicks his legs on the bed like a schoolgirl as if he hasn't committed countless atrocities. My favorite character, everyone-

Wow I wrote more than I meant to for this, sorry about the essay-

#hazbin hotel #alastor #vox #rosie hazbin hotel #lute hazbin hotel #lucifer hazbin hotel

[the-casbah-way]

im fucking wheezing about that last post lmao. he WOULD. anyway please share the failed marriage lore <3 i love them -rivstyx

i could write an entire prequel on octavius and amelia's cringefail marriage alone but here is just a little lore off the top of my head

they went to rome for their honeymoon and wanted to kill each other after an hour because octavius just wanted to mansplain every monument and statue but amelia wanted to have a Proper Adventure and every time amelia tried to speak to a native to improve her italian octavius would correct her pronunciation before she could even finish her sentence and it got to the point where she was literally begging him to stop talking because he was annoying her so much <3

there was never a proposal. they were just eating dinner one night and it was like "everyone is expecting us to get married" "yeah" "we should probably do that then" "ok"

octavius never told amelia he was getting a cat he just showed up with one after work one day. and amelia started to get genuinely irritated very quickly because suddenly her emotionally constipated husband who has never shown affection in his life was cradling this cat like a newborn and calling it every pet name under the sun and talking to it in a stupid baby voice

all of amelia's friends hated octavius but her parents LOVED him which is half the reason she felt pressured to marry him in the first place. he was the rich successful man they always wanted instead of her and she always resented him for it even though she never said it

they tried couples therapy once but octavius kept zoning out because the therapist was really hot and amelia scrapped the whole thing because every session made her want to strangle him even more

they both hate their parents and it was one of the few things that kept them bonded during their marriage. whenever their parents would visit they'd both do terrible impressions of them while they weren't looking to try and make each other laugh

you know about the dreaded sexting incident but that's just the tip of the sexual nightmare iceberg. there's the time amelia accidentally said the name of one of her male colleagues during sex. the time octavius started getting bored and awkward and nervous during a blowjob and asked if he could read a book during it to distract himself. the time ahkmenrah walked in on them. the time ahkmenrah and octavius had sex literally an hour after the divorce papers went through. i could go on

octavius’ cat vomited on amelia’s favourite shoes once and it caused an entire year long ordeal because amelia was Very angry and octavius was very indignant and annoying about it because ‘well i’m sorry but she had to do it somewhere’ and every time they would go shopping amelia would see a nice pair of shoes and passive aggressively be like “i’m pretty sure i had a pair like that once. i wonder what happened to them— oh yes i remember now :)” and then the whole argument would start all over again

once amelia got jealous of one of octavius’ female colleagues because he was spending a lot of time with her and octavius genuinely could not understand why amelia was concerned about this because he completely forgot he was supposed to be pretending to be straight and into women

one of octavius’ deepest and darkest guilty pleasures is musicals which are amelia’s least favourite thing on this earth and sometimes she would catch him subconsciously singing something from a musical under his breath and she would be like can you please shut up and octavius would get very defensive about it because “its not my fault its stuck in my head someone was singing it at work i don’t even like musicals—” and amelia would be like “oh shut up ive heard you in the shower you liar” and it was like a whole thing

they both have the exact same dry overly british sense of humour so even when they ended up hating each other they were still painfully good at making the other laugh without even trying and they would both get bitter and frustrated about it

#down then left #this ask is SO old im sorry i had this in my drafts and forgot to post it #anyway i really really want to write a whole fic about how octavius and amelia met and what went down between them #i love amelia so much i hope she gets to kill her horrible parents <3

[cupcraft]

Auditory processing problems are hard esp when you don't know until a whole lot later in life like you know it's like

You spend your whole life asking people to repeat themselves a ton of times until you Learn that's Rude you know so you ask maybe 2 to 3 times and then you Pretend you understood them because it's You right, it's totally You and not Something Else, and you hope you're not quizzed on it later. Because sure at a restauraunt you answer yes and your sandwich has a topping you wouldn't think to ask for not really a bad consequence (foodie anyway) but then your friends like oh so [insert topic] and you're like omg what and they're like ugh I told you last week how could you forget? And you could say hey I didn't really understand what you said ("wow you never listen") and or you could say sorry I forgot (but then once it's a pattern then it'll be "you never care to remember"). And you learn to mask. Teacher says directions verbally and doesn't write it down you joke and loudly say "I have literally no clue what we're supposed to be doing LMAO" and your friends laugh tell you and you figure out what you're supposed to do (or you just stay quiet and figure it out. Or you context clues it and think of a question to ask the teacher so you can gain more clues). And you learn to mask and people sort of think you're an airheaded kind of person for most of your growing up life. Though your parents are confused why you can't understand or watch a show when they talk loudly along with it when there's no subtitles and so you have to keep pausing and unpausing until only one conversation is happening.

But it still catches up with you because why can't you just listen, why do you forget stuff, why do things make no sense to you. And you can't keep saying sorry. And you feel like they're right it is you and you begin to focus all your emotional energy on Listening and Remembering and Processing even if you can't do other tasks (bc multitasking destroys the ability to Listen) because of it so people don't get mad at you. Because they're right, right? You just dont care about people and don't wanna listen. And it's not a constant struggle in every situation

And then you're 21 and your new therapist is like hey you may have autism and that just sounds like auditory processing problems. Like so it wasn't You. You did care about people and what they had to say. And you did want to listen. You just, had difficulties and barriers to always understanding what people say. And it's hard to believe after all that, because sometimes you doubt yourself and it's like "huh maybe I'm secretly making it all up as an excuse to not listen to ppl and be horrible" (and that's never been true).

But it's still hard, even when you are comfortable telling people about it when they get to know you. Because they still don't get it all the time. People still get annoyed repeating themselves occasionally, and people are upset you forget information not fully processed or forgotten for another reason. Sometimes you have professors and teachers that think you're not paying attention by taking notes on what they say so you can reread later. But it's easier knowing now. It's easier.

#my musings #vent #you can rb this i really shared this incase it helps others #esp bc i had a revelation about my experiences the other day

[barghest-land]

(Regarding the making friends poll post) You and I are so similar and it makes me feel so much better because I always thought my combination of things was unique to me, but there's hope?! This is exciting news but I'm too shy to approach you and be friends 😭

there's always hope anon, it's hard to live with those things but there are definitely good times coming :) for me it's esp falling in love part cuz imagine feeling things every time someone makes u a playlist. or just talks abt their day and "i saw this pretty flower today on my way back home and i took a pic for u" i hate my silly brain sometimes it's so annoying. but at the same time i love people and i love my friends they're so dear to me and i wanna put them all in my pocket and keep them safe the same way i wanna do it with my fav fictional characters if that makes any sense LMAO. my therapist would probably say something smart about me feeling lonely and this being normal but i'd still call it being silly bc it's kinda embarrassing. i'm open to joke about it tho. makes it easier :D life is a joke anyway went too far on this whoops. but! wanted to say that i'm also shy, can be a forgetting-to-respond-and-have-to-be-reminded goofball, and i'm often scared to talk to people so i have to approach them in different ways (this is also like extra funny to me tho) but if u wanna be silly together and talk for a bit ur always welcome to! there's no pressure and no "we MUST be friends after we talk" we can just discuss silly things without it being something big and serious. sometimes i think about it that way and it makes it easier to talk to people. i'm bad with words but i hope it makes some sense :D

#barghest barks #<3

[original-character-championship]

Bracket H Round 1

Poll 24

Skitt & Ena & Olive (@bootsieboots) vs. Apricity Nix (@decapod-appreciator)

495. Skitt & Ena & Olive (@bootsieboots)

skitt usez any, ena usez they/it/she (bc of her eczema), and olive usez he/they

The TL;DR 4 them is that theyre little fucked up guys living in a circus 2gether. Skitt is a repressed traumatized clown amphibian, Olive is a sweet jackalope who acts like an asshole as a defense mechanism, and Ena is a chaotic little shithead w a short fuse, whos actually secretly the mom friend. I like to put them in2 situations in my head and then never write said situations down. Also theyre all aspec and trans.

Skitt:

he is simply a little guy! (puts him thru the horrors puts him thru the horrors p) Oh, hes a bit fucked up actually.

-a mishmash of basically any amphibian features i think r cool! It is also a clown! Isnt that silly? Well its actually 4 trauma reasons. Lol. lmao.

-has rejection sensitive dysphoria and wants every1 2 love him so much all the time. Cries and throws up when it inevitably doesnt work out.

-ADHD!

-super in2 fashion and makeup. Can u guess why? Trauma reasons, of course! Honestly most of her hobbies r rooted in wanting 2 escape something.

-i cant think of anything else non-spoilery 2 put here. Uhm. ze really likes bubble baths and swimming.

Olive:

A little skrunkly autismic sourpuss. He wishes that he cud b more sincere w people sometimes, but every past attempt has been met w people shutting them down, in 1 way or another. The only person in the world he feels even mildly comfortable around is Ena (and later on in the story, Skitt).

-acts like an asshole around most people bc theyre used 2 being seen as one. And by asshole, i mean a little quiet, sulking, wet cat in a corner of the room who makes angy faces at any1 who invades their space.

-mute! This is bc bunnies do not have vocal chords. Communicates thru sign language and annoyed noises. Screams when overstimulated. Yes, bunnies can scream, just not using vocal chords. There r also other sounds they can make! (mostly annoyed sounds. He does purr as well! Just like a real bunny)

-very in2 music. Plays the harmonica and other woodwind instruments that r easy 2 steal. Can they play good? Uhm. havent decided yet actually.

-has a sort of heart shaped facial scar and a broken antler he got from entirely mundane causes (antler is permanently broke, dont question how that works bc i dunno).

-very incredibly touch averse, only tolerates Ena’s touch. theyre also fat and very fluffy! Great 4 cuddling! But he wont let u. Sorry.

Ena:

Money gremlin!!! Chaotic anarchist motherfucker!!! Probably owes u money! Is currently being gay doing crime. In this world, 1 does not have to pay/steal 2 survive, but Ena does it anyways 2 fuck shit up and stir the pot.

-escaped from a shitty orphanage w Olive.

-horrible anger issues. If Olive is a sourpuss, Ena is a bomb waiting 4 an excuse 2 go off. This is bc in the orphanage, they learned that no 1 wud listen 2 them unless they scratched and fought and clawed and bit and punched. (and shocked!). Shes generally chill tho, just, its easy 2 get on her bad side.

-sorta the therapist friend, bc its good at telling ppl what they want 2 hear. Her charismatic attitude also helps when scamming people.

-uses prosthetics! In this world, aquatic animals r given the ability 2 stay on land 4 extended periods of time via prosthetics! Want 2 know more? Ask me :>

-basically blind. Electric eels have awful eyesight, and shes no exception! She can only see bright lights and colors. They use electrolocation 2 get around. (please ask me what it is if u dont know, i am v happy 2 infodump abt anything oc related!)

Remember kids, a vote 4 my ocs is a vote 4 disability, queerness, anarchy, the found family trope, little guys being put in situations therye entirely unequipped for, furries, and much more!

Skitt has a triangular dress with purple and yellow split colors, and purple leggings. Pointy, slender legs. A long pointed yellow hat with a little green thingy on top (idk what to call it). Blue eyes with froglike pupils. Minty-green, short, curly hair. A classic clown makeup look (off-white facepaint, a clown nose, and pennywise-esque makeup lines going from the bottom of his eyebrows to the sides of his mouth.

Olive is a jackalope with short, olive/forest green hair swooping over one eye. His eyes are the same color as his hair. Most of their fur is darkish brown, while his belly, his inner thighs, and lower left arm is beige. their right arm, lower legs, and the top of their ears are black. Only wearing black arm warmers thanks to sensory issues.

Ena is a vaguely pirate-themed girlie. Dark brown skinned, with grey arms and greyish legs. Big thicc tail. Mostly black hair. Tattered black shorts and an even more tattered, dark green crop top. Has red eyes and a red sash tied around its waist. Lots of little spots all over their skin. lazy-eyed.

496. Apricity Nix (@decapod-appreciator)

she/her

she's a werewolf she's aroace she stalks people on accident. she didn't know what a crime was until the police went after her. her best friends are a supervillan and a failed actress. she thinks she would make a good detective (she wouldn't). she's fun and friendly and sweet but still a fully thought out character. she runs away from her abusive home to find her sister and in the process finds a whole new family. she even takes down the government.

Pris is a short, pale girl with  black hair styled to look like wolf ears. she has brown eyes with diagonal red pupils and a bit of a snaggle tooth on one side.

#oc championship #tournament poll #round 1 #bracket h #495 skitt & ena & olive #496 apricity nix

[queen-rainy-love]

HAIII!!! HAAAIII!!!

I HAVE REQUEST !! : DDDD

Clotted Cream and Finanicier are both forced into anger management (a headcanon I mentioned before i think). And in the anger management class we see Herb as the therapist! And we have the members!:

Pastry Cookie, Rye Cookie, Red Velvet, Espresso, Caramel Arrow, Almond, and Mint Choco Cookie (surprising ik but it’ll make sense laster-)

Soon they all talk. Pastry talks about (sorta but she’s implying) her past trauma, Rye talks about Chili being annoying and stealing, RV talks about his issues about the COD, Espresso talks about his work overwhelming him, Caramel Arrow talks about a snake(yknow who lmao), Almond talks about the crime chases he does and it hurts his back (old man lmao) and Mint Choco just FRICKING yells about his performance being a total bust; Vampire accidentally broke a light, Sparkling couldnt find his juice to serve the audience, Cocoa being sick, and to top it all of Gumball accidentally shoots Cherry’s bomb onto the stage. After his rant he apologizes and says that he’s working on his anger issues.

Clotted Cream mentions his father and Finanicier says, “I also hate his father because he assigns me stupid tasks”

after that Clotted Cream jokes about being scared of Mint Choco and Mint Choco just laughs…

Oooooo! I like this request! And I don't remember if anyone says anything about Clotted Cream and Financier having anger issues. But I'm down for it! And this will be set after the Journal arc. Also, I don't know what anger management classes are like, outside of tv. So sorry in advance if it's not accurate.

*The scene is set before a green building at the Cookie Kingdom. Clover, Herb, Clotted Cream, and Financier stood in front of said building. And to say that two were not happy was an understatement.*

Financier: Why are we here? This has nothing to do with the Crème Republic.

Clover: Maybe. But after a certain event, it's clear that Clotted Cream needs this. And you are welcome to join him for this, Ser Financier.

Herb: And sometimes, it's easier to talk it out. Maybe taking anger management classes can help. If not, then you don't have to come after this class.

Clotted Cream: Hmmm...

Financier: Consul?

Clotted Cream: *sighs* Very well. We'll give it a try. However, are you qualified for this task? No offense.

Herb: None taken and I am actually qualified to lead this class. Now, once we enter this door, please leave your weapons in the box next to the door.

Financier: Leave our weapons? Why?

Clover: Just going on a limb here...is it to avoid fighting?

Herb: That and I don't want the plants inside to get hurt. Now, come on. We can't keep the others waiting! *walks into the building*

Clover: I'll see you guys later. *waves the duo goodbye*

*Financier and Clotted Cream followed Herb inside and placed Financier's sword and Clotted Cream's coat next to the big box of weapons. The duo quickly continued following Herb inside a room where a bunch of Cookies were sitting in a circle. Starting with Herb's empty chair, the members were Espresso, Mint Choco, an empty chair, Red Velvet, another empty chair, Almond, Caramel Arrow, Rye, and Pastry.*

Herb: Hello everybody! *all attention was on him* Thank you all for coming to today's class. We have two new members with us, so please give them a warm welcome!

*The group greeted Clotted Cream and Financier. The duo walked over to the two empty chairs. Clotted Cream sat in between Mint Choco and Red Velvet while Financier sat in between Red Velvet and Almond.*

Clotted Cream: *smiles* Nice to see some familiar faces.

Red Velvet: *chuckles* Yeah. Maybe this meeting won't be so...frustrating...

Clotted Cream: Frustrating how?

Mint Choco: *leans next to Clotted Cream and whispers* You see that Cookie in purple and the habit? *subtly points at Pastry. Clotted Cream nods.* She and Red Velvet have history.

Clotted Cream: *looks at Red Velvet* What happened?

Red Velvet: *waves it off* I'll tell you later. Class is about to start.

Herb: Alright! Let's get started! *everyone turns their attention back to Herb, where he is holding a plant plushie.* Now both as a reminder and explanation, we will be taking turns talking and only if you have the plushie, may you talk. If you wish to speak up, please raise your hand and wait to be called on. Okay? *everyone nods their heads.* Good! Now Miss. Pastry, *hands her the plushie* how about you start today's session?

Pastry: What should I talk about?

Herb: Anything. It could be about your childhood or anything from the past few days. Just speak whatever is on your mind.

Pastry: Well...*looks down at the plushie* I don't remember much about my childhood other than the church. That was all I knew before the incident. *her face twist with anger and fear.* But this I will say: the things I've seen in those walls before the incident...looking back at them...I don't know why I let myself turn a blind eye. I just... *squeezes the plushie*

*Clotted Cream looked over at Red Velvet, who was looking at the floor, then at Pastry, who stole a glance at Red Velvet.*

Herb: *places a hand on her shoulder* It's alright. If it's too much, we can talk more in a private session if you want.

Pastry: Thank you. *hands back the plushie*

Herb: *gently takes the plushie* Thank you. Now, *looks over at Rye.* would you like to go next, Rye?

Rye: Alright. *takes the plushie, takes a breath, then starts* The past week has been testing my patience. I was looking over at my bounty book when it was suddenly taken from my hand! I look up to see that red pepper Cookie laughing at me and my bounty! She then started mocking me and was about to run off! Those sweet little kids did try to get her to stop but it didn't work.

Herb: Did you chase her?

Rye: Almost. She's lucky that her pops came by and stopped her. I wanted to.

Herb: I see. Did she apologize for stealing your bounty book?

Rye:...No...

Herb: Would you want me to get her to apologize?

Rye:...yes...

Herb: I'll get her to do so after this session.

Rye: Good. *tosses the plushie over to Red Velvet* Your turn, hound boy.

*Even if he caught it, Red Velvet started to growl a bit but Clotted Cream placed his hand on his shoulder. The General took a breath before speaking up.*

Red Velvet: Ever since I moved here, I've noticed some former associates causing issues for my brothers and me. And I know I could ignore them. However, they've been pushing it by attacking us whenever we step out of the kingdom! They've even made an attempt on kidnapping us!

Herb: Do you know why?

Red Velvet: *gives a glare* What do you think?

Herb: *clears throat nervously* Right. Do you have any plans to keep them at bay?

Red Velvet:......Well......

Herb: No violence!

Red Velvet: Only against them!

*An argument broke out between Herb and Red Velvet. Nothing too aggressive, just how the General should deal with the issue. After five minutes of shouting, Red Velvet tossed the plushie at Espresso.*

Espresso: Hmm. I believe it's my turn then.

Herb: Of course. Go ahead.

Espresso: The past few days have been stressful. All my experiments have been coming up negative and the school board has been on my case about my results. Not to mention, my former landlord kept sending me letters, even after I moved out!

Herb: And did you solve this...without violence?

Espresso: I...mostly threw a book at the wall before calming down. Just before...Madeleine came in my lab.

Herb: That's progress. Let's just remember that we don't want to throw anything heavy at anything else.

Espresso: Very well. That is all from me today. *toss the plushie at Caramel Arrow* Here you go.

Caramel Arrow: *catches it* Thank you. And the only thing that has been bothering me is that snake.

Herb: Snake? What snake?

Caramel Arrow: A traitor of the Dark Cacao Kingdom. He fled the kingdom not too long ago and we've been hunting him down since.

Herb: It seems like you have a personal history with this snake.

Caramel Arrow: He's the reason why I was kicked out of the kingdom for some time.

Herb: I see. Do you have an idea of what you will do if you see him again?

Caramel Arrow: Nothing I can say here.

Herb: Alright. Anything else you want to share?

Caramel Arrow: No. I'm good for the day. *passes the plushie to Almond* Here you go, detecive.

Almond: Thank you. I have nothing really noteworthy for this session. Mostly had chases that nearly blew out my back.

Herb: Have you been doing your exercises?

Almond: Not for the past few days.

Herb: Let's remember to do that, okay?

Almond: Alright. *hands the plushie to Mint Choco.* Here you go.

Clotted Cream: (Why is Mint Choco here? He's usually calm. What's he mad about?) *notices almost everyone bracing themselves* (Why is everyone doing that?)

Mint Choco: *takes a deep breath* MY LAST NIGHT CONCERT WAS RUINING!!!!!! *both Clotted Cream and Financier jumped* FIRST, VAMPIRE STUMBLED ABOVE THE LIGHTS AND BROKE ONE OF THEM!!!!! NEXT, I LEARNED THAT SPARKLING COULDN'T FIND MY AFTER-SHOW DRINK!!! THEN I LEARNED THAT COCOA GOT SICK AND COULDN'T MAKE IT!!!! AND TO MAKE IT GREAT, GUMBALL "ACCIDENTALLY" SHOT ONE OF CHERRY'S BOMBS ON STAGE AND NEARLY THREW ME OFF FOR MY FINALE!!!!!

*After all that, Mint Choco took multiple deep breaths. Most of the group quickly relaxed while Clotted Cream and Financier were still confused.*

Mint Choco: *puts on an apologetic smile* Sorry about that. Last night was a bit stressful for me and Toothpaste was no help whatsoever. But I will try better.

Herb: Thank you for letting us know about this. I hope the next concert won't have any more hiccups.

Mint Choco: Thank you, Herb. *hands the plushie to Clotted Cream* Here you go, buddy. You give it a try.

Clotted Cream: Oh! Um...well...I don't think I could follow that...

Herb: It's alright. Just share anything on your mind.

Clotted Cream: Well...I guess I could say...I hate my father.

Herb: *tilts head* Oh? Why is that?

Clotted Cream: Well, nothing I do can impress him and he expects so much!! I could lead an army against Dark Enchantress right now and he would still not acknowledge it! I do everything for him and not even a Light damn thank you!

Financier: *raises her hand*

Herb: Yes, Ser Financier?

Financier: Well...I must say this. I also hate his father.

Herb: Why?

Financier: He has me do tasks that are not related to my main task. Protecting the Consul.

Herb: Like what?

Financier: Finding one piece of paper in a giant archive. As if he doesn't have Cookies to do that instead.

Herb: ...Okay...That's understandable.

Financier: Yes. *looks over at Clotted Cream* Sorry about that Consul. I just needed to get that off my chest.

Clotted Cream: It's not a problem. To be honest, my father is the second Cookie I'm scared of now.

Herb: Who's the first?

Clotted Cream: Mint Choco.

Mint Choco: *laughs* That's fair.

#cookie run kingdom #crk headcanons #clotted cream cookie #financier cookie #clover cookie #herb cookie #red velvet cookie #pastry cookie #rye cookie #mint choco cookie #almond cookie #espresso cookie #caramel arrow cookie #these cookies need therapy #oh god is this long

[machathecat]

I was bored so I did the clan gen challenge x3 (long thing ahead)

I present forest clan!!

This clan has the reputation of not really caring about anything besides of themselves, selfish in general and pretty disconnected from reality and taking everything like it's not that bad even if half of the forest is on fire. They play jokes and pranks on eachothers a lot.

Now the cats!

Mist star (he/they) is the leader, he is starting to get a little old. They're best friend died during a dog pack attack on they're camp a couple moons ago and he had be depressed ever since. They eat less and sleep more of the time, so the deputy is pretty much considered as the leader by the rest of the cats. He his aroace

Speaking of deputy, here's weevil stone! (Any) they are young but intelligent and can handle stressing situations very well, however it's 99% of masking his actual feeling and she is silently having a panic attack most of the time. It's the sibling of squirrel stone and they always do everything together, which is why mist star gave them the same name. She's pansexual

And here's they're sister squirrel stone! (She/her) she's very caring and good at her job, however she space out easily and don't like to listen to other's when they tell her she did something wrong, she will only listen to her sibling. She's MTF

Hemlock claw! (they/them) they're completely deaf and were bullied a lot as a kit for it, which only motivated them to become the best warrior possible and they are now feared and respected by the whole clan. However they are getting old and are planning to retire to the elder den soon. They're non-binary

night nose, they're sibling! (She/he) she is jockey and calm but a strong and wise warrior when needed. Him and her sibling invented a sign language as kits to communicate, once they both became warriors (and when the bullies grew up and realized they were dumb) they learned it to the rest of the clan. He's agender

Sleet face! (He/him) he is the kid of mist star, which give him a lot of anxiety. He constantly feel like he's never good enough and is embarrassing his father, but he's a great listener and is kinda the therapist of the clan. He's gay and asexual

Cormorant blaze! (She/they) they're constantly taking risks and putting herself in dangerous situations because it's just how they have fun. She constantly play jokes on her clanmates and is just very chaotic in general. They're bisexual

Fennel paw! (Any) he's cormorant blaze apprentice and they are the most chaotic duo ever. She's think they're the best apprentice and will become the best leader to have ever existed soon, but are actually pretty talented. It just has to learn to accept we do mistakes sometimes. He's bigender

Spider paw! (He/it) he's a ball of anxiety cause he's hemlock claw apprentice and feel like they're being dumb and bad all the time, it's best friend with sleet face (lmao) he does everything possible to impress it's mentor even if it mean exhaust himself until he pass out in patrol, hemlock claw is trying to work through it's bad habits. He's genderfluid

Starlight face! (He/him) he's the mate of weevil stone, older than her by a couple of moons. They're the parents of fennel paw and spider paw and he's expecting a second litter. He's very good and caring with kits, even a little overprotective. He's FTM

Last but not least, swan heart! (It/it's) it's very old and a lot of cats even wonder how it's still alive. It's very grumpy and kinda mean, but it would die for the few people it care's about. It's very lonely cause the only two other elders died during that dog attack, so spider paw visit it a lot. It find him a little annoying but it goes along .

#YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG IT WAS TO TYPE ALL OF THIS #warrior cats #clan gen challenge #Warrior cats oc #Oc #My oc #My OCS #Warrior cats OCS

[why-its-kai]

I only say this with the best intentions but have you considered staying on a mental health facility for a while? It can really help get you back on your feet and have some sense of schedule and organization in your life for a bit. Plus medication and therapy.. Sometimes we need a more aggressive intervention on our lives y'know? And that's also fine..

respectfully my worst fear is to be institutionalized so a mental health facility sounds utterly terrifying. completely disruptive of my life and routine. changes. control imposed over me. lack of privacy. out of my personal space and somewhere unfamiliar. who will take care of my cat. etc. etc. etc. no thank you.

i am on medication, i do see a therapist weekly, i am SUPPOSED to be getting services to help me find employment but having a pisspoor experience with even communicating with them so that's been frustrating bc i WANT TO FUCKING WORK BUT I NEED HELP, but my neighbors at this apartment have become increasingly loud/pot smelling the building its sensory hell and that's chipping away at me on top of the everything else thats stressing me out, and ofc it's december/winter so my mental state is in total disarray regardless lmao. anyways therapist is helping me work on shit it's just i come here to complain and whine bc ive got no one irl around daily to unload this. i can't keep it bottled inside or i spiral more and more like i gottta yell in the void sometimes about how its annoying how my brain works and strugglings annoying and idk. i am getting help even tho it seems like i am not and just falling apart as a total disaster wreck trash fire who needs to be institutionalized i guess idk XD im sure you came here with good intention anon but like. i'm sorry that's literally something i'm terrified of. i already feel like i'm not in control of my life last thing i want is to lose that last bit of it by getting put away regardless of if i willingly went or sent forcibly lol

#anon

[coyotevallie]

jedidiah 4 the character thing :3

GOTTA GIVE THE PEOPLE WHAT THEY WANT!!!!!!!

fav thing about them: ohhhh man theres so much . id have to say how Real he feels . like he can do and say some awful mean things but it never feels liek conflict just for the sake of conflict or him just Decidin to be cruel it all links back to his feelings and his guilt and his fears and like . hes just so Real in a gutwrenching way both for the better and for the worse

least fav thing about them: i mean . the ableism . thats kind of a copout answer though so instead of smt basic like "i dont like that he avoided sydney" or whateva ill say that i think he shouldnt have gotten together with sydney as soon as he did that fucker needs SOOO much healing first . but i think thatll be explored given that they have a couples therapist in s2 so thats not like a writing flaw i dont think unless its fumbled which i doubt it will be

favorite line: "I couldn’t handle the body. I can’t handle the body. I walk away from the body. And most nights I don’t think about it… but sometimes there’s a rumbling under my desk, cold and distant like metal wheels through the mountain, spinning like the hands on the clocks that — if I could just know if I could just know if I could just know if I could just know if I could just know if I could just know—" girl that is ocd!!!!!! u suffer . anyway i genuinely had to pause the ep and take a break after this line something about it . oh my god

fav friendship: i LOVE LOVE LOVE his friendship with yvonne i think its so fun and whimsical i love gamer girls bonding . also him having a queerplatonic relationship with juniper is one of my fav hcs hehehe

fav ship: you KNOW its sydidiah . you KNOW . second place is jeddieann and soridiah (obvs to anyone whos spoken to me for longer than five seconds) but i am literally deranged about sydidiah

least fav ship: i havent seen one that exceptionally bothered me . people dont Ship jedidiah that much with people besides sydney from what ive seen . like i could be like "oh tid be shitty to ship him w elijah or wahtever" but like that seems like im making smt up to get mad at lmao if anyone ships that or anything else id be annoyed abt ive never seen it

random hc: hmmmmm. in sydneys major huge homestuck phase he spent a whole all-nighter listening to an absurd amount of homestuck fansongs in an attempt to like . shoot an understanding of the story into his veins without having to Actually read it all the way thru bc its so fucking long . this just made him way more confused

unpopular opinion: whatsss an unpopular opinion i have . taps my jaw and thinks and ponders . people ignore jedidiahs ableism a lot and the pervasive ways it relates to many many Many aspects of their dynamic but thats not so unpopular of an opinion so ill be a little spicier about it and say that i think even among the people who DO comprehend jedidiahs ableism and the way it impacts their relationship theyyy. kinda ignore the ableism of literally any other person besides lucille? like jedidiah becomes kinda the scapegoat for all the ableism in the narrative and like yes we should discuss the ways jedidiahs ableism impacts the narrative thats true!! however if youre going to discuss that but not talk about say elijah or salem or once s2 comes out likely adam as well or what have u . what is tha point . this is not me defending jedidiah or saying oh people are too harsh on my blorbo ): ): ): we SHOULD discuss jedidiahs ableism but i feel like its not That unpopular of an opinion that we should acknowledge jeddies ableism even if some people dont really follow through on Doing so in Practice yk

song i associate with them: oh my godddddd cry for judas . oh my God is that hte jedidiah song of all time

#u can tell im insnae abt him bc this is fucking forever long

[cripple-council]

hi there!! disabled American teenager here.

in case you haven't heard, the us is an actual hellscape right now, and I know i will not be able to live here as an adult with all of the consequences of capitalism (i will not be able to work as an adult. i don't know what else to do).

so uh. would you mind giving a review of what it's like living in Sweden as a disabled person? like, can you live on disability? (we can't here, lmao.) how long are the healthcare waits? how ableist is society as a whole there? and accessibility and stuff? also, learning swedish would cost too many spoons; does the majority of the population know English?

you don't have to answer this ask if you aren't comfortable, but if you do, I've pretty much narrowed down my list of possible countries to move to to Iceland, New Zealand, and Sweden, so if any other disabled person sees this who lives in one of those countries or has suggestions, it would be greatly appreciated :)

hey!

okay so i can only speak from my experiences, so keep that in mind!

applying for disability benefits isn’t that hard, you can do so through your general health care doctor for physical health reasons and psych doctor for mental health reasons. they’ll fill it in for you and you just have to answer the questions verbally (that’s what i did). this request goes to försäkringskassan, and i got answer pretty quick that i got approved. you can apply for three years at a time if i remember correctly, but they do want you to get rehabilitated so that you eventually can do work to some extent, but you can keep applying. i don’t know much about what happens if you get denied though since that hasn’t happened to me yet thankfully lmao. they also do semi regular check ins during the time you’ve been approved for. for me, they want me to do PT & DBT before i eventually go back to work (and if i’ll even be able to lol), so they do call sometimes to ask how things are going. they are generally annoying but yeah, which government agency isn’t?

the waiting lists are terrible here, they can be incredibly long, i waited 2 years to get into the gender clinic, and that’s actually a short time from what i’ve heard. i haven’t had to get referred to something for my physical health yet (thought i am waiting for that lol), so i don’t know what the general waiting times are for that, but i’m guessing those are long too.

i haven’t had super bad encounters with ableists thankfully, it’s mostly my therapist and the doctors i’ve met that has treated me like shit for wanting pain management (and because i’m fat but that’s a whole other issue). doctors here are incredibly reluctant to give pain medications in my experience, even when i had a 10/10 pain at the ER they wouldn’t give me anything, despite me not being able to walk and screaming whenever i moved around. i’ve only had one good doctor who actually cared about me and my pain, she did prescribe me gabapentin which has helped immensely. it took 5 or something tries to get them to listen to me. so a general rule here is to never give up, and keep fucking nagging the doctors until they care lmao. so yeah, ableist (and fatphobic) doctors is a problem here. i can’t come up with more examples except that most people think that chronic disabilities go away with exercise lmao.

accessibility is different depending on where you live, and i can mostly just speak on where i live. big issue: we do not have public transportation in my town, which is often a necessary thing for some disabled people (who can’t drive etc.). thankfully i have a car, without it i would never leave my home. also in my town, most apartment buildings have the apartments one half floor up aka stairs, there aren’t many buildings in my town that has elevators. the ones with elevators are considered more luxurious here and i’ve noticed they usually have higher rent too lmao. but also i live in a smaller town, so there aren’t many options anyways. if you have specific questions about accessibility feel free to send another ask, because i can’t think of more right now (very tired lol).

and yeah, sweden is a somewhat known for being a good english speaking country if i remember correctly, don’t know the exact rating though. the people who aren’t that good are usually 50+, most young people know english well. swedish is a hard language to learn, but it’s not super super important since for most things you can ask for english i think. but it might be worth trying to learn swedish in your own pace if you’re planning to move here. i’m not sure about how citizenship stuff works here, and if knowing swedish is a requirement.

in general sweden is a decent country, there are a lot of issues but it could be worse. i personally don’t mind living here, things have worked out for me, disability wise and stuff like that.

and to my fellow swedes: feel free to add on to this, and how your experiences has been like!

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Idk if your still into countryhumans but I'm having chimerica brainrot with YOUR characters rn so if you have literally ANYTHING to share with those two please do

Also I hope your day is going well

OMGOMGHIH HIHII YES I AM STILL VERY MUCH IN THE FANDOM I CANNOT ESCAPE IT!! <3<3

Lots has been happening in my life for the past couple of months, so I have not been able to post much of anything. I haven't drawn much art either, I've been bust with work :(

That all being said, YES! I'M SO HAPPY MY CHIMERICA MAKES YOU HAPPY!! <3<3<3 Here's some angst and fluff

- Ame has Bipolar disorder (type 1) and Borderline personality disorder. It gets worse and worse the more the political parties divide between eachother. (The reason I have this hc is that the two-party system effects American politics, history, and culture across every single state, which is why it's such a prominent traits for my hc of her.) Countryhumans typically don't take medication, it doesn't effect their bodies at all, so little can help. They're too busy to take consistent therapy, but they do see a therapist once a month.

- But they do have coping mechanisms!! Well, said mechanism mainly just her hubby, China :) He helps them a lot, just by being there. He can't be there all the time of course, but he does what he can to help her, and he trusts her friends and family to be there when he can't.

- They both have their mental health problems, and struggle with them daily. It's a subconscious part of their immortal lives. They do the best they can with it and eachother, finding new ways to help.

- They watch Disney movies together, and they do it while snuggling up under a blanket, on the couch, holding eachother and falling asleep with the TV still on low volume.

- Picnic dates during the summer, SO MANY PICNIC DATES!

- Ame visits China every Chinese new year for two weeks and has a little understanding of it cuz she of course have people who celebrate it in their Country, but she does what she can to help do and set up traditions in the big cities <3

- Ame loves warm blankets and sweaters, so China always gets them as gifts with whatever excuse he can find <3<3<3

- China really likes reptiles and bugs, he just thinks they're neat, so Ame will get toys, food, new pets, new cages, etc. for him :)

- If they're not already visiting eachother or sitting next to eachother at meetings, they're calling/facetiming, texting, etc. It gets very annoying to their friends very quickly, lmao.

- Ame will make suicidal jokes sometimes and China will just say "no."

- They both hate their governments and bond over it <3

- The trade war is just them hate fucking. I do not take criticism.

That's all I can think of for now, I'm sorry. I had an 8 hour shift today and I'm very tired </3 I probably already mentioned a few of these before, but that just means they're EXTRA CANON IN MY CHVERSE!!

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