#same as usual. just being safe

[starfruit-baby]

What is the difference between Leo Manfred and Gavin Reed in your opinion? Like, why do you think Leo is worthy of redemption and not Gavin?

I don't like Gavin, and I didn't like Leo either, but your posts are making me think

in retrospect, i guess 'redeemable' wasnt the right word and im sorry for using it, since technically, as far as canon is concerned, we never see concrete proof he truly sees androids as equals, much less regrets any harm done by his own hands and words. right now i think the word i could use would be "sympathetic", since what we CAN do is walk through his backstory, and connect the dots from his life to his current thinking, even if it doesn't necessarily excuse his actions, far from even. by now im gonna be talking from an utterly biased perspective so its not quite set in stone, im prone to fucking up what is or isnt canon or weighing in personal judgement from My preferences, so just a heads up, but going a little more into it:

like, putting yourself in his shoes, he was a child of a fling, and his rich father although comfortable enough to openly claim him, did not bother to visit him personally until he was a teenager, an already difficult phase for the average person, only to be met with scorn because by this time in his life, he found solace in the wrong crowd and vices. and from this point on trying to get closer to his father is useless because of something so difficult to change in yourself.

and then, once disabled, Carl gets a machine to help him around, which is normal at this point in time. but, as the game makes it seem at least, carls whole behaviour changes gradually, because he talks to markus, and this angry (at least as far as Leo is aware), pessimistic old man is caught smiling, because of this machine. he chats with it. and now, hes walking into his father guiding this thing into his fathers very passion. this, as far as Leo is concerned, common object, a household facility like a toaster, is getting lessoned proudly by his father, who loses all the shine in his eyes once he walks in, goes back to his sarcastic, bitter old tone, and will grow aggressive if you even speak ill of the thing. and, later on, Carl talks about his own son as if he's not there in the room, ordering around his toaster to deal with you as if to not get his hands dirty. dirty with You being in his way. his own blood.

now, again, does this excuse his behavior? nope. even in the belief that Markus is truly an unfeeling object, at the very last moment before Markus is forced to decide between obeying or not, he starts referring towards Markus as something that could be physically hurt, and emotionally provoked. where previously his mockery of Markus felt more about provoking his father, not addressing Markus directly, the time he decides to pick a fight with Markus he's talking TO him. hes speaking as if this theoretically unfeeling being could either fear or be angry at him (which turns out, he can), but its difficult to tell if hes under some sort of influence or not, or if this egging on is still in part more to dash back his frustrations at Carl in a less direct manner. his love for the old man stops him from wanting to lay a hand on him, but he knows with how clear the guy makes it he cares for this android, how he yells, itll still inflict Something to tear this thing apart.

now, i may be wrong here, and im real sorry if i sound like a douche for it, but i dont personally consider too much the actors headcanons as full canon, and Gavins background according to the game is really uh... unclear? i can understand how people get to the conclusion his workplace ambition is what makes him hate androids, hell do Anything to get to the top, but a lot of what people attribute as being the motivation behind it i find kinda... idk, circumstancial? im not saying improbable, but my post was more about how people latched on to him when theres way less explanation and even content to him than Leo does? my last guess is that people plain and simple found him sexier than Leo

from My perspective, the closest we get to a Leo redemption is if Carl dies, and he comes across Markus mourning his father as well. the first time i saw this i thought there would be a fight, that he would scream and yell that it was all Markus' fault, even when he knows it wasnt, how dare this fucking thing even show itself in a cemetary. but he just... looks on. in shock. what he deemed something slightly above a glorified toaster is there, when he shouldnt even be. the fruits of his fathers time invested in this android. in his bonding. this thing that shouldve been dismantled in a junkyard somewhere, completely useless, now overwhelming the news talking about civil rights. and this is where he gets it. this thing understands the concept of grief, its clearly feeling it. Markus looks sad. a cold and calculating machine would understand theres no point in visiting a stone with some decaying corpse underneath it, death is final. wouldnt bother making the time to visit this unremarkable place while its on the brink of raging a war. but it did. the same as he was about to do. fucked up

on an alternate where Carl survives, most of what Leo says goes more towards the favor of his father than mentioning the android. we dont know if he knows anything of what happened with Markus at all, so its hard to draw a conclusion, but the game certainly feeds some hope that after this horrible event they can mend back. he promises to do what he can to get rid of what, as far as he knows, is what truly keeps Carl from loving him. no more ugly addiction. who knows, maybe theres a chance for growth. maybe if he really wants to, Leo could give in to seeing Markus as something equal, if thats what would make his dad not hate him.

and, with Gavin... he either leaves on a corny joke, beats up Connor, or gets beaten up. which i certainly see the appeal of, but definitely doesnt scream "no longer sci-fi racist"/"only mildly, acceptably sci-fi racist" to me, but to each their own

#ask #ramble #leo #gavin #anti gavin reed #same as usual. just being safe #anti carl manfred #sorry if it makes little sense ive had to rewrite this one a couple times and i still cant make myself coherent #1 am posting no typo correcting we die like manfred men #tw drugs #tw addiction #tw death #tw neglect #SORRY ABOUT THE TWS LET ME KNOW WHAT ELSE I MISS PLEEK

[craycraybluejay]

Just past 3.1K words in my Angel Dust fic and counting

hooray! <3

#angel dust #fic writer #ao3 writer #mrblackhaironthestreet #gods you guys are gonna either hate or love this #its a songfic (or songfic adjacent) that explores just. lots of stuff #drawing from personal experience as well as character reference and firsthand reports of similar things that go on in the fic #also occasionally referencing my drug knowledge cuz this fic is def pretty personal for me and i think its good to stay informed if u or #anyone you know uses. chances are theres at least 1 person you know who gets high. obv the fic isn't really psa material about harm #reduction but i squeeze some fun facts in there that you'd only really know if you went looking #and usually you only go looking for those facts if you need them and have used are using or plan to use #i once had to look up how to reverse an acetaminophen overdose. yeah. not my proudest moment #but the good part is that i sought out how to help myself instead of panicking and i think that being more informed can help others not #panic when shit goes wrong cuz eventually it will #knowledge is power. if ur in the scene u should know the ins and outs of it #same w any other scene like idk rock climbing where u know the shorthand 4 things and tricks and how to save urself if something fails #a LOT of hobbies involve risk even serious risk not just drug use #drug use is hella stigmatized tho so we only ever talk about how risky and self-abusing it is #there is no one too far gone to deserve help or at least some friendly advice #idk just. pls stay safe ily guys #and uh i hope u like my fic when i post it

[mitamicah]

I am continuing to have friends and family way cooler than I am :’D

Yesterday I met up with a friend who has a strong relationship (I’d say it sounds very queerplatonic and beautiful) with a finnish person so my friend has been visiting Finland a lot

Oh and then they casually mentioned having watched käärijä a few time saying being at his gig was a cozy time (even if they didn’t understand all he was saying)

I -

#safe to say I was just a little jealous :'3 #how can you CASUALLY mention you went to a FEW käärijä concerts like that and expect me to act cool :'D #I am happy for them tho #also sorry for not being very active yesterday #idk what happened but around 8 o'clock I was suddenly very dizzy (although I'd just eaten ) and my eyes seemed miscoloured so I got scared #I went straight to bed hoping it would be over today #I am still a tiny bit dizzy and I have semi-big black bags under my eyes although I slept more than 10 hours #I really hope this is not anything bad and just me not having slept well for a while #so my body is trying to ask me to slow down #wow look at me talking nonsense in the tags as usual #but yeah #it was nice talking to my friend yesterday #hope to talk with them more in the future now that they've moved to the same island as me #(I can use more rl nonbinary friends :3 :'D) #also yeah now I have a sister with a casual käärijä wardrobe and finnish roommate #and a friend with a finnish partner that have watched käärijä live #what's next :'D? #micahs thoughts #personal

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[i-didnt-do-1t]

psst, may i pls request “when did you learn how to do that?” with the delanceys? <3

Nox I am so sorry for posting this at 3am but I hope you enjoy <3

If Oscar hadn’t had a couple of whiskeys he wouldn’t have said it, but as it was his sight was a little blurry at the edges and a warm thrum was echoing through his body. It wasn’t often he could drink at home, usually preferring some cheap pub or bar out one of the shadier sides of town where he could pick a fight and not be noticed in the crowd, but Wiesel wasn’t home tonight, which meant him and Morris were sat in the kitchen together, a half finished bottle between them. The hangover in the morning would probably be hell but he decided it was worth it.

He’d kicked his feet up on the table in front of him, arm thrown casually over the back of his chair, the one that Morris had thrown his jacket over once they’d stepped through the door (he’d have to remind him to hang it up before Wiesel got home)

Morris had been working since they got back, some kind of paper work Wiesel never bothered to hand to Oscar so he assumed there was nothing to read on it. Usually it meant Morris had to get it done by the next morning but that didn’t mean there wasn’t a glass of cheap whiskey sat next to his smouldering cigarette.

Oscar craned his head again to glance at the clean sheet of paper Morris was scrawling on and his frown deepened as he tried to make out the numbers and what the hell they meant. He knew it was something for Uncle Wies, something about the stacks of papers and pay and all the other mathematic stuff Oscar wasn’t involved with but Morris was occasionally asked to look over.

“When did you learn how to do that?”

The question had left his mouth before he even realised he was thinking it.

Morris glanced up at him, brows pulled together, like Oscar was stupid and asking a stupid question. “What?”

He nodded toward the page. “Numbers. Math. I sure as hell didn’ teach you like I taught you everythin’ else.”

Morris took a drag of his cigarette.

“Definitely weren’t you.” He tapped out the ash. “You’re a shit teacher by the way.”

“You’re a shit brother.”

Morris rolled his eyes and turned back to his sheet, scanning it again

Oscar let the silence sit for a second as he watched him, trying to pin down any familiarity in the action, any familiarity in the way his eyes narrowed when he reached something he didn’t quite seem to get.

“Was it ma?”

Morris stopped again, the grip around his pencil tightening near imperceptibly but not subtly enough that Oscar didn’t notice

“What?”

“Did ma teach you numbers?”

Morris frowned at him, like the question didn’t make sense. And maybe it didn’t, Oscar wasn’t sure. He wasn’t sure how many glasses of whiskey were in his system either. Didn’t keep count. Would’ve struggled to keep count if he’d tried.

“Course she didn’t.” Morris said eventually, and then with his cigarette between his teeth. “She teach you numbers?”

“She tried.”

“She failed.”

Oscar sent him a blank stare and a middle finger at that, anger somewhere low in his stomach, weighted down by the alcohol that usually surfaced it. (Maybe it just hadn’t reached that point in the night yet. There was still time for something to set him off)

“You can’t read.” He shot back, childish maybe but not untrue and if Morris was going to be a dick he could too.

“Means’ you failed Os.”

Oscar took a slow drag of his cigarette, staring down his brother as he exhaled smoke, fighting to keep the grin of his face.

“You’re an asshole Mo.”

Morris, he thought, looked unusually like their mother when he was exasperated but a little smug, not tired enough to be looking a fight. (Maybe it just hadn’t reached that point in the night yet.)

His lip pulled up a little at the edge in a rare almost smile, even if it was mocking and crooked. “Learnt from the best.”

#newsies #if Oscar was not drunk any thoughts about his mother would not have left his mouth <3 #Morris suddenly being so concerned when Oscar’s the one to bring her up?? #because Oscar doesn’t Do That #trying to talk about her is like pulling teeth and usually results in the same amount of pain #Oscar will probably not remember this exchange in the morning #Oscar usually being an angry drunk but he’s drinking in an environment he feels somewhat safe for the first time in his life #(Morris is there and Wiesel is not as well as a lack of big crowds he can easily pick fights in) #so he’s just exhausted and drunk and just speaking. in a way he never usually does

[peachpitss]

That Which Does Not Resemble a Grave, But Is - 2281 words - T+ rating - gen fic - asriel & chara - pre-canon character study

You said you trusted me, Chara says. I did. Asriel pauses. I do. You do not. // The last conversation they have is a fight.

#undertale #safe utdr #asriel dreemurr #chara dreemurr #my writing #it's another melancholy one. #y'know that meme about realizing you write about the same themes over and over ? #me with grief and regret and love and wavering hopes if i'm being perfectly honest lmao #so here we go again #but i also just wanted more practice writing from asriel's POV since i usually write from chara's

[makerofmadness]

Ok looking at fanart having not seen the ruin trailer in a while I have forgotten what Cassie's actual hair color is is it brown or blonde or something in between I keep seeing art of both

like it's FNAF so I don't mind (FNAF isn't consistent with its own human designs I'm pretty sure Susie had her hair go from blonde in the games to brown in one of the books and Vanessa I think went the opposite direction between VR and AR and SB and then there's Michael in FNAF 4 vs. Michael in SL so-) but I genuinely don't know what she was shown as anymore XD

#I usually feel kinda uncomfortable when people change aspects of characters like that #(Like I saw a post that changed several Pokémon characters' eye colors and it fxcked with my brain in ways Idk how to describe) #Usually when I have a weird quirk like this it's because of like autism or something but I never see anyone else talk about this #So I'm assuming that it's either not that or I'm just weird???? Idk anyone have an explanation? #(Like I tried to describe this discomfort to someone once and since that time was concerning when people change characters' races #That person ended up basically accusing me of being racist and like- it hit me like a fxcking truck and hurt my mental health a ton- #And then months later that Pokémon post comes up and the characters' eye colors were changed to brown. WHICH IS MY EYE COLOR. #And I had the exact same reaction. So unless I discriminate against myself I think it's safe to say that was a load of shxt. #But like. I wanna know what the actual cause of this is like is it an obscure rare autism symptom or is it something else-) #Anyway enough of me rambling: #Yeah FNAF is an exception to this for the sole reason that the franchise itself isn't consistent with its own human designs. #So I kinda just. Don't feel the same kind of “off-model” weirdness because what even was the “model” to begin with y'know- #So like I'm chill with both brown and blonde haired art of Cassie but I'm just wondering like which one were we shown again?? #And whichever one it was: I'm still kinda wondering as to why people would change it one way or the other #fnaf #fnaf ruin #fnaf sb ruin #cassie #fnaf cassie

[what-breaks-my-heart]

#they seemed so relaxed in this scene as if they were bathing in tranquility #I like how this scene was shot too #them sitting under the light in a dark apartment #as if to symbolise enlightenment #but at the same time her apartment is her safe space where she usually have minimal lighting #being the busy careerwoman she is... she's always exposed to chaos.. protruding and sometimes invasive light #but here in her safe space she can be at peace with herself #and now with him around the space is where they hangout around when time permits #so the camera work shows the space as more lively yet still calming #instead of just a dark space where she hides (case in point: when she was avoiding her ex-boss after her transfer form was shredded) #and look! her shelf is now filled with his trophies!! #something that does not belong to her being kept in her personal space #when in the beginning of the drama it was clear that she had a fear of sharing her personal space with someone else #I can go on and on but I need to hold myself from tearing up now that I'm at work (mini break time) #can feel tears starting to accumulate at my tear duct lol #anyway... I know I've said this many times but... #THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP PROPAGANDA!!! #nothing but you #cdrama #zhou yutong #wu lei

[theygender]

Me @ my pets: why do you get separation anxiety and destroy things when we go on a trip, can you please just be normal?

My gf: *goes on a trip and leaves me home alone for a few days*

Me: ...

Me: ah.

#methinks it is time to chew the walls in my enclosure #rambling #im very bad at sleeping alone and i dont even know how many nights shes gonna be gone :( #if she told me before then i forgot it but last night i tried to ask her and she just jokingly said she was never coming back #but then didnt give me the actual answer afterwards #i texted her this morning to ask but shes been so busy setting up her show that she hasnt had time to respond ig :( #i have class in less than five hours but I've been up this whole time stress cleaning 😭 #i wish i could have someone over but my qpp has her sun this week and has to get up to take him to preschool and go to work really early #like the same time in usually falling asleep #and my other qpp and friends live two hours away :( #i just don't like being alone at night my brain gets bad :( #before my gf moved in with me i would have sleepovers with my friends as often as possible specially because of that #it made me feel safe and distracted me from the bad thoughts and helped me sleep better #there was a while where my qpp was staying the night with me literally almost every night #i haven't had to worry about sleeping alone for the past 3+ years that my gf and i have lived together #maybe i SHOULD chew wires to cope #edit: there are so many typos but I'm not retyping all of those tags im too tired for this #I'm gonna try to go to sleep now

[the-furies]

mhmmm. That didn't take long

#pk;m Kit☂️ #and the switch flips just like that. Uh-oh! #reminder @ someone: +10 new people. change mobile theme. update hyperfixation list. #gonna pass out now. Sleep didn't happen last night but it's whatever. 4-5 hours is doable and I hope to Maybe. Wait. #Is it safe to take adhd meds and drink coffee in the same day. #questions for later gonna sleep now #Will do my best to keep the others arojnd too though. that's what we're worried about the most as per usual #there's still reason for them to be here i think. i do hope we can #get rid of this. Barrier. that disallows fictives from different sources (with exceptions?) being on the fronting roster together soon #it's annoying and we do not like it! #sorry for how vague nonsensical this is but that's just how we are i think. using this app as a diary. it's fine! #just talking aloud. notes for ourselves

[sapsolais]

.

#i wanted 2 post this on twt but word limit + fear of being Jumped so here we are! DSKJFHKSDJHF anyways #thinking abt the plague that is Individualism and how so many people agree it's harmful on certain axes but neglect to acknowledge how they #still have this mindset on other axes #saw a post where disabled leftists were (rightfully) criticizing self-centered “leftists”. but i'd seen this post after narrowly avoiding #the same Bullshit Queer Discourse #and witnessing these two things side by side made me think like. Huh. #in both instances you have a group of people who consider themselves to be “just” and “progressive” but neglect members of their communitie #and fail to acknowledge their own narrow-mindedness. despite attempted corrections from said neglected members of these communities. #and it's FUNNIER when you have people who claim to be all about love when they hold 0 love for their communities. that's the thing i think #there are sooooooooooooo SO many people online who are only interested in talking about Themselves. and not in the 'people like me are #are often overlooked and others need to be aware of this' type of way. no. i mean like people engaging with meaningless discourse online #trying to prove that They are going through something UNIMAGINABLY hard and that their word is absolute (it is usually just white #folks in their twitter echo chambers in all honesty. i'm sure there are other instances but i cannot speak on those.) #so you have people who are so self absorbed. people who cannot grow until they stop making shit about Them Only #these are the same people who will talk about being “lovers” like you are a hateful ass person do NOT lie #where is the genuine care and love for your community?? Everyone involved in that? do you listen? do you hold yourself accountable for your #mistakes? are you okay with being wrong? do people feel safe around you? #are you okay with trying because you care and not because other people are watching? would you do it if people weren't? #i dunno. i hope this makes some sort of sense #sap says #i could talk abt this for HOURS so i'll stop here. for now

[kowabungadoodles]

How to spot a (heart wrenching sad cat) Charity Scam

So I've been get a lot of requests for money in my askbox lately, from users I have never seen before! Usually sad cats, sometimes gender affirming medical bills, a queer person being made homeless etc etc... and guess what? None of them are real! It's scammers who have learned how to work tumblr's userbase and prey on our general sense of community and charity.

Here it is, so sad! So tragic! But let's note a few things:

It's generic. They don't know me, I don't know them. it's addressed to 'friend', no use of nicknames or usernames.

Even the cat and the problem are generic 'little kitty' who has 'urgent needs'. This is not how real people talk, this is because this scam is being used over and over with different accounts a different 'cats'.

Praying (uh huh.)

Asking you to reply privately- This is so people don't spot the scam and point it out the mark and because if too many people posted replies to the same message it would beome really obvious that this is a scam. If they're looking for 'boosts' so badly, then why do they need you to reply privately?

Now that I'm suspicious, let's investigate.

Sent me an ask and then followed me! Sounds like they're just hitting up anyone and everyone, but even more likely they have a list they're working from.

(I get so many, I'm probably on a mail-out list a mile long, just being hit up for cash. Likely I fell for one of these once and got my name added to every scam list for miles, but oh well.)

So let's see if they're a bot or a real person!

The blog looks genuine enough, they've got a bio, a fandom etc. And it says they're an artist!

And of course there's that sad cat post, pinned right to the top, so I don't have to look any further through the blog for verification... Looks super legit, pics of the cat, pics of the bill... of course anyone can print out a bill and take a picture of it...

As I do scroll futher, it's full of reblogs making this look like an active user. So how can I tell it's not genuine?

Well, if they're an artist they probably post right? Doodles? Pictures? Let's have a look at their origional posts.

The fastest way to do this is by using an outside tool like Original Post Finder.

just type in the suspicious username and go...

Voila! As suspected, the only post this bot account has ever made is Sad Cat Post.

Confirmed: Scam. Do not give your money to these guys, it looks so real but they're just here to make you feel like a bad person for not handing over everything you can. Charity is wonderful, supporting friends is wonderful, but tbh save it for people you actually know irl/ mutuals you have an actual relationship with. Don't believe any rando who comes knocking!

Love and kisses, stay safe out there.

#scam #tumblr scam #I'm putting this in all the same tags the scam post uses #kitty mom #emergency #catblr #kitty help

[mashpotatoe]

im a white jew, i was born in israel,

ive lived there all my life and was brought up in an environment that fosters racism driven by nationalism, nationalism driven by racism.

in israel, they teach you jews and muslims (though usually, they just say arabs) have always been enemies, the same way the US deems the entire middle east as a inherent war zone, ridding them of the responsibility for perpetuating war in thst region.

they tell you "were the fair and humane side who strives for peace! its the arabs who never accept the offer!"

i remember the first time i began doubting that sentiment was in fourth grade, when we were having a discussion in class about the character of Saul from the Torah. the teacher was talking about how Saul, the first monarch of the Kingdom of Israel, used to fight the Philistines, and when she added that the Philistines were the natural enemy of the Israelites, she asked the class what group of people is their modern equivalent to which everyone very eagerly replied "Arabs!" and nevermind that there in that same class sat two arab boys, one of whom sat next to me, who i looked at and thought "but he isnt my enemy? hes just a boy in my class."

they teach you to hate arabs. sometimes they say it outright. sometimes they say it more carefully, or make a distinction between good and bad arabs, those who are with us and those who are against us.

in a state based on the idea of (white) jewish supremacy, they teach you jews are naturally superior. they use the conspiratorial narrative of "jews controlling the world" to their favor, giving their own watered down explanation for why antisemitism exists, saying that it must be driven by jealousy.

the zionist movement always used antisemitism to its advantage, either for reinforcing the notion of jewish supremacy or appealing to the real pain and trauma of generations, people who survived the holocaust, connecting them to stolen land where they are "guaranteed" safety ergo granting "justification" for the suffering of others.

its using peoples real pain that makes fear mongering so effective, and when the israeli population grows up being told all of their neighboring countries want to kill them, they quickly get defensive of the "only land where they can feel safe", but the only explanation ever provided for Why these neighboring countries are considered enemies is because theyre arabs.

and when it comes to palestine, it isnt even recognized as a country, nor identity. just a threat. ive talked to many people who are genuinely unaware of the occupation, and they arent willing to believe it either, because the media narrative has successfully shifted the blame on hamas. because "how could it be us? we want peace! its the terrorists who make us look bad! and their children, they grow up to be antisemites*, might as well get rid of them too!" they never stop to think what environment these children must grow up in to develop these "radical" ideas.

* what they mean by antisemite is really just antizionist, but the term anti/zionist isnt practiced in local dialect, being a zionist is treated as a given

any jew who stands against israels oppression is dubbed a self hating jew, but the biggest contributors to antisemitism is the people in charge of an ethnostate, because at any moment they could decide who is not white enough to be jewish, who is too jewish to be white, who stood against the current coalition government and who is an obedient dog.

israelis arent a monolith, but many of them have been won over, convinced its an "us v them" situation, when in reality it could never be the "us" that "loses"

the israeli government was waiting for an event like the massacre on the seventh of october to declare war, to have the so called "right to defend itself", so they could initiate the final steps of an ethnic genocide and displace, if not kill, all remaining palestinians. under the guise of bringing peace.

it isnt too late to call for a permanent ceasefire, to end the occupation.

please contact your representatives, attend protests and rallies if you are able. palestine will be free, and the flowers will rise again.

[krekdon]

okay think im just extra emo bc sick/period/barbie (didnt get to cry properly) but didnt realise how much i miss being queer

#kt talks #this will pass but want a record of it #was speaking to a gay guy at work today (abt heartstopper) and got to relax #like i dont act any differently than i usually do but just Knowing i cant be full queer self (ehich isnt even any different from usual me) h #as apparently taken its toll because literally cried so much after yhe conversation #like not even soeaking about being queer but not having to worry about SEEMING queer #even though i know i do #but also i seemed to have passed the normal test for at least some #and the. i feel bad for going along with it but also youre criticising the person i actually am to my face so you must not think i am like t #hat therefore i will keep it that way so i am safe #and i dont even know why i do it sometimes #like privacy and not wanting to explain myself and also an inability to articulate it all #but also a bit of cowardice and fear #but yeah. just the fact that he clearly Knows. he can see it. and i dont even know his name (this is bad we have spoken quite a few times no #w but hes in a different department and doesnt wesr a name badge) #but the favt that he just said he was gay openly in the canteen….. and felt comfortable enough sround me to say it and discuss queer things. #.. and just. COULD TELL THAT I AM THE SAME. #idk i dont even know if he did feel that way but he must have??? he must have?????? #i think he might have been looking for a confirmation #and i hope he got it #i just didnt realise how tense i was about it all until i wasnt #(but also i did know i was tense about it all and know that i cant fix it) #idk. solidairty. feeling seen. back in comfortable territory (i miss being with groups of queer people) #even my group of queer friends at uni i still havent reached that level yet becauss although i KNOW theyre all accepting. the feeling of bei #ng Extra and Specifically queer compared to just normal queer is very stressful #next year i will be more open. this is me declaring that #havent kr talksed in a while but i need there to be proof of this. #BEING QUEER MAKES YOU HAPPY KATIE STOP BEING FRIGHTENED AND ENJOY IT