#that might solve my issue

[ecoqueer]

I wish that people gave a shit about nonbinary people who don’t use they/them pronouns. You can literally give your friend group (which includes another nonbinary person) a list of your favorite pronouns, none of which include they/them, and mention several times that you don’t like they/them pronouns for yourself, but they’ll make the switch from she/her pronouns to…they/them. And feel super proud of themselves for being sooo progressive as to use they/them pronouns for you….when those aren’t your pronouns.

I think that saying “he she and they are my least favorite but are fine in combination with other things…I’m really fine with any neos but here’s a list of my faves that you can choose from!” Is polite and not a difficult request. I’m not good at being a pushy person, and I shouldn’t need to be.

#it screams #i guess I’ll pull the lists out again and re-link them #but the aforementioned friends view messages from me as a chore and check them rarely so when they do they’ve built up and so just skim #everything #which I’m fucking tired of #I’ve been going back and forth on whether it’s better to have no friends or a few friends who make you feel shitty #dunno which is worse #they also are extremely cavalier with covid while knowing I have no health insurance #and have supported some statements/actions that really make me sad #so idk I might be basically friendless at this point #i hold on for too long to people who have clearly moved on and don’t much care about being my friend anymore #I’ve tried reaching out a few times to no avail so idk I might just give up #try to cultivate online relationships more #which feels pretty impossible to me #sigh #I’ve been not able to sleep well #because of issues in my life with…all of the few people in it #issues that could be solved if I had kept a wider support network #instead of getting trapped with someone who was abusing me and my friends who don’t seem to give a shit about that and expressed more #concern for him than for me when the news was revealed to them #again I don’t have health insurance so no therapist #which I fucking desperately need right now #i have no one separate to talk to #the one who knows all of the different factors from all of the angles…is the abuser #i feel like I’m in so much fucking pain and I feel so alone and all of the people in my life who are supposed to be my loved ones #are standing around me ignoring me completely and acting like everything is okay #just causing me more and more pain #well this didn’t start out intended as a vent but it sure turned into one huh #i wish I could convey to y’all the desperation and loneliness and aching that I feel #vent

[mokeonn]

Before I go to sleep I leave you all with this piece of advice: sometimes you don't actually have to answer big political questions, sometimes you can just say "I am not smart enough to know that, I just know the small things I do to help." Like you can often times completely avoid making a fool of yourself if you just say you don't know.

#simon says #to explain here and not in a reblog: #sometimes when you try to explain big picture solutions you're gonna sound dumb #you might not have done enough research #you might not have a rebuttal to a counter argument #you might not be articulate enough to explain why you think this #sometimes you gotta take a step back and give the simple solution. the one man solution #you do what you can to fight against the problem #you talk to people to help spread awareness and how to fight the bad problem #and you vote and invite others to vote for bigger steps towards solving the problem #like you can talk about theory and how you believe we need to do a huge drastic thing to solve and issue #but people will disagree and argue til you're blue in the face #they'll poke and prod until you mess up or lose your temper and use it against you #and you'll feel dumb and they'll learn nothing #sometimes the best thing to do is step away from the big picture and just say 'idk what the solution is I just know the things I can do“ #sometimes you gotta admit you're not a scientist/expert and you can't answer that #i used this while talking with my Dad tonight #he brought up our climate crisis and space travel as a possible solution #and I said I think that's just addressing the symptom and not the cause and we need to care for our Earth now #and he asked me what solutions I think would fix it #and knowing my incredibly smart Dad who is articulate and ready to throw rebuttles at a moments notice to play devils advocate #and my past experience in struggling in this topic with him before #i just told him I didn't know. all i knew is the little things I can and do do to help #and that hopefully by spreading the word and habits and encouraging others to vote for those bigger solutions I could help make a change #but all I really could do is the little things I have control over #and the topic became much less stressful about the little things we have control over #like planting native plants and recycling and adopting habits that are healthier to our planet #which was 100% more preferable to if I tried to give a big solution. because I would reveal i didn't have all the knowledge needed to argue #and my articulation would make me sound like a stupid kid who only thinks they know what's best #so yeah I basically suggest that if you dont wanna feel like shit after debating someone just step away from the big picture for a moment

[uncanny-tranny]

I think many people cognitively understand that retributive justice is often ineffective and simply violent, but they don't want to rid themselves of the almost collective anger mindset that permits this kind of justice to remain in place, even socially. In short, the mindset still treats people as though they must be punished as severely as possible, and when one is wronged, the mindset goes to how violence can be used, which is not inherently the same as righting wrongs.

Justice is complex, and it's messy. That's why it's so important not to treat it simplisticly with only one solution.

#politics #retributive justice #and like... when it's you and your anger and your hurt it becomes really hard and i GET that... #...i just don't know if that impulse will always help either party... #...like i said justice is complex amd anger and hurt can make that really hard to remember #it is really hard to grapple with these feelings especially knowing like... there's going to be no consequences for my abuser... #...no retributive justice no anything else. not even acknowledgement as everybody pretends they didn't witness my abuse and the drama... #...but even as this happens - would i feel any better with retributive justice? what about everybody else? #that's what i mean when i say it's complex... #...that most injustices will go unpunished and that's part of the reason (i think) why people immediately swing to violence... #...because it feels like... we are so angry about this being brought to light and the ONLY way to ammend this is with violence #and i know that somebody might project onto this post that i'm saying that every Bad Person should be handled with kid gloves... #...and that's not really what i'm getting at. what i'm getting at is that we should be more critical of solving EVERY issue as violently... #...as possible - INCLUDING in social settings #violence is often inevitable especially at a large scale but that doesn't mean it is always the most effective nor the most realistic

[irradiated-radiance]

Woe, angst be upon yee

Think about this plot for more than a minute and it'll start to fall apart probably but just uhhh please don't think about it too much😞🙏

So Sosu has been frozen for over 210 years, they came from a world that wasn't as irradiated as the Commonwealth is currently, so, why not give them radiation poisoning?

They feel fine when they first step out but even still, they can just feel things are different, everything, even the air, feels contamimated. Over the many years, most of the radiation has disappeared, people of the Commonwealth have grown a tolerance to the low amount of radiation that still persists, but Sosu being completely new to this world has no such tolerance and even with a radiation suit slowing the process, the poisoning still seeps into them, slowly starting to kill them. At first it's barely noticeable but the closer they get to their goal, the weaker they seem to get.

First true problem presents itself, the Dimly-lit desert- I mean the Glowing Sea. Even with the power armor taking most of the radiation, by the time they get to the insitute, they're severely ill. The fatigue, the effects of the radiation, it's all obvious. Despite never knowing them it pains the Father to see them in such a way, perhaps it was cruel to let them out of their frozen prison.

Nonetheless the institute is smart, has people to deal with what radaway can't heal, and so with time Sosu is cured but it's made clear to them; any trips to Commonwealth are risky, simply put their body can't handle the radiation.

Obviously there are companions that want the Institute destroyed, but I wonder how they'd react to this? Going off of the assumption that they're close to Sosu, just how willing would they be to write their death sentence by demanding them to destroy the only thing that can help them stay alive? The thing that'd let the companion keep their close friend, maybe their lover, alive? How willing would they be to sacrifice the person whose been there for them this entire time, despite Sosu having their own struggles to deal with?

And with X6? Oh with X6 just think about it. Time passes and he's, dare he say, attached to the future leader. Slowly, without his notice, he's started to truly care. How would he take it, hearing other companions, or faction leaders, demand that Sosu does the "right thing" and destroy the Institute, destroy the only place where they can roam free without a hazmat suit, without having to worry about radiation?

He'd be kinda angry about it I think

#I feel like Preston might be the one most likely to try to look for a different solution? Very possibly Nick #like said I feel like this plot doesn't make THAT much sense but idk it's been stuck in my head for a looong while and wanted to get it out #fo4 #fo4 companions #fo4 x reader #fallout x reader #fallout 4 x reader #Preston is a kind man. He'd probably try to figure out something that'd keep his friend alive. Mans lost way too much to loose them too #with Nick I just feel like he'd be another to *really* try to figure out some other solution besides just shrugging and saying 'tough shit' #I'm not entirely too sure about the other companions... #oh right Curie and Codsworth would definately try to figure out something too #but with the rest? I'm just not sure at all 😭 #Gage would probably suggest to raid the whole place so Sosu can just live there without the Institute- #Sosu: Without the Institute... I'll die #Gage: Boss listen. Lets just break in. Kill everyone there. You live there. Problem solved #God can you imagine raiders with Institute technology #just able to teleport in and out with no issue? #terrifying. In killing the boogeyman you'd create another #but I doubt the nuka raiders would want to live inside the institute

[quaddmgd]

FLORAL

"So... you like dresses after all?" "Oh shut up..."

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk game #fem v #female v #fem v friday #otp: nothing's gonna hurt you baby #pmu + amm #screen.qd #i love her face in no. 1 and 2 so much i shot about 20 near-identical pics #i used this dress in my corpo au initially #song unrelated but i love it #it's very warm today and it gives me much needed summer vibes #i did this photo shoot twice due to my (now solved) issues with textures #and the lighting in the first one was much better but textures were meh :( #i might post original pics as a reblog #oc: crystal hartley

[lemonykleonella]

Thank you For making me feel alive again For making me believe in myself again For making me have passion again For saving me There's no words out there that can describe how I feel without me sounding cheesy and corny, but you have no idea how much you helped me rediscover myself. I wish there were more times when I could see you. Maybe one day.. we could do it all again Thank you so much for that day of January 8th, 2023 @jampreserves @banyanas

#kleo draws #friends #idk man i just dont know how to express it #its crazy how much this movie helped me #without you id probably never watch it #id probably just disappear somewhere never to be seen again #and even though we dont talk much anymore i still love you lots #i will never stop calling you my friends #i wish we could talk more #but i know my mental issues might come in the way and thats my responsibility to solve them all #you two are one of my closest people since 2019-2020... #i posted this a day early because i just wanted to let it all out #i love you jam and bany <3

[entropyvoid]

Pom of Peace | Rainbow Hamsa

In Jewish culture, pomegranates traditionally symbolize fertility and love, and are often said to have 613 seeds, one for each mitzvah. They are a common theme in Jewish art and are often mentioned in Jewish texts.

The hamsa is a symbol of luck and protection shared by many cultures with middle eastern roots. It has been interpreted as a Jewish, Christian, Islamic, and Pagan symbol. In Judaism in particular, it is sometimes referred to as the hand of Miriam, and has been very popular with Sephardic Jews.

#judaica #judaism #jewish #jumblr #my art #cherallart #so like I've been kinda ~reconnecting with my jewish heritage and upbringing~ a lot more over the past year or two #I decided that the lack of jewish art that fit my very particular aesthetics is an issue that i have decided to solve #more where these came from. I have a list of like 20 more ideas for a judaica art series #and I might start selling prints of them soon? #also this is hands down the best hand I've ever drawn. Lol #anyway as per usual #support my art reblogs are better than likes

[butchviking]

tjere are two wolves within u and one is a butch dyke who wants a practical buzzcut and the other is a metalhead who wants floppy hair to headbang all over the place. and u can't pick which to feed theyre fighting forever and ever and they hate each other and youre goigng 2 die

#MY HAIR IS TOO LONG BUT ITS NOT LONG ENOUGH BUT ITS WAY TOO LONG!!! IM TIRED!!! #revenge frank cut would solve all of these issues but it isnt long enough at the back yet :( #which MEANS I have to either let it all over grow out until the back is long enough or. god forbid. go 2 a fucking hairdresser #and im not doing that i dont trust them i dont TRUST them. i would say even it out all over it will look messy i dont care. #and they would cut it into some weird layered bob shit and say i thought this looked nicer :) #SO I HAVE TO GROW THIS OUT... THIS MIGHT TAKE A FUCKING YEAR.....

[walking-fnaf-encyclopedia]

hi moots! im losing my mind

#technical difficulties w the vr headset so no hw2 yet #two days feels like such a long time when you spend hours and hours grappling w ur vr headset and doing Fuck All #and looking up the error codes im getting gives me Fuck All #its just very unfortunate and frustrating #i might try a link cable instead? but idk if thatll solve the issues #sigh #im tired #i already bought hw2 on steam #idfk #vent #i guess #losing my fucking mind over here can u telllll #x #x chatter

[ridl]

Older games often require fixes to be playable and it can be a bit tedious to research and install properly, but it kinda adds to the experience. They’re broken in so many unique ways lol

This game will make your spaceship spin uncontrollably when you load in and you have to tab out to fix it. The space station is invisible so you have to download a texture fix, but i thought i was supposed to struggle to see shit bc it’s in some space fog. High framerate will make the objects in the game act like they’re possessed by the devil bc of their physics, but locked framemate fucks up mouse sensitivity. This game won’t launch and the popup window says “steam must be running to play this game” when i try to launch it directly from steam... Absolutely insane stuff!!! Hilarious when you think about it Also it’s cool to know there’s ppl out there who care about preserving those games, to keep em playable and improve the experience with all those fixes and mods you can download and install, even if it can be complicated sometimes. I really appreciate that, especially for more obscure games

#i have thoughts abt video games sometimes #if anyone wonders abt my examples they're from tachyon the fringe‚ dead space and re4 #good thing i have a lot of patience ahsdgsjakhlda #it might be the reason why i find this pretty amusing instead of super frustrating even if i do get annoyed by tech issues obviously #sometimes getting a game to run is like a puzzle i have to solve #game stuff

[bellysoupset]

Just scrolling through your posts and seeing you mention that some anon had requested some super angsty Leo fic.

Quick question cuz Leo-angst is something I'm a bit obsessed with: D'you think that the angsty Leo fic would come before or after Leo and Jon's wedding??

Hi anon!

I'm not a 100% on it, the request was quite plotty and would require my mental health to be in a good place, but ideally this would take place before the wedding, as they're wedding planning.

The original plan was to have the request happen while Jonah is away in his trip, but I'm tweaking things there and I don't know for how much of it Jonah's gonna be present.

#Leo's super whumpable #I wonder if it's because of the cherubin-esque quality he has. #my issue with writing depression is that it takes forever to solve if I wanna stay realistic #so I might have this not be a fully depressive moment but rather a psychotic episode due to Other Reasons #<- ignore the rambling i'm thinking out loud

[vazaha-tya]

blood supremacy in harry potter is at a crossroads between xenophobia/racism (not as we understand it), ableism and classism but with jkr having no in depth of understanding of these issues, it really ends up in a sort of twilight zones where power dynamics are incomprehensible. and considering power dynamics have everything to do with discrimination, it's really frustrating

(i'd mention speciesism for the way centaurs, house elves etc are treated but that's a common problem in fantasy. besides, the parallels between centaurs and secluded indigenous communities + house elves and chattel slavery are so fucked up i think analysing it is just gonna make me mad. she should have never touched that with a ten foot pole)

wizard-raised magicals are both the minority according to the subtext (witch burnings, smaller population, inability to blend in, need for their locations to remain hidden) with muggles being their dominant counterpart and the majority because they essentially hold the power to fight back on a higher level than muggles do. hence the xenophobia/racism parallel, which is incomprehensible because of the way the lines between oppressor and oppressed are blurred. she also tried to make it a parallel to antisemitism but talking about that is not my place i think. from what i said before i'd imagine the problem with that is kind of obvious, i mean, the subtext alone, yikes.

the pureblood-muggleborn relationship looks more like a classism thing, especially with the subtext of purebloods being wealthy and having status (+the whole blue blood idea is kinda obvious) and this idea of muggleborns being sort of upstarts encroaching on this "higher society" and introducing their commoner ways. more straight-forward than the former but even there lines are weirded out by the way muggle things really do seem to replace stuff that could be read as parts of wizard culture. muggle holidays are fic writers' favourite example of that and for good reason. how does celebrating halloween make sense? and christmas? the yule ball kind of indicates some awareness of pagan holidays and everyone swears by merlin, i doubt wizards are christian. it mostly stems from jkr thinking of worldbuilding as aesthetic rather than foundation but it really implies weird stuff about how all of those muggle things came to be introduced

the ableism discussion is the only one that has clear and delimited power dynamics but it's pretty obvious it's not done on purpose. here, squibs and muggles are clearly considered less than wizards. i'll admitmy first thought about it was like "duh? i'd rather have magic than not" then i kinda slapped myself because that is not the issue there. of course it's better to be able to do something than not. i wish i didn't have worms for brains and a high chance to inherit my mom's chronic illness. the problem is that not being abled doesn't make you less and yet, that's pretty much never argued in HP. just look at the way filch is treated. at best he is pitied, at worst mocked and scorned. it's really nasty

anyways, listing everything that's wrong in the books would take hours but i have a google docs titled "unhinged ramblings on the nature of blood supremacy in harry potter" so i thought i'd at least share the sparksnotes before deleting it

#harry potter #hp #tya rambles #hp meta #harry potter meta #blood supremacy #everything is fcked up and making sense of it is hard #but harry potter is one of my hyperfixations and i can't let it go #i wish i could because the transphobia issue alone makes me sick #but here i am #writing fics to salvage a little bit of the series #but the more i write the more i realised i can't solve everything #so i might as well complain about it here as well

[solidwater05]

The fragility of human flesh strikes again (my dominant arm hurts when I move my hand)

#ice speaks #PLEASE i just wanna draw :( #my pencil is also having issues that i can't locate or solve by disassembling it #which; may I point out; is a task that requires fine motor control #like yknow. the thing that makes my #arm hurt. #i might improvise a compression sleeve when I get home #because let's be honest i won't stop using my hands

[perenlop]

its dinnertime so i wanna watch rgu but apparently next episode is the exposition dump episode and my brain is going at like 50mph rn and cannot focus so idk if its a good idea to watch it rn

#i might anyways bc if i do not follow my routine i will die #curse college for keeping me from the basement (can stim carefree) that usually solves this restlessness issue #echoed voice

[junk-culture]

looking at hot bush pics

#portable cd players made by the company BUSH that is. #pale green transparent player on ebay for just a tenner bc it apparently doesn't read discs.... #can i magically become competent in fixing electrical things please. my dream #im going to open up my sony pink creature when i go back home this week she is saying horrible things to me like NO DISC #if i cant easily solve her issues i might get a different player shes a bit modern tbh shes only like 14 yrs old i want a chunkier thing #with more buttons and lumps and bumps #saw a video of someone taking apart a panasonic shockwave sporty model that was like.so big and chunky and had like rubber around all #the buttons it had like a big volume wheel plus some switches that were more like. dials or cranks. beautiful world #but they're expensive LOL

[arolesbianism]

Ok no one asked but I've been tempted to make Jackie and Olivia stalien designs since I've been working on some new icons for the eternal gales stalien kiddos and it's been making me also think abt how disastrous it would be if they were in the same stalien society that the main cast are from because dear god would they either die instantly or make things so much worse. Even if they did get lucky enough to be able to be remotely near a position to found a stalien version of gravitas, no way in hell they'd be able to get far enough to even begin their own morally corrupt downfall before one of the other big companies forcibly assimilated gravitas into their own corporations and do the same shit but way WAY worse. Even if Jackie Was in a position to eventually climb the ladder enough to get to a more ceo position shed probably end up painting a target on her back way before she could get there, as her and Olivia's whole infinite power research would be very much unwanted by most of the ceo elders. Oh and Olivia would be fucked even beyond that because she's a biologist lol so at best she's going to be forced to drop every last one of her morals and barely scrape by

#rat rambles #oni posting #eternal gales #posts that will immediately isolate every last one of my followers rip the the recent oni followers sorry for the no context #anyways realistically olivia and jackie wouldnt be in positions of power just statistically and as such would be dead in their early 20s #well by their early 20s most dont make it that long #but assuming they ended up in jobs that sort of line up with their canon jobs theyd both likely be working at the convieor facility #aka where mason was supposed to work at and where dancer and helmet where both held as lil kids #and if you know anything abt that whole situation then you know that olivia and jackie are not winning in the job lottery here lol #now assuming that they stick to similar specialties olivia definitely has the more extreme shit to be stuck doing here since well. y'know. #but jackie might theoretically be able to luck out a bit and not be hands on in the surgons branch #she would probably still have to work with them but shed be more so in charge of collecting the data and deciding what to do with it #this means shed be more closely working with the twos boss for better or for worse #most likely for worse but yknow #olivia and jackie Could stand a chance at making it past the first culling checkpoint due to them being useful enough but thats a maybe #it mostly just depends on what direction they try to take their research and if it's smth their boss would take interest in #so less 'bettering society' and more 'making our lives specifically easier' #so no infinite power or at least not with any intent on wide scale application #if olivia could figure out the whole biolengineering thing somehow without ever having seen an animal then that could save her #one big issue that the facility is meant to be solving is the whole corpse crisis #aka stalien corpses dont rly decompose well especially without other wildlife to help #and as you might have been able to gleam there are a lot of corpses on these guys hands #so finding methods of body desposal is a big research point of the surgons branch #now ofc this research does indeed make more corpses but hey at least theyre smaller ones. iykyk. #anyways the main question for me when it comes to hypothetical jackie and olivia stalien designs is what color energy do they have #because usually I just go off eye color but they dont have canon eye colors so I could get more creative #also if I just go with my designs for them then theyd both just have red or yellow energy #which I could certainly work with but idk if I want either to be red and I dont want both to be yellow #plus red and yellow are technically both based in the same color energy anyways so it still feels unapealing #I could make jackie a pale purple or black varient and olivia a particularly dense yellow varient