#thank you for this message

[marimayscarlett]

Why does Ich Will hit so hard??? 😩 the song and the video and live version! It's just perfection!

Hii!

Ooh, with "Ich will" you definitely struck a nerv with me! It was one of my first MVs of Rammstein I saw when I got to know them and it holds a rather dear place in my heart. It was one of the reasons why I fell for Richard in the first place, because...well:

Personally for me, it's the best look the guys had in a MV in general. Especially Till's and Schneider's style are among my favourites ever:

The idea of some of them having scars/handicaps (Richard, Paul, Schneider and Till) while others are merely being used as means for a greater purpose (Olli and Flake) are quite fascinating to me. The lyrics, while being so easy to remember and sing along, still have that underlying feel of the singer binding the audience to himself, to steer it in a certain direction, to establish contact between the band and the listeners, which isn't something common for Rammstein and can feel rather intimate (like during live perfomances this year, when Till's voice sometime's broke during the line of "Wir wollen, dass ihr uns vertraut."). A lot of thoughts went into this song and the MV, plus the making of is also one of my favourites. Till expresses some thoughts in it concerning artists and the role of public attention. Maybe those are still relevant today, during an age where influencers can really wield an effect on others while not necessarily holding a talent or skill themselves (but maybe I'm just thinking in an old fashioned way):

My favourite live performances are definitely the one at the Velodrom in Berlin 2001 (I love this gig so much in general) and the one at the Madison Square Garden in 2011:

Plus, "Ich will" was the only song I recorded fully (here) when I attended the concert this year, I absolutely loved the light effects during it on this tour 🤍

All in all I think it's such a powerful song, can be used to steer the crown exceptionally well and holds such a distinct energy and I agree, for me it really is perfection 🖤

#rammstein #ich will #this was my favourite mv for such a long time!! #and still ranks among my favourite 5 quite high i think #thank you for this message #i wholeheartedly agree 🤍 #qu

[esouliie]

i've never listened to soundgasm before but clicking through the links, you're really tempting me. on the other hand tho, i get second-hand embarrassment too easily (even when it's not supposed to be cringy/embarrassing)...especially because while i am pretty confident about my sexuality (to myself), i haven't really told anybody else (irl). i don't know where i'm going with this lol, sorry for rambling.

yeah i get that! i had similar thoughts before i started listening to them, but the voice actors i recommended are like, sooo good, there’s no room for embarrassment. personally, if the script is bad i can get cringed out as well and not like it, so i’d only ever post any that are well developed.

in regards to avoiding being cringed out, maybe you could start with listening to the sfw ones. there are a few that are tagged as “sleep aids.” so not anything sexual, they’re just comforting! the best person that does those would be teacupaudios, she has a youtube as well as a folder compiled of all her videos.

you can tell anyone or no one about your sexuality. regardless, you are still valid and safe here! <3

#thank you for this message #i rlly enjoy speaking to people here regardless of the topics #i’m gonna tag this as #— 💌 : recs!

[theboytatu]

I thought it was important that you see this https://twitter.com/smoldejuns/status/1662433759579484160?s=20

???!:&:!?! CUT THE CAMERAS...... i love how wayv are literally the definition of trauma bonded like nctzens love to think every unit is a found family but wayv is the only one where the dynamic REEKS of legit friends.. friends with weird sexual tensions and annoying sibling like rivalries... i love how ten is just basking in it too while xiaojun literally wants to bury himself out of embarrassment. i love how it's just very clear that ten has been the source of many sexual awakenings for every member in wayv <3

#all this time i've been a kunten enjoyer but maybe xiaoten is? appealing? #thank you for this message #asks

[foxglovefaun]

This new art with Ross made me audibly go "Whosagoodboy!!?" because. you know:

same vibes

aaaaaa this makes me so happy that I don’t even have words to describe it hahahaha

Truly! the same vibes!!

He’s makin that face right now

“Whosagoodboy!??”

“hehehe meeeee (´͈ ᵕ `͈ ）”

#thank you for this message #I was in the middle of recentering myself after a very busy morning and it was a perfect punctuation to my break #fox talks

[catty-words]

Did you know I read https://archiveofourown.org/works/48613789 after a long day being a resident in the hospital? Your writing is amazing, but that fic just gives me the buzz . Idk, it's like a hug. I can reread again and again, and it is just perfect for me every time

🥺 i have a complicated relationship with that fic, wrapped up as it is in the bitterness about season four leaving me unsatisfied where d/b are concerned and the tension/confusion of my life going through this huge structural change. the fic was escapism and a tether to myself at the same time. it’s lighthearted but self-reflexively concerned with what it means to be true to yourself even if that means pulling away from someone around which you’ve structured your identity. it is THE most self-indulgent fic i’ve ever written and yet i feel detached from it in a way i don’t usually with my finished fics.

all that to say, the fact that it boosts you up after a long day and the fact that reading it feels like getting a hug means that everything i poured into it trying to soothe myself comes through in the writing. and that makes me really proud. that reinforces that i have the ability to move people.

#thank you for this message #furoruisa #replies #nice people making me feel appreciated

[captain--trips]

Ur blog is a mood cuz since the first scene w Nines I wanna abandon Lacroix and become an anarchist. I hated the fucking warrens mission but if my pookie Nines had sent me there I'd go with a smile and hearts in my eyes ❤️

you are so correct my anon friend! he doesn’t lecture he doesn’t rap he doesn’t bureaucrat 😌

#vtmb #thank you for this message #it was very funny!

[annadeef]

the elf lady with white hair has such mommy energy, i am biting into my screen

I am going to bed

#anna replies #thank you for this message #mommy long legs looking bitch #anon

[treluna4]

Post this to let your friends reblog and tell you which of your writings (including drabbles!) they like the most and why.

Hey. Hey you. Thank you Nonny. ❤️

#nonny! #you’re a wonderful person #thank you for this message #I love anon messages #❤️

[boxwinebaddie]

uncle nina! how have you been? you always tell us to take care of ourselves, i hope ur doing good as well!

to start, i just wanted to say that i am glad you guys are fond of me. i know i put up this big rarara mean evil fanfiction dictator lady i am going to make you suffer cold girl vibe in my author's notes and energy in the comments, but it's a silly little front. i promise, i am, nice and not scary. i am a loser who loves you all so much, every single one of you is my precious peach. you are all my angels. <3

now....you have no idea how much i needed to see this message today, my friend. thank you for checking in on me because, it, in turn, forces me to check in on myself.

now, i could be silly and funny and flippant like i usually am in my author's notes or in general, but i think i am going to be as honest and candid as i can be in this message with you and with anyone who has come across peppermint and developed a fondness for it. because though i have not met any of your physically out in the world, i would regard each and every one of you as a very dear friend.

i am going to put the rest under a read more, you don't have to read this, but it regards my mental health and stuff, if that interests you:

so to be honest, i have not been very well nor have i been taking care of myself very well. i actually had pretty severe and frightening panic attack last night that was not entirely related to peppermint, but played a part.

when i created peppermint, i had no idea that it would gather so much love and support. i had no idea so many people would be waiting for my updates or be that excited to receive them. it warms my heart deeply, but it also gives me...terrible anxiety.

i feel a large pressure to preform when i write my updates, i am often very worried about how they will be perceived and though no one is holding me to it, i hold myself to an impossible standard that i will never meet no matter how hard i try and feel like if i take longer than a week or two to update, people might get bored, or angry or upset with me that generally makes me spiral.

i want so badly to put out quick updates and have you enjoy this story with me that i feel like sometimes i am rushing myself or forcing myself to beat the clock. i am both a people pleaser like stan and have a hard time with not being perfect, like kyle. because i feel this pressure to get my updates out and not leave you guys waiting too long, i've found i've begun to...neglect several aspects of my real life.

to be frank and embarrassing, my room is in a state of disrepair that openly disgusts me, i have neglected almost every household chore, i am eating poorly, i do not go outside nearly enough, i rarely see my friends, when i am not writing peppermint i feel like i should be and punish myself for doing anything but that ( because i feel like i am making you guys wait )

i can't even respond to my comments because of how stressed and strung out i am....i also respond to them every week so the fact that i have not responded to a single one fills me with dread and sadness and anxiety.

and because my environment is so chaotic its hard for me to focus and relax enough to write...but then if i start to do other tasks to fix my environemnt so i can write without burden i realize that i now have less time i have to write and AAAAAAAAA do you see why i had a panic attack my friends?

...basically this fanfiction that i write for fun ( which it is fun i love pep i love writing it it gives me so much joy ) recently has become something that almost feels as demanding as a day job.

which is very stressful and strange. i don't want to let you all down, but i feel like i am also letting myself down by doing this to myself.

so, i think for the rest of today and possibly tomorrow morning...i am going to step away from working on my update.

i am going to clean my room and the house top to bottom, go on walks, do all my necessary chores, maybe cook dinner for once, take care of all my basic needs and then if i feel settled, comfortable and in the right mood, i willl continue writing.

i hope you won't mind the wait. i should not be long, my friends. i just need to be kinder to myself and be nina, the person, for a second and not style scribe nina aka boxwinebaddie the writer of peppermint. does that make sense and seem...fair?

( as a consolation i can send you half of the chapter in my dms...or publish the half i have finished...like i said i SHOULDNT have to feel bad about not updating, but i still do and i know you guys have been waiting, so whatever i can do for you while keeping myself sane would be wonderful. )

but until then, please...if you can my friends? be gentle with me.

i will be checking my inbox in between breaks. i would love to answer headcannon questions/anything about the boys or story/theories you have/prompts...anything light that will carry me while i get my barings. stuff like that relaxes me. if you have any kind words for me also...i would really appreciate it. i feel worn very thin and i love you all so much.

let this be a lesson my friends. life is an airplane. and when the oxygen mask drops, you put the oxygen mask on yourself first. then you assist others.

take care of yourself, my angels. i will try and practice what i preach.

-uncle nina <3

p.s. i think its so cute that you guys call me uncle nina, it's so sweet please keep doing it :)))))

#thank you for this message #this is really embarrassing for me to type and i feel like a baby #but genuinely i have been very stressed out and going through it #if you have kind words #or hc questions or plot questions or anything fun for me to answer please go ahead and send them in #above all else take care of urself im gonna try and take care of myself #i love you guys

[elceeu2morrow]

you’re a better update account than most actual update accounts on tumblr 😭😭

That's so sweet! All the UA have worked hard during the tour. I'm happy to do my small part. Faith in the Future!

#that is so nice #thank you for this message #anon

[frechiiie]

Hey, Frech. You don’t have to answer this. I saw your post on twitter and just wanted to say that it’s okay. You’re an inspiration a lot of us and you’re a pretty swell person. Intrusive thoughts are awful, and I know how bad they can be. I just want to send some virtual hugs and blankets. Hope you feel better. —Cinnamon

Thank you,

It means a lot.

#txt #today sucked but #thank you for this message

[marbleheavy]

silently, i hand you a box wrapped in old newspaper and an excessive amount of red ribbon. on the side, the word “present :)” is written crudely in thick black marker. you set it on the table with the other gifts you have received. it suddenly jolts, lurching far enough to tip itself onto its side. i reach over and set it back upright, and then walk away without explanation.

my hands tremble with excitement at the mysterious gift. for the rest of the evening, i stare at the box from the corner of my eye as it seems to shudder. at the corner of it, goo slowly drips out and splats onto the table. although, the longer i stare, the less i feel that goo is an appropriate word. it’s something viscous and shiny. it’s— no, it can’t be. i turn away from the table as a smile threatens to break across my face.

#ask #remi ask #hello my dear friend <3 #thank you for this message

[deancaskiss]

random question- how do you feel about people sending in ficlet ideas/requests? also would it be ok for people to send in little stories that they've written? if not that's fine but i was just wondering bc i have some works that im too scared to post on my own blog-

also i've already sent this in anon but i love love love your new name, and it suits you very well ^^

(also leaving a new calling card-) -- 🔑

ooooh i love random questions! I’m happy to have people send in ficlet ideas/requests! I can’t promise I’ll write them all, just because I’m so so busy working on rotations and studying for my NAVLE (which is 38 days away holy heckie i am NOT ready) but I’ll always try my best to write requests/ideas that yall send to me!

omg yes of course, anyone is absolutely welcome to send in stories they’ve written! I’m always happy to share creations yall make onto my blog <3 you can absolutely send i works you’ve written and I’ll happily post them if you’re building confidence :)

adflkajsdfajsdfkajsf STOPPPPPP I’m gonna cry, literally tears in my eyes and tears on my keyboard right now as i type this!! thank you a hundred million times for saying you love love love the name oliver, like i just cannot even comprehend how happy it makes me hearing you say you think it suits me so well!! literally i was never excepting this kind of reaction like so many people being so supportive and encouraging and everyone being so lovely and sweet and calling me oliver!! you’re absolutely adorable, thank you!

#asked and answered #anon #🔑 anon #hiiiii #thank you for this message #please always feel free to send requests/ideas or your own stories #i love sharing yalls content <3

[thoughtfullyrainynightmare]

Thank you for making this autumn event!

You're very welcome love! ^^

I'm glad that it's proving to be a success. I think I have 49 requests as of now for it (or 49 posts, because I want to post each character separately for the headcanon option).

But I'm happy to see that y'all like my content (and suppose thoughts and characterizations overall for BC) ^^

#anon flamelets #thank you for this message #really

[libradoodle1]

Hey Libra! Nikita here from ao3. I just wanted to wish you for the fanfiction writers appreciation day ❤️. You have made such a powerful impact within a very short time that I am blown away completely. I hope you keep rocking our fandom for many more years 🥰🥰

Hi Nikita,

I am always impressed you know so much about tumblr when you don't even have an account on here! I guess you just know what's happening 😂

But thank you so much for sending me this sweet message and for being so supportive of my work too. I love this fandom and have made so many great friends, including you. I don't ever want to leave so you'll have me around forever ❤️

I was going to send you some love too, but since you don’t have tumblr I’ll have to do it here in your message to me. I was so excited when you posted your first story Torn by Love, United by Hate. Jon and Dany as sexy undercover agents chasing after bad guys, flashback reveals and second chance love? Those are all my favorite tropes! I’m really excited to see how your story plays out and I’m happy to help with anything you need along the way 😘

#thank you for this message #such a sweetheart #ask

[moonstruck-melts]

would you eat it

Mmmmmm, soggy borger :]

#kalashutup #thank you for this message #i will cherish this forever #food tw /