#then i'll share it another way

[petricorah]

edit: completed comic here

#this wip has no impressive things to show off and it's been...way too soon since i posted a wip to post another #it's here purely to tease the turtle duck comic because i wasn't able to finish it for turtle duck day #i think!!! i'll be able to share tomorrow very very late #but i will (almost) definitely be done by friday!!

[hippolotamus]

(More than) Seven Sentence Sunday

tagged by the always talented @thewolvesof1998 mi amor @disasterbuckdiaz @monsterrae1 @wikiangela @callmenewbie @buddierights @eddiebabygirldiaz 😘 (don't forget to check their snippets if you haven't!)

Another snippet of come close (let me be home) aka Bridgerton au. Prev snippets here. I'm kinda really in love with this section from Buck's POV. Takes place during the initial horse race in the park.

Now, with the morning chill on his face, and riding cloak wrapped around him, Evan knows he’s got a superior plan for unwinding. He’s not all that familiar with the land, but that seems all the more reason to explore it. Even under a blanket of fog, the sprawling landscape of green hills and forests call to him. With every hoofbeat against the earth, carrying him further from proper society, his nerves unfurl and his blood sings.  It makes him think of riding with Maddie when they were young and still permitted to be children. She would take him to all the places they weren’t technically supposed to go. Through fields and abandoned structures at the edge of the Buckley estate. He attempted tricks on his horse and Maddie patched him up when it inevitably didn’t go well.   They also regularly played hide and seek in the gardens, chasing each other among roses and topiaries and fountains. Evan would stand next to each one, imitating their ridiculous poses, pretending to spit water from his mouth, just to make Maddie laugh. A feat that became more and more difficult the older they got.   No matter what argument he had, his sister always insisted she was fine. Doing well, even. But he could see how her features slowly lost their glow. How the radiant sunshine no longer reached her eyes and her smile grew more frail. Like a porcelain doll that might crack with the slightest touch.

no pressure tagging @apothecarose @rmd-writes @welcometololaland @vanillahigh00 @stereopticons LOML @lizzie-bennetdarcy @jamespearce9-1-1 @exhuastedpigeon @spotsandsocks @thekristen999 @daffi-990 @hoodie-buck @watchyourbuck @loserdiaz @gayedmundodiaz @giddyupbuck @underwater-ninja-13 @fortheloveofbuddie @eowon @jesuisici33 @malewifediaz @shortsighted-owl @elvensorceress @spagheddiediaz @chaosandwolves @wildlife4life @your-catfish-friend @the-likesofus @911onabc @spaceprincessem @fionaswhvre @barbiediaz @honestlydarkprincess @pirrusstuff @steadfastsaturnsrings @weewootruck @theplaceyoustillrememberdreaming @statueinthestone @heartshapedvows @indestructibleheart @evaneds @maygrantgf @lemonzestywrites and anyone else who wants to share

#making up details for the buckley sibliings as kids give me life #there's another bit i really wanted to share but it would have put the sentence count *way* over #i'll save that for tuesday #hippo writes #seven sentence sunday #but y'know more than that #fic: come close (let me be home) bridgerton #buddie wip

[fallstaticexit]

List 5 facts about a favorite sim of yours, and send this to simblrs whose sims you adore 💜

Thank you for the ask :) I always get sooo excited when I get an opportunity to answer one of these!

Since next COTF update is a bit Noa centered plus I've been playing with him in game the past couple days (and he's my little bb) I'll blabber about my favorite ex-pirate. 🤭💖

Noa was born in Selvadorada - there's a lot Noa doesn't know about his past. The little he does know are the very blurry early memories he had before he was taken in by pirates as a toddler and the little bits of information he was able to scrape up over time from his crewmates or the Freudian slip from his caretaker/Captain, Knox during one of his passionate drunken rants. He had no idea his mother was a witch until he after he had Adie and we actually learn in the coming update how he finds out about his Aunt Nora (via flashback). His way of connecting with his birth home is by embracing Selvadoradian culture by opening his failing restaurant, A Taste of Selvadorada.

Noa was raised by pirates - After the death of his mother when he was a toddler, Noa was taken in by pirates. Before he met Orion and the Briars, the pirates was the only family he ever knew. His captain, Captain Knox, was the closest thing he had to a father even if they had a rough relationship where it often felt like Knox resented Noa. He also considered Knox's son, Roman, as his brother; their relationship wasn't all that great either, especially as they got older. He grew up around liars and thieves and for his whole life that's what he had to become in order to survive. Even though Noa is no longer a pirate, he still has the instincts of one and is constantly having to shake away old habits.

Noa is still besties with Orion's ex - When Orion was 14/15, she dated the Sulani Chief's son, Sione. Sione is a really nice guy but he and Orion just wasn't a match plus her heart was destined for Noa whether she knew it or not so their breakup was inevitable. Noa and Sione both share a trauma of losing someone close to them which is how they ended up being friends. Years have past and they still talk often and consider each other soul brothers (and yes, Orion was a little annoyed at first but she's used to it lol )

Noa was named after his Aunt Nora - (did anyone figure this out yet? 🥹 ) Nora is not impressed nor pleased by this fact. Quite frankly, she doesn't particularly care for Noa at all. It's complicated...which leads to Fact 5:

Noa doesn't trust Nora - we get into the why next update but Noa can always tell when someone's lying to him or if he needs to keep his guard up. It's a trait you pick up when you're a pirate, it's how you survive. And all the bells are ringing when it comes to Nora.

#cotf tag #the briar legacy #I love all my babies but Noa has this special place in my heart 🥰 #the way his story is so freaking important to COTF and Fallen Angel it's insane and I can't wait to share #also he deserve the entire world #Fact 6 - He's also a m*rderer?? #Yeah I'll leave that one in the tags #Ah yes #another classic Tahj's character really should have went to therapy

[idliketobeatree]

a gentle reminder to myself: slow down when you're met with someone else's creation. just because it's not in a museum, doesn't mean it's not worth your time. you can skim through your life all you want, you can jump over the annoying cracks and never look back, but when someone presents you (in the most literal meaning of this word – as a gift) with their art you should sit down and pay back with attention. people need creativity that is shared and appreciated, and it needs your focus and care to bloom properly. briefness kills both the idea and the community around it. so, slow down.

#idk how to tag this #art #writing #artists on tumblr #writers on tumblr #i refuse to use this website as another mindless scrolling machine when there are a hundred different ways to engage with people #and it's so sad we've allowed to separate the art from the artist. to the point where you put the creator on a pedestal #and their art on an unreachable wall #behind some kind of a glass covering. the word “content” makes me physically sick #when it should be: stories shared in warmth and laughter by a fireplace. arm in arm. sharing notes and comments like friends. #or. drawings seen by your friends in all stages of creation. bonus points if your sketching game is horrible and the initial colors suck #i can mourn the artists who's works i adore because i'll never get to tell them how much they mean to me #but i can tell the ones alive just how much they've impacted me and i think it counts. like. so much. #marcela talks

[lil-kissy]

~Make New Friends but Keep the Old, because one is silver and the other's gold~

Kisara with many of the important people in her life <3

Kaze - @kazeofthemagun

Kumo - @shiroi---kumo

Kain - @forgotten-teammates / Sielu - @aquaticsoul

Isabel and Carmon - @mpuzzlegirl / @compassionatedestiny (The ones that started it all ^.^)

Dark Magician Girl / Mana - @mahoushojoumonster

Kaiba - @kaibagirl007

Tamaki - @drinkitfrommymouthsuou

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Reblogs allowed

#I guess also consider it also a very late blogiversary drawing celebrating the many wonderful muses (and muns) interacted with #dragon draws #muse appreciation #my art #Anyone on the list / muse I drew is welcome to reblog and share ^.^ #Over course there are so many more wonderful muns and muses I could have drawn and narrowing it down was tough #maybe I'll do another with some other muses another time #also Kisa with mini braids- her hair is more then long enough and just a good way to keep it from getting heavily tangled n stuff #Hope kaiba mun is doing well I miss em #also I guess a mini group promo to all my wonderful friendo rp buddies heh

[im-no-jedi]

TBB headcanons: Sleep

the rest of these are gonna be more specific since I originally created these for writing purposes haha

here’s some sleeping headcanons for the boys (and don’t worry, it’s all SFW 😉):

Hunter

Likes to sleep sitting up or on his back with either a single light blanket or multiple blankets (or weighted) depending on his mood 

Has trouble getting to sleep due to distractions (both physical and mental) and is easily woken up 

Must sleep in total darkness, any light at all equals no sleep; uses his bandana as an eye mask if he needs to 

Morning person, gets up with the sun most days

Tech

Likes to sleep sitting up or on his side, only uses blankets if he’s cold (he tends to get knotted up in them; he’s a pretty restless sleeper)

Often suffers from insomnia and is easily woken up 

Has no preference over light; if anything, he’s more used to the colorful, flashing lights on the Marauder when trying to sleep 

Night owl 1000%

Wrecker

Likes to sleep curled up with lots of blankets and something (or someone 👀) to cuddle 

Has trouble getting to sleep because of his ADHD but sleeps HARD once he’s out 

Prefers a nightlight and totally not because he’s secretly afraid of the dark, nope 

Doesn’t have a regular sleep schedule, wakes up whenever he has to basically

Crosshair

Likes to sleep on his side or back, makes sure his legs are covered more than anything (they get cold easily) 

Doesn’t have trouble getting to sleep (can literally sleep anywhere) but is easily woken up 

Sleeps better in total darkness, but lights aren’t a dealbreaker; however, any light has to be soft and not directly in his face or whatever 

More of a night owl, but likes to wake up and see the sunrise some days

Echo

Likes to sleep on his left side or curled up with lots of blankets (he gets cold easily) 

Doesn’t have trouble getting to sleep but will suffer from nightmares more often than the others and is easily woken up 

Normally likes sleeping in the dark, but sometimes needs a light on after a nightmare, poor baby 

Morning person, but easily sleeps in if he’s had a rough night’s sleep

previous headcanons: Physical and Mental Traits

#the bad batch #star wars the bad batch #tbb headcanons #I do have headcanons for bed sharing as well... #but that's for another time hehe #I'm getting the generic ones out of the way first #then I'll move on to the mildly spicy stuff hee hee #my dark and broody bandana man #Goggles™ #Muscles™ #Mr Snarky Sniper #Mr Iconic One Liner #star warz

[simgerale]

OLEANDER CYRUS 🐉

@morrigan-sims's D&D CAS CHALLENGE

High elf | medium hair | sorcerer | pet/familiar (dragon) | body hair | glasses | chaotic evil

this was so much fun (^: he's EVIL Y'ALL!!!!! and of course he has a mutually beneficial relationship with a humongous dragon... do you see the crazy HORNS as his CHEEK BONES!!! anyways he wants to burn every village he sees and wreak havoc everywhere he goes

#ts4 #ts4 challenge #dnd cas challenge #morrigan-sims #i wanted to give him blonde hair since he's a sun elf #it says black is also good but blonde looked good on him #but he looked similar to ANOTHER angsty blonde i made....... COUGH kristopher #i just think it was my sim style that tricked me into thinking everyone had same face syndrome #but he kinda looks like luca in a way.........and i didn't make luca #ANYWHO bed time for me!!!! #we stayed up late creating our wedding invite so if the sample is good i'll share it with you guys cause i think it's cute #ye s i'm queuing this lol #he has poison speciality #so his name is a very poisonous plant #and his last name is #cyrus because it can mean sun! and he’s a sun elf as I said #just noticed that the blurry pic with the Dragon didn’t save correctlt because it doesn’t have the floating things #oh well

[sonego]

Charles Leclerc trying hard (and failing) to guess the Monte Carlo track in The F2 Emoji Challenge

#charles leclerc #f1 #f1edit #formula one #charles #nico.gif #have these instead of looking at the awful pics of charles being Actually sad and dejected. and stop sharing those. thanks #anyway sorry antonio for cropping you out of these sob ..... i'll make another gif sometime and include you promise <3 #gifset* #this part was so fucking funny i love that they didn't know what prince charles looks like. so true #also can i just say i hate how eng subs often translate 'figura di merda' like . i get it there's no real way to convey that in eng but #looking like an idiot doesn't even come close to covering it #i tried to translate it more aptly #ANYWAY SORRY I'M RAMBLING BUT the way he went through 7 different emotions in the span of a minute was just funny as hell #it starts with him laughing as if he Actually knew that was prince charles. then he makes it clear he doesn't by being sarcastic. #then he looks more and more desperate cause he just Doesn't Get It and then goes back to faking knowing who the dude is #AND THEN . antonio guesses it right . and it was MONTE CARLO of all tracks .......... and that's when the Real Tragedy starts :broken_heart: #jk ..... lmao #he's so funny his expressions in the last gif. comedy gold #'è inglese? ci aiuta moltissimo questo.......' #also his 'GEORGE!!!!!!!!' #i don't know if england even has a prince george (maybe they do idrc) #anyway happy smiling charles <3 look at this <3 <3

[skrunksthatwunk]

went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share

+ more thoughts and old yyh art below

(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)

something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah

but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)

i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun

however i did transcribe the notes i left:

7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show

8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy

7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3

1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it

[+ this drawing]:

anyway. forever fornever. if you even care

#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore #skrunkart #yyh #yu yu hakusho #you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate. #ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done #also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way #ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back #to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous #and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se #like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol #some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth #there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader #no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too #part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so #well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented' #stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D #ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd #probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah

[keepingthepeaceinouterspace]

...does anyone know how I can purchase Julie and the Phantoms?

#I'm pretty sure I can walk away from Netflix completely with their dumbass password sharing rule but I need jatp #If I can't purchase it I'll find another way to obtain it #Jatp #Julie and the phantoms

[turnaboutstevie]

Been trying for a few months now to compile free versions of books on HIV/AIDS and unfortunately haven't had much luck yet, but I'm not giving up. When I have a good amount I'll make a masterpost, but since its World AIDS Day, here is a pdf of "HIV/AIDS: A Very Short Introduction". It won't tell you everything, but it's a good place to start!

Anyone with pdfs they're willing to share of any other reliable books on HIV/AIDS- please message me! I'm trying to compile a central folder with as many as I can in for easy public access.

#if you're having trouble accessing it please let me know! #i'll look into another way to share it #i wont ever put it on a g**gle dr*ve bc i dont trust those fucjers #*fuckers #hiv/aids #HIV #AIDS #world aids day #human immunodeficiency virus #acquired immunodeficiency syndrome #lgbt history #queer history

[setyourfireonme]

2 in the end of the night we'll be together again / i told you to trust me, 'cause in the meantime i'll be here 4 if we both go down we go down together / in the wake of weak beginnings, we can still stand high 6 never been good with drawing a line / you keep me in the dark 8 we're made up of the same blood, i'll be your medicine if you let me / and if you're evil i'll forgive you by and by 10 i would kneel down and ask him, not to intervene when it came to you / i wanna live together in a petri dish, i can be algae you can be fungi 12 i want to bleed and feed us forever, but i want to feed the hunger inside / come on and rest your head, and i will protect you 14 i can love you more, more than they, i am moulded from more than clay / so take me home to you 16 would you come with me or would you resist? oh could you just give in / i could break a glass just to watch it shatter, i'd do anything just to feel with you 18 i'd wait my whole life, just to meet you / i look at this life, i only want me and you 20 forsaken heaven, to bring you my love / and i draw a line, to your heart today 22 and i am standing here calling out your name, 'cause you're my twin flame / sometimes our love is everlasting spotify

#spnedit #samdeanedit #all #fanmix #just in time for wincest wednesday *pats myself on the back* #these are mostly songs i compiled while making another playlist so there isn't a specific theme besides TWO #but i love the idea so why not make it a thing and share #you could say that this is dedicated to their Love #and certain turning points from stanford era to season four and beyond to eternity~ #the title is either what i misheard or some lyrics but either way appropriate for this mix #sometimes i'm in an extreme s/d mood and this has apparently been one of those times #i love their love etc. #(why is making playlists so fun but IMPOSSIBLE though... i have one more in me but then i'll focus on the j/d one which is more my thing) #(also i almost never make proper playlists like this so no idea if this is any good or coherent lmao) #don't forget to like and subscribe if you read this far

[the-kipsabian]

if i abandon a few wips i have no interest in returning to anymore, should i post them as a small collection of drabbles for people to still read tho?

whether or not youre actually interested in reading them is optional idk, the question is just simply should i share what i had for them so far

#im looking at like. four to six maybe. i havent fully yet decided which all would get the axe #as theres few that i could continue but im just not really vibing for one reason or another but. hmm #either way. i'll figure it out depending on the votes i guess. if its no to sharing then i guess it doesnt matter how many i cut #since no one will know lmao #night is an absolute mess on main #polls

[disenchanted-youth]

Strawberry Syrup

The alley was filled with the putrid stench of rotting food and waste from the surrounding restaurants, mixed with the acrid odor of old urine and decaying rodents. Far from the overflowing garbage bins, Phayu leaned on the wall, taking in the sight of the bustling city.

He paused and closed his eyes, contemplating the idea of taking up smoking now that he’s in his thirties and stuck in an office room. This would definitely play into the stereotype of who Phayu was supposed to be, but opinions on that may vary according to preferences. 

Just as Phayu was about to walk back out into the thick crowd, a sudden shout caught his attention. The darkening alley made it difficult to see, but he squinted, trying to find the source of the frustrated yelling, followed by the metallic clang and whimpers of pain. The whimpers piqued Phayu's interest, and he increased his pace to see who was making them. As he walked further down the alley, the garbage and debris cleared, allowing him to breathe easier.  

“Oh great, I’m about to die.” A sweet voice said loudly, sounding so defeated that Phayu couldn't stop his chuckles. “Is this funny? Phi, listen. I do not have any money with me.”

The streetlight illuminated Phayu's back, casting his face into shadow as he walked down the thin path, only just realizing that he may have scared the kid. “Oh, sorry. I thought you needed help. I’m not here to hurt you.”

“Wait, seriously?!” The kid’s voice immediately perked up, and both of them moved closer.

To say Phayu got struck by cupid’s arrow would be a gross understatement. The dim light barely reached the boy's face, but it couldn't hide the glow of happiness shining from within. His pastel pink hair looked soft, like the cotton candy he and his brother used to fight for as children. His eyes sparkled like stars in the night sky. Phayu was overcome with the sudden desire to witness tears brimming in the stranger's beautiful eyes, half-closed with pleasure beneath him. 

Phayu couldn't help but smirk when the pretty boy whispered "handsome" under his breath, staring up at him. 

His gaze fixated on the boy’s pout. He couldn't help but be drawn to the plump and glossy lips, wondering if it tasted as sweet as it looked, like a juicy strawberry. His clothes were hidden behind an apron, with specks of flour sprinkled on it. Phayu could see a dark pink substance drenching the boy, giving off the delicious scent of strawberries.  

“As you can see, I’m in a jam.” Phayu huffed at his joke, but apparently the kid wasn't joking as he glared at him. “Mister rude man. I need to get back into my shop, but I got myself locked out.”

“You can just walk through the front?” Phayu asked, because that seemed like the most obvious solution to the kid’s dilemma. As soon as the words left his mouth, the boy's body language shifted, and he strode forward, finger pointing sharply in accusation.

“Well, you are in a suit. Would you walk into your office, surrounded by clients looking like you took a bath in a cake mix?” Phayu wanted to say that is a very improbable situation, but as he thought about that happening, he physically shuddered. The kid smiled, looking smug. “Exactly! How would my customers react if they saw the man making their pastries walk into the shop looking like a hundred health code violations?!”

“Alright, I got your point. Do you want me to go in and ask someone to open it from the inside?”

“Yes, thank you! It’s the one called RainForest.” The kid smiled brightly and suddenly Phayu forgot how to breathe. “Phi! Chop chop! I’m very busy.”

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#love in the air #phayurain #bossnoeul #I'm back with another one #probably the filthiest fic i've written #they don't meet until they're much older and they do stuff with strawberry syrup #i don't think I'll look at strawberry preserve the same way anymore #this was supposed to be my contribution to cute fluffy cafe aus to this fandom #instead I ended up writing smut #anyway thought i'll share it here in case anyone wants to read this

[bumblingbabooshka]

A Star Trek Novel called “Pocket Full of Lies” really has NO business going so hard.

#IMPORTANT NOTE: I only read Star Trek Novels as they pertain to Tuvok #so I have no idea about how the novel reads overall #but the Tuvok storyline????? Damn. DAMN dude. #what if you were suffering from a loss that affected and changed you so deeply that even those closest to you no longer recognized you? #and that change is symbolized and mirrored through this alternate reality version of your best friend who in YOUR universe also no longer #understands you...could never understand you...but THIS version of her is familiar. You can share each other's pain. You understand one #another in a way no one else does. And what if your inner grief/turmoil #was symbolized again in this alternate timeline by a constant war that's been raging f #for thousands of years with no end in sight no matter how hard you fight. The fighting in the end means nothing. The violence means nothing. #The death means nothing bc when you die another will take its place. #'His death was meaningless like this is meaningless' you think initially only to find that NO! It's the holding on to the PAIN that's #meaningless. It's the SUFFERING that's meaningless. #Tuvok being sent to convince ALT Janeway to give herself up to Starfleet but being unable to do so because he sympathizes and empathizes #with her...because (on another level) she isn't ready to give up the war (the suffering grief) and neither is he because to them the war #and the pain has BECOME the people they're grieving (Elieth & Daughter) so to give up feeling pain is to give up feeling love #but that isn't TRUE!!! and we see that in how Tuvok actually rebukes the affections and concerns of those attempting to reach out to him #and offer love...in reality this 'protection' or 'vigilance' is unhealthy and closes them off from healing and love. Bad coping mechanism. #Initially Tuvok pushes away everyone he comes across but through helping Janeway he helps himself and is finally able to take steps towards #acceptance in the purging of his anger on Dayne (Alt Janeway's husband who willfully allowed her daughter to die) #and we can see this in his outlook on how to move forward. In the beginning he's like 'I will never heal from this and I'll just live the #rest of my life never feeling safe or at peace.' <- defining and living his life according to the pain he's suffered #but in the end he has a more hopeful outlook...he sees that there are people around who want to be there for him and that he wants to lean #on...maybe forgiveness doesn't mean literally forgiving those who caused you to suffer but instead finally letting go of that suffering #and living according to joy...friendship..two hands clasped together. love. #novel experiences #Tuvok #Janeway #st voyager #oh ALSO the fact that Janeway always manages to survive being turned from a good thing to a very bittersweet thing for Tuvok bc his own #son was not so lucky...-chefs kiss-

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There is nothing better than to be wakened by drums and music galore on the same street I live. At least I got enough sleep :| On another note, going through fanarts of Dain again made me think about how he might've been somehow popular even among his knights in a comical way because... yes, he's a handsome man and there is no denying that.

#◟༺✦༻◞ what lays behind the mantle of faux stars ┊ooc.┊ #being on the topic of Khaenri'ah #and now that I'm in a thread of just that #makes me want to share my headcanons about it #one of which being the difference of classes #even among pure-blooded Khaenri'ahns #Chlothar himself as part of the Alberich clan #described himself as being so little in society #that he wouldn't expect Lumine to even know him at all #that's wild to me in a way #but on another part I don't want to be deemed as ugly things #some people... like to throw around lightly #because it is a reality that in Khaenri'ah #there is a difference in classes depending on the purity #of their blood #and those who come from afar to live in Khaenri'ah #I'll meditate whether to approach that subject while eating some paella