#see queue after the show

[not-poignant]

New Palmarosa chapter was *chefs kiss*! I adore all interaction between your Raphael and Astarion! I’m hoping the glimpse of True Submission we see will involve some more BDSM and kink elements 🤭

Hi hi anon!

I'm also hoping that the glimpse of true submission we see will involve more BDSM and kink elements!

That being said, Raphael's not like a professional dominant or anything. He's just a torturer who likes sadism in his kink/sex life in this story. That being said, I'm sure he has a ton of tools at his disposal that he can use if he wants to.

He's been introducing Astarion to his sexual proclivities very, very slowly. He very much wants Astarion hooked into that second contract, which has no actual end-date (it's entirely possible Astarion will complete the ritual, get access to the sun, and still not ever be able to leave if he can't submit - and then one has to ask oneself: would he be okay with that? Because he might actually be okay with that. We'll find out!)

Once Astarion is in the second contract, there's no more walking away. That's it, his body and flesh belongs to Raphael until Raphael gets true submission (and the ritual is completed). At that point, Raphael can torture him mercilessly every day if he wanted to, and never help Astarion ever again re: submission. He'd own Astarion until our vampire got hold of that contract and tore it apart.

Astarion knows that, which is why he's demanding to see true submission in action.

I sadly think Astarion will see it and still not understand and still think it's easy to do. (And for the folks who asked, no it's not subspace. You can force a sub into subspace pretty easily if you have the time and tools without any sign of 'true submission' - hell you can do it to a complete stranger). I think the best place to get an idea of true submission is to look at what Raphael actually wanted from Hope. He went about trying to get it from her in the wrong way, which shows he doesn't exactly have a skillset here for what he's truly looking for, but there's at least one point where he says exactly what he wants from her and we - the reader - know just how impossible that is based on Raphael's own actions.

And once you look at Raphael's wish through the lens of turning Astarion into his new Hope, or needing someone new to obsess over, I think it becomes at least a little clearer what Raphael's aiming for.

(Tbh I thought this was so on the nose - but Raphael needs a new Hope, his last one didn't survive the battle. He wanted one thing from her ultimately, and never received it. And he planned on keeping her until he got it. To me, Astarion being the new stand-in for Hope, and Raphael being clearer about what he wants from the outset...? Like...oof. Astarion hasn't exactly realised that's what's happening to him yet, but it is).

#asks and answers #palmarosa #thespectaclesofthor #bg3 raphael #bg3 astarion #the fact of the matter is that like #raphael has no experience with getting true submission from anyone #he can show astarion his idea of it #but he's aware - more than anyone - he might not be capable of getting it from someone #but that doesn't mean he doesn't covet it #he is a devil after all is he not? #and he's probably in his most human form #i think he really believes that if he can get it at any point in his life #it's now and it's specifically with astarion #but he's fully willing to just *keep* astarion if it doesn't work out #after all astarion might complete the ritual and still never see the sun again #if he doesn't work out true submission #administrator gwyn wants this in the queue

[tsams-confessions]

The anons are wilding again💀

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#sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams #tsams confession #< block this if you dont want to see these #mod 1blood #i dont think this was intended to be a confession but i saw it right after queuing a small batch of people being down bad for the robots #and while im 100% not judging that i think the objectively funniest thing i can do is queue this directly after #robotfucker anons please know i love you

[numbuh]

Do you think the decommissioning squad has a way to make sure people don’t just. Write down somewhere that they were in the KND

great question! i think, even if an operative did that, they wouldn't understand it? like, if you just wrote "you were in the knd. you were numbuh [#]" it would read like gibberish. in operation end, the way post-decom numbuhs 2 to 5 reacted to nigel claiming they were kids next door was disastrous. even if you wrote a long, elaborate explanation of what the knd is/does and claimed they wiped your memories... would you believe it? would you leave some kind of evidence to convince yourself?

if yes, what would you do with that information? the memories aren't coming back. you can't interact with your old sector/knd friends because it's not allowed. if there's no other evidence, you'd have to rely on what little your parents and other friends knew to confirm you were really an operative. you don't even remember how to fight (sure, maybe some reflex stuff or only if provoked a certain way, ie. numbuh 4 punching chad right in the face) so it'd be setting yourself up for failure/missing a life you can't get back to. snooping around for secrets or trying to play rogue tnd (without even knowing about it) will only put you and other operatives at risk.

on the other hand, it could backfire from the very start: you believe it, but you don't care. you're a teenager now. why should you care? those little kids fighting supervillains aren't your problem. the squad may consider that outcome more often than not because that's how it's supposed to be. being indifferent or cynical about kids and just living your life as if nothing happened. you also might join the evil teens despite any indifference. that, and you betrayed the knd by purposely writing down all that info for your post-decom self to begin with. what if someone else finds it? if you're quiet about it, no one has to find out. good or bad.

regardless, i feel there would be some sort of effort to get rid of knd stuff at home before getting decommissioned. maybe it's another honesty/loyalty thing and you would hand over all your 2x4 tech and such to your sector leader the night before (if you're not the leader, that is)... traitors would hide things and lie that they've given everything they've got. majority of stuff should be in the treehouse anyway. or maybe the squad checks the house when they bring the operative back (or while someone else brings them back, like 5 did for maurice,) which is really jarring if they're aware of it. these weird kids are going through their stuff LOL. most parents would be oblivious. the squad could miss anything hidden super well like a paper. they're not there to waste time looking through every nook and cranny of your home unless it's urgent, if they go through it at all. certain things can stay. anything with your numbuh on it that's not gear will just look like a random favorite number after decom. really depends on what you think: would they even bother to check houses for things like that? is it the standard or is it just something they do at random/when an operative is suspicious or important?

i have the belief that it's surprisingly easy to become a fugitive and stay one for a short while— as long as you know what you're doing. most kids wouldn't have the idea to pull wires out of a g.o.g.e.t.t.e.r. (in space no less??) or chad's idea to attach his mp3 player to the speaker in one to cause a crash, even if those were both arguably reckless examples (nigel was 100% correct that he and chad could've died.) i would imagine that mayyybe some things get overlooked by 86 and the squad and, in retrospect, really shouldn't have been. things that might get them an earful from their supreme leader later.

#anon #asks #knd #codename kids next door #kids next door #transmission.txt #decom talk #long post #queue #i'm aware any incompetence or general oversight we see from the squad is mostly due to like #when it's relevant to sector v and their experiences cuz that's what the show focuses on. meanwhile #operation forget gave us a number of over 175 traitors that got captured by the now former squad lieutenant within the span of 3 years #it's unknown how many fugitives were still on the run after 3 years but the number has to be incredibly small i would think. on average #most runners do not have that much luck and most operatives are so loyal that the possibility of fugitives is pretty low

[chatdae]

love how the older skaters in the senior division give Yurio encouragement and that each time it pisses Yurio off. JJ is intentionally condescending so that makes sense, but with Viktor and Yuuri they're not even being condescending. Yurio's just dialed in on being a hater... and i love that for him <3

#'plot twist i LOBV you' -Yuuri #'i am going to skin you alive' -Yurio #yuri on ice #sometimes he is a teenager #he's got so much fury in his tiny body. and yet he is also just an earnest lad. i find him sooo funny silly #which he would hate me for!! #I recall a meta post about Otabek being the first one to verbally recognize how hard Yurio devotes himself to skate and I really dig that #like I think Yurio's frustration is justifiably rooted in how little others take him seriously despite his life-consuming dedication #I DO think he is over the top and i enjoy this; for it is entertaining. #but i also think his feelings are genuine and he is a complex little guy. #i'm thinking of him sharing his grandpa's food with Yuuri and being emotionally vulnerable with him at the waterfall #Yurio is a hater on his opponents (and Viktor) but I think on some level he recognizes the genuine care Yuuri+Viktor show him #I think Yurio doesn't understand how they can be encouraging to him while also taking him seriously #Cuz Yurio is so wary of his elders dismissing him #so older skaters being friendly translates in his head as 'they dont think i can beat them / they dont see me as an equal' #But I think when these relationships are removed from that competitive atmosphere Yurio DOES see how they care and he appreciates it. #It would be so sweet to see an older Yurio reflect on this time and realize that Viktor + Yuuri + others DID take him seriously #and just because they were fond of him it doesnt mean they didnt appreciate his talent. #tbh being a young athlete must be such a mindfuck and idk how these bitches do it. send tweet #yuri plisetsky #yoi meta #queue #my words #AWW right after writng this i watched the part where Yurio starts yelling encouragement to Yuuri #who internally tells himself 'i got more stamina than that fuckin Yurio mf' (paraphrasing lol) #they switched love languages <3 cheerleader & hater role reversal

[zappedbyzabka]

I think Johnny is flexible enough to do every kind of split.

He should just gracefully (and with little effort to non) drop into one while he’s messing around on his phone or something, semi distracted, and see how a Daniel reacts

#He never lost his flexibility. Because he genuinely finds that position comfortable lmao. #Daniel. After seeing Johnny slide into a split: ….I am going to be thinking about this for a while thanks. #and. other ship mention-> #The cobras dealt with it too bc he used to do splits. and other shows of flexibility in front of them all the time and it drove them wild. #he probably didn’t notice the reaction though lol. #Just doing some random stuff and leaning on his elbows. chilling in a side split. #lawrusso #not very nsft but #safety first #OK since I’m not busy I’m going to try to spend the other chunk of this day writing for asks #anything I post next today will be from the queue or drafts

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: May 3

"Life Less Frightening" by Rise Against

#song of the day #'I don't ask for much / truth be told I'd settle / for a life less frightening' #another song that when I sing it alone it doesn't sound much like the original but I do so like to sing it #check me stirring my roux humming 'these lives we live test negative for happiness' sweetly to myself #today was Friday and I'm still trying to decide if I'm satisfied with the amount of work I got done this week #I suppose I'll have to be #I had my weekly report meeting and again the updates my boss asked for in the meeting were not the ones she asked me to prepare #so I split-screened her and delivered the prepared updates as I frantically opened and updated the new request #and then when she finished making politely falsely interested sounds (I'm not bitter I'm not I'm not) she asked again for the new update #and by then I had it ready! saved it as I brought up the share-screen and showed it to her #too frustrated in the moment to be properly proud of myself but now it's hours later and I'm feeling a little smug about it #little back-pats for me #I have something like a project timeline worked out for the idiot project #and I did some good work in the garden (nasturtium growing up the post under the bird feeder. very pleased it took the transplant so well) #and I sooooort of sorted the freezer stuff. kind of. mostly we ate the things I wanted to rearrange but I've got a plan for moving forward #the last non-work thing I'd really wanted to accomplish this week was getting my queue set up again here #I've gone through my drafts and done some prep but as you can see the queue isn't actually running again yet #hopefully I'll do that tomorrow. we'll see how it goes #the queue may have to wait until Sunday because I must confess if I can accomplish only one single solitary thing tomorrow #I would like it to be six hours of uninterrupted sleep. may it please the gods I shall rest tomorrow. blessed weekend #edit: wait wait I'm a fool I'm a fool I just typed 'May 3' and still I am a fool #it's May the Fourth!! #happy star wars day my loves if I don't get the queue up today after all #it's because I'm reshuffling everything because I've got a new influx of SW posts to distribute!!

[slimeciclecock]

qjaiden death got me so fucked up I have about 30 posts worth of queue about her

#some are other things but a good 90% are jaiden #i didn't want to clog up someone's notifs lolol but yeah the queue's gonna go till friday #i know ccjaiden made the decision herself to step away and im glad she's prioritising herself and her mental health #but also GAH. she was part of the first group. she was our first woman. she was my first pov. and only pov up until bobby died. #she was a lawyer. a mother. a best friend. she was amazing. #i didnt pay much attention to her cubito and all the cucurucho lore after bobbys death but im still going to miss her #wouldnt have started watching qsmp had it not been for her. i may have been a mcyt fan before qsmp but i never watched dsmp so i knew of- #-the other creators but not enough to want to watch. but seeing jaiden animations up there amused me enough to start watching #we watched her adopt bobby with roier. i loved their friendship from the start. i kept up w bobby so much. he was my first favourite #im going to miss her. she was a wildcard but god she was one of the best #jaiden roier bobby drawing sessions. jaiden hanging out with roier and mariana. jaiden attending roier and cellbit's wedding #jaiden showing off her wings. jaiden getting a new hairdo. jaiden in bobby fields never being able to set down more than 3 chairs #jaiden saying goodbye to every sunset. calling out wait for me. dont leave her. wait for her. wait for her bobby. #she's with you now. #FUCK OKAY I THOUGHT I'D BE FINE NVM

[theinfinitedivides]

uh Anthony Ramos sir. how do we go from Mind Over Matter to Villano. how does that pipeline work exactly

#anthony ramos #jasmine cephas jones #look it's not my fault Spotify pulled him up when i went to shuffle a playlist. then i remembered the sh*t that had happened in '21 #decided to do a quick Google to see if they had settled down and separated amicably (since all we were getting was rumors #in the first place that i did not trust since neither of them were speaking about it publicly) #and found the samples. so many samples. the man literally uploaded another one to his Insta maybe an hour and a half ago #the song slaps???? at least the beat does but the lyrics???? are murderous????? #there is a scalping going on here but i'm not sure who's getting scalped and the lovers-to-enemies arc vibes are real rn #whenever he drops this i will listen to it. then read the lyrics then do more research then come to my own conclusion #irony is right after he came up with Blessings Jazzy shows up in the queue with Wild Things #damn. more soap opera sh*t sksksksk

[sasha-whos-askin-racket]

Being at Groundhog Day on closing night was a magical experience purely because the entire audience went absolutely fucking apeshit during Hope which is exactly what they SHOULD have done.

#groundhog day 2023 #groundhog day old vic revival #not me groundhog day posting a month after it closed sorry #no but fr people were gasping and laughing and clapping and there was quite a few people cheering and god it was fucking magical #seeing any show on closing night is incredible but something about the fact we all knew it would be the final february 2nd just. #it was incredible #queue's asking?

[kittyhazelnut]

had a nice long cry over the fact that the tour I've been waiting to go to with my best swiftie friend for four years is no longer selling any tickets. almost puked a few times in the process. now I'm gonna spend the money I would've spent on concert tickets ordering delivery for chicken tenders instead.

#i turned off every twitter notification except for taylor‚ taylor nation‚ ticketmaster‚ and tom hiddleston #ive contacted the DOJ and signed a govt petition about TM's unfair business practices/its monopoly on the industry #and i plan to email my representatives over the next few days to urge the doj into investigating them #but i dont expect it to do any good. a judge ruled in their favor in the 90s and they'll do the same in the 2020s #i can't return all the rhinestones i bought on etsy for my Bejeweled costume for tour but ill return the corset i was gonna use... #... and the things i got from Michaels on Saturday. ill keep the shorts i was gonna use to make her The Lucky One outfit tho #maybe ill finally get to make and wear it when im 40 #i guess I didn't have to pick up all those extra ahifts after all :/ #im just waiting for Taylor Swift (or even her management team) to acknowledge this. I don't have high hopes that they will. #I'd like for her to add more shows but idk if i see that happening. she's already got 52 and she hasn't even announced international ones #idek if i want more shows because if i sit in the TM queue for four and a half hours and leave empty-handed again idk what id do #I really dont want to go to school tomorrow. idk how im supposed to study for my test like this #if id known when i was seven what i knew now maybe i would have picked a different favorite artist

[nopethatsnotembarrassing]

So I went back through and fixed some of the stuff that wasn't quite right from the Super Board Trailer to the Actual MV and I couldn't be more proud of how close I was most of the time!

Also contiplating adding 3 more paint cans if I can think of interesting names that are references to something SKZ that has a specific color to it.

#stray kids #maxident #super board #my post #myart #skzoo #if anyone who sees this has an idea for a paint let me know?!? #dreamytag #cheekyuser #idk if this will even show up in your tags cause i thought to so it after i did everything else but if it does: #hiya! i just thought that since you guys helped me start this you might like seeing more if it!! #you dont have to interact with this if you dont want to just more of an update on the idea! #ya'll know the usual dont repost/steal im trusting ya with this one set cause i was super happy with it #skipping queue #update: so i got to the Making Of video like 6 min after it was posted and still feel very happy with what i did!! with 1 exception: #how did i not notice that Rockstar Hyunjin has a necklace on? i must've just missed it or thought i did it xc #but i will go back and add it when i can but other than that i dont think a 3rd iteration is needed really #also i loved how the editor also called that their rockstar outfits as well lmao

[connorjesup]

15 secs preview of ep 8

#kabe koji nekoyashiki kun desires to be recognized #kabe koji #kabe koji spoilers #show: kabe koji #issei crying everyone looking sad literally end me #them smiling at each other at the same place they remet after comiking in ep1 oh it's gonna be emoooo #I'm gonna miss this lil show sigh #I mean yall gonna eat the show for like two months AT LEAST cause of my queue but that's something else bzjsnsnznzn #But anyway fan meeting in December...... And possible new footage???? if G00gle translate didn't lie...... #we prob won't get to see it anyway like the lil spin off eps they posted along the show sighhh

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

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#5

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57 notes - Posted July 30, 2022

#4

Vertebrae

MSR | words: 518 | AO3 | @nosebleedclub October prompt: vertebrae | tagging @today-in-fic

Very early on in their partnership, Mulder rested his hand on the small of Scully's back. Like the chemistry between them, it came naturally, without much conscious thought. He had to be close to her, as if gravity had shifted around her. Later, he hugged her. Even later, he kissed her.

The first time he told her he loved her, a star formed in his lungs, emitted flares up his throat, spilled light out of his mouth, so bright it blinded him.

And now, he gets to see her fall asleep and wake up next to him. That morning, he wakes up before her – his insomnia isn't as bad as it used to be, but he usually needs less sleep than her. She's lying on her side, facing him. He rests his hand on the small of her back. Her skin is soft and warm. He runs his hand up to her shoulder blades, and back down again, feeling the indentations of her spine under his fingertips. She stirs and without opening her eyes, she shifts closer to him, wraps her arm around him and buries her face in the crook of his neck.

"I love you," he says.

He's used to saying it now, but the warmth in his chest is still here; this star will never burn out. She rests her head back on her pillow, her hair spread out in a sun corona, and smiles at him.

"I love you too," she replies before kissing him.

He slowly drags his hand along her vertebrae again and continues kissing her. She smiles against his lips. Her spine is a puzzle piece that fits only with him. For all of his supernatural beliefs, he doesn't believe in fate. It could be comforting to think they were destined to be together, but they chose to be together. He chose her, and he'd choose her over and over again.

Mulder doesn't seem to want to stop running his fingers over her back anytime soon, so Scully decides to indulge him – and herself, because his touch is always soothing and comforting – and shifts on her stomach to give him better access. She stretches and sighs as he starts kissing her neck. She can spend the whole day like this, letting him kiss her everywhere. He continues kissing her back, and when he reaches her tattoo, he traces the ouroboros with his finger. Unending. Infinity – that's how much time he wants to spend with her. He kisses all her other vertebrae – she's small, but she takes so much space in his life. He settles back next to her, looks at her, and the star inside of him pulsates to the rhythm of his heart.

"What are you thinking about ?" she asks.

"The future."

"It's too early for you to be that cryptic."

"You'll always be part of my future."

"I intend to."

She kisses him and rests her head on his chest. It's the weekend, she can sleep as much as she wants. She lets herself drift back to sleep, listening to his heartbeat and feeling his love in her bones.

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#3

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#2

I've been watching a lot of fanvids today

178 notes - Posted May 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Mulder really showed up in court with a little slideshow to try to explain that Eugene Tooms can elongate his body, eats livers and hibernates for 30 years

343 notes - Posted July 29, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #My top tags really show my lack of tagging lmaooo #I don't use tags at all on reblogs besides antipsych and body horror... I should do it but I'm lazy and I use the fast queue all the time #(also tumblr automatically added the tag false to this post when I created it ? Okay lmao) #Btw I still don't know why my body horror web weaving post got that many reblogs or how ppl found it lol but glad to see ppl enjoyed it #Also if I started tagging everything I KNOW I'd want to tag all my previous posts. And I'm not going through 22.5k posts to tag them #Even with the mass editor #Aha unless... ? I have a lot of free time after all

[yunogf]

love going to my notes and seeing this btw i love ur brain liz <3 you're sooo funny 😋 anyways hiiiii i hope ur having an amazing day !!!! 💘💘

keep calling me funny &we're gonna end up like this 🤪

#alba alba albaaaaaaa i love u sm #pls cjzkcz i was queueing all those last night half asleep 🫣 #not that thats an excuse tho bc i always sound like that CJZJXK #also if taeyong were the bachelor i would vote myself off the show right after my introduction like #im sorry but i cannot be seen next to him the fragility of my appearance based self worth could not take it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #but thank u for stopping by <33333 i love seeing u in my notifs period #the world better be kind to u tomorrow &over the weekend &next week &until the end of time 🫂💖💗💓💗💖💞💓💗💖💞 #replies #alba🐑

[thateclecticbitch]

#trans #Transgender #Anti-SJW youtube Era #Hunter Avallone just showed up on my youtube page after 6 years of not seeing him and I'm... #Surprised #pleasantly surprised #To say the least #lgbtq #Lgbt #Queer #I'm gay as in happy and queer as in fu queue

[savercknroll]

guys I finally got to see mcr 🖤

#i didn’t get really into them until danger days and after they broke up #and then I got really into them and they helped me so so so much #and I was like I’ll never see them live I’ll never even be close like no way they’re getting back together #then I get a famous last words tattoo in 2014 and I’m like this is amazing tribute to the best band I’ll never ever see #then I remember the day they announced they were getting back together ON HALLOWEEN 2019 #I take the day off work to sit in multiple ticket queues in January 2020 and get tickets to detroit (while living in Pittsburgh) #then covid happens and the sept 2020 show gets pushed to sept 2021 and then pushed again to sept 2022 #while I’m living in chicago and I have to drive approx 1600 miles in five days #AND I GET TO FINALLY SEE THEM!!!!!!!!! #my life is terrible rn but I am #so thankful that I got to see them