#sorry kim for making you follow me around past 4 am but actually im not sorry

[even-disco-baby]

CINDY THE SKULL — “Evening, officers. It’s a bit late to be skulking about, don’t you think?” Though she’s lounging around the coal room door as languidly as ever, her pale eyes ringed with coal dust seem to bore a hole in your skull.

YOU — “I’m looking for a place to sleep.”

CINDY THE SKULL — She lifts an eyebrow at you and Kim. “Did the cafeteria man finally decide he wasn’t interested in keeping a pigsty?”

YOU — “No, Kim is still staying there. I just can’t pay my bill.”

KIM KITSURAGI — The lieutenant clears his throat slightly. “Let’s not give people the impression that officers of the RCM make a habit of dodging their tabs, detective.”

CINDY THE SKULL — She glances at Kim, lips pursing just slightly.

EMPATHY — His little comment irritated her. Curious.

CINDY THE SKULL — “Tough luck, officer.” She shrugs, the faux fur collar of her coat brushing her cheeks. “There’s a perfectly good garbage bin in the courtyard. It’s got a lovely view. Real prime real estate.”

YOU — “I know. Garte said I could sleep there, but I’d rather find somewhere else.”

CINDY THE SKULL — She blinks her coal-smeared eyes at you. Then, she turns to the lieutenant. “Is he joking?”

KIM KITSURAGI — “No,” he says drily. “He is not. If you know of any… more *comfortable* places to sleep, we would be much obliged.”

CINDY THE SKULL — She stares openly at the two of you, as if in disbelief.

COMPOSURE — The absurdity of your plight has nearly broken right through her veneer of youthful detachment.

CINDY THE SKULL — “Maybe I’m the one who should be a detective. I can solve your little case for you right now.” She points to the lieutenant. “Your room.”

KIM KITSURAGI — His face is solid stone. “No.”

ESPIRIT DE CORPS — There are so many reasons why he does *not* want to do that. He has neither the time nor any desire to share them with Cindy. Or with you, for that matter.

-1 MORALE

CINDY THE SKULL — She whistles softly. “Damn. Must be true what they say about pigs and cannibalism.”

KIM KITSURAGI — The lieutenant does not rise to her bait.

EMPATHY — But there is something playing at the downturned corners of his mouth and the furrow of his brow. Something like guilt.

YOU — “What about the coal room, Cindy?”

CINDY THE SKULL — She outright laughs at you. “Fuck no! You want in my room, get a warrant, piggo!”

LOGIC — While drug possession is not a crime in Revachol, it doesn’t stop most cops from confiscating substances from vulnerable civilians for their own personal use. Including yourself, most likely.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY — Hey, good idea! Cindy’s an artsy type, she’s probably got all kinds of shit to get her creative juices flowing.

PAIN THRESHOLD — And to get her through the cold and the hunger and the cruelty.

VOLITION — No. Don’t make things any worse than they already are.

YOU — “But then… where do I go?”

CINDY THE SKULL — She shrugs again. “It’s not my problem, is it? Ask your partner, here. Or maybe you should take a hint and go back home to the farm.”

YOU — “I don’t know if I have a home… I think I lost it.”

KIM KITSURAGI — The lieutenant’s frown deepens. He stares down at his boots rather than meet your or Cindy’s eye.

CINDY THE SKULL — A long, almost uncomfortable silence. Her eyes are hardening as they take you in— you and your bloodshot eyes, your slightly labored breathing, your clothes that are certainly too thin to keep you warm tonight.

EMPATHY — She feels sorry for you, and she resents herself for it.

CINDY THE SKULL — She lets out a long sigh, closing her eyes and shaking her head. “All right, piggy. Just quit looking at me all pitiful… You saw the foreclosed apartment in the hall, right? If you wait for the cleaning lady to go to sleep, and you don’t stay long, it’s not a bad place. Better than the trash, anyway.”

REACTION SPEED — She seems to regret it as soon as the words leave her mouth. She’s not thrilled at the idea of trusting your honor not to rat out or even arrest your fellow squatters. But it’s too late now.

SUGGESTION — Wait. Is it really that simple? What if she expects something in return for the information? Or she could be setting a trap for you!

YOU — “Hang on. What’s the catch?”

CINDY THE SKULL — A wry smile breaks out across her face. It almost looks pained. “No catch, officer. I’m no snitch. Nor a pig.”

RHETORIC — You’ve insulted her more deeply than she cares to let on. She helped you because she knows your struggles intimately. Struggles that have claimed the lives of people she cared about. But now you’ve reminded her of the difference between you: she calls you pig because you sold your humanity for the power to strip others of their own.

EMPATHY — She’s sad. She was born sad and she will die sad. You are the one making her sad.

YOU — “Hey, Cindy?”

CINDY THE SKULL — “What?”

“I’m sorry. Thank you for helping me.”

“You shouldn’t judge me. We’re the same. We do what it takes to survive. You have the Skulls, I have the RCM.”

“Can’t we just get along?”

“I’ll pay you back somehow. I’ll make things right.”

“I don’t want to be this kind of animal anymore.”

KIM KITSURAGI — The lieutenant looks up at you, startled. Concerned, even. He almost looks as though he wants to say something, but nothing comes to him. He just stares at you, at a loss.

CINDY THE SKULL — She levels you with a steady gaze. Even without the coal dust, her eyes would look sunken into her wan face. If it weren’t for the roundness still clinging to her cheeks, she would have lost nearly all trace of her youth by now.

“I don’t think you even understand what kind of animal you are,” she says coolly.

ENCYCLOPEDIA — Homo sapien.

CONCEPTUALIZATION — A tiny, violent ape.

AUTHORITY — Predator.

HALF LIGHT — Prey.

VOLITION — You’re a human, Harry. Nothing more or less.

INLAND EMPIRE — The saddest and cruelest animal of them all.

#disco elysium #cindy the skull #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #i have a lot of feelings about cindy’s interactions w the player… #but anyway. this was inspired by me failing to earn enough money on day 2 to pay garte #and since i asked joyce for money on day one kim never sold his spinners for me #but like he does that to cover specifically the damages right. not for ur 20 real for the room #so he was comically uncaring about my plight LMFAO #even tho I the player knew that he could help me if he wanted bc he still had the spinners 😭😭😭 #anyway this resulted in me panicking and swearing for quite some time bc joyce was gone for the night #and the pawn shop was closed #and eventually i just went and savescummed the check to beat up measurehead until i passed #just so that i could look around the harbor for money until i had enough to pay for the bed 😭 #sorry kim for making you follow me around past 4 am but actually im not sorry #that’s what you get for almost letting me sleep in the garbage SNSGEJDHX

[tomorrowsdrama]

2020 Year in Thirst Pt. 2

Sometimes, I will watch a drama for the plot/premise/substance and be rewarded with a surprise hottie, and it’s the best feeling ever!  It’s like finding money in your pocket that you didn’t know about.  The following list of dramas can be described as:

Came for the plot, was rewarded with a surprising side of thirst

1. Flower of Evil

Brief Summary: Lee Jun Ki plays Baek Hee Sung and Moon Chae Won plays Cha Ji Won, his wife who is also a detective.  What Ji Won doesn’t know is that her husband, Hee Sung, is actually Hyun Soo, a man on the run from a murder that he did not commit and also a suspected accomplice to a series of murders committed by his father in the past.  Oh yeah, his dad secretly tried to groom him into being his protege/murder partner.  Because of how he was raised, HS believes that he has no emotions and is simply putting on an act as the perfect husband and father.  His “parents” are in on the ruse and are actually the ones who forced him into assuming their comatose son’s identity.  Anyway, of course things from the past start to catch up with HS and his wife is somehow assigned to investigating his old murder case.  She of course feels betrayed, but also conflicted as she discovers her husband is not who he said he was and a prime murder suspect.  Things get even more complicated as the real murderer re-appears with fabulous long hair and tries to frame HS for the murders.  In between all of this are delicious make outs between the couple and at least one instance where they banged so hard, HS was wiped out the next morning.

Surprise Thirst Factor: I checked out this drama fully expecting to drop it because the promos were so misleading and unappealing. But boy was I in for a pleasant surprise!  Not only was the drama super addicting, it also had some nice eye candy in the form of Lee Jun Ki being a completely unrealistic house husband who satisfies in the housework (The man cooks and does the laundry!), childcare, and bedroom and Kim Ji Hoon’s glorious mane of beauty making viewers have a moral crisis over lusting after a homicidal maniac (who turned out to be a real loser without murder daddy around to clean up his mess.  It’s ok, we’ll always have his hair).

Yes, work that hair honey.  It’s the only good thing you’ve got going on for you (the character, not Kim Ji Hoon)

The chemistry between Lee Jun Ki and Moon Chae Won was fire and the make out scenes were soo believable.  Like yes, these two beautiful people are really into being married to each other and understandably want to make out all the time. 

He’s the primary caretaker for their daughter and it’s just *swoons.*  Not all thirst traps come in the form of sexy abs (although I would not mind if he wanted to flash some).

2. Six Flying Dragons

Brief Summary: The story of young Yi Bang Won (who later becomes King Taejong) and the founding of the Joseon Dynasty.  As short as it sounds, that really is an accurate summary of the drama haha.

Surprise Thirst Factor: I started watching this drama because I heard it was a great sageuk and I’m a big fan of Yoo Ah In.  Even though I’m a fan of his acting, Yoo Ah In doesn’t necessarily get my hormones raging so I wasn’t expecting to be so thirsty while watching Six Flying Dragons.  But then.  BUT THEN.  Byun Yo Han showed up in all his scruffy tortured deadly killer glory and my hormones woke up and said hi, hello, who are you, what’s your name, what’s your sign, can I get your number?  The deadlier and more tortured his character got, the sexier he became to me.  Sorry Yoo Ah In, you’ll always be my acting boo, but Byun Yo Han’s got my thirst.  Byun Yo Han looks so good when he's sad and/or covered in blood, it makes me feel like a sadist for thinking that I wouldn’t mind if the drama made his character cry some more.

3. Ever Night S1

Brief Summary: As a child, Ning Que witnessed his entire household get massacred because of a prophecy that the child of Hades will be born from the house and bring about the Eternal Night.  Somehow, he managed to escape and was the lone survivor.  He finds a baby buried in a pile of dead bodies as he’s fleeing and names her Sang Sang.  The two orphans grow up inseparable from each other and do whatever it takes to survive in the harsh, cruel world.  Ning Que earns money by becoming a deadly mercenary and Sang Sang takes care of the household affairs.  At one point, Ning Que becomes a disciple of the powerful Fu Zi and somehow gets entangled in the struggles between the Holy Sect and Demon Sect.  A bunch of beautiful women fall for Ning Que, and the drama tries its hardest to convince us that he has chemistry with and reciprocates the feelings of one of them (i.e. Mo Shan Shan), but anybody who was even half paying attention knows that the only one for Ning Que is Sang Sang.  They are the OTP of all OTPs and take “ride or die” to a whole other level. Oh also, their height difference is the stuff manga dreams are made of. Ning Que is a “good guy” but also not a “good guy” in the sense that he is not above doing whatever it takes to seek revenge and is only out for himself and Sang Sang (and later, his older brothers and sisters from the academy).

Surprise Thirst Factor: Chen Feiyu is an attractive person but I could not in good conscience thirst after him because he was literally born in the year 2000.  It did not help that he was only 18 when he filmed Ever Night and looked every bit his age.  My thirst may have no shame, but it does have its own set of principles and one of those principles is thou shalt not lust after those born in the new millennium!  Luckily for me, Second Brother is played by Dylan Kuo who is a beautiful, elegant, tall man

and Brother Chao is exactly the type of rugged and manly that I am into.  

(you don’t have to be)

who looks better when wet

AHEM. Yeah.

Sixth Brother is also not so bad with his scanty pounding work attire,

4. Novoland: Eagle Flag

Brief Summary:  Asule is the prince of a tribe in the grasslands who is held as a royal guest (i.e. hostage) in the Eastland Empire.  There he meets his two future best friends, Yu Ran, a free spirited princess who is descended from a race of bird people, and Ji Ye, an emo neglected/shunned son of a concubine who is probably the best fighter in the empire.  Ji Ye loves Yu Ran who is a ball of sunshine to his Johnny Raincloud dark emo self.  Yu Ran loves Ji Ye back.  Asule loves both his friends and will do anything to protect them.  The world decides to fuck over best friends Asule, Ji Ye, and Yu Ran for no reason as they try their best to just live a peaceful life away from all the political scheming and fighting.

Surprise Thirst-worthiness: I was completely content with enjoying Eagle Flag purely for its story and substance.  It’s seriously a wonderful, yet heartbreaking drama and the scale of the production is amazing.  No cheap $10 costumes here.  Also, the direction is beautiful/artistic and not the run of mill “let’s shoot it and complete it as fast as we can.”  The two main actors were cute, but not really my type.  Then the drama decided to give Ji Ye the “Sexy Bloody Tormented Killer Makeover” and all of a sudden your girl was rushing to MDL to check Chen Ruo Xuan’s birthday and calculating his age.  I am simple, predictable, and consistent when it comes to my thirst and give a character some scruff, long hair, angst, and some bloodlust and I’m all yours.  I am literally:

Is it wrong that when Ji Ye showed up looking like this ready to kill his mother’s torturer

I thought, yes, can we have him kill another? 

5. Run On

Brief Summary: Im Siwan plays Ki Seon Geom, a national track runner from a rich family who is a bit of an oddball and marches to his own beat.  Although his words can sometimes be construed as rude since he has no filter, they are also completely honest and have no hidden meaning.  He also has his own personal code that he lives by and he will stick to it no matter how negatively it may impact himself.  He meets Oh Mi Joo, a translator with her own strange quirks and sparks fly as Mi Joo is assigned to be his interpreter.  

Surprise Thirst-worthiness: I kind of watched this drama by accident.  I had read about Im Siwan starring in a new drama but nothing I saw from the description or promos for Run On appealed to me.  Nor did it give me any information about what the drama would be about.  Then one day, I just happened to be browsing Netflix for something to play in the  background and decided on Run on since I thought I wouldn’t be that invested.  What a happy accident that turned out to be because I’m so in love with this drama right now.  This is a case where the thirst does not stem from the character’s physical appearance, but from the intensity/charisma the actor brings to the character and the character himself.  Ki Seon Geom is so odd, but so appealing at the same time and Im Siwan is so magnetic in the role.  Prior to Run On, Im Siwan wasn’t really my type physically.  In fact, I always scratched my head whenever people called him handsome in dramas (I know, I know, forgive me).  So color me shocked when I found myself swooning all over Im Siwan in the second episode of Run On.  Now, it’s like I have “Im Siwan is attractive” glasses on and he looks attractive in everything to me.  I want to gobble up all the dramas he’s been in.

#flower of evil #lee jun ki #six flying dragons #byun yo han #ever night #novoland eagle flag #run on #jtbc run on #im siwan #kdrama #cdrama

[shoddy-sonneteer]

Promise

Pairing: Taehyung*Jaebum  Taehyung*Jimin

Genre: Mafia!AU Angst

Warnings: Mentions of death

Word Count: 1948

Summary: In order to meet his ex-boyfriend years later, Jimin is ready to even let his life go

A/N: This was based on a dream I had while waking up. For more effects listen to 4′o clock by V and RM towards the end.

Jimin knew the consequences of standing in front of Taehyung’s house right now. It was once his too. But he no longer was a part of that house. He was neither a part of Taehyung’s life anymore. It had been years since he was in Seoul, since he had been to this place, since he had seen him. He missed the younger terribly. 5 years wasn’t any short time and he was forced to live that period away from the love of his life. But it was all completely his fault.

It was all his fault, how, 5 years back he fucked up a perfectly happy relationship he had with the younger. He knew the consequences back then too, but he was naïve and arrogant. It was a perfect plan.

Being part of the mafia required him to use his brain and body. He was taught that there was no place for a heart here. He followed those words diligently but it was only till he met Taehyung. As per the plan he was only supposed to befriend Taehyung, infiltrate the gang he was part of and be a double agent. No one would suspect a thing. As simple as that. Or that’s what he thought.

The first time he met Taehyung, it was at the coffee shop the younger frequented. All Jimin had to do was look weak and vulnerable in front of Taehyung. As Jimin struck a conversation with him, he noticed that the younger seemed nothing like the reputation he had in the underworld. But Jimin knew better than to fall for that act.

Over a period of 2 months, Jimin grew closer to Taehyung and even got to visit his place of operation once. During their visit there, everything was going good and everyone fell for his impeccable acting. Well, all except one. Im Jaebum. He was weirdly suspicious of Jimin and always kept a close eye on him which made him be doubly, triply careful of his every move.

As time passed, Jaebum keeping an eye on him became more and more annoying and Jimin couldn’t of any way to make him stop without making himself too obvious. It was no secret around the base that Jaebum liked Taehyung. In order to hurt him and to make him stop his annoying watch, Jimin asked Taehyung out. To everyone’s surprise, including Jimin, he said yes.

It was not part of Jimin’s plan to ask his target out. It was never part of any plan for Jimin to actually fall for Taehyung. But Jimin had to learn it the hard way that things always don’t go according to well laid out plans. He did ask him out and eventually, he did fall for him. He fell really hard. Which made it hard for him to be the double agent. But he couldn’t quit. This wasn’t your regular 10-8 job that you could quit easily.

On top of the guilt Jimin felt everyday when he saw Taehyung, who was nothing but trusting and truthful to him from the day he met him, there was Jaebum who didn’t stop keeping an eye on him. After Jimin and Taehyung got together, Jaebum only began keeping an even more close watch on him in the pretense of making sure that he treated his best friend properly.

Despite all these, the relationship the both of them had made Jimin the happiest person alive on the planet and when Taehyung held and treated him like he was the most precious and fragile thing, Jimin wished he was not part of any mafia but only Taehyung’s boyfriend. On their first anniversary, Taehyung had asked him to move in with him, to which he only complied very happily.

For their second anniversary, they had planned to visit Paris. The cliché romantic getaway.

As they were exiting from the café, hand in hand, Jimin got a call from an unknown yet familiar number. Jimin rejected the call not wanting to ruin his happy mood. He’ll deal with them when he’s back to Seoul.

But his happy mood was ruined when he saw two familiar faces at the entrance of the hotel, they were staying in two days later. Jimin knew he couldn’t stall the meeting anymore. Asking Taehyung to go ahead to  room, Jimin approached them.

“What’s the matter?” He asked not bothering with any pleasantries.

“You’ve been avoiding our calls. Boss isn’t too pleased with you slacking at work like this and seems like you’re enjoying a bit too much with your boy toy.”

“Why did he call?” Jimin tried getting straight to the point not wanting to talk anything about Taehyung to them.

“Boss wants you to finish someone.”

“Who?”

“Kim Taehyung.” The second guy said with a smirk.

When he said that name, Jimin felt like someone knocked the air out of his lungs. He knew getting too close to Taehyung would not end well for him. But at first, he didn’t care and would have done it without any second thought. But now, he couldn’t let this happen to the love of his life, the one that taught him how to love.

He vaguely remembers nodding and walking away from that place and went anywhere his legs took him. He can never kill Tae. Not even in his wildest dreams. But he knows that if he doesn’t kill him, his boss would ask someone else to do it. He can’t let that happen either. Taehyung is an important part of his life. He had to save Tae someone and there was only one person who he trusted could do that. Jimin had swallow his pride as Tae’s life was more important at the moment and dialed the number, he never thought he would.

“What do you want?” Came the voice from the other side of the line.

“I need you to protect Tae. You’re the only person I trust with that, Jaebum.”

“What do you mean? Is he alright?” He asked panic and dread filling his voice, making Jimin feel guilty about what he has done so far.

“He is alright. But there is a chance that he might not be.”

“What do you mean? Stop talking in a cryptic manner and tell me what the fuck happened!?”

At that Jimin told him everything. Everything from why and how he met Taehyung to the conversation he had a few minutes back.

“You fucking son of a bitch! If anything happens to him, I’ll make sure you have a slow and painful death. Stay right beside him. I’m catching the next flight there. I’ll deal with you after that.” He said hanging up not giving him an opportunity to talk.

Jimin knew that Jaebum had every right to be mad at him. But he couldn’t bring himself to go back to his room and face Taehyung. So, he went to the hotel and sat in the lobby keeping an eye open for anyone looking suspicious till Jaebum arrived not caring about the weird looks that were given his way.

After around 13 hours, when, Jaebum arrived to the hotel, Jimin let out a sigh of relief and walked Jaebum to a secluded area where no one could see or hear them.

“Where is Tae?” Jaebum asked not bothering about the tired and defeated look Jimin had on his face.

“In the room. He doesn’t know anything or the fact that you are here, yet.”

“Good. I’m going to tell him everything. But you, are leaving him the fuck alone. Leave right now and never come back. If you do, it’s not going to end well for you. I’ll explain everything to him.”

“Can I just see him one last time though?” Jimin asked desperately.

“No. You don’t deserve that kind of farewell after all that you’ve done. Leave before I change my mind.” Jimin knew this was going to happen and he tries to prepare himself for it. But, no amount of preparation helped him when he faced it in reality. His heart broke into a million pieces and he was the only reason for this.

That was the last time Jimin saw or heard of Taehyung.

He wanted to see him again. Even if that was the last thing he does.

Having that thought in mind, Jimin rung the bell. Every second he spent waiting for the door to open seemed like the five years he spent in hiding.

Soon, the door opened to reveal Taehyung who was shirtless with a sleepy look adorning his face and all Jimin wanted to do at that moment was hug him and beg him to forgive him. But the look on his face quickly changed to one of recognition and then to one of hatred and that killed Jimin the most.

He had changed a lot. It seemed like he had been working out a lot that was evident with all those muscles and he seemed happier than the last time Jimin saw him.

“Who is it babe?” A voice that was all too familiar to Jimin came towards them from the same room that the both of them once shared. When he received no response from Tae, the owner of the voice came towards the door to check what happened.

“You have a lot of nerve to show up after what you did.” Jaebum’s threatening voice snapped him back to reality.

“I wanted to see him and meet him. Just once. And apologize.” Jimin’s pleading voice came barely audible. “Tae, baby, I’m sorry for that I did. I’m not apologizing expecting you to forgive me right away or at all. I know it is hard for you to even see me right now. I also know that I fucked up really bad. I fucked the one thing that was amazing in my life. I’m sorry for putting you through that. I’m here despite the fact that Jaebum threatened to kill me if I ever showed up because I wanted to apologize at least once for that I did. I want to apologize for breaking all the promises I made when we were together. I was and am an idiot.” Jimin stood in front of Taehyung with tears flowing down his cheeks regretting all his past actions that led him to this point in life.

“And I think you forgot that I was and am a man of my words.” Jaebum stood in front of Jimin blocking Tae from his view.

“No, I didn’t. I remember everything Jaebum. But I still came because I wanted to see him even if that’s the last thing I do. So, go ahead. It’s not like I have anything that’s worth living anyway. And I’m glad that Tae has someone that would never break his heart or do anything to fuck something amazing. Hope the both of you are happy.”

“We were. Until you showed up.” Jaebum said taking the gun out.

Jimin nodded accepting his fate. He knew the consequences of showing up and he was ready to face them.

“Why didn’t you kill me when you had the chance, if our meeting and getting into a relationship was all a plan to you?” Tae finally spoke stepping out from behind Jaebum.

“I didn’t because I couldn’t. I could never.”

“Why?”

“Because when I had to pretend to be in love with you, I actually fell for you. I loved you a lot. I still do.”

Tae just nodded and went back to his room. Jimin was not surprised. He was ready for everything. He was ready when Jaebum pointed the gun at him. He was ready when Jaebum pulled the trigger and everything went blank.

#bts #bts scenarios #bts namjoon #bts jin #bts suga #bts hobi #bts jimin #bts taehyung #bts jungkook

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 08

rip it’s a lot of stuff, some good, some weird….

Anonymous said: do you like eating ass? I bet your booty is thicc and juicy :)

idk who would even send this but ummm I’m a bottom so yeah.. that answers that wedhfnsh have u nice day/night <3

@thesimpley2k​  said: your cc is so beautiful! and you’re a britney stan :) ily sis

thank youuuuu omg ily2 lmao I don’t voice my Britney stanness much but once B10 starts getting more hyped up I’ll be back up there! Thank you again and rip original make me MV

Anonymous said: Oof I need all of your wip hairs right now            

oof you haven’t even seen half of them sweetie ;) I have 10 wip hairs as of now so like… you’ve seen 4 on this blog through edits/playlists. the rest are on my patreon and some go on my wips section in my discord (omg shameless plug im sorry but its true)

Anonymous said: Can we gift you packs through origin?

if u want?? idrk how that works tbh ;-; if u did tho like rsdfgfbvc thank you!!! I prob will only buy packs that I can use for cc from now on tbh ;-; my computer is at that point where i need to be really picky about stuff, plus imo they arent worth it wedfgdbfn i regret buying most of the SP’s

Anonymous said: Are you posting a shorter version of the Zoey Hair as shown in your latest post because it looks amazing?!!!!!

thank you!!! That is basically what the idea of it is lmao, but I think im gonna make an accessory hair clip for it too. Not 100% sure yet tho

@agentwashsims​ said: Crying over the wip hair and the grimes reference! Okay you’re still perfect and ily that it all okay bye. 

aaah thank you! grimes is so good omg Art Angels is my favorite album but there are a lot of ongs on Visions I like as well. I like a little bit of Halfaxa toooooo

Anonymous said: Hi, would it be possible for you to just reupload the lydia hair post? As it’s marked as sensitive content, I can’t see the picture and I’d really like to be able to have a look at it before I download it.

Hi! I emailed tumblr support about it since it has been over a month since it has been up for review. Hopefully they get it worked out soon <3 there is a picture of it on my download page if you want to look at it there

Anonymous said: Hey, how do I do Patreon? I want to but i’m new to all those things of Patreon cause now I want lots of hairs that need it, and I wanna learn how can I Patreon you!

Hello! Hopefully you see this haha. Patreon is sort of like Netlfix in it is a monthly charge for goods. To get 3 cc hairs early each month, it is a $1 pledge. Higher pledges get better rewards(such as watching me work on cc, getting to vote on hair releases, and more). I think that Patreon is a great way to help support creators as long as they do it right (no exclusive CC). I really hope this helps you and thank you so much if you decide to pledge any ammount <3

Anonymous said: When are going to upload your maxis match hairlines? Like in a post

oml I am horrible lmao I deleted them and don’t seem to have them backed up, but I will maybe make more in the future?? I honestly don’t find them that usable on most hairs but everybody is different so we will see <3

Anonymous said: Is the black braided hair on your April Playlist a WIP? If not WCIF it cuz it’s gorgeous <333 Ily.

issa wip for Juneee

Anonymous said: how old are you?

18 d2f m4m

Anonymous said: What is your Origin ID?

spotharris

Anonymous said: Hey! I 🖤 ur content btw and I wanted to just like clarify something. Ur posts say u can recollect but don’t include the mesh. What does that mean exactly??? Do people still need the mesh for the recollections to show up in game?? Sorry if this is really dumb, I’m a new simblr. Thx!            

hey!! sorry for the super late reply omg, welcome to simblr!! it is kinda crazy here but hopefully u can find ur peeps and make a nice home :) anywaysssss i think u mean recoloring, which is like when people add different colors other than the 18 EA base colors. I don’t allow people to use the meshes mainly bc I know that sometimes I have to go back and update things and this way the recolors don’t have a broken mesh and require that person to redo their package.

Anonymous said: whose ur fave member of lOoNa

my rankings as of right now: Kim Lip, Go Won, Olivia Hye, JinSoul, HyunJin, Chuu, HeeJin, Choerry, HeeJin, HaSeul, ViVi, and then YeoJin

also omfg if u have jinsoul/kim lip/choerry limited edition mix&match photocard and would like to gift me it then umm PLEASE they are impossible to find and i need for my collection ;-;

@disneynsims​ said: I am also a massive Britney Spears fan, and I have to say I appreciate you naming your hairs after her songs. I do make one small request, that a hair eventually be named after one of her best bonus tracks, “Up n’ Down”.

omg Up N’ Down is one of my least favorites on femme fatale grfbg but thank you!! I don’t really name hairs after her songs anymore :(

@issharky​ said: you’ve improved so much over the time! ive been following (on tsr and tumblr since i joined) since like 2016! ♥ still love your blog!            

ygvhbjn i didnt have a tsr but go awf lmao thank you!!! i was a mess in 2016 and a lil of 2017 <3

Anonymous said: Ur such a babe austin            

thx for sending this @dogsill​ ur a babe too 😘

Anonymous said: Discord? Patreon? And this are how a good simblr die

oof discord is literally like a groupchat thing but go off also patreon makes it so i release 3 hairs a month when before it was like 1 or 2 so ummm

Anonymous said: I have recently downloaded blender to make cc hairs, but I can’t zoom in, rotate, or do anything basically. Do you know of any tutorials that explain how to use it well/ in detail? (I have a windows laptop). Anyway, I recently discovered your hairs and I am in love!! Thank you for making so many beautiful pieces of cc!

urgg i really wish i could make video tutorials and stuff for blender and hairs :( I have tried about 3 or 4 times to record/stream and it is so laggy and just pure shit on stream and twitch. I kind of just learned stuff as i went in blender but a must have is a mouse of some kind, otherwise it is 10x harder

@alexschmidt629 said: Hey! I hope you’re doing a bit better than the last time you made your last post! I’m sorry to hear about all of that, being a senior is so difficult and college stuff is even more difficult. I hope you’re doing better!

thank you! I’m doing a bit better now :)

Anonymous said: holy shit it sounds like everything that literally could’ve gone wrong did. wishing u love and luck bb. and also i think its absolutely FINE that u put ur stuff up on patreon early, it’s still free in the end!! its just a choice to actually compensate cc creators for all that they do for us. god that person was just so rude and im kinda surprised at how kindly you took it. props to u xx 

yeah dsgf everything kinda went shitty the past few months but hopefully it all turns itself around :) and I try not to pick at any rude anons/asks in general bc I feel like by doing that it just causes more attention on the issue and more people/trolls want to jump on the band wagon. Thank you!!

Anonymous said: Oh honey, you need prayers and I wish you the best of luck with fasts, college, moving, and the rest of your life. Stay strong hon you got this!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

thank you <3

Anonymous said: hi is there a version off the Ella hair that has a bun in the back or am I crazy? probs crazy honestly, but thx for answering

I think you are thinking of my Maja hair? It has a different bottom but it has those same bangs! It is here

#asks #oml it was at 247 so im sorry if yours isnt in this

[sunyoonandstars]

In Between (BTS series) || Chapter 9.2 / Alternative Ending for NAMJOON

This series is based on a request made by the lovely @im-cxnfused. I hope it manages to meet your expectations! 💜

I got very inspired by this request, so it actually turned into a series.

This is one of two alternative endings to said series. Having arrived here, you must have gone to the right, choosing to go towards NAMJOON instead of Jimin. Let’s see how that goes …

Thank you for reading 💜 and staying with this series to the end! It’s much appreciated! Also, feedback is always welcome, in case you didn’t know. I truly hope this ending manages to meet your expectations somehow and doesn’t leave (too many of) you frustrated / upset / disappointed 🙊

Anyways, I won’t give any (more) spoilers. 

Enjoy! 💜 And feel free to leave feedback!

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Chapter Index - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9.1, 9.2 

Synopsis

You and Namjoon are in a committed relationship. Or so you had thought. When you catch him cheating, however, you decide to take revenge in a way equally brutal. But soon the events take an unforeseen turn, leaving you torn …

Pairing: You x Namjoon, You x Jimin

angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, occasional hints of smut

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You nod, pressing your eyes shut, drawing one last, deep breath before you turn to your right. 

Namjoon seems genuinely surprised when you open your eyes to look at him. Slowly, you take the first step towards him, a confident nod of your head answering the unvoiced question his wide eyes virtually scream at you. In obvious disbelief, his jaw drops while his face lights up with incredulous joy. „Really?“, he gasps, walking in your direction to meet you halfway and throw his arms around you, lifting you off the floor. „Yes, Namjoon.“ You break the embrace and take a step back, enabling you to look him straight in the eyes. „I’ll give you one last chance. One last chance to prove you’re still the man I fell in love with.“ „I will, y/n!“, he immediately assures you. „I will do everything in my power to prove to you that I am still worthy of your trust and love. I will atone for my indiscretion for the rest of my life and do whatever I can to make it up to you, I promise! Because, I really, truly, love you more than anything, y/n! I’m not exaggerating when I say I love you more than life itself. I don’t know what I’d do without you, and up until this moment, just now, I believed to have lost you for good. You have no idea how happy you make me by taking me back, y/n. I am seriously the happiest man alive on this whole, wide world right now. Thank you. Thank you, for giving me another chance.“ Still grinning broadly, Namjoon takes your hands into his and places gentle kisses on your scabbed knuckles, all the while looking you deep in the eyes, his gleaming with pure bliss and affection. A fond smile curving your lips, you watch him, your heart painfully twisting in your chest, torn between the happiness you feel at the sight of him right now and the hurtful memories of his past wrongdoings, haunting this reunion like dark shadows of an unfortunate future already towering over you. No, you push back your doubts. No, this is the right choice. You have to see if this, if you, can still work. Your heart had told you so. Told you to chose Namjoon once again. The past two years couldn't have been for nothing. They must be worth something, just like the promises he made, the plans you had for the shared years still ahead of you. Besides, you really have not much of a choice. After all, it’s not just your future at stake now. Not anymore. Yes. This must have been the right choice. You’re sure of it. Almost. Conscience-stricken, you turn around to look back at Jimin who has already left. His back to the two of you, he strides across the bridge, shoulders hunched, hands buried deep in the pockets of his jeans. He must be freezing. „I feel so sorry for him“, Namjoon mumbles into your hair, one arm wrapped around your waist, his words conveying nothing but sincerity. Yes. Sorry. That’s how you feel towards Jimin. No more, no less. Or at least that’s what you try to convince your pounding heart of. To no avail, though. You can’t keep lying to yourself. „Namjoon, I’m sorry. But there is something I have to say to him. I just can’t let him leave like this. I’ll be right back, okay?“ He nods, his eyes still fixed on Jimin’s stooping figure, slowly edging away. Clutching Jimin’s pebble in your aching hand inside the pocket of his coat you’re still wearing, you run after him, your legs carrying you as fast as they can, until you finally catch up to him, ready to collapse, struggling for breath, your throat hurting from the cold air.  „Jimin“, you gasp, barely catching him by the rim of his sweatshirt, incapable of taking even one more step. Flustered, he turns around, his face showing astonishment, anger, and an unbearable magnitude of pure pain. Seeing you, he instantly regains control over his emotions, his expression quickly changing into a cold, impassive mask, his eyes narrowing as he takes in your bent figure, still panting heavily. „What?“, he asks, his voice dead. „Your coat“, you barely get the words out, your lungs continuing to ache. „You can keep it“, Jimin simply shrugs, but you take it off nonetheless, handing it over only with the utmost reluctance, though, your hands not seeming to be willing to let go of the piece of clothing even when Jimin has long accepted it. So you stay, unmoving, both holding onto his feather down parka, staring into each other’s eyes as if aiming to burn holes into the opposite’s soul. „I’m so sorry, Jimin.“ He shows no reaction. „I know, it’s horribly selfish of me to say this, but I believe you should know in spite of everything.“ Your voice dries up, choking on the tears flooding your eyes. „Know what?“, Jimin inquires after seconds have passed. „I think I owe you at least my honesty“, you finally go on. „So, in the interest of full disclosure and the hope that it will somehow help you, us, to move on and maybe find back to our friendship one day in the not too distant future, I feel I need to tell you that I truly love you, Park Jimin. I still do. I always will. My feelings for you were real all along, nothing of it was ever fake or forced. And they will remain with me as long as I live, I’m sure of it. And I’m not telling you this to justify my choices or behavior. I am well aware of the fact that I mistreated you, and I hate myself for the way things came to be between us. I should never have let it go so far. I’m not saying that I regret being with you as more than a friend. I was happy during those weeks. You made me happy. Jimin, you are without a doubt one of the kindest, most loving, dedicated, strong and beautiful people I have ever met. And I know I don’t even deserve you, but in my egoism, I still wish we could just carry on what we started, just be together and —“ „Then let’s!“, he cuts you off, eyes suddenly alight with excitement, grasping your hand. Unwillingly, you pull away from his touch, peering at Namjoon who is watching your interactions intently. „Let’s just do that, y/n. Let’s be together. Namjoon will understand. Let’s just continue as if nothing happened“, he implores you, his pleading tone stinging your heart. Dropping your gaze, you slowly shake your head. „No. I’m sorry, Jimin, but we can’t do that.“ „Why not? Why can’t we?“ „Because there’s something I haven’t told you. Any of you. Namjoon doesn’t know either. I found out the day before I walked in on him and that woman. I was planning on telling him after my trip, but —“ „What? What is it, y/n!?“, he stops you in mid-sentence, having grabbed you by the shoulders with both hands, trying to catch your gaze, his eyes immediately wide with concern and panic. „Calm down, Jimin. It’s not like I’m gonna die or anything“, you scoff. But he doesn't seem to deem your remark especially funny. „Stop beating around the bush, y/n. I want to know, right now. What is it you have been keeping to yourself?“ You swallow hard, trying to gather the courage to say your following words out loud for the first time. „Jimin, I’m pregnant.“
 You can literally watch his jaw drop, all color draining from his shocked features. „You — You —“ Obviously struggling for words, Jimin merely points to your belly, his face frozen in a haunting state between dismay and delight. „Yes, Jimin, there’s a living being growing inside me that partly carries Kim Namjoon’s DNA.“ Still incredulous, his gaze wanders from your womb up to your eyes and back. „You’re serious?“, he eventually manages to say. „As serious as it gets. Why would I joke about something like this? It’s happening, Jimin, I’m inevitably getting huge and becoming a mother.“ „Wow.“ „Yeah, wow.“ For about a minute you stand opposite each other in silence, unmoving, until Jimin finally shakes off his paralysis, wresting his coat from your hands, still clutched around its sleeve, to wrap it around you once again. „Have you completely lost your mind, y/n!?“, he then unexpectedly raises his voice at you, apparently genuinely angry. „Running around like this, half-naked in this cold weather, when you are with child? Didn’t you think of your baby at all when you ran off like that?“ „Jimin, I didn’t think, alright? I’m not yet at all times fully aware of the fact that I’m gonna be a mother. I guess I’ll get used to it somehow, sooner or later. Used to not only think for myself anymore. But I’m not ready yet, okay?“, you scream back at him, your voice shrill and far too loud. But you don’t care about the passers-by staring, not even if Namjoon hears you. Tears now run down your cheeks, no strength left in you to hold them back for even only one more second. „The past few weeks have been intense. Too much, frankly. Confusing. Hurtful. Life changing. After I found out Namjoon was cheating — God knows if it was even his first time and how far things really went between him and that woman — It was like I was suddenly out of touch with my own life. I’m not even sure if I did it subconsciously or deliberately, but from the moment on when I walked in on them, I kind of blanked out all my thoughts and feelings of and for Namjoon, our past, and future. I forgot that I was carrying his child. I forgot. Can you believe it? Yes, I was sick, all the time. Remember? I puked like crazy. But we all thought it was psychosomatic nausea, or because I didn’t eat or something. And, yes, I was tired all the time. But I cried nonstop during the first few days. So, it didn’t seem that strange, right? Thinking back, I was so obviously pregnant, it’s almost funny, really. But I just didn’t wanna cope with it at the time, I guess. It’s not like I really forgot. I knew I was pregnant. Things like that don’t just slip your mind“, you scoff, Jimin simply staring at you, mouth agape. „You know, I had so much to deal with in the past few weeks, I couldn’t deal with becoming a mother, or maybe even a single parent, too. I had to get my act together first. So, I guess momentarily editing out the pregnancy part from the plot was, I don’t know, reasonable? The doing of some subliminal protective mechanism taking over my brain or something?“ You shrug helplessly, half laughing half crying. „Anyway, that’s why I have to give my relationship with Namjoon at least one last chance. I have to see if we can make it work. I won’t force anything, because no child can grow up happily and healthily in a forced marriage, hence a phony family. I don’t want that for this little guy. I want him or her to have parents who don’t only love their child, but also each other. If that’s not an option I’d rather raise this kid all by myself. Do you understand?“ „Yes“, Jimin nods, his expression serious. „I think that sounds very mature.“ „Thanks, I guess.“ Blushing, not even entirely sure why, you avert your face while Jimin leans in to gently pull the parka’s huge, faux furred hood over your head to protect your face against the gusting wind. „That was quite a monologue“, he smirks after the both of you had stood in silence for another painful minute. „Yeah. Sorry about that.“ „Don’t apologize. I just you think should have shared this revelatory moment with Namjoon, not with me, y/n.“ Tears, welling up once again, drown your voice, so instead you shake your head in response, avoiding Jimin’s eye. „Go to him, y/n. He must be worried out of his mind after watching the show you put on just now. Go to Namjoon, tell him about his child.“ Doing your best not to turn into a teary mess again, you ferociously chew on your bottom lip, feeling for Jimin’s rock in the depth of the left jacket pocket. Finally, you find it, immediate relief coming over you as you feel its cold, smooth surface against the palm of your hand. Questioningly, Jimin raises an eyebrow when you hold out your fist to him. „Open your hand“, you order him. Hesitantly, he does as you say, his eyes growing wide as he realizes what you just handed him. „I want you to keep that“, you explain, mustering neither the courage nor the strength to look him in the eye as you speak your next words. „I’m not gonna tell you to wait for me, Jimin. I don’t want you to waste any more of your time on me. I want you to live and love as freely as you please. I’m just saying that we never know what may happen. And that my heart belongs to you. It has ever since you picked this very stone up at the beach that day, and it always will. So, see this pebble as my heart and treat it well. Maybe it will bring you good luck, just like you always believed it would. I hope it does.“ Waving, forcing a smile, you look over at Namjoon when you notice him staring. „I have to go, Jimin. Please, get home safely and quickly. Try not to catch a cold. I’d hate to ruin your comeback.“ „Don’t worry.“ He smiles weakly. „I’m stronger than I look.“ „I know you are. I never doubted it.“ He shrugs. „Take care. Don’t do anything stupid. And, please, let’s stay friends.“ Before turning to go, you get on the tip of your toes, following a spontaneous impulse, and give Jimin a little peck on the cheek, leaving him flustered as you hurry back to Namjoons side, grateful for the icy wind quickly drying your tears. „What was that all about?“, Namjoon welcomes you. „You screamed and shouted. Did you have a fight?“ „No, not at all“, you shake your head. „Well, it looked like a fight“, he objects, suspiciously eying Jimin over his shoulder while he links arms with you and the two of you start walking in the opposite direction. „Not everything is always what it looks like, Namjoonie.“ A sigh escapes your lips. Just like it used to be, you think to yourself as you stroll across the bridge, Namjoon’s long arm across your shoulder. Almost. There is always going to be a bitter aftertaste to every joyful moment you both will share from now on, you then realize, a shiver running down your spine. „Joon, I have to tell you something. It’s kind of a big deal, actually, but I don’t want you to make a big fuss about it or anything.“ „Okay. Spill.“

THREE YEARS LATER...

„Now, again, Hyun-shik-ah, who is your daddy?“ Pouting, the little boy points to Jimin on whose lap he’s comfortably seated. „Wellllll …“, you tilt your head, having trouble to hold back amused laughter, as does Jimin, obviously. He is pressing his lips firmly shut, eyes gleaming with affection, looking at the little guy as if he could eat him alive right here and now. „Yes, he’s your daddy, too, of course.” „My favorite daddy“, Hyun-shik snaps, crossing his arms across his tiny chest, rosy lips pursed. Contritely, you look over at Namjoon, who, to your great relief, seems to be just as enamored by Hyun-shik and his little antics as you are. „And who is your other daddy?“ Reluctantly, the little one’s eyes land on Namjoon. „Yes, that’s right. Who’s that?“, you ask, reassuringly patting Hyun-shik’s glossy black hair. „I’m your daddy Namjoon, isn’t that right?“, Namjoon tries to break the ice, smiling cutely, the famous dimples showing which he passed on to the three-year-old of his own flesh and blood he is carefully approaching at this very moment. The little guy shyly pushes back into Jimin’s arms, hiding his handsome little face behind a curtain of shiny raven hair, his tiny black eyes wide and cheeks flushed. „I’m sorry, Namjoon, but he’s going through this phase right now, where he doesn’t let ‚strangers‘ near him. And you become practically a stranger to him as soon as he doesn’t see you for like three days in a row. He is just very shy right now.“ „You don’t have to make excuses, y/n, I know I haven’t seen him in a while. And he’s too young to understand“, Namjoon simply smiles, retreating and taking a seat next to you on the sofa, still fondly watching little Hyun-shik who has turned to Jimin, whispering something into his dad's ear, impatiently pulling at his hair when Jimin doesn’t come close enough quickly enough. An unconscious smile curves your lips while you observe their loving interactions, Hyun-shik and Jimin being lost in their own world, as usual, now quietly laughing at a joke they don't share with you. „He’s growing up so fast“, Namjoon sighs. „Yes. And he’s such a clever boy. Learning something new every day. That must be your genomes coming through“, you banter, eliciting a soft chuckle from Namjoon. „I should come and see him more often.“ „Yes, you should. I’m sure he’d grow to accept and love you quickly if you’d only visit on a more regular basis.“ Namjoon nods. „Maybe. But it’s not that easy, especially now that I have my solo career on the side.“ „I know, I know. I don’t intend to pressure you or give you a guilty conscience, Namjoon. You’re a passionate, successful man, I respect that. But you shouldn't forget that you can’t have everything.“ „I know, I know.“ For a few minutes, the two of you silently sit side by side, simply watching Jimin and Hyun-shik playing with toy cars, racing along an invisible course across the carpet of your living room. Until ... „Guess who is hooooome!?“, a loud voice suddenly rips throw the peaceful atmosphere. „Daddy Jin!“, Hyun-shik shouts out, his round little face lighting up at the sight of Seokjin appearing in the door frame, carrying several tightly packed shopping bags. Regardless of said bags, Hyun-shik throws himself into the extended arms of Jin, sending the both of them almost tumbling to the ground. „Ouch“, Namjoon scoffs at his son’s rejoice. „Well, Jin he sees almost every day at least for a few hours. You, on the other hand, he hasn't seen in … What? Five weeks?“ „Alright, alright, I’ll make an effort to come by more often“, he promises, his eyes still fixed on the three-year-old now helping Jin carry the heavy bags towards the kitchen. „Guess what I’m gonna cook for us today, Hyun-shik-ah?“ Smiling to yourself you watch Jin and your son disappear into the corridor. „I’m headed to the kitchen to help Jin out. As you very well know our Hyun-shik can be quite a handful“, Jimin says, leaning over the sofa’s backrest next to you. „Is there anything you want, baby? Anything you need? That herbal tea you’re crazy for these days? Or some watermelon maybe?“ „No, thanks, Jimin honey“, you smile, turning towards him to meet his lips in a quick kiss. „Alright“, he sighs, leaning down even further to tenderly caress your round belly before he turns to go. „I’ll be in the kitchen if you or Mini-Park need anything, y/n baby. The guys are coming over for dinner soon. Jungkookie promised he’d bring that snack you crave. What was it again?“

THE END

Thank you all for reading and sticking with this series until the end!!! 🙏🏻💜

I hope you enjoyed this final chapter and the way it turned out! I really hope I didn’t disappoint any / too many of you who expected an actual happy ending your y/n and Namjoon. Just like I didn’t have an actual outline for the other alternative ending, I didn’t have this one exactly planned out, either, but rather just went with the flow, to see where it would take me …I intended to somehow force a scenario in which Namjoon and y/n end up happily together. But it just didn’t feel right / seem reasonable or natural. And the pregnancy thing was actually the product of a spontaneous idea. It surprised me, too, but in the end, it somehow made sense. + I never said in this version y/n would actually end up with Namjoon. I merely said you / y/n would choose to go right, towards Namjoon, and pick him at that very moment. from there onwards the story kind of developed a life of its own. Sorry, not sorry. + (I hope? lol) Anyways, I really hope you, who chose to go right and stay loyal to Namjoon despite everything he did, are still somehow satisfied with the outcome and don’t hate me too much. 😭💜Feel free to leave feedback and check out my Masterlist for more BTS fiction.

Anyway, thanks again for staying with this series! I hope you enjoyed it! take care! I wish you all the best and a very nice day! 💜

P.S.: There’ll probably be a BONUS CHAPTER added soon, for everyone who’s interested, telling the story of your / y/n’s first meeting with Jimin and the events that followed …

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[helstrome]

Start Over - Part 1

This is the first story/first member I wrote for the Hospital AU! The scenes and the medical case are based on Grey’s Anatomy episode so if there were unintentional similarities I’m sorry >.

Another member on going: Hansol (go to @your-safety-pin page!)

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5 [final]  (doctor!doyoung; hospital!au; Word count: 2021; Warning: mainly language; the dream boys are in their 20s in the story, 127 boys are in their mid to late 20s)

It was going to be your first day as an intern at the famous, reputable learning hospital you have been dreaming of for so long, and it was finally happening. You took confident steps inside the front door of the gigantic hospital, you still have 10 more minutes to spare before the actual work time began. You asked the receptionist about the surgery department and went straight to the wing. There were a lot of other interns swarming the place, looking nervous and exchanging whispers. You couldn’t help but feel all your confidence starting to go down the drain too; the realization of how big the opportunity actually was downed on you again. You fiddled with your fingers distractingly as a doctor came in and made everyone instantly quieted down.

“Good morning. I am Kim Minseok, the Chief of Surgery and I would like to welcome you to the internship program. I hope all of you are aware that this is not an opportunity we hand easily to any medical doctor graduates out there, because this hospital is known as one of the most reputable learning hospital out there, everyone is willing to risk everything they’ve got just to stand right at the spot you’re all standing at this very moment.”

Everyone tensed up at his words. There was a lot of interns at the room, but only 7 would be able to pass internship and gained residency after passing the examination. It was not an easy task to survive the internship phase, let alone being a resident for the years to come.

“I would like to remind you again that this isn’t child’s play, this isn’t a joke. Each of you comes here hopeful, wanting in on the game. It’s a competition, and you are among the best of the best in your previous schools, but you stand on the same ground here from day 1. You need to gain from scratch. You will be pushed to the breaking point. Prove to us your worth. Give us better than your best, work harder than your hardest, and by then we will be the one deciding if you have what it takes to be someone responsible enough of life or death situation in your hands.” He swept his intimidating gaze to all the new interns in the room, giving a slight nod and left.

That made all of you left gaping in silence as few more doctors came in and grouped the interns randomly. You were in a group with three other male interns named Zhong Chenle, Lee Jeno and Park Jisung. Your group was assigned to a resident, Dr. Kim Jungwoo. The interns quickly dispersed to their designated groups, with their residents starting to introduce themselves and taking off to different directions.

“So, I’m going to be your resident. Call me doctor Jungwoo. These are all your pagers and now follow me, I’ll give you a brief tour of the place.” Your group hurriedly took the pagers and followed Dr. Jungwoo before you all could even introduce yourselves, trying to remember the routes they took around the huge place but as with every other hospital, the hallways looked identical with one another and you were left scratching the back of your head nervously when you weren’t able to map out the floor.

“The rules are common and sensible. Be ready at all times. Nurses are going to page you, you answer every page at a run. Run everywhere. Every second counts, patients’ life and death depends on it. Don’t complaint about doing useless works because you heard what Chief Minseok said, you stand on the same ground. You’re interns, bottom of the food chain. You start from scratch. Your first shift lasts in 36 hours. That’s fairly easy, but enough to test if you have the willpower to be here or not. On call rooms are hogged by attendings. Sleep where you can, when you can. It’s gonna be the best and worst time of your lives from now on, might as well enjoy it.” They were all dismissed and they went to the locker room to change and placed their stuff to their assigned lockers. “Are you nervous?” An artificial blonde haired guy from your group asked you quietly from your side. “Huh?” You snapped out of your gaze and looked up to him. He was smiling brightly down at you, and you gulped at how cute he looked. “Yeah, a lot.” You admitted bashfully. Someone from behind perked up. “Me too! Oh my god, the Chief was scary.”

“He was! I almost peed my pants. Wait- okay, not a really manly introduction. Anyway, my name is Chenle.” A cute looking tall guy extended his hand out for you to shake, and you did by saying your name in return.

“I’m Jisung!” The taller of the bunch grinned at the three of you.

“I’m Jeno.” The blonde guy smiled again. The nervousness that hit you earlier made you unaware of the situation because now that you actually looked around, the interns you were grouped with was a bunch of cute guys that looked too young to be around your age.

You arrived at the lockers room where some other interns were already gathered inside. You changed your clothes and put your bag inside your locker when a granola bar appeared in front of your face all of the sudden. You blinked and peered to your left; there was another cute guy and you jumped a little at the surprise. “Oh! I didn’t mean to startle you. I’m giving granola bars to everyone- my name is Renjun!” He spoke kindly. You chuckled awkwardly and thanked him, following him to the bench at the centre of the room. “I haven’t introduce myself to you, I think. I’m Jaemin and this is Haechan!” The guy was all smiley when he introduced himself and the Haechan guy shrugged indefferently, munching on his bar like he hadn’t eat for days. “I thought the residents are going to be as scary as Chief Minseok!” Chenle said in between his chews. Renjun pursed his lips. “I know, right? I was being paranoid when I read all the stories about unforgiving tough residents that is going to haunt us in our sleepless shifts. Turns out resident Lee… Was kinda unique.” “I like dr. Mark,” Haechan chimed. “Yeah, I think dr. Jungwoo is nice too. At least he remembers our names.” You added. You were all back in the ER after a bit, waiting for the assigned residents when a woman came in with a bad gash on her forehead. Dr. Jungwoo arrived as if on cue, and assigned Chenle to do the stitching. Turned out a machine in the factory broke and fell when she was working. Jeno was about to help assisting when Dr. Jungwoo’s pager beeped. He ran to the door followed by Jisung, Jeno, and you; an ambulance came and the EMTs wheeled a gurney, giving status about the girl patient who was having seizures. They all pushed the girl towards one of the rooms as fast as they could, while Jisung was getting the nurse to prepare medications. Dr. Jungwoo began giving orders. “Jeno, hold the girl. (Y/N), inject 5 miligrams of diazepam IM.” You inserted the needle that nurse Sicheng prepared under the resident’s watch. Almost immediately, the girl stopped seizing. “Okay, great. Son Seungwan, 19 years old. Intermittent seizures for the past week. Started grand mal seizures right after descending the ambulance.” Dr. Jungwoo explained about the patient’s condition, examining her files. “She looks like a flailing fish earlier.” A doctor walked in to the room and stopped right in front of the door, his tone cold and his face void of expression. “You should run some basic tests.” “Right, doctor Taeyong. They’re my new interns.” Dr. Jungwoo said to the other doctor. He nodded and left the room just like that without any greeting or intrlduction, making the interns stood there in befuddlement. Dr. Jungwoo averted his gaze back to all of you. “Okay, Jeno is going to do labs. Chenle-” “Doc! Someone is waiting with arm laceration.” Nurse Sicheng popped his head from the door, looking expectant to Dr. Jungwoo. “Ah then. Chenle, stitch the patient up. You did a good job last time, why don’t you practice some more.” Chenle’s eyes widened and he was about to protest but he thought better of it and left the room with nurse Sicheng. “Patient’s your responsibility, (Y/N). Get her prepared for a CT. Don’t mess this up.” He pointed his pen to you and handed you the girl’s files. “Wait- what do I do now?” Jisung asked in between the exchange. Dr. Jungwoo replied while walking out from the room, snickering. “You can do rectal exams, maknae!”

The patient was awake a little while after and you were preparing her to do the CT scan, but apparently when she didn’t have seizures, she talked a lot.

“You know, I was supposed to be in this beauty pageant contest! Do you know it? You do, right! It’s super famous.” “I don’t, actually.” You replied through gritted teeth. She didn’t get the clue to stop, though, because she kept on blabbering her story. “I’m really sure I could have won it if I didn’t mess the rhythmic gymnastic up. I fell and sprained my ankle- wait are you lost? You seem like you don’t really know where to go.” You were about to facepalm yourself because the girl was really noisy, you were really lost, and you didn’t sign up for hearing other people’s problems while you were dealing with shitload of it yourself. “You’re really lost, aren’t you?” You took a deep breath and trying your best to not snap at your first patient ever. Luckily for you, you came to the right section and eyed the CT room sign down the hall. After you got her scan and wheeled her back to her room, Son Seungwan’s parents were waiting inside. “So how is she right now? Does she need any surgery?” Her dad stood up from the couch and walked up to you. You were taken aback by the sudden question because you were alone and you didn’t have the rights to answer it. “I’m sorry, but I only helped preparing her for the CT scan. I’m not her doctor, I’ll get the assigned doctor for you. Please wait up ” you bowed and smile politely before hurrying out to find doctor Jungwoo. “Doctor Jungwoo! Son Seungwan’s parents are inside her room and asking about her condition.” You spoke through ragged breaths from running around to find him. He looked up from his computer screen. “I’m not her doctor, you should find doctor Kim from neuro. Ask the front desk for his office, I think he should be there.” You dismissed yourself and asked the nurse for Dr. Kim neurosurgeon’s office. You were nervous the time you reached the path of his office because it was going to be a complete stranger you were about to face, not to mention one of your highly respected seniors. You have been told that the neurosurgery department in the hospital was one of the two best in the country. You arrived in front of his office but the door was open and there was a guy sitting behind the desk, looking down to what seemed like a pile of case files. He had a black hair and wide shoulders, his built made him look like he was too young for the job, since he was already an attendant; a neurosurgeon, at that. You didn’t want to come off rude so you knocked softly at the door, making him alarmed there was someone else in the room. He looked up from his papers and his eyes locked with yours. You almost cursed out loud. Out of all chance, out of all Kim surnames in the country, the doctor that was staring at you just had to be that one Kim you never seemed to be able to forget. Kim Doyoung. Your ex boyfriend.

Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5 [final] 

#nct writing #nct doyoung #nct au #nct scenario #nct drabble #nct hospital au #nct 127 scenarios #nct 127 au #nct u au #nct u scenario #kim doyoung #doyoung #doctor!doyoung #zeromilewrites

[hoonface]

Tag Games?

Thank you for tagging me!! @s-lay-ing​ I ACTUALLY REALLY LOVE YOUR BLOG AKDHSKASJDH THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I’m not sure which ones I was supposed to do? So I just did all of them XD I would like to taaag ( Rules: Answer the questions and tag amazing followers you would like to get to know better!) IS THAT THE RULE IM NOT SURE IM SO CLUELESS PLEASE FORGIVE ME :| anyywaaay @wonuthewhale @healinghoshi i see carmen is already tagged so no jisoosmeoli then @jisoominghao @jeongjarsofhannie and @zeungkwan !! Optional of course, and anyone else who’d like to do this is absolutely welcomed!! 

Name: I prefer to be called Camilla online for personal reasons 😃 I     hope you all understand!

Nicknames: not much tbh?  

Zodiac Sign: Libra

Height: I actually don’t know? Around 155-157?     Short af =-=

Orientation: …pardon? As in introduction? WAIT     IM GONNA GOOGLE THIS: it says something but I don’t get it um so it says     basic attitudes? I like to not badmouth about anyone? I’m sorry I can’t do     this one TT-TT 

Ethnicity: I’m from Hong Kong 😃   

Favorite Fruit: …I actually don’t know um I like     cherry tomatoes cut in half with cooking salt on them? I’m strange yes.

Favorite Season: Autumn 

Favorite Book: this question is asking too     much of me I LOVE READING MY FAVOURITE SERIES WOULD EITHER BE THE LAND OF     STORIES, OR THE HUNGER GAMES 1, CAUSE TWO AND THREE WERE CONFUSING AF. 

Favorite Flower: Jeonghan’s sunflower: Minghao     XD

Favorite Scent: food? In general?

Favorite Colour: I like soft orange kind of? 

Favorite Animal: Your domestic house pets, but     I am open to new animals 😃

Favorite Beverage: …soda? Until the carbon     goes up your nose and it hurts like hell :DD

Average Sleep Hours: Depends if I’m in exam     period or not? Usually around 7-4??

Favorite Fictional Character: …I um. Don’t know?     Sorry :|

Number of blankets you sleep with: this is so     random what XD around one or two. Depends on season.

Dream Trip: The Maldives and Italy, after that     I’m up for everything 

Blog Created: Ooooh… September 2016?

Hogwarts House: I haven’t Harry Pottered don’t     kill me pls

Time Right Now: 7 something pm

Lucky Number: 5?

Last Thing I Googled: define “orientation” as     reference to ^^^^^ 

Favorite Bands/groups: I don’t really have a     favourite group outside Seventeen, cause before kpop I listened to a     variety? BUT HELL YEAH SEVENTEEN!

Favorite Solo Artist: I’m not sure heheh…

Song stuck in my head: From Now On, Kim Min     Seung, THAT CUTE CUTE CUTE OST FROM WEIGHTLIFTING FAIRY  

Last movie watched: in the cinemas? SAO’s     Ordinal Scale. 

Last TV show watched: let’s just say     weightlifting fairy for this

What are you wearing right now: pyjamas?

Dream job: I don’t really have my mind set     yet, but my mother suggested an editor? If I’m good enough at English that     is XD 

Following: um let me check…361 as of today!

Posts: 2169 holy crap

Do you get asks regularly: no TT-TT please     feel free to make my day and drop in! 

Do you have any other blogs: nope XD I came to     Tumblr to get to know Seventeen better WHEN I CRASHED AND BURNED INTO     DIAMOND LIFE AFTER MANSAE MV OK I GOT SO ALSDLASDKJ

What I Post About: I don’t post that much, but     when I do its usually kpop? And occasionally personal, if you see a full     stop and the tags will be me ranting or talking to myself/

Why you chose your url: I suck at puns so     yeah. It used to be seventeenismyhealing and I miss that url… 

When Did My Blog Reach it’s Peak: HOW DO I     CHECK THIS? I am sorry I don’t know how to check this…

Second game:  AM I ALLOWED TO DO THIS?

rules: bold the statements that apply to you!

appearance:

i am 5′7″ or taller

i     wear glasses

i have at least one     piercing 

i have blonde hair

i have brown eyes

i have short hair

my abs are at least somewhat defined

i have or have had     braces

there     is something i would change about the way i look

personality:

my hogwarts house is: gryffindor hufflepuff     ravenclaw slytherin

i am an introvert

i like meeting new people 

people tell me that i’m funny

helping others with their problems is a big     priority for me

i enjoy physical challenges (depends of the challenge obvi)

i enjoy mental challenges

i’m playfully rude with people i know well

i started saying     something ironically and now i can’t stop saying it

there     is something i would change about my personality

ability:

i can sing well

i     can play an instrument

i can do over 30 pushups without stopping

i’m a fast runner

i can draw well

i have a good memory I am the human     dory. I don’t remember the stuff I’m meant to remember but I remember all     the things I don’t need to help.

i’m     good at doing math in my head

i can hold my breath underwater for over a     minute

i have beaten at     least 2 people in arm wrestling

i know how to cook     at least 3 meals from scratch

i know how to throw a proper punch

hobbies:

i     enjoy playing sports

i’m     on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

i’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or     somewhere else

i have learned a new song in the past week

i work out at least once a week

i’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the     warmer months

i     have drawn something in the past month – I DREW AN EAGLE IN ART TODAY IT     LOOKS BAD LOL

i enjoy writing (yet I don’t do it :p)

fandoms     are my #1 passion

i do or have done martial arts

experiences:

i have had my first     kiss

i have had alcohol

i have scored the winning goal in a sports     game I play basketball     the points add up I don’t know who scores the winning basket XD 

i have watched an entire season of a tv show     in one sitting in     a day?

i have been at an overnight event

i have been in a     taxi

i     have been in the hospital or er in the past year

i have beaten a video game in one day

i have visited     another country

i have been to one of my favourite band’s     concerts 

relationship:

i’m in a relationship

i have a celebrity crush

i have a crush on someone i know

i have been in at least 3 relationships

i have never been in a relationship

i have asked someone out or admitted my     feelings to them

i get crushes easily

i     have had a crush on someone for over a year

i have been in a relationship for at least a     year

i     have had feelings for a friend FRIENDZONEED     lol jks were like best friends now

my life:

i have at least one person i consider a “best     friend”

i live close to my school (I used to but I     don’t go to school/uni anymore)

my parents are still together

i have at least one sibling

i live in the united states

there is snow right now where i live

i     have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month we don’t go     to the same school anymoreeee

i have a smartphone

i have at least 15     cds

i share my room with someone

random shit:

i have breakdanced

i     know a person named jamie

i     have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

i have dyed my hair

i’m listening to one song on repeat right now     (bruh holy shit I have monsta x’s beautiful on repeat right as we speak)

i     have punched someone in the past week NOT REALLY JUST LIGHT PUNCH I THINK

i know someone who has gone to jail

i have broken a bone

i have eaten a waffle today

i know what i want to do with my life

i speak at least 2 languages fluently

i have made a new friend in the past year

#thank you for tagging me in this!! #tagged #mentions #game stuff lol #text

[jae-bummer]

My Idol: Part Seven

My Idol From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My Idol is a South Korean competitive reality dating game show. It currently airs on Wednesday nights on Jae-bummer’s blog. First broadcast in 2016, the show offers the opportunity for a lucky fan to go on seven blind dates with seven idols. The idol plans the date with the show throwing in specific missions to complete during the day. At the end of the initial dates, the show opens up an audience vote to decide what three idols will move on to the second date.

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You shifted on your couch again, furrowing your brows as you attempted to focus on the television screen. The cushions you were lounging on had suddenly felt scratchy, uncharacteristically stiff as you attempted to get comfortable. You realized it was useless at this point. The only thing occupying your thoughts was My Idol, and more specifically, the men you had met through it’s dating process. You were terrible at trying to entertain your thoughts and find any sort of solace as your mind kept wandering back to them...

Im Jaebum, the surprisingly soft and sexy leader. As if rewinding an old movie, you thought of the moment when his lips had touched yours, swift and accidental. You recalled the exact shade of blush that consumed his whole face as he looked up from the ice, just as surprised at his action as you were. 

You shook your head, your mind immediately launching to the cheerful Kim Taehyung, who was already planning your second date during your first. You smiled as you thought of his large hand incasing yours, so focused on protecting you and making sure you were comfortable at all times. 

And last your mind wandered to Jay. What a rollercoaster of emotions his date had been. You closed your eyes so tightly that you began to see stars, unsure if you wanted to recall the dates conclusion. He had kissed you, gently and deliberately, making sure he left an impression on you. 

And the viewers. 

You bit your lip, opening your eyes. You knew he had kissed you for the fan votes...but ultimately, didn’t that mean he had kissed you because he wanted to see you again?

Sighing, you looked at the time displayed on your phone screen. You would be meeting this week’s idol at a coffee shop about a block away. It was an after dinner date that would go into the night, the first of it’s kind during your stint on the show. Almost as if on cue, a heavy knock landed on your door, signaling the arrival of the camera crew. 

Three down. Four more to go. You could do this. 

“Hey guys,” you sighed, looking at Armpit and Sweaty respectively. They nodded to you, stepping backwards as you exited your apartment and locked it up. “Nice night for a walk isn’t it?”

“I’m not big on walking,” Sweaty grunted, following behind you as you shuffled down the hallway and out onto the sidewalk. 

“Good thing you have a job that requires a ton of it then,” you muttered, digging your hands deep into your pockets. “Do I get any hints on who my date is tonight?”

“Yeah, it’s an idol,” Sweaty spat, chuckling at himself. He elbowed Armpit to join along in the laughter, but Armpit simply rolled his eyes. 

“Wow, you should probably quit your job immediately and become a stand up comedian,” you hissed, looking over your shoulder to glare at him. “You have an unexplored talent there.” 

Sweaty began to grumble to himself beneath his breath, barely able to keep up with your quick steps. You were anxious to see who you would be meeting tonight, but it was also incredibly cold outside. You continued your trek in silence, only speaking when you began to approach the destination. 

“Alright, hold on,” Armpit heaved, attempting to catch his breath. “Let us set up a little bit before you go in.”

“Can’t you set up inside?” you whispered, your breath appearing in the air before you. “I can’t very well go on a date if I’m frostbitten.”

“Quit being dramatic,” Sweaty argued. “It’ll only be a few minutes.”

You rolled your eyes as you stopped in front of the coffeeshop and looked up. “Momo Coffee” the sign read in bright letters. You furrowed your brows, searching your brain for the familiarity of the shop name. 

“Momo coffee...momo coffee...” you whispered, chewing on your lip. “Oh! Monsta X!” You spun on your heel, facing the cameramen. “Is it a member of Monsta X?”

The two men looked wearily at each other as they fiddled with different pieces of equipment. “Why would it be Monsta X?” Armpit finally muttered, not bothering to look up. 

“Wonho’s mom owns this shop!” you nodded happily, proud of the fact you had unearthed from the deepest recesses of your brain. 

“Could be a coincidence,” Sweaty mumbled. “If it’s owned by an idol’s mom, wouldn’t other idols know about it?” 

“Well...yeah, but-” you began, but the wind was quickly taken out of your sails. “You guys suck.”

“Yeah well, we think fondly upon you as well,” Armpit sighed, shouldering his camera and jutting his chin out in the direction of the coffee shop. “You can go in now.”

The smell of the coffee shop surrounded your senses, filling you with warmth before you were even out of the cold. You pulled open the door, holding it open for the camera men behind you. You were used to their presence by now and even found yourself looking for them when they weren’t around. You scanned the coffee shop slowly, several patrons turning to look as a bell had jingled upon your entrance. A man sitting at the far side of the cafe looked up as well, his gaze lasering in on you. He wore a mask, so it was difficult to identify his face, but his bangs were fashioned into a comma part, dark brown and wavy. He stood, his eyes disappearing into slits to signify the smile hiding behind his mask. 

“Hey,” he called, quickly approaching you. He bowed politely before tugging the mask off of his face. “I’m Monsta X’s Jooheon.”

You nodded, mildly starstruck for a moment. You were so starstruck in fact, that you didn’t even bother rubbing in your correct guess to Armpit and Sweaty. Monsta X was one of your favorite groups and you were terrified that one of their members could possibly be your date for the evening. 

“What’s your name?” Jooheon smiled, waiting patiently. 

“Sorry, I’m Y/N,” you whispered with a small bow. “Monsta X is my favorite group. I need to calm my nerves for a moment.”

You mentally cringed as the words passed your lips. 

“Oh wow,” Jooheon gasped, his eyebrows shooting up. His kind smile never left his face. “You’re a fan? Here, sit, sit.” 

He waved you to a nearby table and pulled a chair out for you. You gratefully sat down and winced. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to sound weird. Did I come across as weird?”

Why did you keep talking? Just stop talking, Y/N. 

“Not weird at all, very cute actually,” Jooheon chuckled. “I’ll go get us some coffee. Maybe something warm will clear your thoughts.”

It took everything you had in you not to face palm yourself as Jooheon sauntered away. He looked good, but all of the men you had met so far had. His jacket was swung over the seat across from you and you hesitated, talking yourself out of touching the fabric. That would have been entirely too much...but you did it anyway. 

You looked up at Jooheon’s back as he waited patiently at the counter, smiling at the barista as he pointed to the menu boards. You realized he had never asked what you had wanted, but it probably would have been pointless if he had. You had never been here before and you were sure he had. He turned around, two coffees in hand, and began to shuffle back toward you. You immediately averted your gaze, occupying your attention with one of the signed photos on the wall. 

“Here you go,” he cooed, setting the mug down before you. “I think you’ll like it. It’s pretty sweet, like you.”

You felt your face become hot at his comment. Normally lines like that would never slide past you, but you allowed it with Jooheon. 

“Normally I take my coffee dark,” you whispered, stirring at the contents of the cup. “But sweet can be good too.”

“I can order you something else,” Jooheon gasped, instinctively reaching out for your drink. 

You shook your head, placing a hand protectively over the porcelain and the other over Jooheon’s outstretched hand. You pushed it away gently and smiled. “If it’s a Jooheon recommendation, it will be perfect.”

“Aigoo, don’t put that much pressure on my decisions,” he grinned. “I picked it because the name was cute and Hoseok’s mom drinks it.” 

“This is her shop, right?” you asked, continuing to stir nervously. “Wonho’s mom’s?”

“Yeah, you knew?” Jooheon asked, his eyebrows shooting up in surprise. “You really are our fan then.”

“I am,” you nodded with a small smile. 

“So who’s your favorite then?” Jooheon chuckled. You froze for a moment, looking up at him. 

“Do I have to have a favorite?”

“Every fan has a favorite,” he grinned. ‘Even when you say you don’t, your subconscious has made the decision for you.”

You nodded, biting on your lip in thought. “Alright, well you’re my favorite then.”

“You’re only saying that because you’re on a date with me!” Jooheon gasped. 

“Not true,” you giggled. “Well...partially true. But that’s one of the reasons why you’re my favorite. You’re also talented, smart, and incredibly handsome...plus your last mixtape was lit.”

“Aren’t I supposed to be the one making you blush?” Jooheon grumbled, hiding his smile by sipping on his coffee. He pulled back from the cup and hissed, smacking his lips. “Be careful, it’s hot.”

“Thanks,” you smiled, your sarcasm getting the best of you. “The steam didn’t alert me to that.”

Jooheon’s eyes grew wide as he stared at you. You immediately bit your tongue, mentally checking yourself. You couldn’t talk to someone like that out of the gate. “Sorry,” you whispered, an embarrassed heat returning to your face. “I’m a little...rough sometimes.”

“Some of the best people are,” Joooheon cooed. “Matter of fact, some of my favorite people are a little sharp on the outside.”

“Just try not to get cut on my edges,” you sighed. “If I say something too rude, feel free to let me know.” 

“I don’t think we’ll have any problems with that,” he grinned. “How many dates have you been on so far?”

“Three,” you nodded, furrowing your brows as you thought over your contractual obligations. Could you talk about other dates with your current date?

“I know we can’t talk about it really,” Jooheon sighed, seemingly reading your mind. “But I’ve been keeping an unbiased eye on the show when it airs.”

“Have you?” you breathed. So he had seen you with other men? Seen you kissing his competition? 

“I have,” he nodded. “I have to say, my coffee date is feeling real inadequate after spa week.”

You cackled, shutting your eyes as the laugh shook through you. Jooheon laughed as well, simply pleased that he was able to make you laugh. 

“Thank you for taking me here,” you said quietly after the giggles had subsided. “I don’t think I could take another spa week.”

Your comment made Jooheon’s smile grow even larger. “Ah, so how are the dates going? From your perspective? This whole thing must be a crazy experience.”

“It is,” you nodded. “But I’ve managed to meet some really lovely guys. You included.”

“Aw stop,” Jooheon whined, never losing his smile. “You’re just being nice.”

“As noted earlier, being nice isn’t my initial go to,” you laughed. Jooheon laughed as well, shaking his head. You made an internal note at how wonderful Jooheon’s laugh was. No matter what you said, he always offered up a smile. It made your heart feel warm and your mind feel appreciated. It was definitely something you could get used to. 

“Mission,” Armpit grunted, thrusting the envelope Jooheon’s way. You looked at him curiously, lifting your brows. 

“And no, you aren’t allowed to rip it.”

You chuckled, thinking back on your previous date and how proud Jay had made you. 

Jooheon rolled his eyes, making sure to look up at you kindly before pulling the envelope open. 

“Can you trespass into her heart? Deliver your best aegyo to make your date laugh. Finish in 60 seconds and escape the penalty.”

Jooheon looked up, his face surprised. “Why would they challenge me with something I’m so good at?”

You winced, biting your lip. He was admittedly adorable. “Maybe because I’m not known to be susceptible to that type of thing?”

“Obviously you haven’t been around me then,” he grinned. “My charm is impossible to ignore.”

“You know what, Jooheon?” you laughed. “I think I can believe that.”

“All you aegyo scrubs,” he mumbled in his deepest octave. “Watch and learn.”

To Be Continued...

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 - Part 12 - Part 13 - Part 14 - Part 15 - Part 16 - Part 17 - Part 18 - Part 19 - Part 20 - Part 21 - Part 22

#lee jooheon #jooheon #monsta x #my idol #monsta x jooheon #jay park #aomg #im jaebum #got7 #bts #bangtan boys #kim taehyung #v #oh sehun #sehun #exo #mingyu #kim mingyu #seventeen #top #bigbang #seunghyun

[waitinginthedarke]

Existing

A BTS/ Kim Seokjin Fanfiction

Summary: He looked like an angel, and spoke like a singer. Next to you, a university student surviving on 5 hours sleep a night, and holes in your shoes, he seemed to have it all. But at the end of the day, you were both just Existing. You just cant help but think, it might be more fun to Exist together...

A/N: I am so happy to release the first chapter of this story to you, after sitting on it for quite a while. But im glad that you can finally have Jin’s story! :) (for regular readers, it will follow the kind of formatting used for Voices and Exposure- although this first chapter is slightly longer.)

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10 Chapter 11 Chapter 12

Part 1

‘I seriously don’t know how they expect me to get all of this done in two weeks.’

Exhaustion taints your words as you lean back in your chair, resting your head back on your shoulders as you look longingly out of the café window, the same view having greeted you for the past 4 hours that you’d been sat trying to work on your latest assignment for university, and each time having taunted you with the prospect of escape, before you’d ultimately turned back to your laptop to continue tapping nonsensically away.

‘Come on, Y/N, only 3 more weeks and then you’ll be free of this.’ You mutter to yourself, dragging in a deep breath once more before sitting back up and cracking your back as you refocus on what you were writing.

Although, its after around 5 minutes of staring dumb-foundedly at the paragraph of gibberish on the screen in front of you, that a loud hulking laugh penetrates through your concentration and you peer up at the counter of the café to see two tallish boys chuckling away together, their faces immediately catching your attention as you take in how stunningly beautiful they were.

‘Well, that’s a sight for sore eyes.’ You mumble, taking a moment to appreciate the beauty of them, but getting cut off when you suddenly see the most angelic boy turning to look in your direction, hurriedly looking back down at your computer and feeling your face heat up like a furnace. Of course, you couldn’t stop yourself from taking one last peak up at them when you hear them begin to mutter between one another once again, watching them receive their order of two hot drinks and a selection of cookies and biting your lip when you see the tempting sight of chocolate.

‘God, I could really do with a cookie right now.’ You murmur to yourself, sighing, and shaking yourself out of your thoughts as you try to reject the exhaustion pulling at your bones, instead leaning back to stretch in your chair and momentarily closing your eyes as you take a moment to escape the stoic pose you’d been sat in for the past few hours.

You draw in a deep breath as you sit up once more, feeling like weights were pulling at your eyes and having an odd sense of disorientation as the café blurs in your vision slightly, before you peer at the clock on the wall to see that rather than the 5 minutes you were expecting, 2 whole hours had passed.

‘Oh My God!’ you gasp, realizing you must have fallen asleep and awkwardly scrabbling into a more upright position, rubbing your eyes weakly and groaning as you think about how much time you’d lost that you could have spent working on your assignment.

‘Im so dead.’ You groan, instantly standing and walking over to the counter to order a coffee to go, and quickly packing up as you wait for your coffee to be ready.

‘Americano?’

You sigh as your order is called, hurrying to shove the rest of your stuff into your bag so that you could swing it onto your shoulder, before going to turn back to the counter, only to almost walk straight into a set of wide shoulders.

‘Oh, sorry.’ You mutter, about to move around them, before you realize the man was holding a cup out for you to take, your order of an Americano in his hand making you frown as you try to remember if you’d paid for it…

But that was before you looked up.

And you took in the same angel’s face with those warm chocolate brown eyes that you’d seen stood at the counter earlier.

Only this time, those eyes were staring down at you.

‘Here.’

‘Uh…’

You couldn’t help but stare at him, your sleep-slackened mind not helping your confused state of mind as you take in the smooth, yet strong plains of his face, the darkness of his brows and his lashes, the luscious, model-like curve of his lips, and the startling beauty of his brown eyes.

‘I…uh…I’ve already paid for it…so don’t worry about the bill.’

His manly timbre ran the length of your spine, and its not until you’d managed to shakily raise your hand to take the cup from him, that you realize what he’d said.

‘Oh. I…Thank you! I….weren’t you here earlier?’ you ask, widening your eyes when you realize what you’d said, but before you can get too embarrassed he’d begun to chuckle and nod his head, the light lilt of his laugh making you bite your lip in your awkwardness.

‘Uh…yeah…I-I saw you working. I-um, actually, I’ve been here all afternoon. After my friend left I realized you’d fallen asleep, but I was- God. This is going to sound really creepy….but I just wanted to watch over you. – I mean, I wanted to make sure no-one tried to steal your stuff..I-‘

‘Oh. Wow. Now i’m embarrassed.’ You mutter, trying not to think of the amount of drool that probably left your mouth as you slept, and how you probably looked ridiculously gross while you slept, the fact that he’d seen it all factoring into your mind quicker than the fact that he’d wanted to watch over you.

‘No! No. Don’t be embarrassed! You’re really pretty when you sleep, I just didn’t want anyone- I mean…I…guess, there is no way to explain this without me sounding creepy.’ He chuckles, his awkward slightly higher-pitched laugh involuntarily making the corners of your lips tilt up as you catch his eyes and for some reason you find yourself un-tensing as you look at him.

‘I…I’m Seokjin, by the way. …although, people usually call me Jin.’ He murmurs, smiling gently down at you, and you’re almost sure he’d stolen the expression from an angel, the rays of heavens light shining from his face leaving a warmth in your chest.

‘I’m Y/N.’ you respond, watching the way his eyes twinkle slightly, and you cant help but feel your heart flutter as you flicker your gaze to the clock on the wall behind him and see that it was almost time for your dorm’s curfew.

‘I, uh…I kind of need to get going. I don’t want to miss curfew.’ You stutter, hating the fact that you’d slept for the past two hours when you clearly could have been talking to the beautiful guy in front of you. But before you have chance to ask for his number or suggest that you meet up again, he’s moved his gaze to the window.

‘Would you like me to walk you back home?’

You’re surprised by his sudden question, looking outside to see that night darkened the streets, and you feel yourself get excited at the possibility that this guy wanted to make sure you got home safe, although a little voice in the back of your mind questions your judgement of him as you remember he’d just been watching you for two hours.

‘Uh…do you promise you’re not a stalker, or a serial killer or anything?’ you ask, too happy to seriously take into account that he might be harmful, and smothering a chuckle when he quickly turns back to look at you with his eyebrows raised.

‘Yah! With this face? How could you ask that?’ he questions you, his expression appearing serious as he frames his face with his hands, before he begins to laugh as he sees the look of surprise on your face, suddenly grabbing your free hand and pulling you towards the exit.

‘Thank you!’ he calls over his shoulder to the ahjumma at the counter, who appears to smile fondly at him as she waves, before the two of you are outside and your heart finally catches up with the realization that Jin still had your hand held gently in his as he stops to ask you which way was ‘home’, regretfully letting your hand go as he does so.

‘Uh…this way.’ You nod, glancing up at him with a shy smile, before taking a sip of your drink as he begins to walk easily with you down the street, putting on a face-mask when the two of you begin to walk, and you cant help but note the way that his eyes only shine brighter when you’re able to move your attention away from his lips to his eyes.

‘So…why did you fall asleep in the café?’ he asks, his question loosening the quiet that had come to encompass the two of you, and you feel your face heat up as you see him watching the way you were sipping at your drink, quickly clearing your throat before answering him.

‘I have a big assignment due in for college in about 2 weeks, and its taking up all of my time…I barely sleep anymore because of it. I guess the exhaustion crept up on me.’ You laugh awkwardly, biting your lip out of nervousness as you look up at him.

‘Oh, you’re in university?’ he asks, a slight frown marring his features.

‘Uh, yeah. Final year. Why?’ you respond, wondering why he seemed so concerned by your educational status, but being surprised when his expression suddenly turns to a smile, before he looks over at you.

‘Me too. I graduate in around a month.’ He says, the revelation causing a subconscious smile to paint your face, and you’re almost surprised by the light chuckle that leaves you at his thoughtful smile, before you quickly smother it by sipping at your drink again.

‘So, since we’re heading this way, I assume you live in the dorms? Woah!-’ he shouts, quickly throwing his arm out to stop you from getting run over by a car that suddenly speeds down the road, and you find yourself gripping tightly to his bicep, feeling your heart race a little in your surprise, before you look up to see him staring at you intently, the expression clearly asking if you were okay.

‘Thank you.’ Is all you’re able to mutter back, still stunned, but when you feel his hand gently cover yours on his arm, before clasping and interlinking your fingers together, you instantly feel a lot calmer, despite the way your heart races in your chest at the endearing move.

‘Are you okay?’ he asks softly, watching you the whole time, and smiling gently when you nod timidly.

‘Good.’ He murmurs, smiling happily at you with his angels smile as he raises his other hand to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear that had become misplaced when he’d saved you from the car, before beginning to pull you along the road once more with a content, pleased expression.

‘Come on. I don’t want you being late for curfew…’

(T.B.C)

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