#then my brain goes so blank!!!

[taegularities]

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#i'm always gonna work at my own pace but i've been sooo slow with writing!! #like the last cmi update's gonna be 2 months old soon lol and i am so excited for cmi11 but oh my gosh it's been so hard bc im like #'is that scene boring? too dramatic?? worth it all??' bc i want this chapter to be p e r f e c t so im worried of not doing it justice and #then my brain goes so blank!!! #worried about* #like the plot has my heart so i wanna do my best!! which is why it still might take a lil bit to finish and drop it #let's see! i don't wanna rush this one.. but i do also feel so badddd :') #i promise im gonna work extra hard on it n when it comes it's gonna be worth it !! or at least i hope so!! #i really hope you guys like it a lot :') don't let it flop LMAO!! 🙈 but fr cmi11 means a lot to me so any interaction is 🥺 #the comfort is crazy in this one rlly rlly <33 so pls wait for me <3 sorry again <3 ily and ill do my best <333 #fic: colour me in #might delete AHHH LOL

[robiinurheart33]

CHAPTER 22 SPOILERS FOR THE NEON VOID‼️‼️

Haha wdym no I didn’t read the chapter almost one month after it came out wdym that’s crazy haha

ANYWAYS NEON VOID BRAINROT ANYONE?? As usual a magnificent read what can I say @sugarpasteltmnt is SO SO talented after I read this chapter I stared off into space for like a solid minute before laughing hysterically like Leo because MY GOD the adrenaline rush is so real. What compliment can I say that hasn’t been said about this fic. It gives me such goosebumps and the action sequences are just. Muah. Breathtaking. I cannot wait to read the next chapter and keep up the good work!! /lh /all pos

#my art #PLEASE TAKE UR TIME W THE NEXT CHAPTER #idw you to get burned out or anything #ur heath is the most important! #sorry this isn’t a full fledged drawing #I just read the newest chapter and completely blanked out #suddenly it’s 2am and the excited jitters in my brain finally calmed down #ur writing is like eating sour candy with a sweet aftertaste #SO GOOD #also is it weird that I have headcanons about ur fic?? #hope it isn’t #but I like to imagine when Leo gets spastic his Krang eye goes haywire and shoots all over the place #same goes for his krang parts like it squirms and wriggles underneath the skin #Or when Leo is bored the sharp end of his tail will poke the ground rhythmically #HOPE YOU LIKE THE ART #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rotten #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #The Neon Void #The Neon Void TMNT #TNV TMNT

[fictionadventurer]

Palm Sunday: A Summary

New priest gave our parish its first ever (in my memory) Palm Sunday processional. I'm 95% sure he didn't tell the choir beforehand. Their panic was mildly hilarious.

My Passion narrative thoughts for this year centered on Peter. Like Judas, he betrayed Jesus. Unlike Judas, he didn't despair. But he still ran off consumed by his own grief and left Jesus to die alone. Shades of Adam in the garden.

At Sunday family dinner, tiny niece decided for no discernible reason that I had to be the one to feed her corn to her. She tracked me down to recruit me. It was adorable.

Mary Berry's hot cross buns (with some variations for available ingredients) were much more satisfying than my previous attempt. It helped that she told me they're not supposed to be eaten as a dessert like a cinnamon roll, but slathered with butter like bread.

I (re)learned how to make palm crosses and roses.

Practicing to sing the Divine Mercy chaplet for Divine Mercy Sunday went well. I remain irrationally terrified of the choir loft. I was doing great until I thought, "Wow, I've been up here for a long time without being afraid. I haven't even thought about... falling to my death, or...accidentally tipping my sister over the side." And then I got to spend the rest of the time battling anxiety between verses.

Lewis's Reflections on the Psalms is a nice-enough read so far. Nothing ground-breaking--most of the time, when he's like, "Wow, this seems weird to modern readers," I'm like, "I never read it that way," and then the way he explains it is the way I do read it. But there were some fresh insights that I'll be mulling over.

I wasn't going to read the intro material before diving into the Gospel of John, but I'm so glad I did. So much of it takes on a whole new dimension when you know the author is arguing against people who are trying to elevate John the Baptist over Jesus.

I'd never thought about it before, but the controversy kind of makes sense. From the POV of contemporary people, John could seem like the more respectable choice. He came first, and his death came at the whim of a monarch, not for any real crime. Jesus was painted as a blasphemer and a revolutionary and died a criminal's death. You'd need to do some apologetics to explain the nuances of the truth.

#random thought of the day #catholic things #palm sunday #holy week #every time i'm away from tumblr i have all sorts of thoughts to share #and then my brain goes blank when the approved lenten time rolls around #so today i decided to go for a banal list.

[brokendreamscreation]

//gonna keep answering stuff but uh, might take a hot sec-

#(I got blindsided with a trigger and anxiety is up) #(99% of the time I don’t know what my triggers are because I blank them out) #(you know that panic where brain goes ‘we are choosing not to remember this ever again’) #(so when people ask what my triggers are I legitimately don’t know unless I write it down) #ooc: alakazam #delete later

[osoreruna]

me, struggling to write a simple biography about a man who i've been thinking about 24/7 for the past 7 months:

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #tbd #i won't claim i know everything about this man #but i know everything about this man from the way he orders his coffee to how many times he's stubbed his right toe on the foot of his bed #yet !!! I'VE BEEN STARRING AT A BLANK SCREEN FOR AN HOUR !! #okay...not actually...i've been working on the rest of the carrd too because it was criminal how empty every page was. #plus i added the mains page. #but every time i went to work on the bio i blank alksjdlf #it's like my brain just... #'this is the first thing people will read about your character' #vs the rational side of my brain that's #'anybody in the mha fandom already knows who all might is — just copy + paste the wiki' #and those two are just duking it out in my head rn fr #i typically paraphrase in situations like this so i guess we'll try that and see how that goes. #afterwards i'll be in my drafts !! #but i'm around on discord as well — four day weekend !!

[shinypokemonshowdown]

I'm thinking about posting some shiny stories without commentary bc my autistic self can't find anything to say

#not a poll #i love reading them! but when i go to type up a reply my brain goes blank #i have so many...

[mochakissedgold]

I'm not focusing on who I think should get this win the most of this match- my main attention is solely and squarely on the prettiness of the 3 ladies in ring

#Aew lb #aew dynamite #Skye Blue #ruby soho #Anna Jay #I'm just so...hypnotized by how good they all look? #This is literally a peak into my mindset for any match involving the women #The second I see pretty women in the ring my brain goes blank

[linabirb]

it's okay if i write something about my ocs instead of something for my milgram writing blog just like i planned it's okay it's okay it's okay IT'S OKAY-

#i feel so guilty too bc i got some requests like.. a month ago.. and i genuinely want to write them.. #but idk.. for some reason my brain goes blank when it comes to x reader content lately.. #it's fine it's fine i still worked hard today #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]

[vvanessaives]

a girlboss (sad) and the cause of half of her problems (a daughter)

#hii this is like a timeline kind of template so there's spoilers be warned :] #and hiii again this is the first time i come up with my own template if u see smth weird don't mind it please <3 jkdfnk #DO NOT LOOK at vhanya's fc i just idk i struggled so hard bc i need someone with blonde hair so it's easier to edit to white and just jsdnfk #i was losing my mind truly #anyways rhaenne and vhaemond <33 my current brain worms #*ocstuff #oc: arianne #oc: visenyra #mine #this was supposed to be an arianne only show but then i was like...i will never get the energy to make a template from scratch so i'll #squeeze this as much as i can. i just needed smth like..relationship template but also timeline?? then i wanted to talk with no sense about #them and the second template was born. idk i just like intricate stories. much to say just vhanya is both sooo dumb and sooo..i want to hug #i could've easily go with haha she sides with the blacks :) but noo i want her to feel the pain coming with her choice till her very last #moment <33 i love torturing my ocs huh. and arianne..girlboss gaslight and so on..her putting her daughter above love... #the resentment and hate but love and affection that goes on between mother and daughter...shocking #there's so much i could say but my brain feels blank rn so rip #also watch me trying to find alternative ways to not just plainly write 'these guys fucked lmao' in vhaemond timeline dkfjfksd

[sleep-nurse]

By anything i meant like, well idrk hoe to describe without just saying anything😭 im bad at explaining things sorry

But yes facts about Hima r fine :)

If you have any vocaloid/utau/other synth hcs that would be fun too!! Or fun facts about ur favorite animals :3

I just like learning about things and also seeing other people's hcs if they have any and also learning about their ocs!!!

GOD I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA UHHHH 😭😭😭 i could talk about hima all day but i don't know where to start so here's a few headcanons about vflower i have (i think i have way more but those are the most notable ones i guess) (also i hope the link works)

UHHHH YUH....❗💥❗❗💥💥 if you want an extra fun fact about me i used to fall literally every single time when i was a kid (no im not talking about toddler age im talking about when i could walk and run and everything) and one day i also smashed my face against a door so my front teeth are slightly distorted

#asks #i took so long to answer this because I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!! #when people tell me to talk about anything my brain just goes blank im sorry JKHSHFGKHKEJGH

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#tbd #☉ #lemme start by prefacing this with I KNOW there's no real normal way to be human #ok i get that #but fucking HELL I wish i was normal #i wish my health was normal for my age #i wish i wasn't fucking. neurodivergent #im fine with being queer but ffs why am i in between normal queer and accepted Aroace-ness #why am i abnormal in that regard too #i wish I didn't alienate people i wish i didn't have to explain why im extra quiet and moody and minutes from a meltdown #i wish my hands and feet wouldn't swell up and hurt and burn and I wish i could take a fucking shower without feeling dread #because i had the water temp set to hot and now im dizzy and my heart is racing and im overheating -- alternatively I wish #i didn't feel so self conscious because i DONT shower every day or even every other day like i dont like when my hair goes limp either! #and i use deodorant everyday and wipe off when i can but i have fuckin Let's Sweat Buckets For No Reason Disorder so i always look and feel #like a drowned rat. im tired of being tired but not being able to sleep. im tired of not being able to explain that yes its really not you #its me. me wanting to be alone has nothing to do with you ok its my brain deciding to fuckin shut down because everything is too much rn #& idk how to tell you that im at my wits end but if you treat me with kidd gloves i WILL go off like a fuckin bomb. just treat me NORMAL ffs #just treat me normal 😭 i just want to be normal. i want to be able to sit down and just do my application stuff instead of #staring at a blank document for weeks and then wanting to throw things as the deadline approaches ( #its due friday and i have absolutely nothing written lmao) and idk if its executive dysfunction or anxiety or my tendancey to self sabotage #but either way im so fuckin fucked. im NOT in the headspace rn for writing a graduate school application letter. #trying hard not to cry rn bcs my friend and her parents are sleeping already bcs they have a 9-5 sleeping schedule to fit their 9-5 jobs #like i dont even have a normal sleeping schedule lmao mine's 2-10. i just don't understand why im so broken or whatever. not normal. #& i feel bad for bitching about it all bcs objectively i have a pretty decent life. i have a home i have food i have a family that loves me #im just back to feeling like im too much and also not enough and im so fuckin lonely. im tired of feeling lonely. and i think #ive got a platonic crush or two. or something. and idk how to handle that anymore. if i ever did. #idk idk i feel like im back to looking at the world and passersby through frosted glass again.

[icewindandboringhorror]

finally settling once and for all... with the evidence laid out plainly.. which of these brother boys is more stinkys ,,,

#also please for the love of gourd do not take this seriously i am joking I do not hold any of these behaviors against my cats I know that #all cats are a little stinky and weird I have had cats all of my life I am not genuinely condemning my cats i am being silly please lol #(some of my goofy cat posts in the past will always get like.. one or two people taking an issue with something incredibly #mundane. like me saying a cat is being rude or somehting and someone being like 'um actually cats cant process the concept of #rudeness. he has no idea he did anything wrong!' ........ yes...... i am aware.. that my cat has the brain of a cat lol #ANYWAY.... polls!!! so excited to have polls.. I will try not to be annoyig but I just love asking random things to the general #public. in friend groups I am always the one asking people to taking surveys. quizzes. making surveys and handing them out. etc. #the rare times I can partially overcome my social anhedonia/inability to socially function properly/etc. is when I'm interviewing people or #socializing specifically in the context of like Information Gathering lol #I love running questionairres and stuff . even about the most mundane pointless topics. there's just soemthing really interesting #about like....... being able to ask people stuff and then look at and analyze the results. #Even though that's an incredibly simple average thing. idk.. my brain loves information even if it's pointless silly information. #I Just Think It's Neat. I have so so sos os oso many ideas but I wanted to make the first poll about my cats #of course because I'm also obsessed with them lol. I was thinking of taking some of the pictures of them in front of a blank #canvas and doing a poll of 'what are they painting?' or 'what should they paint?' but I decided to go with babey crimes #for now. inspired by various baby crimes committed just this morning. Fresh on my mind.. #I wish they had a middle option though between '1 day' and '1 week'. I think a week is too long for a poll like this but also #one day is not long enough because I dont really have THAT many active followers. if it was just a day it would probably reach like 5 poepl #people. I want to at least be able to reblog it a few times maybe. lol #I think 3-4 days would be ideal. Its a new feature though. I'm sure they'll modify things as time goes on. #Still feeling sick and bad and weird and not being that productive at all generally but... I have just enough energy stores.. #using up every ounce of my power to make a goofy poll... a worthy sacrifice....

[periipheral]

📩Random simblr question of the day: If you could be remade into another simblr’s sim style, who would you choose?

i literally can not pick just one but @avornalino @crsentfairy @wildmelon @warmsol @rottengurlz @lucidicer @birdietrait @paupelou and @softerhaze @softpine make such beautiful sims and i would be honored to live in their games

#i did this off the top of my head #there are so many more who i love so much but my brain goes blank everytime i get an ask #anonymous #answers

[lifeatpaddys]

the things i would do for s1 dee

#im a simple person #i see pretty woman my brain goes blank #she's SO pretty #iasip

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[backroadboy]

Thank you so much for tagging me @bozuri !

Last song: women's jeans by xambassors (made me go fucking insane ngl)

Favourite color: green

Currently watching: supernatural s5 (I'm rewatching the show with my sister who, on the other hand, has never seen it)

Last movie: my darling clementine

Sweet/savory/spicy: savoury (even tho I would never say no to my mother's apple pie)

Current obsession: probably leaving everything behind to move and start working on a farm or something (I'm kidding....or am I), my best friend dean and his mirrors (i wish i was kidding), music (I really want to start collecting cds again, I used to burn them myself but that's another story), films, east of eden (always on my mind)

I'm tagging: @turtles-on-turts , @brucefuckingspringsteen , @professuntothelord, @dykeydean and @letmeblued (feel free to ignore this tho!)

#i have to admit that the last one was kinda difficult to answer #my brain immediately goes blank when i have to think of something #i have no idea who to tag so feel free to ignore this if it's something you don’t like doing! #txt. #tag game