#the only thing im looking forward to in may

[danvers--carol]

Me:

I am so fucking tired and stressed and overworked

#personal #why tf did my uni decide to do so many useless projects and presentations 2 months before i am supposed to defend my thesis #i should be focusing on thesis - i still have around 50 pages to write but noooo #i have essays and projects and presentations and they all are about the same stuff jfc #sorry for ranting but im!!! so tired!! i want to stop crying and throwing up to focus on writing thesis but i cant!!! #i just did an essay on administration things and just found out i have to rewrite the whole page and add another one #and now i need to do a presentation bc my useless uni classmates are gonna claim they dont know how canvas works... #after 2 years of studying marketing??? and working part time in the field??? #and then i have to write as much of the thesis as i can #bc on wednesday im going with my mom to the seaside until sunday and then next week i have uni classes on mon and tues #on wednesday i have to do all work bc i plan on destressing by baking a big ass cake for my bday with handmade marzipan figurines etc .u. #the only thing im looking forward to in may

[anonymocha]

[ Mild Reverse 1999 1.7 Spoilers? ]

I am gonna draw these arcanists in the template tomorrow since it is 10 pm but here is my fill on @titaniumions’ template 😍 I wanna ramble abt these goobers first

Click edition

#mochats #mochagaming #notice how Kaalaa Baunaa’s text is the longest 😭 #im not looking forward to drawing Isolde but she may be GREAT practice #the only other option is Click which is I think he is fine for a more spoiler-free thing #I think I will put Click here instead of Isolde when I draw them! #Click is a cutie patootie my trophy husband (eternal bench) #but I still find him endearing…. he is…. a friend. #a soggy one #but a friend #reverse 1999

[vaguely-concerned]

This is a really interesting panel with the developers at Summerfall studios, giving some cool insight into how the process of making the game worked! it helped me put some words to the thing I maybe loved the most about Stray Gods -- the way that every single character in it feels very deeply loved, in all their messiness and struggles and stuckness, all the way from the writing to the art to the music. They're very different but all feel like they were somebody's favourite character, and it's nice to hear that that seems to be because it's basically true lol

Austin Wintory also has some great videos on his channel breaking down the nitty gritty of how on earth you make an interactive musical that works, as well as looking deeper at different songs and explaining things like why there're four official versions of the soundtrack (!)

#stray gods #summerfall studios #Youtube #resources #david gaider has perfected the art of creating characters and stories that burrow into my brain specifically forever #and I can only thank and curse him for it #I'm super looking forward to what this studio does next there's clearly SO much amazing talent here across the board! #I wonder if they'd do a sequel. my brain says they probably shouldn't but my heart says GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT THE FUCK NOW!!! #you could give me lore on the level of like... the guest list for any divine family dinner party at any point in the last three millennia #and I would eat it up ravenously. I'm laughably easy. I just want more of these characters haha #stray gods may be one of those games best served by being a standalone unique thing...... but im not gonna lie I CRAVE more of it haha #every single little unaccounted for detail I come across I am going full always sunny conspiracy board meme at the figurative camera

[mirrorhouse]

neve’s face is getting closer to how i’ve been imagining it but i feel like it’s missing a lot of detail or? depth idk. like around her brows eyes lips chin and nostrils it’s still too flat looking, mesh-wise. but considering i’ve just been pushing and pulling things and learning as i go i think she’s looking good so far and i love her

#i'm glad i started this it's a fun little project for me Only #and i'm learning new things that may or may not be useful but i'm still learning #it did occur to me that im doing all of this w me1 lighting and she might look better/worse in me2 #but i'd rather just tweak her when i get there instead of going backwards and forwards #neve shepard #mass effect #★

[soft-serve-soymilk]

Why is my heart beating so fast for 😐 like? Are you a blue anthropomorphic hedgehog? No? So leave me alone 😞

#I feel like my nerves are shot from all the adrenaline #And it’s been like this for days… only to be mildly sedated by warm drinks #I wake up randomly at 2am like dun-dun-dun-dun-dun #im sorry Dolphin i may have to pull a V and dip for a while. The sheer amount of art stuff I have to do is lethally taxing #and yes that may be partially my fault. hubris as you know #but the other half?? Nope I had nothing to do with this #Artwork and annotated report and folio is not a fun combination 😭. I’m scraping for time and fighting my head as is #But anyways! Look forward to seeing a snippet hopefully sooner than later~ #just pav things

[femme-malewife]

Packing is so stressful...

#im going on vacation for the first time in like 6 years tomorrow as soon as i get off work~ #i plan on bringing my aiyuu plushies and getting cute date pics #anyway..im nervous...i dont wanna forget anything!!! #rn im p much all packed except for things that i need to use before work (like my toothbrush. deodorant. hairspray) #uhhh. yah so look forward to things #also i may write an aiyuu oneshot bc!!! ima!!! go to the planetarium!!!!! on one of the next few days!!!!!!! #ive only seen em online ive never gone to one!!!!!!! #so the experience will help me write!!!!!!! #so look forward to that!!!!!!! #ill only be gone wednesday night through saturday around noon. but im hyped anyway~ #ill also post lots of fun pics for everyone~

[vulturereyy]

THEY'RE DOING FUCKING WHAT FOR A CROWN OF CANDY????

#literally pissing and shitting myself rn #yall dont even know ive never said on here but d20 aCoC is literally like #the entire reason i started being more confident in my D&D games and i actually started trying character voices #like you can see a notable shift in our session recordings from when i started watching it #i mean u cant bc i dont post them lmfao #but there is a very clear line #is my voice for sorbet 'good' ??? not really but you know what i got over my fears bc of d20 #literally my favorite d&d thing i have ever watched and one of the only ones ive ever been able to get through all the way #like i was HOOKED #i'm going to lose it #i hope its just as good #but also worried because what draws me to d20 vs cr is the vibes the group brings and how it's very very good but not . 'cinematic'? #that may be the wrong word #i also havent watched cr since like season 2 besides clips so i admit i may be wrong dont come for me #but i am really looking forward to this amethar was my favorite #crying screaming frowing up #im going to be so normal about this #a crown of candy #dimension 20

[lovestryke]

resisting the urge to buy weights rn. i need to go bear mode.

#ive been looking forward to it but uh im a lil twig rn because i forget to eat...and ive just been getting skinnier because of it >_< #optimus encouraging me to eat more and workout heheheee #if im being honest ive only been into transformers for like. 1 and a half months at most and the franchise has done more good for me than #anything else ive been interested #tho i will not ignore how woy influenced me tho. hes one of the reasons ive chosen kindness and patience. but hehe. op has encouraged me to #also be kind. but also not take shit and eat better and work out. and also..influenced me to take a stance on whether i want kids or not #if im being honeessstt i think fnaf may have damaged me most? actually maybe not most but i just. was really possessive of things and #got very anxious when anyone else even mentioned it #anyways i found a set from 4 to 80 pounds for 40 bucks and its a deal for only 2 days and i have like. #$115 in my checkings right now but also like. id like to wait until after chuck e cheese hires me...i have so much confidence they will put #also. let me hold out. but ALSO my therapist DID change our appointments from every other week to only 2 sessions per month. heh. maybe she #thinks im doing well. but also i did get a bit of money from the last 2 fucking weeks where i was scheduled only once so i could just use #That money.

[eluneu]

“No, no! I return your - affections - entirely,” Spy said, choking on the obvious like a fool. She grabbed Sniper’s hand and wrapped her own around it, pulling it to herself as if to prevent the other woman from up and rushing out of her own home half-naked.

“Thank bleedin' Christ," Sniper said, and blew out her breath.

Art based on chapter 17 of I Can Dream About You (If I Can Hold You Tonight)

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #fem fortress #spy tf2 #sniperspy #featuring sniper's arm only #unbavaclavaed and genderbent but still spy tf2 i promise #CEL SHADING #THE BANE OF MY EXISTANCE #im actually happy with how the cel shading came out though + I feel like it taught me quite a bit about lighting on humans #but anyway can yall believe this fic is over? what am I supposed to look forward to on my mondays and thursdays now ldksfhlk #the ending was so satisfying and good though and i'm still thinking about it. also the whole fic. i may have problems (autism?) but its okay #but god what a good and well plotted story and the ending that made earlier things just Make Sense #and i feel each time i reread I gain another thought and the thought put into spy's thought processes and sniper's actions and slkdfskldfdk #such a good fic. i am lying on the floor flopping around like a fish thinking about this fic. 100/10 recommended fic

[heatsu]

cw vent art????

with sh scars

this one wasn't supposed to go here but I like how it looks and I don't have my irls here so enjoy wee

#as my girl marina said #instead of being sixteen im burning up a bible feeling sewerslidal but nor actually #I'm so emo #Idk what to add here #admin is going through growing up as a teenage girl #and jts not going well #so sorry for mo awesome lesbians this month #my fun daily hobby consists of sleeping #and sleeping #and laying down #awsome #the only thing im looking forward is that i may actually go to work on holidays because I'll be 17 so I'll be legally allowed ro work #i mean i already am but i was a pvssy last year #also if everything goes well ill be a helper ar local anime convention in may #but yk what's kinda depressing #i always tell myself it will get bettee #and it gets better for some time #but after that it gets even worse again #and idk im just tired #because every year is just even less enjoyable lol

[astrxealis]

jahdjehfksn i am still in more need of people actually Like Me fr fr ...

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i am so glad i am out of genshin now LMAO ngl i genuinely just hate that game. and the fanbase #characters i uh actually don't really like that much skfbskfnskfkls and story and lore and world ... it's all just. Yeah. yeah. lmfao #kshehrvrjbwhsisjbfosn my xiv friend from twt is gna move to oce soon after issues w another dc >_< and on my world! so im rlly looking #forward to that fisbfknskdna <33 #tbh i've realized i just don't like people who have genshin as their top 1 (unless you like xiv. in which case absoluutly great taste) #so uh. yeah. KFBSKDNSK ?? yeah just bcs ive realized the ppl i actually consider myself close/friends w MAY be in gi but. it's not the only #thing they love a lot ?? :O hm. hm. hm #idk im just absolutely exhausted still by those in my tumblr circle being gi sjbdksnd ... but ill be more patient!! <3 #idk man i just genuinely do not like genshin and for. a LOT of very valid reasons. but you do you genshin likers 😭

[orcelito]

I'll finally have some free time tomorrow so I'm hoping i can actually get started on the next chapter of ITNL. I have a solid plan & it'll probably be easy to write once I get started with it... but Before That, I gotta get the ball rolling, & that's always the hardest part 😭

Gonna try tho. If I don't get to wolfwood in the next 2 weeks I'm going to scream

#speculation nation #itnl shit #like yea yea i know some really awful fucking shit happened to me just a week ago #but do i gotta lose my writing ability as a side effect??? annoyingggg #unfortunately i am only human which means i am subjected to all the horrid messiness of having a spirit #ANYWAYS. if things go according to my plans then. hm. 2 more chapters for sand steamer. 1 for geo plant. #then 1 for Legato. and BOY that's gonna be a fun one. im looking forward to it immensely. #1 more for may city shit. and then prooobably by the end of the next one wolfwood will be here? #so. Potentially 6 more chapters. relatively short chapters as im keeping all of the itnl chapters #but it's so far AWAYYYYY nightow why did u have to have wolfwood come in so late. smh. #bleh. i'll get there tho. i will. #this is my curse for making a longfic. it'll be worth the buildup. i LOVE the buildup. #it's just so hard when ur the one writing it bc i wanna get there so bad but i gotta respect the process #hoping that As The Spirit Heals writing will be easier for me again. i was churning out like 4k chapters every 2 days b4 #i MISSS ITTTTT come on man let me tap into that power again. The Spirit Is Willing. #gonna try my best tomorrow and that is a promise.

[redgillan]

decided to treat the new season of the umbrella academy like it’s a weekly release but it’s so hard to avoid spoilers when pple don’t tag their spoilers 😒

#i may have to unfollow until i finish it #like it’s the only thing im looking forward to i don’t want to binge it #and netflix would lose less money and subscribers if they released episodes weekly like d+ #maisie rants

[nebulaeic]

birfday

#chatter #turning 20 today *sweats* #made it through our teens. that sure is something! gotten to the point in our life when we can say im genuinely glad to still be here. #lots of good in the world to see and do. 20 years only scratched the surface. looking forward to seeing and doing more fun stuff :] #in the end we're just a bag of meat and bones twirling and spiraling around a giant gass ball with a bunch of rocks. #and like. thats fun! with all this spinning theres so much to see #and focusing on just the bad things happening with the people just does a disservice. i may have anxiety but the moon doesnt care #if i said the right thing in that conversation. the moon cares that i look up at it in awe every night and circled the full moon dates on #my calendar so i dont forget it #or it may not care because it cant really see me; but i love the moon so thats what matters to me. fskjl sorry for the tangent but. yeah. #times passing. thats wild. and shit sucks but im doing ok. so yeah; happy birthday to me. love you guys

[xlucygraysongbirdx]

day sixty-three

of attempting to rewrite and finish (if only you would) take my hand

Albus shuffled, trying to reach the curtain to shield them from the small light peeking through them, whilst trying not to wake Scorpius. He failed, however, and Scorpius stirred next to him, tightening his arm around Albus’ waist. Albus managed to close the curtain, looking back at Scorpius just as he fluttered his eyes open.

“Hey,” Albus whispered.

Scorpius smiled sleepily. “Hi,” he mumbled, his voice croaky. He pulled his arm away quickly, like he didn’t realise it was draped around Albus. “Sorry,” he chuckled.

“It’s okay,” Albus assured.

#im sorry #it's been a few #i've been struggling a lot and not just with writing #things haven't been great but hey we keep looking forward i guess #also #day 62 is irrelevent because i deleted that chapter #i've done some jigging because they weren't working for me #so it's looking like i may be writing the last chapter now! #which is quite exciting i guess #here are some soft scorbus #ill be quiet now #scorbus #(if only you would) take my hand #scorpius malfoy #albus severus potter

[tinylittlebab]

well theres almost no food i even like the taste of here so win?

#im at an airport rn. went on a plane for the first time a few hours ago and need to get on another one soon #havent slept since 4am the prev day aside from a 30 min nap right before leaving #and the prev day i only slept 6 hours too. so im feeling bad #also my oeriod started today. did so much cleaning yesterday. im exhausted. and its been 6 hours since i ate (last thing was small) #so overall i think im doing well. all of this stuff has taked quite a lot of energy and now im not eating rn. im visiting family and will #have to be around people im uncomfortable around for awhile so i probably wont eat much while im there either #will be leaving tomorrow at 4pm and so itll be late when i get back home. im thinking i wanna eat as little as possible the whole time #i originally wasnt planning that but my sister mention that she doesnt trust me to eat while im there so she wants me to eat something now #i might end up eating something possibly. my mom may very well be more pushy than she used to be about it. idk. #hopefully i dont have to go to dinner with family although it will prob guarantee i dont eat anything today #well. my sister might push it. shes worried ill pass out. idk. ill try drinking some water. i whould be ok i think. #not looking forward to going to peoples house. i just wanna see my immediate family and grandparents. everyone else makes me upset #theyre so pushy about affection. well ill be 18 soon so mylaybe i can start pushing the no hugs thing #need to get a new scale. dont trust the one i have. i hope this can be a start to get back on track. i WILL be skinni