#running away from ur feelings like

[jayjay-thejet-plane]

Hate it when that happens🙄

#running away from ur feelings like #steddie #steveddie #bat eddie munson #steddie fanart #steddie meme #st4 meme #jaydraws #inspired by a tweet

[mintypsii]

one piece x steven universe au where instead of being a crystal gem, luffy is sort of a rogue who flies around in a spaceship adventuring through space and making/recruiting friends on different planets and gem colonies, he was inspired by earthlings and now he wants to live freely without the constraints of gem roles and expectations (tagging this with #gem piece)

#ok im leaving these in the tags because I'm still not 100% sure for these but #usopp. obviously bismuth (inventor; touchy hugger and funny; black coding; fight with mc like in w7; rainbow cough gay also he's artistic) #i could keep going on ab usopp but anyways . the second im p sure about is sanji as a sapphire #like u got the whole running away from ur royal duty thing it's crazy . also he's blue #i was talking this au over with a friend and he mentioned how sanji would have 2 eyes and that's why he'd be ostracized which is so real #SANJI'S AN OFF COLOUR #oomf said sanji would be pearl because bispearl (which is so real) and also lapidot works for sanuso which is so 😭😭 CRYING #idk about the others feel free to drop ur ideas and stuff i need to hear em #i have doodles for this au idk if anyone gaf tho 😞😞 bye #oh also the crystal gems r the revolutionary army :3 i think it fits better idr think luffy would be into that stuff #op #one piece #steven universe #su #monkey d luffy #sanuso #usosan #technically because this au was born from a sanuso idea 😭😭😭 #sanji #usopp #gem piece

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[tetrafelino]

just came back from a mini doomscroll after finding out that "almond moms" were a trend on tiktok and I need to clear the air from that. dieting is pointless torture fat is beautiful you're meant to enjoy food food is meant to taste good it's meant to be filling and desirable you're meant to eat until you're full gaining weight is not a punishment sugar and fats are not poison health is not a measure of morality there's nothing inherently superior about being skinny. ok I think it's out of my system now

#miau⁴ #the amount of people in the comments of those videos going 'I want an almond mom/I'm going to be an almond mom' made me feel a bit insane #as someone who grew up with an ed aggravated by having a much older sister that's exactly like those ''almond moms'' #I do not understand how someone could look in from the outside and not immediately cross themselves and run away screaming #I'm so glad my actual mom is a very typical like italian-brazilian mom who always made sure there was a lot of good filling food #available. that home environment was so crucial to recovery. #thank you mom for not being insane 🙏🙏🙏 ur a real one

[hippiichi]

me watching video essays on the theory of creating horror (as in analytical theory not matpat game theory) and being like ah yes i can use this for my dnd campaign yes...

#hipp speaks #maybe i will compile all that ive learned one day cuz tbh!! #there arent that many good “how to create horror in dnd campaigns” videos out there despite how many there are #like a lot of them are lacking in terms of how to create tension and get ur players on edge #for example music is a really helpful tool and the addition (and later) subtraction of music/changes to music alone can get players on edge #but like even beyond that!! #taking away the ability to defend ones self via weapons or magic #forcing the players into situations where the only thing they can do is run or hide #and then rolling dice becomes more like the rng of a monster finding the player in a video game #introducing the idea of a monster that can appear at any time during the campaign a la resident evil 3 #AND STEAL IDEAS FROM HORROR GAMES #i feel like a lot of the horror dnd videos i watch get too caught up in trying to wrangle the 5e rules to fit into a horror narrative #when really 5e being so combat focused just CANNOT work with horror and has to be changed slightly/focus on the rp of it instead #like why do you think horror games rarely give players a gun until a mid to late game if at all #they gotta create that sense of asymmetricallity!!!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I just wanna listen to music ragged with rage and emotional desperation. But it's kinda hard to search for that sorta thing.

#bc i guess i just Associate that sorta thing with screamo and i dont like screamo #like funeral or brutus both by the buttress are sung with so much rage and i want that #i too want to rage. i didnt get a lotta sleep last night #bc sometimes i make bad choices lol #and everytime i search like songs to rage to its like. no. u dont get it. i want songs that make me wanna start screaming and wacking #things with sticks. ya kno. a very common and universal feeling #listen. i apparently deleted a bunch of info off a backup hard drive today. like bro y didnt u tell me to b careful??? #i picked it up like ok i gotta make it work on this old ass computer. time to clear the disk space and reformat #so rip whatever was on there i guess. no used crying abt it now. that bitch is empty #hhhhh ive got that i didnt sleep feel where ur brain feels like its peeling away from ur skull #i need to go run. burn away my ✨️ RAGE✨️ #just gotta wait like an hr 🙃 unless i get call3d into a meeting rip #unrelated

[socialbunny]

👇🏽👇🏽👇🏽some of my skipy lore in the tags i was supposed to bridge it with something else but i forgot what i wanted to say 😭

#i feel like i always show skip as like. a loser.....which he is #and a cheater. hes that too. #and a shit person in general. i dont show that one but he is #he tries to do right by other ppl but he'll always put his feelings first. self centered mf #he got married before he turned 20 he was NOT ready for that shit 😭 #literally got married to brandi out of guilt bc he fucked up her life n shit too kinda. even tho she wanted a family she lost a lot of #other shit too #skip experiences a slight hurdle in his life and hes like ''i have to have an affair/fuck/fun away'' #man that had high hopes for himself and his future gets frustrated by the consequences of his impulsive actions. more at 11 #he thought he'd have a slightly better life than the rest of his family. but then his parents died and he got a girl he'd been dating for #less than a year pregnant and he was like. fuckkk it #started doing some foul ass shit to the ppl around him when he realized there was no getting back up to where he wanted to be #everything culminating into him running away from his family and responsibilities and changing his name #idk i never talk abt my skip broke is alive headcanon anymore 😭 mostly bc i'm not writing my story anyways so it's stagnant yk #hes stuck in limbo while i decide his fate based on what i want to post 😭 #IDK WHY I WROTE ALL THIS IN THE TAGS IM PISSED. oh well #hidden skip lore if u read this u get one pass to leave ur wife and kids go fuck sexy bitches in belladonna cove

[seonghwacore]

actually sad seeing those tiktoks saying men and women cant be mutual friends without feelings cus dudes, im sorry that ur friends have only ever seen your face value, literally.

#ann.txt #me and my circle are averagely attractive imo but the point is we never brings out the topic of “if we have to date each other-” #cus we value each other not only from appearance but the mutual adventures and misadventures and that we can actually stand each other's ass #in thise hard times and not being annoyingly clingy #and even though that their girlfriends still respect us the girl dudes. and we totally never have the idea to date each other #and all my dudes are generally more emotionally attached than me and my girl bff #if the dudes in ur circle ever bring out the “if we should date each other who would u date” game onto the table #its a sign from God to run #and more importantly #my dudes really feel more like siblings who hang out rather than acquaintances #im actually so proud of them we're not insecure about our respective relationship with our own lovers for it #to be a reason to stay away from this circle of motherfuckers

[oatbugs]

i am actually terrified xoxo

#ok yk how i ended up going to sweden to a family friends house and staying in an empty w a futon in it #the family friend in question is actually a really ridiculously clever translator/linguist/author/journalist/etc #genuinely shes so smart . but also shes like . super introverted and the whole house is constantly silent i can hear someone sighing #through a closed door . and the door to my containment cube TM is in the living room and i am constanrly living in fewr #of making any noise . also forgot to take UK-EU adapter w me so i literally cpuld not study which is the entire reason #i came here . to run away from my parents constantly screaming at each other etc. anyway theyre actually lovely ppl but i am so afraid of #like . using up their food etc . that i rejected it for a while . which is dumb as fuck bc straight up rejecting to eat smns cooking #is actually rly rude in my culture . but i still feel guilty. and like im not even here w my own money (i dont have any of that left xoxo) #anyway we had a convo abt languages and i realised my persian is so shit rn its so . shameful of me. she also told me to learn german #(bc philisophy) and i told her i kind of am kind of and she said do u find it a mathematical langauge ? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN #WHAT DO U MEAN . LIKE IK ROUGHLY WHAT SHE MEANT BUT LIKE WHAT WAS THE RIGHT ANSWER #when i responded she just smiled and said nothing for 10 seconds i feel like my whole personality was being judged for that response #anyway @swedes ur consensus culture is actually so fascinating #empty cube** first tag #every moment i am living in fear . still 100x better than being home lmao #the way i didnt sleep for 3 days . xoxo #anyway linköping bitches r like lets do smth crazy and go to a pub at 7pm order 2 entire beers chat cordially and split the bill before 8pm #heart emoji everyone here js rly sweet

[piplupod]

j.erma vod please save me from my nervous system

#i am in hell i am in hell i am in hell #i cannot have a meltdown because i have to go be around family for a dice game in just under two hours from now #i am so close to just giving in and letting myself hit my head against a wall repeatedly as hard as i can though my fucking god #leia voice: je.rma 985 you are my only hope #it was not good timing to see all that bullshit right after a really shitty outing fdsjkl god i feel like absolute shit #okay shhh @ me. time to get food and then watch jerma and run away from ur brain and nervous system #surely this will work with no consequences :) <- ignoring all the evidence that this is fucking me up short and long term #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[t4tdanvis]

Gene freaks out once he’s back in the overworld because he’s re-experiencing so much. He starts sobbing uncontrollably the first time he feels rain again.

"... hey you good man?" "over wh elm,ed ,"

#❄.txt #ask box #'hey gene ur crying a lot r u ok??' '... yeah *starts crying again*' #after a couple days hes like. actually. it feels Good to cry instead of bottling up everything #remembering everything feels Terrible at first but eventually he goes from 'its so over' to 'maybe its not so over' to 'i will make things #better if it fucking Kills Me' #hes like that one comic #hes very brave. hes crying the entire time but he isnt running away from his problems anymore

[boyghcst]

it’s rlly hard to see urself as a person deserving of love and to not shutdown when ur not being understood or heard

#it’d be so much easier if i allowed myself to get upset instead of beating myself up #feeling shame for every thought and feeling i think is bad and unhealthy #like i need to be perfect #being healthier is learning to not judge urself and process feelings instead of trying to run away and push them down #it’s like everything u know u shouldn’t be doing to be a functioning healthy person makes u feel so much shame and guilt #for still being like tht despite being aware #it’s so hard to regulate my emotions and not feel depressed and anxious #and triggered and have these inner wounds from trauma #tht it just results in becoming detached numb angry and upset #it rlly feels like a curse bc i wish i could just break it #it sucks being born into trauma bc ur just isolated and broken #and it does feel like ur never gonna be like everyone else who don’t have all these issues and can function properly #i hope one day ill be able to live life peacefully #i know im way better than i used to be but i just wish it wasn’t gonna be a life long process #journal

[maiteo]

#I ran away for a min to post this oh man oh geez😮‍💨 #im sitting here like….no way I did this every day 8-10 hrs a day…15 classes? I did this shit & survived😭 #no way I’m letting the lil ones dance circles around me I used to run this place ahsjsdnsn #but rlly the ones who were so tiny when I left have grown SO much my old dance mates have running things now or at bigger companies #naur I get so emosh I love being here I love my girls my face hurts from smiling so much I can’t even feel the pain in my body lmaoo #wait there’s no context here my other post is on my other blog but if you read all this. I’m at my old dance company channeling past me #also NINE GOALS?!?! COYG❤️🗣️🐐😭 #okay hope ur all well hope and enjoying ur day ily ily ily ALL💕🫂🩰

[jrueships]

https://twitter.com/buffalobills/status/1529976929482309632?s=21&t=Ag--erC0mJX4mxUhDCtMscoV1aFOzSfWDk1EbpCZnVs

“Football man”

Diggs short a*s shorts

*chefs kiss*

OMG THIS IS SO CUTE!!!!! Ed trying to loose waterbottle cap prank diggs.. Allen INSTANTLY noticing it and trying to protect him... HUSBANDS!!!! thank u sm for showing me this 😭😭, LETS TALK!!!

Diggs short ass shorts.. HIS TRACK BOOTY IN FULL FORM😭😭!! i hate him. Ed throwing his hands up in harmless surrender as soon as allen moves into the scene.... they already know not to mess with the husband... and stef just squinting at him in confusion wondering why Ed is all smiley, but is still otherwise clueless to Ed's prank plot

Josh pointing at it but getting Ignored lol

Tries to save diggs.. diggs thinks hes just thirsty and wants him to wait his turn so he moves it away >:]

This is so playground flirting 🙄 allen trying to actually HELP diggs and diggs being all 'no you CAN'T have it 😤😈' AHHH they're so cute <33 princess diggs please just let your husband have the waterbottle HE IS TRYING TO PREVENT A WET TSHIRT CONTEST FROM HAPPENING RN ‼️‼️

FINALLY he grabs it .... this picture... um. Turns to theater lit class with teacher glasses on my nose... i think we all know what This represents 😳...

He then shows stef it's been unscrewed... then FIXES it FOR him ?@?!?? He really didn't have to do that BUT HE DID!!!!!!!! acts of service 🥰🥰 thank u brave knight for saving the kingdom from flood <3 AND DOING IT ALL WHILE LOOKING AT ED LIKE 'i can't BELIEVE you, on MY wife??!?!????' Wow.. like. It's like with this visor it makes him actually seem... cool 😳 what a heartthrob 😻😻

DIGGS SMITTEN !!!!!!!!!!!! Smiling so charmed at him like he moved mountains instead of screwed on a water cap.. pic 1/infinite of the 'get someone who looks at you like diggs looks at josh' gallery. Also mckenzie standing there in his short shorts and long stockings HELP??? GET OUTTA HERE SICKLY VICTORIAN CHILD???????

Love wins. + bonus mckenzie slug reaction

#IT'S HUSBANDS AGAINST THE WORLD!!!!! #this was one of the cutest things EVER aaaa I HOPE THE BILLS GET MORE STUFF LIKE THIS ON CAMERA #with their added goofyass soundeffects lmao.. making stef say 'i love u man' when they hifive.. they push the propaganda truly #love how josh is just known as 'football man' he doesnt get a famous cool name thatll get him recognized BCS HE DOESNT WANT ONE!!! #he just wants to be FOOTBALL MAN and take care of the GREATEST HUSBAND EVER!!! #even if he can be a little stinkster sometimes by not letting allen fix the waterbottle even tho theres CLEARLY smthin wrong wittit #like did diggs NOT feel the water slipping out when he shook it at the beginning ??? #his thighs... his lil shoulder tilt away from josh when he tries to help him... babygirl.... #ed IMMEDIATELY running away when he sees josh coming too like WOW stef really IS joshs babygirl!!!! and EVERYONE knows it ! #stef has to be reminded everyday because hes needy and laps up reaffirmation tho #i love them... THEY ARE MARRIED UR HONORRRRRRR ur H000000NERRRRR #why are stef and mckenzie dressed like that 😭 why are they like this.... anything to make the boys go wild i guess 😭 #it's like the cheerleader wearing the shortest skirt possible during a game she knows her bf will play in.. they r so in down bad... #diggs/allen #ted asks #mckenzie/davis #i hate that stupid mouthguard isaiah has in his mouth EVERY time now SPIT IT OUT ‼️‼️ #he looks so stupid 😭

[snekdood]

im glad karma is real bc i dont godda do anything i dont wanna for ppl to get their comeuppance

#i was worried for a while that it wasnt but naww. naw. i think it is yall #just bc it doesnt happen the times you want it to or think it should doesnt mean it wont. #or even in the WAY you want- #seems like the universe just likes to wait for the funniest moments or scenarios to do it #or the most ironic. nothing worse than realizing the karma ur getting is bc ur doing a thing someone did to u and arent realizing #(but dont worry folks. good karma exists. its called being nice and planting native flowers.) #( #--from the heart. bc the universe can tell when ur just doing it to get off the hook. nawww u gotta think about what u did wrong. how it #hurt someone. how u could rectify the situation. how you'd feel in the situation. or you can be stubborn and let the universe go ham on u #actually FEEl the feelings of regret and shame and sadness at your own actions. stop running away from them. #it is what it is #)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i truely have so much anger built up inside me about my job. ive done a very good job of making it unbearable #and after taking a 10 day vacation. plus 2 days of not working bc im sick. i really dont wanna go back #i was planning to take 3 days to not do fucking anything but my boss just emailed me with some time sensitive #logistical things. so like i guess i gotta fucking do that tomorrow. i started reading the email and it made my head hurt #and she started it off like. hopw ur feeling better and i dont wanna cause stress but... #like bro. listen. if u tell me these things u put them in my head and i csnt stop thinking abt them until theyre done. and its not her #fault bc im the one that put myself in a place where im barely keeping it together. its just frustrating #bc it feels like hope u feel better but also kill urseld 💖 but again thats just how it feels bc im so. idk how to describe it im like in a #state of post burnout. im sitting in the ash. alone in a desolate landscape and its like jesus how tf do i fix this? #and i cant even run out my anger rn bc im sick. and i mean i have the energy to run i dont feel lethargic but like i doubt that would aid #recovery lol. ugh. 2 months. thats all. then i move away. assuming i find a place to live lol. bc i currently haven't yet #but whatever. assuming i get better quickly and dont get worse and dont get covid on top of this cold bc my dad got covid #it will have been a bit of a blessing i came back sick bc i have a clear justification for not working and for telling people to fuck off #when they ask for things from me. like today a lab mate asked if i could sample Monday. which it technically #a holiday but i probably would have said yes if i wasnt sick. and i would have had to teach undergrads some bullshit friday if i wasnt sick #instead i just did nothing all day bc i almost moved bsck my flight and didnt leave home until the weekend anyway #i guess its good i didnt bc then i would have been stuck in ohio bc my dad found out he had covid yesterday #idk its all just frustrating bc im halfway in a transition and im not doing very well but i cant do anything to fix things until i leave #the southwest. like i dont even kno if i have health insurance rn. my benifits change request was processed but like does thst mean it was #approproved? fucking idk. so everytime i do anything i imagine a worstcase scenario where i end up hospitalized and damned to an empty #bank account or eternal medical debt. tho my mum said they passed a law where they arnt allowed to do thst to u anymore 🤷‍♂️ #whatever. im annoyed. i dont wanna work 😫 #unrelated