backroadboy

[backroadboy]

I miss my best friend dean winchester

[backroadboy]

bring him back to me

#I MISS HIM SO MUCH WTF

[backroadboy]

they're best friends, your honor!

#<3333

[backroadboy]

they are best friends btw

#<3333 #nobody cares but me and that's okay <3333

[backroadboy]

if i (dean's dream) - demo

i wrote a song based on 2x20 what is and what never should be! this is just the rough garageband demo i made last summer and far from perfect but i kinda love it anyway, and it's turned into one of my favourite songs i've written. happy listening!!

lyrics under cut!

if i saw your face in the rear view mirror the night we watched him die i wasn't looking and i never saw you cry and if i swung a punch at you the way he used to do you weren't expecting it and you never should've had to i saw another world in a dream where you and me were happy i had a job i liked and you were getting married and i woke up with honey crystallising all right down my throat i'm gonna keep chasing that feeling but man i'm grabbing at smoke if i told you we should take a break head west i was only thinking that we deserve some rest and if you ever, ever heard me say that i was scared you weren't listening and you won't bring it up again i saw another world in a dream where you and me were happy you didn't have to learn to fight i got to live past my finale and i woke up with honey crystallising all right down my throat i'm gonna keep chasing that feeling but man i'm grabbing at smoke and you say you're driving now cos i'm getting tired now if i have that dream again i gotta wake up again oh you say you're driving now cos i keep crying now i had that dream again and i woke up to you screaming i saw another world in a dream where you and me were happy we didn't have to watch him die we didn't have responsibilities and i woke up with honey crystallising all right down my throat oh i'm gonna keep chasing that feeling you know i'll be chasing that feeling oh i'll always be chasing that feeling, oh but man i'm grabbing at smoke

#YEAHHHHH

[backroadboy]

my mother's loaded gun - demo

a bluesy song based off of @faithdeans incredible poem about jo for spn poetry month!! i could never have written this without you tali <3 lots of lines are taken from their poem so give it a read now 🔫🔫🔫

lyrics under cut!

so what am i then? mom, i've asked since i was ten a daddy's girl without a dad how does a kid come back from that

your hand in my hair always gentle, always there always under your thumb but you don't respond

so i'm leaving tomorrow i'm taking up his mantle i'm gonna bring him home your daughter's first salt and burn so you can chase me down the road but it was you who taught me to drive i love you if you could let me go i'll send a postcard once in a while

so what am i then? i'll ask over again a little blonde time bomb a runaway renagade without a qualm

your hand in my hair always gentle, always there always under your thumb whiskey and rum

so i'm leaving tomorrow i'm taking up his mantle i'm gonna bring him home then maybe i will be someone so you can chase me down the road but it was you who taught me to drive i love you if you could let me go i'll send a postcard once in a while 

what am i then so what am i then what am i then so what am i then

(so what am i then) i'm my mother's daughter my father's son (so what am i then) i'm bleeding out story scarcely begun (so what am i then) i'm your homemade soldier your girl on the run (so what am i then) i'm the bullet wound i'm the loaded gun i no longer shoot for fun

and i'm leaving tomorrow i'm taking up his mantle i'm gonna bring him home we're gonna feel him close so you can wave me down the road cos it was you who taught me to drive i love you now that you let me go i'll send a postcard once in a while i love you mama you let me go i'll send a postcard once in a while

#don't mind me listening to this again #.............yeah

[backroadboy]

https://x.com/spn_van/status/1784210126812975107?s=46

the rings and cuffed jeans and colourful socks and funky jacket, okay mr fashion!

living for it!!

#sorry but he's looking so hot here #misha.

[backroadboy]

Hands down one of the more devastating Destiel moments.

[backroadboy]

dean grumbling abt having to wear little outfits on a case in 1x16 when canonically we know dean loves a little outfit and then following up his grumbling with money issues being the reason he’s so annoyed:

and like. it’s played off as a joke as always like ‘ha ha our lives are so hard scamming money’ but like. money anxiety and financial insecurity would be a very real fear for dean and also it’s not the first time he’s put emphasis on how he earned his money only to have sam make light of it. and it just highlights in my mind how much dean really did shelter sam from their shitty childhood and how much responsibility dean took on when it comes to their finances for sam not to have the same anxieties surrounding spending money like in 1x05 Bloody Mary where sam just drops a ton of cash to bribe some guy and dean’s like quietly losing his mind watching this all go down and then snaps at sam that he earned that money and sam just doesn’t see it as a big deal. wild 

#op I am kissing you for all your meta

[backroadboy]

dean faces: 1x16, Shadow

#going through it man.... #i miss him so fucking much it's making me sick

[backroadboy]

glazed donut boy (in a little outfit) i love you

#missing him so fucking much #bestie come back to me

[backroadboy]

I AM THAT IS

#sorry but you have no idea how much I loved redwall

[backroadboy]

i hate when i send someone a meme in another language and they're like "uhm... translate? 😒" fucker i sent you a meme where 90% of the words have an english cognate and/or you don't need to know what they're saying to find it funny. can you at least TRY

[backroadboy]

i miss season 1 spn. the way they made it seem like everything bad that happened in america was the result of demons and folklore n then dean would drop some bars like this. no more shows like this ever

#prev! so true #i also immediately have to think about the benders episode #isn't there also a quote like 'demons i get. people are crazy.' which doesn't carry the same weight and stuff but yeah anyway don't mind me #prev said it way better than i can anyway

[backroadboy]

just remember this scene in devour (such a bad movie) where jackles gets all hot and heavy with a girl, and...I have no idea where I am going with this bth

#i woke up from a nap and thought i imagined this ml #but then i looked it up #and there is this video on YouTube #anf i swear to god the way he's whimpering while the girl is grinding on him my guy...jacting choices etc #anyway this has been haunting me for the last 30min #so you have to go through it too #txt. #to delete

[backroadboy]

Where’s that gif where Dean and Cas are kissing and it’s a lil too good

#the things we could've had :/

[backroadboy]

sorry i can't come in to work today. yeah sorry they killed me off last night. yeah i just wasn't relevant to the plot anymore. i should be in tomorrow but i'll let you know.