#so i feel is legit to do it here lol)

[fuumiku]

Happy new year!!

Some doodles I did today to unwind + test a lineart brush

#Dungeon meshi #mithrun #chikchuck tims #Laios please I swear you’re my fave I’ll draw you next Laios I promise Laios no don’t leave- #The mithrun one is so low resolution… Well it was supposed to be a quick doodle after all #Maybe i should post these sort of sketches I do more often #Coloring Chilchuck felt like therapy legit. Thank you dad #The mithrun one is a little fucked up but idk. It’s so aesthetic to me. Enjoy the many vers lol #Idk how long i’ll keep the new icon though #Hey my art style are you Chilchuck’s wife? Because I can’t help but feel like you left me for no reason #Jkjk my art style crisis usually stops whenever I just draw for the sake of it with no goal in mind lmao. Which is why I should do it more #Often!! I am so stubborn & stupid. Doing that shall be my New Year resolution ig #Y’all still here? Uhhh uh happy holidays good day!!

[fortyfive-forty]

grabbing fistfuls of my own hair rocking back and forth repeating to myself like some kind of fucked up wizardly enchantment you should care about womens sports because its literally the same fucking sport why do i have to bend over backwards to convince you to care about womens sports like at an abstract level it is the exact same fucking thing and yet you cannot bear to possibly watch it unless you think the women are hot or there is some sort of social gain why is it so hard for you to care about womens sports when they are literally doing all of it better than the men

#i stand by my belief that womens sports are more entertaining anyways but i know that is somewhat personal preferences so ok! fine! #but they are the same then! #obviously yes there are legit differences in ~style~ and such based on the way different sports have evolved #ex: female basketballers are statistically better shooters than male basketballers #but like the sport itself is practically identical so why is it so fucking impossible for some people #to get interested in a sport they claim they love #just because women are doing it #i'm not sitting here like 'mmm how do i convince people to watch women's sport' like a legit plot #i'm just baffled i really don't understand #i mean i do understand of course but i'm just tired of it being this way lol #i want to talk to more people who have the level of brainrot i have about women's sports and it feels like everyone i know well #is just not that interested in the women even though they're interested in the men #of course there are people online but i get self-conscious and i don't know anyone well enough to truly go to the depths of my own brainrot #this is just a combination of genuine frustration but also my own loneliness lol #< wayyy more dramatic than it actually is for the record i'm not like lonely lonely #i just want someone who actually understands why i go nuts over this and who i feel comfortable spamming about it 😭 #blah blah blah words

[blessphemy]

once in a while when i'm in the murderbot fandom tag i see a shark fin of ship discourse and i'm like wrow... i guess there's shipping out there. so anyways.

#murderbot #shipping container #<- that's my shipping tag lol. for filtration purposes. cuz i often find shipping & ship discourse tiresome #and i know others do too so feel free to blacklist that tag dear followers #would anyone around here like a nice block button in this trying time #just saying #tbh this goes for any content and/or asshole strangers if it's not yr thing just blacklist/block move on #once you embrace the block button you too can swim unperturbed through the waters of tumblr dot com #i'm just looking at Cool Fanart and Fun Poasts here #legit idk what kind of trash fire the main fandom tag might be looking like as far as discourse goes #cuz to me it's pretty chill #the only hints i get are the occasional shark fin referencing some drama that i can't see. love that for me.

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Brazilian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(aka me crying over an almost 18 year old race)

#I DIDNT REALIZE WHEN STARTING THAT THIS WAS THE RACE WHERE NANDO WON HIS WDC AAAAAA #pls me not legit tearing up over a race from almost 18 yrs ago #i feel validated bcs they just mentioned that the renault crew are crying AAAAAAAA #ive actually never watched a vid of his celebration(cause 'spoilers' lol) so hearing him yell the YES CMONN CMONNNNN made me ;;;; #hearing them talk abt all the 'youngest' records hes won at this points makes me teary #also also also 'first ever spanish wdc' AND HE STILL IS THE *ONLY* RAHHHH #ig its mostly bcs its rly cool to be able to watch these old seasons and celebrate them #but then also be able to tune into the current season and still be able to cheer for him and see him achieve even more #sobbing crying at him here saying that this wdc is the max he can achieve and then having just witnessed him reach his 100th podium last wk #(also fernando winning his first wdc and then missing out on his 3rd almost a decade later at the same gp sobbing crying) #2005 brazilian gp #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #formula one #(2005: 17/19 races watched) #fa14 #renault #giancarlo fisichella

[gorgeousgreymatter-x]

since steddie twitter disk horse is poisoning the well again, let me remind you 

- if you spend your time harassing or CaLliNG ouT people in the fandom over fanfiction and shit, you’re the dumbest person alive. Like, I want you to imagine the dumbest person you have ever met and imagine they suddenly somehow got even dumber. That’s you!

- i have yet to see in my 20 years of fandom an actual post accusing someone of FeTiSHizING MLM that wasn’t just i don’t think women should be able to write about men because they’re icky with extra steps. You have a better chance of convincing me you’re josh hartnett in an easter bunny costume behind that screen than convincing me you actually know what the word fetishize means

- if you send me hate messages, anon or not, i’m gonna delete and block you because i don’t speak whiny little pissbaby, but just know i’m also going to screenshot it and have a nice chuckle making fun of you behind your back to all my friends

#steddie #these are the laws of my blog so if you disagree why the fuck are you here lol #also if you do this #i legit feel sorry for you because your life must be so fuckin sad #like legit sad

[streets-in-paradise]

I found this one on Pinterest and it made my day <3

#alex vincent #fiona dourif #andy barclay #nica pierce #its so cute!!! #their smiles are cute #andy x nica #barclaypierce #( im adding ship tags to this one #only because the page were i found it #had it tagged like this #so i feel is legit to do it here lol)

[daily-orange-character]

Sonetto and Ulu from Reverse 1999

Athena Cykes: her Maid costume is orange. I will fight to the death for this. SHE IS ORANGE!!!!!

Also Nami from one piece, all her outfits may not have orange in them but she is literally known for tangerines.

Sonetto, Ulu, and Nami have been queued, but you're gonna have to fight me on Athena, 'cause I've legit been waiting for someone to request her from day one

She's yellow because Phoenix and Apollo are blue, so all together they're the primary colors, and her Trés Bien costume won't be enough to convince me, since Maya and Mia wear it, and you can't tell me they're orange too?

I'll queue Athena, but I won't cave that easily. I'm gonna need to see some real solid evidence to convince me /lh

Everyone else was queued tho :D 🍊

#all of this is /nsrs btw #its just #as an ace attorney obsesser #i need to stand my ground #if youre really that passionate abt it tho then be my guest! convince me! #im always willing to change my mind! #not orange #orange ask answer #legit tho im actually not trying to be mean here so if youre upset by this PLEASE tell me the last thing i wanna do is hurt someones #feelings over some stupid shit like this #srry for the long tags lol im just obsessedly terrified of hurting peoples feelings w/o realizing

[coldercreation]

TMI emo rant - I'm just moping lmao ( don't read if others being emo makes you mopey too, I don't wanna mope-fy this space :'< take care xx )

When the lady in the workout video says ‘the fact that you showed up for this exercise today is already something that deserves a pat on the back’ after you have felt like a hot garbage of a human being the whole day, week, month, just…

damn lady. coming for my praise and attention starved butt like that 😒

#legit made me feel some sort of way lol I wasn't prepared #not even sure why it stood out like that #like it felt like praise obvs but also made me a bit more sad and disappointed with life lmao #just doin my silly little workout bc I have nothing else to do or going on #don't get me wrong #working out is amazing #it is an achievement to do some sort of movement and it can feel so challenging at times to get it done #but when I don't have anything else going on it just felt like... #well yeah... sad and disappointed in life ig #like oh yeah #THIS is the biggest thing I've achieved recently #sometimes that is a huge achievement for real #but for me atm this all just feels so insignificant :( #and by 'this' I probably just mean me #so basically I'm just being all emo today for some reason #and I shall keep doing my next workout after ranting here unsolicited #and hopefully tomorrow will feel better #xx

[ilkkawhat]

12.20 Altered Stakes

#csiedit #csi cbs #george eads #nick stokes #george eads thirst club #csi 12x20 #first gif on a new computer!! #my old laptop (a hand-me down mind you) literally burst open yesterday #which was a long time coming anyway my dad gave me his old laptop #which had a crappy speaker lol #and in getting this new laptop and i feel like this happens anytime i get a new computer--i realize how terrible my previous gifs looked #so...here's hoping these will look better #(i only have this one for now...haven't been much in a giffing mood lately and i legit almost forgot how to do it #since i think before that grapevine gif i haven't made any since november? #it's just been...hard #but i am thinking of writing agony and this is the episode i'm on #mk.op #mk.edit #mk.gifs

[liquidstar]

maaannnn The Fatigue has been so bad lately i just want this day to be over so i can sleep. theres literally not anything else i could do... but i have to wait...

#i hate it so much im too tired all the time. i do not know what it feels like to not be tired. i dont remember the last time i wasnt tired. #i dont think i was ever not tired genuinely. even as a little kid i remember being tired to my core #the kind of tiredness you feel tingling in your bones dragging on you everywhere you go and in everything you do. its always with me #i wanna clarify that this is a symptom of the type of thalasemia i have and not exactly chronic fatigue syndrome though. but comparable. #i just wanna say that so ppl dont get the wrong idea. but yeah. #i havent really gotten a proper break in weeks and like. i NEED those breaks i feel like my body genuinely cant keep going like this #so i just need to be officially off the clock so i can go sleep and hopefully i can get some legit rest in the coming days #idk fingers crossed bc i fear ill collapse otherwise LOL! (not funny) #and all things considered i have a pretty cushy gig rn! esp considering i dont pay rent and stuff since im like a live-in sitter #but i dont think i was built to be able to hold down any type of proper job. and this wont last forever. i dont know what ill do from here #im too eepy

[thatlittledandere]

I think I'm gonna die in my sleep in this hotel room Like Actually. It's small and stuffy and it's hot outside and it doesn't even have a WINDOW. There's a small vent and a whatchamacallit fan but even if I keep it on the whole night I'm like. I already feel lightheaded in here and I may be tired but it's not just that the air is Really Bad. Like actually. It's really bad in here I'm gonna be sick

#venlapost #i don't usually even know 'bad air' is someone will be complaining and I'm just like huh?? what?? i don't notice anything #all my five senses suck #and i am very unperceptive as well #but christ I'm dizzy #like. more than usual. it feels like shit here y'all #legit a little bit afraid of how the night's gonna go;; #and what can i do to fix it!! #the fan is on what more can i do! there's no window to open and i can't open the door either!! #genuinely kind of scared lol #i know I'm not actually going to DIE die. but it's gonna be bad. so bad. I'm chronically dehydrated and shit #I'm gonna go full my water bottle AGAIN and like pray or something

[castielmacleod]

Crowley when Cas is having another internalised homophobia moment about their relationship: hey, don’t cry, you and me ascending to godhood, ok?

#Crowstiel #I love posting about needing to finish one wip and then immediately posting a snippet from a completely different one 😭😭 #This one is set pre season six of course #My writing #My posts #Basically the context is that Cas and Crowley are having a wee snog and Cas stops and is like #“If Dean knew I was doing this he would be so disgusted and I could never look him in the eye again” #And Crowley is basically telling them that not only is Dean completely out of their life at the moment #but also that Dean’s culturally ingrained homophobic toxic masculinity shite does not matter in the slightest #And they’re part of something so much bigger and more important than one arsehole Kansas man #And when Crowley says the above screencapped line then for Cas it’s like that one post where #the person’s therapist asked them if they were “like legit sad” and it snapped them right out of crying #Because Cas is so worried about what Dean would think and then bam! Crowley drops the hottest thing anyone has ever said to them #And suddenly priorities have shifted lol #To be clear I am VERY anti h*rny Cas I don’t think they are that interested in sex at all I just mean that Crowley’s statement here #hits them in a particular way that makes them want to literally crawl into his chest because maybe that would feel close enough #I cannot emphasise enough that Crowley is literally all Cas has at this point. So.

[chekhovs-harpoon]

kakos industries was recommended to me years ago, i never got into it cuz the idea of a comedy abt an evil company man didn't sound like my cuppa

but my tastes have changed so much now (lmao sayer really did awaken something in me)

now i gotta say im,,, intrigued, from what i can remember i've heard, the main dude sounds like My Type (evil and horny and queer??). so now it's Properly On My list. i haven't looked yet, but i assume there's prolly gonna be an insane backlog, assuming this show has been ongoing for like a decade now

#ive never listend to it but i do feel nostalgia for it cuz i used to see it so much on my dash when i was first on here #also legit medj curious aq like anyare sa palabas at fandom niya like di ko na nakikita pinaguusapan ng mga tao tong pod #like natapos na ba siya kaya di na pinaguusapan ganern #podcast blogging #also lol skl crushie ko atm ung nag rec sa akin kasi aalis siya so matagal kami di magkikita #kaya ginawan niya ko ng malaking listahan ng pod recs and he was like #pakinggan mo tong mga to pag namimiss mo na ko huhu #bakla ka mars charing sksks #kakos industries #edit: naaalala ko may pod recs blog si crushie so sinearch ko real quick para makita ulit ung sinabi niya tungkol sa palabas na ito #pero deactivated na un huhu #at nawala ko na ung document na sinend ni crushie

[hawkinslibrary]

so i’ve been having a rough time for a while now but this year in particular -- these last few months even -- has felt especially harsh. i actively try to keep this place as positive as possible, but i do know that things slip through every now and again. tonight’s another hard night where i just don’t feel that great about myself or anything, really

but instead of letting myself get too too deep into that negative place, i just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being here and providing me with good company and distractions from my spiraling. i’m not great at communicating and i don’t talk to too many people, but each time i do, each set i’m tagged in, each tag on a set i’ve made, things like that really do make me feel a little less alone ❤️ 

#i barely feel like a person sometimes and i'm so anxious about everything that i let it control my life #but i do have fun here most of the time and a lot of that is just existing here on this blog #and knowing that there are people who love this show as much as i do and actually like the stuff i post #like... i feel like this blog is the only really good thing i've got going for me #and you might think that's sad or embarrassing or whatever #but seeing all the edits and playing around in photoshop and organizing my blog really does make me happy #anyway... this post happened bc i was doing a job search and having a breakdown again lol #if anyone knows any legit remote jobs that will take someone who isn't good at anything... #lex talks

[orcelito]

hm. health insurance applications make me actively want to hurt something.

#speculation nation #negative/ #putting this as politely as i can lol #legit cried a little bit when i saw that the lowest cost per month of the available plans was $245 a month. the Lowest cost. #very much cannot afford that on top of Everything Else <3 #so im. looking into other options. there is no Fucking way i can pay that #either i get help from family or i go uninsured for a year if i have a cost of $245 a month (at the MINIMUM) #i was thinking of trying to file my taxes after applying for heath insurance. but that's not happening probably <3 #realistically im going to need to just do dishes get some food and then play stardew valley for the rest of the night #bc im feeling violent. #im trying to mitigate it. #but first. i have to figure out smth for health insurance <3 bc if i dont <3 then im gonna be uninsured after i turn 26 in may <3 #fucking hate living here. i FUCKING hate living here y'all.

[spacelesscowboy]

i love. i love feeling completely disconnected from my friends.

#emyrs.txt #vent tw #I KNOW. IM NOT A BURDEN TO THEM BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. HM. UNLESS 👀👀 #IDKKKK I JUST HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE IM THE ONE REACHING OUT. ALWAYS. IM ALWAYS THE ONE REACHING OUT. ITS MAKING ME INSANE. #i always feel like i’m the one who is desperate to keep a relationship going. like. i’m the only one who cares about it in the first place #and sometimes when i hang out w my friends / talk to them / etc. i don’t feel like that anymore bc i feel like they care about us being #friends but in the in-between of us talking/hanging out i feel like i am untethered and just. floating around. waiting for them 2 want to #talk to me. (hint: they almost never do.) #and it’s like. do i even exist to u outside of the times when we hang out. #bc i’m constantly every day thinking about my friends. like legit i am doing anything and i go. hm. what if i made my friend soemthing. #like. i debated making traditional korean clothes using traditional korean methods for my friend bc i’m literally insane and i want them to #know i cherish him and love him so much and think about them all the time and as a thank u for putting up w me etc etc. like. #that’s literally insane who does that. lol. NANDMFMF #idk. #i kinda lost my point here but to reiterate what i was saying before. #i always feel like i’m the one reaching out. and i understand that they’re sometimes busy or they forget to answer or something comes up i #get that !! #i just hate that months would go by w/o us talking if i didn’t send something every few days #and also i hate that they only respond w a keysmash or a few words like bestie !! #i am TRYING to start a conversation w u i am not just sending this for shits and giggles !! #me sending dumb shit is me trying 2 start a conversation w u !!!!!!!!! u r driving me insane !!!!!!!!!!! /lh #i wish. i was not mentally ill. NSNDNFNFM #also. i wish i could be normal about the relationships i have with other people and not need constant reassurance from everyone all the time #i’ve tried to tone it down a bit + as well as the self hatred bc it gets old and boring and annoying QUICKLY and i dont wanna push my #friends away even further but sometimes it’s all i can feel and it truly does feel like. #i’m just alone. floating along in space. untethered. #like. my life is inconsequential and no one would even really care if i just. disappeared. #or something. idk. #it’s 5 am and i haven’t gone to sleep yet it might be the sleep deprivation talking lmfao.