#so u know u have it. how can u question urself? u just saw it. so u must know it

[1overbaby]

Just had a dream and all i heard on repeat was: how am i gonna question myself when i saw it and know i saw it?

#will expand on this later if i want to but essentially this was on repeat in my mind in my dream #seeing is just imagination here. in my dream it was because i had an image of it. and so the main thing i was hearing: u just imagined it. #so u know u have it. how can u question urself? u just saw it. so u must know it #its this acceptance. and it is #how things have manifested before. perhaps always. in my life recently #with my shoes for example that were about £130 i just saw myself wearing them and said ‘omg! now i own these shoes!’ and two days later #my mother took me shopping for shoes specifically. this has happened other times too #unconscious ones are more like - i see myself with them- and go ‘ah cool’ but it still materialises #seeing self with desire - cannot deny its possibility. its existence #mine #i used to think that its abt the knowing its going to reflect which is true u need it bc self concept. why wouldnt u have it in the world of #caesar too? BUT #its moreso the knowing u just had it. u just experienced it. u know u have it in imagination (which is why itll reflect as a byproduct)

[kylejsugarman]

its crazy how u can distill the two schools of thought regarding "pushing students to succeed" using two of jesse's offscreen, throwaway high school experiences. early in the show, we see that jesse still has a chemistry test with walt's "ridiculous—apply urself" comment written at the top. it's no secret at all that walt presently thinks very little of jesse's intelligence, that he views him as a Failure. and even if that wasn't necessarily the case back when jesse was actually walt's student, u get the feeling just from the way those three words are written that walt never attempted to understand jesse. the "ridiculous" insinuates that walt actually does see potential in jesse, that he feels that jesse could succeed, but the "apply urself" is where everything falls apart. it's a simple directive. there's no guidance, no attempt to understand why it is that jesse's NOT "applying himself" or how he operates. i mean, we see right off the bat in the show that walt does not Get jesse and makes very few attempts to adjust his opinion of him because it has already been set in stone (junkie, failure, lazy, irresponsible), and based on walt's other interactions with different characters, he doesn't take it very well when other people don't act according to His standards: he views it as an intentional display of insolence or some engrained shortcoming. walt doesn't instinctively see how people's personalities and pasts and self-perceptions and current dilemmas shape their behavior, and that probably translated to a premature dismissal of jesse as a lost cause when his directives, his commands didn't prompt any change in behavior. walt told jesse to do better, jesse didn't, and that's where walt stopped because clearly jesse is not Willing and has too many Static character flaws to do better.

and then u have the story about jesse's woodshop teacher. the one who saw jesse's first pass at the box project and said "u can do better than that". in some ways, it's not so different from the "apply urself" comment: the teacher is asking jesse to apply himself, to try harder. but it's not that simple directive that in two words assumes that jesse wasn't applying himself and is willfully failing. the teacher sees jesse's potential and he also sees jesse's personality. he knows that this kid won't say "yeah sure whatever" to a comment like that and continue to do the bare minimum. jesse needed to be told that he Could do better, not that he Should do better. he needed to be told that there wasn't just "potential" in him: there is concrete skill and talent. the teacher saw that jesse had been written off time and time again because of how he thought about and approached his work, how jesse had come to accept what he saw as the Truth (he isn't smart, he isn't good at things, he's a failure), and he challenged jesse to question this label. to not just passively accept it. jesse initially responds to this challenge out of spite, but as he tells the story, u see just how much pride and joy doing that project inspired. how he was able to make something Beautiful, how there Was something in him capable of success—how maybe people were wrong about him. obviously jesse needed more support than that to truly change his behavior and how he viewed himself, but there's a reason that jesse daydreams about putting that kind of care and effort into carving a box during the finale when he's at his lowest. he's retreating into one of his brightest memories—the memory of what it was like to love himself, even for just a moment.

#syd squeaks #girls after they type up an incomprehensible wall of text: yeah thats fine post it #breaking bad #jesse pinkman #walter white #walt white

[anotherofmanyflowers]

LYNEY DRABBLE CUZ I HAVE AN ENGLISH TEST TMR, THIS IS MY WAY OF PRACTICING, ENJOY <3 (SORRY IF I MESSED SUM UP, I DIDNT READ HIS LORE YET)

This does feature some sensitive topics, pls be warned ⚠️

He knew you from the start.

The days in the house of the Hearth were fairly boring, the only excitement he felt was caused by fights breaking out in between the other children, but even the fights didn't last too long. If kids were to misbehave, they'd be struck back into their rightful places. He didn't care for a single other kid in that orphanage, the only exception being Lynette and Freminet, but he couldn't always be around them. Even they needed some alone time. But it gets boring being alone. There's only so many times he can throw a ball against the wall until he doesn't wanna catch it anymore. It was all boring and bland- until it wasn't. U were a breath of fresh air, fresh air that Lyney didn't even know he longed for. U were the sun behind the clouds that just managed to appear, a sun he didn't even know he was missing. He found it inspiring how u could stay so confident, so happy, when all the other faces around you were most definitely depressed. U were eccentric, unlike anyone he's ever seen before. U were supportive, cheering him up if he ever failed a magic trick infront of u, even tho he tried not to. He found solace in your smile, in your hug, in your eyes, in your everything.

But bliss doesn't last that long. Before he knew it- u were gone. He almost had a mental breakdown when he heard the news- no, when he saw the news. There wasn't that happy smile there to greet him every morning, there wasn't a hug anymore, and the worst part was that no one knew where u went. But he was sure they didn't even care, they were all the same faces, same thoughts- He thought about the police. Why couldn't they investigate? But alas, the answer came to him so soon, and so depressing. They were orphans. No parents, no siblings, no family, no one. Why would the police care about finding an orphan when they've got bigger fish to fry? But no matter how hard the days seemed to be, he was glad he still had his siblings. U were just an old friend, one he'll never see again..

Or atleast that's what he thinks.

U don't remember the earlier years of ur life, but u didn't try to remember. The only thing that mattered was finishing the job ur client requested of u. Be it an assassination, be it a robbery, u did everything for the right price. From what u heard, in ur childhood u were kidnapped and then sold and sold and sold so many times that u just stopped counting, or atleast that's what they told u. The person in question was the old retired Dr Kian, or as he told u to call him, grandpa. Kian was the first person that ever showed u kindness when all u were greeted with was cruelty. He took u in the night he found u crying by a lamppost in the middle of the night, right after u managed to escape from one of the people that bought u. He was there for u and he tried offering u a normal childhood, but u were far past ever being able to experience anything normally again. He saw the dullness in your eyes, he saw the strained smile u offered others when being polite, he saw how u never laughed along with the other kids, choosing to sit by a bench and stare out, as if zoning out will somehow bring back the childhood wonder u wished u had again.

U were cold, unwavering in your emotionless glares. It was only natural u found yourself in the world that hurt u so much- back where only crimes surfaced. U didn't even know when u trained urself with a blade, but it came naturally, as if u were born with it. U took ur first request when u were only 13. A simple robbery. U managed to get everything ur client wanted and came out with minor bruises. But u hid them well. Well everytime, u never even dreamed of telling Dr Kian of your late night outings, but u doubt he'd even notice, his hearing was getting worse.

U moved to Fontaine the second u were 18. U didn't want to leave Kian behind like that, but the jobs in Fontaine paid a lot more, so u managed to convince urself and make ur way to Fontaine. Kian tried to reason with u, but u wouldn't budge. It isn't that u didn't care for him, he was ur only family, it's just that at this point, nobody could change ur mind, sometimes u urself couldn't change ur mind. And u did make quite a name for urself in the illegal underworld of Fontaine. They called u "the Golden thief", u guess paying extra for the gold case for ur gun did make a difference.. As much as u hated to admit it, the fame of ur actions brought u solace. If the world turned its back to you, at the end of the day, ud still be the agent everybody wanted to employ, u were on top of the game, even if that game was more than illegal.

It was late into the night, the only thing accompanying you being the moonlight. U successfully finished yet another request, now just wanting to go home and relax. U didn't bother going out for any of the trials or shows, they didn't interest u. The only time u were willing to go out was for work, or if u forgot to buy dinner on ur way home. There wasn't anyone on the streets at this hour, everyone already sleeping peacefully in their homes. U were stopped in the middle of your walk from a sudden meow. U looked down and found a cat carefully walking towards u, black fured with a bow tied on its tail. It looked well fed, and was even wearing a small tophat. Despite the cold appearance u had, u couldn't resist petting the cat. U were petting it with a slight ghost of a smile on your face until u found urself stopped mid-motion yet again. A voice suddenly called out, and before u knew it, the cat was gone from your petting and now in the arms of a man that suddenly appeared before u. It took him a while to realize u were there, spending the time telling his cat to not run off like that while u watched from the sidelines. And when he did notice u, his eyes widened a fair amount, but he quickly regained his composure. He introduced himself as Lyney, "the worlds greatest magician!" which managed to make a small smile appear on ur face. He then thanked u for finding his beloved cat, and just as quickly as the familiar boy appeared, he was gone again. But when u placed ur hands back in ur pockets, u found something made of paper inside. U pulled the paper out, revealing front row tickets for Lyney and Lynettes magic show.

Authors note: this wasn't proofread and I wrote it bc my English like writing test is tmrw, wish me luck if ur reading this the minute I'm writing it. Hope u liked reading this, I kinda made everything up while writing it. HEARTT💙💙💙

#lyney and lynette #lyney #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin imagines #lyney x reader #lyney x y/n #lyney x you #drabble #fanfic #fypシ #lyney x gender neutral reader #lyney x gn reader #fontaine #fontaine genshin #fontaine x reader #fontaine x you

[lovebvni]

Hey! I don’t know if you do readings for free or not, feel free to ignore this if you don’t, but I’m wondering if I could get a reading on manifesting/shifting?

I know I have the ability to do anything and I truly believe that, and yet every night when I go to sleep with the intention to shift, I still wake up aware of my Cr instead. I feel like I’m stuck, because I know nothing but me is holding me back but I don’t know how to make it so I’m not.

Also, I saw one of your other reading things, what do you need to know about me? I’ll put some basic personality stuff though.

very creative, like to sing/draw/write ,believe anything is possible, kinda hate myself, love all people and have a large amount of caring for my fellow beings. <3

Thank you for taking the time to read!

-Parrot

hellooo parrot! such a cool name btw!! i used to want a bird before i realized i was scared of them.

i saw u sent another ask but i literally cannot find it!? augh :( IM SOO SORRY!!

i’m rlly creative too! i’m a theater kid, so yeah!! art, singing. dancing, acting, you name it i’ll try it! other than tap. i hate tap w a passion. it hurts my ankles !! i love people too! and i do have issues w self love as well. i sometimes js random laugh at something i thought and say i hate myself :( it’s a bad habit o need to get out of!

AND LOVE URSELF! U HAVE A COOL ASS NAME THAT BRINGS SO MUCH COLOUR TO UR LIFE! BE COLOURFUL, BOLD AND BRIGHT TO URSELF TOO!! UR SUPER WORTH IT!!!!!

so i’m gonna take ur question as a general shifting/manifesting advice. if i got it wrong, i can n will redo this for u!

first off i wanna say, you’re soft. like i heard “soft heart, soft voice, soft soul” from spirit. i don’t particularly know why but maybe it will come up

and when reading “I know I have the ability to do anything and I truly believe that, and yet every night when I go to sleep with the intention to shift, I still wake up aware of my Cr instead. I feel like I’m stuck, because I know nothing but me is holding me back but I don’t know how to make it so I’m not.” i instantly heard “no you don’t” from spirit.

you believe this because you’re trying to force yourself to, not because you actually believe it. you think you’re too weak and unworthy to shift — to gain any happiness in life, and that’s why you’re so giving and loving to others. you want that, and this is what you do so you can say you deserve it (5:55 rn)

u don’t need to “deserve “ anything to get it. you js need to want it, and have that fire under ur ass to grab it.

you’re not someone who gives up, i’ll tell you that, but you’re like clay. you always have a solid form, but you haven’t gone through the fire yet to be sturdy.

do you want to? yeah! but u keep letting little things get to you and mess up your design, your pattern.

you need to stop letting words or, what you see as, “consequences” get in the way of being happy.

waking up in what you think is ur cr is truly just a parallel reality in which you are closer to shifting. trust me. ive shifted to a different reality.

she bangs like a fairy on acid is a very interesting song to come on. at first i was like “maybe i’m not tapped into the right energy” but no — i definitely am.

it can be seen as falling back into an addiction that isn’t helping you get better or gain life.

“but listen to the fairy in the forest. she tells me that she wants it…” it’s giving into those old habits that you don’t particularly want, but you’re sacrificing yourself for.

get out of this energy. it’s not selfish to want to do better. isolate yourself.

and i don’t know if you’re doing anything or not, but try to cut back if you are.

i love u parrot!!! i hope all goes well :D

#abyss .answers #reality shifting #shiftblr #shifting #reality shift #desired reality #shifting community #shifting motivation #shifting realities #manifesting #law of manifestation #manifest #manifestation

[seongminiz]

camboy!taeyoung thoughts !!

minors dni ; camboy roommate!taeyoung x afab!reader ; word count: ~770

warnings : not very detailed smut ; masturbation ; dont know how but this mighttt count as dubcon since both taeyoung n reader r doing everything behind each others back ? ; kind of exhibitionism idk ; i overuse the („• ᴗ •„) emoticon bc im insane

based on that one taeyoung video , might be- no its definitely all over the place , not proof read , was supposed to post this last night but i fell asleep , pls guys dont make fun of me idk how long i can still pull the autistic aroace lesbian card to defend myself from the shitty writer allegations , im very sleepy rn :3 , might post a part 2 if anyone is interested bc im not done with the thoughts („• ᴗ •„)

camboy taeyo- GETS RAN OVER BY A TRAIN

my god my god my god

he'd sometimes use fleshlights n stuff like that but nothinggg would beat when hes fucking his hand n cums all over his toned abs („• ᴗ •„) n he'd tease his audience sooo much ! being all cocky n mostly in a dom mood ,, but the most fun streams of his r the ones where hes more subby :( begging n whining n trying sooo hard not to come too early bc being this vulnerable in front of an audience makes him more sensitive n turned on •v• camboy tyoungie i fucking love u thats it

and and and and

roommate!taeyoung who also works as a camboy to have some extra money to spend on himself . u dont know abt it , u just assume hes rlly loud n horny all the time - which, hey, u cant rlly blame him for it - but u do question if hes that loud bc he wants u to hear him ,, if only u knew how ur guess isn't that far fetched , taeyoung having to keep himself from moaning ur name everytime he streams, touching himself to the thought of u - on top of him or under him , anywhere , he doesn't care , just thinking abt u is enough . and if only he knew how u took an habit of touching urself at the same time, ur bed being conveniently against the wall confining with his room .. u dont even worry abt taeyoung hearing u , you pride yourself in being on the quieter side - you really aren't and taeyoung anxiously checks if his mic is picking up on ur sounds every single time he hears u . until one eventful day - while taeyoung is out at the gym or something - u realize oh shit , u r unbelievably horny n ur personal jerk off material isn't home ,, u r so desperate , nothing you find on twitter or even those shitty porn sites seems to do the job , it's almost like you've conditioned yourself to only feel good bc of taeyoung </3 at some point , doom scrolling ur twitter tl u come across an account u follow promoting their ,, streaming channel on some obscure website that sounds like a scam . no its definitely a scam . you've never had that much of an interest in this kind of content , but you figure at this point u could try anything to get rid of how unbearably horny u r . again, nothing of what you're seeing piques your interest, until u see the thumbnail of a specific vod from a few days prior. despite being darker, you can still realize the room looks eerily similar to yours - to taeyoung's. u shake ur head, giving yourself a few slaps for good measure and whispering to yourself to 'fucking snap out of it', there's no way you're so down bad for ur roommate u r starting to imagine him as one of these camboys. no way. but u still cant fight the urge to click on the video, maybe the resemblance to taeyoung is what can get u to finally feel good . you hurriedly put your oh so beloved noise canceling headphones on and turn the volume up. that's when your heart sinks and u freeze, hand stopping halfway inside your shorts bc holy shit that sounds a little too much like taeyoung, n u r now a hundred percent sure u saw those same bedsheets in his room four days ago - coincidentally the same day this was streamed, and yes thats his shirt, the one that always drives u insane bc he looks a little too good in it .... before u know it , you're on ur third vod of his , basically binge watching all of his past streams and on the verge of tears with how much you've been overstimulating yourself . you're so lost in it u dont realize taeyoung has come back home around the midst of 2nd video or so , and knows exactly what ur up to when he hears u moaning his name . poor boy is fighting the urge to just burst into your room , telling himself it wouldn't be morally right to do so - as if jerking off to the thought of his roommate while streaming or standing right by their door as he starts to slowly palm himself over his pants while listening to you getting off is any more decent ,,

this might stay ur little secret , both too shy to confront each other abt it ,, or maybe taeyoung will just have to wait for a repeat of that day to catch you red handed and finally get what he's been craving for weeks („• ᴗ •„)

#🍰 seongminiz ! #🧇 crvt ! #cravity hard hours #cravity smut #taeyoung smut #btw op on twitter deleted the video i feel miserable #(i literally downloaded it on my phone)

[jwcnsz]

you're perfect, baby

bf!lee heeseung x gn!reader

summary; heeseung comforting y/n and reassuring them that they're perfect just the way they are (i'm crying).

warnings; swearing, mentions of body shaming (??), reader is pretty insecure :(, calorie counting, lots of crying, use of baby and love

genre; heavy(ish) angst, fluff

word count; 900+ (i was aiming for more :( but its okay)

a/n; i've been thinking abt bf hee sm lately i'm so in love with him anyways i want u guys to know ur perfect just the way u are!! don't let anyone tell u different, not even urself. now enjoy, loves <3

you looked at your reflection in the mirror of your room. no matter how you looked at yourself, you weren't satisfied with yourself. your mind was constantly full of thoughts criticizing yourself.

your waist could be smaller... maybe you could work out more to lose some of the belly fat you have... you need to stop eating so many calories and count like before... heeseung probably thinks you need to lose weight too...

that last one stung the most. you never understood how your boyfriend loved you so much even when you didn't have the best body (in your opinion). he could get anyone in the world, you thought. anyone better than you, so why pick you?

you felt the tears well up and slip down your cheeks. he deserves so much better, why you? what do you have that he could possible want so much?

you look back in the mirror. you look at your arms, thighs, belly, even your hands. you just didn't get what he saw. the small whimpers leaving you became full on sobs.

heeseung had just come back from a night out with some friends, he was so ready to cuddle with you and fall asleep with you. his plans were forgotten when he heard crying coming from your shared bedroom. he barged in to find you looking at yourself and sobbing.

he felt his heart break. why are they crying?, he thought as he walked over to you and wrapped his arms around you, putting his head on your shoulder.

"baby, what's wrong?" he asked. your sobs became louder. you wanted to answer him, really, but you couldn't. how do you tell your boyfriend that you think your body is an absolute mess, that he deserves better.

you shook your head and unwrapped his arms from around you. he was confused, did he do something wrong? did he make you sad? "y/n, is everything okay? did i do something?" he asked in a worried tone.

"hee, what do you see in me?" you didn't answer his question. he blinked slowly before answering. "what do you mean...?" you sighed before turning to look at him.

"what's so good about my body? why do you stay with me even when my body is absolute shit?" you let out, holding back a sob. oh no. heeseung was ready to burn the fucking world down.

"baby what? why are you even asking yourself this?" he needed to know how you even got these questions in your head.

you just shook your head and cried more. heeseung hugged you again but this time you didn't try to push him off. he's giving you head pats and telling you that it's okay, to let it out.

when you finally calm down, he sits you down on your bed and holds your hands. "can you finally tell me what's wrong, love?" he asked softly. he tried to sound as calm as possible so that felt comfortable talking to him.

you took a deep breath and started talking. "my body is so ugly. it's not nice to look at at all. i'm just wondering why you're with me even when my body is probably the worst you could find. you have so many pretty girls around you that are so much prettier and better than me... so why me?" you voice quivered with those last words.

heeseung felt himself tear up. he didn't want you to feel like that, he wanted you to know you're perfect to him, to know that you're amazing and that he'd never trade for anyone else no matter what.

"why you? because you're perfect to me, y/n. you're absolutely beautiful. i don't care what you think i think, i want you to know that in my eyes you're the most perfect person to ever exist in the history of ever. ever!"

as he said all this, he started crying. god he was in so much fucking pain just from the thought of you belittling yourself and your body like that. you started crying too. not because of what you thought of yourself but because of heeseung's words.

"you really mean it?" you questioned him. he wipes the tears from your cheeks. "i do. i really do." he answered you.

you both kept crying. he went to hug you and you hugged back this time, crying with each other. "i love you so much. you're perfect, baby. please know that." hee whispered into your ear as you nodded.

"thank you, hee." you whispered out. he smiled and gave you a small kiss, making you smile as well.

"let's sleep, in the morning we can finish talking about this, okay?" he suggested. you nodded and got up to change in your pajamas. when you came back he was already in bed waiting for you to lay down with him.

he patted the side of the bed that was empty. "come here here with me, love" he smiled at you. you walked over to the bed and laid down facing him. he gave you a kiss before hugging you and holding you so, so tight.

he never wanted to let you go, ever. he wanted you to feel comfort from him in that moment. you wanted to cry from how much love he was showing you in that moment.

after that night, hee made it his mission to compliment you every single day. no matter what he would make comments like "you look so good in those jeans." and "that dress suits you so well, baby."

he did his very best to make you feel good about yourself. and it was working so well, all because of him.

taglist <3: @iluvnishi (if u wanna be tagged send a message/ask!)

reqs are OPEN!

#enhypen x reader #enhypen angst #lee heeseung #lee heeseung x reader #enhypen imagines #enhypen scenarios #enhypen fluff #enhypen oneshots #lee heeseung x y/n #cried while writing this #i love u guys #i projected too much sorry

[starliights-shining]

DROPS IN FROM UR STORIES PILE MESSILY

NNBMNWNSJ where do I start?? AH YES. ur stories. They..are fragging AMAZING?!?!!? Actually it would be more than one word if I could even describe them.

And if ur request are open, could u do Cybertron Jolt? Bc he is so unloved..

Oh and, NSFW? Well, if u do them? I just feel like he would be jealous and I mean really jealous- if we hung out with the kids and minicons instead of him- and female human?

oh hey! If u have alot of request or something, take ur time and please do take care of urself! Thank u and goodbye! :)

Hello, Sorry this took so long. I got caught up in writing something else and I dont really know Jolt like that, but of course I got it done. I'm glad you like my writing! My requests are always open as well, but I hope this story is to your liking! Take care of yourself as well, Enjoy! :)

Pairing: Jolt x Female!Reader

Warnings: NSFW, Female Reader,

An off day, a day you get to spend time with the Autobots and the kids. So you spent the day cooking, cooking for the kids. You lived in a rural area, so no one would notice the large robot chilling outside your house. You decided it would be fun to have a little picnic, you had accounted for everyone, small or large, but it was just the kids, the mini-bots and Landmind. Everyone you regularly talked to was there, except Jolt. 

“Hey, where's Jolt?” 

You asked anyone, a worried but sad look seemed to be present on your face, your grip on the serving dish tightening as no one was answering your question. 

“He said he had something to do, then he’d be here.” 

Lori said, sitting at the picnic table. 

“But he should be here by now. We’ve been at Miss (Y/N)’s house since 10.” 

“Maybe he just got caught up in what he was doing,”

Colby said, he saw the worry on your face. He smiled at you before also sitting at the picnic table. Jolt never missed the opportunity to be with you, even though you had previously told him about the idea before inviting people. He had told you he would be here, but you guess with him being the avatar of primus and all, he must have gotten busy. 

By the time the picnic was over, It was just you and minicons. You had sent Lori, Bud and Colby home. They didn’t want to leave but with the excuse of ‘needing lots of energy for tomorrow's great adventures.’ they left with the happiness and excitement of any other kid. You had cleaned up the house with the help of the minicons, a smile on your face as Reverb handed you the dried serving plate, and Six Speed drained the skin. 

“Heyy, thanks for the help guys. Y’all probably want to get back to the base, so I can take it from here.” 

Both the minicons nodded, they helped clean up the kitchen and then left. Jolt's arrival was something else, almost all the lights in your house were off and you sat on the couch watching some weird documentary. 

“Hey! Where is everyone?” 

His question threw you off guard, you turned your head to look towards the bot.

“They all left, considering half the group were children, and I sent the other minicons back to base. They helped me clean up, so I didn’t wanna keep them any longer.”

He hummed, walking around to where you were sitting. There was a moment of silence before jolt sat down. The tv in the background is still talking about some type of animal as you thought about what to say next. 

“Next time you see Reverb, please thank him for me. He did a whole lot of things, he didn’t have to do anything at all.” 

You paused, turning to fully see Jolt, watching as the colors flash on his face plate. You noticed he didn’t have the glass dome around his helm this time, his rest folded behind his helm. You really could see the way his plating connected, you knew that cybertronians were different then humans, but no matter how many times you started at other mechs, the way they're playing fits together to make their version of skin fascinates you.

You reached out towards his helm. Your fingertips lightly brush over the seams. You startled him, he originally pulled back but then came closer to your touch. 

“No matter how many times I see you guys. I’m always fascinated. The different configurations of plating, and textures are so different. Your plating feels smooth, almost like it's been untouched its whole lifetime. While Reverbs has the same configuration but its rougher, battle worn. Then,” 

You paused, climbing into his lap, turning on the side tables lamp before you grabbed his whole helm. Moving it around and examining it.

“Then it ranges in difference from the big guys, like Jetfire or Landmine.” 

You drag your thumbs under his optics, Hearing his intake in the process. He places both his servos on your hips, his thumbs  rubbing back and forth on the skin under your shirt. 

“You guys are so human, but made out of metal.” 

You brought your hands down to his mandible, resting them lightly there as you angle his helm down and then back up again. Your thumb is running over his bottom lip, you glanced up at his optics as you felt his servos tighten on your hips. 

“I wonder if Reverb or,” 

You were cut off by Jolt, his lips hungrily eating at yours. You felt him pulling back, but grabbed the sides of his helm pulling him into you. You weren’t letting this go, you felt the way his grip tightened, the simple actions that he thought would go unnoticed. He lets the kiss go, pulling back to say something. 

“Stop talking about them,” 

He kissed you again, a more possessive kiss, like he was trying to claim you. 

“This isn’t about them.” 

You can feel his servos getting antsy, one of them trying to move further down while the other is moving upwards. His servos that moved down finally found what it was looking for, pressure pressed on as he pulled away from the kiss. 

“You haven’t shut up about some other ‘bot since I got here.” 

You let out the moan you had been holding in since his servos found its spot there, moving around his servos, his digits found their way into your panties, and straight to your slit. Moving from the bottom up, giving your clit a little nudge before repeating the process. Each time he meets your clit his nudge gets harder.

Each moan you let out getting louder and louder, until you're practically just moaning his name. Your body rested fully into his, your knees brought to the side of his tibulen, the fingering he did to you hitting in just the right places. Your hands were not displaced to his shoulder plating, at this point you just wanted release. 

“Any questions you have about my plating, I’ll answer myself. No need for you to ask anyone else. Ya got that?” 

You could tell he was in fact very upset, comparing his plating to some other bots, not shutting up about some other bot, hanging out with the other minicons and the children, and not just him. This was punishable, and he knew how he was going to do it. He wanted your confirmation of his question. You were to come to him with such questions about cybertronian plating or anything, and he’ll show you. He allow for touching, pulling, pushing, and if need be he’ll fuck it into you. But you were for him and only him, not Reverb, not Six Speed, not Jetfire, just him. 

He still hadn’t received his confirmation, so he picked his pace up. The once slow and normal pace was replaced with a quick one, one that brought you closer to finishing, the knot tightening far too fast then your use to. 

“Im need an answer, (Y/N).” 

You hum first, then change into a fast string of yes’s, until you're begging to cum. His pace is still not letting up. 

“I can’t hear you.”

“Yess yes yess, I'll do anything, please Jolt.” 

You managed to mona out in between breaths. He hums in agreement, which you take as a cue to let go. Jolt slows his pace to an almost stop. 

“I didn’t say you could finish.” 

You let out a whine, a high pitched whine. You were so close, yet he would not allow you to finish, so in the wake of not moaning like a pornstar, between breaths you look up at him through your eyelashes and ask.

“Why can’t I finish?”

And with the most evil and devilish smirk, he responds. 

“Because, you spent the day with other bots and people.”

A pause as you lower your head, a whine escaping your mouth as he lean in placing a kiss to your forehead while saying, 

“You're only mine.” 

#transforemrs #tf cybertron #tf g1 #cybertron #cybertron cartoon #transformers cybertron #Jolt x reader #cybertron jolt #transfomers jolt #transformers x reader #autbots #transformers writing #minicons #jolt #recon mini-con team #transformers minicons #tf jolt #stars writings

[girlwithfish]

hii hope this isn't weird but i saw all your posts about your partial hospitalization program and i might actually start going to one soon so i wanted to ask what an average day is like and what to expect ! hope your treatment is going well!!

hii! thank u ^-^ i know its scary i was vrery anxious to start but my first 3 days have been going pretty well!! it was overwhelming for me at first esp if ur not used to being in a group setting but the ppl in my group r pretty nice! and i really like most of the therapists on staff, i think this is important bc if u dont like them maybe itd be not as bearable or like a pleasant experience 😭 ofc everything im saying is specific to my program nd stuff so urs could be run different! but my php has around 6-7? ish therapists on staff and a different member leads group sessions thru out the day and they rotate, sometimes 2 therapists at once. and its a diff therapist on the schedule and not rly consistent idk how they determine that lol. but i rly get a lot out of each therapists insights and find the sessions to b pretty helpful. i treat it like school honestly where i try to be very active in listening the whole day and take in what theyre saying and take notes from discussions and anything that resonates with me. they give us a binder bc there r a lot of handouts and also give a journal so i use both a lot and treat it like a class. it can be comforting to be around other people who are in a similar place as u where they also had to go to a 6 hour a day program, makes u feel a little less lonely. my program is very dbt and cbt centered, w an emphasis on skills. we have a different topic each week, like last week was emotions and this week is connection & communication. they break up sessions into an hour each and we have an hour for lunch at 12. since its not a super long term thing, w a lot packed into the short term as they prepare u for IOP (intensive outpatient) its def overwhelming at times cuz ur at therapy for six hours a day for five days a week so im rly trying to try to find relaxation outside of therapy nd ways to unwind. theres around 12ish ppl in my group who ur with every day. everyone ur has a different care plan and schedule, w ppl moving down to IOP and usually at least one new person to a couple new ppl a day since ive been here. so the group ur w does change every day a little just bc everyones on a different track. we're assigned a therapist who u meet with once a week for 50min and also a psychiatrist who u also meet w once a week. therapists will pull u out of session to talk w u or go over safety plan n stuff. every morning they have u fill out a check in sheet with u assessing ur SUD (subjective units of distress) score, if ur having any thoughts of sh suicide or intents. asks u of an achievement ur proud of in the past 24 hrs, any notes for ur therapist, what skills uve used in the past day. we also have music therapist who comes in a couple days a week and yoga once a week. good luck!!! its a lot but uve got this! remember to take time for urself and unwind after therapy. if u have any other questions lmk i hope this helped!! genuinely the ppl on staff here r very nice so it definitely makes this place more pleasant for me and the content is very insightful. i like how things r run here and dont have many complaints. if ur looking into diff programs definitely check the reviews for the place on google or smth bc the place i go to i had a positive outlook toward when i was anticipating starting bc there were a lot of good reviews and ppl talking abt their positive experiences so i felt good abt it! wishing u the best ❤️🎀

[elliesmistress]

Hey! Random question ik but like i just saw you make a post abt u being high and as a non smoker myself i just kinda wanted to know ppls expiriences with being high. Sorry, its random i just think they are always funny af. Ofc u dont have to if u don't want to ♡

THC - is what makes you feel high and giggly

CBD - is what makes you go night night

There is THC and CBD is all weed but some has more THC than CBD and others have more CBD than THC

Depends on the type of weed and just drugs on general- unfortunately where I am weed is VERY illegal so you get what you get 😭

Like, if I smoke indica which has more CBD than THC I go night night. I tend to smoke stuff with more THC during the day (on my days off, I'm not even working at the moment but whatever) usually so I can write or just enjoy being high playing video games, playing bass or guitar, and listening to music. Idk I've had some pretty bad experiences on weed like fully "greening-out" (basically blacking out but on weed) and getting so high it feels like my chest is getting ripped open, somewhat in a good way but usually I just freak myself out but I've definitely had some good experiences on it, like half the shit I've written I've been stoned and or high -

I've also done a fair bit of LSD in my lifetime, the first time I did it was absolutely terrifying and the worst trip I've ever had.

I've also done ket, don't recommend at all it's more of a downer than a upper and it's just not that fun lmao- for starters you get horny af on it but you can't feel anything, like it's a fucking tranquilizer so it makes it hard to breathe and move/I've had a few experiences with friends and myself where we almost had to call an ambulance because of how much it fucks with your breathing - but gives you one of the best afterglows out there.

I've also done MDMA or Molly, probably the best high I've ever had, made me love everybody- MDMA makes it impossible for any negative emotions to get in because of how much serotonin it releases, so your mom could walk in tell you that she hates you and wishes you were dead and you'd still be happy- crazy shit dude, MDMA gives you the fattest hangover ever btw, first time I did Molly I had a come down for 3-4 days, everything hurt- I was scared of my own reflection, my hand kept morphing, my eyes looked weird, I had dilated pupils, EVERYONE thought I was still high, i just don't recommone molly like whaat you get from it isn't enough for it to be worth it- you get super depressed after and you wanna kill urself :/ . @abbysmiddlefinger was a victim of me saying how much I loved them and me on MD in general

I've also done Amphetamines, for the love of god do not do speed, I did speed like the day after I did Molly for the first time and oh my fuck was the come down from both absolutely terrible- if anything touched my body in any way it would send pain shocks all down my spine and shit and my head OMG MY HEAD IT WAS TERRIBLE! I hadn't gone outside since the come down (so for two weeks I was in my room/house) and I had to go to therapy and I almost punched my therapist because speed makes you angy as FUCKKKK.

(I'm an innocent soul istg)

Just don't do drugs in general , it's wayyy to easy to get laced or take something that isn't what you think it is nowadays or just buy off a trust worthy friend or be a fucking idiot and make it yourself. Fun fact: MDMA is such a bitch to make most people just put crack, rat poison or speed in it.

#ellie williams

[pissenchanted]

Pokemon sexual dimorphism dissertation?? -grabby hands-

omg hiii okay so i’d just like to say u brought this on urself (i’m so sorry)

also i was exaggerating when i said dissertation it’s more like a rabid monologue situation. anyway. so i saw a video on instagram where meowth and oshawott are confessing their love to a purrloin and purrloin’s trainer is like uhhh purrloin is a guy, and meowth and oshawott are shocked. and it made all the wheels in my brain go brrrrrr. so i wrote down my train of thought to send to my friends (i altered it here for clarity because when i wrote it i was just spitting all the words out like a mama bird. also i added some stuff bc i got side tracked when i initially wrote it and forgot my original point somewhere along the way, so i threw that in there. okay go (under the cut)

this video raises some fascinating questions about sexual dimorphism (or apparent lack thereof) in pokemon, bc in some pokemon sexual dimorphism is very apparent (take pikachu or wobbuffet for example), but in others it doesn’t appear to exist at all (like we see with purrloin in this video. also oshawott do not have any documented sexually dimorphic characteristics). i have two main hypotheses for the surprised reactions we observe in meowth and oshawott when they are told purrloin is "a guy"

1. purrloin don't exhibit sexual dimorphism and do not have visible reproductive organs. meowth and oshawott assumed purrloin was not “a guy” because purrloin don't exhibit sexually dimorphic or identifiable reproductive organs, and meowth and oshawott just thought it was hot and assumed it was not a guy, despite a lack of sexually dimorphic characteristics

2. purrloin do have visible reproductive organs, but this particular purrloin has characteristics that align with a biologically female phenotype (or otherwise do not align with a male phenotype), which led meowth and oshawott to the conclusion that purrloin was not in fact "a guy". sexual dimorphism is kind of irrelevant to this hypothesis because if the circumstances of this hypothesis were true, whether or not sexual dimorphism was involved wouldn't change the reactions of meowth and oshawott - they would still be surprised either way, because this hypothesis is concerned about whether or not meowth and oshawott were mislead by visible reproductive organs.

if the first hypothesis is correct, we can assume that pokemon do not have external/visible reproductive organs. this is interesting since pokemon lay eggs - even the mammal-like pokemon (though it doesn't make a whole lot of sense to apply our taxonomic system to pokemon). this also calls into question - what the fuck is moo moo milk? if pokemon aren't mammals, is that even milk? or is it some other biologically produced liquid that happens to resumble what comes out of mammory glands in the animals of our world (like a convergent evolution type beat perhaps). i'm going to table that truckload of worms though because we already touched on it in a different discussion. (as a side-note im currently of the opinion that there is a cloacal kiss situation going on but thats not what this conversation is about)

both hypotheses raise interestings question about sexual orientation in pokemon. purrloin’s trainer told meowth and oshawott that purrloin was “a guy”. since meowth exhibit documented sexual dimorphism (varying whisker length in males vs. females), we can assume the trainer knew meowth is male (not even going to get into him talking/his voice/things he says). the implied meaning behind the trainer stating that purrloin in a guy is that, since purrloin is a guy, it would not be interested in meowth or oshawott.

but now there are more questions!

why does the trainer assume meowth and oshawott aren’t into “guys”?

how did she know oshawott is male? oshawott don’t exhibit documented sexual dimorphism. she presumably couldn’t tell oshawotts sex or gender by looking at it, so even if she’s homophobic and thinks boy pokemon can’t be in love with each other, for all she knows, oshawott could’ve been a girl. maybe she just knows that the majority of oshawott are biological males, and made the assumption based on statistics? or maybe she has internalised misogynistic and sees male as the default?

this is kind of going back to the first point but why does she assume that purrloin’s sex and/or gender is correlated with its sexual orientation? perhaps she's not assuming at all - i mean, we do see purrloin say something before she states that it is a guy. maybe purrloin stated that it was a guy, and she was simply translating. maybe purrloin is the homophobic one afterall???

it's important to acknowledge and discuss potential sources of error, such as biases the trainer may have, as well as other environmental and contextual biases that i havent even touched on. these factors make it difficult to use this interaction alone to make grand inferences on topics of sexual dimorphism, reproductive morphology, sex, and gender of pokemon as well as the intersection between these topics. that said, this interaction provides important data that can be helpful for a variety of people and fields, for example; researchers seeking to further the body of knowledge on such topics, pokemon healthcare providers whose understanding of pokemon physiology impacts the quality of their care, and breeders who stand to better raise their pokemon with an improved understanding of these topics.

an interesting potential avenue for further investigation would be understanding whether purrloin could be used as a proxy for other pokemon that humans have not or cannot distinguish as sexually dimorphic. if purrloin is determined as a suitable proxy, then this research as well as other purrloin-related research could give us insight onto the sexual dimorphism or lack thereof of a wide variety of pokemon species.

another avenue for further research could be determining whether pokemon can precisely and accurately identify the biological sexes of pokemon species that do not have documented sexual dimorphism, using visual cues alone. if they can accomplish this task successfully, researchers can learn an astonishing number of things based on what types of pokemon were more or less successful and how that correlates with the types of pokemon they could accurately sex. widespread success at this task could also provide insight on cues that humans are less tuned to picking up that pokemon have a better sense of.

lastly, and perhaps the most important future research path would be investigating how. the. fuck. pokemon reproduce and why do they all lay eggs and shit and oh my god i need to create my own taxonomic system for them so so so so bad.

okay thank u for reading my literally brain juice spewing everywhere <3 <3 <3 #< <3 <3 <3 <3

#i am so so sorry for putting this out into the world #if anyone has notes or wants to have an in depth discussion/debate about this i would be so into it (read: maybe argumentative but like in #a fun way) #itfc #pkmn #ask

[kermitmentality]

Okay hi again lol how are you, hope you're doing well UwU There's some mega drama at my school because a teacher was outed for being many disgusting things (being a misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, fat-shaming creep who fixates and has inappropriate relations with his female students).

And - I just - the teacher in question is somehow my friend??? Obviously we aren't friends anymore, but I thought that he was one of those cool teachers who are close to their students and give them candy, life advice and shit.

I feel dumb and stupid and childish for not realizing that he's been very manipulative towards me and honestly I feel disgusting. I was going through my old messages with him (also recounting my in-person experiences with him) and noticing how he's been so creepy this entire time??? And??? I'm in shock???

I've heard him be homophobic before, although when he talks to me he tones it down because the first time he expressed something about how the SOGIE Equality bill should not have been created in the first place in the Philippines I fucking flipped my shit - (Sexual Orientation, Gender Identity, and Expression which seeks to protect and advocate fairness and equality towards not only members of the LGBTQ community, but also to every person in the country) He disagrees with it for all of the wrong reasons because he sees gay people as less and transgender people as even less is just? Bro w h a t -

Yeah, the worse is that there were multiple instances of him asking me to send pictures of what I was doing and making very suggestive comments (both online and in person) that it took me four years to realize exactly how bad the situation was. He also said that I would look prettier if I just lost weight and keeps commenting if my boyfriend (at that time, he's my ex now lol) had already tried being... intimate with me, and going into disturbing details like how he would smell and how it would feel and then getting pregnant? Like? I WAS 15 AT THAT TIME STOP.

So my cripplingly low-self esteem has gotten impossibly lower and now I feel dirty, how is your day going?

um first off i’m so sorry idk when u sent this but i haven’t been able to get on much at all so i just now saw this

anyways, u m m im so sorry that happened to you

but pls know it’s not your fault, i’ve made that mistake myself. and people like that know exactly how to gain your trust and manipulate you. it’s not your fault u didn’t realize it and u aren’t stupid for not knowing, but hopefully now you won’t be in the same situation again :)

im glad that they found out and im

hoping he was fired or idk throwing him in prison sounds like a good option also lol

there are sadly just horrible people out there :( it really makes me so sad bc these things ruin so many peoples lives and they always seem to get away with it too

but yah, once u gain someone’s trust it’s hard to see them as a bad person or to realize that what they are doing is wrong, and they know exactly how to manipulate u bc of that trust. really, it isn’t ur fault at all. pls don’t take it out on urself, u were young at the time.

idk how i can help with your self esteem but once u realize that it wasn’t your fault that u made that mistake, and you happened to fall in a trap so many others do, hopefully it’ll help. 

ily and ty for sharinggg i hope ur doing a bit better now, and hopefully next time u come to me with something i can answer faster 😭😭

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

hey 👋 so i wanted to know if u consider urself an “army” and if yes then would u say u’re ot7? i mean i guessed it would be kind of odd if u didnt consider urself an army cause ur whole blog is kind of centered around bts. and also i want to know how much u like each member and if u dislike any in particular (though some are a bit obvious 😭)

Hii hey. I mean, yes, in the technical sense I've always been an army, even if I've never personally called myself that. I gave the example before of how I used to like one direction too, but I never said "i'm a directioner" or "I'm a swiftie". If it makes things easier yeah, I don't mind describing myself as army. I've always thought of myself as a BTS fan and that's it. But saying "I'm army [or any other fandom name]" is something I've always considered very corny and unnecessary for MYSELF. I don't judge people who use fandom names.

How much do I like the members haha umm. It has changed over the years.

Jimin was my favorite from the beginning. I feel like my affection for Jimin has now dimmed significantly, there's a whole lot less affection compared to what it was in 2020 or even until mid 2021. Even if he's still the member I like the most, I'm more chill about it. Like an old friend you've known for ages, you just know you love them no questions asked. Sometimes things happen that remind you how kind and beautiful they are and you feel your heart bursting.

Then, there was Jungkook. At first there was a big difference between how much I liked Jimin and the rest, but eventually that gap closed and I grew to love JK as well, and so there was a gap between Jungkook/Jimin and the rest. I thought he was funny, hot, I actually liked that he was competitive, and I liked that he seemed protective of the things he loved. Nowadays, I don't feel that comfortable about Jungkook. It's not distaste, definitely not hate, not animosity, there's seriously no bad feelings at all. I just stopped being so sure of his genuinity, and I began feeling like he's superficial and unserious, so I stepped away. I'm not someone who hates or rots in bitterness about people I don't like. I'm a leaver hehe, I'm someone who cuts ties, I just leave when I feel like a place or a person is not it for me anymore. I do miss him tho, and I miss the way I used to feel about him and I wish it had never changed but what's done is done.

Yoongi was one of my faves for a while when I first got into BTS. I like engaging and simple people, simple in the sense that it's easy to get a feel of who they are, what they stand for; this is what I saw in Jimin and I felt drawn to him. I saw the same in Yoongi, and I liked that he was witty and his answers were clear, he didn't beat around the bush, and he seemed very #involved. Involved in the team, both professionaly and personally, involved with whatever purpose BTS had. They don't have a lot in common, but I do believe that Jimin and Yoongi still have these traits in common. Then it just stopped haha no reason in particular, tho looking back I think Yoongi's involvement (just as everyone's involvement) in BTS started being less and less, their interviews started becoming repetivtive and superficial, so maybe I just lost sight of Yoongi, in a way. Also ngl the constant focus on awards and charts is a turn off for me.

I never cared about Taehyung, I'm sorry. He's probably the only member that I never cared for and it stayed that way. No character development, and the little there was, it was for the worse. I've always thought he was good looking, I have eyes. And I'm probably responsible for at least 100k views in singularity MV because I really love it (present tense). He has some good qualities, like I know he's fierce about the people he cares about and I can appreciate that. But he never inspired in me strong feelings, of any type. I don't like a lot of things about him, one of those things being that everytime he says anything I have to ask myself if he's saying the truth or just talking out of his butt, which is something I started feeling about Jungkook too. He's just A Man. A childish new money money, at that. An eyeroll and I move on.

On the other hand, Namjoon, Jin and Hoseok were the members that at first I didn't really get a grasp of, but slowly I got to know more of them and started liking them more and more.

I know I talk a lot and a much of what I say might get lost in the grand scheme of things (posts) but I'm actually a good judge of character lol, and hoseok seemed very fake to me. I didn't even think he was funny because I didn't think he meant to be funny, it just felt too cartoonesque. A few years ago he actually admitted that he was much more serious irl and that pretending to be funny and happy and high spirited all the time was his BTS persona and it was a burden to him. He's become more and more himself, a real Him, and I just started liking him slowly, everyone knows I have a lot of appreciation for him, I think he's very strong and that he Cares capital C. He cares about his profession, he cares about the people in his life. He makes donations to charities, he pays for stray cats surgeries. What's not to like, really. I feel somewhat the same about Jin, tho I don't think that I know enough about Jin, what he likes, what type of relationships he has etc, to talk that much about him.

I love Namjoon these days, I think it was around the 2018 tour (idol era) and BV Malta when I really started liking him. I don't remember being that interested in him before that. I liked seeing him and Jimin talking, and Namjoon was always so warm towards him. Really, (honest) words are the way to my heart. I said the other day, I don't have a type when it comes to looks, but I do have a type in personality 😅

I believe BTS is bigger than its members, it's more than the sum of all of them. I don't think you need to love all of them in the same capacity, or even love them at all to enjoy BTS. Or to enjoy what BTS used to be.

I like songs, I listen to music and I watch performances from groups with people that I don't even know the names of.

In terms of music and performances, yes I think BTS need of all of them to work. I was never impatient or anxious about solo careers, until 2020 at least they all looked like they wanted to be there. And I enjoyed watching them, I thought their songs and stages were top notch. They used to work well, all seven of them.

I just saw this and thought I could add it here, because of the question "why us?". I don't know any other way to say it other than BTS as a team is bigger than all of them. I don't know why them, but it just is. It's also really nice to remember that Jimin is realistic, that he knows and understands what supporting and believing in someone is like.

[strangerthanyou011]

hi! i saw in your bio that you go by she/they pronouns and i was wondering if you could give me some advice about that. a couple of weeks ago i started having a gender crisis because i'm not sure if i fully identify myself as a woman. i've been reading about demigirls but all articles are just definitions of the term, but how can i know if i relate to that term? i don't even know what's "woman" supposed to mean anymore.

anyway, sorry for all the ramble, i'm just going insane i think. the thing is, could you tell me something about your journey as a she/they person? do you know anything that could help me? any personal advice?

thank you so much, i hope you have a great day/night :)

hi there! first of all, thank you for coming to me with this :)

basically, i identify as nonbinary but i am afab and do still feel a connection to being a woman. i enjoy being a woman and being perceived as one, however i don’t think “woman” fully encapsulates my relationship with gender. i think the best term to describe myself is genderflux, so my gender is fluid and the amount of gender i feel at one time also fluctuates. most of the time i feel feminine, neutral, or somewhere in between, so i use the pronouns she and they!

you said you don’t know what woman means anymore, and honestly it means whatever you want it to. gender is complicated and made up by society, so you can do whatever you want! experiment, try new things, get out of your comfort zone! if binary womanhood feels restrictive or wrong or anything other than just right, you’re probably nonbinary. there really aren’t any prerequisites to identifying as nonbinary other than that you think you exist outside of your binary gender assigned at birth. the best way to figure out what’s right for you is just to try things out, that’s what i had to do! asking people to try using they/them pronouns with you to see how it feels compared to she/her, dressing differently than you normally would, and listening to the voice in your head that doesn’t care about the rules of society are all helpful methods :)

best of luck! if u have anymore questions or anything don’t hesitate to ask me! also, remember that what matters is understanding and being true to urself, not desperately trying to shove urself into a label. you have all the time in the world and don’t owe anyone any explanations!

#eden talks #asks #genderfluid #nonbinary #genderflux

[gothgamergaara]

hihi hi!!!! tattoo artist here!!! PLEASE SONT SCRATCH IT!!!! pls im begging u. i really really care abt tattoos in general!!! u are completely allowed to scratch around the tatt, or even lightly tap/pat ur tattoo, but please for the love of god dont scratch it directly even if its been a week. as long as its itchy, its healing.

tattoos essentially are only on the top layer of skin, and as it heals, the scab is only as deep as the needle went. so when u scratch at it, theres a chance of scratching off the scab, which can take out a chunk of ink!! it leaves you with a patchy tattoo and its not cool :(

also, next time u get a tattoo with saniderm as part of the healing process, leave it on for a whole week!! u will have blood and plasma and excess ink leak out of it throughout that time and eventually, ur tattoo sucks up some of it as its healing inside the saniderm and its really healthy for ur tattoo. its like giving it a lil blood smoothie. it also speeds up the healing process and prevents itchiness after removing the saniderm. i love love love tattoos btw and i want u to have the best quality tatt be safe and take care of ur skin <3

some artists dont use saniderm (as personal/finincial preference) so if ur a tattoo enthusiast, order urself some for personal use in case u ever go to an artist who doesnt use it. i always use it on my clients and never want anyone to go without it because of how important i personally feel it is to the healing process.

(i dont follow u btw i just found ur blog and saw ur most recent post and i HAD to share. it means everything to me to take care of everyone and anyones tattoos. feel free to message me if u ever have any questions i LOVE talking abt tattoos)

😭😭😭 I swear I’ve been trying so hard but since u took the time to type this all out I will try EVEN HARDWR!!! I’ve been trying to rely on only itching around it and patting it but oh god sometimes the itch is so intense …

I usually leave on the saniderm longer but I had some black fill this time and had to do my own change for the first time 24 hrs after and I think I did it just slightly odd bc it felt sort of tight idk how to describe it but by the fifth day I was losing it 😭

AND I have adhesive residue too which I’ve been trying to remove but part of it is on the tattoo itself and when I used (😖) olive oil on the non-tattooed skin it took quite a bit of effort to get rid of the residue so I was hesitant to do it on the tattooed part. Oh plus it was lifting some of the scab up too which I know is a no-no

I will overcome this itch through shear force of Will for u

#genuinely appreciate you and the time u took to type this all…like it really shows how much u care abt ur craft :^) #ur clients are very lucky to have someone who is so invested and cares so much!!!! #literally every time I get a tattoo it’s like I completely forget everything from the one before #the price I pay for making my body my own: the healing itch

[flwoie]

ohh okay this is good to know!! i mostly write written so when i saw all the smaus i was like “oh shit how do i do dat?” LMAO

oh yes, feel free to send me any questions~! it’s like we’re having a convo lol so i don’t mind! oh and to answer ur question, i mostly write for whoever is currently on my mind,,, which these days is usually my ateez babies, but i’ve recently started thinking in moa-mode lol so maybe some txt drabbles too! i am working on an ateez series rn tho, so i’ve been in atiny mode for A WHILE lmao,, it’d be fun to write for someone else for a change 

and i feel u bestie 😭 writing is so hard, like i get my ideas and things down, but then i get so busy and distracted that it takes me FOREVER to finish things unless they’re drabbles or short fics sdkfjhdkvb it’s also why i never post series until I’ve written the first five parts cuz i need to know how it feels to write it and i can decide whether or not i can commit to it before posting to readers,, cuz i know what it feels like to love a work and then find out it’s discontinued u know? it suckssss

okay, now, my question time!! when you’re having a hard day, what is something that comforts you and never fails to cheer you up? <3

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p.s. also i hope it’s okay to say this, but i noticed in your main navigation some of the links don’t work on mobile,, i think you need to go “https://flwoie.tumblr.com/post” instead of the way it currently is formatted cuz this method only works on the desktop site!! why does tumblr make links all wonky 😭 just thought i would mention it but please don’t take offence!!

LOLL smaus aren’t really easy to write, i prefer doing written works

and yesss we love atiny and moa writers 🙏🙏 i’d love to read ur works once u reveal urself 🫶 i’m actually writing ateez for the person i’m writing for in the event so i had to do a lot of research about them cause i don’t know a lot about them LMAOO

ur so true, like sometimes i wish i could write down what’s in my head 😭 i would have this whole plot in my head that sounds like a two hour movie but when i write it down it, it’s only two pages 😭😭 AND YES SERIES ARE SO DIFFICULT LIKE I HAD THIS ONE WRITTEN SERIES BEFORE BUT I HAD TO DISCONTINUE IT BC I HAD NO MOTIVATION 😕

answering ur question! talking to friends always comforts me esp when something good happens to them, it always brightens my day

also i just saw ur other ask and it’s fine sjkdkejskssk

okay time for my question ! what comforts you and never fails to cheer you up when ur having a hard day

#🏴‍☠️ : sona’s anons #three anon !

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. lady who doesn't like frogs and likes to do pillow cases in a certain way lefty eyebag 😅

You're worried that your anxiety will scare me away? I think I'm way past that already. I don't think knowing more about you will scare me.. actually that OCD with the clothes does scare me.. just kidding!

Yeah, I've taken some, but I don't think it's helping at all. I hate it, because it always happens late at night and then when I wake up it comes back.

I do that with my money too, I make sure it faces the same way, and it's not upside down...then it has to be from lowest to highest amount in my wallet. I feel like it could bring me good luck when I do that.

How many pillows do you guys have on your bed??

Yes yes, I love that episode too. Cam is just so over the top hahaha I remember Claire looking at the pamphlet and it's how they look like as old people 🤣🤣

I wish I liked hiking, I would enjoy the views so much. So was the hiking spot and lake in the same area? Like they filmed it in Lake Tahoe? Fun fact, when I first got to the states, I lived in Sacramento and around winter time, we actually went to Lake Tahoe and that's the first time I saw snow.

How is your dark Nat fic coming along?

- CuriousGeorge

Hahhaa yaaay a new nickname for me! Lol love it!

How r u feeling,righty eyebag? Hows ur day n what u doing?

Haha yea i do worried that my anxiety will scare u away. But u already know kinda too much about me.lol.

I love wearing clothes that the colors match so i want to teach em to be like that too.. i dont want her when she is older, wearing clothes that too much going on or tacky 😅 i meant it's good that we can teach her to decide what she wants but i think as a parents we gotta still guide her n give clue.lol. like i said, as a parent, im like Claire. Lol.

Maybe u r stressed or probably looking at screen too much. Or maybe dehydrated?

I used to work at a gas station graveyard shift from 11pm to 7am in the morning. It's always bother me whn i see the register, the money not organized and i just random sides,or upsidr down after the previous shift left.😅

We have 4 somtimes 5.hahah. because i use two, 1 pillow between mine n his. N he sometimes use to pillows sometimes 1. 😅

Haha yeah it's funny.. im not sure if where they were at was the exact spot where i saw the huge collapse tree but it's arpund there somewhere because the hike was pretty long.

Sometimes i dont like hiking sometimes i do.. at the end when i can reach the top,it's the best feeling.haha. i dont hike often.

Yes the hiking part n the lake where they jump n with the houseboat (which i think it's really sick!) are at lake tahoe..

I love lake tahoe! I tried riding snowmobile the first time there.. n it was fun.. i tried the one that let u ride up the mountain by urself n they just give u map n tell u to follow cerain color of ribbons on the tree to go up n follow different color when u go back. It was amazing! N gives u an adrenaline rush.

That was a pict from my second time doing it.

Aaw thats nice! Lake tahoe is beautiful. I experienced my first heavy snow in lake tahoe too..

My dark nat fic is going slow because i have a lot going on last few days but i can say it's 85% done n im really excited! Cant wait to post it! It was supposed to be a oneshot but now im writing pt. 3 of it.lol. i dont know it will be only 3 parts or 4 parts. I hope u will like it.

Next question!

Cheerio!

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