#some are more straight-forward

[crimson-nail]

i have been cooking an over-complicated roleswap au for. a VERY long time

#mix of tristamp/trimax where i cherry-pick my favorite plot points designs and characters to create the ultimate mess of an au #just how i like it #unfortunately ‘group of dysfunctional shitheads find themselves having to collaborate’ is one of my fav tropes of all time #it’s not a 1:1 roleswap #more of a. narrative role swap? place/purpose in the story moreso than actions #some are more straight-forward #others are based on vibes #knives and vash easy. legato and meryl easy. elendira and milly is more hand-wavy but it makes sense i swear #i asked myself “what would happen if they were in this scenario? how would it change if a diff personality handled it? #and how they were shaped differently by the world due to the slight shift in story #it’s a lot of fun! i’m enjoying planning it. will i ever write it? who knows!! #‘what are the ships’ ‘yes.’ #you’ve heard of polygun now get ready for polygung #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #charlie’s art #millions knives #elendira the crimsonnail #legato bluesummers #livio the double fang #razlo the tri punisher of death #swap au #roleswap au #designs

[clownsuu]

i never leave asks but i NEED to say that ur interpretation of wally is the best i’ve seen in the fandom and my absolute favorite hdkgnskgs like hell yea go completely unhinged u tiny fucking freak /affectionate

in love with ur art in general <3

WHEEZE lmao thanks my guy! I try my best to appropriately display wally to the best of my ability

cw obsessive/possessive behavior

He’s just a lil silly, maybe even a lil goofy (and dare I say, even a lil quirky-?)

#I don’t quite like how I draw him tbh he looks too round and soft #Though I am very used to drawing more defining chiseled looks so maybe that’s why JDHDHDDH #Idk though I gotta play with his looks more he’s so simple yet complex with his head #Many round shapes LMAO #Also with expressions I actually quite like a very expressive wally some people do for him! #However I base a lot of his speech behaviors off of my own #That whole “not really saying much but when provoked tends to be very straight forward and direct” #Very complex lil fella #Welcome home #welcome home wally #Wally darling #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #welcome home frank #frank frankly #I say I put my speech into wally #But I put literally everything else to Frank LMAOOOO he just like me fr fr

[moongothic]

Worst crocodile theory is that crocodile has like a dead sister who is the reason he had all the weird ties he does. Luffy? Oh thats not his son that’s his nephew. Ivankov? Oh crocodile isn’t trans his *sister* was trans (yknow before she died) and he’s either protecting her secret or the secret that he has a dead sister (and thus a vulnerability). Weird pseudo trust in robin? Oh she reminds him of his dead sister the only person he ever trusted. Missing arm? Lost it trying to save/being saved by his dead sister. Doesn’t use haki? Sister did. Hates the government? Fucked over his sister (killed her to spite Dragon maybe?) The bananawani? Actually belong to his dead sister. Baby crocodile looks androgynous? — twist is that he and his sister were identical twins! (Would be absolutely hilarious if they did this and managed to parallel and invert the trans zoro HC. Flashback of crocodile’s egg sister talking about how much if SUCKS theyre going to grow up to be men because men are worse than women at X. And its the little cis boy this time around explaining why thats stupid)

The big twist is crocodile is actually kind of boring but he had a sister who was super interesting but shes also super dead.

DON'T REMIND ME OF THE DEAD SISTER-CROWD

#I'm joking I would never strangle you #Asks #OP Meta #For real though #Yeah they just want Crocodile to have a sister who was a much more interesting character for no reason #I just don't like theories that're based on inventing new characters to explain shit when the shit could just tie to character(s) we know #Like it literally just adds so much more work and effort to try and make a theory work when it could just be straight forward and simple #LITERAL MENTAL GYMNASTICS #To be fair it is both good and fun to speculate about other alternative possibilities and theories and what not #Even if some have less ground to stand on or require more mental gymnastics #Wild Speculation IS fun #It's just sad when you have a theory that SO BLATANTLY *only exists* to try and make sure a character doesn't turn out to be queer

[aroacehanzawa]

saw someone say that kazuki's backstory about his ex-wife felt like just a filler sub-plot in this episode, and i have to respectfully disagree

#the whole point was that he's been afraid to change and afraid to seek happiness elsewhere and only hanging onto her memory #he said it himself #and until he accepts the past and accepts to change himself and move on with his life the plot wont be able to move forward either #we've seen him take the steps to be more responsible for miri and all. and now is the next step for him to also be 100% emotionally present #which he is able to do after getting closure thanks to his sister-in-law. and it ties in well with the family dynamics plot too #because he's not just playing house anymore .he needs to be there fully for miri .and rei also needs to realise a similar thing #that he needs to put effort into the family #anyway it was in no way 'filler' and i do suspect whoever wrote that post might just be unhappy about kazuki being given such an important #and emotional straight marriage backstory. some people are weird like that #buddy daddies

[crehador]

brother crab's spring 2024 first impressions: tadaima, okaeri

slapping my wrist rest against my desk screaming THIS IS THE CUTEST SHIT I'VE EVER SEEN ok. ok ok so

i read i think the first 1 or 2 volumes waaay back and didn't really remember anything specific, but did remember that it was very cute and wholesome. then when i heard about the anime announcement i was like WHAT wow good for them, then when i heard asnm had been cast i was like WHAT i must reread immediately

so i did i reread it just a short while back and ue ue ue soung of crying it was even cuter than i remembered, i loved it to bits, hikari is the cutest moe blob in the world

suffice it to say i was really looking forward to this one, and the first ep of the adaptation has not disappointed at all! i feel like it's an excellent adaptation so far, really looking forward to more. the casting is just ugh chef's kiss, perfect really. i had it in the back of my mind that matsuo was torichan so while i was doing my reread i could literally hear him and it is as perfect a fit as i'd expected lmao

anyway tl;dr CUTE AS FUCK

#crab watches #spring 2024 #first impressions #tadaima okaeri #i'm still a bit stunned an omegaverse is getting an adaptation at all ngl #but this one is a VERY safe choice #setting aside the omegaverse and the bl factor it is basically just as slice-of-life romance and i LOVE it as that #like we've had a lot of good romance series lately #but so many of them focus on the getting together #(some of the ones i've enjoyed more like horimiya do have more of the being together part which is great) #but here with tadaima okaeri we get to go STRAIGHT INTO the being together part #the being a family part in fact! #and i really love that #i think it's not going to be everyone's thing #not just because it's omegaverse but because it's very sweet and extremely low drama #but to me it's just perfect. watching this family grow (not just the literal married couple and their kids family #but the found family they build in their community as well) really is such a treat #ok. ok enough rambling lol i still have other series to catch up on #UWAGHHHHHHHHHH I'M REALLY HAPPY WITH THIS ADPATATION SO FAR #LOOKING FORWARD TO THE UDON FAILGUYS SCENE

[frecklystars]

god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!

there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;

#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night #woof #like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago #if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses #bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink #WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL #and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie #is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized #bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!! #barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold #god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY #this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!! #i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me #i dont want ptsd to control my life #i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch #thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like #but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it #and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore #which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally #cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff #colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back #STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.

[katierosefun]

deranged thought of the day is that each of harvey specter’s exes reflect mike ross somehow. anyways

#caroline talks #i’m only being partially serious. #but like. come on. #season 1? we meet scottie who. we learn can banter easily with Harvey #and is equally pretty and in Harvey’s mind. someone with the smartest head on her shoulders/her beauty comes only second to her brains. #season 1? is also when Harvey takes one look at mike and watches him do his photographic memory thing and IMMEDIATELY decides he needs to #have him. #(he has a thing. for people who are good at reciting the law ig.) #season 2? we meet zoe. who is kind and sweet (I love her most out of all of Harvey’s relationships with women tbh) #but zoe also sees right through harvey and points out where his weaknesses are. (lack of vulnerability.) #season 2 is also I think. where mike becomes MUCH more comfortable with telling Harvey when he’s being wrong #or just straight up arguing with him about. how Harvey CARES but he just doesn’t know how to show it (a la the entire Donna trial arc) #fast forward to season 7 with. uh. paula. #i don’t care what the show tries to say. mike is getting married to Rachel #and Harvey’s instinct is to date his THERAPIST who had sat through his struggles #and also happens to have yellow hair and blue eyes. like Harvey buddy. UH. #(uh who else sat through with Harvey in some of the Worst Days? and who else has yellow hair and blue eyes???? harvey buddy….) #I didn’t watch the entirety of season 8 but like. #i love u Donna but it’s really funny to me that as soon as Harvey loses mike #he’s just sad and pouting and miserable #but here’s someone who hasn’t left. and who HAS seen him through the thick and thin. #and like. idk. most of Harvey’s old friends/associates are gone and ofc this is when he chooses to go to Donna. #which idk. something really depressing about that and I’m punching Harvey in the face for that behavior #people say slow burn? I say that man has been moping around and dragging his feet bc he’s obsessed with mike Ross. #you know. like a loser. #anyways. I’m only being partially serious. back to work.

[asktotallyhuman]

What does Boomer eat? Do Creepers need a hyper specific diet?

"All I have to do is bring him on my rounds with me, and he should be fine."

#i wonder if anyone will recognize where i based this headcannon from #i read a fanfic (terrible fic dont look for it) that had the hc that creepers have mouths on the bottoms of their feet to literally eat dir #but that's. not how plants work. so i took it in a different direction #most people think 'oh they eat gunpowder' #but to me that's like feeding a baby human blood. gunpowder is what creepers drop when they DIE it's like their corpse dust #i would imagine you only feed them gunpowder if you aim to get a stronger blast #but- for one reason or another #boomer can not (or he will not?) explode. because if he did he would die. ill come up with an actual explanation about him at some point #but i doubt anyone's actually going to read all of this. #i was gonna include one more drawing but i couldnt actually think of anything else to include #this is a pretty straight forward question #minecraft #minecraft oc #minecraft ask blog #ask blog #minecraft oc ask blog #oc ask blog #creeper oc #minecraft creeper #minecraft creeper oc #minecraft human #minecraft human oc #answer #ninjacat1515

[the-haunted-office]

Tagging System

My tagging system and what it all means:

#IC - An In Character post, your muse may interact with this post.

#OOC - An Out Of Character post, usually something I am announcing.

(Character name) ex: #The Author or #Thursday - Denotes which muse is making the post (if it's IC) or which muse the post involves (if it's OOC). The Author is me and I'm always speaking in and out of character at all times. :p

(Plot name) ex: #Smile It's the End of the World - Simply labeling which posts and threads are related to a specific plot.

#Memes - Reblogged ask memes and starter sentences.

#Promos - Reblogged promotional posts or something on my own blog I am promoting.

#Headcanons - Things about my muses, universe lore, etc.

#Haunted Office Announcements - In character posts from my muses who are making announcements over the Office's speaker system. This is assuming your muse is in the Office and hearing them, but it also isn't a big deal if your muse isn't in the Office. Your muses may reply to these posts.

#Writing For Days - A piece of writing by me that I am posting, usually story or plot related.

#Open rp - Usually shorter opens for anybody to reply to.

#Open starter - A starter I have written and posted that anybody may reply to.

#Permanent Open Starter - Open starters I've written that may be replied to at any time.

#Haunted Wishlist - Plots that I'd like to rp and develop with others! Please hit me up if you're interested!

#RP Plot Wishlist Starter - A starter I have written that is part of a plot that I want to roleplay with another person.

#Haunted aesthetics - reblogged posts that are simply aesthetics that fit my blog's theme

#Haunted shitposts - posts that don't fit into any other category and are generally pointless silliness

#the author #the haunted office #as you can see my tagging system is very straight forward and simplistic :p #i know i've forgotten some so i'll add more later as i think of them

[flamboyant-king]

You know me. I like barely ever show any NOT SAFE FOR WORK drawings on here. So instead, I'm sharing drawings of my face AS I was drawing each NOT SAFE FOR WORK thing.

And the subject is right there, smack dab in the middle. Being tormented by the sins of the egg. (I drew him really cute but I can't share the rest.)

ALSO, I'd like to state that it's not corngraphic except like two maybe, it's more so like violent. We are all just having fun beating this guy up. Like, step right up and stomp on his face type shih. I never ever ever draw violent stuff, unless it's lewling related, so this is like cathartic.

This uhh feeling will fade after Halloween hopefully and we'll go back to our regularly scheduled wholesomeness and cammypus.

#i looked in a mirror 20 feet away as reference because im like NYAHAHA WHAT EVILS HAVE I COMMITED #and i see my own smug face in the mirror like 'yes this will get me hunted down' #sketches #i do comedy slapstick violence but ya know doing more darker jokes and adult humor feels nice like im not censoring myself #i mean i still am by not showing you guys a lot of the bloody or even H O RN Y stuff but ya cant expose everything #like for those of yall who have followed me for years id say were all legal here for more than my usual 13+ content #i just want ro be appealing to a broader audience IN CASE i ever did make it somewhere but haha its been what #8 years since i started this blog. any credit i had died off with teeny taku fhjdjsksajsk #ive got no image to uphold. i have nothing im trying to promote anymore. i do but ive lost the plot ya know #im just having fun and im glad you guys are just ...letting me? like i looked at my old stuff #with the cookies the pokemans the fehs the ocs. and yall just let me go freaking wild and thought #yeah ill give that a like. bless yalls hearts. bless ya souls. ive got thousands of posts on here and yall just let me run wild #and thank you for that. ya never pit pressure on me. kts me outting pressure on myself. #i do wish there were folks that did look forward to some actual tangible content instead of me shitposting with no cohesiveness #but thats just hard with adhd. and try as i might with medications and alarms and deadlines and what have you. its just. difficult #like even the tags here are derailing. but i hope that alongside me just having fun doing my thing. i hope i can get on course #where there is a clear line to follow in my life but i dont lose sight of it as i trail off #but for now. im just drawing experimenting and straight up goofing around. have fun you guys #i may not show you everything but just know im having fun too.

[kjzx]

I've been thinking a lot about my sexuality these last few years, I'd even say sometimes obsessing to an unhealthy degree, and I think I've come in terms with the fact I almost certainly am bisexual and denying that is pretty lesbophobic and frankly dumb in many ways, and mainly cruel towards myself. Gonna be reading up on internalized biphobia and whatnot

#Turns out men around me just suck #And men that are thirsted over most of the time do too #Alright they don't meet my preferences** #No toxicity here everyone's valid #I have had my reasons to think I'm gay and I don't think I was that 'delusional' (idk a better way to say it) thinking that I am gay #But the more I move forward the more I realize I'm just lying to myself #I don't have to date men or be interested in what most people think is attractive in men to be bisexual and that's alright #I am a little disappointed in the way bisexuals are treated in certain lgbt+ spaces specifically chronically online ones #Is it cringe to admit that the thing that broke the camel's back was a fandom meta post where the author said that people in fandom #can't tolerate bi characters/HCs because the idea of a character having history is repulsive to younger fans that want there to be one and #only love interest. Or smth along these lines. That resonated with me. I have no clue why tho. I don't have much history with anyone myself #Aside from a homoerotic childhood friendship or two (celibacy sweep) #Not just that there were a lot of good points made but yeah. Fun things #I have a feeling I'll continue obsessing over this stuff #Obsession grind never ends babyyy 💯💪 #It does feel nice to admit to things I like without feeling like I have some sort of reverse religious trauma #the center of it being one ultimate queer experience and if you've straighted you're condemned to be seen as a straight by gays #for all eternity #Bisexual #Bi pride #//rambles

[mothocean]

Watched the amazing digital circus btw it's pretty good

#i think the concept n story are interesting. im a bit afraid thisll turn into a h*zbin h*tel type situation #where the fandom will get really Bad but like. idk i ended up liking it more than i thought i would #i think it helps that none of them seem like they're straight up the villain in the situation #like they're all trying to cope w the weird reality they've been thrown into in some way and it feels. different #than just having one sole 'evil guy' that trapped them all there yk #either way it has potential to be really interesting. def looking forward to the rest of the series #probably not gonna interact w the fandom much tho im still really scared #roseflower.txt

[pinkmandias]

I think a lot of Jesse hate also circles back around to society’s contempt towards addicts. Every time I see someone going on and on about how Jesse knew what he was getting into and how he deserved it and how he’s stupid and useless or whatever I’m like. Oh boy I can tell you are not at all empathetic to real life people who are struggling. It’s ironic, because so many of other characters interactions with Jesse may as well have “THEY THINK IT’S OKAY TO TREAT HIM LIKE THIS BECAUSE HE USES DRUGS AND THAT MAKES HIM LESS OF A HUMAN BEING THAN THEM. THAT’S BAD, DON’T DO THAT.” written on them in big red letters.

YES. thank you! that was definitely a point that i forgot to make because it’s so hard to put all my jesse feelings into words…

that’s where a lot of the blatant lack of empathy for his decisions, mistakes, & less well-intentioned actions stems from and why so many brba fans have now decided it’s time to shit on jane (besides her being a woman ofc). the writing for the show makes it pretty clear that all of the characters that berate jesse for his addiction are hypocrites and struggle with their own addictions that are more metaphorical (thus easier to conceal) than his dependency on drugs. but, alas, critical thinking and media literacy are genuinely foreign concepts to these people lmfao

walt’s knee jerk disgust & repeatedly using jesse’s addiction against him/using it as an indication of his character/morals/mental fortitude is absolutely something that this particular part of the audience (and most of society) identifies with and thinks is Good, because in their mind addicts should be punished for their “weakness” & capacity to be controlled by their addiction.

one of the most frequently used derogatory terms in reference to jesse in all of these hate posts was “junkie” so. yeah. definitely says something

#other three of the top three most used were pussy and rat #i’ve posted about this before in so many words but it was more to do with walt’s hypocrisy in particular #there was an addition to my post though that made some very good points #when it comes to the very straight forward showing not telling the brba writers do in regards to the other addictions #a #anon #jesse #brbabcs #meta

[aroacehanzawa]

WHAT R UR THOUGHTS ON BUDDY DADDIES EPISODE 8 🙏

I THINK IT WAS OUTSTANDING

First off, from the very first scene with Miri asking Rei where he's going and then saying but his home is here, and he says "THAT'S TRUE". AS TRUE AS HOW MUCH I CRIED UPON HEARING THAT

I think this episode was a great continuation from last episode's Kazuki-focused perspective, where Kazuki accepted to move on and essentially to live in the present from now on, the present that includes Miri and Rei. And now we got to follow Rei trying to find his place and accepting that his heart belongs with the little Kazuki & Miri family that he has little by little become more a part of than he realises.

I think the episode did a great job portraying how conflicted Rei is as he stands in-between having to continue his family business and having found a new home, which he might not necessarily feel like he belongs to (yet), but which he wants to belong to. And it's the way he did not outright say this, but what he does say is that there is something he also wants to protect, in direct parallel to his former mentor who was fighting to protect his significant other!!!

I also love how Rei's journey in this episode didn't end on some super optimistic final note (which last episode kind of did with Kazuki, the sun breaking out when he comes to his realisation and the colourful flowers and everything) but rather showing how Rei has simply taken the first small steps towards the future he wants, and sometimes that's enough.

Like, he's brooding and contemplating his identity and place in the world when Kazuki calls and he just lets it ring, but he picks it up in the end. Kazuki comes and he doesn't want to get in the car, but he does. We get to see their first meetings and how Kazuki took care of him, and even back then it was just a small step Rei took - he let Kazuki help. Rei asks if they can really change, and Kazuki doesn't know - but he took the step to ask, and Kazuki answered honestly. And that's already a change, this decision of theirs to step by step try to do the right thing so that they can live their lives the way they want, together with Miri. And in this episode it culminated in Rei smiling at sleepy Miri and the birthday table prepared by Kazuki, and that's enough for now.

Idk idk just think this series does such a wonderful job in showing the character's personal journeys and the difficulties of not just their jobs and lifestyles but also, very obviously, of two men raising a child together, and it does this in such a magnificent way with the perfect balance between optimistic and realistic. This episode was just another part of the wonderful whole, and it stands out so well on its own while still being such an important turning point in our main characters' story as a whole!

Also that ending scene?????? i won't survive the angst of the next episodes

#SORRY I STARTED RAMBLING there's not a single coherent sentence in there i'm afraid #you asked for my thoughts so those are my pure unfiltered thoughts #ANYWAY IF YOU AREN'T WATCHING BUDDY DADDIES. IT IS NOT TOO LATE #another thing - the photo of kazuki and miri in the supermarket was such a straight forward parallel to the photo of rei's former mentor #and his fiancee? wife? i forget #i've seen some criticism about how the show has very clearly put kazuki in the 'mother/housewife' role but #here i have to echo what some others had said - that there is still nothing heteronormative about the story of two single men raising a #child together. like you can say all you want about how kazuki does the cooking and the cleaning #but the very fact that they are NOT actually a man and woman living together already separates them from the context of a power imbalance #that would exist between a similar but heterosexual relation specifically because of patriarchy #like the unfair division of labour between husband and wife is one that is specifically rooted in sexism throughout history #whereas in this case it merely PARALLELS the typical parental roles without actually having this inherent power imbalance #i'm not well read enough on feminist theory to say anything more on the subject but you get what i mean? #and i think last episode already did a great job showing that kazuki DOES find it unfair that rei doesn't contribute enough at home #i think that was good commentary that applies to any household and family in general and not just the heterosexual nuclear family #i just don't think it's right to say that this series is being heteronormative #that's all folks #buddy daddies

[natsmagi]

Hello I really hope this does not sound accusatory or malicious! I can't and won't try to police who you follow, but I've noticed you're mutuals on twt with lumi, and she's proship and likes degenerate stuff sometimes, I don't follow her anymore but did at one point, to be clear, I'm not one of them, but you follow people that are against it as well and I don't want to get into discourse and bother you, I just thought you should know but can't notify you privately about something like that out of nowhere or anything... you seem to be a normal, nice person and said that you don't agree with stuff like that before! You can choose to not reply if you want it's, more a heads up than anything else q_q and you can decide to do as you please...

oh omg hey!! no worries at all! and thank you for reaching out with your concerns. to be honest i had no idea about any of this, like i know she posts weird stuff sometimes but i never really got the impression that she was proship? and i really dont wish to blindly assume the worst in people so if you could message me more info on it that would be very much appreciative!!

proship ideology is one of those few things in this world that i just Cannot empathize with, and this in general is a topic im DEEPLY passionate about. i do know though that some people cling to "proship" moreso as a defense for enjoying things with darker thematics and what have you without actually being into problematic things, just bc of how "accepting" the proship community is to. like. everything. and they fear being made an outcast by people outside that group just because they like nuanced things of that nature. and that honestly makes me really sad. so its why i dont like to baselessly judge people very often (usually its clear as day when they subscripe to actual proship ideology too, and them wearing the label proudly sets me off) but yes, it is something that i do not support and do not wish to give the impression that i DO support, so any lecturing is greatly appreciated!

thank you for reaching out!! i mainly just follow people bc oh! pretty art! without thinking much of it and i dont wanna unfollow ppl without knowing the scope of the situation, so ill be more attentive from now on and keep an eye out!! thank you again!!

#god i could ramble about the dangers of proshipping for like hoursssss #but ive also been consistently online for a decade so ive seen some more complex reasonings for these things #i dont know. if there is someone reading this who identifies with proship purely because you enjoy darker themes #and dont actually subscribe to the main ideas this ideology holds #please dont do that. i fear it only gives the community fuel and that scares me #and i dont wish to come off as hostile towards anyone i just. wish people would think of the bigger picture more #anyway i got rambly SORRY #i just wish to believe that theres good in people and some people are just misguided....... #but anyway this is alr long enough #if ppl want me to talk abt my many issues w proshipping i can though #since i feel the discussion tends to be pretty straight forward and ppl dont realize how deep this shit goes #BUT ANYWAY #ask

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

ik Doing It Scared is a massive part of helping anxiety and just life in general but I'm still mad about it

#doing a conservation thing tomorrow with a new organisation and a new group if people #using my new name and being a dude for the first time with people i don't know and trust #so scared and not looking forward to the gonna puke feeling tomorrow #but i gotta remember that its some kind of miracle that i am just grumbly and vaguely apprehensive about it right now #instead of one giant anxiety spiral for two weeks straight beforehand #and i have some kind of grasp on the concept that anyone would be nervous with new people in a new place #and its fine to feel that and it doesn't say anything about how its gonna go or my ability to cope #and with the trans thing thousands upon thousands of trans people have been through the same thing #and it will get better and easier to be myself and assert myself the more i do it #and the more positive and neutral experiences i have #i have the right to exist!! #i have the right to exist as myself without question #and to be addressed and respected how i choose #n e way wish me luck lmao im just very rusty ín the field of Doing Things #bc of the hermit crab shell i had to retreat into to figured my shit out