#suicide mention in tags !

[tricoufamily]

jacques's, nancy's, and mrs. villareal's parents circa 1960-something + baby jacques and nancy bc they were there in cas anyway why not

this feud's been going on for approximately this long

#suicide mention in tags #god hugo looks so much like both of his maternal grandparents </3 he would have gotten along w both of them so well #they were quirky awkward middle school teachers they died in a car accident when mrs. villareal was just a baby #so i'm actually not sure she would have even met jacques if they lived and hugo wouldn't exist. but LOOK #benicio only ever met hugo he died not long after he was born #look at them they're all color coordinating then nancy's terrible terrible father ruins it #bad. idk if anyone ever bothered to do the math on that one unfinished wikipedia extra i did #but yes ~30 year age difference between them. she was 22 when she had nancy she killed herself when nancy was 11 #ts4 #ts4 cas #the sims 4 #this is the fall: extras #dominique #benicio #chester #queenie #elena #hector #jacques villareal #nancy landgraab

[cornerful]

Sméagol and the Gift

'Now!' said Sam. 'At last I can deal with you!' He leaped forward with drawn blade ready for battle. But Gollum did not spring. He fell flat upon the ground and whimpered.

'Don't kill us,' he wept. 'Don't hurt us with nassty cruel steel! Let us live, yes, live just a little longer. Lost lost! We're lost. And when Precious goes we'll die, yes, die into the dust.'

Devastated by this. Just a little longer, he begs. Even though his existence is a torment. Even though the will that holds him to life is barely his own anymore. He has long outlived his time but it's such a cruelty that now the only freedom for him is in death. I'm glad Sam didn't kill him but the whole scenario is awful.

When a mortal keeps a ring of power he does not gain more life, he continues, denied natural mortality as the fear of death is amplified and twisted into fear of separation, nothing matters anymore but the keeping, the continuing. In that miserable existence there is no peace, and at its end there is no graceful goodbye to life, there is only dust. Sudden, empty, and final.

It would take murder to spare him that. Or falling with the ring into the fire.

Bilbo let it go in time (did he feel anything when it was destroyed?) Frodo is freed of it now, though the toll it extracted for the separation was at very least a finger. It was too late for Gollum for the price to be anything other than it was, and that's brutal.

If you live long enough, death is no longer the enemy. What Sauron did to Gollum ensured that it would always be the enemy, to be feared and avoided for ever, once time and the ring had fashioned it into the only escape left. Evil.

#lotr newsletter #suicide mention in tags #haunted by the au in which gollum goes into the fire with the ring On Purpose #bc he still couldnt separate himself from it but frodo's compassion had somewhat released him from its evil #in a way an honor to frodo's quest and in a way an act of mercy to be able to give up the self-torment #which gives me shrimp feelings bc of the everything but also back to the original point that it is so tragic that death is all that awaits #bc death is natural and that was taken from him. what is the will to live in the absence of natural death? #smth deeply horrible about that #matt bugg screaming we'll be dust. so famous and rent free #lotrn325 #damn it im having more thoughts #wraiths vs gollum: discuss #the nature of the ring kept affects the nature of its possession no? those rings were made FOR thralldom #sauron has power over gollum but not That Much and his own ring is all abt the domination #what would a 2000 year old gollum even be like ._. #the wraiths are probably even more tragic bc at this point they're like...undead. even death isn't freedom #on that topic what happened to the witch-king's spirit fr #I'm pretty sure he isn't ever actually called that in the book but it's epic and gender and way snappier than lord of the nazgul #anyway shoutout to i think yambits for breaking the lore and giving them peace that was sick #where's my gollum rehab fic #i know he's a horrible little man who is constantly trying to murder my boys but i love him so #the au...gollum gaining the willpower to destroy himself because he was given trust and kindness and companionship for once. FUCKED UP. #fucked up horrible i need a minute. being shown compassion and then becoming more self-compassionate. epic #that compassion entailing seeking the freedom of death your soul was denied bc this is fantasy and somehow the exact #arc that usually leads to fighting to live is now flipped. HUH. #yeah jirt alluded to his motivation being For Frodo but i maintain that the willingness to die is HUGE there and extremely relevant #me and my red string keeping me company #ugh tag championships i win i think but at what cost #who wants to spin around miserably in a pool like franknfurter with me as we listen to gollum's song #tam you're already invited i have a floaty for u

[venacoeurva]

Updating Wren's reference document and this dude is just going to blow away in the wind at this point he's so short and light

#vena vents #not art #and he weighs even less once he loses his leg unless you're counting prosthetics #His mom is probably like 1/5 Altmer or something and he's STILL this short #Updating his timeline is satisfying to fill out but haha oh no the acknowledgement of his attempts #suicide mention in tags

[wetchickenbreast]

oh god it's really really bad forever

#my brain loves to invent new terrible emotions every day #i really want to die rn #at least if i did i wouldnt have to go to work tomorow #girl with no problems #suicide mention in tags

[idledreams-burninghearts]

Happy disability month!

Today I learned that the average life expectancy of autistic people is 36!

Part of the reason for this is that autistic people have a much higher suicide rate than non-autistic people!

So happy disability month to all autistic people! To autistic people who are officially diagnosed and to those who are self-dx! To those that are visibly autistic and to those who are high masking! To nonverbal autistics and to those who experience selective mutism and those who are hyberverbal! To those that need to live in a care facility, to those that need to live with their parents, too those that live with their partner(s), to those that are able to live on their own.

I can keep going on. We're all different but we're still all struggling. Take care of yourself!

To those who are not autistic, support your autistic friend/family member/partner

#happy disability pride month #autism #there are a lot of reasons that we have a lower life expectancy #hopefully all the links work because one of the articles mentions different reasons we die earlier #i just mentioned suicide because that's what i personally struggle with the most #first tried to kill myself at 10 years old #i haven't tried in a long time though #because i know if i do i will go all the way through with it #i can't die before my dog #suicide mention #suicide mention in tags

[ttrpgsmoved]

no you have no idea how much this means to me you have NO IDEA

#nullsense #suicide mention in tags #NOOO THE WAY A FRIEND HAS TALKED GALE OUT OF SUICIDE LIKE IVE BEEN IN HISPOSITION BEFORE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW UGH... #sorry im so in my feelings right now jesus christ

[elfgremlin]

im going to end up homeless

#txt #5 months of actively applying to over 300 applications and only getting one interview where i got rejected at the end #and i lose my job the 21st #i should just kms #suicide mention in tags #sure was nice being able to buy groceries every week instead of once a month #ill never find a job making what i make now #have to go back to once a month groceries and praying debt collectors wont sue me and garnish my wages

[beepathan]

who the fuck designed these new arb cards

#beeps #suicide mention in tags #IM GOIBBG TO KILL MYSELF /POS /NEG /SCREAMING

[toothzome]

was gonna make a joke post a thing analog horror until i realized the mandela catalouge existed

#the thing 1982 #txt #the thing movie #the thing john carpenter #john carpetner's the thing #this isnt even to reccomend the series i barely remember what happened #but its main gimmick--that there are different versions of yourself that wanna kill you and are kinda like demons--would be REAL scary #in a remote setting like the thing #and while its obvious that someones an alternate there's pretty much no way to defeat them as they induce so much negative thought into the #real version that the real person commits suicide #suicide mention in tags #overall scary stuff i think the outpost would be so screwed against the threat of it

[xakumi]

idk what happened but i hope you are ok and that your day gets better

im doing a lot better now, thank you!!

#basically this dude sent me 70 asks basically harassing me and threatening to unalive himself. fun times!! #suicide mention in tags #tw in tags

[wetchickenbreast]

i’m gonna throw up that was the most stressful experience of my life

#i made a deal that i would kms if i don’t pass this class so that exam was literally a life or death situation #but now that i passed the first exam i have way more confidence #suicide mention in tags #chicken scratch

[archiearchive]

80s music is good but maybe i need to listen to indomitable human spirit 80s music and not jaywalk on a busy highway 80s music

#*me listening to 80s song about suicide* i LOVE this song 💃🕺 *ill* #I’M OKAY. #suicide mention in tags

[bloodycrushedvelvet]

me, as a child: I have a completely normal childhood and my parents never physically punish or yell at me when I accidentally break something

me, now: *is living on my own and breaks a cup*

me, now: *feels like the scum of the earth and my mind jumps to considering harmful coping mechanisms*

#my scrawls #til making low consequence mistakes still triggers me #suicide mention in tags #literally thought abt kms before I thought about cleaning up

[sunnygotsniped]

"Chara is an evil mass murderer" shut up shut up SHUT UP SHUT UUUUPPPP

#💖 #on my blog you love chara dreemurr or you DIE #suicide mention in tags #child death mention in tags #explain to me how a mentally ill SMALL CHILD who committed suicide to free their family that is influenced by your choices is evil #answer me now

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

#hply fuck y'all I haven't felt like this?? ever??? #tryinf to be gentle with myself #but I truly feel like I'm made of glass #personal #negative #vent #cw suicide mention #ask to tag

[aeiou]

shit like this is my 13th reason

#suicide tw maybe #suicidal thoughts implied #suicide mention in tags #suicide implied #why am i like this #what the hell is wrong with me? #humidity will be my downfall