#so i might dip this week

[astrummorte]

aryin and cayde don't fucking. deserve that. lol. lmao.

#this is so out of context but i have no one to rant to atm #everyone's playing destiny and i don't wanna be dragging down tonight's session #over something like this #so i might dip this week #idk. i'm just talking with one of my best friends and while we find it funny (in a bad way) what the context is #we also find it really fucking annoying what the context is #because the statement was clear as day #and yet it was IGNORED #anyway. #lol. i'm going to go make icons again. ttyl. #vent tw #rant tw #negative tw #vagueposting ? tw #♡. ren writes ⁄ ⁄ underneath crimson skies .

[mattodore]

pose making they could never make me hate you

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #......... i should probably just make a tag specifically for my blender wips actually #ummmm...... #blender #obviously 😭 will go back and retag old blender posts with this tag eventually #missed this soooo bad i'm having so much fun 😭😭 #<- person who just made a simple hug pose #no but. #there’s seriously nothing better than being able to do whatever i want in blender #if i knew how to render the way like rai and the rest of you can TRUST ME!! i would be posting mattodore content every dayyy #but since i can't even rip matthias's sim without his skin details fucking up i just make poses for in-game use </3 #i have this huge list of poses i want to make and shitty notes app drawings of some ideas i've scribbled down these last few weeks lmao #and i also want to start learning how to animate....... which i might spend some time on tomorrow #like getting blender back in order makes me so happy 🧎 #i’ve got so much i want to do in here!! #but okay... i do need to go lay down kjdfhnfgjn i'm gonna read and try to sleep mwah mwah mwah #bye to the three other people online rn 👋

[toxooz]

brains been kicking my fucking ass all day so have an emergency Ollie doodle 🕷

#ollie #also dipping my toe into his outfit glow up options shhhhh #i got 3 more pages to do so the update might be ready by early next(next) week #going to start taking the birth control tomorrow so hopefully my brain will fukkin #stop switching from constantly distracted monkey to I Will Not Shut up Until U Kill Urself for a week every single month #taken so many mental Ls today holy shit but ollie saves the day once again #my art #original character #oc #monster boy #monster #monster oc #orc #half orc #demon #demon oc #tiefling #tiefling oc #doodle #sketch #terato #exophilia #monster boyfriend

[cxpperhead]

in battle your muse,

bold what applies - italicise sometimes. repost, don’t reblog.

fights honorably / fights dirty

prefers close - quarters /prefers range

chats during / goes silent

low pain tolerance / high pain tolerance

attacks in bursts / attacks steadily

goes for the kill / aims to disarm / fights defensively / strikes first

is provoked easily / provokes their opponent / teases

gets visibly frustrated / shouts while attacking

uses strategy / focuses on the battle / experiences conflicting thoughts during battle

rushes in recklessly / tries to read their opponent before engaging / fights wildly / fights calmly / fights apathetically / fights with anger / fights with excitement

fights because they have to / fights because they want to

fights without regard to wounds / runs away when wounded / hides wounds / takes a blow to protect another

prefers a blade / prefers a gun / prefers hand-to-hand combat / prefers a bow / prefers a shield / prefers a personalized weapon / prefers magic alchemy or spells

their greatest weakness is physical / their greatest weakness is mental / their greatest weakness is emotional

transforms for battle / fights as they appear

relies on strength / doubts their strength / relies on speed

uses everything they have / proceeds with caution / hides their full potential /

exhausts quickly / has high stamina

behaves arrogantly / brags after landing a hit / belittles their abilities

uses psychological tactics / uses brute strength

avoids civilians / strikes down civilians

damages surroundings / avoids damaging surroundings

signature fighting style / makes it up as they go

mastered skill-set / learning their skill - set

messy fighter / elegant fighter

accepts defeat / refuses defeat / begs for mercy

compliments their opponent / insults their opponent

uses unnecessary movements / moves efficiently / barely moves

prefers to dodge / prefers to block

defends their blindside / has no blindside / leaves blindsides vulnerable

uses all available advantages / strictly uses one main method

plays around / holds back / fights ruthlessly / shows mercy

waits for an opponent to be ready / strikes when opponent isn’t ready

fears death / fears pain / fears killing

has ptsd / avoids fighting

has lost a fight / has won a fight

has killed / refuses to kill

wants to die standing / would succumb slowly

Tagged byStolen from: @belost-the-watcher and @galranrepard (♡) Tagging: @bruz3r, @elisethetraveller, @question-marked, @red-hemlock and anyone else who wants to do this?

#🐍 || dashboard games #🐍 || headcanons #🐍 || musings #Got a couple of tough weeks coming up but then my schedule will be switching over to nights after that #So life's going to get a lot more managable very soon! #I don't think I ever did this for Copperhead so I'm yoinking this <3 #I'd tag more people but tumblr's still being fucky about mass tagging #Copperhead is quite a seasoned fighter tho #Doesn't really get worked up or in over his head regarding pride #He'll dip when it's time to and just come back when his target leasts expect it #He's not a prideful warrior he's an assassin #But for people he respects he might give them a chance aka Batman

[vinieer]

#artwork #oc art #quickly dropping art of my favorite son then dipping #uhhhhh very possible i might drop out/fail uni soon??? so yeah #thats a thing #so i cant rly get in the right state mentally to draw #this is old art from like a week ago but i thought i should post something at least #byłominęło #rei

[justinefrischmanngf]

HAVE SHIFTS FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AND BY GOD ARE THEY SEXY!!!!!!!!!!

#got my shifts for next week a couple days ago but now having them both is like #fuck we might be onto something here !!!!!! #guysssss this is good this is really really good #it’s not perfect but it’s very good #i may no longer be teaching one student i really like though and if that’s the case it’ll be rly sad but it might not be the case so fingers #crossed !!!!!!! but my hours r very good out of what could reasonably be asked for #like if i could get slightly more that’d be even better but what this is is fantastic i cannot lie #very very very happy about this and also very relieved #bc if they’re scheduling me in this way then they clearly think i’m doing a good job AND it means there’s less immediate worry abt me #getting another job which is amazing #like i was rly worried that as the term started my hours would take a dip bc people might be more available/they’ve got a better idea of me #so how much do they rly want me around but it hasn’t !!!!! and touch wood everything keeps going smoothly bc i’ve got More hours than ladt #term and that is exactly what i need and have been hoping for #🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿 i dont want to jinx this but my god this is good news

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

#red said #the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early #metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of #Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together #but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant #i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning. #what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose. #i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy #so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that #but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person. #but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go #i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it #but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving #i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry #right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone. #that kind of thing. it's a safety thing. #it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it #but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that #and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time #anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.

[kazooku]

I don't think anyone here keeps up with me on Twitter but on the off chance I am currently taking a break. Literally 3 days away from Twitter and I'm already doing better wtf. I feel kinda bad for leaving with no warning but holy shit I am free

#did something happen? #short anwser yes and no #I dont feel like giving context because honesty that shouldn't have made my mental health dip like it did #so yeah i needed away #my goal is to stay away for 2 weeks #but ngl if I follow through with that I might just go longer #that site is not good for me and every so often #i have moments of clarity like now and realize it #I might make a switch post just to say I'm on break so i can get it out without opening the damn app #not an art post

[selenealwayscries]

Day 3: Characters (Wormman)

past selene wdym a character . we all know wormman is a totally different guy !!

( I honestly didn't have a wormman design and I wasn't sure if I wanted to make him Ambiguously Zedaph or just a different guy so I went with both! )

Again, the list of prompts I made up for this month if anyone wants to do this as well:

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #zedaph #zedaphplays #zedtober #Selene's Zedtober™ #<- organization tag !! #this month is like a double edge sword for me #on 1 hand . i have an excuse to beat all of your asses with insane amounts of zed art #the other hand . i dont know how quick this is gonna burn me out so im just trying to compile as much art i can rn #which probably isnt good for my mental health but . fuck it we ball <- not parentally advised way of dealing with mental health #i love this man i can draw him all day but also drawing this much might kill my motivation #well see how it goes lol #also he hasnt uploaded in 2 weeks . where is he . where did he go . when will he return from the great war /what #can you tell i barely slept hahaha ha h #anyways no brain cell rn gonna dip #catgirl supreme

[theunconcernedembalmer]

I know i missed is birthday but i only have enough time and energy to do this doodle for now so. Yeah

#identity v #aesop carl #identity v embalmer #identity v the embalmer #gatto event #im so sorry i know i dipped for 3 weeks but work suddenly Kept Happening #i have not drawn in weeks. wheezes #i have one more gatto post in the works to clear the inbox. in other words more asks are welcome XD #i will. i might. maybe. draw something proper for his birthday. then again with how the letter ended i can just draw a pile of ashes #n call it a day. im kidding. mostly #anyway i promise!!!! to get back into drawing stuff more often soon. i will have more free time soon. i am barely surviving #on a side note i find it funny that i did the event to celebrate 800 followers but now my page is telling me its 790 #to be fair i didnt think id actually hit 800. must be bots or something #790 is still a lot. im thankful especially with my rather spotty activity now #blows a kiss to yall. muahs

[guardian-angle22]

The ls ratings this season make me so sad. Do you think there is still hope for more seasons?

I have no frame of reference for whether ratings are good or bad and more importantly what FOX uses to justify renewals (for instance if they put more stock into streaming views after the fact than just pure live ratings) so I don’t have a good answer for you, unfortunately.

My suggestion is to ignore the ratings and focus on enjoying this current season (and hyping it up as much as possible on social media if you use that & rewatching on streaming sites like Hulu if you have access to that), and then if it’s renewed we can be excited for more seasons! and if it isn’t - we can all be sad together (and/or go wild with the petitioning for a pickup like some fandoms do) but then also be excited for different projects from all of our favorite actors on the show.

#anon answered #ratings talk #911ls discussion & meta #but also I think it’s possible they would just change the night/time again before they canceled it outright tbh #and there are a ton of different factors that could be contributing to a ratings dip #I mean I almost didn’t watch this week and I’m obsessed with this show so idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ I don’t know how viewership works for prime time tv #it might be the shows its up against in its current time slot that are contributing in which case I think theyd change the time again

[raksh-writes]

Feeling so weirdly out of sorts today. I hoped that I can continue writing the second part of my AU I started on yesterday (got a nice 1,6k in Macau's POV!) or if not that, then maybe finish up editing part 1 so I can post but... I dunno, Ive fallen into a dip of depression and I only feel like crying and diddling around doing nothing (beside All the things I need to take care of for the next two days of classes of course, ugh), so... yeah. I don’t know what to do with myself. Wasting the little bit of free time I still have doesn’t make me feel better, but then Im not even sure Im capable of anything creative rn...

#personal #vent #Raksh vents #the dip in weather might have smth to do with it #it was sunny and really warm yesterday and now it dipped into cold and gloomy and rainy #and Im of course super sensitive to weather #plus lately it feels like whatever I eat juat won’t pass through and sits in my stomach like stones so thats bothering me too #and the fact I not only have to cook myself dinner but also food for tomorrow's classes and Im just... #I have no energy or idea for it whatsoever #might just go simple pasta with pesto for both like I did last week #just to get smth into my stomach #tho im not sure we have enough pasta... ughhhhhd #I have tofu defrosting so I guess I'll do that for tomorrow #but thats for the evening and for now #ehhhhh #I'll reread what I wrote yesterday #maybe that'll give me a nudge or smth...

[mattodore]

sometimes i log in but i'm still not ready to be fully online™ so i just silently draft everything i want to reblog when i'm wired in

#river dipping #i'm going to post all the stuff in my drafts so. reblog time #this is also a drafted post dfjgnkjn #posting it now tho #hello <3 #i finished a literate passion last night soooo #today's castlevania alucard day :3c #and when i'm done with that (tho i fear it might take me more than a day...) i will finally be updating my game #that anon that asked for mattodore as cowboys... i will be getting back to you soon #alsooooo i have this extra screenshot i took of mattodore that i'm gonna edit in a bit and post #i'm also gonna get back to answering that ask abt mattodore's night routines..................................... #it's been over two weeks atp my brain is just . static sounds

[she-toadmask]

I went to go to my new job and they hadn't gotten my background check and I was too anxious/my brain wasn't on so I didn't think about the fact that they hadn't contacted me directly since the last forms I filled out

A black woman knocked on the window of the car I was driving when I parked and she said she hadn't eaten in a couple days and wanted 7 bucks or so to go get some food. I figured I was about to start making money and had brought my wallet in case I needed something from it so I gave her 10 bucks and she thanked me and left

Like I said the job hadn't gotten my background check results so I spent like 5 bucks on a couple charms and left and went home. I told my mom what happened and she said I shouldn't give people money like that, they usually don't need it

And it made me really uncomfortable. Maybe it's me being asocial but why would someone walk around in a parking lot asking for money when they could just Not? Surely it's not an efficient way to make money, even with jobs being shit

I mention her being a black woman because. I mean maybe she saw I was a young white girl and figured I wasn't going to be dangerous and maybe this is fucked-up for me to think and I'm in a semi-decent area not a ton of crime not a ton of race-driven violence afaik but if a black woman is walking around a parking lot asking random people for money when someone could take issue with her and hurt her

She probably really does need it

Idk I usually don't give money to homeless people I don't usually have cash on me (or if i do it's the emergency 20 in my phone case) but she came up to me and asked

#vent #untagged #delete later #this is entirely unimportant but its 2am and im procrastinating on homework so bad vibes #idk how long this stint on tumblr is gonna be i might dip in a week again lol #i understand my mom's feelings. from some angle. but i really feel like there are better ways to grift/scam/get money #i also usually dont give money to homeless people because i have anxiety and am a selfish little shit #i dont donate to online dono requests partially out of habit. i only got a paypal and personal credit card relatively recently. #but also a small part of me is *thinking meme* cant donate to a scam instead of a real needy person if you never donate #its shit i know

[nocturnalghoul-archive]

Might fuck around and right a sad Papa 1-3 thing about the miscellaneous stuff around the abbey that reminds everyone of their absence

#idk we will see I guess #I have the next week off work and miss writing stuffs so it might be a fun way to dip back into it :) #nocturnal ramblings

[pallotdip]

making a project is tough. seeing other people being able to make content while you’re stuck in an art paralysis and take so long to even bring yourself to make art is tough.

i really try to go easy on myself while i work on my own. it’s something i had in the works for the past year, and i’m happy with how i’m planning it. but there’s always gonna be a part of me that screams at myself that i move too slow and that my skills haven’t caught up to my vision yet. and then there’s the whole ‘what if your project just sucks and you’re deluding yourself into thinking it’s good’ thoughts too.

i know these pressures and worries are mostly self-inflicted. but it feels suffocating sometimes since i’m already a slow artist who can only finish things in bursts.

#/vent #casual chip dip #i need to sort this account better but i dont feel like sifting through it fr #anyway yeah after zexal month is over i might not throw any art out on here or ig at all #UNTIL DECEMBER maybe i promise i’m not leaving forever i’m just b u r n t o u t #mostly bc i’ll be busy with school but also bc taking one piece takes me like a week and then i need a weeklong resting period at LEAST #gotta fight this stupid ‘be fast with art or die’ mindset that ig instilled in me for the last couple of years #it’s why i like tumblr so much more #but even then i don’t even talk on here a lot. at least not lately #anyway if you read this far thank you and i’m sorry