#so i thought i'd drop it here

[stormikitty]

Hanahaki Speedrun:

Danny comes from a world where hanahaki exists and is very common. Then he moved to the DC universe where hanahaki doesn't exist and nobody has heard of it. Danny falls in love with Bart Allen. He would have taken at least a few more weeks to figure that out if the extreme pain didn't give away that there were suddenly blood blossom seeds in his lungs. He isn't going to survive to the end of the day and he only just fell in love that day. Those feelings are new and he hasn't had time to think about/process/understand how he feels about Bart and he's not going to get time to adjust to these new feelings before he dies. Forcing the seeds out of his system will take away his ability to ever feel any kind of love again, and that would be worse than dying all the way. So He tells his team that the blood blossom seeds in his lungs are going to kill him by the end of the day, but forcing them out of his system will have irreversible affects that will doom him to a fate worse than death and change who he is forever. They're trying to process that they're about to lose their friend/teammate who they've gotten pretty close with in the past few months, and Bart tells Danny that he loves him. He apologizes for making this about his own feelings, but he couldn't bare the regret of losing the boy he's in love with having never told him how he feels. Danny coughs up all the seeds and some blood and he's going to survive. Nobody fully understands what just happened, Danny tells the team that he's not dying anymore but is still in pain from the blood blossom seeds and should get away from them quickly and that he needs a few hours to rest and recover from almost dying and to process what just happened. He gives Bart a kiss on the cheek and leaves to go lay down. Bart cleans up the blood and seeds that Danny coughed up and everyone is very confused, worried, sad, happy, lots of emotions and trying to stop crying. Danny explains what hanahaki disease is and how it works. Everyone needs some time to process that. Danny and Bart go to another room to talk about what this means for them. While they just went through a falling in love, almost dying, and confession speedrun, they should probably take at least a little more time in figuring out their relationship now that Danny's not dying 'cause he still needs to let it fully sink in that he's in love.

#danny phantom #dc comics #dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #danny fenton #bart allen #young just us #young justice #hanahaki #space race #space race ship #danny fenton/bart allen #everyone just went on an emotional roller-coaster that no one knows how to handle or process at the moment #This has been on my WIP list for a really long time #but unlike my othef WIPs #i already had basically the whole story summarized since the day i thought of it. #and I don't think I'm actually going to write this anymore #so i thought i'd drop it here

[thinkin-bout-milgram]

Triage: Initial Thoughts

Hello! Venus back at it again with the 4-5 AM theory time! This time we’re looking at Shidou’s second MV, Triage! 

I’m going to be going through my various thoughts on everything as usual, going point by point to analyze each thing. I’ll be referencing Triage, his first MV Throwdown, and the always-fast audio drama translation by @onigiriico​! 

Alright, let’s do this!

Shidou’s kids died immediately, but his wife had a chance to live.

I’m basically just going to give a quick play by play of what I think happened in the video.

Surprise, Shidou has kids! And a wife, but we figured that already. They’re all very cute and all until they fade out like ghosts pretty early on. Before that happens, though, I think that, chronologically, the opening sequence of Shidou walking with some groceries happens first.

He’s just going about his day, walking around, having a great time. He’s intending to take stuff back to his family and cook dinner or whatever he usually does that we see in the cute scenes.

Then, though, he gets a phone call. He answers it (this is the untranslated “Kirisaki desu” part; please let us know if you find a full translation of what he says on the call there!) and we move on to the next scene. However, later, at 1:57, we hear the line die. I think that this is probably Shidou getting a phone call from the hospital. He sounds casual in his initial response because he probably assumes it’s work related, but once he hears what happened, he drops the line and immediately heads over.

I think Shidou’s kids must have died immediately because of Throwdown. Throwdown has absolutely no references to his kids (though he does mention liking children and stuff like that in his first audio drama, which now kinda stings) and, were he also trying to save them, I’m sure there would’ve been at least some references. 

I think it’s far more likely that, whatever happened, both his kids died immediately, but his wife was in a condition where he could still try to save her. That’s when Throwdown occurs. Shidou probably focused intensely on trying to save his wife as a way to cope with the death of his children. Then, after his wife officially died, it really hit him that he had nothing left, and he was forced to process it. That’s when he started feeling all the guilt and wishing for death. 

This isn’t really relevant, but my best bet is a car crash. It seems like a likely and viable way that his kids could’ve died instantly while the wife could’ve kept living. As a minor note on that, he’s also walking back with groceries, which could indicate that someone else (the rest of his family) might’ve had a car. I don’t remember if Shidou mentions anything about driving or anything like that at any time, but if I had to call a method of death right now, that’s what I’d go for.

NOTE: I do want to disclaim this by saying it’s also possible that one of his kids was the flower person in Throwdown. He gives a receipt to one of his kids, so that could make some sense. I need to go back and compare the flower person in Throwdown with the people in Shidou’s family now that they have appearances. I also need to reread his first audio drama; he says something about it being fitting that Es is judging him, which could check out if his crime relates to trying to save his kid instead. If I am wrong and it was one of his kids that he was trying to save, then everything about what I’m saying still checks out; just swap everything I say about his wife with one of the kids.

Shidou purposefully showed us the least forgivable parts of his crime in Throwdown.

Looking back on it, Shidou painted himself in an awful light in Throwdown, and I’m sure it was intentional. After all, he was trying to get us to give him a guilty verdict. If you say that a prisoner like Muu might have been altering what part of her story we received in order to get her desired verdict in the first round (innocent), Shidou could absolutely do the same thing with a guilty verdict.

He doesn’t show us any of the context of his loved ones and how much he loved them; that was all stuff we had to read between the lines of. We see him butchering plant after plant only to end in horrific failure without ever seeing him succeed at anything surgical. (He still should’ve hypothetically been saving lives while doing all of this; it’s not like he was ONLY killing people.) 

He even shows us the horrified reactions of the loved ones of patients he killed. I can only imagine that he would do that if he was trying to spark a negative reaction in us.

In contrast, this MV is very straightforwardly showing how the day he lost his family went for Shidou and directly examines what verdict Shidou wants (more on this later). I think, therefore, that this is probably a much more honest view of the situation than Throwdown, at least in terms of how Shidou perceives the truth. 

Shidou is constantly plagued by the guilt of what happened.

The simplest way to explain this is with this image: 

When showing Shidou’s family turning to ghosts, he views the man that he used to be as dying with them. Shidou, as he was, is dead. Still, what happened clearly still impacts him. That’s pretty obvious, but I’m talking down to the details. He mentions kids and liking them in both of his audio dramas. Further, take this lovely image: 

Pancakes. Shidou made pancakes for his kids. In BOTH Minigrams 3 (Pancake) and 24 (Pancake: a Second Trial) Shidou is directly shown talking about pancakes and their relation to children. He really wants Amane, the young child, to try some. It seems like he used to make pancakes for his kids before they died. He’s very clearly not recovered in any sense. That’s not surprising, but it’s still something to point out.

Triage takes place almost entirely before and after Throwdown.

That sounds a little confusing, but all I mean is that Throwdown is completely isolated from this MV. Some parts of this MV happen before the events of Throwdown; those are the ones featuring Shidou’s wife and kids, as well as the ones where he simply looks younger. The other parts are clearly looking back at the same time frame, but are from Shidou’s present perspective, here in Milgram. Those are the ones where he reflects on his verdict or directly addresses what verdict he wants.

Most directly, I think the part at 2:14 indicates this. Shidou, looking back on the death he caused (knives in the pomegranates and other food, dead flowers, receipts from the surgeries that we also saw in Throwdown), says “I want to be INNOCENT / I want to live.” That’s him, in the Milgram prison, right now, coming to terms with the fact that he actually, genuinely wants to live right now.

In the audio drama, he’s clearly conflicted. He still says that he wants to die, that he wants to atone for his sins and that dying is the only way he can make it up to the people he killed. He also, though, says that, at least for right now, he wants to live. Futa and especially Mahiru are on death’s door, and there’s no telling what other injury might occur. He believes he’s essential to saving lives within the Milgram prison (and I think he’s 100% right).

He even directly references this in the song lyrics, talking about “extracting the fang.” The fang is clearly Kotoko, given that Milgram has referred to the damage Kotoko does with fang imagery before and given that that’s what he’s currently healing. He has to be the one to save them because he’s the only one who can; as a result, to save lives, he has to care about his life right now. While he’s still unsure of what final verdict he wants, he knows that he needs to stay alive, at least going into trial 3.

VOTE: INNOCENT

Personally, this one’s a no-brainer. Es theorizes in the audio drama that Shidou only harvested organs from braindead patients, and though he never outright confirms it, based on his responses, it seems to me like that’s true. That means his crime isn’t as severe as we initially thought it was.

Additionally, he’s right; he is indispensable to us right now. He outright says in the audio drama that if he stops giving Mahiru care, she’ll die, whether or not anything else happens to her. That basically tells us that voting Shidou guilty means Mahiru dies. That’s not good, and I’d rather avoid prisoner death when we think it’s possible.

I also just don’t think it’s smart to change verdicts on him here. If we decide that, after all is said and done, we can’t forgive Shidou, we should do that with the third verdict. Here, we want to leave both options open. Right now, Shidou is torn between wanting to live and wanting to die. If we switch to guilty, we’ll ruin any chance he has at recovering a will to live and a will to atone through any means other than death. If we want to preserve the option of forgiving him in the end, I think we have to forgive him here. We can debate whether his actions were forgivable or not in the last round.

#admin venus #milgram #ミルグラム #kirisaki shidou #shidou kirisaki #milgram theory #i'd like to apologize if this is incoherent #i moved around a bunch of paragraphs and i don't wanna proofread rn #i have to pack and go home for spring break tomorrow and it's already 5 am #the lights only just came back on recently #it's been a power out for a while over here which is why the other admins were talking about battery so much #also the mv didn't have english subs right at the drop so we watched in french for a hot minute #that was fun #also apologies if i'm too much of a shidou apologist but legit i feel like his crime is at least extremely understandable #and he does genuinely seem to want to help #the audio drama made me emo though ngl #like... oh... THAT'S why you were commenting on Es being a kid and all that so much... #i lost my train of thought. anyways have your initial thoughts #i'm gonna try to get the futa/mu/shidou full theories up over the next week or so cause break

[bragganhyl]

I romanced Lae'zel in my first pt of bee gee three and my tav became a squid at the end. Lae'zel went from a character who dumps a squid and leaves, to someone who is down to smorch a squid and stay (patch 4), to someone who dumps a squid and leaves but promises to one day come back in the epilogue (patch 5) and like uhhh.... yay? three endings for the price of one? thanks?

#hablaty #bee gee three posting #tbh at this point i'd just like la*rian to make up their damned mind #sure i was elated for like 10 minutes when patch 4 dropped bc yay happy ending for my newest child i am not immune to fluff i guess #but yeah that went away once the first excitement rush wore off and thought on the changes proper #and then patch 5 happened and... yeah #tbh i'm playing with the party limit begone mod so i took her out of the party *once* this pt and even that hurt #bc of the new dismissal line #but yeah i regret getting my hands on this game before a definitive edition or whatever bc the game not only is unfinished #the company seems more inclined to rewrite the stuff that *is* there rather than filling the blanks of the story #so yeah sorry for putting salt here but whenever i come across posts about the changes that were made to her i do have to wonder #if people are aware that more was done than just the dismissal line

[primowishes]

//Added a rule (more a disclaimer) that I'm somebody who takes on a lot of muses and that my muse list will only get longer. Of course, you never have to interact with any particular muses of mine, and you're free to prioritize only one or two (or a few) if you'd prefer, it's fine. But if you prefer to not follow multimuses with a lot of muses in general, you should know that I am the type of multimuse that picks up new muses frequently.

I'd just really prefer that, if people feel uncomfortable with my blog style, they unfollow. No hard feelings if you do, sometimes it just happens that rp styles don't vibe together.

#ooc #i'd say sorry for always adding new muses but i'm like not #i just really like to write a lot of dynamics with my friends so it just ends up like this #sometimes i drop muses but not even close to how often i add #and once i make a banner for a muse they're practically locked in at that point #i'll reblog this tomorrow when it's not the middle of the night #or i guess like 3am here anyway #i guess no one really likes the thought that they're being ''put up with'' #so i just use my rules as a ''ok we're all on the same page so i don't feel bad about silly things anymore''

[victoryrifle]

looks from SKYND’s Richard Ramirez Music Video

#skynd #skyndedit #richard ramirez #true crime #true crime music #mine #gif:mine #gif:skynd #armin meiwes mv just dropped for the mailing list but i thought while waiting to gif it until its publically available #i'd gif the last mv of their i hadn't made a set for yet #so heres this and if you're not in the mailing list just know the new mv is going to be public in a couple of days

[jinxofthedesert]

To all wanting an update: I am hoping to get chapter 29 of Carve My Name Into Your Skin out next month. I was really hoping to make it for January but I just haven't had the time.

To those who are unaware, I began my Masters Program at the start of Jan and that is literally all I've been doing. It doesn't leave my mind with much clarity afterward, so the writing has been incredibly slow.

Ironically the chapter is getting long despite this as I've been working on it when I can. I was hoping there would be a place to break it off, as I've done with the last few chapters concerning the scene with Thorfinn and Bjorn. Make it a 4 part, instead of my planned 3 part. But there has been no good spot to end the chapter, unless I did it mid-dialogue which isn't something I want to do.

Currently the chapter is sitting at 18k, very close to 19k honestly. I have a possible place I could break it off a bit further from where I am and end the chapter early since the conversation will be switching but . . . we shall see. That would be great.

Either way, thought I'd let you all know! Wishing you all a fantastic rest of your weekend and a good luck to the start of your week. You got this~

#thought I'd give you all an update. I believe some who follow me are here from ao3 specifically #and I wanted you all to know that I am still working on the story. #ugh I wish I could've updated this month but it wasn't in the cards. #i knew it would drop severely given they slam you with the easiest class and the hardest class your first semester #and both have a shit ton of reading regardless so it leaves you kinda dead thought-wise lol #can't wait to get the next update out though. hoping you guys will like it #writing #personal #a little bout me #fanfiction #ao3 #writing update #Carve My Name Into Your Skin update #i would add the ship names but I know Tumblr won't put this on the tag unless I mess with this post over and over again #and I'm just to tired to do that tonight #so no askefinn or askefinnbjorn aside from this #hope you're all well regardless

[dismalzelenka]

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#today i had a pianist during a rehearsal go “wow your voice you just have so much natural talent i mean some people really work for years—” #and i kinda snapped #and i was polite but also i unloaded the entire story of the last thirteen years in the cosmic joke that is my life #this lady got thirteen years of trauma in a twenty minute speed run #she Learned Things today about existential despair and the societal clusterfuck that is the Trans Experience #and how that intersects in the classical singing world in an incredibly challenging and fucked up way #and how i went from scooting under the door into a voice program with seven lessons under me #and then three years later proceeded to fling myself into a testosterone fueled vocal puberty in the midst of a professional singing degree #and lost the respect and support of most of the vocal and choir faculty because everyone thought i was committing professional suicide #if it werent for my own voice teacher (who at some point became the mother figure I'd never had) keeping me afloat i would not be here #i have c-ptsd from the shit i went through in the choir department #i had to drop out of school for a semester because my body just folded under the stress #i started getting migraines severe enough i was hospitalized twice with stroke-like symptoms #two weeks ago i had a former teacher from the early days deadname me in front of our colleagues #she tried to play it off as no big deal and it just reminded me no matter how successful i become in this field #no matter how much work i put in to overcome my past #its always going to come back and find me through people who refuse to learn respect #and somehow! im still here! im making a living in the field i trained for #how many people in my generation in the arts degree sector can say that?? by some metrics i am thriving but jesus goddamn #i clawed and fought and bit and dragged myself to where i am right now and had to find my voice TWICE and the worst part is #she meant well #the pianist i mean #and i was polite when i told my story but it was so important to me that she understood #no amount of talent would have gotten me here without sleepless nights and long hours and blood and sweat and tears and you know what #maybe i am a better person for it but dont compliment me by implying i have some inherent gift from a god i dont even believe in #dont tell me your god put me in this place to teach other people compassion #i didnt brush the door of death as many times as i did for the sake of someone else's enlightenment #its been a long 13 years. hell its been a long 2023. in the last eleven months ive had a fundamental upheaval #of everything i thought i knew and understood about myself #so yea im standing at the gate to hell looking the devil in the eye. try me bitch. ive endured worse.

[shadowedresolve]

"Sure, I can fill you in." And with that, Zenkichi starts explaining the details and peculiarities of the case. People vanishing without rhyme or reason, showing up again in places they shouldn't have been able to reach, rambling about strange delusions and forgetting everything within a few days... well, some have reappeared, at least. There are still those who haven't, which is why the police is so worried to begin with.

The ramblings he's heard haven't sounded like people have wandered into a Jail, or anything that obvious, but there's something still a little familiar about the way they talk that makes him hesitant to dismiss them.

The explanation takes a while, but when he's done, Zenkichi shoots Naoto another question.

"So, any initial thoughts? I'm not gonna lie, it all feels a bit out of my pay grade." And he's in a pretty well-respected position.

@chibitantei ( continued from here! )

#ic #chibitantei #v. zenkichi; tag tbd. #ONE YEAR LATER. AND HERE I FINALLY AM. REPLYING TO THIS THREAD i am so sorry otl #if you'd prefer to drop it since it's been so long that's cool; i totally get it! #but i thought i'd go ahead and reply even if it's ridiculously late in case you were still interested #since i'm really enjoying this thread so far tbh! #i skipped a lot of zenkichi's briefing here since i am not smart or creative enough to figure out the details of a case #so apologies for that too; but i'm sure we can wing it lol #( if you want to plot anything though; i'm happy to do that too! )

[skrunksthatwunk]

not rascal's deadbeat owner coming around when im not home and telling my roommate she's taking him for a week (our break is 4 weeks or so, implying he's gonna be back here even though That's Her Cat Not Ours) and then just picking up the new toys i bought for him and taking them with her without even asking. hey. hi. those are mine

#like yes i want rascal to use them so he can be happy and fulfilled but also i dont fucking trust you #she didnt even ask. i wasnt even AROUND and she just yoinked them #she also took the new litter box my roomie got for him bc the old one was so caked in shit that 20 mins in a powerful sink didnt even #change it. like bedrock-hard cat shit. who fucking knows how old that was bc they never clean or empty it. fucks sake #and obv he needs a litter box and my roomie threw the old one away bc again it was Unsalvageably And Hazardously Filthy #like we could get sick he could get sick. get a grip #but like i dont wanna be feeding her replacements for her stuff she doesn't take care of over and over #just burning money trying to make rascal's life a Little better bc again our control over his situation is limited bc hes literally her cat #it's so frustrating. like i waited a full month to get him new toys bc i didn't know how long this situation was gonna last and i dont have #cats and cant have them for a while (not that this is stopping me oops) so it's not like the toys'll be used w me #like if she decided to up and drop him at a shelter like she'd planned less than a couple months ago I'd be sittjng in a pile of cat stuff #but he needs more stuff yknow. theyre not providing for him and i have the means to atm. and just when i bite the bullet and surprise him #with a bunch of new things he was SO excited about she swoops in without warning and takes him #god. my roommate told me he just froze up when his owner came in..and he looked so pissed about it #having to go back and leave us and leave all his fun new stuff to go back to the room where they cant even bother to feed him regularly #much less play with him or take care of him #it's heartbreaking. it's such a delicate situation im trying to move carefully so we don't lose him completely but it's so frustrating going #slow. ughhghhgh AND THEYRE ALWAYS LIKE man he's so much nicer to y'all. MAYBE IT'S BC WE TREAT HIM WELL. CRAZY THOUGHT I KNOW #fucking. i love that little man this sucks for him so bad. trying to get him back for a couple days while im here but no response yet #and my roommate's staying on campus over break so she's gonna show up as soon as that week's over like I'm Here For Rascal. Your Time Is Up. #rauguhhhhh sorry if these rascal vent posts are a downer guys. it's just. god dude. fucking hell #i know this is a stupid situation i have gotten myself into i know it's stupid to try and finagle someone's pet from them BUT SHES ABUSIVE #AND SUPER LIKE. INDIFFERENT?? AND APATHETIC ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT THE PPL SHE DUMPS HIM ON CARE FOR HIM WELL OR NOT. AGH #sighhhh. whatever. gotta focus on tmr's exam and then i can complain about rascal some more. #i get she prolly thinks it's a team effort but the only reason we take her stuff is bc we didn't have a cat and werent planning on it #ggggghhzgzzjzjkkzkzkkzkk. grinding my teeth

[zhuhongs]

i am so painfully american in so many ways that I never even realized,,, like the Pain. Today I went out with my friends mom who doesn’t speak any english and oh my god was I a deer in the headlights all day. I feel soooo bad, also like she refused to let me pay for anything and gave me sooo much food and drove me around all day. I really don’t know how to thank her enough. I tried to give her a gift and she returned it to me without me even noticing... oh my god. ms. huang.. rlly.... TT thank u also I’m so sorry i’m so painfully timid and awkward

#i've never eaten like.. so many kinds of meat bc like.. yk.. americans only really like the "desireable' parts of the meat. so yea.. also i #have like a fear of swallowing bones.. long story. if u were here u were here for it. if u dont know .. its a Story. but yea so i was like. #this is... a painfully awkward meal. also i dropped my chopsticks TWICEEEEE.. pain. also I've never had shirmp with the head on so she #put one on my plate and i was like... uh.... i dont know how to eat this but I just looked out how the ppl around me did it so i got used t #it.. kinda.... god yea. and then she really kept giving me food but I have a small appetite due to the aforementioned fear of bones thing #it was a spell of disordered eating in hs. left me with a damaged throat and a reduced appetite. not body image related but trauma related #etc. etc.. so yea. i felt so bad. I was so full. she bought me so much. im sooo sorry.... but good news is i wont need to buy food at all #tmrw... and then sometimes she'd ask me a question and I'd legit have no clue how to respond. I;m so used to speaking multiple languages #with my classmates and my roommates so if i ever forget smth i can just use a diferrent language to explain and its.. so much harder to #speak only one language than i thought and hhhhh. also sidenote i COMPLETELY understand why my friend is the way she is... like yea no she #IS her mothers daughter hundred percent.... forceful. kind. not afriad to bargain. overall big appetite for life and yea no.. it makes sooo #much sense... i understand it ALL now...also her little brother is so rude.... god i don't like him. i see why she doesn't like him #like id never blame someone for hating their family but yea no i get it #hhhh so yea.. it was rlly fun but also.. a lot. super super grateful tho. #🐌.txt #also i am so tired.. what not getting enough sleep for a week will do to a mf

[hawkinslibrary]

new s4 icons are available on netflix ! el, dustin, mike, lucas, will, max, hopper, nancy, joyce, steve, eddie, robin, jonathan, erica, argyle, vecna, murray, and karen ! happy stranger things day and here’s to whatever else they’ve got in store for us today ❤️

#lex talks #i forgot about time change and was waiting up until 2 am my time #then the clock flipped back to 1 am and i thought i'd need to stay up another hour #but no !! #and now it's time to sleep lol #listen... i don't expect anything big but i am going to enjoy whatever we do get #so i'll be here to update with whatever drops whenever time allows tomorrow #today ? anyway #i was looking at the colors on these and they're obv split up into the s4 groups #green for el in the silo lab + purple for hawkins + blue for russia + yellow for cali #and then both eddie and vecna have this darker blue color #i don't think it actually means anything but it is interesting #like argyle is yellow and karen is purple even though she's barely involved #so eddie should be purple too right with that logic ? #anyway anyway this is technically my 2 am brain processing things so... goodnight #i have to go places tomorrow which i'm not excited about But at least i know st day will give me stuff to look forward to lol

[nulltune]

back from termination with new drip (url) 😎

artifile -> nulltune !

#BTW I SEE ALL OF U IN MY INBOX RN AND IMMMM 🥺🥺🥺 #FILLING MY TUMMY WITH GRUB RN THO SO I'LL GET 2 RESPONSES IN A LIL BIT- BOTH ON HERE N D.ISCORD! #also might do a d.iscord drop bc i wanna talk 2 more ppl!!!!! 😤😤❤️ love u all #and yes i thought i'd have to remake agjchsd IF WORST CAME 2 WORST... #came up with a bunch urls too but they were mad uggo-- 😳 #THIS ONE RLLY STUCK WITH ME THO ! 💖💖 I LIKE IT A LOT HEHE #SO YES >:3 BACK WITH A NEW URL BABBBYYYYY #same ol' clownery tho!

[bluethedream]

wanna crawl off to a dark corner and never leave

#sabi's words #I was. Such. a social disaster today like oh my GOD how many times can a person embarrass themselves in the span of 10 hours #first. in analytical history class I said a technical term wrong while I was convinced I was right and got corrected by not only the prof #but half the class also and. it was my first session. like. way to go girl. way to go. Great first impression #then. in the process of ordering a birthday cake. I got told that the baker wouldn't take my order #but the phrasing in my mother tongue was something like 'he won't work' #and I mistook it for him taking some time off and asked exactly that and got told that no I had entirely understood it wrong. #then. speaking to a colleague. she was quoting saying 'thank you' to someone. and. I thought she was thanking me. and said 'you're welcome' #and then. got offered hot chocolate and cupcake and refused and then accepted in one breath and then knocked amother cup of hot drink over #thank god only a few drops spilled. #oh god oh god I can't rememeber the last time I had been such a disaster and I do not think I will ever forget today #I've been cringing at myself every five minutes like pls let me forget let me FORGET #on the topside? im depression numb so I can't feel anything beside cringe or else I'd have had a heart attack by now from all i did today #yeah this was definitely tmi I hope no one actually reads the tags here

[atlanticghostcrab]

#flowers #pansy #pansies #dried flowers #brown #transparent #scan #plants #this is a coaster i found at goodwill awhile ago #i dropped it the other day and it got very slightly chipped (i don't even think you can see it here) so i thought i'd scan it in case #i do it again #someday i'll get better at scanning things

[saeitoshi]

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#hi everyone!! hope you all are doing well <3 #'jess where have you been' health/irl have been a Trip(TM) but i'm alive!! i'm staying strong X'D #i've been limited on screentime outside of my obligatory stuff so unfortunately i'm likely not going to be online as often as i'd like :') #i was in a bit of an editing mood tho so i came back for a bit hehe #might drop a ps tutorial that i thought of as i was making a gif so that could be posted soon! #(now thinking about it i might have two tutorials in mind but we'll see haha) #as for the actual gifs idk if i'm planning to post them since my color adjustments have gone rusty overtime shifohwioehf #anyways if you made it through this ramble thank you!! i figured i'd update in the tags because it's comfy in here LOL #not sure if i'll be really active here again but i'll make sure i won't overdo it on my health ^^ #random me #text

[yume-fanfare]

decided to check the # for the newest hanako chapter on twitter none of you get itttt

#but it's really funny to see so! #cannibalism has been a running theme in the manga guys cmon #person w rhythm game guy pfp like 'i don't know why they thought this would be a good idea' brother this is a horror manga? #its also not the first time something like this happened c'mon #'aidairo wouldn't' have you read the hell of mirrors arc #'they shouldve clarified that this love could not happen or just make it really clear that it wasnt romantic' 😭😭😭 #i don't 'ship' them either lol but if you wanted nice unproblematic stuff you should've dropped this manga on like chapter 3 #like everyone else did #people calling it irredeemable media is already funny on its own but the way the fanbase is also Like This is so wild to me #every time i see some kid on the tag being like omg amane is so handsome 😍 im like i don't know you but you probably can do better #'remember when this was a manga about a girl trying to get her crush to like her back' IM IN TEARSSSS #that was....... literally only in chapter 1........... #in which she realizes she doesn't really like said crush............... #like i'd say it gets Serious as early as chapter 9??? #(funnily enough id say that's where kou's conflict truly starts. a protagonist) #there is a homophobic hate crime in chapter 19??? it shouldn't take you too long to realize this is not a comedy help me #but like yeah help there Is a reason why all the cutesy romance moments that people redraw for aus n stuff happen during chapters 1 to 8 #because the rest is Plot Relevant #ok ending my rant here ♥ #if u read til here ily #i used to think hanako fans should take a reading comprehension test beforehand but at this point ive accepted its a lost cause #jbksh #mar's midnight rambles