#sorry i am so in my feelings rn Oh God

[degloved]

you can pry post-canon 'shitty motels and a life on the road until they settle down in some fuckass bumfuck nowhere little town' hoffstrahm out of my cold dead hands !! post-canon 'jagged edges turned smooth while Learning How To Love In A Way That Works For Them' hoffstrahm you will always be famous to me

#yes i love it whe they beat each other up yes i love it when a physical altercation turns into sex yes they bite and spit and growl etc etc #but also. but also. i need sleepy morning cuddles hoffstrahm shot directly into my veins. they love each other so much your honor #im gonna be sick ohh im gonna be sick. the mental image of peter cupping marks face So Gently n giving him a little kiss is sustenance to me #hoffstrahm #mark hoffman #peter strahm #sorry i am so in my feelings rn Oh God #saw

[running-in-the-dark]

oh, great! I cleaned out all my fountain pens before we moved, and then chose just a few to take with me. plus ink, obviously.

except someone took the damn ink out of the bag I had put it in. sooo it's probably in the storage unit now and I won't see it again until April 🙃

#no I know this is fine and not a problem etc etc #BUT #I need to write shit down 😭 I'm feeling baaad and that means it's time to write in my diary and I CAN'T because none of my pens HAVE #ANY INK IN THEM!! #even my bullet journal fountain pen is allllmost out of ink! and I didn't bring any gel pens because why would I??? #oooh I am mad rn. #the local stationery shop closed last year soo. I will have to order ink online if I can't find mine. 🙃 #yes I know I could use a fucking ballpoint pen or something like a caveman (sorry) but everything but fountain pens hurts my wrist 😭 #this is a 'need to write 20 pages that will inevitably turn into 'oh I am so sad because I cannot touch this fictional man' very quickly and #nothing else will help' situation 😭😭😭😭 #sooo I will now start figuring out which ink I am going to buy. maybe I'll manage to just get one. hahahaha that was a good joke :') #personal #oh my GOD I just realised I didn't even pack any syringes OR CONVERTERS OR EMPTY CARTRIDGES EITHER #fuck this I just ruined my whole damn day

[lusalemaart]

dooo tle. scrible.

#i. am on my seishin shit rn. seishit. i. cannot stop. thinking about him. #oh my god. so far im keeping up with posting my shit. woah. mostly bc ig locked me out actually but. whatever #....sittin on a mountain top well above the clouds i dont feel lik e im about todrop hanging in the palace i dont harbor any malice imma be #n up in the slums imma been up in that palace im INFINITY sacred geometry living SIM PA LY universe aligned i feel the SYNERGY #thats why they call me temple PRIEST mother FUCKA #....i...dont think you trusyt. in. my . self righteous su #i #cide #i. cry #....... #when angels deserve to DIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEE #I digress #muroi seishin #shiki #alright back on my unpriv grind aaaaaahhhhhh #seishin muroi #must i try anymore i really dont want to render i just want to scribble #i really do. im tired. #actually im not done i have more thoughts. sorry gotta talk a lot. but. #i just love seishin so much. i love sunako being like HMMM sobota seems perfect. i like the authors works. i bet hes all fucked up. #judging by the way he writes he sounds AWFUL and DEPLORABLE and REVOLTING to the EYES #and then she sees him for the first time and is just like Oh you're just a Guy. You're just a regular old Dude. #makes you wonder just what exactly his published works look like #love that. emo little lad. #on the outside i am fine. on the inside i am... god why have you forsaken me.

[dandyshucks]

this is making me SICK IN THE HEAD I TELL YOU. ARE YOU KIDDING MEEEEE WHYS THIS SO CUTE. HELP ME. I THINK I HAUVE COUVID....

#im so silly for those two men. but honestly i am more smitten w Hiza.shi.... #i saw this pose (sort of) in a photo and was like. uhm. okay i need to draw that w him. oh god oh fuck #AND HERE WE ARE. SOBBING. GOING CRAZY AND CLIMBING MY WALLS #why did it turn out so good fhfkdl i havent drawn this guy in forever. i think dhfjdl im p sure Dec 2022 was the last time i drew him... #and I've only drawn him like. maybe twice dbfjdl #what the fuck is happening to me man i cant deal w this im GIDDY. STOP ITTT #i am supposed to sleep but i cant stop feeling silly smitten now what the fuck 😭😭 #sorry for being insane in the tags DBHDDKL this unlocked smth in me SBDJSKL #i cant even bring myself to work on this anymore or clean it up at all more than i have bc . i cant take it DBJDKDL #at least rn djfkdl good LOARD i am unwell for this guy what the fuck is going ONNN 😭 #dandy.cmd #🧡hello radio land! #doodlebug.jpeg

[soweli-musi]

Yous should see our lists of drawings to do....... and half abandoned projects ehehe. Oh god and how often we remember to message people oh dear me my texting records,

#adhd postign #we do not have friendship degradation!! #you can not interact with us for a full year and could say hi and we'd be like 👍 hello hello hello we are friend still #the memory is bad + different people have different priorities that are difficult to coordinate #see currently fighting a whining guy who wants to build lego and play splatoon rn #TANGENT THOUGHT! Should make a tag for our og posts because we just leave them untagged and then can't look back at the sillies #we used lykos speaks for the daemonism blog... i could do soweli speaks but it seems too general #soweli musi li toki #that should be like... the equivalent? feel free to correct #oh my god so many tags sorry i am just talking to ourself LMAO

[bunnyb34r]

I'm so tired of being mad and tense all the time man I dont think my shoulders haven't permanently been up by my ears in like a full decade by now

I'm so tired so goddamn tired

#marquilla #this isnt ab anything specific im just really fucking feeling it rn and am trying so goddamn hard not to completely burn out but it #feels like every time i try i get smacked down by SOMETHING like the world. needs to remind me its not okay for me to not be stressed #oh you feel stable for once? not anymore now your family is falling apart. oh you were feeling happy and like your job?? not allowed. #oh sorry you actually thought your happiness was meant to LAST?? go fuck yourself. oh you dared have hope and optimism? dont you know thats #not allowed? #like god im so tired my body hurts so goddamn much #i know my chronic pain is mostly genetic but also being constantly stressed since the point of consciousness forming #has to have done something to exasperate it... like for godsake i have white body hair now WHITE. BODY. HAIR. one gray hair on my head #and everywhere else is patchy with white bc my body is too stressed to make pigment anymore #this kinda is triggered by something specific but it's more like... a mindset that keeps getting forced on me by others i think? #like one that pretty much says 'no you cannot be happy you have to be selfless 24/7 or you will be a disappointment to EVERYONE' #idk im just upset and god forbid but i would like NOT TO BE and apparently thats the wrong choice #didnt you know you're SUPPOSED to be a husk? thst you're SUPPOSED to be near burnt out 24/7?? didnt you mar??? didnt you?? #i mean my direct family gets it but... apparently that's it

[i-mybrunettelady]

Being hugged by a tall person when you're short is so, so good and makes me wanna melt frfr

#nero's random thoughts #LISTEN LISTEN I AM NOT IMMUNE TO HEIGHT DIFFERENCES #YA GIRL IS 163/5'3 AND I AM A POCKET SIZED GF (ALTHO I'M NOBODY'S GF RN) #ANY GUYS TALLER THAN ME WANNA HUG? I'M TAKING APPLICATIONS #oh my god this old flame of sorts of mine is just getting hotter every time I see him and we went to get coffee and catch up and excuse me- #sir who allowed you to be so fucking sexy #sorry for the rants. i am feeling 😳

[transmascwillbyers]

Jesus fucking christ what the actual fuck is happening. Like... to be clear, I'm not mad at the people who are calling out *that user*, the shit they said about Finn was absolutely disgusting and I'm really, really glad people are actually pointing it out so I know who to block and avoid. But jesus christ, like... you think it would be easy to just... not sexualize minors, right? And not be a creep? Like it honestly pisses me off that we have to have these conversations in the first place, because this isn't something that people should be doing and it isn't something that actual kids should have to be worried about, period. Byler tumblr is normally such a safe and awesome space, and then something like this happens and it feels like a slap in the face. And I'm really, really glad that people are handling it, and that our community's decent enough that nobody is just letting this shit slide, but like... ugh. Why does this have to happen? Maybe I just need to lie down, but seriously, do not come into our community, sexualize young actors, and then just expect us to not even care for some ungodly reason. It's not okay, no one believes it is, so don't expect that we're just... fine with you being predatory. End of the fucking discussion.

#byler #rant #i know this is kinda doom-y or whatever but this entire day has felt like a shitshow and i wanted to get this off my chest #like... oh my god. holy shit. i am actually sick rn #thank you thank you thank you to everyone calling this person out and keeping this a safe space #and i know i don't normally swear this much so sorry if the tone here feels different #but honestly? it's pretty fucking justified atm

[sateurn]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

These sobs really limited my tags?????

I have so many more thoughts this is so so much less than 1/2. Broski. Big dislike

#its ‘i watched a tv show and i need to talk about it in the tags of this site im not on anymore’ time #ty to the void for always accepting my thoughts <3 #so honestly its just me thinking about the andromeda tv show. i just finished it and it left me destitute bc i clung onto the first 2 season #s as a basis and had ten thousand questions i *assumed* would be resolved. spoiler alert: they were nto #not*. and the coda addition helps but like. not enough. it explains some of the #oh fyi if anyone is reading or cared there will be spoilers #anyways it explained some of them ex for the cosmic engine bit. seemed pretty relevant and then was never mentioned again #i also MUCH prefer that version of trance — i had speculation she was a sun avatar which i took as confirmation when i finally noticed her #tattoo when harper used it to remind himself he put that data in the sun etc etc but i much prefer the sun-as-consciousness-astral-poject- #ing-slash-dreamjng-itself-a-body / being a little devil. i think that feels much more true to what we got in worldbuilding early on and tbh #the bar is on the floor bc any explanation would be better than what we got. also im sorry but s5 i trusted SO hard that that whole virgil #vox bit in the finale was insulting. couldnt even tie up the loose end you invented at the last minute????? MY god. i understand getting you #r budget halved but like. broski. it would have been better to ignore it at that point imo. #anywhoodle. i also have just ISSUES w the lack of resolution & not doing justice to literally any character #listen. why would you sink SO much effort into tyr just to have honestly what i feel is a disrespectful end to that character. like #tyr required me to do a LOT of thinking bc i sympathized with his position in exile etc while thinking also bro thats real fucked up. bro #stop thats fuckinng e*genics again dude. tbh with the entire species (im not looking up how to spell that rn) bc like the foundation of #their entire race is e*ugenics. (sorry censoring bc im in the tags just venting about tv) which obviously is a terrible idea but i think the #so it was like i am fundamentally against the concept but in show universe theg obviously did it etc but for me provided such a huge like #context to the universe. i fundamentally am not on board with all the commonwealth stuff like yeah i get it the magog are bad and scary but #like the neitzcheans (sp??? idc) are also Right There bein scary. then theres the ‘enhanced’ debate re dylan beka etc that like. is the same #but ‘’different’’ i guess. 🙄 anyways that is just to point out like. the level of thinking this show put me through just to blindside me w/ #no resolution. i had SO much hope. tyr selling iut to the abyss is disrespectful to all of the established work the actor did for him and #to the character as well even if i think the ideology is icky. he was shown to be even less and less self-centric survival guy as it went on #and also tbh i didnt understand the him stealing his kids dna thing. i really thought that was gonna gi in a different less bs direction #okay also while im here can i just say. that tyr and dylan had THE most romantic tension to me. everyone else felt very friendshipy and i am #NOT one to usually fall into a ‘they obviously should be together’ pipeline that the writers dont make themselves. but the back and forth ( #and intense eye contact) had me sitting there like. it was made in 2000 i know they wont do it but for not doing it they sure did! not that #i think they’d make a good couple (they would not) but that there was definitely something there on the dl you know? something more than #‘mutual respect’ you feel? and tbh! they also ruined the tyr beka thing by making her the matriarch. big ew huge ick.

[astrxealis]

gn i'll wake up more normal maybe even if later today is also not a normal day (/pos) ^_^ <3 !! wishing u all well hehe

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry. to be insane #not really but if i'm bothering anyone w posting sm lol sorry KDBSKDNSK <//3 #anyway ily ffxiv i'm way too overhyped rn bcs i feel so Much and i'm delirious it's almost 3 am and #this is just the beginning oh god #anyway yeah. i'm a huge ffx and glamour and gpose person so today was craaazy for me <33 #i have my Worries on the whole Thing w Story but i'm mostly excited and hoping things. go well. !!!!! #i adore ffx lol sorry ..... aghhhfhfhfhfhdhshjd #wait fuck #ultimate content in FREE TRIAL NO WAY #IVALICE RAIDS IN FREE TRIAL NO WAY #i'm insane. this is the best thing ever. i'm insane. i'm crying.

[pancakehouse]

heyy mads so actually i need more of your thoughts on amy/laurie and why you don’t understand people defending them…. i remember being kind of baffled by them when i read the book as a young teen so please <3 be a hater <3

hiii laura oh my god i will (gladly) be a hater it comes sooo naturally to me and we all rlly gotta be biting our tongues on here daily, don't we :-/

(pls ... if you are a passionate amy/laurie fan .. just close your eyes and keep scrolling babes i love you sooo much this post cannot hurt you i promise !!!)

OKAY. so i feel like the whole amy/laurie vs jo/laurie debate has been widely discussed (both on The Internet and in my household lol) but for me it's less that i think he should've ended up w jo and more that i think acting like a/l truly love each other and totally definitely make sense is so stupid. it's soooo stupid laura i am rolling my eyes!! can you see me!!!

and the reason i think this! is because, essentially, Alcott uses the four sisters to like ... represent the few limited life paths that were avail to non-wealthy american women in the 19th century, right?

like meg marries the man who is able (if only just) to provide her a stable home. beth pursues her music (piano? if im remembering right) and is content to live her life at home, with her family. amy wants to (and eventually does) marry a wealthy, cultured man of ~Society who can give her a life above the one she was born into.

jo is the wildcard, ofc. the one who goes off-script for the normal young woman, and ofc who alcott views as a reflection of herself. we know that alcott wanted jo to remain unmarried and was strong-armed by publishers to put her w someone, but if she knew she'd have to, then my only explanation for it to not be laurie was to spite the predictable narrative and spite the readers lol.

the guy jo does end up w is so random and just .. makes no sense. if you're making sense of it, you are having to reach so far up your ass to do so! sorry to be crass!!! (rlly leaning into my hater-moment oops)

anyway - the way this connects to amy and laurie is this:

i do not believe (and i'm sure we are not meant to believe) that meg married for love. beth (</3) did not marry ofc. and it's impossible to believe jo married for love if the author intended her to be unmarried. that storyline doesn't exist to me now.

and amy is the sister that is represented as a bit vain; a bit entitled and spoiled in the way youngest children are allowed to be. from the start, it's clear she plans to marry for wealth. even if we're taking from gerwig's adaptation instead of solely the book, then amy still isn't really represented as particularly romantic (the whole 'i'm not a poet' scene) (also tbf it's been awhile since i read the book, but imo she romanticizes her life, yes, but not love itself).

LAURIE is the romantic, the most so, out of all the characters. i genuinely feel like this is the ONLY reason ppl latch onto amy/laurie and try so hard to rationalize it .. bc they can't bear to think of laurie in a marriage that was w his next-best-option rather than True Love (sorry.. by no means a dig at amy...but cmon guys ..)

because i also feel like the only thing laurie really wanted even more than to spend his life w jo, is to be apart of the march family. it was always clear he wanted that, just as it was always clear he loved jo from day 1! and so the only conclusion i was ever able to come from all this is that he loved jo for being jo and he loved amy for being a march sister.

ah god sorry this is SO anysmally long i am SO SO sorry laura dear!! so grateful to you for this opportunity to hate on them (read: cringe & take the romance out of) them as a couple!!! but there is simply no scenario where i can imagine knowing a boy has loved my sister his entire life and then MARRY him after ?? bc she rejected him ??!!! esp knowing amy and jo's history of shared drama. esp bc the entire story is one of sisterhood!

like bro that girl (amy) has mentally been your sister-in-law for a decade ... and now we're saying we LOVE her? puke vom i hate it it makes me cringe and twitchy and yuck. its so weird ppl !!!! so weird.

#omg sooo sorry laura jfc #oh god im so late for something but wow . i feel sooo good rn this was such a nice #sunday activity. coming into your ask box next week to give free ranting reign on whatever ur heart desires <3 #answered #laura tag #also this was not a subject for the dreaded capital d Discourse folks if you disagree i full respect that and i will #give you my little sisters number and y’all can chat about how Right and Correct you are and how Dumb and Wrong i am #tbh having opinions is sooo tiring wow. where’s that nick miller quote that’s like ‘damn! how do you guys care about things so much!’ #feel both cleansed and like i could go for a nap now!

[boxwinebaddie]

hi friends, from whatever time it is where you are <3

i just wanted to say really quickly that i am sorry if all of my ask memes are coming out a little slow; to be honest, it's because i spend a lot of time on the answers to make sure they are thorough / put a lot of thought / heart / soul into them, which often results in them being...very long...so posting them takes me a second.

i also apologize if you've been waiting on an ask meme for a long time ( and i do mean long, like multiple months ) i promise that i see it and am stoked on it, i just get rlly distracted by the asks at the top of my box ( me actin all surprised when they diagnose me w/ adhd )

bc theyre so shiny/relevant to the content i am posting usually ( ie. something that has to do with a drabble i recently posted that needs clarification ). i also...x2 have over 90 of them in my box ( some of them are asks i answered but didn't post / repeats...anyways, )

that is not to say that you should not send me asks because i love them and i will answer them even if i have 200, but due to the volume of them, my lack of time, my poor fingers and how much ( lowkey criminally insane ) effort i put into them, posting them is slow goings.

( i also love them so much, i srsly do not care that there is a fuck ton of them, getting them is like christmas to me, i mean that lmao when i wake up in the morning and see them in my box i am STOOOKED )

however, i know you have all told me multiple times you are willing to wait for my content and enjoy it ( tho my brain tells me otherwise ) so thank you for that and know i will get back to all your ask memes as quickly as i can. again, i just take my answers very seriously because i feel very seriously abt responding solidly to all of you. <3

-uncle nina

#my therapist tells me i'm not supposed to apologize for things #but uh i cannot help it #bc i am weirdly inactive on my twitter and tbh don't like it at all because the sp fandom on twitter is so gnar #i prefer to post my updates on here #but yeah i'm sorry they are taking a second it takes me really long to answer them bc i put a lot of effort and love into them #and they ( i hope ) are very thorough #like oh my god rn i am attempting to answer one abt why jersey kyle cant say i love you and its so complicated #bc his brain is soooo complicated and its also really sad and upsetting so my chest hurts lol #but please know its gonna be good when its out and its gonna give you a lot of good information #it will also hurt ur feelings #cheers! mazel <3 #p.s. the asks getting sent to the box provide me a lot of comfort and validation also #bc it reminds me that people are reading them and care abt me and the content i post and stuff #so pls do not ever feel like you are spamming me i like to know how you are doing and if you are enjoying or being traumatized by my work #so sorry abt that and also if it seems like i'm not responding bc i want to there is just a lot of them haha

[xumoonhao]

top5 svt moments (funny and in general)

anon hi for the love of god HELLO i know you sent this ask a year ago and im not sure you will ever see this but im finally answering it 😭😭😭

5 - when, in their first one fine day, hannie tricked hao into thinking abalone was what you used as currency in a store 😭 hao believed him and tried to buy something with it and the store clerk was so confused…hannie was so wrong for doing that to him!! like hao hadnt been feeling well for a couple days before that, if i remember correctly 😭

4 - the chicken vs. egg discussion. literally i am ALWAYS thinking abt it. hoshi really said gay chicken rights <3

3 - theres a moment in their second one fine day where hoshi is losing his mind bc he needed to switch teams (for some rough context he and wonwoo had been like '''feuding''' or something and hoshi wanted to get back at him, but in order to do that they needed to stay on the same team or something) and then wonwoo, mid-hoshi freaking out, goes 'hoshi-ya finger guns', and hoshi, not missing a BEAT does the finger guns back and i swear to god…i lose my mind every time 😭😭😭 theyre so stupid but i cried laughing the first time i watched it omg….

2 - their 5th anniversary special where they pretended to be one another…kills me everytime!!!!!!!

1 - their first win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wasnt a fan then but ive seen he footage of it and yeah…makes me feel emotional every time i wont lie :') like they had so much stacked against them (13 members coming from the basement of a near bankrupt company doing most of the stuff themselves??? thats near destined to fail) but they went on and did so well and look at them now!!! one of the most popular groups around with an amazing discography, an endless line up of activities, and theyre a group of best friends like…what more could anyone ask for, really

#also an honourable mention to the lettuce aegyo in ofd2!!! i think abt it all the time my god……. #OH and another honourable mention to hoshi in literally Any iteration of the mafia game #i realized so many of these are hoshi focused. i guess thats what 6 gemini placements will to do someone #oh also just remembered the time cheol changes the lyrics to an orange caramel song from baby girl to baby boy in the beginning of a ttt go #also. once again so sorry for taking so long to answer this ahhhhh i feel so bad :c #anon whoever you are just know that i love you and am giving you a kiss rn #✉️ #anon

[nicodaws]

having a lil crisis at 1:30 in the am. as is tradition.

#this is such a long tag rant lmao sorry #tonight highlights r oh god i have no idea when im going to be able to medically transition #coz like ! fuck the uk system is designed to make us wait til we're 30 and i could go private but im not fucking loaded and im saving for #a year abroad in a few years and ffs im going fucking abroad for a year if all goes to plan and how does that even work and #idk how im supposed to do anything with no money and a transphobic family #and most the trans ppl ik irl have either been on the waiting list since they were 16 and r abt to get on T which i couldnt get coz my mum #would never #or they have fucking surgery dates scheduled coz their family can fucking afford to go private #and jealousy is an ugly emotion but man im feeling it so much rn #its just . i do not see the path that allows me to get what i need within the next like . 5 years . #its a stupid thing to be upset abt coz i cant change it but man im so upset abt it rn #my degree involves being on camera and podcasts and talking to strangers and i am not going to pass for any of it #anyway . its fine ill just have to save more and see abt private and get things moving ig #just. i want 2 talk to my mum abt it but i cant and it sucks. :] #. #idk i think i had this idea when i was like 12 and first coming out to friends that by the time i was 19 i would be on T getting surgery yk #but :] reality strikes again #delete later

[oatbugs]

eye pain is the WORST kind . worse than teeth even maybe

#esp when u cant rub ur eyes or itll maoe things worse #typing this w my eyes closed i hope it is comprehensible #anyway whwt the FUCK i am in so much pain from one eye only and its like . im aftaid #the flap they made during frmto lasik has moved or smthb. and itll wont end #bc whenever i open my eyes/blink iy is painful #resolved to do that very rarely . anyway eave me x . avcording to my doctor/surgeon i actually had #a scar that was imperceptible initially on each eye and thats why thos whole thing has been so #excruciatingly painful . like apparently ur notnsupposed to rly feel anythiny in femto lasik but it was #literally the worst pain i have ever felt in my whole life (i have a rly high pain tolerebce due to reasons); #anyway i have a feeling this may be due to the wounds/scars too idk... #also i had fat grafting to fill in my under eyes and like . it was suchba slight procedure and was done when i was under #anaesthesia for another procedure...that i forgot abt it. bc i dont rly touch my under eyes. anyway during lasik they #use this device which puts pressure around ur eye sockets which ahould have been fine #but it was putting a lot of pressure on a newly grafted area of my face and i was like . oh i see ! i want to scream !!!!! #but i couldnt say anything bc it was cutting a hole in my eyes and i was like yeah talking rn is a bad idea. but afterwards the nurse was #like . you look like you are literally going to pass out oh my god are you ok ?? and i told her abt the under eye thing and she was like. #YOUBSHOULD HAVE SAID THAT EARLIER like yeah ik im sorry 😭 #personal #anyway lol its fine i just want to rub my left eye sooooo bad it is so . annoying /painful UGH

[noxtivagus]

IDENTITY CRISIS WOOOO

#🌙.rambles #ok i will move these to my spam account soon but wait quick rant. actually not fully rant just smth i find interesting to think about #since yk how we ourselves change somewhat. like. huh. everyone to an extent i think but as an empath i'm probably more susceptible to it #depending on the people we're with. the environment n all. we change a bit #like w each friend i just naturally end up matching their way of text n their mannerisms esp when i'm around them #while most of it is natural n all too it's one of my love languages >< i love the feeling of. yk having more similarity #personally for me it makes me feel more understood n connected #NO FUCKING WAYYYY WAIT. SOB. watching from apollo's laptop rn a bit of that one cutscene with emet-selch ffxiv n bestie #the way. the way he looks at the wol. THE WAY HE SMILED.... HE DOESN'T SMILE OFTEN???? THIS GRUMPY LIL MF #wait i'm emotional. meteion and hermes n. FUCKKK #SOB HERMES YOU NEVER MANAGED TO FIND YOUR ANSWER. I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY #GOD CCAN YOU TELL THE KIND OF PERSON I AM FROM MY FAVE CHARAS #A 'FIELD OF FLOWERS'. IM GNA CRYYYYYY 'thank you for guiding me here' i. GOD I'M EMOTIONAL THIS #mafuyu's my fav chara. i'm a kanade kin. hahaha. & then. i'm a dark knight main in ffxiv. after tank i'm also a healer main #can you see? i love to. i love to help others oh my fucking god n it burdens me but. i love it more. as a strength. #flow is making me emotional. the lyrics mean so much to me. with ffxiv context n then. my emotional attachment to it for numerous reasons #the lyrics. out of context comfort me. resonate with me. the rain. stars. fate. memory. love. water. sleep. dawn. dreams. #i wonder what words others hold in importance. that resonate with their soul. & what it means to them. memories too #i know in certainty for me. i want to learn of everyone else #this little world of mine. i wonder. how. it looks like in your eyes. what others wish to learn of me too. i can only hope that #i'm so used to fiction you see. reality feels so distant at times. n with my differences it. oft feels i don't belong #yet still i hold on. why? bcs there's so much more to life. please don't give up. you deserve so much more. #n to everyone i know now. to just indulge in myself maybe. a selfish desire. i hope this will last. n i'll be there to see you #better and happier in the future. for as short and long as we know each other i care for all of you so so much #maybe i'm sorry for ever loving you in whichever way it differs per person in my life. but i'll be a bother. i don't want to #i don't want to lose anyone anymore #god... thinking back on drk and. myste's words resonate with me so much. love and forgiveness has always meant so much to me #ah yeah i remember again who i am. don't think twice is also making me extra emotional #i'm sorry though. it really does hurt n. time's going far too fast. but i'll try to do what i can. so long as you're still with me i think #i can manage. that's enough. that would be enough. even if i'm not enough. i'll hold unto myself and. what's important to me