#stuff's gonna feel weird now lol

[mira0000000-blog]

Concepts for a Surgamy fankid named Nerine, created in a fit of Surgamy thoughts at 6am and I cant draw him again..So i think im gonna abandon him for a while haha.. sth

#i dont know how to character design at all im so sorry for his colors lmaoo #i dont like how his clothes turned out.. gonna try doing somethin else for his wardrope when i feel like it eee now im angy at him #he never met surge or amy as a kid! he doesnt even know he is technically their son! its complicated! #he never really doubted or thought too much about where did he come from either #also hes very forgetful! he only forgets more stuff over time and nobody can tell why.. #he was born and found around a time where sonic wasnt heroin anymore so he takes the role! as weird as that sounds! #his lore is very incoherent cos he was born yesterday lol just a silly incoherent guy.. #surgamy fankid #surgamy #surgeamy #Nerine the Hedgehog #sth #wee my art i gues

[dykeaegir]

siiiiiigh the chuggaaconroy situation really sucks :(

#like i don’t think he’s the scum of the earth or anything but you can’t deny how creepy he’d been acting #and no being autistic is not an excuse for consistently making your female friends uncomfortable #and continuing to act weird even after apologizing #i feel bad for everybody he’s hurt. especially lady emily who’s had to deal with a Lot of victim blaming #masae coming out with her own experiences too makes it sting even more #and i do think emily could have been more solid with her boundaries but i also don’t blame her for feeling weirded out. i would too tbh #man. #i wonder what colo’s gonna look like this year #honestly i haven’t watched chugga in a Long time cuz i’ve just. kinda grown out of his content style #also it legitimately surprised me when he started openly swearing in stuff lol #like who is this #but he still held a dear place in my heart and it feels a little bit off now #hrm. #bear.txt #bear.vent

[todayisafridaynight]

About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.

This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.

Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.

With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.

I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.

So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.

OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it

#snap chats #well i hope something neat is done with judgement. again i have barely touched it but it does seem like a rad series.. #rgg #anyway... unrelated tag ramble time... i feel so ugly LMAO i just havent eaten yet. im makin rice now tho #Insane we had a roommate meeting x days ago and one of the agreed upon things was that we could use each others appliances #and one of my roommates brought a rice cooker but obvi i wanted to ask first but she said no so. gotta use a pot. of which ive never done #it shouldnt be hard tho... lol.. s'just rice.. #im technically supposed to be at class rn but im dropping it this week so id feel weird going to a three-hour class im not coming back to #heres to hoping my fuckin emails are answered or ill actually have to be an adult and do it myself LMAO #honestly i will later tonight if my email aint answered i hate waiting on stuff like this #after i Hopefully eat some fried rice balls i might doodle or i might practice some Y7 chapters #im still mad LMAO but im gonna make a ramble post in a sec bout that #ty for sharin the gossip with me thats wild.... agencies annoying as hell And Criminal Sometimes i SWEARR

[crescentfool]

hello everyone! now that team picking is out i wanted to say that i am participating in artfight for the first time this year on team werewolves! (its the color blue. i love the color blue.)

you can find my profile here! https://artfight.net/~crescentfool

#lizzy speaks #lizzy does art #<- sort of! because the art on the left is new LOL #im very excited though! i've wanted a chance to draw more splatoon related stuff and i think art fight would be a great way to- #discover other peoples ocs. i mostly just want the additional practice idrc if i dont get attacked back or w/e #i feel kinda bad bc i wanted to focus on making stickers but then artfight came up so.. im shifting my goals 4 now lol #after artfight though.. nothing can stop me #art is a bit weird for me rn just because i've gotten such a huge surge of motivation back at the start of this month- #but at the same time there's a lot of projects and things i want to do that im like... uh how do One Commit #so im trying my best to take it one thing at a time!!! and i hope you all who are doing art stuff feel at peace with your process #also i feel like this should go w/o saying but i am not guaranteed to attack back but yknow #in my head im gonna do So Many Cool things for artfight but also a part of me knows i might just take a break to draw fan art n thats fine! #anyway bye i cant believe we're halfway through the year! can you believe it? yeah! me neither! explosion!

[charismat1c-megafauna]

I have come to the grim realization that Fitzjames in the white coat (dare I say the Ikea monkey look) is no longer thirstable for me because I suddenly realized he looks exactly like my mom in the 90s and now it's weird.

#and not in like a oh haha my mom before i was born way i mean that he looks uncannily like my memory of her 😭 #im half expecting this man to tell me to stay out of the living room bc hes gonna watch scary mothman documentaries :( #which is basically all my mom did in the 90s besides working on like. y2k compliance stuff in a basement #listen its the brown hair and kind eyes and a similar style and color to my moms autistic comfort jacket lol #i will probably forget this by tomorrow but its definitely a weird feeling lol #it was just kind of a weird realization to have this late in the AM and now im too busy going down memory lane to thirstpost #fun fact she used to leave me with my grandma so she could go ghost hunting in the middle of the night at the cemetery down the road #and would come back just smelling PROFOUNDLY of outdoors and cigarettes and would show me her spooky polaroids

[deus-and-the-machina]

I havent really been into the current state of the JJK manga for a while, im at the point where its ending might hold some value for me as someone who was already invested in the characters but largely aside from seeing how a few things pan out I just really really couldn't care less. 

that being said I have to thank gege for every new chapter giving us more and more good looking Gojos. the more feral and covered in blood the better, and hoo boy am I getting that.

#god can he just kill sukuna already tho. like idc about this I want gojo v kenjaku #im of two minds on the megumi thing bc I do think its weird that gojo hasn't had any strong thoughts about potentially killing megumi #(tho i do think gege is like. holding them back rather than ignoring them) but I also think the fandom forgets their canon relationship #like yeah its nice to imagine them as a wholesome family but I dont think they even think of themselves as father and son at all lol #guardian and ward morelike. and I do think gojo was a decent guardian but I also dont think that recently traumatized and also annoying #teen gojo was ever like. very emotionally available or comforting. not to say it shouldn't be expected for gojo to be upset about this but #also I think people can get a little too wrapped up in their wholesome family pics. bc for one you can bet your ass gege doesnt care about #tsumiki enough to consider whether gojo was technically her guardian as well and how he'd care about her fate. or even nobaras it seems #holding out for gojo to be simply repressing his feelings and it biting him in the ass later but idk #he DID look strained when realizing megumis soul recognized ultimate void tho :(((( that does make me said :(((((( #anyways sukuna was a fine enough villain for me but ngl hes gotten a lil annoying likewhatevs dude idc. kenjaku is hells more cunty than you #normally I wouldn't mind his shallow motives and didnt bc he was a threat that contributed to the plot but now that hes out and running #loose hes just so boring idk. like you're just gonna fight stuff. ok. lame. kenjaku vs gojo might actually have some emotional weight to it #idc about this fight and idc about sukuna #like when gojo mentioned his students and they all grinned. that! that that that he cares about them ok gege! #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 230

[sysig]

Colour picking, palette teasing (Patreon)

#Doodles #Deltarune #Pink Addison #Blue Addison #Yellow Addison #I am feeling very normal about Addisons I am feeling so normal about them 👀 #I'm definitely not thinking about them a lot I'm definitely not having more and More ideas #Very normal very usual #Okay I admit it I am no longer normal about them :/ Darn #Now that I've got time to just draw whatever and let my brain loose I keep getting new Add ideas òuo; They just keep sparking images! #It's gotten to the point where I've started rerouting my thoughts into character ideas - that's always a dangerous game #I know I always Vargas but that's what I've been doing with them for two years so it feels weird to do it with someone else lol #You'll never guess which one! So anyway- lol #I like how upon first seeing the Adds I was like ''Ooh big polyam QPR vibes from these guys nice'' and then I do stuff like this #I mean it still could be! Teasing your partner(s) is perfectly valid even if you'd never ever act on it - maybe even more valid lol #Blue's not in the mood to run with the ball rn tho lol he's busy being stressed #Yellow will play tho ♥ #I think I've finally settled on a design for Yellow that I can reasonably replicate! Finally finally lol #I am gonna have to try my hand at the wing-ear design tho 'cause it's so cute agh #But little feather-fascinator-style floofs suits me well ♪ #I also keep over-colouring him because the yellow is so hard to see IRL! It shows up incredibly intense on the scanner but I can't /see/ it #It doesn't look bad as such it's just a little inconsistent with the others #Okay you can guess now - it was the last one that I pulled a thought and put it into Pink lol #It's innocent I swear lol - I was just thinking about the perceived similarities between ''cheap'' and ''easy'' #Specifically in reference to praise actually :0 Cheap praise implies you don't mean it but easy praise - to me - just implies practice! #It took me a long time to become ''good'' at giving compliments but now that I /can/ do it I like to do it a lot lol - easy but not cheap! ♥ #And then since it was to do with monetary implication I gave it to him for obvious reasons lol #It sounds a lot less innocent coming from him lol he's a bitch ♥ #Hhgg his expressions are really fun I wish he was less fun to draw lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated

[kiddokori]

doctor office workers love me for my polite tones and sense of whimsy

#had an eye exam and they did a bunch of new shit cuz i havent been in a few years #like they did the normal shit they did the slides and the lights and the letters #but they also numbed my corneas w this yellow eyedrop stuff and everything turned yellow for a minute #and then they took this bright as little pinpoint light and got it reaaaally close to my eye #and after i was like man that got so close i thought it was gonna touch my eye lol #and the lady said oh it did thats why i numbed you. i just dont tell people their first time so they dont get squeamish #and i went well! thats very cool now that ive done it and know it feels like nothing but yes i probably wouldve been squeamish thank you #and then the doctor came in and was like ok follow the pen and i was tryjng not to giggle because it felt so silly like. idk #and i told him i was like sorry if this is weird but im very tickled about this whole process like its fun to me its interesting i feel like #a little kid its neat #and he was like well im glad you’re enjoying yourself now read these tiny ass letters #he was cool he thought it was funny #and the lady that helped me pick out new glasses was really nice and helped me out and told me which ones she liked on me #(i ended up going w the ones she liked because i also liked them theyre cool it was fun) #interacting with random people makes me feel so well adjusted and normal like this is what its all about. #just having fun being a little kooky at the eye doctor. thats what im here for #my eyes are so sensitive now tho and its bright as fuck outside #theres no clouds and snow on the ground so im being bombarded by reflected light #i am under fucking attack

[saturnskyline]

i am once again giving a shoutout to all kp fic writers, especially the gremlins (affectionate) that now have me regularly reading cousin incest by proxy ❤️ a truly enlightening experience, thank you all for your service

#listen. #i know this is far from the most objectionable thing you could possibly find in a fic #but it's just that i really didn't think i would read it at ALL #honestly used to be a relatively tame fic reader before gay mafia circus hit me like a bus FSDHGHDS #it just works tooooo well #like. you've got Weird Family Stuff that really lends itself to... a certain genre shall we say #and then there's that thing where if the author is good enough they can basically make you more open-minded lol #so right now it's just funny #i feel like i am at a party that i never expected to attend #playing the role of a semi-bewildered houseguest who is still somewhat enjoying themselves 💀 #also. no one asked but i have tried one or two fics that involve actual incest.. #but idk #the almost incest ones are weirder tbh #sometimes it gets to the point where going all the way would be less strange 😭😭 #i have too much to say about this for some reason #gonna shut up now :D #kinnporsche #ramblings

[beatcroc]

Oh yeah I watched the digital circus thing. It was alright

#decent enough and has potential but solidly filed under 'not my thing' #pretty much what i expected in that se se dhdhdb #found a couple of interesting points to poke at for Theory Stuff and foreshadowing or w/e #but ultimately i think it laid waaaaaay too many of its cards on the table from the get-go #like i dont doubt that there will still be more to it but they kind of tossed multiple big-plot-relevant feeling things together #right at the start and they feel like they're kinda counterproductive to have this early #or like where i would expect it to go off the rails it feels like theres a few weird elements that would hold it in place #not that that's necessarily bad. just again the place where its at rn isn't my thing lol #BUT also there was one thing i was just like. oh my god why are you telling me how this works right now #you literally could have just vaguely implied it from any choice like 6 different angles and left it at that #or even just not brought it up at all and saved it for a later reveal. there was already plenty going on...... #there was already foreshadowing for it baked in so its a little bland to do that and then full reveal like. 2 min later #anyway i digress. if it gets its full season and ppl start talking about it again in some years I'll still pick back up on it :p #bweeeaaahh #there IS a place this could go that would make me very invested [recursion] but i don't think its actually gonna go there

[pepprs]

idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad) #like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

[thornshadowwolf]

DAN AND PHIL RETURN????????

#idk what I'm gonna do abt this /srs #like. I thought their videos were fun but that was 5 years ago so who knows about if I still will #and y'know obviously toxic community and annoying fans. #whatever I'll watch some and make a decision based on that I guess. #idc if they're cringe #well I mean. idc if it's cringe to watch them. #but Dan very much was leaning into that 'I'm a weirdo normal people scare me' thing that people who are only one degree removed from #normality do. so if he's leaned into that any more I don't think I'll be able to stand his 'I'm not a normie' normie ass. but I also know #he's been doing a lot of self-reflection and healing and whatever so maybe he'll be better now. #like he was so desperate to distance himself from who he used to be that he needed to make fun of everything he could have been perceived as #and make himself feel like he's better than people like that. everything from being 14 to being alternative to being a furry he needed to #make fun of all that cringe to prove that he wasn't that. y'know? he desperately wanted to be normal while still capitalizing on the 'I'm #different' thing. like his merch/clothing brand was all minimalist quirky-dark aesthetic for example. stuff you could 100% find in a big #chain store but seems just different enough for people who want to fit in but also look like they're cool and edgy and have unique opinions #like. he's the *woman in a pink tailored pantsuit* 'she's so butch!' of weird and alternative. #last I checked at least. like I said; I think he's been doing a lot of personal growth so maybe he's gotten more ok with actual weirdness. #man I didn't mean to rant in the tags here O_o sorry lol. #ThornShadow.said #(also for the record Phil is a little cringey but it's genuine so it's ok. as opposed to Dan trying to make everything 8 levels of ironic)

[theloveinc]

would it weird if i like. LMAO. ...

#would it be weird if i just randomly opened up commissions (match-ups/caks/relationship analysis) #even tho i literally cannot think of a dam word to post here #i mean i can i just hate all my writing right now #all of it #is that unfair tho? to u guys? to stick u with my Bad State stuff #im okay at matchups and money and free time would motivate me but #i feel like thats cheating somehow #to do that but not This (which i really want to be doing but . kindof hate myself too much to rn) #im jus struggling and panicking right now u know? #w/ my roommate and my mom and the holidays and bills #LOL im gonna make myself cry #honestly ill be fine but #i will have time so im wondering #anywayyyyyy i thought i wrote up a commissions sheet a while back but i can't find it #ANNOYING #anyway #sorry ig i just needed to rant #i hate ranting i hate talking abt myself i hate everything right now truly but like #everyone else posts all their random thoughts 24/7 all the time so #i should just let myself scream #and take the fat L #this is /srs tho would it be weird LOOOL #caitie blabs #caitie rants

[todayisafridaynight]

We’re having an emergency meeting to discuss Chris Johnson and the whitest name ever

absolutely fitting for our white man now innit

#snap chats #speaking of White People and names tho.. i drove out to barnes and noble because if i stayed at my mom's any longer id go insane #and while i was here i read the entirety of My Brother's Husband. VERY good series it was so good i loved it... #its not in my budget today to buy the whole set but maybe one day.. mike flanagan i love you you're so happy and good.. #WAIT IT GOT A LIVE ACTION SERIES ????? I HAVE TO WATCH IT LATER I WAS JUST THINKING IT'D BE GOOD AS A JDRAMA #what i did buy today tho was the second volume of The Yakuza's Bias since i loved the first one so much #and ive been PRAYING the second one'd come out soon #i also got another kirby blind box </3 its supposed to sit on your drinking glass but i didnt see who i got yet.. #i hope its not meta knight. i love meta knight but i want some variety... #im hoping its the sleeping kirby one but it was hard to hear the difference so idk #and im not checkin til later so i doont get tempted to return what i got to get a new one like a freak ☠️ #SO SAD THO when i was getting my stuff they didnt have any more butterfly bookmarks... #i always get one when i go out and sure i have more than enough bookmarks but now it feels weird... #anyway. im gonna get food i havent eaten all day... tho i did want chicken and soju later didnt i... #maybe ill just get something light here i just came here for the wifi honestly lol #god what else did i do.. OH THERE WAS THIS ONE MANGA. #i forget the full name but it had 'akane' in the title so of course i was like 'lol' and decided to read the blurb #IN THE STORY HER DAD'S NAME IS ARAKAWA ? but all of his teachers also have the surname arakawa but theyre not related #arakawa must be a ral impotrant name in the manga.... point is i lol'd #i almost wanna go back to. stopping this post now to do it LOL HANG ON BRB #AKANE-BANASHI THAT'S WHAT IT WAS CALLED and she wanted to be the best rakugo performer after her father's teacher #also named arakawa. As I Said. #failed everyone for no reason #maybe one day ill check it out.. always thought rakugo was a fine art... #anyway im rambling too much im gonna try to write a fanfic. no way in hell im drawing rgg in public LMAO #actually im gonna get food first.. as i said i havent eaten all day... ok bye #anon im so sorry if you ever read these tags LMAO I JUST LIKE TALKING ABOUT MY DAY

[transsexual-divinity]

I did it! Made it back home from my top surgery!!

#literally so unreal rn #like I can’t believe this happening for me like in real life #this is something I wanted and needed for so long like I’m so relieved that I don’t even know that to do with myself #I’m gonna focus on recovery and everything but then it’s kind of like well now what #I mean I’ll start working on the legal stuff but like this is such a major thing #like I’m actually awake and doing it #not in much pain yet tough just tight and sore #kept accidently like flexing/tensing up on the two hour drive home #so that probably doesn’t help lol #but man like I can’t even explain how much of a weird feeling this is #even though I’m all wrapped up in the bandages and sweaty and got the drains this is probably the most like happiest/relieved I’ve ever been #lik dam cis guys just feel like this every day #m talks #keep for ref #I should start a top surgery tag #mars.transgender operations #<- done lol