#so thats what we'll be doing today!

[zeawesomebirdie]

Nine days and about a million words of superbat fic later, I think we're finally back to our regularly scheduled program here on the ZeAwesomeBirdie blog! :)

#vent post #not actually a vent lmao but thats the tag #(wow i havent used those tags in a *while* i had to go back and check what they were) #but im at that stage of quote unquote recovery where while i *do* still feel like ive been hit by a truck #(several trucks. actually.) #i am very well aware i do *not* have the capability to do much else *besides* read #even though im getting antsy #im waiting for one of my parents to get the various b@tman movies ive requested from the library for me #because i am low key still testing positive (and im not actually 100% on this but i think i might have/end up with long covid) #so im still under quarantine for the foreseeable future #but this is fine cause like #i promised myself id finish my current season of gunsmoke before i got too invested in any new TV/movies #since its so rare for me to do TV/movies in the first place #so thats what we'll be doing today! #at least until my fixation grabs me in a chokehold and forces me back to fic (affectionate) #id actually really like to be writing because heaven knows my writer's brain *never* shuts up #but actually this is the first time ive been too sick to write in.... literal years #i wasnt even too sick to write when i was bleeding to death yknow? #but im too antsy for fic. so. #finishing Gunsmoke it is #lucky for me Chester is such a pretty guy 👀 #anyway yeah we're back to our regularly scheduled programming here now :) #ill make a pinned post if (when) i do another liveblog once i get the movies #love yall hope yall are having a good timezone! #also fuck my brainfog for making a typo in my own url ??????? #like bro #(this is a huge part of why i cant currently write lmao)

[bangcakes]

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#god i was so giddy today (or well i guess yesterday. its almost 2am JDJFJFJF) #i was waitin all day for him to finish work so i could message him n he messaged me in seconds... triple texted NDNDJDJDNDNDMDMDN #god hes so cute. im so !@@@@@ i like him so much. like ..... !!!!!!!!!!!! #he makes me so happy idk how to explain. i just !!!!!!@@ like him so !!!!@@ much !!!! #why do i deprive myself of him 😭😭😭😭😭 #but i mean we did talk for 2 hours straight in person a few weeks ago. not much you can like. converse about after that JDJDJDJDJDJDJ #:'))))))))) #maybe i'll let myself be a lil hopeful.... 🥺🥺🥺 #personal #also omg i think i figured out why he was so combative??? when i saw him last #i think it was bc of our mutual friend........... #n e way HDNDNDNDNDN #so maybe thats why he was like that. bc with me.... sure we tease each other but hes not like....... out for the kill idk JDJDJDNDNNDNDND #hes so sweet.... like not in an obvious way but like NDNNDMDDMD IDK. #we'll put it this way.... #when ppl ask him for help... he tells them to google it #meanwhile hes explaining stuff to me in detail; going up to the teacher n asking questions for me; getting up out of his seat n #looking for a plug for me JFJDJDJDD LIKE ????? #hes also so polite... thanks ppl... holds the door for ppl. god hes so...... #if he's like....... the guy im gonna be with for the rest of my life... o i'll be so happy BDJZNZNNZNZNZNZNZ #THIS IS SO SAPPY GOD. #if u saw the messages you'd be like literally what are you giddy over HFJDJDJJDJDJDJD AND THATS OKAY #hes just some guy.... love that about him the most.....

[ionozoned]

( cant wait for my Real ortega card to come in the mail so my collection of iono and her siblings can be real even though ortega will be the only official card of them all. )

#grusha counts bc thats her forcibly adopted big brother #so sad that i lost the bidding on a choy card the other day but i have quite a few fun ones comin and im excited #ty for the random ebay gift card i got #anyway i said this on emmets blog but im gonna try to do some iono catch up today!!!! #mostly gonna use the queue probably but what else is new #ooc; we'll be back after a word from our sponsors #also note to self: i need to buy a mp3 of ツ​ク​リ​バ​ナ​シ so i can replace it as ionos pinned song its Really Her

[madhushala]

the limit was seven pegs last night

#also moral of the story was to drink slowly not the 4 pegs i drank in 5 minutes because the aftermaths were disastrous #i kinda love what alcohol did to my nervous system #i think ill have better tolerance if i let it take over me instead of gulping it #had to induce emesis and vomit in volumes 3 times because i ate too much of gravy momos and manipuri cuisine #also this drink did not gave an hangover or headache today morning thats because it was super costly #its kinda magical the whole alcohol world and the science behind it #like there was this supermarket wholly for types of whiskey rum gin vodka brandy even costing upto 80k #and people just enter and purchase like wow #plus they're blended and fermented over years and years one was like 35 years #i passed out actually but it was so fun #the only scary part was thinking what if i die lmao #and to think this is a regular experience in boys hostel is like wow okay um youre ruining yourself #i could do this again me and a friend got a vodka we'll have it on her birthday #100/100 experience

[todayisafridaynight]

ignore if you don't give one for my streams Anyways potential stream schedule goin forward Just Until I Finish Judgement

thursday i'll stream judgement from like. 3:30 ~ 7:30

friday'll be 4:30 ~ 8:30

saturdays will be the usual 3:30 ~ . fuckin whenever LMAO art stream i do

#snap chats #ew i just remembered i have my spanish exam tomorrow im going to throw up #anyway i thought i'd stream today but the more i thought of it the more i wanted to throw up #im already really drowsy and plus i dont want to be stressed under the time crunch in-between class #plus assembling and disassembling The Tower is nerve racking i dont need something breaking while i rush to class LOL #thursday'll be chill since i only have my morning class then and friday i only have The One class. and its friday. #i'm putting a strict time limit on gameplay days since i want to try to record these and i think four hours is just enough time #firstly to watch but also i think it's small enough to be able to be saved onto my computer #idk we'll see how it plays out. i think the usb could only record about two hours before it ran out of space #and my computer's space As Of Now is about twice the size of that usb #i'm gonna try to clear up more space but yeah thats the deal for right now #four hours is by no means a lot of gameplay time- much less than id like LMAO but we do what we gotta #maybe i'll do a similar schedule for IW except instead of thurs being a game day i'll make it sunday #i have a night class thursday next semester unless i edit my schedule at some point #honestly i might cut out art streams during IW... lemme speed through the shit so i can draw stuff for it LOL #but we'll get there when we get there

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i say goodbye to my boss tomorrow #not like officially officially bc im still employed into August so we have meetings #and hopefully we'll collaborate in future on projects and i have papers to write with her still #but like this is the last time ill physically see her bc shes not coming back until August and ill b gone by then #so its like. sad. bc shes my science mum. today she was complaining abt some stupid politics stuff #that went on this week in the department and she was like i kno i should b more professional but i feel like since ur leaving now #were more colleagues and friends. and im like 😭 god dammit ur gonna make me fucking cry #i came this this school to work with u and u were so great. i was so lucky to have ended up in her lab #bc i didnt kno wtf i was doing and shes not perfect but i learned a lot from her and ill b really sad to not b working with her so much #but thats how it goes. ill have to make her something cool as a parting gift #god. thatll b a fucking pain but she deserves something that takes a lot of effort #were meeting tomorrow to go over a protocol but im not sure if that's actually what were doing or if theres a surprise involved #bc she likes to do that and it stresses me the fuck out. she's been wanting to get me ice cream for the last 2 months so that might actually #b what's happening. or both could b happening. ugh. anyway. just me crying abt how im gonna miss my boss who im literally seeing tomorrow #im gonna have to giver her a painfully earnest letter abt how great she is and apologize for kinda having a breakdown #i mean i wasnt totally nonfunctional but like. it was not good and im sure i kinda sucked to b around #but whatever. god. the move it finally on the horizon. it finally feels like its getting real #unrelated

[the-kipsabian]

aight im looking at my wip list rn (like actual work i have started so far)

#time to try to remember what each of these are lol #but welp im not gonna bother myself with these today we'll see tomorrow. try to get something done or whatever #i feel like im writing a lot and idk maybe im being a bit pushy at myself about it? but also i have six wips right now which. never happens #and i mean in a way where i intend to finish at least some of them so like #plus im enjoying it. while im pushing it it also doesnt feel forced in a way like i genuinely enjoy making this stuff #i just like to poll it a lot cause im indecisive most of the time and it gives me a better pov on what people might be interested in seeing #ofc im still first and foremost writing for myself but i mean it helps if people wanna actually read stuff lol #..also yes i will be getting to the requests again soon. just seeing few new characters i should tackle is kinda intimidating oof #tho i have ideas so. eventually. wont open new requests before those are done thats for sure #sorry about the wait im just like that lol #anyways heres a poll first for this weekend. maybe we'll do request work next weekend since im all free then hmmmm #night is an absolute mess on main

[steelycunt]

good morning all. today i find myself filled with a thousand tiny stresses like pebbles clattering around in my shoes. and yet! i unlace my shoes and take them off and find them empty. another cruel deception and by my own mind no doubt

#i feel like there are so many little things i am supposed to be stressed about today. i definitely FEEL stressed. and yet well i cannot #name one immediate problem that could be contributing to that stress...i suppose i have work to do. but well thats not really urgent. #and i have uhh. i have to pack for tomorrow. but again i have time for that. WHAT is stopping me from enjoying my morning cup of tea #i will never know perhaps...although last night i did dream succession came back and was disappointed upon waking like a child the #waking upon 22nd of december. and that cant of helped. also dreamt i was wedneday addams though thats not relevant here #might make shortbread today. we'll see xx made lots of progress with the [redacted] last night too xx #(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

[yo9urt]

dentist today :(

#i was going to hibernate all weekend and do homework today but my gums look... #well they don't look the way gums are supposed to look and they kinda hurt so we'll see #:( #mine #also update to yesterdays post i think im ordering the deck on monday cause with business days and stuff #thats basically thee same as ordering it today and this gives me more time to decide what accessories i might want/need #(the worldo f steam deck accessories is dizzying...)

[vitiateoriginator]

Birthday keroppi time B)

#screams #my birthday is next Friday holy shit I'm gonna be 25 #can't believe its that time of year again #and not me blanking about what I want to get and do for my birthday #wtf could I ask for that I can't get or go do myself #anything I would want is out of the question because of expense (like a new pc. I still haven't gotten one) #I guess I could ask for pokemon legends arceus. I've been meaning to buy it but haven't been able to justify spending $60 #on a game I might take my seeet ass time playing thru cause I hate using my switch lite (the screen is so fucking small its annoying) #but its an idea at least #as for what I want to do? man idk #we'll probably go to olive garden like most years which Im cool with #although nowadays my datemate and I go there often for dates (we were just there yesterday for instance) #but I love olive garden so I won't say no to going #maybe to that historical township thats a half hour drive away? #datemate and I were supposed to go today as part of my vacation #but he talked me out of it (like he does with most big trip plans I make 😒) #the reason he did so it because its hot as balls today and sunny with a hogh uv index #we'd be outside for most of the trip and her reckons being in the heat will make him miserable and a killjoy #because he's heat sensitive. I am too so I can't really argue with him on that #so maybe it'll be cooler on the 15th so we can go #if not I don't really mind waiting til October because that township is better in the fall #but anyways those are the ideas I have rn #I'll probably ask for a pokemon plushie as a gift #I'd kill to get a new stufful plushie but those are rare and expensive thanks to scalpers #I'd be down to get another Vaporeon like my datemate bought me last year. or another of my favorites #Im not gonna be too picky this year even tho its a big birthday (my brain is fully developed) #because a lot of my birthdays turn out to be shit. last year was really nice tho #but I don't want to get my hopes up for anything and then be depressed that day like what often happens #so I will just be grateful to get some good tasting cake. that's literally the bare minimum of what I want without question #sam's rants about life

[thatrandombystander]

Day 3 of I Am So Fucking Stressed.

#MOTHERFUCKER I STAYED BACK AN HOUR YESTERDAY SO WE COULD FINISH SOMETHING OFF #they said we need to have it ready to launch November 1st. so thats what i did. #i made sure everything on our end was ready to go for the morning of Nov 1st #AND THEN THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS SAY thanks. we'll launch it on Monday Nov 6th FOR FUCKS SAKE #and then for some completely unrelated reason i got a call from an Executive General Manager of our parent company. #because some team needed to borrow some physical material from us #they were insisting we leave it with the carpark security team for them to pick up and take to car #and were not telling me who was picking it up or when #based on past experience with this team it sounded like they were just being lazy or something #so i was insisting no I'll hand it over to you in the lobby. who is picking it up. let me know. #TURNED OUT THEY WANTED IT NEAR THE CARS SO THIS VERY BUSY EGM COULD PICK UP ON THE WAY OUT #WELL THAT'S A DIFFERENT STORY ARE YOU KIDDING ME #so he called me about it. he was very polite but like??????? #also turns out the person i was dealing with was his daughter (nepotism!) #ma'am why the fuck didn't you throw the EXECUTIVE GENERAL MANAGER title around. i would have taken it to the carpark security straight away #i still have so much work to do. i was hoping to leave early today too. #BOOOOOOOOOO #ramblings of a bystander

[pinkknight999]

Oooo it just occurred to me that it's possible some of y'all have seen the new D&D: Honor Among Thieves movie? Maybe?? Pls talk to me if you have i got to go on a field trip yesterday to go see it with my D&D club at school. It's so good

#holga my beloved #my current dnd character is a fighter too so i feel like i was paying a bit more attention to holga kicking butt than the others lol #shes also SO blunt. 'fine. but know im not doing this for the money.' 'we'll keep your share then' #theyre all so great tho and thats EXACTLY what dnd is like just an absolute theme park ride #(well thats what its like when your campaign hasnt grown to almost TEN PLAYERS and i literally just got up and left before we even started #this week bc i just couldnt /deal/ with it anymore but all that is a rant for another day. today is dnd movie appreciation day)

[skrunksthatwunk]

I THINK I DID OK ON MY FRENCH EXAM???????? HOURRA!!!!

#LIKE THERE IS NO WAY IM GETTING A 1 KIND OF OK. 3 IS FEASIBLE 4 IS POSSIBLE 2 IS ALSO POSSIBLE. ALRIGHT!!!!! #the multiple choice had me stabbing and clawing at my legs the whole time it was AWFUL i couldnt tell what they were saying at ALL #but i think i was able to fake it decently well we'll see #the email response was alright (though i didnt close elegantly oops) #and the essay was surprisingly good??? i fully didnt do half the essays we were assigned (sorry madame </3) but i finished before time was #up. and it was pretty ok too as far as little french essays go #i fully didnt respond to like 3/5 prompts in the conversations task lol. that's a 1 for sure and i knew that going in #not my best but pretty comparable to most of my performances on the task prior. me when audio processing #AND THE CULTURAL COMP WAS ON ONE OF THE ONLY TOPICS I COULD CONFIDENTLY SPEAK ABOUT LET'S GOOOOOOOO #i was SO excited when i saw that lol. yes thats MY topic of choice hehehe #waaaaaaahhh im so happy it's over!!! i was so scared!!!!! plus it was like 4 hours long which is fucking bonkers to mr #i thought the mcqs would be like 60 mins but no. ig bc of the audio prompts #sheeshhhh i can barely even feel scared about The Problem from earlier today bc im sooo happy (<- this will have consequences later) #anyway the writing tasks in particular made me feel like i knew a lot more french than i thought. makes me wanna continue it even though #my incentive's gone :)) #and i mean. we'll see ig. but I'd love to get better at it. the hope is that im gonna sunk cost fallacy my way into fluency basically #anyway hellll yeahhhhh #mwah mwah #etc

[welcometogrouchland]

local girl did work for three minutes straight without stopping to listen to music for 45 minutes. 15 dead 11 injure d

#ramblings of a lunatic #why!!!is!!!writing!!!so!!!difficult!!!rn!!!!!!!!! #im being VERY brave about it but still #its fine its fine im almost done with the intro to ep 3 (gonna finish the base of the scene today b4 tweaking and planning the part tomorr) #*tomorrow #well maybe not tomorrow. i have to be up early tomorrow. but u get the idea #and THEN when i have the opening all donezo i get to go redraft episode 1 to my liking (theres like. 3-ish? changes by scene count?- #-and probably just dialogue/characterization tweaks across the board. as much as i wanna im leaving the actual plot points in tact- #-bc if i dont i'll be here until i turn to stone!) #and THEN i get to do an actual redraft/iron-over of episode 2 #(one scene needs to be added for thematic relevance and i gotta keep it short then i gotta redraft one scene to have better dialogue- #-then i gotta fix up some ending bits and add a better thesis statement to the penultimate scene- #-and THEN i gotta redraft the very last scene so it seques better into episode 3!) #and when all thats done then im gonna try and knuckle down for the next few months to get ep 3 done #aiming for late december deadline...we'll see what happens #u guys hold me to that. if it's jan 1st and theres no 3rd enterprise script feel free to send me anon hate /hj

[dilfian]

*lays on the floor* what if i worked an hr tmrw. for lols. also bc i hate pulling teeth.

#xoxo #'hate pulling teeth' hate literally making tasks to take up time. i despise and loathe mums with every fiber of my being but thatd be SMTH #mmm. . .worked a 7hr to do 3 more tasks so i technically have none tmrw. sigh. #also uh gcf is. leaving. that was one of the things that stressed me out last week lol. #he's moving to another store 15 min from his house to supervise one dept and gets better pay. . .literally not mad at him. #mad at everything and everyone else. . .i'll be back to square zero. #today he and a cool lady who works islg uhhhh we'll call her kt? kt and gcf were talking and he said 'whats up' #and when i said i was clocking out they both said in near perfect unision 'noo you cant go' 🥺 SKDHDKRJGJFK #hate the workplace politics love the actual basic barebones work love the employees. generally. #yeah theres a lot going on. and the reset of indoor and having to be there for a c*sta bigwig and be physical glue between them and l*wes #was like. absolute hell. #this week i need to bring c and p tea. thats what im looking forward to. #actually if someone tells me not to work tmrw i wont go in unless we get plants SKDHDJ

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i survived my drive today. it was v stressful bc there was a lot of construction going on along the highway #and i parked in a parking garage next to the handicap area so until i started working on stuff my brain was lik: u parked in the handicap #area. and it was v annoying bc literally not true. i checked at least 3 times after parking bc my brain is exhausting #but i went and handed the materials over and now its done. i only cried once lol and it wasnt that bad #wasnt that hard i mean. also i kno i swear on here all the time but i do not swear irl unless im driving #also on the way back i just started talking to myself about naruto stuff bc i have to talk while driving or im worried ill lose focus. #usually i sing but idk naruto brain rot #so now im exhausted bc of the stress plus i carried some v heavy boxes around so my body hurts #idk how this weekends gonna go. im going to see some dino tracks tomorrow bc i got invited. so thats exciting. hopefully wont be too #awkward but idk well see. #and i also gotta prep for responding to one guy for a phd position bc i think if i go to the uk im def gonna have to do scholarships for #funding so i gotta figure that out. and i have a meeting with another guy on Wednesday. so hopefully that goes well. #god. the wheels r turning. someday soon ill b a phd candidate #so we'll see how much time i have for drawing. i did make an alt account bc im currently posting from the shadow relm #i had to really think abt. like what would i name myself if i chose a username as a 25yr old and not an emo 12yr old #i went with creeping-cosmic-ooze but handful-of-fish-bones was also v tempting #no short usernames here #aye im tired. but i wanna draw DX #unrelated #god i really like the fishbones username tho