#the ENDINg?? to the TRUE ending?

[stuckinapril]

lived my whole life in guilt bc i thought i was responsible for people's feelings. newly realizing that other people are responsible for their feelings and reactions, even if they make it seem like i'm the problem. a lot of the time it really has to do w them and their own emotional regulation. i can't keep thinking i'm not allowed to have space bc of other people's insecurities. like i literally refuse to dim myself. other people are responsible for their feelings just as i'm responsible for mine.

#like i'm always gonna operate from a place of kindness but i've had to deal w so many people who're bad at communication/confrontation #which led me to think i'm the problem #that i deserve to be given the silent treatment or dismissed disregarded belittled etc #that's j not true. i'm far from perfect but i think so few people deserve that kind of reaction. and my biggest revelation is i do not #even if people want to make me think i do / that their reaction is justified / that i'm a burden etc #my biggest problem is i humor people like this for too long bc it's been normalized behavior to me #does this make any sense to anyone. it's the end of the year and i'm reflecting on so many things #p

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[thisnoah]

"You treat your mouth as if it's Heaven's gate"

[Too Sweet by Hozier]

#the voices told me to #like the true English speaker I am I did have to go back and fix all my spelling mistakes #i thought he said “lean” instead of “neat” bc i didn't check the lyrics until the end :) #cod #cod mwii #cod mwiii #cod mw2 #cod mw3 #call of duty #simon ghost riley #simon riley #john soap mactavish #johnny soap mactavish #soapghost #ghostsoap #comic #comics #comic art #web comic #original comic #digital art #sketchbook #sketch #art #drawing #artists on tumblr

[crabussy]

hey I went to Bad At It island and everyone you know was there. yeah turns out you just see the version of them they put forwards in order to not disappoint and in actuality everyone is just trying their best which doesn't always mean succeeding. yeah you were there as well but it's ok because you're surrounded by your friends and loved ones and if you take a moment you'll realise we are all flawed by nature but we are all full of love for one another and that matters more than any skill or success or achievement.

#listen to my gibberish boy #silly post format but this is something I need to realise more #and I think that might be true for others as well so ((: #BE BAD AT IT AND BE FULL OF LOVE AND KISS YOUR FRIENDS AND FUCK UP PROJECTS IT WILL ALL BE OK IN THE END!!!!!

[voids-cave]

Losing my shit at people not understanding Shadow The Hedgehog and SONIC the hedgehog I'll maul you I'll do it!!!

#especially the ones that think that SONIC OF ALL FUCKING PEOPLE would be crying out of hopeleness. sonic IS hope and he knows that #sonic is okay with Crying but he doesn't fucking cry out of a 8 year old screaming at him and taking the only key to restoring his friends #he will just go. alright guess i gotta keep going. keep being better. lets go shadow #and it isn't out of ignoring his own emotions i bet he feels sad and he will express that that was a bummer but. his friends need him! #and that includes nines! #and shadow. #ppl thinking that he doesn't live his life for himself and for maria only?? HAVE YOU WATCHED'?? SHTH??? #the ENDINg?? to the TRUE ending? #he lets maria go. he lets his past life go. he lets it gooo let it gooo #and now he lives only for himself. AND NO THIS DOESN'T MEAN HE DOESN'T HONOR MARIA OR SUDDENLY DOESN'T CARE ABOUT HER #ofc he fucking does but he doesn't NEED to live FOR her. it isn't about her anymore. in sa2 it was. in heroes until shth it was #to know who he was and why he was here #he found it. its to keep living. to keep order because he IS the ultimate lifeform. #but he doesn't need anyone or anything to make life worth it #shadow can be a bit childish and full of himself or be like if i am not the ultimate lifeform then who am i. or sometimes give up for the #greater good #but he always finds. no. i am me. i am Shadow and that is ENOUGH to be the ultimate lifeform #he is SHADOW THE FUCKING HEDGEHOG!!! THE ULTIMATE LIFEFORM AND YOU WILL FALL UNDER HIM!!1! #TF DO U THINK I AM I AM ALL OF ME WAS FORR #anyways i love shadow the hedgehog #and sonic the hedgehog for some reason people cannot understand these characters even tho they are SO easy to

[aegisofworms]

So I read dreams end come true and WOW. It lives absolutely rent free in my head forever now.

#my art #artists on tumblr #ultrakill #mirage ultrakill #dect #dreams end come true #im so normal #(lying)

[lokh]

fake dating au where shuro ends up pretending to go out with laios in order to secure his inheritance.... but is it really what he wants? a journey of romance and self discovery that ill never ever write

#i imagine some political intrigue too but frankly i dont know enough #not pictured: marcille and co losing their fucking minds becos laios what were u THINKING #shuro #nakamoto toshiro #laios touden #laishuro #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #art #maizuru #i imagine shuro also doesnt want to win his succession with something so. underhanded and untrue lmao. #and then when it DOES become true... well does he even want it really 😭 #i feel like hed still end up doing it but at least hes actually examined his own wants etc #delicious in dungeon

[princeoxca]

game night pt. 2: the return of tim

#wayne family adventures #batman #batfam #dick grayson #jason todd #alfred pennyworth #stephanie brown #duke thomas #cassandra cain #damian wayne #timothy wayne #meme #draw the squad meme #princeorcaart #the return of tim after a brutal defeat #of course it's a capatilistic hellscape game lmao #this was the true battle of the cowl hahaha #dick accidentally committed tax fraud and ended up in jail

[cruelsister-moved2]

for real! (from kadji amin)

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What I've realized is that I believe that the matter of gender is practical and relational. It's not about who you are inside, it's more about how you would feel most comfortable in the world. It's not 'Who are you?' but 'How do you want to live?'

Had that been the discourse when I was coming up, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. I don't have to figure out who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out how I want to live.

end of ID]

#and I kind of felt really sad when they were talking about how like they feel in some ways figuring yourself out is way harder now #bc there is this pressure to like figure out who u Really Are Inside #and instead of being like well maybe my identity goes far beyond gender and like i don't need to find some microlabel #in order to like define who is Me #it's become very fixated on like categorising ur gender rejection in a way that ends up just. making even more genders to constrain u #it's hard to summarise it was like v wordy but I thought this part was so true #for sexuality as well not to tack it on but we have really gotten into the same mindset w sexuality now as well #THANK U @VAKAVANHASAATANA for the ID it wont let me @ you in the text </33

[tawnysoup]

Learning to accept support

#A sequence of drawings I made back in march but that im still proud of #It was drawn in an incredibly scattered manner throughout a page of existing sketches - i tried to crop out and erase most of the mess haha #i just really wanted to explore some post story emotions... mira and sif having an emotional accountability convo that isa joins in on #I did have an idea for the dialogue here but i think you can infer it pretty easily from the expressions #sasasap true ending got me pretty hard last night so this felt appropriate to post. isafrinbelle support group. qpr propoganda #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat #in stars and time #isat postgame #isat siffrin #isat mirabelle #isat isabeau

[kwistowee]

ugh... this sceeeeeeene 🥰 STRANGER THINGS | 4.01

#eddie munson #eddiemunsonedit #joseph quinn #josephquinnedit #jqedit #chrissy cunningham #grace van dien #hellcheeredit #hellcheersource #strangerthingsedit #hellcheer #eddie x chrissy #stranger things #userrobin #anztag #userridge #userallisyn #cinemapix #filmtvcentral #my*gifs #userthing #mediagifs #tvedit #color correcting my gifs (for days on end) in ways no one else will notice but i will #and having done so will make me happier every time i see them. #restoring his leather jacket and jeans to true black makes me happy

[miikpal]

galleria

speedpaint under cut

#erm (shy). the theme i was going for was boundary breaking. also just rly wanted to draw sth for the trilogy..love these games #harry mason #heather mason #cheryl mason #james sunderland #maria silent hill #silent hill #silent hill 1 #silent hill 2 #silent hill 3 #blood cw #and before anyone gets any ideas the water in the james pic is just because i thought itd look cool thematically #i dont consider that one the true ending so #;drawn #fanart #Youtube

[bulbagarden]

hell on earth

#luckily pokémon bank will still go on but #a true end of an era #god....... #bulbagarden #pokemon #gaming #nintendo 3ds

[hellishfig]

for the amount of time i spend thinking about erika ishii, i do not post about them NEARLY enough

everything i've ever seen them in, they have been fully dialed in. they understand the genre, they understand the character they're playing, and they NEVER. FUCKING. MISS

my current dnd character is actually based on multiple characters of erika's that i enjoy. my character is a witch (like ame of worlds beyond number fame [thank you to the witch class playtest]) but she is also a brewer who grows weed and shrooms, and deals them, and does them (and her personality is very much modeled off of danielle barkstock in dimension 20's the seven)

i feel that many of my favorite moments from erika are often focused on other characters. but many of those character moments would not have been possible without erika's incredible roleplay and sense for storytelling

and when the moment IS focused on erika's character? spellbinding. groundbreaking. from ame talking to orima in the overgrown shrine to danielle getting a nat 20 at the masquerade ball, i always fall into the scene and feel it so deeply due to erika's skill and poise and commitment to the story being told

tldr i think erika ishii is incredibly talented and wonderful

#didn't mention ava burrow's end here BUT I HAVE WRITTEN POSTS ABOUT HER #SHE ALSO MAKES ME INSANE #k tanaka as well #erika simply has a gift #also they're SO. FUCKING. HOT!!!!!!!!!!! #but mostly all the other stuff #the fact that my witch character is based on characters they have played is. perhaps not surprising #but i should talk about it more #bc it is so true and very obvious to people who have listened to wbn and watched the seven #they're amazing and that's the point of this post #erika ishii #worlds beyond number #wbn pod #wbn spoilers #wbn: www #the wizard the witch and the wild one #wwwo #wwwo spoilers #ame wbn #ame the witch #dimension 20 #d20 #d20 the seven #danielle barkstock

[cultofthorns]

text is from house of leaves, something about vmodels being echoes and reflections of each other

#dect #dreams end come true #ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #mirage ultrakill #fishart #animation #comic #animated comics are fun and i wanted to do something with weird panel shapes bc of the HoL influence #1k

[prideprejudce]

imagine being on the board of a billion dollar company voting on its future and you hear I AM THE ELDEST BOY in the next meeting room over like how cringe im screaming

#succession finale #succession #succession spoilers #kendall roy #roman roy #shiv roy #rewatching The Scene again today and I’m laughing #someone said at the end of the day they were all children arguing outside their dads office still #and that cannot be more true