#sometimes you forget a thing exists

[minamorsart]

50% off still feels like a fever dream to me 😂

#sometimes you forget a thing exists #and then you remember and it gives you mental whiplash lol #minamorsart #non star wars art #rinharu #rin matsuoka #haruka nanase #aiichirou nitori #harurin #sharkbait #free! #free! iwatobi swim club #free! anime #my art #fan art #my comics

[puppyeared]

I love you when we haven’t talked in weeks and months I love you when I have 12 unread messages I love you when im not in the mood to talk. We’re still friends even when we spend time apart

#it’s like delayed parallel play to me.. or perhaps sending letters in the mail #when I wrote this it’s because I have this thing that is like. having too much of a good thing #like if I talk to someone and love them too much I burn out.. does that make sense?? is that a universal experience??? #so sometimes when I have to spend time by myself I don’t stop loving my friends I think #especially because when I burn out I feel miserable for no reason and my brain comes up with ways to hate people #like oh they’re probably spending time with other ppl you’re disposable.. they probably forgot about you #one time I thought that if my friends were getting married they’d forget to invite me and it became a fear I’m trying to get over #but the answer I came up with is to keep reminding people I exist to stay present in their lives #even if it’s not as often as I can manage or would like. idk #yapping #feelings

[unpretty]

"Everyone I knew who said they were into Legolas turned out to be in denial about liking women."

ALKFJFJYWYGSHDHDJ OMFFFFG

As a former Legolas fangirl this felt targeted 😂

write what you know (friends who got really into legolas and later turned out to not be interested in men)

#original #ficblogging #i don't. remember. #if i ever actually used the bit about clark #and how he left a bunch of stuff in his childhood bedroom #which included a printout of an art trade a friend made him on livejournal #which bruce definitely noticed while trying to sleep during christmas in kansas and didn't say anything at the time but made a note of it #which is how bruce wayne found clark kent's teen lotr fanblog which he was VERY intense about #bruce found this extremely funny and immediately made a backup #in case clark remembered it existed and deleted it #i think i killed that particular darling for being TOO self-indulgent pop culture reference #but it exists in my mind as important background teen lore #along with clark and lana's terrible green day cover band #and clark's collection of thrift store flannel shirts and those little wrist sweatbands #sometimes in life you write a lot of things and think about a lot of things and then forget which is which

[itspileofgoodthings]

my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.

#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all #which. again. is false #but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept #and like. It’s FINE #but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony #and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom #unable to move or function #I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing #but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully #like an unseen wound #and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people #is one of the most painful things #just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them #and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning #and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb! #tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams #or impetus or forward motion or anything #because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy #so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE #actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it #when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions #that’s the problem #anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.

[flowercrowngods]

they don’t know that steve has stopped looking at his reflection in the mirror because he keeps getting stuck. because he doesn’t recognise himself anymore, is alienated by the reflection, feels too lost to catch himself anymore

they don’t know that his face is speckled with blood, that his hands are stained no matter how much he washes them, no matter how hard he scrubs, robin and nancy and eddie and dustin, their blood stains his hands and he can never wash it off

they don’t know he’s stopped talking

they don’t know he needs to be known to be human. they don’t know there’s nothing left to be known. they don’t know there’s nothing left

they don’t know about i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you

they don’t know about fragile as it is, it’s still a wall

they don’t know that his name doesn’t feel like his name anymore, they don’t know that steve is dead, they don’t know that nineteen, twenty, they don’t protect you

they don’t know that he’s not steve anymore. but he has no one else to be

they don’t know it’s not much, but it’s sort of all i have left

they don’t know what it would mean if eddie called him mister frodo if only as a joke, because it’s a new name, it’s a new thing to be — and yet he’s already that, has been all along, because

I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo.

"So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.

they don’t know what it would mean for steve to read about hope and despair and trauma in such a way. they don’t know about how much he hopes for silver shores and green lands under a swift sunrise. just in case he fails. just in case he can’t be frodo even when eddie never stops calling him that

they don’t… they don’t know

#getting an ANEURYSM ABOUT THIS STORY AGAIN HDHSHSGSG #time travel au #steddie #i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m just. hhh. HHHHH!! #must yell about it at least once a week such is the law! #also do you know how sometimes there are just things you write that you won’t forget?? just some lines #yeah. yeah i’ll try i’ll try is full of these lines and they just exist within me and hhhhh must throw up about it once a week too

[kraviolis]

Belos: I’m going to raise Luz as my daughter and ensure that she remains pure and loyal to me.

Also Belos: I’m going to let the 7-years-old clone of my brother take care of her I’m sure he’ll be able to do that.

you joke but thats LITERALLY his entire thought process at first. he's so isolated and arrogant that he couldnt possibly comprehend the idea that luz wouldnt see him as her father despite the fact he literally told hunter he was going to be her older brother and never once encouraged hunter to see him as anything but an uncle.

i attribute this to the fact that philip is an orphan who only ever knew his blood brother as his only caretaker, so he sorta took having a brother for granted and didn't realize that was something you could want rather than something that just Is.

(also caleb was the only person philip ever truly knew + loved and even well into his 300s he never once picked up a child psychology book and realized that Perhaps His Worldview Was Skewed Because Of That.)

he literally like. could not comprehend the idea that you could even choose your own family outside of like. being adopted by someone. thats the other thing with him being so annoyingly christian in this AU, he was taught that your blood family (esp yr parents) is always the most important thing in your life & you should always be grateful to them no matter what.

(this is another factor into why he keeps making grimwalkers. in his own twisted viewpoint, it's him giving caleb another chance. and another. and another-- at least in this specific characterization of him.)

philip thought that him adopting luz would mean she would immediately be eternally grateful to him and call him father and the whole nine yards. but he forget to actually express that expectation until it was too late (aka until he heard her call him uncle for the first time)

honestly, hes not MAD about it. he's just sorta :( about it bcus hes not actually insane and can still logically think like "she did say she had just lost her real father to an illness its perfectly reasonable for her to not want to replace him" (he doesnt think it outloud but he also enjoys living thru her vicariously

but also later on as she gets older it gets to a point where he's like "ok its been years now why isnt she trying to replace him yet" bcus he thinks its a normal + healthy part of the grieving process to replace the person you lost (figuratively or, in his case, Literally)

#qna #anonymous #little lamb au #toh #also luz is sort of catholic in this AU bcus she was raised like that #as in camila + manny would take her to church on sundays and she did sunday school sometimes and they'd encourage her to pray #but they never like. enforced it on her. it was more of a cultural thing for all three of them than a spiritual thing. #but belos is DELIGHTED when he hears baby luz praying out loud before bed on her first night in the castle #he tries to casually ask her about it like 'what is this God can you explain it to him' #but then as he listens to her little five year old explanation of God and Jesus she drops enough hints to make him realize #'Oh Good Lord She's Fucking CATHOLIC?' #'god truly is testing me by guiding this lamb into my care but no matter. no child is beyond redemption' #cue belos trying to push her more towards protestantism by attempting to have religious debates with a fucking. five year old #who has no concept of religion beyond 'jesus died for my sins which means i shouldnt lie to my abuela about taking an extra empanada' #sorry i love belos forgetting that religion exists up until luz arrives in the demon realm #and then he realizes Oh Fuck Thats Right. Im Doing This For God & Jesus Not Just For Fun #and then suddenly remembers everything his pastor from 400 years ago ever said to him

[tenshindon]

Can you remind me what the weird sex interview with Toriyama was about

i was driving myself fucking mad trying to find this interview because i KNEW it existed i just couldnt find it immediately but here you go x

which is an insane thing to say because a few questions beforehand he said this:

#snap chats #if this is the one youre talking about anyway #reading these is so insane because toriyama did end up having a daughter #which- admittedly- lead to one of my favorite About The Author segments #where he was talking about how he wanted to be a 'strict' father but ended up just doting on his kids #and asked the very good question 'whats wrong with doting on your kids' #LIKE SOMETIMES he says sweet and charming things like that and then i remember. these exist #forgetting the part A Part Of This Interview Too where he said if he could cheat on his wife without being caught he would #we all know how i feel about cheating so ...... #but yeah there you go. rip toriyama i aint tryna write a hit piece i just like remembering these wack ass things you said 💀💀

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

the bonus scenes in the featurettes of series 6 are so precious to me and the way 11 can be kind to his companions i think is very often what i subconsciously model my scenes of the doctor being kind on

hes is so intuitive. he has so much tact. and he always has exactly the right reassuring thing to say that you'd want to hear from someone who has lived for centuries and seen most of the universe

it's also why i dont buy the socially awkward thing at all. yes their inclinations and tendencies vary between regenerations, and theres slow change over the course of the decades, but i think mainly what varies is how they present themselves. same software, different casing. 12 is meaner but not fundamentally different than the one that came before him. neither is 13. what changes is the choices they make. 13 cant or wont engage with her companions the way 11 does with his because losing them hurt so much (and not just 11&his obvs like im not saying 13 is the result of 11, 13 is the result of 12, but 12 is the result of 11 and theyre a russian doll you get it)

also with 11 i think it goes nicely with those scenes where he gets mad at his companions, where they disappoint him or he feels betrayed. his emotions go deep. he loves deeply. and hes not afraid to

#everytime i rewatch any previous doctor im always like oh yes this is what i love about them #im looking for a scene im pretty sure exists but i might have some details wrong bc i cant find it #but it's where 11 talks to rory abt being a plastic roman for 2000 years #and he says he cant remember it and 11 is like 'sometimes you do. always the way with things we'd rather forget' #im fairly confident that line exists but not that it exists in the scene im thinking of #i might be combining multiple scenes in my head #bc i did just find where 11 talks to AMY about rory being a roman #and shes like 'he says he barely remembers it' and 11 is like 'yes but sometimes you catch him just staring' #but he doesnt say the other thing #now im thinking maybe someone else says this to 11? #i cant find it with ctrl+f in any of the transcripts between the pandorica opens and angels take manhattan #so now im looking in the bonus scenes

[lastoneout]

I'd like to think in the hypothetical post-scarcity/capitalism utopia there would still be people who want to make movies and there would thus also still be people like me, who want to open theaters where you can go and watch them.

#sometimes I think in our desperation to imagine a better future #a lot of us forget that like #you CAN make movies and video games ethically #and people will still WANT TO DO THAT #and I don't think being like 'you're just gonna have to get used to not having movies and video games' is helpful #bcs yeah we probably wouldn't be able to have a marvel movie every 6 months or dozens of AAA games #but people still love telling stories #indie films and games exist and are often BETTER than huge budget ones #and they can be made in ways that don't harm the environment or the people making them #and so yea we will still have fun things in the future #it's not gonna be all books and nothing else #and idk I think there's something very special about going to a movie theater #and tbh if I had no profit motive at all #if I was super rich #I would love to run a theater that's accessible and ethical and environmentally friendly #and I know a lot of other people would love that too

[khayalli]

.

#sometimes i forget that kind people exist #not that they arent theree just that #i dont receive it #personally #and then someone pops up out of nowhere and knocks me down because i wasnt expecting anyone to notice #because even when i state it people dont really say much #not that theyre obligated to mind you #but when someone does it just #it breaks me a little bit in a weird way #what are you doing looking at me #there are nicer things to look at #i promise you im not one of them #but thank you anyway #it was a fleeting interaction #i dont know how to process it #ill delete i just needed to get this out somewhere #im weepy

[helianthus21]

his brother abandoned him and gave him a near-fatal wound and he's still the most precious thing in the world to him

#one day i'll get over this... #probably not tho #if i were yeon i would hold this over his head constantly #'im an idiot? rude thing to say to your most precious thing in the world' #rang going 600 years poking at his brother and trying to make his life a living hell #just to get his attention like. lest he forgets he exists #love how they are 'i hate you with the force of 1000suns😡 anyway let's meet for some ice cream' #siblings 😔 #totnt #lee rang #lee yeon #sometimes your mortal enemy is also your favorite person #it's called having a sibling

[bookwyrminspiration]

for anyone learning to drive, when they say to adjust the mirrors, there isn’t one specific angle or adjustment that’s correct. there is a range of angles, but what you’re trying to do is find one within that range where you can comfortably and accurately observe the road behind you. you aren’t aiming for the same angle every single time, but just something you can work with. and specific preferences will vary from person to person. confused the hell out of me when I started driving so, maybe I can spare someone that

there’s no “right” adjustment, just a range you can safely work with. and you can adjust as you go. if it’s not working for you change it as needed at the next red light. might take some time to find your range but you’ll get there :)

#driving tips #random #I was so nervous about getting the ‘right’ angle when I started learning but that doesn’t exist #it’s just whether you can safely and comfortably see things and interpret the info the mirrors tell you #and you can even do that with mirrors outside your range #my mom has the mirrors adjusted very differently from me #and sometimes I forget to change them #or I’ll forget when I drive my dad’s truck #but there’s still info from those mirrors and I can work with some of it #and then change it at a stoplight if I need to #random advice with quil time I guess #idk where this came from #but I hope it’s helpful for someone

[casiavium]

All of these "who has more anything gender!" polls are just. white man without extreme body builder muscles v white man without extreme body builder muscles. The gender is "masculine" stop pretending it's universal

#even worse is when it's 'tradionally feminine' v 'traditionally masculine (without super ripped muscles' and the notes are all #she's the opposite of gender he's THE only gender ever. #'gender' isn't even androgynous anymore it's just some guy #vent post #idk I'm just kind of 😬 about people not seeing binary girl or even predominantly feminine as 'gender' whatever the fuck that means #you like androgyny when it's on twinks but don't think the butch lesbian that only calls herself a woman is 'gender' huh #and something about genderfluid characters only ever being accepted when they're in their 'not cis' presentation (cough ze l da) #like..i consider myself genderfluid and sometimes have guy-adjacent euphoria days #(still think about everyone who he/hims me when I cosplay Link ❤️) #but... I get just as much when I'm wearing what's 'expected' of me like skirts and dresses and makeup and am seen as a girl #because a lot of times growing up i wasn't really included in the girl stuff but was still too girl for the boy things :/ #and I feel like. everything focuses on the andro of androgynous that they forget androgynous doesn't mean vaguely fem guy #it's like. shiek is winning the gender poll. but zelda wouldn't. even though they're the same person and one doesn't exist without the other #nonbinary but the binary isn't girl-boy it's trans-cis #nice dichotomy idiot #what lies outside of it

[random-kazakh-stuff]

There are singing dunes in Kazakhstan. To be more precise there is one dune which is called "Aigaiqūm"(literally singing sand from Kazakh). The dunes are located in national park Altyn-Emel, Zhetysu province/oblast.

You can listen to the song here.

The nature of this sound isn't known for certain but it seems to be a combination of shape, size, consistency of sand(it has to be round and of a very similar size) and humidity (the sand does not always sing).

Obviously the dunes in Kazakhstan are not the only ones but there seems to be about 30 in the whole world. They seem to emit the sound of different frequencies.

And isn't this song beautiful?

#the thing is #as you mayure and become older you seem to forget how beautiful and wonderful #the world around you is #kazakhstan #Kazakhstan nature #nature #music #? #sometimes you just got to remember how fascinated you were when you found out #that giraffes exist #Youtube

[hazmatazz]

unpopular opinion: everyone should shut up :)

#babble #complaining #this is about the byler discourse. i'm so tired because everyone is mad at eachother when some of you literally agree and hnnngg #some of you do genuinely suck but a lot of the ppl on my dash are getting mad over a miscommunication (not everyone but a lot) #this is what my ''st fans learn difference between fanon and canon challenge'' post was about #both of the sides are forgetting fandom exists and sometimes will contradict canon #and ppl shouldn't get pissy over it! from either side! hnng #sometimes you'll disagree w a person. both of you shut up and have a civil fucking conversation #and don't spam ppl??? or send hate mail.?? ARG #those are like actual ppl behind those blogs ...stop being dicks to their face...you just disagree on something #again this goes for BOTH SIDES. both of you have got on my nerves. ily but god damn... #some of you make good arguments but it feels like you're arguing against different things #whether a hc is valid (yes) vs. whether it's likely canon/should be canon (no) #like??? so many ppl on both sides agree w that and they just??? keep fighting?? because the think the other side is against it? #hnnnng #i mean yeah some ppl have said the hc isn't valid which ugh shut up and i bet someone said it should be canon (personally disagree) #but just. my dash is full of people having miscommunication....tiring at this point

[anurarana]

.... sometimes my mutuals will be like yeah we should be mean more often and they are usually 100% in the right and justifiably angry about something, but then I see a stranger use those same words and I remember that people can actually be horrible

#was looking in the notes of a fat positivity post and saw a lot of people bashing this one blog #check it out and the first thing i see is calling someone an r-slur then the phrase 'joining the war on bullying on the side of bullying' #like this isnt fighting back against harassment or joking about some shitty show writing or whatever #this is you just being an actually horrific human being #i forget those exist sometimes in my nice mutual bubble of lovely compassionate people smh #sstfu.txt