#so i can drink it faster

[here-there-be-drag0ns]

me, giving my dog a bowl of ice with treats frozen inside it that will occupy him for a While: haha silly dog with your silly enrichment toy. surely we have nothing in common!

me, not even ten minutes later: oh boy genloss!!

#dragons chatting #if you dont get it both the bowl of frozen treats and genloss are Enrichment in the Enclosure of approximately the same kind #if my dog just lets the ice melt on its own he will eventually get the treats gradually and also extra water to drink #but if he gnaws on and licks at the ice he gets the water and treats much faster #he can do either one with the same reward but its more enriching for him to work for the treats #with generation loss its a gradual reveal horror project im invested in #if i am patient and wait eventually the mystery will be released in full and other people will unravel it and lay it out so its easy to see #but its faster and more enriching for me to pick apart and analyze each installment as we get it and put my theories together myself #its rewarding to use my brain on something i enjoy to work and rework theories until i solve the puzzle #my dog and i both enjoy the same type of enrichment just in Very Different Forms lmao #genloss #generation loss

[uncanny-tranny]

Actually it's pretty fucked up that other people's only concerns about skin conditions like acne is "be glad you don't ACTUALLY look like that" or "it's so hard to look at [you]"

This applies doubly so for people who have disabilities, such as mobility aids or prosthetics. Beauty culture is a fucking poison.

#beauty culture #body shaming #like why does it ALWAYS come down to 'uwu but youre so PRETTY without [x]'. stfu!!!!! #i don't fucking CARE if you think i'm hot and i'm tired of the expectation people have where they think it's their obligation to tell me... #...and to tell others #anyway beauty culture is a poison and the longer you drink from it the faster it will rot you #because you will find that it will find ANY way to make you feel like your only worth is to serve beauty to everybody else #and that you don't have the ability to be beautiful because you have something Wrong With You (having a body that does things) #and if you don't have that beauty then what is your intrinsic worth? that is the poison. #anyway if you are struggling with beauty culture i feel you #your worth doesn't depend on if others think you're hot. they can die mad about that or whatever #you are worthy because you are here and you're occupying the same planet as us 💛

[child-ofdust]

i wish i could just sleep forverr or maybe just be able to rot in bed every day every hour but i cant and it makes me so sad

#vent #vent in tags #<- yah #im just so #im so miserable #all i do is think about suicide and sleep #its all i really wanna do anyways #i get out of bed. i brush my teeth. i drink water. i eat if i feel i deserve it (i dont). i pace i walk. i feed my dog i let her out. #and what else #nothing interests me anymore but then again thats like. thats been the norm for awhile i guess #i make myself do the things i love because i hope it'll make me happy but it just #it doesnt #it distracts me #just for a little while #but once i stop i immediately go back to nothing. #when i was younger i never understood when therapists asked if i felt 'empty' i thought it was silly but now #that's the only way i can describe it #if im not miserable and suicidal i'm just nothing #the only thing i can really feel anymore besides misery is guilt that fades faster than it comes and anger #if im lucky i'll get a taste of adrenaline but #kicks rock #is it too much to ask to just feel something other than #yeah #just for a moment #thats all i want #im so sad #i dont want to get better anymore but i do but wouldn't it be so much easier to rot? #i'll die before 20 either way so what does it matter

[gay-artificer]

Basically everything we see in RW is a direct descendant of heavily modified organisms, with a bit of a split between fully organic genetic modifiers to the introduction of foreign parts. This is undeniable. However I'm begging people to understand that nature routinely produces weird shit on its own and that's so much cooler than just 'anything slightly weird must be the result of modification and meddling in the process'

Please have some whimsy!!! bioluminescence!! Tool use!! Communication via static electricity! Electrical shocks as an attack method!! Beetles that spray caustic acid that can burn skin! Lizards that fire slime out of their tails!! These are all real things that are on this earth just because nature gets weird with it!

#personally i subscribe to the idea that the ancients history of genetic tomfoolery made the genetics of the wildlife very volatile #most of the modern organisms we see are basically 100% natural evolution processes at this point but those evolution processes are INSANE #and messy because the chance of genetic mutation is higher than normal and theres also a lot of dormant shit just thrown in there from the #past that sometimes turns back on and introduces something very random #so you get things like white lizards splitting off from their ancestral lizard line and developing great camouflage way way faster than #it took the like. chameleons to do that. #but at this point basically everything has been through the evolution wringer and developed entirely different to any ancestors along with #throwing out several purposed traits in favor of random junk that was bouncing around in their genomes #trying to figure out what anything was purposed for is a lost cause because they have like literally none of that left anymore. #its all been repurposed or thrown out over time #obligatory statement that im not the arbitrator of lore so you can do whatever you want :thumbs up: some people like the other direction #more. i just think its lame to chalk every single interesting thing up to intentional developments when cmon theres ants that are living #refrigerators that the other ants drink goo out of. that just happened.

[nerosdayinanime]

fun little experience from my tags in idiots play gta

put way too much effort into copying the background to not show it try n guess which office its at<3

#sabito #kny sabito #makomo #foxsquad posting #fratboy sabito posting #neros art tag #this shit killed me. im still laughing at it #gta was so fun. i should play w my friend again #wonder if i can make a new account on the ps4 so i can get another first time playing bonus so i can buy an office instead of a fucking #bike club. dont start off buying a bike club its nigh fucking impossible to make money off it. #bunker nightclub or office get one of those. the missions you can do there get u money way faster #bike club you gotta buy the money making places- do missions to get them supplies- WAIT FOR THEM TO TURN IT INTO MONEY- and THEN you #have to successfully pull off sell missions and they dont even break 100k at max. #not fucking worth it. dont make my mistake #p sure you have to pay for the alcohol in the bike club too. fucking fun sponge. it has a bong tho #office has a bong plus every alcohol there is so its not even a competition. and the Green Drink #anyways from the 'list things that make u happy' asks this is why i love drawing #funny thing happen i can make it into blorbos<3

[bumblingbabooshka]

Voyager insisting that Tuvok and Janeway never go into each others quarters - meanwhile I (the arbiter of truth) know for a fact that they are always in each others rooms, occasionally wrapped up in the same blanket, sometimes falling asleep in the same bed etc.

#Voyager writers are liars and cowards #they are best friends and by god...if I have /anything/ to say about it they're gonna be so comfortable and intimate with one another... #and I have a /LOT/ to say so v_v they are #Tuvok&Janeway are like...all other Vulcan-Human friendship goals to me and that's how I think of them interacting in my mind's eye #No one else can even touch Tuvok's shoulder without him looking like alarm bells are ringing but then you see #Janeway resting her chin on the top of his head and complaining about something which Tuvok replies to - getting a laugh out of her #Tuvok is Janeway's oldest friend and the only person she has an uncomplicated relationship with aboard Voyager and I want them to act likeit #She vastly outranks everyone else and Chakotay is Maquis + in love with her so that's complicated...Tuvok should be the guy she #can really just let loose and be herself with (especially earlier in their journey) #I love two people who seem to be (and are) very serious but when they get together they get a lil goofy with it #Everyone on Voyager thinks Janeway & Tuvok sit around drinking tea and being serious when they're alone together #but really they're hardcore goofing off (AFTER work is done of course) bc they really deserve it...life is hard in the delta quadrant #they deserve a little 'drink a milkshake as fast as you can in an unspoken competition to see who gets brain freeze faster' #st voyager #Tuvok #Janeway #Janeway only going to Tuvok for advice? BOO. Go to him so you can annoy your best friend with random bullshit

[whentherewerebicycles]

also I KNOW that all my college and high school friends are not actually announcing pregnancies or births at a higher rate than usual I’m just more hypersensitive/attuned to this kind of news than usual but also sometimes I feel an uncontrollable rage in my heart towards these people who are 1) getting pregnant for free and 2) getting pregnant, period. I recognize this as an irrational and unfair emotional reaction! it’s not like these people can help being straight and/or having uncomplicated pregnancies! but also I can burn with suppressed rage and grief about it!!!

#a college friend just announced the birth of her first baby and I am literally in tears of rage and grief about it #even as I am also happy for her! great for them! #like the heart can hold both I guess and this heart sure is busy holding both #I’d be closing in on the end of the first trimester #and instead I am just: nothing #I think the hardest is going to be if my SIL gets pregnant. like I already felt murderous rage when she wasn’t drinking at a dinner #it’s like TOO close you know. I feel crazy with anger about it and I know it’s not fair or kind #and for some reason the money stuff just muddies the waters further #like it feels like I’m just pouring thousands of dollars down the drain every month and all I have to show for it #is one fewer fallopian tube than I started with #and maybe it’ll take them a while to get pregnant but they’ll be doing it for free with two incomes #i just have a childish stomping-my-foot reaction to it sometimes #like the universe owes me anything #I think I am going to start the foster parent online training modules this weekend sigh #I’d like to have everything ready to go or in progress so that if I try for 3-4 more months with no success #I can at least begin the slow painful pivot faster #blah blah pregnancy loss grief #IUI tag

[hobbitunderthemountain]

2023 is gonna be the year i start allowing myself to buy 'disability aids'

things that may not seem practical but will greatly improve the ease of which i'm able to tackle everyday tasks

things that i may not have looked into because 'those are for people more sensitive/disabled than I am'

things that make my routines easier to follow or easier to build habits that seemed like monumental tasks

this is the year im gonna actually be gentle with myself

#ok to rb if anyone wants to lol #things i've started doing for example: #buying wide mouth stay cold tumblers without straws = its easier to clean #than say a waterbottle with a straw and a tiny neck AND it means i'll drink more water if i have something on hand easy to wash #or buying more disposable things so i have less dishes #one thing that always piles up faster than anything else are my cats dishes #and i finally realized the other night I can buy disposable ones #i have a pack of biodegradable lil bowls being delivered to my house tomorrow #uhhhh what was the other thing #OH i invested in some ear plugs I heard about for people who are easily overstimulated #that allows you to still hear what's going on around you but filter out a lot of the background noise #like bro i went to a busy bookstore this weekend and walked around w them in and it was like a whole new experience #i feel like there's more i've been kinder and more forgiving of myself buying to help me manage the mess my brain has been

[coldcrypt]

was talking to a friend this time last year about disordered eating and weight loss goals & going shopping together for some new clothes. Saw her a cpl times the past month and she looks amazing. Flat stomach, thin face, ribs and hips. Everything fits her perfectly. She followed through with what I wanted for myself while I drank to oblivion for pretty much 12 months and just gained 20 pounds.

Have got to get at least as thin as her

#kind of jealous kind of pissed off kind of love the motivation #just gotta not drink for 3-6 months. If I could manage 6 months - year even without restricting I'd be able to get back to my set point #which is slim #the weight will be grossly distributed tho. Will take a year or so to lose the liver swelling.Most of my fat is viscseral rather than #adipose :/ I think lipolysis on adipose happens faster than liver cells #so when I lose weight I will be skinny fat for a while #unless I lose loads #but even then I will justlook bloated for a year or so #maybe if I recomp /gain muscle I can cover it up? #but won't be able to g et a low bmi if building abs to cover gut swelling

[freckleslikestars]

how am i learning only now that what you call apple cider in America is not, in fact, alcoholic, but is simply cloudy apple juice?

#im back on a cider kick #it happens every summer #but also because I find it easier to drink slower than beer it's what I've started drinking a lot at the jam nights #I think it's because its a more pleasant taste #I drink beer quickly so I don't have to linger on the taste and so it's a social drink that I use to get drunk more than anything #whereas cider I can sip at and still stay sober (until the rounds of shots are bought and who am I to resist #especially when I'm not the one footing the tab) #and only need three or four throughout the night to keep me occupied #whereas beer i drink faster and therefore need more of them and so get more drunk

[hopefulyellowlamp]

why the fuck did you drink three monsters

well you see, so it all started about a week ago, when my friend got some unfortunate news and i decided to hold a movie night for just the two of us (we will make it if we tryyy jsut the tw)

anyways so fast forward to yesterday we agreed on me, getting the snacks and she'd get the drinks, easy peasy lemon squeasy. so i got some chocolate buttons and some pringles (not sponsored) and some lemon cake and oreos(also not sponsored)

but then you see, she showed up with four monsters (two for each of us) which was all chill all cool im great at energy drinks (i get the best grade(which is both possible to achieve and normal to want) so i think nothing of it)

and basically she felt sick after drinking two and i suggest ill just keep the last one, but the thing is she had already opened it, and i was already in the midst of my second one so now its 10pm and i have one and a half energy drink in my stomach and to-be-in-my-stomach.

so i drink it slowly while playing minecraft and gridning diamonds (i got 2 stacks from the mines LETS GOOOO)

but yeah i drank 3 monsters and my mind is going 23059325 miles per hour (i dont even use miles idk what it means something something 5 tomatoes?)

#lamp answers #gr3y-heron<3 #if this makes sense lmk because i do not have a single thought behind my eyes #i am literally typing faster than i can think and think faster than i can type #i literally never drink energy so this is fun #im having fun #except brain too tired to commit to doing stuff #but body is WIRED #anyways girl what are YOU doing at the devils sacrament #aka why are you up at this ungodly hour

[thesquidkid]

Roswell, New Mexico as a brickfilm, part 4/?

In honour of me joining the discord server about 1 year ago, 1x05 Kyle and Alex discover the room beneath the cabin

#please ignore the walls having nonhomogeneous colours #i ran out of brown bricks a lot faster than i planned #also put the volume up and you will hear alex drink at the exact same time as in the show #took me ages to do but it works! #also legos can't really kneel so i kinda improvised with kyle #and i totally cut the scene where the open the door because it was too hard to do alone #might add it in if i can find someone to help me #kyle valenti #alex manes #rnm #roswell new mexico #rnm 1x05 #lego #rnm as brickfilm #thesquidkid #thesquidkid brickfilms

[fragrantpines]

i think my favorites in tale of food are stacking up because i decide to check out the food souls available in wikia and oH MY GOD i dont know who to choose anymore 🥹

the food souls that caught my interest so far are:

toSO WINE AJAJAJAJA he's like a tsundere based on his voice lines [sighs lovingly] i want him to be my pookie bear 🥹💗 BUT why his legs translucent tho? hmmmm

yunlin xiangyao [correct me if i'm wrong!] the snow motif food soul. i like his design and tbh i love all of the character designs lol and he's like a disney princess huh and i read some of his voice lines and stories in wikia and omg he's so sweet 🥹❤️ want him to be my pookie bear #2

zhen mingzhu – another food soul related to the sea [side eyeing yusheng] and he seems to carry a burden though he keeps mentioning about sins and prophecy. i'm eager to know more about him >~< my pookie bear #3

i'm really desperately clinging to yangzhou, dezhou and yusheng right now cuz I CANT AFFORD HAVING NEW FAVES im broke as hell right now 🤣

- zella

(Shakes in chair) You have no idea how much joy it brings me to see that you're interested in Toso wine. Shifu is the best I will die on this hill no matter what happens 😤✊️ I'll leave a spoiler in the tags about why his legs are like that but for those who wish not to be spoiled too much, just know that it's,,,, sad,,,,, very sad,,,,,,,,

Yulin!!! He really is just like a disney princess and like every princess, he's well loved by everyone (side eyes the fact that he's one of the must pull characters). His kindness is soooooo warm, I can't wait to see he and Toso appear during half anniversary 🥺🥺💕💕💕

Ngl, Mingzhu is one of the food souls I know least about because he doesn't really appeal to me. However, after you mentioned his story involving sins and propechy, I am now HIGHLY interested and will go check him out after.

(Pats you) No one can escape this fate, Zella anon. The more you try to push away food men, the more they'll come and hit you from the side with their attractiveness. Simply accept all of them and pray that they'll come eventually wwww

#▪︎ asks #▪︎ zella anon #heads up for anyone who likes both toso and yulin #you will be in danger during half anniversary #there isn't enough time just start saving up and pray #i'm closing my eyes on both taibai and stuffed carp hoping that i can get both toso and yulin #(holds hands) ah yu I love you but if your story doesn't sway me then all these soul cores are going to shifu #because shifu deserves everything and i adore him so so much #okay i think that's enough buffer #spoiler for why toso is in a wheelchair #you know how food souls require for their origin food to be eaten and remembered in the mortal world in order for them to exist? #well the original toso wine drink is rarely made and remembered anymore which is why he's slowly fading away #also he uses his powers to heal the weak and bring back the dead which makes him fade away even faster #(swallow bun would like to know your location)

[windmill-ghost]

I feel so wretched that I got so hyped for doing a TDH project act talked about a bunch and spent so long planning it and then ran out of steam before I even started. I want people to be interested in my ideas so much, but if anyone actually is I just do nothing but let that person down.

#god. god. fuck #fr just scoop my brain out and flush it down the toilet now #so at least everything I have will go down the drain sooner rather than later #it’s just. fuck. i can barely make an image in a day and can’t #i can’t #my thoughts move so much faster than my hands #it’s always slipping through my fingers and #wg speaks #you know #the pail has leaks #and even if you put all your water into it #you’re left with nothing left to drink #the well has gone dry and i with it. and all that

[rosaacicularis]

i just thought of probably the most homoerotic fanfic scene like ever and i think i might just fit it into the hockey au….

#it has ‘at a party’ vibes so i feel like it work for the hockey au because people celebrate after hockey games right?? #idk i was the gay kid who sat in their biology class at lunch and talked about minecraft youtube #not the sports kid #HOWEVER i did go to a school that had a sports program so i should probably know this but it was seventh grade and i hated myself #so #BUT the scene is very homoerotic #like so gay and so homosexual #also if anyone is reading this far into the tags #‘at a party’ vibes literally means they are at a party #there is alcohol involved #but i don’t want to spoil it #so you guys get the full gay experience when you read it in its completion #but i’m brainrotting it #and it’s slay #and if you’re still reading this far into the tags congratulations. there are drinking games #and by drinking games i mean they see who can finish a set amount of shots faster #and by they i mean most likely scar goodtimes and joel smallishbeans #because i feel like that’d be who would do it #and then there’s a homoerotic event after that #and if anyone is still reading through the tags scar wins the race #AND THATS ALL ILL SAY!!! no more spoilers #unless….. 👀 #grian and scar kiss #oh my god i’m so bad at not spoiling

[lunarlegend]

.... 🙃

#i've become accustomed to drinking my cold brew so strong that it's become my only preference #if i water it down it's TOO watery #which would be fine if not for the fact that i'm drinking it faster than it takes to brew it #i'm going through a whole pitcher of cold brew in like a day and a half #it's the only way i can be satisfied #i don't think i have blood anymore i think it's just coffee