#so it’s okay for me a jerk too

[lewislovesroscoe]

I just love how people are glossing over the fact that Buck hurt Eddie on purpose. And I love that they gloss over the way he casually told Maddie. Who is a DV survivor. All of that doesn’t matter, because Buck is bi. I guess being bi makes it okay for someone to be a jerk.

#i am bisexual #so it’s okay for me a jerk too #if you don’t like my opinions #block me #@ anon #who’s asks I am not going to post #bye 👋 #911 abc

[juney-blues]

it's really funny to me seeing handwringing over fictional explorations of kinks rooted in deep societal taboos. 'Cause like, murder is universally agreed to be one of the most heinous things you can do and yet we're fine with action movies

#juney.txt #like I don't think sex is uniquely impure #there are a lot of fucked up things glorified in fictional works that would obviously be really bad irl #so it's okay for me to get hyped as hell watching a dozen guys get dismembered and killed in a big fight scene like in kill Bill #or on the edge of my seat watching a mass murderer narrowly avoid getting caught in a tense drama #but if the emotion I'm feeling over fictional events that would obviously be horrible in real life is ''horny'' #then that's a bridge too far for some reason #if I can suspend my disbelief and anarchist morals. and be a monarchist for the several hours it takes to watch LOTR #then I don't see why I can't do the same for the duration of my jerk-off session

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

what are the chances my dad (known music nerd especially when it comes to bass) would be aware of any of the context or lore around Dark Alley

#like would it be super concerning for me to send it to him and go haha emo song but like I relate to it a lot :') #which I feel like saying that HERE is terribly concerning bc of the Lore (Pete post suicide attempt playing the demo to heychris #and the whole ''way too personal to play live'' thing) #but I don't mean it in a suicidal way at all I mean it in the ''looking in the mirror and not liking what you see'' way #like I suck most of the time. I'm negative and mean and it makes me SO angry that the main solution #is to focus on being grateful bc why should I be grateful when it feels like everything sucks?? #and then I blame other people for my own bad behavior and feelings bc I struggle to take responsibility without #trying to explain myself when really I just need to listen and learn from the people trying to help me #and I'm just so so pessimistic and I wish I wasn't. I know I'm a horrible person and my attitude sucks and I hate that #but the LAST thing I want is to die. I just want to be better!! immediately!!! I hate that it's such a slow process!! #I never see any progress!! I just make the same bad choices over and over and then resolve to change again and again #and it just doesn't get better!! I never learn!!! but I want to so so badly!!! #I want to be good and okay and not a jerk to people irl but I hate everything and everything sucks in my perception #and I want SO badly to change that. I don't want to die I want to live and be better!!!! #anyway. how many red flags would it set off if I sent my dad this song

[cinnamon-notes]

i snapped five times at work today :)

#twice at my boss #one was a “you're welcome for warning you about how highly utopian this thing is and if it doesn't work out dont blame me cuz i told you #in advance“ #the other was “you're welcome for reminding you of which things are legal and which ones are not. you're welcome for yelling at you until #you eventually understood why i was so mad and how much trouble you were getting yourself (and other people too) in“ #three times at THAT colleague of mine (yeah- the jerk!) #one was “fuck you. im not doing that only because you dont want to so you're making me do that boring task that YOU are supposed to do and #im not“ #one was “fuck you. you'd better mind your own business. you can't just go through other people's pockets and bags only cuz you felt like it” #one was “fuck you. you're not better than me only because your narcissism tells you that. im okay with being who i am. you dont need to #change me. you dont have to change me. you cannot change me. you must not change me. dont you dare to try to change me!“ #cinnamon at work

[ailinu]

preserve us from edgelords. good lord.

#i'm not naming any system names. #to each their own and all that. i'm sure it's doing fine at what it's designed for. #(and similarly jack if you're reading this i have full faith in your ability to get this to work to your own tonal ends. #and i know we've at least partially discussed where they differ from the material presented.) #but sometimes you look at a thing. and it goes 'yeah what if your blood is living maggots' #and you sigh heavily and make jerk-off motions. say 'okay. call your mom' in the way you do if you see a real intentionally edgy metal band #you know how it is #again i'm just being a bitch on main. don't take this too seriously. #it's interesting trying to figure out the boundaries of games i'm interested in. because i know i have a fairly wide range to start with. #like to be clear i'm not against tragedy or horror! i'm not against consequences or characters dying! #but every so often i do come across something that simply falls outside what i'm interested in. #and start saying things like 'they should make twee illegal' or. you know. 'okay. call your mom.' which are on vastly different ends of thi #fun to see when that happens. #anyway if things get too edgy i reserve the right to make jerk-off motions in the background. #that's all thanks for listening. #actually wait no maybe that's not all. #if pressed i think i'm pinpointing my response here to. like. the apparent reliance on a sort of 'gross-out horror' (among other things) #which tends not to work for me in that i usually find it exhausting and at times immature. hence the 'call your mom.' #and despite the system's partial fascination with it i've not encountered it in the prospective dm's work thus far (albeit in other systems #so this'll probably work out fine. #(as always. again. full faith in you jack.) #okay. at least partially figured it out. #jerk-off motion rights still reserved though.

[emirrea]

Decided to give the netflix ATLA live action a try and I'm feeling so conflicted. I've only made it to the halfway point of the second episode btw so I'm still very early on in the series, but I'm trying to decide if I'm going to watch the rest lol.

The series looks REALLY good and I don't mind a lot of the changes they did. I really like especially Sokka and Zuko's actors, to a point where I'm kinda willing to watch the rest of the series just to see how they do.

But I don't know if I can get over how Aang does a whole enthusiastic monologue of how he wants to be the avatar, to master all the elements and save the world from the fire nation at the end of episode 1. Hearing that just feels like I've physically been punched to the gut. It's the embodiment of the "he would not fucking say that" meme to me. Especially when it's followed by him almost lecturing the Kiyoshi island leader in the second episode when she wasn't going to let them stay on the island. To me it almost feels like they tried to make Aang 112 years old instead of 12 lmao. I can understand them wanting to make Aang more serious, but him being so confident at times about being the avatar this early into the series is SO unsettling. He's actor is great too, but the way the character is written is, well, unsettling

#posting #spoilers #so much of the dialogues just makes me cringe so bad #and the way sokka and suki's relationship is handled in the early episode 2 at least asdfkjghkljfh #suki sees sokka shirtless and suddenly it's okay that he's kind of being a jerk still asdjhgöjkfgdkgj #excuse me as i'm gagging from the cringe and the stereotypicality of the scene #you didn't need to make me watch her ogling at sokka for a whole minute for me to understand that she's interested in him asdlkghjkadfjgh #...i'm trying to remind myself that i still haven't even finished the second episode of the series #so i probably shouldn't be too critical of it yet #em devours media

[deadgrantaires]

so sick of my dental office for being full of useless cunts so today when i called i just started saying shit. like

'well idk if im gonna keep my appointment bc the office has been jerking me around so much'

'so are you going to cancel?'

'hmmmm no ill hold on to it... i mean you guys cant make me pay if i just dont show up right? since im not a real patient with you guys?'

'uhh no we cant.. did you want to cancel??'

'no ill hold onto it for now. i mean it WOULD be fair since u guys scheduled me when u knew the doctor would be out of the office before soo....'

'i will call u monday before your appointment to check if u want to cancel or keep the appointment'

'okie dokie ^_^'

#like wow okay! if i knew it was THAT EASY to get a call back id have been using mindgame tactics sooner! #but seriously FUCK eveyrone in this office i hope they all esplode... probabaly gonna cancel bc i dont trust and hate the office so much #and i dont wanna be jerked around by them anymore since i cant trust anything they say #gave me a useless code to give to insurance too... hey go **** ********'s

[obstinatecondolement]

Trevor Lefkowitz, sweetie, I'm so sorry that I thought you were too young when I started watching CBS Ghosts. I didn't know you were Blorbo.

#listening to songs like 'amazing! *another* song that was about trevor the whole time' #he's also a sweetheart so I don't have to feel bad about wanting to fuck a tory this time #also lol at me looking at a man My Literal Age and being like #'how am I supposed to sexualise this infant? what a waste of a half naked man' #but then he was kind of a jerk and I was like oh okay I can work with that #and *then* he had a heart of fucking gold and I was like oh no but it was already too late #I already loved him #ghosts cbs #trevor lefkowitz

[sintreaties]

Uh wtf was that other anon. Anyway yeah it’s from honkai lol and that’s like their goodbye after beating the shit out of each other. Funny that when my bro was showing it to me he was like they’re best friends but they had to fight bla bla and when i started seeing things on twitter I’m like “smh some hets really can’t see that this two are more than just friends”

The fact that they beat the shit out of each other only makes it more romantic— wait what do you mean their goodbye?

Do they not get to be gay together afterwards?

#sintreatiesreplies #anon #honkai impact #honkai impact spoilers #? question mark #I know so little about Honkai that I confuse it for Genshin sometimes #also don’t think too hard about the other anon #they were throwing a tantrums over otap — throwing themselves on the floor #screaming #maybe even shitting themselves a little #which gives me a chance to say that this askbox has been open since the very begginning and it will probably remain like that until the end #there’s nothing wrong with expressing your opinion even if you disagree with me or what I do #the only thing I ask is for my anons to be polite and reasonable #I’m okay with being the ring leader of this circus — but I won’t deal with any weird ass jerk clowns!

[kinglypup]

i keep remembering things that happened last night and getting all flustered hhhhh

#he figured out i like 'good boy' and said it a bunch while we were kissing and every time i would like. gasp #the CHILLS it gave me. i love it #also he would occasionally kiss my neck when we took breaks and i kept getting goosebumps #and i was too much of a wimp to ask him to keep doing it but i wanted a hickey so bad #GOD #i want to make out. i want to kiss men #i have to find men i can kiss at school #im desperate #i got one taste and now im insatiable #FUCK now i have to go jerk off again #i need an audio of a guy saying good boy. there are not enough. #if any of you know of any please send them to me #OKAY ALSO: he leaves in like a week and i might ask if he has any free time this week because i think the ice has been broken enough that + #i could and very much want to suck his dick #maybe not another sleepover but Something #and i think i could actually do it #i WANT TO #SO BAD #UUUGGGHHH #mine #That Friend

[prosebushpatch]

Love the feeling of going back to a draft after a legit year and laughing out loud at shenanigans you forgot writing.

#rose and rambles #prosie's writing adventures #so i have a fairy tale series in the works and bonus points to whoever remembers this but #i did write book 2 once i finished book 1 #i just haven't touched it literally since writing the first draft and its been a year almost exactly #i finished it last august/september #and i went back to it to give a reread because ive known there were things i was going to fix so im getting prepared to do that #and the thing about the fairy tale series is i want each book to follow different protagonists and there's an overlapping narrative #that drags everyone together in the last book #and my antagonist from the first book makes an appearance near the end of the second book #because of background machinations #his name is robin and hes such a little jerk fr fr #but it was so funny because i forgot exactly what happens with him #and he ends up getting chased away by an arctic fox and theres a scream and were meant to assume he was frozen #and im like beautiful. love he gets frozen before the day is saved #poetic justice. BUT THEN AFTER THE THREAT IS NULLIFIED THE LITTLE BRAT POPS OUT LIKE 'NEVER FEAR I HAVE THE SOLUTION' COMPLETELY OKAY #I FORGOT THAT AND JUST STARTED LAUGHING #anyway the fear exists that this story is too self indulgent and it does need work still #but it got me to really laugh so you know what? that's enough rn #I love robin so much #hes meant to be the most pathetic antagonist but his ego is off the charts #and he's only fueled by petty revenge against a protag in the first book so he gets roped into a grander scheme by the main antagonist #he's just a delight #not to hang out with but to write and hopefully to read XD

[selffulfillingshipper]

omg six for the kiss prompt with bae

ilysm kit <3

6. “Hit and run” kiss (when you kiss someone and run away)

drabble below the cut <3

Bae didn't easily give out affection, even to me. I never let it bother me - that's just how he was. It made the moments were he was sweet and showed any affection all the sweeter.

I didn't think Bae cared at all for PDA. That is, I figured he was against showing affection in front of others. It was only when we started dating, I found out I was wrong - any affection he was willing to share in private, he had no issues with sharing in public. Since it was a surprise to me, though, it was sure to be a surprise to others.

I had been studying with Nate - a rare occurrence. Nate was so frigid with his studying habits I figured he'd say no right away if I asked him to help me, so it was a pleasant surprise when he agreed. He did have one condition, though - and that was that Bae didn't show up. Figures, I thought when he set the condition. They can't stand each other. It's not like Bae and I are attached at the hip, though - just because I show up it doesn't mean Bae will.

I underestimated the things Bae does to get under Nate's skin.

Nate and I had quietly settled into our writing, sitting across from each other when I saw Bae walk into the library. I noticed him before Nate did, looking at him and shaking my head, pointing at Nate, trying to send the hint of 'hey, don't come over because you set Nate off like he's fireworks and you're a match.'

"Who are you gesturing at?" Nate noticed, looking behind him, his brow instantly furrowing. "You have got to be kidding me. I set one condition, Cas. One."

"I didn't invite him! This is a coincidence, I promise," I told Nate as Bae started walking over. Well, I guess the study session was nice while it lasted.

Surprisingly, Bae didn't stick around. What was more surprising, however, was what he did. He simply walked up, leaned down to give me a quick kiss, and walked away without a word. No greeting, no sickly sweet sarcasm for Nate, nothing. Just a kiss and he was gone, causing me to blush.

"Hey! That's inappropriate!" Nate exclaimed as Bae walked away. "God! He did that on purpose to be even more obnoxious than usual. He knows how I feel about PDA."

"Nate, you think two people looking in each other's eyes for too long is inappropriate," I told him with a half-smile. "Maybe he just felt particularly generous, saw me, and knew I deserved affection."

"Yeah, no. I seriously doubt Bae would go out of his way to show PDA if he didn't know if would annoy me. Especially when he came here when we're studying."

"Mhm. Two things about that. One, he didn't know we were here today because I didn't tell him. Two, Bae is completely fine with PDA, so it's not really out of his way."

"You've got to be kidding me. Bae's just completely fine with that? No complaints?" Nate sighed.

"He's not allergic to touch, unlike you. I think you'd combust if someone tried as much as holding your hand in public," I rolled my eyes at him. "Now come on, let's get back to studying. You don't want to spend the rest of this time talking about Bae, do you? In case you do. I'd be glad to oblige if that's what you want."

"Absolutely not."

#checked every box 💜 #i spent too much time trying to get a photo for this #that's okay though <3 #worth it to no one but me and I'm my target demographic anyway #jerk squad 🖤 #i wrote Nate in here so it counts #asks

[thatwitchrevan]

God I wanna play KotOR 2 so much immediately. I miss my angry bastard man.

#the nerve he has to call the exile out when they're interrogating him about his past. i love it. #he's not JUST defensive he actually is angry and he's right to be #kotor 1's dynamic with carth and revan is really interesting already #with carth not having any idea why he doesn't trust this person or why he's starting to trust them despite himself #and revan not understanding why he has so much trouble with it #and revan can kinda call him on it but there's not much you can really say except 'hey stop being a jerk' #cause he's rude and hostile but like he lost his family what are you gonna do #and in the end it's uh your fault anyway so in a way he was kind of always right #but in kotor 2 you're the one who can't trust and you're trying to get answers out of this. random guy who insists on helping?? #and when you push too far he's like 'oh okay. so how about all the things you've done? you think you're better than me?' #and you're not! the game is very clear you're not. just different. #idk i think more games should have the companion characters snap and utterly lay into you it's fun

[kakashibestie]

like i just sat in the shower and listened to the sad songs in melodrama in order it was. an experience

#mena.txt #like this was truly my first. REAL REAL adult relationship man it was so good. #i learned a lot #lso bpd is jerk but hey. im working on that too #and he literally said im going to love you forever and youre going to be a wonderful ballerina and you have a friend in me if you need one #so it wasn't. as horrible as i thought it was going to be #i stg at some point i thought dude WHAT am i going to do mitski voice for if i am not yours what am i #but last weekend i was thinking and i was like no. im going ti be okay if it happens. i'll be okay

[weirdtenderlove]

everyone describes me as being so aloof when in reality i just dont want to annoy anyone so i am just *_*

#my brain is usually always: i wonder how they r feeling r they doing okay today i sure hope so i hope they got to smile today #i think i just think about ppl in a genuine way and when i communicate it over text it comes off …different also depends on the person too #it’s just the constant rejection of friendship lately makes me just be less talky bc i end up over analyzing everything so i’d rather say.. #nothing??z… or at least nothing if importance or i don’t want to make ppl think too much about me #again THERAPY i just dont like me…even if someone likes me it’s just eh to me #but i like so many things about myself just not how i build relationships #it’s just scary to be vulnerable bc i’d rather not know how someone feels about me but at the same time it’s all i want it’s like needing #the inevitable (in my mind) rejection when in reality i’m the one who rejects ppl first alshaldj #i just have my walls up without wanting to. idk how to not react in a bad way even if it’s not bad to some it’s bad to me #i don’t want to be a jerk or feel less then when i talk to ppl but i do/: #i feel like nothing i say matters to anyone or that i’d make everyone’s life better if i left them alone

[heartshattering]

Feeling like I want to give up again...

#now it's my dad who's deciding to be a jerk towards me because he's mad at my mom #okay that's cool I guess #I haven't been feeling well at all today #I can't even distract myself #my dad's being so dramatic too like it's not my fault he's on a break from work but still doing stuff he could probably get out of doing #but he wants to be away from me and my mom so. I get it #he's never at home even when he's supposedly on a break from his job lol #this is how my mom and I know he's lying about retiring #because he's always putting it off #he was supposed to retire this year but nope #if he doesn't have his job he has no excuse to get out of the house and he hates being around us #Goddddd #he is such a fucking hypocrite #getting mad at me over something he has also done before and then saying it was fine when HE did it because it was 'months ago already' #(dropping something except in his case he actually SHATTERED it lmao) #but yeah... me dropping something without breaking it is WORSE than him dropping and actually breaking it... #wow #amazing logic #then my dad keeps complaining about how we don't care. when he's the one who proves over and over again that he's the one who doesn't care #I forget what they're called but he's the parent type who doesn't get involved in anything #he's never stood up for me and he's watching me rot and hurt myself and he's just like 'oh okay as long as it doesn't involve me idc' #he's not fucking stupid like he can tell there's shit clinically wrong with me but not once has he acted like an actual parent towards me #and yeah I'm an adult now but it's still fucked me up so badly #he is such a fucking coward #and selfish #if he could drop me and my mom somehow I know he would at the drop of the hat #but remember he's a coward so. I know he fucking won't #God this is making my urges get bad again #I'm crying 'cause I'm just so fucking pathetic :')