#targeted toward me only

[deerspherestudios]

What rating will Mushroom Oasis be? I didn't see it anywhere, but I might just be blind, lol.

PG-13! Just creepy spooks and Mychael being Mychael. Nothing explicit or NSFW planned!

#mushroom oasis vn #bts #i have a detailed answer queued up somewhere #but quick answer is PG13 so im busting this out of queue :-) #i should make an FAQ omg i never thought id have to #also as an addition im aware yan VNs are primarily targeted towards older audiences #for.... reasons #i only ask people remain respectful within the fandom as im aware there are minors following me and in the discord

[xxlovelynovaxx]

Me, a physically disabled (high support needs) neurodivergent (mid to high support needs) person: Hey, my neurodivergence IS extremely disabling in a way that a lot of you say "isn't possible" and also my physical and neurological disabilities often combine in ways that can't be separated and produce symptoms that are new or of added severity for me.

Responses I've gotten from disabled exclusionists (some of whom are also both physically disabled and neurodivergent):

"What drugs are you on, you delusional freak?"

"I've never experienced this and therefore you're a dirty lying physically abled neurodivergent person who just wants to be more disabled and oppressed than you are. My experiences are universal and anyone who has different experiences is a lying liar. No one can ever prove otherwise because my axiom is that anyone who claims otherwise is lying."

"The ableds are at it again."

"Sit down and let the REAL disabled people talk."

"You're never allowed to find similarities between disabilities that are of different types, even ones you have, and if you do you're actually the reason why accessibility is such an issue because conflating them is why ableist doctors don't give us what we need and why society thinks medical gatekeeping is good, actually."

"If you're that suicidal do us all a favor and kill yourself."

This is without even getting into stuff about how disabled labels often apply differently to systems. The big discourse now is "nonverbal" labels for headmates who are permanently, always nonverbal, primarily by people and systems who refuse to view systems as anything but "parts" of a single person. Which is funny to me because ah yes, we have actual studies showing physical disabilities such as allergies can apply only to individual headmates, but gods forbid you apply a neurological label to someone whose brain activity is not only visibly different on scans from yours, but to the extent that it changes your entire shared physical body!

Like here's a novel idea: maybe we could just stop policing how other disabled people talk about their disabilities forever! Maybe we could blame any and all harm done even from the unicorn-rarity "actual fakers/liars" (also don't think I don't see you being ableist against people with actual diagnosed that cause compulsive lying) on the ableists DOING the harm because it's actually perfectly possible for them not to cherrypick our words and listen to the MAJORITY of us!

Maybe, just maybe, we could form a coalition, focus on the REAL enemy (ableist medical professionals and lawmakers) and push for actual change for ALL of us!

#also. I have been called ableist for reclaiming the r slur in a 'so what if I AM unintelligent or otherwise socially/emotionally incapable #specifically BECAUSE it was used against me for YEARS to the point of severe trauma #specifically FOR being a socially inept 'gifted kid' #and yet I've been told telling the truth about my own experiences is 'speaking over people with intellectualdisabilities' #and that I didn't actually experience that and they were actually not insulting me becaude they were only insulting intelligence #and it's like 'a bullet with your name on it aimed at me that hits me isn't making YOU bleed' #the target of a bigoted attack is the person that gets hit by it regardless of if the bigot is wrong about their identity #because get this bigots don't actually stop and apologize if they find out they're 'wrong' about you #because the reason they're attacking you is to enforce normalcy on you and they've sensed you are abnormal #it's like hey maybe actually slur reclamation discourse is bullshit and the basis for reclamation should be 'have you been called this' #and 'listen to people with different disabilities' should never mean 'other people know your own experiences better than you' #because that's precisely the problem causing so much ableism towards neurodivergent people from physically disabled people! #'I'm more disabled and oppressed than you on the disabled hierarchy' #'and therefore I get to define your own experiences and the meaning behind them' #No! That's a fucking problem! And super ableist no matter WHAT your disabilities #'listen to other disabled people' goes both ways #you might actually have to examine your own biases and readjust your viewpoint #because newsflash the ableism you think is unique to YOUR disability? ISN'T. #boo fucking hoo you have to acknowledge other people have been hurt by the same things you have #hyper individualism is a plague. you are not special. we're all fucked under abled hegemony #and yes abled people listen to some of us more - lower support needs and intellectually nondisabled people most #but you cannot just assume based on ONE label or lack of that someone is in the 'listened to' category #ableds don't listen to me regardless of eloquence or w/e because I'm massively crippled and mad and have cognitive disabilities #like if you think I have privilege over you bc I'm 'smart' or w/e. abled people take one look at me being a crippled schizo #and write me off as completely crazy! NO ONE listens to mad people. we are in THE SAME BOAT #anyway this rant is not even at anyone or any particular group because I've noticed it coming from EVERYWHERE in the community #these are just some examples #discourse #tw suibaiting mention #tw delusional as insult mention

[runefactorynonsense]

Cozytober - Day 26 - Catnap

#Cozytober #Margot's RF Art #rune factory #rf1 #rf #This sketch was actually done back on June 6th of this year. I was knee deep in my Seattle vacation planning/stress and never finished it-- #I think I'd just found Home Run Derby tickets finally?? Or not long after that. And I was still scared to death I was making a mistake. #Silly past Margot! It was the best day of your life! #So I remember I did this sketch as just general human pose practice after someone else did the 'tree nap' pose of their OCs. #And so I grabbed it for today's prompt because!! I still liked how the anatomy turned out! #Context my brain goes with; #if I subscribe to the 'Raguna on the run from the Empire' theory then I strongly lean toward the Lynette pairing. #Safe life in Kardia- doesn't feel like the right context most of the time. Not bad. Just. Not as interesting a story. #On the run- This feels like just... a smart choice. Group up once those Empire targeting efforts escalate. #Perhaps he has to deal with the painful compromise and necessity of her lethality because he might be more likely to survive #And he WANTS to survive #AKA- if you can escape. Escape. He's good at it. But if the situation comes down to it.... Lynette can make sure who walks out. #And to reverse the pov- maybe a bit of atonement on her part? All the blood is only on her hands. She'll keep it that way. Let her do that. #He shouldn't have to. It's all her fault anyway. #Also please laugh at me as it took me half an hour to remember the word COMPROMISE. I was so mad. #Rune Factory Raguna #RF Raguna #Rune Factory Lynette #RF Lynette #another ship tag to fill #Raguna x Lynette

[swagging-back-to]

sooo i just had the thought of putting mochi and sushi in with the main colony instead of getting any more mice and adding them to the future 30 gallon colony....

#they actually hate eachother and i feel so bad for them bc they're all alone in there together and they have no one else but themselves #and then i look at the main colony and they all love each other and choose to ignore the adequately sized hides in order to all pile into #a single coconut on top of eachother #and then sushi and mochi choose to sleep on opposite ends of the tank. #idk #im gonna go to the breeder at the end of he month and see if there's any coat colorings i like and if not then I'll add those two to the #40 gallon tank #i also need to figure out where I'm gonna put jasmine when/if she finally recovers. #i was wanting to put her with the main colony bc that's her original group but i was also thinking of putting her with sushi nd mochi #but im afraid it would only further divide those two girls/they might target jasmine bc shes a stinky girl #either way jasmine will be going to one of the two groups eventually. #whether it be the main colony WITHOUT sushi and mochi or the main colony WITH sushi and mochi #im leaning more towards just getting a few more mice and putting them in the 30 gallon bc i don't want to have to try and sell the 30gal #nor do i want to have an extra wheel #the whole reason i got only two mice for a separate tank was bc i wanted to be more cuddly and lovey with them but so far neither of them #care about me even half as much as the main colony #which is weird bc most people say the bigger the colony is the less interested in you the mice will be. but IME it's been the exact opposit

[100blocks-archived]

the golden retriever/puppy coded character who needs to be protected at all costs

does anyone understand me

#this post is only targeted towards me sorry

[thepictoblr]

based off of recent events, i fucking GUESS

#ffxiv #anyway how about that dawntrail blacklist #i for one cant wait #cause its other gonna make a certain someone actually get a job or put them on watch who knows #i dont care either way i just wanna get back to roleplaying beating the shit out of my friends #fr tho the amount of comics and posts ive seen saying 'omg we can finally mute the people who mildly inconvenience us' #and 'oh wow i dont have to hear another rp venue advert again!' #its like okay cool im glad youve never had someone call you a fag boy for blocking them on one of their 70 alternative acounts #with that said. fag boy did feel very fitting that day #anyway #FOR THE RECORD IM FINE only like. some of their shit has been targeted towards me #they famously wont leave like certain people alone #i just got caught in the cross fire

[luxrayz64]

angry about saw 3d again im going to rant abt the public execution trap

so like, the public execution trap is innately sexist as all hell and tina is a caricature of a woman. the basic premise is this:

brad and ryan, two college students, are sitting opposite to each other with a spinning saw blade between them. their girlfriend tina, another college student who has been cheating on them both and manipulating them to 'do crimes' for her, is hung up on the ceiling above them, dropping down towards the blade. brad and ryan can either leave the sawblade where it is, killing tina when she drops on to it, or they can fight and kill the other, saving tina in the process.

for starters, tina is the kind of character that like. if I asked a 4chan user to describe the behaviour of women to me, they'd probably describe tina one to one. she's a conniving vixen, basking in the attention these two men are giving her and playing them both. when the game starts, she tries to play them, cheering for whoever is winning and claiming she's 'always loved him', until the other gains the upper hand at which point she switches teams, indicating her two faced, selfish nature. this is an opening trap - we are not granted any more time with these three characters. we know that she is a manipulative bitch, and that's all.

chad and bryan aren't particularly different in this regard. they're just as flat as tina is. they're both stupid frat bros easily egged on by the closest woman giving them attention. I'm going to be honest I don't remember which is which but until tina switches sides when white boy 1 overpowers white boy 2, they're both eager to save her and kill the other. white boy 1 catches onto this though, and he and white boy 2 agree that the other is not their enemy. they allow tina to drop onto blade, one of them exclaiming 'tina, I think we're breaking up with you!' right before she is gruesomely murdered in front of them.

from the character's perspective, this is justified. she was, after all, playing them both. without a doubt it is a horrible position to be in, but in the context of their relationship troubles, both white boys are innocent, more or less. neither of them knew that tina was dating the other. she was hurting them both, and didn't really care about either of them, switching teams to try and save herself without a care as to which one made it.

but it's always important to remember that someone created these characters and this situation.

tinas character is a sexist trope, a whore who plays with men for her own gratification. she's a succubus, leading innocent men down the path of evil, and this is how she is played. she is costumed so her cleavage is on display, she's been manipulating these boys into committing crimes for her (this is not elaborated on), and letting her die is framed as the correct choice. her death is a punchline, one of the frat bros dropping a one liner right before she is murdered.

she is the one who did the most wrongdoing, cheating on her partners and pushing them to crime on her behalf, but notably, it's not her test! she has absolutely no power in the situation. instead, the two men are being tested - will they continue fighting each other to save her in spite of the pain she's caused them, or will they acknowledge that they are both her victims and work together at her expense? her life is in their hands.

someone wrote a woman who is manipulating two young men, in which the two men agreeing to let her die is the correct and cathartic option. her death isn't something to be mourned, it's to be celebrated.

and look. if it were just this scene, maybe it would be fine. it would still be gross for the reasons outlined, but it wouldn't make me side eye the entire creative team behind this movie as much. but it isn't just this game.

there are 6 individual games (public execution, horsepower trap + the 4 from bobby's larger game) played in this movie. 5/6 feature a female hostage who is entirely powerless and must be saved by a man. none of them survive. this is totally ignoring the treatment of jill tuck, one of this movie's protagonists who gets not one, but two different deaths in this movie in which she is horribly murdered by another man, and both are framed as something to be excited about.

you're allowed to kill women off. you're allowed to write about toxic evil women who convince men to do bad things. but come on dude. when not a single one of the women in your movie are written with more than one personality trait, aren't allowed to be anything more than a damsel, you need to start looking inward. what the fuck did they put in the water in 2010 that made everyone working on this movie hate women this much

#one day I will make a stupid tier list ranking all the saw movies by their misogyny crimes #i dont think any of them actually pass but none of them fuck it up quite as bad as 3d does. fuck this movie for Real #no other saw movies death ratio skews all that hard towards women they usually have a pretty even mix of men and women dying #the only one that comes close is honestly probably x but it also like. treats all its female characters with respect #something that 3d notably does not even try to do #haven't seen jigsaw or spiral so idk I could be wrong. #this movie feels to me like someone in the writers room very recently had a messy divorce and is taking it out on fictional women #like it genuinely feels fucking mean spirited and targeted #even saw ivs misogyny feels more incidental like they kind of just didnt really think too hard about what they were doing #3d feels actively hostile #espeon cries #analysis

[devilfruitdyke]

i think something im never accepting is the word theyfab. no matter who you use it towards even if theyre a bad person. its like the trans version of making fun of donald trump because he has a small dick and not that hes an extreme racist with too much power

#reblogs are on FOR NOW. comments are always on tell me if im out of line here #like ive seen trans men use that @ people and not just trans women like. did you secure the special points. are you the bestest boy here #are you sticking it to those poser truscum i mean truscum i mean- #(holy shit i had to look that word up because i forgot it. could not imagine being on here in 2015) #and the last post i saw on the subject was saying that its only targeted towards transmisogynists ????? #how about we try 'cunt' and not 'n onbinary identified female led astray by trans i deology' #seriously lmk if im out of line or misunderstanding something because it seems obvious to me

[eosofspades]

alright. hot take time

as someone who both loves Cayde-6, loves Forsaken, loves the ongoing Destiny plotline(s) and the themes therein, and absolutely Does Not Expect Nor Want Cayde to come back to life, i think the way a lot of this fandom treats Cayde-6 is. uh. incredibly fucking unfair.

as a disclaimer, again: i do not want Cayde to come back to life. i know it is not going to happen. i know the ongoing story of Destiny 2 is MUCH more impactful without him here, and i plan on making an in-depth post about it later.

now. that said. please for the love of god stop dragging his character through the mud to prove your point.

"Cayde had no reason to be in TTK" "Cayde was a weak character" "Cayde is a Nathan Fillion stand in" just say you have no grasp on this character and go!! Cayde was an INCREDIBLY well-written character, with an insane amount of depth and lore and emotion hidden behind a careless, aloof mask and it's so obvious if you look at him for longer than two goddamn seconds??

Cayde wasn't a bothersome idiot, and he wasn't incompetent, and "disruptive" wasn't his main quality. he was the optimist. that was literally his role in the story. the comic relief and the optimism. the entire reason that he had to die before we got into the darker storylines like Shadowkeep/Beyond Light/Witch Queen etc. is because, by the nature of being the optimist, he wouldn't fit into the darker narrative that Destiny 2 was about to steer into.

just. say that you don't like him and go. you don't have to like him. stop SAYING that you like him and then dragging his character through the dirt. he has an incredibly interesting story (and backstory) and boiling him down to nothing more than a disruptive asshole is a huge disservice to his character and to Bungie, who made a point of giving him a well-developed backstory, motivation, goals, lore, and a spectacular DLC that they clearly put a lot of time and care into!

(not to mention that whenever anyone tries to point out flaws in Zavala or Ikora to talk about Cayde, at least 2 dozen people will go up in arms about how disrespectful it is to put down another character to talk about the one you like, then will turn around and say Cayde had no narrative purpose or impact when they're trying to garner sympathy for Eris or defend Uldren.)

#i am so angry about this actually. stop dragging a well written character just because you dont like some of their fans #also i can guarantee you if i said ANYTHING about how much i hate mara sov without even MENTIONING her writing #(which is really good!! she's really well developed!! she's also an abusive and manipulative nightmare!!!) #i would have at least six people LEAP at my throat with claws outstretched to tell me i'm being sexist and she's got good WRITING #i don't know how to tell you this but hating a character's personality does not make you bigoted toward that character #also liking a character more than others does not make you bigoted towards the others #<- this is specifically targeted toward people who say that cayde is only popular because he's white-coded (which isn't even true????) #clovis bray is white-coded. cayde is literally just the optimistic comic relief he's not supposed to be societal commentary #at most he is PERHAPS commentary on masculinity/grief/unhealthy coping mechanisms #race has nothing to do with it. i say this as a poc please stop please let us enjoy things i'm begging #destiny 2 #cayde 6 #discourse #mine #analysis #i am going to have so many people at my throat for this post lets go #eos destiny essays

[snekdood]

Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma

#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here #and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me #of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu #yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my #perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not #like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now. #man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me #bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever? #like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin #outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a #apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like #its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl #that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe #transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up #ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces #so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy #ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further #by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview #falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart. #if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer #and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal #relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you #did after the fact. #if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS #besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing. #i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want #idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n #listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.

[silverislander]

i'm in the process of watching a bunch of american zombie movies to prep for my honours essay next semester (i'm gonna talk abt them in the context of generational fears!! i'm really excited) and just. man. all the pre-night of the living dead are pretty explicitly racist in some really insidious ways and too many of the post-living dead ones are too

#its sad honestly. i knew that going in ofc but it still makes me kind of sad #like i just finished king of the zombies from 1941. it was okay? definitely different from what im used to i dont watch lots of old films #but its so racist oh my god. every black character is a servant. almost every zombie is black and its notable when theyre not #the only white ones are a woman and an irish man and an austrian man controls the zombies. its not fucking subtle #it makes its xenophobia extremely clear #mantan moreland plays one of the main characters and hes so funny but i feel awful that his character is made into a joke! #its been a wild ride so far #levi.txt #im excited to get to romero bc ive actually never seen a romero movie!! also it means ill start to move away from vodou zombies #and towards the kind of plague zombies im more used to #those have. an entirely different also very questionable connotation :) #im particularly interested in the idea of zombies as acceptable targets. i think thatll be interesting once i reach the 80s or so

[gojoest]

apologies to whoever witnessed what i said earlier and felt uncomfortable

#— ai rambles #i can be petty sometimes and if i ever subpost it only means i took notice of a certain behavior #targeted towards me that upsets me #anyway

[deityofhearts]

one thing I hate about using multiple pronouns is that some people will decide to default to only one set and nothing else to a point where you’re uncomfortable

#deity dialogue #this is very targeted towards my ex who would use he/him and masculine words for me exclusively #even though the primary set or pronouns I use is they/them and I like using both #like I like both he/him and they/them pronouns but he used only he/him pronouns for me and would introduce me as his boyfriend only and just #hated that didn’t like that

[hippie-self-shippie]

guys i think i have a new crush but i can’t say who she is it’s too embarrassing…

#she’s not a horrible person or from an irredeemable source or anything like that it’s just that her source material is a bit strange #in the sense that it’s a kids show from korea targeted towards little kids #and probably the only people who’ve ever watched the show is me and my baby sister #ermmmm so yeah #patches’ prattle 🧸 #patches’ crushes 🫣

[lazarus---rising]

I HATE IT HERE

#spot kinnie moment #SORRY guy whos only seen atsv etcetc #this was a TARGETED ATTACK TOWARDS ME [/SILLY]

[the-acid-pear]

I have yet to keep inspecting the sweepstakes, I need some air and food first, but I might as well share what I've been thinking about Mike today, because I heard of an interpretation saying Mike was a camera man for Spamton which ... Is very interesting. Like for me this makes me think of Mike as someone who admired Spamton, someone way smaller than him, definitely younger imo, who simply excitedly followed along with the orders given. I mean, up to a certain point. I mean this feeling is reinforced in the q&a when asked about Mike, that makes Spamton get very defensive, almost protective. In my eyes it almost creates this almost platonic familiar bond dynamic whatever. But like this is just a shot in the dark, bc what we know is, 3 lines, period. But if when chapter 3, 4 and 5 come out and Mike is there and I'm right about these things then I'm gonna feel like a god tbh.

#luly talks #not gonna put this one on main tag bc its a bit too vague and speculative and shit but im leaving rbs on in case some1 is like hm ur into #something here nemo im which case i will wag my tail and bat my eyelashes #but am i making sense anyway? #like just to make sure: my idea of mike is a camera man younger and smaller than Spamton who admired the guy #and spamton out of idk fondness bc he reminded him of his old self kinda took the guy under his wing in a way #that's why he's so protective and shit #although unrelated to this bc just. putting that there and NOT touching it but it's interesting what Spammy says right after name dropping #mike if you believe in the cameraman interpretation (which i saw in a video i then stopped watching bc i wanted to explore that shit myself) #bc he right after says to not believe anything you see on tv but this could easily imply mike did do his part but the editing team changed #shit. but its just very curious what involvement Mike could've had because. why would he be as targeted as he appears to be? #and what caused him to also abandone spamton? is mike even fucking alive? judging by Spammy's q&a dialogue you'd assume he is #but i mean that's official but not canon right so it's a bit hard to judge? #but Mike seems to be the only one he isn't really resentful towards for leaving him almost implying it wasn't Mike's choice? #i just can't wait to see more of this bc it's gonna reveal a whole side to this little puppet previously unknown #in fact i think that after breathing some air im gonna go look at the snowgrave neo fight flavor text and cry and piss and etc #I'm still not over spamton begs the audience to stop taking the furniture i can see the poor guy being evicted as he tries to plead not to #so vividly wugh. my poor little guy of questionable morals . . . 😢 #also don't get me started on the commemorative ring man what on earth is going on there.........