#so i guess its a moot point

[milkweedman]

Coincidentally my usable warp is like exactly as long as my dining room. Point is tho, i am finally done thank fuck

#already snipped them #need to wash them still. guess ill just do a load of laundry later #now i just have like 12 hours of cleaning #not sure why i did all of this all at once right at the beginning #i had in fact planned to pretend these were cleaning breaks and interspersed them. and then forgot #oh well #definitely realizing i should have done more weft stripes. only did them in the last two bc i thought changing colors all the time #would be a pain #it wasnt tho and also it looks a lot better #the ones that are just warp stripes (most of them) look very plain and boring #which is a little gutting tbh #couldnt really tell when its just the amount visible on the loom at any given moment but laid out flat its like. hm. ok #idk maybe she'll use them more if theyre boring and ugly ? #altho she's not the kind of practical handmade gift reciever who is like 'oh its too pretty to use i will tuck it out of sight forever' #so i guess its a moot point #idk. its fine. she doesnt have a ton of towels or dish mats anyway #weaving #cats tw #(thats their food board and one of many water dishes) #wow actually i thought i got like 5 or 6 #literally only 4 #and the first one is a mess that i am keeping bc i didnt hemstitch it and im certainly not gonna hem it today #the last one was just supposed to be an ugly washcloth for me but i may give it to her bc otherwise its only 2 ? #or maybe i have 5 ? ive literally already forgotten and i cant tell from the picture

[sirenthestone]

"Why was it that Methuselah lived nine hundred years, and 'Old Parr' one hundred and sixty-nine, and yet that poor Lucy, with four men's blood in her poor veins, could not live even one day?"

I know the answer he's going for is vampires, but my brain immediately went to blood types.

#dracula daily #dracula #van helsing #you put four ppls blood in her veins #with no regard to blood type #of course she died! #but of course #the blood was also drained before it could mix #so i guess its a moot point #vampires #death mention

[yonpote]

The age gap discourse happened already what did they say😭

i mean none of it was serious i dont think, just like "yikes if that were me" etc. lol and the whole thing abt their relationship being like Slightly Parasocial or whatever

#i talk abt this in my own ramble i just reblogged but #age gaps from the perspective of americans who have seen predatory college seniors being weird to freshman #is like a whole thing #but dnp arent that so its a moot point #also personally i guess? i think 4 years is my own lower age limit lmao #but thats me talking as a 25 yr old so idk #once youre 30 fouryear age gaps are literally nothingburger

[theonlyadawong]

very interested in the type of training ada does to develop her fighting style

#speakerphone! #obvs shes working with knives. i would argue shes likely on krausers level if not above him. #there is a flip she does in 6 that makes me think shes got some strong gymnastics training #how she lifts her legs up in damnation tells me she has incredible core strength (evident in her body control when using the grapple gun) #the power in her kicks is on par with leons and its only increased when used in combinations w hookshot. #frankly so much of her fighting style tells me she should also be fucking huge. but alas she is a woman and capcom is not going to let women #be anything other than thin with curves. #i guess i can see that as a spy she doesnt want to be HUGE so she doesnt draw attention while on missions. but also? shes a character made #by people w real world biases including misogyny. so. that point is kinda moot. #you know who else i dont think is thin and curvy? jill. in my head shes got very broad shoulders and very muscular arms #(evidenced by her ability to hold the plasma rifle and gun) (and obvs theres no way she can hold it as a human. but if she could she'd have #huge arms and broad shoulders) and that is my truth‼️‼️‼️

[readymades2002]

bad art is still art, as they say!

#i have many MANY thoughts on storytelling and how to approach it conscientiously and thoughtfully #and on how everything affects everything else and so it is impossible not to derive meaning from almost anything #i dont think its possible for something NOT to mean or say anything even if its poorly done #and anything that tells you not to think too hard about it is often the most enlightening to think too hard about #but i mean. i guess it doesnt NEED to strictly? but it is going to. so its kind of a moot point really? #im a little confused by the question in all honesty

[myrfing]

i think endwalker being very wolcentric wasnt a bad thing and if anything it was what i was expecting at the "end" of the story but adventures dont feel like adventures if you're not like...involved...with the people you meet. best moments are then you wiped away the tears of the dude who was dying or held meteion's hand or told venat it was fun. worst moments are when you stand in the bg as stupid shit unfolds or aren't even able to go back to bury the body of someone you know was there. and i dont want to be like. obviously I love the scions but i feel like there's this "well the wol has friends now so we dont need to get super invested in new characters and random background guys" and it's like but that's whata I like :(

#similar effect with like. hyth and hades. i dont. i didnt come here for them #but i guess a lot of people did so point is moot there #oh and helping matsya was great #also why im always hoping to see nidhana and erenville around #its not like endwalker dropped the ball on 'the wol touches the lives of the people they meet and is changed in turn' #part of the issue is how insular sharlayan feels i guess and in a weird way how overinvolved the scions are with the general affairs

[philcollinsenjoyer]

it's actually so deeply diabolical to not have friends living in the same city as you who the hell am i supposed to text should we go to the club 🤔 at 1am friday night

#some of you might be saying make friend in your class well i DID. AND none of them live in that specific town ALSO they're all older than #THIRTY. so #actually i guess that old man im trying to homewreck does live there part time but he goes home after wednesday so its a moot point

[simonstamenovic]

if lasting integrity has one hater it is me etc etc

#okay maya too. #outgoing transmission #im uncomfortable and cant sleep and am plagued by memories that are mostly vague #just... being awake too much and then when i eas finally able to fall asleep #i could Not stay asleep bc everything was too stressful and maya wasnt around and I was worried #about her and other things. half sure id be stuck there #thought a bit too much abt kal i didnt Quite know how much i liked. or loved yk. him then but #i was like ah itd really suck if i couldnt see him again i wonder if he'd find a way or if ill die here #there was a lot more to think about but Often when i felt hopeless i figured at least he was doing better #(he was not /: but he's alive) #i don't think i was the one for LI #i mean I was i guess I just am In There Now #like logically yeah maya was able to talk because of me sort of. because of us. saying me feels wrong. #but without her i would have been fucked #and its a moot point bc it was all fine and yk.. idk. i was Good enough to love my spren to life so i was the guy for the job #but ohhh the. horrors of feeling inadequate in the moment #this is Peak middle of it all. the most stressful part. #im so so tired. #adolin post

[miqotebitch]

God i cant choose between catboy and bunny girl

#jazposts #i love j'sahyr hes my little man #but idk i like ran out of story for him i guess #like yea i know his backstory and his sisters story and all that and im not interested in j'sahyr having an azem so ive got nothing there #so im like well i like looking at him and being a catboy but idk #just bored i guess #maybe its time to flesh out someone new and wol like #i have jiyu but tbh shes not been capturing me much #ive made other ocs but like they dont have much *to* flesh out anymore #i have hyacinths whole thing and my garlean oc and my lala sylph #i dont wanna play a bunboy or lala long term though i did really love the lala for just a short fun thing #so bungirl? i did like playing characters like that in wow #tall and cool women with some edge #maybe shes a drk main.... #since it looks like im going to be playing drk for the foreseeable future now LOL #im tired of drg and i play dnc to relax/pvp #and whm is just for fun and to challenge myself but i do not want to play it in difficult content #p1s and p2s are not hard but thats as far as ill go lol #tbh i prefer making girl azems and i already have one i like so maybe bungirl it is #moot point soon at least we got a new freaking story soon #but yea probs just burned out on ffxiv especially with all the drama #lots of bad experiences and no new story so im like eh ;;;; all i wanna do is mindless grinds and raiding LOL

[kennelpuppy]

cursing the fact that i share bedroom walls with BOTH of my roommates because i am currently. mmmmaybe the horniest person alive? but i am also. so so tired. and do not want to use my hands. but im also too scared to use one of my vibrators because i do NOT want them to hear me

#and both of them (vibrators) are dead rn so i guess its kind of a moot point anyways #fingers in my mouth body hair under my tongue WHATEVERRRRRR. WHATEVER! ITS FINE!

[mitski-slope]

i am Frankly so sicj n tired kf the 'azula thought ursa hated her bc shje was the only one 2 tell her no' take ! ut has been established timr n time again thst ursa played favourites !! u may not like 2 believe that she in fact has flaws n waks not oerfect the entirety of her life but u n i both know she had a favourite child n everyone (including azula) could tell !! yes she was obviously being abused n she Tried her best kn an awful situation but she waks not the perfect mother n it os so so poitnless to try n makr her one !!

#moots looj away im hving a moment ab a 20 yr old nickelodeon cartoon im so sorry #i saw a post . yeajh thats ut thats rhe context #sorryr but victims kf abuse whjo hv little to no support system .. mauy not b the best psrents .. kn account of the No Support System .... #u could dsay its realistic . kr u could go ahead n claim ursa was an amazing mother 2 azula ur choice i fucking Guess !!! #alos . i dknt thibk azula woudl literally b hallucinating her mother if she didnt Know thst at some lvl ursa didnt #love her likr she loved zuko #she coudl tell !!!!!!!! she fuckign Knew !!!!!!!! #ppl r so determined 2 hste azula likr that is a 14 yr old . wjo has an abuser fkr a father . #hv an ounce kf sympathy for a literal teenage girl thsts all im asking #'shes a war criminal' so is iroh but i dint see ppl calling him a psychopath on the daily #i am nkt excusing azulas actions but if u think shes completelly irredeemable n still lvoe zuko n iroh im excusing U frkm this discussion #i wknder why ppl hatr her so mcuh in comparison .. #i lied i dknt wonder whstsoever . i swesr kn my life i hv never been un a mkre misogynisitc fandom adn i qas into st at some point #rhe way ppl treat katara for not being over her mother whjo was literally kileld in frint of her .. #kr the way ppl treat literally any female chara un the Franchise #korra im so sorryr . never watched ur series bjt i KNOW u didnt deserve any of that hate #anyways ! #hey‚ hamlet. be more chill !!

[gefiltefished]

.

#on the one hand it's just a game and its not that deep #on the other ive been agonising for months about what to do about xiv ;_; #unsubbed again for now bc there's literally no point in spending money on something i don't use #but there's also the matter of what the hell do i do if/when i am gonna play on the reg again? #bc i can't raid like i used to and the time difference in general play is impossible for me to keep up with unless i ask for an earlier time #which isn't fair to have to arrange everything for one person #so do i move utha to an eu server/look for a european fc on crystal? #try and find a whole new group of ppl i enjoy playing and vibe with as much as i do the friends i already have? (doubt.jpg) #that doesn't really sound fun so i guess i just won't play and it's no-one's fault but man it's depressing #annoying thing is if i had a gaming™️ laptop this would all be a moot point #bc a lot of the issue stems from playing on console physically hurting me #idk man i just feel like shit about it all ┐⁠(⁠‘⁠～⁠`⁠;⁠)⁠┌

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#the pros of caving&opening my pro email for the first time in waaaaay too fucking long: #nice messages from nice clients that had no other way to contact me wishing me well. nice prince fan who paid for #topical pics on princes birthday one year for example lmao. another one who paid for these icarus themed #shots that are still some of my fave lmao. i have nice interactions sometimes. #the cons of opening my pro email for the first time in waaaay too long bc i was specifically avoiding it bc i had a feeling this had #already happened: two v specific ppl found it&now theres no way i can trust any emails i get there lmao. #seriously debating just not making another one lmao i do not NEED repeat clientele on that level right now. #but it does make the work siginifantly safer. idk.. #annooooooyedddddddd w myselfffffff i have bad interactions too&those ones seem way more frequent #&last way fucking longer i am losing track of the fucking idiots i need to remember to hide from its been years leave me alone #i am going to fucking scream i have genres of morons to flip thru if any of you fucks are reading this right now know i hate #you. neither of the two who found that email know about my tumblr tho i think so its like a moot point lmao. #im pretty sure one did get my ig nuked tho thats what the email made it sound like #so i guess that answers that question lmao. #BLAH i am going to get v high&scream into a pillow now anyway good morning everyone #i cant tell if my meds are being disrupted by my moods or if this is just what having a personality is lmao #&i regret literally nothing in my life but some ppl make it pretty damn close when i think about whether or not i would go back& #instead of speaking to them at all perhaps walk directly into traffic lmao. but y'know. #... just girly things?

[tgcg]

an open fly walking

i didnt like this one but i thought id finally air it out since its been sat in my folders for months now

TG: hey karkat

CG: YEAH?

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TG: you ever noticed you like

TG: walk weird

CG: WOW, OKAY.

CG: HAVE *YOU* EVER NOTICED THAT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT?

TG: pff

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TG: no listen because i got my ears scoping that shit im like a scouter for dude activity

TG: ok maybe me mentioning it to you is gonna fuck up your ecosystem or something but

TG: you have the heaviest feet of the century man

CG: I DO???

TG: just thrust them straight down into the ground like youre trying to homebrew a san andreas fault

TG: viciously tamping on tectonic plates hoping for top score on the richter scale

TG: waging war against solid particles and the basic flow of gravity

TG: i could ID those footfalls out of a million i mean it

CG: SERIOUSLY?

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TG: i mean theres nothing wrong with it but

TG: yeah

CG: I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU'RE FUCKING WITH ME RIGHT NOW.

TG: im not fucking with you striders honor

TG: when have i ever lied to anybody about anything

CG: NOT UNPACKING THAT QUESTION WITH YOU TODAY.

CG: BUT SHIT, HOLD ON. LET ME SEE.

TG: yeah take the umbrella go over there and just walk to me

CG: ON IT.

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TG: see you just kinda slam em straight down dude

CG: THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY RIOTOUS FUCKING JOKE OF A LIFE.

TG: dont your feet ache

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CG: MOOT POINT. THIS MIGHT SOUND INSANE BUT I'VE ACTUALLY HAD MY STRUT PODS FOR A WHILE. ANY KIND OF PAIN THIS WOULD'VE BEEN CAUSING WOULD BE TOTALLY FILTERED OUT OF MY SPONGE BY NOW AS BACKGROUND NOISE.

TG: damn i didnt think that through

TG: my shades

CG: ALRIGHT, GET BACK UNDER THE SHITTING UMBRELLA AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME.

TG: look ive fucked myself over here too i dont have shit to clean these with

TG: ugh

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TG: guess its karma

CG: HOLY FUCK. HOW DID I NEVER NOTICE THIS BEFORE?

TG: i dunno but im gonna assume having a dad thats a literal crab monster is probably a contributing factor

TG: im guessing thats not a great role model for this kinda thing

TG: just conjecture i mean

CG: YOUR ENVY IS OVERWHELMINGLY OBVIOUS DAVE. AS A DISCLAIMER, HE WOULD'VE ABSOLUTELY KICKED YOUR ASS.

TG: yeah probably

CG: THAT'S PRETTY MUCH ALL THERE IS TO SAY ON THE MATTER.

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TG: but see bro had me stringent on feather feets

TG: i bet i could slip across a bike horn warehouse with nary a fucking toot

CG: HAHA. ASSUMING YOU DON'T MAKE A TOTAL ASS OF YOURSELF, AS PER USUAL.

CG: IF YOU WEREN'T CONSTANTLY RUNNING YOUR GASH ABOUT EVERYTHING AND BEING AN INIMITABLE CLOWN I SERIOUSLY THINK YOU COULD BE ON PAR WITH YOUR CUSTODIAN.

CG: THAT IS A MONUMENTAL "IF".

TG: well look at it this way

TG: im basically doing you all a favor by being a dumbass

TG: never gonna get caught off guard by the bozo patrol

CG: WOW. GOOD POINT.

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TG: also screw this can i use your shirt

TG: this stupid hoodie is just smudging my lenses up

TG: i cant see dick

CG: UH

CG: SURE, I GUESS.

TG: cool

===

TG: so yeah i could be prowling around like a goddamn verbal assassin sniping convos left and right

TG: but no ive got the decency to go bunp in the night

CG: YEAH.

CG: IT'S DEFINITELY COMPOUNDED BY THE CONSTANT INANE RAMBLINGS.

CG: BUT

CG: IT'S ACTUALLY PRETTY RELAXING, Y'KNOW? IT HAS ITS OWN RHYTHM.

TG: see yeah i sound it off and

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TG: wait really?

CG: YEAH

CG: I DON'T KNOW

CG: FUCK. HOW DO I EXPLAIN THIS WITHOUT WANTING TO CRAM MY FROND DOWN MY PROTEIN CHUTE.

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CG: IT'S LIKE

CG: A SALVE FOR MY AGGRAVATION SPONGE.

CG: YOUR VOICE IS THE HUMAN EQUIVALENT OF ASPIRIN.

TG: uh damn karkat hold your hoofbeasts i was talking about the rhythm thing

CG: ALRIGHT, THAT'S IT. I'M TAKING US BOTH THE FUCK OUT RIGHT NOW. YOU HAVE REACHED THE BAD END OF THIS CONVERSATION.

TG: you think thatd be heroic or just

CG: IF I WAS STILL GHOSTING AROUND THE RUINS OF SGRUB'S ARCANE FRIGGIN GAME SYSTEMS, THE COMPLETE LACK OF SHIT AFOOT NOWADAYS WOULD BORE ME TO DEATH.

CG: LIKE. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME OUR THERMAL HULL LEVELLED UP, DAVE?

TG: hah

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TG: but uh

TG: i mean we had aspirin on earth

CG: NO, NUMBNUBS.

CG: I'M SAYING YOU ARE MY ASPIRIN.

TG: oh

CG: YEAH, TAKE THAT TO THE BANK AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR 20-KARAT ASS.

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TG: heh

TG: well get this

TG: i will literally talk at you forever for free

TG: you got lifetime priority seating for the davealogues

TG: never gotta go to the drugstore again you can just get doped up on my dulcet tones for the rest of time

TG: take that and some of this

TG: im packin punches

CG: OW, FUCK! NO! MY MIGRAINES!

CG: SWEEPS OF VEINCLOTTING AND NERVEFRAYING DOWN THE FUCKING GAPER. BECAUSE OF YOU.

CG: YOU ASSHOLE, THIS IS THE WORST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

CG: AND YOU'RE LAUGHING.

TG: chuckle up it only gets worse from here

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CG: BE HONEST WITH ME. DID FONDLING MY SHIRT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET EVEN DO ANYTHING?

TG: barely but yknow sometimes you just gotta deal the cards youre given

TG: ill just be astigmatic for a while its cool

CG: PFF… OKAY MAN.

#davekat #dave strider #karkat vantas #homestuck #comix #an open fly walking

[trancylovecraft]

Can I get l lawliet x reader headcanons?

(DEATHNOTE) YANDERE L LAWLIET x READER: General Headcannons

Thank you for ordering!

Come back soon!

⦁ Oh wow, This isn't looking good for you.

⦁ L as a yandere is Possessive, Obsessive and you guessed it.. Manipulative.

⦁ He's possessive in the way he just won't let you go, You are his. That is that. Don't try to fight him on this, He won't listen and simply just won't care.

⦁ Obsessive in the way he must know every little thing about you. Your schedule, The way you think, What is your favourite dessert or why you act the way you do. L must know it all, It's compulsive, An itch he just can't scratch out until he figures everything out.

⦁ Manipulative is pretty explanatory. This man uses his inhuman intelligence to his advantage. After he does figure out how you think and the fundamental basics it's extremely easy to make you do the things he wants you to.

⦁ I can see this starting a few ways. I don't think you or L would ever come into contact at first, I'm imagining it that maybe you were a figure in the Kira investigation. Maybe you were Lights sibling or maybe you were just a figure he saw one day going throughout their daily life.

⦁ Either way. There was just something about you that he couldn't stop thinking about. It could've been the way you looked or something you excelled in like intelligence or a particular skill, Whatever it was it captivates him and makes him want to know more.

⦁ L will instantly use his influence to get information on your life. He's gotten access to your camera's at work, He's gotten Watari to set up cameras everywhere in your apartment and made sure to keep a log of your every move.

⦁ Anyone around you he'll instantly take a disliking to, He doesn't really know why he just doesn't like people being around you at all.

⦁ He's multi-tasking both the Kira investigation and his not-so-guilty pleasure of observing you on the side. L likes looking into the monitor, Watching as you come home as he bites his nail in interest.

⦁ Of course that's all it starts as, Simple interest. It's nothing more than that at first and he's completely content with just observing you.

⦁ But of course, If that's all it became I'd be out of a hobby. As time goes on and the investigation progresses he starts to feel strange. L doesn't understand it, It bothers him and distracts him from the investigation and makes him watch you more and more.

⦁ Watari himself has to explain to L what he's feeling and at first L shoves it off as preposterous, He doesn't believe that can be the case at all. But as time goes on and on it starts to become more reasonable than he thought, All until it becomes the accepted yet surprising truth.

⦁ Afterwards just monitoring you isn't enough to quell his obsessive urges.

⦁ L gets Watari to steal stuff from your apartment, Thing's he will replace with the exact same product once taken. Stuff like clothing, Makeup, Jewellery or special trinkets that remind him of you.

⦁ He keeps these close to him while doing the investigation, It keeps him focused for a while. L even starts eating stuff that you enjoy, Mostly your favourite treats but if you don't like sweet stuff this point is moot.

⦁ If any of the task force ask him about what these objects are doing around him L will just shoo them off. He doesn't need to explain anything to them, Besides they'll probably just shrug it off as another one of his quirks.

⦁ Watari is really the only one okay with this. If this keeps L focused on the investigation and his detective work then he doesn't care, If not pity you a little bit.

⦁ Eventually even the objects surrounding you is too little for him. L needs you, He can't think straight when its not about you. He momentarily sets aside the investigation until he's got you in his clutches.

⦁ You've been living your normal life this entire time, You're completely unaware of everything that's been going on. So when you enter your work the next day you're suddenly met with your boss, Who tells you that you're fired.

⦁ You are shocked. You've been doing everything right, Getting your assignments in on time and have generally been a pleasure to work with. When you ask them however your boss tells you that you've been slacking off and therefore let go.

⦁ You're angry and confused as you leave the building, Even more confused when a non-descript white van pulls up out of nowhere and you're suddenly tossed inside by a squad team.

⦁ You're thrown to the back, Mouth duct-taped and your hands tied behind your back. While L would've manipulated you into his hold before he just couldn't wait to have you anymore.

⦁ Besides, Now that he got you fired from your job there's no one left to report your missing file. You have no family and your rent is being paid off by him, There's no one who will miss you.

⦁ After this, You two will enter the domestic stage.

⦁ You'll be confined to a single room with basic necessities. Bed, Bathroom and a few books for entertainment also with a single TV. You're confused and terrified once it turns on and a single "L" appears on screen.

⦁ He explains to you your situation and why you are here. Stating the fact that he's in love with you without any emotion or feeling whatsoever making you horrified and baffled to what's happening

⦁ Watari delivers your meals being mostly your favourite food. L knows it from all the times he's been watching you and it's one of the only comforts in this place

⦁ You'll not see L in person. Sometimes he comes back on the TV to give you announcements or orders but on rare occasions he'll try to start up mindless conversation, To which you ignore easily in favour of your stubbornness.

⦁ Every time you go to sleep, In the deep hours of the night you can swear you feel someone running their fingers through your hair. Sometimes you can barely make out whispers not coming from the TV anymore and sometimes you can even feel a body cuddle up next to you. But as soon as you try to awaken you instantly fall asleep with the single prick in your neck as a reason why.

⦁ The Kira taskforce will have no clue about you. Especially once Light is in the fold he makes sure to make it known to only himself and Watari for your protection and not to give Kira any blackmail.

⦁ L will provide whatever you request. More books, Blankets or different food though it all goes through a screening process to make sure it's safe or isn't anything you can use to escape.

⦁ Then again, If you do escape there is absolutely no way it's staying that way for long.

⦁ L will put your face on no flight lists. Watari will be 24/7 focused on finding you again, Police will be informed and told that you're a major suspect in the Kira investigation and will be patrolling for you.

⦁ Once you're forcibly pushed back into his arms that's when you finally get to see the bastard. Sitting there in such a weird position as he scolds you with a mechanical look on his face.

⦁ You know you'll never get away as he places you on his lap, Whispering little passive-aggressive remarks into your ear. You know you can't fight back either with your wrists restrained.

⦁ All you can do is sit there and hope to whatever god is up there is that it's all just a bad dream

#yandere #yandere x reader #tw yandere #moodboard #yandere x you #l x reader #l lawliet #death note #l death note #deathnote #death note incorrect quotes #death note l #death note x reader #death note x you #death note x y/n #death note x male reader #death note x female reader #death note fanfiction #l lawilet #l x you #l x y/n #l lawliet x reader #l lawliet x you #l lawliet x y/n #yandere male #yandere headcanons #yandere l lawliet #yandere lawliet

[madaqueue]

playlists

what a waste | "army dreamers" x kate bush

synopsis: on what would have his twentieth birthday, you visit geto's grave

pairing: suguru geto x reader

themes/content: semi-canon curse au. angst. language. death/loss.

word count: 1.3k

a/n: here's some angst bc i've been in a mood for the past few days and am allergic to being happy!

The grass is damp under your skin, the rain from this morning clinging to your clothes, the smell of wet earth lingering despite the absence of clouds in the sky. This is the closest it’s gotten to raining on this day in years, what would be a sign of late winter opening into spring, but today it just feels dreary and cold.

Sighing, you place the bouquet of lilacs - his favorites - onto the stone, careful to not cover the plaque adorning the granite. At this point you could recite it in its entirety without needing to see it, the words burned into your mind from the countless days you spent reading and rereading it, hoping that the shape of the characters would finally make it sink in.

Suguru Geto

Cherished and loved.

The epitaph still feels halfhearted, empty. Even though you and Satoru spent weeks trying to figure out what to write, everything you came up with felt hollow, unable to capture his essence. You wanted to do him justice, but you just couldn’t; he’s more than a plot of land and some words engraved in stone.

Of course, it’s a moot point: the grave is empty, anyways. After the fight against Toji, Shoko had to completely destroy his body, the risk of it being used maliciously too great. A shudder runs down your spine as you picture it, the cruelty of using your best friend’s corpse for something malevolent.

Would he notice? Would it bother him to know what had happened to his flesh? What makes a person, anyways; is it the body, or is it something else? You hope he doesn’t mind what had to happen to him after his heart quieted and his breathing stilled.

Are you at peace, Suguru?

You can’t help but wonder if, after everything, death brought him a respite from the pain he endured while alive. You knew the nature of his cursed technique, the necessary consumption of evil; in absorbing it, did it make him, too, evil? Was he plagued by the darkness he was destined to destroy?

You hope not. Despite the wickedness he witnessed, he nevertheless dreamed, hoping for a brighter future.

–

“What did you wanna be when you were a kid?” you ask through a mouthful of ramen.

Suguru sits across from you in the booth, forearms resting on the table as he eats his lunch. “What do you mean?” he questions, tilting his head ever so slightly.

“What did you want for a job? There’s no way you wanted to be a sorcerer,” you chuckle. “Like, I wanted to be one of those people who makes the cool brick patterns along sidewalks.”

He holds back a laugh at your answer. “I’m not sure, I don’t think I ever really thought about it.” He pauses, taking another bite of his food. “But I guess if I had to pick, probably a musician or something, maybe guitar, I always liked how they could make something sound beautiful with just their hands,” he muses softly.

“I could totally see you on a sick guitar,” you grin.

“Yeah, but I got my cursed technique too early. I never really got a chance to do anything but this,” he shrugs. “Maybe in another life.”

“Maybe,” you smile.

–

Now, the guitar you picked out for him, an acoustic one crafted in dark wood, sits in the back of your closet collecting dust. You were supposed to give it to him for his birthday. He was supposed to play it. He was supposed to be here, be alive, be celebrating with you.

Pain shoots up your palm as you look down, realizing your hands have been clenched into fists, your nails beginning to draw blood. Shaking out your arms you take in an uneven breath, a desperate attempt to steady yourself.

All the things he never got to do.

“I’m sorry, Suguru,” you whisper to yourself, placing a bloodied hand over the grass covering his grave.

He should be here. He never even got to turn twenty, never got to have kids or the family he wanted, hell, he was just a kid himself when he died. Just a fucking kid.

–

“That…that can’t be right,” you stammer. “There’s no way.”

“I’m sorry,” Satoru places a hand on your back, tears slowly rolling down his cheeks. “I - fuck - I couldn’t save him. I was too late.”

“No, no, no, no,” you begin to spiral, gaze rapidly shifting over the ground as you process his words.

Suguru was dead. Killed by a man named Toji Fushiguro, trying to protect the Star Plasma Vessel, the one who was supposed to assimilate with Master Tengen.

“I don’t…I don’t know what happened,” Satoru chokes out, “But…I saw his body. He’s gone.”

A scream echoes down the corridor - was it yours? Everything feels far away as Gojo wraps his arms around you, sobs racking your body as you cry into one another.

–

Shaking your head, you wipe the tears that have begun to fall as you remember the day you lost him. Despite the years that have passed, you remember it like it was yesterday, the way the setting sun covered you and Satoru as the night air came in, unable to move from that spot as you wept together.

The sickest fucking part was that it didn’t even matter.

When Riko Amanai, the Vessel, was found dead, they just got a replacement, another body to stand in for Master Tengen’s needs. They told Suguru to protect her with his life and he did, but ultimately the loss of hers was inconsequential to the upkeep of Jujutsu society; just as one flower died they plucked another.

But they couldn’t regrow Suguru’s soul.

–

Four men.

That’s how many it took to carry his body from the basement of Jujutsu High. You watched in silence as they passed you, unspeaking, unwavering, unbothered as they bore his weight.

It feels wrong, somehow, like he should be heavier. He always had this gravitational pull, this universe-sized soul that drew everything to him - shouldn’t they be able to feel that?

How heavy is a body? How heavy is the grief it carries?

–

“Hey,” a voice pulls you back to the present, the sun beginning to hang low in the sky as you ground yourself, idly tugging at the dirt beneath you. “I’m glad to see you,” Satoru greets warmly as he walks across the graveyard towards you.

Since the last time you saw him he’s aged, the creases around his eyes deeper than a twenty-year-old’s should be, an air of sadness clinging to him like wet clothes after being caught in the rain.

“You too,” you smile as he sits next to you in the damp grass.

Neither of you explicitly make plans to see each other here every year, yet you both tacitly know you wouldn’t miss this, the annual reconvening one you simultaneously cherish and dread. Suguru deserves to be celebrated, but it’s also a reminder of the time he didn’t get, the birthdays cut short when his life was stolen from him.

The two of you sit in silence for a while, content without speaking as a cool breeze picks up, dusk settling in.

“He should be here,” Satoru mutters, his knees tucked up to his chest.

“I know,” you murmur as you lay on your back, gaze unfocused on the darkening sky above you.

Another momentary pause falls between you.

“Did you love him?” he asks.

“Yeah,” you answer truthfully. “Did you?”

“Yeah.”

You let out a shaky breath. “Satoru?”

“Mhm?”

“Do you think that was enough, that we loved him?”

He tilts his head to look down at the grave that separates you, the lilacs you brought now lightly covered in a layer of dew. Sighing, he brushes away the tears that had been forming along his lash line. “I hope so.”

“I hope so, too.”

He reaches an arm out to you, holding your hand in his as you both place your empty palms onto the dirt.

“Happy birthday, Suguru,” you whisper.

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