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Save Me: Chapter 32 - Forgive or Forget?

~Hey guys! Chapter 31 is out now :) Molly decides to return to Alexandria in the hope that both Alexandria and Negan have changed for the better... I hope everyone is good and enjoying Save Me so far <3~

After two years since Molly had arrived at Hilltop, it was time to ask for forgiveness from others and also from herself. She had beaten herself up so much for her relationship with Negan that it was changing her, but she just had to realise that she's only human and people make 'mistakes'. But...was Negan a mistake?

I could tell that Tara didn't believe me when I swore to her that I didn't love him anymore.

I don't think I believed me either.

But it wasn't about me anymore or him, it was about Maggie.

She needed to know that Glenn had justice and Negan's happiness could never happen, which meant neither could mine.

Maggie and I had talked since Negan was locked up but she hadn't forgiven me, and I needed her forgiveness now more than ever.

I had planned to return to Alexandria soon and I needed to know she trusted me before I left.

I wouldn't see Negan at all when I came home and I needed Maggie to believe me.

'Hey, Maggie can we talk?' I said as I saw her walking out of the house.

She smiled at me and replied, 'yeah of course, the crops are looking great!' as she shielded her eyes from the sun.

I smiled and chuckled lightly.

'Yeah, well that's thanks to your great leadership! Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I'll be going back to Alexandria tomorrow', I said.

Her smile faded slowly now.

'Promise you'll come back one day, I have a question to ask you when you do' she said mysteriously.

She nodded looking down and added 'I'll miss you, so will Herschel. Be careful'.

I pulled her in for a hug and said 'don't worry, I'll be fine'.

'It's not you i'm worried about...' she said warningly.

'I won't go near him, I promise' I said as I started to walk away.

She sighed sadly and not being able to hold it in any longer.

I spun back around and asked softly 'do you hate me for what happened with-'.

'I could never hate you, you're my sister, my family. I want him dead, you know that. But, between us, there's nothing to forgive' she said smiling weakly.

I just nodded, feeling a weight lifted off my shoulders.

'I'll see you soon' I said as I waved back at her and little Herschel who came running out of the house to say goodbye.

I was sad to leave, a wave of anxiety flooded my body as I imagined being back at Alexandria.

Tara was gonna stay at Hilltop, she was helping Jesus and Maggie lead and she was practically made for that sort of thing.

It ran in our family.

I said my goodbyes to everyone, including Tara and told her to be careful and tell Cindy how she felt.

'Do what you have to do, but remember who he is and who he's always been' Tara whispered in my ear as she hugged me.

She practically predicted my thoughts, before I had even acknowledged them myself.

I nodded into the crook of her neck and wiped her tears.

As I walked to the gates, where Tara had brought my motorcycle round, I turned back to her and held my locket in my hands as she did the same.

It gave me a sense of comfort to have her with me.

I hadn't opened it since I was at Alexandria.

I swung my legs over the bike and strapped on my helmet and leather jacket.

I opened the locket to reveal Tara and Negan in my heart.

I looked at his face, then shut it quickly trying to block him from my mind.

I started up the engine and then I was gone.

It only took a few hours to get there as I took the bridge route.

I zoomed straight across the wooden planks, it was looking good.

There were some workers on the bridge, I swerved around them as they shouted 'Molly!' in glee.

I raised my hand to say 'hi' as I passed them all.

Unfortunately, after the bridge there were walkers blocking the road, only four or five of them but I couldn't just jump them or mow them down.

I approached them, accelerating and pulled out my gun and shot each one, there was one left when I passed them.

I took one hand off the handle and twisted around and popped a bullet in the last one.

I chuckled at my badassery.

I was excited to surprise everyone so I didn't tell Rick or Michonne when I was coming home.

I pulled up at the gates to see Eugene, 'Molly!' he yelled as they pulled open the gates and I drove through.

Rosita and Michonne rushed over to me as I hopped off the bike.

They grinned and pulled me in for a hug, 'We've missed you' Michonne said as she rubbed my back.

Judith ran closely behind, she was walking now.

I gasped and placed a hand to my mouth, 'Judith?' I said looking at her then at Michonne.

Michonne lifted her up and kissed her on her forehead as I tickled her.

'She's missed her Auntie Molly' Michonne said as Judith giggled away.

Rick came round the corner and smiled as he saw us all laughing together.

'Hey Rick' I said as I hugged him.

'You didn't say you were coming home?' he said smiling.

'I know, I wanted to surprise y'all. Alexandria looks perfect!' I said to Rick as I spun around, admiring every inch of the compound.

It was like before, but better.

The windmill was constructed and the houses were rebuilt.

Rick nodded, agreeing as he said 'yeah'.

He held my hand as I said sincerely, 'Carl would be so proud'.

I could tell how much that meant to him, all of this was, after all, for Carl.

Negan's POV//

I was just having a nap as my eyes fell heavy when I heard the commotion outside.

A loud engine, sounding like a motorbike pulled up and people were running to the gates and screaming happily.

I stretched and walked over to the window to see Rick, Michonne and Rosita all smiling at someone.

I couldn't see who, but my heart pounded out of my chest when the realisation it.

She was home, she was near me again.

None of them told me whether she was okay, so I hadn't had any news of her for two years.

I sighed a long sigh when I felt a weight lift from my shoulders, she was safe.

Michonne had asked me to leave her be, let her move on and I had to make her hate me to do that.

It was better for her to hate me and to be safe than to love me and die.

Then I saw her.

She walked with Rick, hand in hand, as he showed her around the new builds.

Why the fuck were they holding hands?!

I gripped the bars and glared at them.

She looked happy, the sunlight lit up her face as a breeze made her hair dance in the wind.

God she was fucking beautiful.

She never looked my way.

My eyes smiled as I saw her smile but that quickly disappeared when I thought she might have forgotten about me.

I had spent two years thinking over every single fucking thing that I did.

It was exhausting.

But mostly I forced myself to remember what I did to Molly and what I put her through back then, if only she could see that I'd changed.

Losing the love of my life, my home, my people, it made me realise that all of that shit was on me.

If you don't protect what you love, sooner or later someone will take it from you.

I thought about the Sanctuary, how run down it must be now and probably full of walkers and shit.

I thought about my lovely Lucille which Michonne took from me when I was brought here.

Most of all, when I lost Molly it felt like I had died inside.

Like my first wife, Lucille, I hurt her and screwed around on her and now I had done the same to Molly.

I never thought that I could feel like that again but then in came Molly Chambler, bulldozing her way into my life and my mind.

She was the only one who knew me for me and actually loved me regardless and I fucked shit up.

After two years, enough was enough. I couldn't take it anymore.

I had to see her and I would do whatever it took to make that happen, even if it was just to apologise to her, I just wanted to hear her voice.

I knew it was selfish, but fuck it, I know I'm not the good guy and I'm fine with that.

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takeiteasypeasybaby · 4 years

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Save Me: Chapter 30 - Resolution

~Hey guys! Chapter 30 is out now :) Molly takes a break from Alexandria in order to become a better person and live her life free from Negan’s hold...I hope y’all are having a good week <3 I can’t believe i’ve published thirty chapters of Save Me!! I couldn't have done this without all of your support, love you all <3~

There was change in the air at Alexandria, but for Molly things would only feel different once she began a new life, far away from Negan.

Negan's POV//

I had stayed in the Doc's office for about a week until the cell was made, then I was transported there.

It must have been an old basement because I only had a small window to look out of and when you did, you were at grass level.

I couldn't see Molly's house, the pricks made sure of that.

Two weeks passed and she never came, I doubted she ever would, I just hoped she was safe.

All I did from morning till night was sit there on my bed which had a thin mattress or look out of the window and listen in on people's conversations.

I hated not doing anything or talking to anyone, it was driving me crazy.

But that was the point I guessed, they wanted to break me like I had tried to do to them.

One morning the door swung open and Rick came to stand in front of the bars, he wanted to have a chat.

We had those weekly.

'It was a hard day. Hardest we've had in a while. A man lost his arm and the project is behind schedule' he said as he pulled up a chair to sit down.

I sat in the darkness and watched him.

'People were at each other's throats. Thing is though, as bad as it was, when the day was done they came together' he said confidently.

He meant my Saviours and his people.

'Not all of them, but enough' he continued.

At least some were still loyal to me. They were waiting for me to rise again, which I would.

'They chose to be together, you see what I'm getting at? No matter what happens, it's human nature to come together. That's just what we do' Rick said sternly.

I just smiled in disbelief.

'That's a real pretty picture you paint there Rick. When do I get to see it?' I asked hoarsely.

'Never. You can die behind these bars, you know that' he said slowly.

I scoffed and said 'well then, don't I get some final request? Why don't you bring Molly to me?'.

'Don't you get tired of acting like you're still in charge?!' Rick asked chuckling to himself.

I scowled when I knew he would never let me see her.

'Do you?' I asked provokingly.

'You think that just because they all had a little wienie roast that you got all this on lock? When it finally goes to shit and it will, make sure you come back and you tell me all about that day too' I spat at him.

'We're thriving without you, Molly is thriving without you. We're building a future just like I said we would' he said now standing up and coming close to the bars.

I had gotten under his skin, but unlike before, he knew he was getting under mine by mentioning Molly.

'Building it for who? For Carl?' I retorted teasingly.

'You don't speak his name' he growled.

'Your family's gone Rick. Same as mine. That bridge you're buildin, it's not the future. It's a monument to the dead' I said as I stood slowly and walked towards the bars.

'You're not saving the world Rick, you're just getting it ready for me' I added, smiling at him.

He was terrified when I said that, he was doubting himself already.

Soon he would fall and I would be leader again, then I could get Molly back.

I smiled at the thought as Rick walked away.

Molly's POV//

It was beautiful.

Tara was coming home soon and then I would have to give her my answer but looking around, I saw people connecting and working together.

Building work in Alexandria had started as the clean up was finished.

I saw Rick's plans, they were perfect. It was gonna be a goddamn paradise.

Just what Carl had envisioned, fields of crops and vegetables, a church, windmill, hydroelectricity from the lake.

We were finally bringing civilisation back.

Many Saviours like Laura and Diane were on board, joking and laughing with the others.

It was nice to see people setting aside their differences, trust was still along way off but now at least we had a common goal.

I oversaw the crop plantation and food supply.

I had experience of that stuff and the Saviours working for me liked that I was once one of them, or so they thought.

Sometimes it felt like I was the one bridging the gap, whenever a Saviour had an issue they would come to me because I knew them on a personal level.

They understood that I wasn't Negan and never would be, but I guess I gave them comfort during this period of fragile change.

I loved it here, it felt good to have a leadership role again, like I'd had at the Sanctuary but without the darkness and brutality.

Some days I completely forgot that Negan was here, especially when I was busy.

It was only when things seemed to slow down or stop that I felt him nearby.

It was like he was watching me, from that tiny window.

I never looked in that direction but I felt it.

That was why I needed to leave, even for just a while.

I needed to break that bond because it still felt like we were tied to one another with string and it would only snap if one of us made it so.

I had decided.

I marched with determination to the cell where he was, fully knowing that I wasn't ready but emotion got the better of me and I needed to know.

I made sure to sneak past the guards during their shift change and I pulled open the door and walked inside.

I had never seen the cell before but it looked like hell.

It was dark and stifling with very little breeze.

I hadn't seen Negan since the throat slash and I knew it would be almost impossible to talk to him but there would be no conversation, just one question.

I stood strong with a confident stance as I strode towards the bars, seeing his shadow grow larger as he came closer, when finally he was illuminated by a streak of light from the window.

I physically restrained myself from audibly gasping at seeing his face, instead we just stared into each others eyes.

He spoke first, like he always did.

'Rick told me that you're doing well. I'm glad' he said almost smiling.

I cut straight through this.

'Cut the crap. You're gonna answer one question then we're done, is that clear?' I said sternly as I folded my arms.

He just stared at me, with more hurt in his eyes than before.

'After everything you owe me at least that...' I said, trying to prevent my voice from cracking through the pain.

He now knew exactly what was running through my mind, he knew my question and it's answer.

'Ask me' he whispered as he looked down to the ground and placed his hands in his pockets.

I exhaled, my eyes started to well up and I bit my lip to stop from trembling.

'Was any of it real or were you just using me to get to Rick?' I asked hesitantly.

He paused for a moment, his face freezing, leaving just his eyes tracing parts of the concrete floor.

He inhaled, gathering his composure and looked straight into my eyes and said calmly, 'no...you we're just a means to an end. I need you to fall in love with me so I could use you as leverage'.

My eyes didn't stray from his as he spoke these words to me, I was paralysed with heartache as I felt my tears cease rising.

I nodded as I moved closer to the bars and replied coldly, 'thank you'.

I turned on my heels and darted for the door, he didn't try to stop me.

I swung the door open so that it hit against the wall and stormed out.

It was only once I was out of the cell and I walked back up the stairs that I let myself feel.

All my emotions came flooding in at once, overwhelming me.

I struggled to breathe as I gasped through screams of tears.

Of course some looked at me as I stormed to my house, with one hand covering my mouth and the other placed on my stomach to control my breathing, I didn't care.

I just needed to get away from him.

He never loved me. He never loved me. He never loved me.

Negan's POV//

'Fuck!' I whispered as I gripped the bars and pressed my forehead against them in frustration.

I had to let her go, she needed to live without me.

She hated me and I loved her more than ever.

She looked so beautiful, she was glowing.

If there was any time where she would be the light in my life, it was now.

I needed her more than ever but she was no longer in my reach.

I sat back down onto my bed and held my head in my hands.

The door swung violently open as Michonne walked in.

'Well look who it is' I said sarcastically.

'What did you say to her?' she said sternly as she folded her arms.

I sighed, saying 'ah you see, that's none of your concern'.

She moved closer to the bars.

'Molly's well-being is my concern. You need to let her go, she can't be happy if you're around' she said.

'I agree, that's what i'm trying to do. But quit bullshitting me, you're not gonna kill me' I said smirking.

'You're right i'm not, even though Molly would be better off. But, she would never forgive me, so for now, you live' she said smiling sarcastically as she was about to walk out the door.

She turned around slowly and said, 'If you care about her at all, leave her be'.

'That's why I'm doing this Michonne, I want her to be happy. But, she'll have to hear what I have to say eventually' I replied as she walked away.

I heard her stop before she walked outside, she must have been contemplating what I told her.

Molly's POV//

As soon as I got to my house, I ran upstairs and curled into a ball on my bedroom floor and just sobbed for hours.

Everything that I had risked, that I had lost for that man.

I hated him, but never more so than I hated myself.

At least when I thought that he loved me, there was a purpose but now there was nothing.

Nothing left here for me anymore. I had decided.

I waited at the gates for Tara to return.

All day I thought about my decision and whether it was right, but I knew in my heart that I had to.

All of sudden, from my binoculars I saw Tara approaching, followed by a large group of women.

I smiled when I saw her, they must have been from Oceanside.

'Open the gates!' I shouted down to Daryl who nodded and slid them open.

In came Tara and I climbed down the steps and pulled her in for a hug.

'God I've missed you!' I said chuckling as we embraced.

The women all came inside the compound and stood around admiring the place.

'Molly, I'd like you to meet the people of Oceanside. They've agreed to help us' Tara said as she ushered to the women.

Suddenly a young woman emerged from the group and marched towards me and Tara.

'Hi, I'm Cindy, the leader' she said as we shook hands.

'Thank you so much for being a part of this' I said as we smiled at each other.

Tara whispered to me that she was a nice person.

Tara kept her eyes firmly on Cindy's so I knew something was going on between them.

'Please, follow me. I would like to introduce you all to our leader, Rick Grimes' I said as I pointed over to Rick.

Rick was about to leave for the bridge repairs (the bridge was vital for connecting Hilltop to Alexandria for a faster route).

They followed me and Tara over to Rick.

Cindy looked at me, puzzled and said 'I thought you were the leader?'.

I chuckled, saying 'oh, no. I never could be'.

She just said 'hm' while she frowned in disappointment.

Rick had shown them around Alexandria, the plans for the future of the place, the function of uniting the communities and how Oceanside would contribute and also gain from this.

They were in agreement and seemed excited about the prospect of greater security and prospects.

They had promised to stay and help build the bridge but would return to Oceanside afterwards.

Many were opposed to working with the Saviours after what they did to their brothers and husbands but tried their best to all come together.

Meanwhile, I pulled Tara to one side and told her my decision.

'I've made up my mind' I said smiling at her.

'So...' she said slowly.

'I'm going to Hilltop for a couple years. I'll help with their agricultural development and then I'll come back to Alexandria' I said as she squealed and pulled me in to a tight squeeze.

'Okay, okay, cutting off my circulation now' I said breathlessly.

She just chuckled and said 'it's best, I hope you know that'.

I just nodded and smiled.

'But are you sure you wanna go today and leave Cindy all alone?' I said teasingly as we walked to the gates.

She stopped me with a hand on my arm and said 'what d'ya mean?'.

'Oh cut the crap, I see everything that goes on, alright. Especially with you. You like her!' I said smiling smugly.

She sighed and chuckled, saying 'yeah, okay fine...she said she'll come to Hilltop to see me!'.

'Ooooo' I said mockingly.

'Shut up' she said with faux annoyance and pushed my arm.

'You got everything?' she said as she climbed into the car.

I looked behind me one last time, mainly at the cell.

'Yeah, yeah there's nothing I've left' I said slowly and sadly.

I climbed into the front seat and then we were off.

'See ya in a couple years Alexandria!' Tara said enthusiastically as we put on our shades.

I wore my old black ray bans and Tara wearing her ridiculous orange ones and pulled away from the gates.

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