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that-was-anticlimactic · 2 months

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just accidentally spilled an entire water bottle on my bed :)

took my sheets off and put a towel over it. then looked up what to do just in case and. like everything said "use a fan" and "mold could happen so be careful" and now i am Terrified of getting mold since so much spilled and since i don't have any fans. i am so tired oh my god i just want to go to bed

#like genuinely terrified of it molding now #so that's great :)#i just wanna go to bed but i feel like i have to tend to my mattress #but i won't be able to work well tomorrow if i stay up super late tending to a mattress i can't even sleep on tonight #ugh sorry the thought of having to buy a new mattress bc of mold Terrifies me #i am a teacher universe like i save a lot but i do not make a lot of money :)#anyways sorry for rambling it's been one of those nights #i was actually having a pretty good day until then #i was getting settled in for the night... put my water bottle down on my bed while i went to piss #and then i was going to get in it and lie down after a long day of work #aND IT FELL AND SPILLED #like yeah that's on me for being stupid but i like keeping water in my room!!! that one hadn't spilled before so i thought i'd be fine for #the few minutes i'd be gone but nooooooo #okay i'm done now sorry #super tired and super paranoid #and my mom said to put my mattress pad over the shower like bestie i live in an apt you think i'm putting my WHITE mattress pad on the rod?#absolutely not i know that's pathetic of me but idc i DON'T do stains not at all nope nope nope #okay done now for real sorry #just freaked :)#corey talks:)

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chradi · 2 months

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I've been so weird about friendships for the past year-ish waaagghh

#overly paranoid would be the word and like. no object permanence. but in a worse way than before #Im kinda like 'I havent talked to this person in....2 months. therefore they probably dont want to talk to me anymore?????#and then we hang out and its fun and they do stuff that clearly proves they like having me around and I get reassured #and then 2 months later im like 'HMMM but NOW theyre definitely tired of me'#ITS SO DUMB #AND I KNOW ITS DUMB #and its made it super hard for me to initiate convos with people I havent talked to in a while. worsening it.#and I dont think I used to have that problem #id go hermit mode for 6 months. come back. friends would be cool with it (as far as i could tell) and just go from there #jen rambles #more like jen whines #its like ive become overly aware of how people treat me/ could potentially treat me if I 'fuck up' hrmm

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devotional-luv · 1 year

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im so scared he doesnt love me anymore....i would rather die than have that be true

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eldrichfuck666 · 9 months

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Blocking the tag entomology and some other insect-related tags is the best thing I've ever done. :') I just wish people considered that a tw for insects is needed, but oh well... It's so rare to see something being tagged that can indeed cause a lot for entomophobic person. Or at least cw or something? It'll so much helpful

#nonsims #delete later #olya's rambles #PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME BUT #entomologysts and insect-sympathetic or whatever people sound like cultists in some way #the way they talk about those... creatures #lmao #“THERE'S A DECLINE IN INSECTS” okay well I'm glad there is why you're so upset #I'm just so tired of seeing untagged bug pictures...#I can't get the imagine for a solid five minutes out of my head #and when I see an insect on dash (untagged) I just- I feel like I'm going to cry every single time #yeah I have a lot of problems with these fuckers can I please be myself and express this? because I'm a human too #I just can't get the idea of an insect out of my head for a long time #it's triggering me so much and I'm becoming super paranoid about it because I start to check every place in my apartment to make sure #and thinking about them being there being in my body you know this stuff okay

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dorkousloris · 1 year

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kinda miss drawing OG anita :/

#theres like three verses of anita- one is that from where they originally from- the other two are the ones i want to invest in working on #which is oc!anita btw #dorkous ramblings #and im excluding the amount of AUs i have put anita through MDSGMSDMG #anyway my body just. urgh at the thought not able to create these stuff again. but I MISS THEM #I MISS DRAWING ANGRY SUPER SUS AND TIRED AS FUCK ANITA #yes i have huskless anita but the difference is that huskless anita is just a sad wet mouse. thats it. while #og anita is more sadder VERY tired and very paranoid and pissed off. i want That bitch back

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arklay · 2 years

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[insert that suplex meme i can't find] my disorders @ me today

#suffering today lads ✌🏼#want to just curl up in a ball and sleep forever #wanted to write today. nope. wanted to play games. nope. wanted to compile lore. nope. wanted to organise folders. nope. wanted to lichrall #just sit without pain. nope. wanted to talk to friends. nope.#and while i'm here... my brain is having a moment also like idk what's going on but i am having an everyone hates me kinda day and also #super paranoid that just like everyone is talking about me behind my back and like idk what's up but i am so tired like make it stop #have lost track of how many times i've cried today lmao #leah.txt

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unladielike · 1 year

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There are honestly times where I would question if Vivian is even an interesting OC to interact with, because while she is an eccentric girl, she’s also very much a character more so geared towards slice-of-life interactions, and due to this being the case, I manly prefer writing her in her modern verse.

Of course, I do happen to have other verses for her, but people oftentimes don’t really request them ( /stares at the one time a DND multi followed me but didn’t even request her Granblue Fantasy verse ), so by natural default, I end up using my modern verse anyways... regardless, I get the sense that because she’s such a normal human being, people aren’t as drawn to her as they are to other muses? Because with her, there’s no conflict, action, or drama that might happen with supernatural or non-human muses, and if there does happen to be conflict or drama, it would be more so the realistic kind revolving around her hypersexuality or how she might be at odds with someone as an autistic individual with rejection sensitivity.

To top it all off, Vivian is also kind, so she won’t be mean to other muses without an actual good reason... so whenever I see memes with confrontational/argumentative prompts, I inwardly sweat, due to the fact she is mostly a very agreeable person who would rather chat with someone over coffee than intentionally cause conflict, meaning if a muse has yet to make her mad, she won’t really do anything to provoke them.

Like, unless they happen to be a jerk or has a personality she deems boring, Vivian would more or less be nice (at least until they get pissed off by her sense of humor/blatant disdain towards ‘normies’)... and even then, I get the sense that maybe her kindness comes off as boring to other muns, which really puts a whole damper on my mood, because I don’t want to change Vivian to be more palatable for the RPC.

#vent tw #rant tw #negativity tw #⸾ ❖�� ⸾ ( OUT OF ) ⤹ •• 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟.#[ ofc i acknowledge vivian wouldn't be EVERYONE'S cup of tea ]#[ and the fact people are slow might just have to do with the fact everyone is busier at this time of year ]#[ but i notice how abysmal the amount of engagement i've been receiving has been lately ]#[ that OFTENTIMES it feels like i'm screaming into the void whenever i talk about vivian ]#[ at the same time though i do acknowledge it could be due to the fact i rarely express interest in other peoples muses ]#[ but it's hard when you're autistic and the only thing you constantly have spoons for when you get back home from work ]#[ is to talk only about/focus only on your own oc ]#[ due to the fact it happens to be what you're MOST hyperfixated on ]#[ liKE... as much i would wanna interact with more peeps ]#[ the things i wanna write are very self-indulgent ]#[ and my ooc attachment to muses is really dependent on how much vivian actually interacts with them ]#[ SO I'M PARANOID OVER HOW I'M PROBABLY THAT (1) MUTUAL EVERYONE IS SECRETLY TIRED OF ]#[ BUT KEEPS AROUND ANYWAYS BECAUSE THEY DON'T WANT HURT MY FEELINGS BY BREAKING MUTUALS WITH ME ]#[ and so i'm in that weird limbo of having super high muse for vivian but also feeling undervalued/invisible in the rpc ]#[ AS IF NOTHING I DO WOULD PROBABLY MATTER ]#[ tldr though?? writing a female oc is hard and it could be just my imagination ]#[ but everyday it feels like people are losing interest in vivian and i don't know how to rectify that ;; ]

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ollys-useless-rambles · 16 days

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ah.

#my little mood jar widget thing is all purple and blue today i hate it #today was so bad #i got my grades up though #it was super last minute but like still I’m passing everything now #i even have a couple As this time #im so tired though #today was so messy #and then i like. cried way too much earlier #and then i felt bad and cried more #and now my head hurts and i can’t find the ibuprofen #i. might just take melatonin and call it a day after I finish my chem homework #might end up a little paranoid for a sec but that’s okay

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hrrycore · 8 months

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now how did i manage to fuck this up within only a month

#this is about ket guy #we were like partying from friday to sunday but i was kind of a having a bad trip sunday night #and was rly anxious but then another friend called me who was having a panic attack #so i had to go to her while i was out of my mind as well 😭😭#and after that i went to a house party where ket guy was but like the vibes were super weird when i arrived #like first of all it was all guys 😭😭😭😭#and everything got quiet and then they started to make like some inside jokes idk but i feel like they were talking shit about me before #and like this all happened while inwas still high and anxious lmaooo #and then he went on to the rave and i wnet home and idk my last text messages to him were kinda rude but by accident :( i was just tired #and sad bc he keeps giving mixed signals #but whatever maybe i‘ll see him again this weekend and see how he reacts #hoepfully im just paranoid and hes gonna text me theoughout the week 😔🙏🏻🙏🏻

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under--pluto · 9 months

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I love that laundry is a self timer for doing other household chores, like I put the laundry on and I'm still in go mode so instead of sitting for an hour while it washes I cleaned the whole bathroom 😎

#very cool of me #we've an inspection on Friday and my mother raised me to be super paranoid about inspections #so I clean like an animal #woo #words.png #im so tired

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xecat · 10 months

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oh boy i hope this movie is at least kinda good cos ive heard mixedf stuff about it but ive put it off for this long .

#ok seems like its very good to watch straight after the first one #so far it obviously looks better but i like the charm the graphics of the first one has..#oh hey its the tired lesbian #scared abt the camera situation..... hmm..#but maybe its just cos im super paranoid abt cameras everywhere irl LOL #i will say the background characters look way better but again they look more generic/not as iconic lol #even if iconic was kinda ugly #this baby even more op than before whadda fuck..#the lesbian is the badguy isnt she. i think i heard abt this before when it came out but yea

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jhessail · 1 year

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So I'm under a certain amount of stress and I dunno, if anybody's reading this, please, PLEASE for the love of everything good in life, PUT EMPATHY IN YOUR RAGE.

Fucking communicate to people.

Don't blow up at the other person just because they've been doing things that piss you off. Chances are they don't even KNOW they've been upsetting you.

Please, and I beg this as a thing for someone who wants to break down, scream, cry, and beat the shit out of everything, please get the whole story, or as much as possible before making conclusions and decisions that change everything in your life.

I'm so tired.

#Real life drama #I know some of this was my fault #I've apologized once I learned what I did wrong and tried so hard to get the other side to tell me their side #But no #Apparently we're past the point #And now this shit's affecting my family too #I'm so exhausted all the time #I may need to go to a psychiatrist #But FUCK #I live in OK #Finding someone that'd be a good fit for me #Me being a paranoid jackass with socialism leaning views #Seems like a super big pain in the ass #That I don't need rn #I'm tired

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ihatebiden · 1 year

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idk but somehow bouncin’ pt 2 (by tinashe) came up in my mind dbdjdjdj

ooohhh thats interesting i dont think ive heard someone refer to something about me as having rnb qualities/being rnb adjacent before thats cool

#i do like that song despite it being something i dont think i would listen to on a regular basis bc although in general i prefer slower #type songs/slower songs tend to be easier for me to relate to im like someone whos incredibly sensitive to the music i listen to #so for most situation i cant listen to slow songs bc they dont fit the mood im in #also im like super tired all the time and listening to not upbeat music would just make me like. a zombie lmao 😭😭😭#(this is all besides the point tho like im just saying this as a little fun fact)#also btw you dont have to send stuff on anon i dont mind i promise #like unless you really dont want to be associated with the ask youre sending or you dont want me to know its you like dont feel pressured #but also same everytime i send an ask on anon ill get super paranoid and constantly check that im 1. clicked the anon option and 2. am on #the right blog 💀💀💀#fuck just realized i typed ''im clicked'' fml

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strwbrymlkshake · 1 year

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I dont really have deranged, losing my mind and sense of self obsession moments any more but I still enjoy putting Silly Little Mental Illness Posts on my blog for god knows why

#mine #🎸#he is so niceys to me i dont even have to chase after him day after day or anything #or even worry about him being mad at me or leaving me. i feel like so unnervingly comfortable. my brain doesnt have any more reasons #TO be memtally ill in this regard so?!? the insane part of my brain that was on fire is now an extinguished lukewarm pool. im so confused #i still like to rb mentally ill posts and memes etc because i relate(?) to them and they help me come to terms with my insanity #in my healthy relationship arc...? ayo? i still have my problems but relationship wise im pretty chill #i kept being super paranoid he was gonna hate me for Whatever but as time has passed hes shown me he is actually. a good nice guy #i still have killing and violence moments but im like microdosing on them and they are barely extreme at all #he even comforted me through mood swings he is so awesome and cool. and i like him. and he listens to me talk about anything i want #AND HE RESPONDS IN DECENT TIMEFRAMES like he actually cares what i have to say im <3 yeah. and he says he loves me every night b4 bed #🥲 he. me when the. literally he is so. HE CARES i dont have to waste all my energy begging him to show a sliver of interest in me #he isnt embarrassed to date me he talks about me to his friends auauauaua he isnt weird or gross or inappropriate #im so sleepy tired i cannot gush about him any longer no matter how much i may want to

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privitivium · 9 days

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ok but how about a dom reader whos always busy (workaholic and shi) x an always clingy n touchy sub yan.

like. reader is never at home. and when he finally come back ends up doesn't paying that much attention to yan, sayin 'im too tired' or going to his home office. eventually being followed by yan cause omfg poor boy is basically starving for a little bit of attention. he still declines yan's pleadings tho

then one day this man shows up earlier and completely EAGER for his yan. idk what more can i say. breeding? degradation? daddy kink? dumbification? what could happen when theyre feeling so fucking needy for each other?

(also i love your writing so so much!!!!!!! <3

workaholic male reader, clingy sub yandere ^ rambles. euugh

dumbification works w either imo, reader fucking lover til hes stupid while simultaneously fucking his lover stupid?!

amab//domtop reader/subbot yandere, cw;; breeding, daddy kink, dumbification xd wanna rework this into a more ,,, eloquent fic. soon. have been busy. i really liked this idea so. will do on my own soon.

workaholic you, growing super distant… obviously making your lover paranoid. because what if you're cheating on him? you aren't, of course - he knows that, but he cant stop those kinds of thoughts from popping into his mind…!!! humping your pillow to ease himself while ur at work, watching the camera feed of you in your office… sigh…. often hearing the dreaded words accompanied by a soft simple pat on his back - not even a kiss... "sorry... please, baby, not right now. i'm too tired." he sobs himself to sleep, knowing you're only providing for him,,,, it hurts!!!

all his worries wash away when you arrive home earlier than usual! concerned, but all the more happy to see you appear in the doorway of your home… breathing ragged, looking all dark and mysterious,,,, the mere sight of you looking all deranged makes him hot and bothered. ignoring the way his dick twitches to life, uhmㅡ

"honey? why are you home so early, sweetheart?” draping himself across your front in a very affectionate hug. he couldnt help himself-! and, much to his delight you were not pushing him awayㅡand practically throwing yourself onto him?!?! hh..h.hh...

there you were,,, grasping his face in your hands, pressing your lips against his so hungrilyㅡ “i need youㅡneed you. need you.” expressing your apparent neediness over and over as you bury your face in the crook of his neck ㅡ he was startled, but so fucking eager to comply? feeling the way your boner presses against him? you were that eager for him just as he is you???,,,,, he nearly faints. tearing up with a now raging erectionㅡ “please, baby, i need you - i need you reallyㅡreally badly-” so fucking happy as he completely smothers you in his love,,,

you don't need to tell him twice,,, throwing the front door closed…,,, leading him to the bedroom, covering his face in kissesㅡeven when there was a perfectly good couch right there to make love on. he won't complain,,,, hes gotten used to the null feeling of toys...,,, so, feeling the very loving embrace of your dick filling him up overstimulates him rather.,,, quickly!!! thinking about how truly awful you are to neglect this pretty litte thing, how could you? so, so very awful.

your darling little lover sobbing on your cock… he's so beautiful - experiencing his love and affection for the first time in forever? berating yourself for being so distant,,, pouring all your frustration at yourself into his flexing taut hole,,,, “mm-misssed you… s-so mu-uch daddy-!” he doesn't seem to catch what he just moaned… too drunk on the feeling of your cock pistoning in and out of him - it feels otherwordly?!

and, i mean. going along with it. with ease, because he deserves everything. especially, anything for your darling lover who just wants affection, your love!!! laughing breathlessly as you piston your hips against his, nuzzling your nose into the side of his head - peppering his face in kisses, “daddy's right here, sweet thing - n-never leaving again, y'hear?” it was… a little odd, but fitting. afterall, you're pumping load after load - breeding him. obviously you'd be the daddy in this situation…,,,,

#“clingy touchy yandere”#x male reader #x top male reader #x dom male reader #male reader #top male reader #dom male reader #yandere x male reader #yandere male x reader #sub yandere x male reader

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boydepartment · 6 months

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hiii r u taking requests! if so can you do enhypen reaction where you call them in danger and they get super panicked

pick up- enhypen texts + scenarios

a/n: HI ANON! i am always taking requests :) i hope you like it!!!!!!

warnings- dangerous scenarios, one reader gets followed, another one burns her hand, they aren’t dark at all tho :) nothing triggering

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jungwon-

you had called jungwon a few minutes ago while walking home and you felt the presence of someone else. it was unusual for you to be walking home late from a study session and other students did too. however your intuition was raising red flags.

- “y/n are you okay? are you safe?” jungwon was panicking, you could hear it in his voice. you knew if he could he would drive over at this moment.

- “i’m okay. i just made it back to my abode. i’m just really shaken up i’m sorry for scaring you and calling you when you were working.”

- “baby please don’t ever apologize, you were scared and i’m glad you come to me for stuff like this.” you heard rustling on his end as you safely locked your door behind you. jungwon spoke up again, “i’m coming over with snacks and stuff. i’ll be there in 15.”

heeseung-

you were home alone for the first time in years and heard people yelling loudly outside. usually your friend would be home with you but they were off with their family which left you by yourself. during the day you didn’t mind but at night it was different. when you peeked out your window the people were fighting and it scared you. leading you to call heeseung.

- “i’m on my way right now. why didn’t you tell me you were home alone?” heeseung got right to the point when you answered his call.

- “i’m sorry i didn’t think that it was important and i didn’t want you to get in trouble if you came over and-“

- “i don’t care about that. are the people still outside?” heeseung was rushing you could tell.

- “no….”

- “okay i am still on the way. stay on the phone for me pretty.”

jay-

your hand was on fire, quite literally for a few seconds. and pick up the phone when jay called you back. which led him to rushing over to your home and using his key. immediately he rushed over to you and put your hand under the kitchen sink water. your burns weren’t horrible but they were pretty bad. jay swiftly picked you up and sat you down on the counter so he could wrap your hand.

- “i’m sorry i called when you were with your mom….” you mumbled into his shoulder. you were panicking and that alone made you exhausted.

- “i’m not mad at all baby i promise. is the bandage too tight?”

- you shook your head no and places small kisses on the side of his neck. you were too tired and overwhelmed to thank him. he knew and just swiftly carried you to your room.

jake-

the first mistake your made was even going to this party. it was a stupid idea and you got roped in. so when the cops showed up and you scaled a wall, breaking your nail, scraping your knees, and falling into a rose bush , you immediately called jake.

- “okay where are you right now?” jake asked, you could hear his pants, jogging to your location on the life 360. he asked you to get it so he could see how close or far you two were always.

- “i’m now sitting next to the rose bu-“

- “ah i see you!” you saw jake jog up to you and kneel, “hop on. i’ll piggy back you to my dorm and we will get you all cleaned up okay?”

sunghoon-

normally you don’t call sunghoon without asking first. it was just a thing you both did. so when you called he was immediately concerned.

- “baby can you hear me ? are you okay?” sunghoon frantically asked when you picked up.

- “i’m okay…. i just got scared because there was a loud noise in the library i’m sorry i panicked. you’re away again and i got paranoid without you.” you whispered into the phone. sunghoon tried not to softly smile, he missed you so much.

- “im here princess. talk to me tell me about your day. please.”

sunoo-

your day was terrible. the week prior you and sunoo got caught getting coffee at 4am, and your face was covered thankfully, however, engenes are still sometimes crazy so you were paranoid. when you went to get groceries today, you had a couple of them go up to you and ask about your keychain. which was in the photo. obviously you played dumb but it was still scary.

- “they asked about your keychain? why don’t you take it off now?” sunoo asked, you were putting groceries away now.

- “you got it for me when you went to italy. i don’t want to take it off it reminds me of you.” you said and reached the top shelf.

- sunoo smiled to himself, “i’ll get you a new one. i’ll get you as many as you want.”

riki-

you and riki had gone out to a themepark. no one knew except staff and the other members, you wanted a date and something nice to do since you both don’t get this a lot. the day was going great, and you both didn’t have a care in the world at the moment. at some point you both took bathroom breaks and were separated. as you waited by the men’s bathroom you decided to check your phone for the first time in hours. you saw tweets from a few seconds ago and they were of you, and riki. your eyes widened and you immediately went to a nook of the amusement park to call him. wanting to just hide away.

- “y/n where are you? you were supposed to be waiting for me outside of the bathroom? y/n what is going on?” he was looking for you frantically, if riki lost you at this park he didn’t know what he would do.

- “i’m between these two buildings and and-“ you were stuttering, you yelped when you felt someone pull you into their embrace, “please don’t hurt me!”

- riki looked down at you confused, “y/n it’s me? what happened?” you looked up at him blinking and showing your phone to him which had the screenshotted tweets.

- “fuck…”

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