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eldritchsurveys · 2 months

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Have you ever bought a YouTuber’s merch? >> I haven't and I wouldn't.

Do you think oatmeal tastes better when made with water or milk? >> Milk. I like almond milk in mine, the unsweetened vanilla flavour especially.

Have you ever left a note in a library book? >> I have not.

What time of day do you prefer to wash your hair? >> I prefer to shower in the evening, so that's when I wash my scalp. Has anyone ever spread lies about you? >> Certainly.

Have you ever taken a photograph with a celebrity? If so, did it turn out the way you wanted, or do you wish you could retake it? >> I have. The one with Julianne Moore came out fine. I think my worst photo with a performer of any renown was the one with Pete Steele of Type O Negative, because the person taking the photo didn't wait for me to stop laughing before they snapped it. (This wouldn't have been a problem if I had a smartphone and could see it instantly, but this was 2009. I was still rockin with disposable cameras back then.) Which sucks because I will never get a chance to retake that photo and normally I would have been really happy to have it at all but it's ruined by how I look.

If you could move out of your home country permanently, would you? If so, where would you go? >> Most likely. I would want to go somewhere close to the Equator, mainly. I haven't researched specific countries because there's no point if it's never going to be possible, so that's as specific as my answer would get right now.

Is there a celebrity that everyone else seems to love, but you find totally overrated? Why is it that you don’t like them? >> I think that's just celebrities, period. The concept of celebrity in general is wildly overrated to me. I have favourite performers, of course, but I don't participate in any fandom/stan culture around celebrities or anything. If you could volunteer for any charity, which one would you choose? Do you think it’s more important to help humans, or are animal and environmental charities equally important? .

Do you prefer holidays where you relax, or actually do things? .

Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? >> I don't have a single solid belief about what happens to a sapient person's spirit post-death. I think many possibilities are likely.

Has anybody ever told you that you could be a model? >> I've had men say that to me as either a come-on or to try to get me to do sex work.

Do you use different kinds of moisturizer for different body parts? ie. hand lotion for your hands, face cream for your face. Or do you just use one moisturizer for all body parts? >> I have a face moisturiser and a body moisturiser. I could probably get more granular than that but that gets expensive so I think I'll stick to this unless I develop a problem area that demands special attention.

Have you ever felt like you were someone’s rebound? >> I haven't felt that.

Has anybody ever broken up with you over something really pathetic? What was it? Have you ever been dumped in a disrespectful way? (eg. through text, through a friend..) >> I don't think so.

Did you have a lot of role models as a kid? >> I don't recall ever having a role model. Do you feel like anyone looks up to you? Why or why not? >> I do not feel this. What do you mean, why not...

What was the last thing you found offensive? . Who is the nicest person you know? .

Do you feel safe in your country? >> Not especially. I mean, mostly, but also not. There's a pretty broad spectrum between "I live in an active war zone/a hellish fascist regime" and "I live in a free and liberal utopia" and when it comes to marginalised peoples the United States really likes playing around in spaces that are closer to the former than you'd gather from all the propaganda about it being the latter.

Do you feel safe where you live? >> In this city, specifically? More or less, although there's been stuff like racially-motivated police brutality/murder here too just like damn near everywhere in this country. Also, once you step a pinky toe outside the city limits the conservatism level skyrockets. So.

Have you been falsely diagnosed with something by a bad doctor? >> I don't think it's entirely accurate to say that all my misdiagnoses were because the clinicians were bad at their job. I mean, they might have been! But I also think that both autism and complex developmental trauma (and their intersections with each other and other social factors) are consistently wildly misunderstood by the exact professionals whose job it is to understand them, which is a systemic issue as opposed to specific individuals being bad at doctoring.

Have you ever had a doctor refuse to treat you? >> I have not had this experience. Name the strangest game you’ve ever played (video game or real game): >> lol "real game". There are some Twine games and Itch.io games that could fit this description, I think. That's where you're going to get truly weird, offbeat, occult shit -- in very small games made by one or two weird people who had a vision and nothing to keep them from realising that vision.

Do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? >> I don't think so.

Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? .

Do you like marshmallows? >> I do.

What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? >> I don't care for candy canes mainly because I find their shape inconvenient and frustrating. Have you ever fostered an animal? >> I have not.

Do you still take hot showers when it’s hot out? >> Sure. When writing $ sign, do you draw one line through the S or two? >> One. What animal have you always wanted as a pet but couldn’t have? . List three people you’ve had crushes on: .

Have you ever thrown up from cramps? >> Way too many times. I can't believe we're just expected to live like that.

List three people you had a hard time forgiving. .

Who is the most spiritual person you know? .

Would you ever start a vlog? >> I wouldn't. I can't even be bothered to make TikToks.

Are your dreams coming true yet? .

Do you struggle with depression? >> I struggle with some things that do sometimes look like depression.

Are you haunted by your past? >> I don't think I'd use this phrasing, but the more I think about it, the more it maybe is accurate. What is the inner critic if not the ghostly echoes of all the people who mistreated and neglected me, for example?

What medical conditions do you have? . Do you use a Magic Bullet? >> Oh my god... I definitely was thinking of Magic Wand at first. Good thing my other brain cell kicked in and made me second-guess that, lmao. Anyway, no, I don't have a Magic Bullet (or a Magic Wand, for the record).

What does your apron look like? . What are your favorite spicy foods? >> Oh, I don't know. I just like foods in general to have a bit of spice.

Which do you like better: being an adult or being a kid? >> I would never, ever, ever in my fucking life want to be a child with no rights or agency that is subject to the whims of bigger people again. Were you excited to be a teenager on your thirteenth birthday? >> I don't know.

Did you feel insecure in high school? >> I don't know, man. I just felt bad. Generally bad. All the time.

Would you ever be friends with someone who was suicidal? >> The nuance required to answer this question is astronomical and I'm not doin that right now. Who was the biggest bully in high school? .

What was your favorite class in high school? .

Would you rather have a daughter or a son? . Have you ever written to an advice columnist? >> I haven't, although sometimes I wish I could write to Ask Polly.

Have you ever had a doctor not believe what you told him? >> I have rarely had any concerns to bring to a doctor in the first place.

If you’re female, would you feel uncomfortable having a male gynecologist? >> I'm not female and it doesn't matter what gender my hypothetical gynaecologist is. I'll be massively triggered the entire time anyway, it has nothing to do with the person who is (ideally) just doing their job.

Do you like Lisa Frank? >> Sure. Also, one time I saw a YouTube video about the whole drama behind the Lisa Frank brand and it was juicy. What gives you nightmares? .

Were you ever hospitalized as a child? >> I was not.

Did you get senior pictures taken? >> I did.

What color is your bicycle? >> Orange and black.

Did you ever have to take home a fake baby in health class? >> This was probably the highlight of my ninth grade year. I took the Life Skills (or whatever it was called... something like that) class specifically to get the computerised baby. I also angled to get a weekend instead of just an overnight. I did really well, too, lol.

Would you rather wear ivory or white on your wedding day? What color will your bridesmaids wear? >> Neither of us wore white and we didn't have bridesmaids.

Would you rather have a swimming pool or trampoline? >> Trampoline.

Do you think babies are cute? >> Sure.

Do you dream about the future a lot? >> I don't dream about the future at all.

Do you think about your past a lot? >> I don't think about it, like, consciously. It just informs a lot of my present. I'm always carrying it around with me.

How good are you at living in the moment? >> I am always in the moment. Even when I am actively in flashback I am still in the moment. That's the strange thing about it all -- being in this strange liminal time warp where I am clearly my present self but also clearly feeling and acting from another point in time. A disorienting tension, the illusion of linearity collapsing in on itself.

Have you ever questioned God’s existence? >> Sure, long ago. Vanilla frosting or chocolate? >> I am a frosting hater as a rule but every once in a while I hit upon some good frosting that I can appreciate (sparingly -- I still don't like it in abundance, just as a little extra flavour/texture boost). That could apply to vanilla or chocolate.

What’s your favorite foreign cuisine? >> My favourite cultural cuisine is hard to pinpoint, I just like many, many different kinds of foods.

Have you ever moved to another state? >> I have.

Did you do anything productive today? >> I made some progress in Control, I kept myself fed, I started a new anime, and I managed whatever's going on with my nervous system with some THC. Can you say the alphabet backwards? >> Eventually.

Do you like flowers? >> Sure.

Have you ever thought you were gonna die? >> Sure. What kind of mood are you in today? >> I've been in some kind of fatigue-y dysregulated funk these past couple of days. Today was better than yesterday but I still don't feel fully out of the abyss just yet.

What are you craving right now? >> Nothing. Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? >> There is not.

What is worse, physical or emotional pain? .

Have you ever walked in on somebody doing something… questionable? >> Questionable???

If you were to make videos on YouTube, what would they be of? .

Posting pictures of yourself in a bathing suit on the internet - ok or not? . Do you typically laugh when somebody falls down? >> Typically not, but every once in a while someone just eats it in a real comical way and I can't help but laugh.

What is the most disturbing movie you’ve ever watched? >> I mean, I've seen just about every movie that usually appears on those "10 Most Disturbing Films" listicles and shit. That's kind of a thing I'm into, movies that are just super fucked up and disgusting.

Your opinion of Katy Perry, please? >> I have none. Genuinely could not care less about this person or their art.

If you could say anything to your Mom right now… what would it be? .

#surveys #survey #random survey

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here2bbtstrash · 2 years

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jack in the box thoughts if u care. warning this got long as hell and obviously i am reading potentially sus english translations soooo take all of this with many large pinches of salt. JUST LET ME LIVE, I LOVE TO ANALYZE SHIT OKAY.

god i really love this intro a lot. it's giving audiobook in the car lmao but i do think it's the perfect introduction to the concepts of the album for those who are maybe unfamiliar

"hope gave people the will to carry on living amidst the pain and strife" no lies detected

okay but his TONE on pandora's box and the way his voice gets more and more intense it's like.... you can hear the pressure of all of it building. omg. ALSO THIS FUCKING CHORUS.

fucking hell i love this style of music for him it puts his unique and versatile voice on display so well. nothing to distract from it.

more dance break ✨✨✨ still such a banger ugh

OKAY THE BEAT OF STOP..... and wow these lyrics. "there are no bad people in the world" i'm sorry did y'all hear that???? pretty sure jung hoseok just said transformative justice???? abolish prisons and policing?????? ahem sorry i'll stop

AHHHH I WASN'T READY FOR = (equal sign)

HE SAID TRANSCEND/BEYOND GENDER..... I'M ASCENDING......... i'm ready for the post-gender future,, hoseok take me with u 🥺

oh my god his VOICE and the VIBE of this chorus...... give it to me 90s fantasy!!!! I NEED MORE HOBI FALSETTO ALL THE TIME WHY HAS HE BEEN HIDING THIS FROM US i'm driving directly to hybe to FIGHT SOMEONE

music box: reflection ...... *chuckles* i'm in danger (DO IT HOBI UNLEASH THE SLEEP PARALYSIS DEMON DO IT DO IT)

oh my artistic analysis ass is LIVING for this directly after equal sign so much to fucking UNPACK abt the concepts of equality vs. like, actual justice OOH OOH OOOOOOOH

damn i literally just had to take a breather when what if... started. no offense to those who love it but sooome of the lyrics in equal sign rang a teensy bit hollow to me (i am sooooo over the 'we are one race 😌 the human race 😌' crap ya know,, although there were definitely a lot of great parts abt respecting differences/not needing to all be absolutely the same in there too! i am not dragging the song lol!!!)

and for him to turn around and slap us in the face with THIS?????? oh i am RIGHT THERE WITH U HOBI omfg. like IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE....

HE REALLY SAID MAYBE IT'S ABT MY PRIVILEGE AND NOT JUST MY WILL OH MY GOD. KING SHIT.

"I wonder what hardships and ordeals mean to you Since you only walked up intact stairs" !!!!!!!!!!! JUNG HOSEOK

holy fuck i need someone to come hold my hand. i may not survive to the end of this album.

god this idea that it's so fucking easy to talk abt hope and optimism (and yes, equality!!!) when you live a privileged life. i'm literally about to fucking cry. i love it so much i cannot BREATHE.

thank god for the whiplash of safety zone i need these tears to go back up into my eyeballs lmao

ooooof these lyrics tho. i have so many feelings abt celebrity/idol culture and gosh i just wanna give him a hug. it's gotta be so hard to feel like there are so few people you can trust and be entirely safe around or even just points where you feel like you can actually REST (my trauma brain sure knows that firsthand 🤪 and honestly i'd imagine being an idol impacts the brain similarly to complex trauma..... i am js,, we can unpack that later if y'all want)

"I like animals better than people these days" - felt, hobi, felt.

future is such a cute lil bop aaa! i appreciate him reminding us that HE needs to be given hope too 💜 AS I CANCER I CAN RELATE TO ENDLESSLY GIVING.... you gotta help yourself before you can help others babe!!!!

this song is so lovely ~ it's giving positive nihilism ✨ and that sometimes it's okay to take the next step even if you don't know what's coming and you're scared. i hope he feels this way about the hiatus honestly 🥺 babe absolutely deserves it

ugh and arson as a closer feels so damn correct. i watched the MV already so it's not my first time hearing it but this after everything else we just went through...... it's so fucking perfect. burn down all the shit that no longer serves you.

and i also just love the metaphor of everything he's been through being like arson bc it's like, sure, "i set the fire".... but obv he (and all of bangtan) had NO IDEA it would get as big as it has (like any out of control fire).... really i'm sure they felt like they *had* no control after a certain point. seriously the perfect metaphor for it. uncontrolled burn that eventually either has to burn out or keep going and engulf the mf world. and i trust them to make the right choice. 💜

damn alright well. i have tears in my eyes still. what a fantastic fucking album. i am so proud of / in love with this man. and 'what if' is OBVIOUSLY my favorite song it's not even fucking close sdjfkljsf

DAMN LOLLAPALOOZA MIGHT ACTUALLY KILL ME

#mposting #hope u enjoyed my essay✨#it got unhinged once what if.... came on #i'll never be over that song holy shit

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tartagliad · 3 years

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Seeing you for the first time pt.2 (ft. Albedo, Xingqiu, Venti, and Razor)

summary: how they react when seeing you for the first time

G/N reader

warning(s): misspellings, grammar mistakes (?), some scenes from windblume festival in Venti's and some from Razor's lore and a little angst ig

fluff!

(A/N: hey there, I'm back..this time I wrote for the other characters, i hope you enjoyed it)

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Albedo:

You met this boy at Dragonspine

That boy literally spent 24/7 of his life in that place ._.

He was at Starglow Cavern, painting cave structures and some hilichurls

You entered the cave and continued your adventure there (finding the history about the place)

Suddenly, a bunch of hilichurls started to attacked you..

There he saw how calm you are in that position, just swaying your sword back and forth elegantly

He just stands there and didn't realise that you've finished fighting the hilichurls and stared at him

"You know..it's not nice to just stand there and do nothing" you joke

"Oh..uhh sorry, I kinda zoned out.." he blurts

"ahaha, it's alright..i can see it on your face" you said

Albedo is literally stunned by your appearance, your figure, your eyes, everything

"I'm y/n, are you always go to this place?" you asked him

"Oh uhh, yes actually..i always do some research on this place..I'm Albedo btw" he respond

"Ahh I see.." you said, after that you accidentally saw his paintings

There was a painting of hilichurls and sketches of..you fighting?

"uhh are those your drawings?" you asked him

His face flushed because he got caught sketching a portrait of you

"Uh..yeah, you were an interesting...'view' let's just say..so I decided to draw you" he confess

You actually find his drawings beautiful yet pleasing to look at

"Wow..these are beautiful" you speak

The boy is literally out of words ngl, he's used to get some compliments from other people, but somehow..compliments from you made him flustered

"a-ah..w-why thank you.." he said

"Uhm..maybe you could come and join me next time..maybe pickup some materials or sightseeing areas of Dragonspine" he adds

"Of course, I'll go with you" you said

You two always spend time together at the mountains, well.. even though you don't go there everyday..lol

You always helped Albedo on his 'unusual' experiments or even tell him your stories of your adventures

The boy loves your eyes, he literally could get lost in those beautiful pairs..

Even though he painted it or sketches it..the feel is still different compared to looking at it directly

The feel just makes his heart race..<3

"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰�� 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐'𝘮 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶.."

Xingqiu:

Like Albedo, he always spent most of his time at a certain place, for him..the place is the library

So... you obviously met him there

He was looking for a book that he wants to read since the last couple of months

The book was actually rare that not many people knew or read it..so he's looking for it

You actually borrowed the book from the library and you wanted to returned it

He currently asking the librarian when you suddenly walk to the counter and returned it

"I heard that you want to borrow this book?" you asked

"Oh..yes, I've been wanting to read it for sometime now" he answered

"It's quite rare that people actually read this book though and yet it actually caught your attention" he added

You nodded and smile at him "Yes actually, I was reading a few pages and then I was so in to the book, i have to borrow it"

You both laughed as you leave the library

"My name is Xingqiu btw, may I ask yours?" he asked

"I'm y/n, nice to meet you Xingqiu"

There, you two talked for archons know for how long

You two sometimes switched books from your collections or maybe go out and find some interesting books

Other than reading, Xingqiu enjoys going on adventures with you

Seeing the nature around him makes him feel lighter

He really loves to read books though, but he tries to make you comfortable as much as possible around him

Maybe he'll try to take you out on a stroll around Liyue Harbor or maybe eat at Wanmin Restaurant, depending your mood

Sometimes you guys planning to pull another prank on Chongyun LMAO

He wants to make sure that you're comfortable around him and feel happy around him

All in all, he wants to see you enjoyed his company

"𝘏𝘦𝘺, 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘨𝘰 𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘟𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨'𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦? 𝘐 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘶 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶.. 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘦..𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦"

Venti:

You met him at The Windblume Festival

It was your first windblume, so you're still confused about the traditions that happening around

He was in front of the Cathedral finding students for his poetry class

When he saw you, he waved at you and you approached him

"Hey there! New to the festival?" he asked

"Oh yes, I've lived in the city for awhile but i never experienced this festival before.." you answered

"Ehe, allow me to explain it. The Windblume Festival is a Festival in Mondstadt celebrating the thousand winds. Usually, the people of Mondstadt offers windblume to the anemo archon and to their special loved ones" he explains

"The people actually have to take their matters into their own hands, so they don't really have anything to get helped with" he added

"Is that why when I asked if anyone needs help, they say they don't need one?" you asked again

"Hehe, that's right" he says, "Oh, I haven't introduced my self haven't I? ehe, my name is Venti, the most popular bard in town!" he adds

"Your that bard, I've heard great things about you, my name is y/n, I'm just a regular adventurer.." you replied

He shrugged and acts a little nervous when you said that

"So uh.. want me to take you around town and see what people are doing?" he offered

"Sure, that would be nice.." you said

With that you two took a stroll around the town

Seeing people prepare gifts for their loved ones, the atmosphere feels so wholesome

You guys even took a little trip to Windrise, and he even play you a tune or two

You really enjoyed his company and he’s enjoying it too

During the festival, you guys grew closer together, and maybe you guys would perform together in front of the Cathedral

You were really happy that you have someone to enjoy the festival with

Even Venti feels a lot of joy hanging out with you

He wonders that he could be with you for a long time..

Well, whatever he is feeling, he wants to grow more closer to you :3

"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸.. 𝘪 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳'𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘪 𝘶𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦..𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵. 𝘞𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘚𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘊𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘧 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘦? 𝘦𝘩𝘦"

Razor:

Bless this wolf boy :")

You two met at his habitat, Wolvendom

You were currently adventuring at that place

When you're peacefully strolling around the place, you saw a bunch of wolves dead..

So you rushed to see where it was coming from

There, you saw a boy fighting against an abyss mage, boi... that thing really do like to cause trouble

The boy looked really angry despite the mage killed his wolf packs

You determined to help him and so you did..

After you two defeated the mage..he turned to look at you, "thank you... lupical, dead.." he said

This baby almost cried because he couldn't save all of them, only a few of them that are safe..

"I tried to protect them...but I failed...", he said in a sad tone

You looked at him sympathetically, "aww..it's alright..you tried your best, it's not your fault.." you said to him

He looked really sad and disappointed, but at the same time he felt kinda relieved that someone was there to help him

"Why did you come here..?" he asked, "Oh, I was just adventuring and then I suddenly found you..." you said

"My name is y/n.." you added, "I'm Razor"

"Do you come from here Razor?" you asked again, "yes..I was raised by wolves, Razor has no human family" he said

You were shocked that there's actually someone who is raised by wolves

"I see..." you said, "I think some of your wolf friends got hurt..may i help?" you offered him

Razor nodded and help you as much as he could

"There, that should do it.. they can't move that much for awhile, but they'll be alright.." you said to him

Razor was very grateful that he could find you, maybe he would be doomed if you hadn't come..

"You're strong...can Razor learn from you..?" he asked shyly :")

"Of course, I would be happy to teach you" you say

Razor smiled a little, he wanted to learn from you so that he could protect his lupical if something bad like this would happen

The next day, you came back to Wolvendom and train him

He picked up the lesson pretty quickly, and he now learnt how to use his Vision

You even teach the boy how to write and read loll v:

You came to Wolvendom couple of times, and besides train him, you helped him hunt some meats to eat

You never really force him to come and live at the city, but if he wants to visit it once or twice..you bring him there

Razor is really happy now that he learned new things from you and also has a friend that helped him..

Sometimes he wonders if he could protect you from danger too

He just didn't want to lose you like he loses his other wolf friends

Razor silently swore to him self that he will protect you from any danger that you encounter

Overall, you guys cared about each other and wanted to protect one and other, he just wishes that you'll be saver around him <3

"𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘙𝘢𝘻𝘰𝘳... 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘳𝘦 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰..𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥, 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯..."

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(A/N: AHHH this is not like I wanted in my head...I hope you liked it, leave me some suggestions what I should write next, I still have some couple of ideas, but requests are open...so yeah ANYWAYS- thank you and good day :D)

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lovee-infected · 4 years

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By my side

♥Leona Kingscholar ♥

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Well it still isn't too late to offer our dear Lion a bitter-sweet birthday gift , right ? Let him let go of his sad past and find happiness in this birthday night

...Sometimes I wondered why would I be even given birth to if this was the point life was going to drive me into ? If this was how it was supposed to be , I wished to never be born . Living without needing and to be needed , wanting and to be wanted , loving and to be loved was nothing different from death , some are given birth to by mistake , could it be that I as well was a mistake ? I was pretty sure that I was until something later changed my mind

Preview : Years has passed , each filled with dread , hatred , loneliness and dishonor . Unwanted pains shattering his heart to pieces , unexplainable emotions no one around him would ever care to imagine , endless tears fallen from his eyes over the years on his lonely corners , injured heart of him which no one ever cared to heal... But from now , things are going to be different . This year will be his new start because he has you by his side

Why did I always have to be the second one ...?

They say you've got to live your and only your life , that the only one holding you back from your dreams is you , that you can be anything if you try your hardest , and I tried

No , it wasn't only trying . I lived for my goal . I lived to become the strongest , I lived to be the one who brought honor to my family's name , I lived to pull myself out my brother's shadow , I lived to change my unwanted fate...but I couldn't . I cut back on my everything , my free time , my friends , my family , my own self . All to have my time to focus on my powers , to be an almighty magician . As I grew stronger , I begun to bring fear along myself. I got warned that I'm going way further than I ever should but it didn't matter . I still needed to be stronger , strong enough to prove that I'm worthy of being the next king

Farena brought light wherever he went and I brought...shadows . Shadows reflecting the terrifying darkness taming into my soul . I thought these would turn me into a worthy heir to my kingdom but they didn't , they turned me into something others called terrifying . Fearful . Greedy . Monster

My brother himself tried to hold me back for many times but I didn't listen , thinking that he was afraid of my strength which I thought had surpassed him so far . Even if it wasn't his purpose , this wasn't going to hold me back from the path I'd chosen ; it was too late

All they could see was my stunning powers growing more and more fearful day by day , slowly turning into a threat . No one ever saw what it took me to get to this point , no one ever cared . While children were playing outside and enjoying their short lasting carefree days , I had locked my self inside my hidden training spot , spending hours each day all alone there . Learning everything on your own isn't really pleasant , specially when no one's there to tell you how harmful magic can be . I was covered in dust and bruises each day after training , I even passed away of tire too many times right there

I have to admit...It doesn't really matter how much I grow . A part of me will always remain child because I sacrificed my time to be a child when I had to enjoy it . Yeah , there's an extremely annoying cry baby hiding inside me... It came clear to me again on the day of my nephew's birthday , the day life proved me that I can never change my path , no matter how much I try , no matter how much I lose , no matter how much cry , no matter how much I suffer

All those pain , loneliness , hours of crying and wiping blood off my body was a waste . Not because I didn't try , no dear it wasn't ever my fault . It was this life . It wasn't ever fair...

That child...This was the end of me . The only thing I fought for , my very last chance to get all I ever wanted out of my life . Why?...why?? I gave up my all just to be respected ! To be looked up to ! To be wanted !! Didn't I lose enough...?

I couldn't take it anymore , I couldn't . I had lost my purpose to live , to breath , to exist . Suicide would've been a pretty simple and shameful way to end it all , but you won't believe it if I tell how many time I was too close to doing it . The story of the infamous king Scar was getting reflected into my life . I was becoming what I refused to be , I didn't want to be like him , I didn't want to be the monster he became but...Not everything always goes as you expect , right ?

When I announced that I'll be heading to Night Raven College , everyone knew that I'd finally given up to my dark side . I was no longer afraid of becoming the monster they warned me about ; this was my path

I started a new life with entering Night Raven College or this is what I thought . No was there to look down to me for my neglected past and that was enough for me , enough to not suffer much more . My mind finally came to a more stable zone , somehow I could pull some parts of my shattered personality together and that seemed to be good...but the holes in my heart , there was no way to get rid of them . Loneliness , pain and , isolation took more than having a more stable life to be forgotten , but I never knew that my medicine would one day come to me on their own

I used to think that you were just as empty as I was , perhaps even a lot weaker with not a single sight of magic inside you . May seem rude but I believe that was the first thing that made me have an interest in you : You made me feel superior . Don't hate my dear , but that's just how I grew up . Being compared to my brother my whole life and receiving endless critiques and blames on it . You do understand , don't you ? Told you , those holes in my heart needed to be filled . Bullying you was just a small part of it

Back then , you were nothing more than a child in my eyes . Your will to make a change and save others sounded pathetic to me ; not just because I looked down to you as a human , but rather because I saw myself inside you ; my unfulfilled wishes and useless tries . This was how I expected you to end up , just like me . But you didn't

Overblot may be counted as my most terrifying form , but it isn't the only the thing you saw through me . That was the very first time I show you the others how empty I was , how weak I felt . I revealed my holes and that made me feel unsafe

Considering how I was wrong about being superior to you and the way you saw how measurable and weak I could be , I wouldn't have been fascinated if you too had started looking down to me as a loser . It was odd of you to try and get closer to me instead , no wonder why I kept rejecting you at first . You were stubborn and I was moody , I didn't really like the two of us getting much closer . Helping you take back the Ramshackle dorm was supposed to be our very last business together but , I'm thankful that you didn't give up on me . I accepted the two of us becoming friends since you insisted , but I'd never imagined what great changes were coming to my life by letting you in

Your powerless self which I used to make fun of , became a way for me to spend sometime forgetting how strong my magic would be or how important it can be in my life . Having ice cream together , taking walks , talking like two friends would , these were nothing special but they were all new to me . I had to accept that it was nice having you around , finally someone that wasn't as annoying as the others

Finally I gained enough self-esteem to speak of my personal issues , stuff that were bothering me over the years . I didn't want you to do anything about them , I just needed a listener . But to see how you cried hearing my pain... I- I wasn't ever expecting that . You were not only the first one to know but also the first to care...that shook my heart

When you said that you wanted me to spend more time with my family specially brother and nephew , I couldn't help but to laugh it off . But the way you actually forced me into doing it seemed to by quite childish at first . I was too selfish to even call my brother but you were there to force me into doing it - It felt like you were my mum sitting next to phone to see if I talk politely or not, but it worked out anyway

As the time passed , many things changed . Our small friendship was now way further than were it once was , specially now that I look how you changed me and my life over

Farena and I are now much better than we used to be , I can now really feel like I have someone as my older brother , not a symbol to be compared with . My family now check on my casually asking how I am doing . I still refuse to go home since I still have a lot to take care of here , but I can somehow feel that I as well missed them too . For so long I thought that I was forgotten , invisible and unwanted . But after you showing up in my life , I can finally see what it means to be alive

My dear (y/n) , I'm still learning to be a better me and need you by my side to learn me how to , so I'm not yet prepared to tell you how I feel . I kept on learning to be a great magician for years and now , it's time for me to learn to be a great lover , someone worthy of your love and attention , someone you'd like to remain by his side for eternity

I love you (y/n) , not just because of giving me all I needed for my whole life , not because of making me feel like I have a real family after the years , not because of helping me gain all respect and honor I always wanted to have , but for showing me that my path as well can be changed

Tonight here I am with my family , friends and you by my side , celebrating a date I called filthy for the past 20 years of my life :

" Happy birthday Leona! "

The crybaby inside me isn't going to shut the hell tonight- I know that I shouldn't cry but , I can't help it . My first tears in front on someone else than myself fall not because of pain this time , but due to the unbelievable happiness and joy my heart has drowned into . I look at you , your bright smile giving me straight and your beautiful eyes keeping on bringing light to soul . Even if my birth was a mistake , I would mow say that it's the most beautiful mistake that could have ever happened in my life

My family , my friends , and my beloved (y/n) , I need them all , and I'm glad to see that they as well need me . I want them in my life , and I'm proud that they as well want me . I love you (y/n) and I would die to see that you too love me , but even if you don't , that will never change my feelings for you . For the first time in my life , I feel alive . And it's all thanks to you , because of you by my side

I can't help but to hug you tight , feeling your warmth close to me . Digging my head into your shoulder as I let go of heavy tears in my eyes : " Thank you , (y/n)..."

♦♥♠♣

Tagging : @ji-yaaan @lilyholo @yandere-wishes

#twst #twisted wonderland #Leona Kingscholar #Twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader

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shinyrockalaska · 3 years

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December birthday party

I planned to post it on December 22 but i forgot... Either way, here's a fanfic in honour of Charlie and Rowan's birthdays that are in December.

Summery: Mc and the friends are throwing a birthday party for both Rowan and charlie

Word count: 1.8k

"Listen up, everybody! Charlie's birthday was last week and- I always forget the exact date, but- Rowan's birthday will be soon since it's close to Christmas! We've gotta get going!"

"With what exactly?" Asked Jae. He was always suspicious with whatever plans MC came up with.

"With the surprise party, of course!" They said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "We need to decide on a theme, place, time, the people we'll invite, who's in charge of the decorations and cake and snacks.. so pretty much, everything."

"We've still got like, almost a week to prepare everything.." Tonks complained. MC gathered all of them right before bed time and she wanted to go to sleep already.

"Anyone have any ideas for a theme?" MC continued.

"Toads!" Tulip yelled.

"Bowtruckles!" Barnaby chimed in.

"Fashion. It should definitely be about fashion." Andre added.

"Hmm.. cowboys..?" Talbott suggested.

MC did a face-palm and groaned, "no, no, no, you just proposed things you like. We need to think what Charlie and Rowan like!"

"Dragons and books, then," said Penny hesitantly.

"See, that's much better," MC agreed, "maybe dragons and trees? Or just.. fire?"

"It'll be lit!" Tonks snickered.

"Great! So who wants to be in charge of the decorations? It has to be fire themed!" MC continued

"I guess.. me? I'm already experienced, after the celestial ball.."

"I can help," Chiara and Liz said in unison.

"Perfect! Now let's decide on a time and place.. I think we can do it on the 22 of December.. any ideas for a place?"

"The Gryffindor common room," said Jae.

"The duelling club!" Diego added.

"The artefact room.." Ben tried to suggest.

"Seriously, guys! Don't propose places you like! How about the three broomsticks? Then Bill can come too, and we'll have butterbeers."

"Yes! And I can get more sweets from honeydukes," Tulip volunteered.

"Jae, I put you in charge of the cake," MC told him, and he tried to oppose, "why me? Can't Penny do it? Or literally anyone else?"

"After years of detention in the kitchen, I think you'll do great," they winked, remembering their adventure together, when they tried new recipes for Hagrid and Jae turned to be really good at cooking and baking, but made them promise not to tell.

"Fine," he murmured in respond.

"Can we go to sleep now?" Ben asked the question everyone wanted to ask.

"Not yet, we just have to decide on the most important thing.. how and who will keep Charlie and Rowan busy while we prepare everything, and then bring them to the three broomsticks?"

"You? You're the best at stalling, no offense," said Andre.

"I'll take that as a compliment.. alright, everyone knows what they're responsible for?"

"Yes.." they all groaned, wishing to go to sleep already.

"So don't forget.. we're meeting up in the three broomsticks in three days! I won't be there because I'll be with Rowan and Charlie so, Penny, I'm putting you in charge of making sure everything goes as planned, goodnight!"

There was a sound of tired whispers as they all walked back to their dormitories, aside from MC, who went straight to the owlery, to write and send a letter to Bill, asking if he could pass by for Rowan and Charlie's surprise party.

The next three days passed fast and strangely enough, uneventfully, except for that one time Ben almost exposed the plan.

Finally, the 22th of December has arrived, and at 4pm, when the rest of the group got together at the three broomsticks to prepare everything, MC walked with Rowan to meet Charlie at the library.

"You sure I'm the right study partner?" Charlie asked with honesty, "I'm not really good at studying.."

"Nonsense! You're my best friend, of course I'd rather study with you no matter what!"

"I thought I was your best friend?"

"You're THE best friend, Rowan. Everyone else is just my best friends, without THE.."

"Yeah, I'm not sure about that.."

"Anyway.. let's study!" MC shouted, causing Madam Pince to threaten to kick them out. Charlie still didn't felt like studying, he and Rowan exchanged looks, before Rowan spoke up, "But, we don't have any exams? Why would you want to study all of a sudden?"

"Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure."

"Quoting Rowena Ravenclaw won't help you get away without an answer!"

MC stood up, with their hands still on the table, and said, "you know, I just realized I never saw the both of you at the quidditch field... isn't that weird?" MC smiled nervously.

"I watch all of yours and Charlie's and Andre's matchs, what are you talking about?" Rowan tilted their head, the way they always do when they're confused. Which happens frequently around MC.

"But I never saw you together! You have so much to talk about, I mean, Charlie's an expert in quidditch and you're an expert of trees.. don't you want to talk about it?"

"That's a strange topic to discuss.." Charlie mumbled, "and the quidditch field is taken for one of the teams practice right now.."

"But if you insist," Rowan continued, "we can go around and look for broomes.."

"Wha- no! We can't! Because.. I umm.. promised Ben I'll help with that thing uh-"

"We saw him leaving the castle on our way to the library," said Rowan, "he said he's going to buy a new quill."

"Uh, right. I forgot. Do you want to help me pack my bags then?"

"I thought you're staying in Hogwarts for Christmas like always?" Rowan smiled, and MC panicked, what if they somehow know about the party?

"It still shouldn't be messy, and you know how my side of the dorm looks like, hehe.."

"I'm sorry, what's happening?" Charlie had zoned out half of the conversation and was now confused.

"Just MC acting mysterious all over again.." Rowan stared at mc with a suspected look.

"Aren't they always, though?" He shrugged.

"You know me.. the mystery of Hogwarts," MC laughed nervously.

Rowan and Charlie again looked at each other and then at MC, who still giggled.

"Anyway, do you need help packing, Charlie?"

"No, It's fine, I already did! I'm really excited to go back home and see my parents and Ron and Ginny again, and of course Bill! And the best part is I'll get so many presents! Christmas presents and birthday present, what can be better than that?"

"Yeah it's so nice your birthdays are close to Christmas, isn't it?" MC said, finally stopping Rowan's suspicions. "It is!" Rowan cheered, "I get to celebrate both Christmas and my birthday at home in the tree farm with my family! I miss mum and dad and my brother of course! He suppose to go to Hogwarts next year, isn't it exciting??"

"You have a brother? How come you never mentioned it?" Charlie wondered if he somehow missed this piece of information about his friend.

"Yes, and you'll meet him next year, I hope!"

"With your brother, Penny's sister and my brothers we'll have so many younger siblings here next year!"

"It's going to be a challenge," MC snickered, "I mean, we can barley keep them out of trouble now.." They all laughed, because it was true.

"So what time is it?" MC asked when the laughs faded.

"4 and a half.. why? Are we in a hurry?" Rowan asked.

"No no, I just remembered I told Ben- I mean, Penny, I'll meet her at the three broomsticks at 5 so.. hehe.." they chuckled.

"Why don't we just go and wait for her there, huh?" Rowan smiled mischievously, and MC gulped nervously.

"Rowan, you're too smart for this world," they patted them on the back, "let's kill time with a game of gobstons instead, okay?"

"Fine," Rowan finally gave up on trying to discover what MC is hiding from them.

They all walked to the courtyard and played gobstons for a while, just laughing and smiling until their stomach ache.

"Is it 5 already?" MC asked after a while, right before Charlie's turn.

"5 and a half actually," said Rowan, and before they could say anything else MC shouted, "what?! It's been a hour already?!"

"Time does fly when you're having fun.." Charlie mumbled, while thinking what can be the right move.

"We have to go! Now!"

"At least let me finish my turn!" Charlie whined as MC dragged with him and Rowan.

"Why do we even have to come with you to your meeting with Penny?" Rowan asked when they were near honeydukes.

"Well you know.. because.. it's just.. you see-" MC stalled, trying to earn some time while they're getting closer to the pub, "just get inside, alright?"

Rowan glared at them with one last suspection look as Charlie entered the pub without a doubt.

"Surprise!!!"

The friend's usual spot at the three broomsticks was filled with people. Friends, to be accurate. There were two dozens glass of butterbeer on the table, with a diverse selection of coulorful candies. The celling was decorated with paper dragons, flying around, roaring quietly, surrounded by trees, and you could notice some tiny paper books flying around above with brooms on their side, as well.

Rowan looked as if they were about to faint and Charlie was too ecstatic to talk.

"Wha- it's so- I-" Rowan eyes were filled with tears of joy, they never thought they'd have so many caring friends who would want to throw a birthday party just for them.

"This is so cool!" Charlie shouted, "are those dragons?!" He looked at the celling with an excited look.

"Just wait until we get home for Christmas.. mum's going to cry and hug you so much," Bill laughed, "seventeen is the most important age!"

"You can do magic!"

"You can apparate!"

"You're practically an adult!"

Everyone laughed and cheered. Rowan and Charlie were so far from being like all the adults they knew. They didn't changed much from that sweet anxious behavior they had in their first years at Hogwarts.

Bill raised his glass of butterbeer, "to Charlie, the best brother and the greatest quidditch player and the most dragon-excited person we know!" He laughed.

"And to Rowan!" MC snatched the glass of butterbeer out of Bill's hand, and raised it as well, "the best friend anyone could ever have. The loyal, ambitious, kind and smartest person I know!"

"Whooooohoooo!" Tonks applaused and they all drank their butterbeers and started to chat with each other.

Maybe it was the butterbeer, or the heat inside the pub, or maybe it was the fact that all their friends were together with them in one place, just laughing and smiling, happy for their friend's birthdays.

Whatever it was, it made both Charlie and Rowan feel warm inside.

#hphm #hogwarts mystery #rowan khanna #charlie weasly #jacob's sibling #hogwarts mystery fanfic #hogwarts mystery fanfiction #birthday #penny haywood #bill weasley #hphm fanfic #hphm fanfiction #hphm fic

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v-hope · 5 years

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Felicitous Company

Pairing: Trainee!Hoseok x Trainee!Reader

Genre: Fluff, slight angst, kinda Rivals to Lovers AU

Word Count: 2.7k

Summary: Hoseok is chosen to debut as part of a boy group and faces loneliness when his fellow trainees are overtaken by envy, or the one where the person he least expects ends up being the only one who’s there for him on his birthday.

A/N: Did you really think I wasn’t posting anything for our precious sunshine’s b-day? Basically it's still his birthday in my time zone so yeh. Tumblr's being a lil shit again though, I'll post the actual gif once it gets fixed.

Gif taken from @rislainecobain (weheartit).

Hoseok’s heavy breathing was everything that would be heard if it weren’t for the music loudly resounding through the dance studio; just like it had been doing for the past week, as dancing his heart out was his way of coping with both frustration and hurt. Tiny drops of sweat rolled down his forehead and neck, making his skin glow and his hoodie stick to it in a way so mundane to him yet so attractive to any hormonal teenager watching. This time, that place being taken by you.

It was only when the song blasting through the speakers came to an end, that he came out of his own little world. Stopping his sharp movements that so perfectly fitted the beat, his eyes finally diverged from his figure on the mirror to another one right behind him; having to squint his eyes to get a better look at who had apparently been staring at him for a while, admiring him from afar.

When he noticed it was you, he turned around to face you with what you wouldn’t call the most welcoming of expressions. Not like you weren’t expecting it anyway.

He was not about to be the one who broke the tense silence filling the room; instead raising one of his eyebrows and crossing his arms over his chest for you to explain yourself. At that you had no choice but to speak up – taking a deep breath to ask him if you could come in. Much to your and his frustration, just as your mouth started moving, the song he had on repeat mode started playing again, completely muting your words.

Hoseok let out a visible sigh, walking towards his phone to turn the music off.

“You said?” his voice came out hoarse, only confirming the lack of human interaction he had had lately.

“May I come in?” you spoke quietly, “I have something for you” you added after seeing his unsure eyes.

“I’m really not in the mood for this right now”.

“Please” you tried, “I promise you this will make you feel better”.

Or at least you hoped so.

Biting the inside of his cheek, he nodded reluctantly.

“You have to close your eyes though…”

Now, that was an idea he did not like at all. “Y/N…”

“Hoseok” you looked at him with pleading eyes. “I know we’re not precisely friends, but trust me just this one time?”

Trust. Nowadays that seemed a little too much to ask of him. Anyway, was there really anything else for him to lose?

That was the only reason he did as you asked, not without before giving you a pretty visible roll of eyes for you to know just how much he was not enjoying this.

He took a deep breath after feeling your body coming closer to his at a painfully slow pace – brows slightly knitting together at a sudden hot breeze hitting his face once he felt you reach his side after what felt like forever.

“Open” he heard your voice louder this time given the lack of space between you.

And when he did open his eyes, he hopelessly did all in his hands not to tear up at the sight of you holding up a cake with the exact number of candles equivalent to the age he was turning that day.

“Happy birthday” you cooed; both your voice and smile so sweet he felt a tug at his heart.

You remembered. You. The one person he would’ve thought couldn’t care any less about him, turned out to be the only one there for him in the end.

“If this…” he cleared his throat, taking his eyes away from the cake and into yours, “if this is some kind of joke…”

You huffed. “Yes, because I would really use all my money for the week on a delicious cake just to prank you. I despise you that much” you glared at him, watching him poke the inside of his cheek with his tongue as he amusingly shook his head. “I don’t know why you think I hate you, honestly. It’s kind of the other way around”.

“I don’t hate you either” he denied immediately. “You just awake in me this weird need to fight you”.

You smiled shyly, lowering your gaze and biting your lip not to let it show. So it was mutual. “Well, will you blow the candles before they melt down and ruin your cake then or…”

“Aw, you won’t sing for me?” he stuck his lower lip out, forming a cute pout that had you shaking your head in disbelief in a second.

“I mean, you must know by now my voice is breathtaking” he scoffed at your overconfidence, “but it’d be a little awkward for me to sing the birthday song all alone, wouldn’t it?”

Hoseok nodded. It would indeed, which is why he agreed with you before he finally blew out the candles – allowing himself to let his guard down and throwing his head back as a laugh escaped his throat after hearing you celebrate.

“Thank you” he mumbled sincerely, “I mean it”.

“You’re welcome” your stare lingered. “I just wanted you to have a happy birthday… or just be able to make it a little less miserable…”

Well, you had succeeded.

Shutting down the rational part of his brain that told him to keep his distance from you, he did quite the opposite. Being careful enough not to stain his hoodie with the whipped cream covering the cake, he cupped your face with his hands, later pressing a tender kiss to your forehead; because words could never describe how thankful he was for you right then.

“Let’s eat!” he chanted, eager to break the eye contact the two of you had seemed troubled to end after his loving action.

You didn’t protest, au contraire, feeling your heart being able to calm down as you followed him to the other side of the room, where a few round tables were placed.

Taking your bag off your back, you placed it on the table you had sat on to take out the rest of the stuff you had brought. Hoseok was quick to grab the knife from your hands, mumbling a small ‘I’ll do it’ before he cut two slices, later carefully placing them on the carton plates you were offering him.

“Oh my God” he let out after he examined the cake closer, “is this…” he gave you a quick glance, shoving a piece of it into his mouth after you motioned for him to try it. A giggle escaped your mouth at the sight of his eyes lightning up. “How’d you know it’s my favourite?” he wondered in amazement, stuffing his mouth with more of the sweet deliciousness you had gifted him.

“You want the touching answer or the honest one?” you took a bite of the cake as well.

“It’s my birthday” he reminded you, “make me feel even more special with the touching one”.

“Okay” you laughed, “I heard you say it once during practice and I remembered”.

Hoseok’s hand clutched at his chest – eyes exaggeratedly shutting closed to show you how much your beautiful words had apparently affected him. “Okay, now tell me the truth” his mouth was once again full of cake.

“It’s my favourite” you smirked.

He cocked one of his eyebrows, trying to suppress a smile of his own. “The more you know…”

The more you seemed to have in common.

“I know, right?” you agreed, taking two bottles of water out of your bag and handing one to him.

“How’d you know water’s my favourite liquid flavour, too?!” he joked, letting his jaw fall in feigned shock as he took the bottle from you.

“What can I say, I’m just that great” you played along – a cocky smirk showing on your lips.

Although you said it as a joke, right then, you were actually that great to him. Which is why he was the one staring this time, not being able to take his eyes away from you. You hadn’t noticed at first, for you were too occupied eating your cake; it was only when you realised the room was oddly silent that you directed your eyes to Hoseok.

And, you see, you had never quite had his attention on you like that, which is why you panicked – instantly searching for something else to say.

“Do you know who your group members are?”

That had seemed to snap him out of his admiration for you; blinking rapidly before he shook his head. “No” he played with what was left on his plate, he liked to believe he wouldn’t be alone if his members already knew him, “so far I know our leader is called… Namjoon? I think?”

“Kim Namjoon-ah?!” you asked excitedly, taking him by surprise.

“Yeah! That’s his name!” he pointed at you with his fork. “You know him?”

You nodded effusively. “We went to highschool together” his eyes opened wider in astonishment. “He’s great. A bit clumsy, but I can tell he’ll be a great leader. With someone like him, I can assure you you’ll never feel alone again”.

His lips curved up wholeheartedly, finding comfort in that thought you had just put in his head. However, that didn’t last much, for his eyes out of habit travelled down to where his phone was placed facing up on the table. Only that took for his previous smile to turn into a serious semblance.

Only that took for you to understand just how much all of this was taking a toll on him.

“They’ll come around eventually” you reassured him, drawing his attention back to you. “They’re just jealous… but they’ll get over it at some point”.

Hoseok sighed, turning his phone down this time, not wanting to even look at it anymore; it did nothing but remind him how lonely he was, and all because of the chance he got to achieve his dream.

“I just think that… maybe they’re right, you know?” his eyes fixed on yours. “They all think I don’t deserve this… honestly, all I can do is dance, and apparently the company wants to position me as a rapper, too… there are so many other trainees who have dedicated their lives to rapping, and this opportunity was for some reason given to me an–”

“Hobi” you cut him off, reaching your hand over the table to hold his, “if there’s anyone who deserves this, it’s you”.

He shook his head. “No, I–”

“You do” you reassured him once again. “Don’t let some envyous people take this away from you” you furrowed your eyebrows in annoyance, “you’ve worked just as hard as them and you’re hands down the best dancer here… out of the guys, at least” you knew your cocky addition had been successful the second a small laugh abandoned his lips. “If they want you to rap as well, then so be it. The company has smart, qualified people working for them; if they think you can rap is because they see something in you. Enjoy this, okay?” you squeezed his hand. “Focus on your debut and shut all their mouths by proving them wrong”.

He let out a shaky breath, having to gaze quickly to the side to regain his composure. “You–” he got caught in his own words, shaking his head in both bliss and disbelief.

“What?” you wondered.

“I can't… I just can’t believe out of all the people here you’re the one spending my birthday with me and making me feel better about all of this”.

“Is it… bad?” your voice came out weakly this time, afraid of the answer being positive.

Instead, what you got were his fingers interlocking with yours as he bit his lip, shaking his head one more time. “It’s perfect” he confessed, making your heart skip a beat. “I don’t think I need anyone else by my side”.

“Make sure to remember that after you’re an idol and have everyone going crazy about you” you sheepishly said, already feeling the heat reach your cheeks.

“Come on” he squinted his eyes, “by the time we debut, you’ll already be part of a group and preparing your own debut”.

You snorted. “Yeah, sure”.

“Y/N” his piercing stare let you know how serious he was, “I can assure you you’ll be so, so successful one day”.

Any other time, you would’ve believed with everything in you that he was not being genuine; sarcastic even. But right then, with his hand holding yours and his eyes staring so deeply into yours, you could do nothing but believe him.

And you did well by doing so, for he had never been any more serious in his life.

“Look at us” you tried to light up the mood, letting out a brittle laugh, “being all nice to each other”.

“I honestly would’ve never thought this was possible” he joined in your laughter. “We should commemorate this day in the future, once we’re both rich and stuff” he shrugged like it was no big deal.

“Considering it’s your birthday, I’m pretty sure you’ll be doing much more interesting things this same date in the future” you teased him.

“Just follow my lead for a change, will you?” you couldn’t help but cackle at his bitter words, reminding you how you were always the one not doing as he said during dance practices. “Let’s dream for a moment”.

“Okay, okay” you lifted your arms in defeat. “We could go to this really fancy café downtown I’ve always wanted to visit”.

“A café? That’s really all you’ve got?” his face showed disappointment. “Dream bigger, woman!”

Rolling your eyes, you rested your chin on your hand as you were deep in though. “Japan!” you shouted after a few seconds. “We’ll probably travel to Japan a lot, we could do something together there”.

Hoseok huffed, at this point not even impressed anymore. “Not surprised that’s as far as you can dream”.

“Hey! What do you have against Japan?”

“Nothing” he replied calmly, “I’ve actually always dreamed of marrying someone from there”.

You chuckled at that, totally relating to him and his weird dreams. “And I’ve always dreamed of marrying some sophisticated European” you confessed.

“Europe!” he jumped up. “Let’s do that! I’ll help you find your fancy European once we’re there”.

“And then we’ll go to Japan to find your girl!” you joined in his excitement.

“It’s settled then” he nodded his head. “In a few more years, we’ll go spouse hunting to commemorate this beautiful day”.

“The day we decided we didn’t want to kill each other that bad” you hummed, receiving an amused laugh from him.

Looking around the table, Hoseok took the bottle of water you had offered him before in his hand – focusing his stare back on you as he raised it. Catching on what was happening, you followed his actions.

“First of all, I’d like to thank you again for doing this for me. You didn’t have to, especially considering our constant bickering… but you still did and…” he took a deep breath, trying to collect his thoughts, “you’re the best”.

There it was again, your heart pounding loudly against your chest and the heat reaching your face. “No one deserves to be alone on their birthday” you stated, “especially someone who’s done nothing wrong but wanting to live his dream”.

You could’ve sworn right then you had never seen him smile so brightly – the sparkle in his eyes adding even more innocence to the current look on him. And you just knew you wanted to see him like that more often.

Hoseok raised the bottle closer to you. “To living our dreams?” he said in more of a questioning tone, awaiting for your confirmation.

Nodding your head enthusiastically, you somehow managed to make his smile grow even wider. So, mirroring his current expression, you guided your bottle up to touch his to finish the toast.

“Here’s to living our dreams”.

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