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kiriluvbot · 3 years

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crop top

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“shouto.”

those hands slide up and over his chest. “hanta.”

he swallows. “what are you doing?”

shouto pauses, eyes falling to where his hands have disappeared beneath hanta’s homemade bright pink crop top. “admiring the artwork.”

or; sero wears a crop top. todoroki thinks he’s sneaky. bakugo just wants a snack.

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it’s a quiet sunday night when shouto todoroki finds hanta sero humming in the kitchen, drying off cups he may or may not have snuck into his room over the past several days.

it’s a quiet sunday night, and shouto spent half the day asleep and the other half doing homework, and he misses his boyfriend. hanta hadn’t been in his room, so the kitchen was the next best place to search for him.

it’s a quiet sunday night, and hanta sero is tippy toeing to place cups back where they belong in the cabinets. he’s tippy toeing and—

ah.

he’s wearing a crop top.

hanta sero is wearing a crop top.

hanta sero, hero in training, shouto’s boyfriend, is tippy toeing in a crop top, arms raised up high and—

shouto thanks his lucky stars. it’s not often hanta wears crop tops, but when he does—

silent, without even intending to be, shouto pads across the kitchen floor, rubbing exhaustion from his eyes. hanta is settling flat back on his feet, still humming, when shouto comes up behind him and, without warning or any preamble, pushes his hands up his shirt, hugs him from behind.

“found you,” shouto says, completely oblivious to the way hanta nearly jumps out of his skin.

“jesus christ,” hanta clutches his chest, peering over his shoulder at the two toned boy. “where did you come from? you scared the shit outta me!”

shouto’s arms slide around hanta’s waist, fingers splayed out across his abs. his eyes fall shut as he presses his cheek into hanta’s shoulder blade, smiling and content. hanta’s built like a dancer, and shouto likes to appreciate the art work, more shameless and less secretive as time goes on.

“was looking for you,” is all shouto offers him.

hanta inhales sharply. one of shouto’s hands is cold, the other warm, and both of them are, for some reason, rather sneaky tonight. hanta swears he isn't ticklish, but he is, and shouto isn’t being very cautious.

hanta gave denki a bloody nose after a tickle fight once. it was an accident, but denki grabbed his sides and his elbows went flying.

“you found me,” hanta says, still trying to sneak a peek at shouto’s ducked head behind him. “i’m almost done putting up these dishes, then we can—we can go upstairs or something.”

or something. hanta takes a shaky breath, still a little scared and still trying not to knock shouto out every time his sly fingers brush his sides. heat crawls up his neck. he'll never get used to shouto being like this.

shouto hums, and it vibrates through hanta’s back. his thumbs rub circles into hanta’s skin, hands still exploring but staying in relatively safe territory. except hanta can’t really put dishes up with shouto clinging to him the way he is, with his strong arms wrapped around hanta’s waist.

just let me finish these dishes, man. two more seconds and you’ll have my undivided attention, i swear.

“can the dishes wait?” shouto shifts. hanta can feel his hands flatten on his stomach, as he stands up straight.

hanta opens his mouth to respond, chuckling lightly, trying to bite back a growing grin, when warm lips press into the nape of his neck.

oh.

maybe the dishes can wait.

shouto’s left hand disappears and reappears up high, pulling the collar of his shirt out of his way. hanta closes his eyes as shouto plants another warm kiss to his shoulder. then another, and another, pulling the collar further as he explores all the skin available to him. his heart crawls up his throat.

“shou, you know—“

“hm?” another kiss to the hollow of hanta’s collarbone, closer to his neck. it’s warm in here. was it warm in here earlier? maybe not this warm. shouto’s heating up the air with his quirk without even realizing. his cool hand is still exploring hanta’s stomach, his chest pressed to hanta’s back. it’s a lot. it’s not enough.

it’s almost laughable. hanta pushes away all the cups he has yet to put up so he doesn’t knock them over by accident.

“we can—“ he can’t even say it, not with his voice shaking, as shouto kisses the crook of his neck, slow and careful. “we, um—we should go upstairs.” another kiss, higher on his neck, slick and deliberate. god.

“yeah,” shouto murmurs. what the fuck. he’s hardly ever like this. why in the kitchen of all places? why am i complaining? i’m not complaining. any place is good. any—holy shit. shouto’s teeth graze the spot just below his ear and he breaks out in goosebumps. “maybe.”

hanta blinks, and blinks again, breath catching in his throat. he turns around, with what little room he has, seeing as shouto has effectively trapped him against the counter. when he turns, shouto’s hands keep sliding, and when hanta is fully facing him, his hands creep right back up to where they were when this began.

god.

shouto’s hair is a mess, like he’s barely just woken up. his eyes are glassy and sharp. he looks—well, needy. clingy. knowing. the corner of his lip is quirked up, and hanta wants to scoop him up and carry him back to his room, right at this exact moment.

“shouto.”

those hands slide up and over his chest. “hanta.”

he swallows. “what are you doing?”

shouto pauses, eyes falling to where his hands have disappeared beneath hanta’s homemade bright pink crop top. “appreciating the artwork.”

he laughs at that, embarrassingly breathy. his neck still tingles. “shouto.”

blue and gray find black. “hanta.”

“are you gonna kiss me like you mean it now or are you just gonna keep teasing me until i flip you over my shoulder and carry you upstairs myself?”

there it is.

shouto’s ghost of a smirk goes wide—it’s a wonderful sight—as he leans in, shutting hanta in against the countertop completely, hands still exploring what shouto can’t see. he can feel hanta’s heart pounding as he closes the gap and kisses hanta like he means it.

hanta’s eyes fall closed as those lips finally find his own, closes them tighter when shouto squeezes his sides, fingers winding into two toned locks and trying not to pull. any coherent thought leaves his head when shouto’s fingers dance down, down, down, then back up, then around, down again. everywhere.

shouto’s teasing him. on purpose.

it’s working.

well, it would work better if hanta didn’t suck in a breath every time those fingers ghost over some of the most ticklish spots on his stomach. don’t laugh. god, please don’t laugh. it’s—jesus christ.

if he could even think straight, he’d wonder if shouto remembers how ticklish he is, how he rediscovers how ticklish hanta is every single time shouto dips his hands under his shirt. which is, to be honest, more often than one would think. it’s a very strange sensation, being dizzy from the touch, dizzy with want and with trying really hard not to laugh.

the cups are forgotten.

it’s when shouto sucks on his bottom lip that hanta lets out the most embarrassing, breathiest sigh of his life. shouto hears it, too, because he smiles without letting go, hanta can feel it. shouto takes a breath, squeezes hanta’s waist, and does it again.

they definitely should go upstairs. the countertop digs into the small of hanta’s back. if either of them were thinking rationally, they’d worry about someone coming in. well, hanta would. shouto wouldn't. shouto doesn't. he never worries at all, completely oblivious and unknowing when he kisses hanta in public, when he touches him in the presence of other people, deliberately or accidentally.

if he could even think straight, hanta would wonder if shouto even realizes how much power he has over hanta.

but since neither of them are paying attention, the location doesn’t seem to matter anymore.

it’s when shouto’s lips trail down hanta’s jaw, teeth grazing his neck that surprisingly gentle footsteps enter the kitchen.

“what the fuck.”

hanta’s eyes fly open. shouto doesn't exactly stop, either because he didn’t hear the third voice or because he simply doesn't care, so hanta takes to gently pushing him back. which then makes shouto whine. because why wouldn’t he whine when there’s someone watching from the doorway of the kitchen, catching them in the act of being entirely way too adventurous. in the fucking kitchen. hanta’s soul leaves him, his entire body flushing with embarrassment.

“oh my god,” hanta starts, stomach and neck and every single part of him on fire. “bakugo, holy shit, dude—“

bakugo.

katsuki fucking bakugo stands in the entryway, brows pinched together, eyes narrowed in the most accusatory way hanta’s ever seen, fists balled at his sides. his face is red.

bakugo’s face is red.

“what. in the goddamn fuck.”

shouto detaches himself from hanta, and hanta really wishes he hadn’t. bakugo’s eyes stay trained on hanta’s face, on the swollen redness of his lips, on the trail of teased skin on his neck.

he considers taping bakugo to the ceiling, or maybe covering his eyes with tape, or maybe using his tape to swing the hell out of here.

hanta is sure it’s a horrible sight. shouto sighs, leans his head against hanta’s arm as he laces their fingers together. that, at least, keeps him on earth, keeps him from completely unraveling and running away.

“dude,” hanta starts again. “bakugo, i’m so—we just, uh—“

“no,” bakugo holds up a hand like he’s gonna blast them both to pieces. “nope. absolutely fucking not. i don’t wanna fuckin’ hear it.”

“i swear, we were just leaving. um, we—just, please—don’t say—“

warning sparks ignite in his palm. shouto yawns.

“get a fuckin’ room, you animals!” bakugo keeps turning redder. “i didn’t wanna fuckin’ see that—fuckin’—“

“close your eyes then,” shouto offers, tugging at hanta’s hand.

hanta chokes on laughter as bakugo face screws up impossibly tighter. “damn you, icyhot bastard! i’m not in the mood for your shit! just—god, get outta the damn kitchen!”

hanta is ready to melt through the floor at this point. to turn to dust, to never been seen again. every inch of him is burning up with embarrassment and want and it’s shouto’s fault. he squeezes the two toned boys hand back and starts leading the way out of the kitchen, bowing to bakugo as he passes.

“please don’t tell anyone,” hanta practically begs.

bakugo is trying not to look him in the eye, trying to ignore the darkening spots on his neck. “yeah, yeah, whatever. go on!”

shouto follows behind hanta with his head held high, hair a disaster, cheeks flushed and lips swollen. he even has the audacity to wink at bakugo when hanta isn’t looking anymore.

they're lucky the entire kitchen doesn’t get blown to bits.

“what the fuck,” hanta sighs when they finally make it to the elevator. shouto doesn’t release his hand. hanta doesn’t want him to let go. in fact, he would like to continue what they started before he dies, but embarrassment overpowers everything else. “that was—that was horrible.”

shouto presses the button for their floor when he finally looks hanta in the face again. hanta’s red, redder than even bakugo was, and he won’t stop chewing the inside of his cheek.

“you’re super red,” shouto comments.

hanta huffs at that, squeezes shouto’s hand. he doesn’t look shouto in the eye. he can’t. “yeah? well, i’m—i’m really embarrassed.”

shouto tilts his head, white hair splaying across his forehead. hanta watches the elevator doors close, blinks when shouto reaches up to tuck a piece of hanta’s hair behind his ear. “why?”

hanta looks at him, then, jaw nearly dropping to the floor. shouto doesn’t look embarrassed, only mildly disheveled. mildly. well, maybe a bit more than mildly. “why?” hanta outright laughs at that. “shou, bakugo just—just walked in on us making out.”

“so?”

so?!

“you had your hands up my shirt.”

“yeah.”

“you had me pinned against the counter.”

“i know.”

hanta’s brain clouds with question marks.

“we—we were making out. in the kitchen and bakugo—katsuki bakugo saw us.”

shouto nods. “yes, i remember.”

is the elevator slow today? hanta rubs the back of his neck; a nervous tick.

“that wasn’t embarrassing for you?”

“not really,” shouto sighs, not dismissive, just a deep breath, like he’s reminiscent or something dramatic like that. hanta considers shoving him into the wall right here. “i’d like to pick up where we left off, though—hey, you're really red again.”

hanta stares at him, flushing from his head all the way down to his toes again. heat crawls over his skin. he almost laughs, turning his eyes to the ceiling in silent prayer. “you’re gonna kill me, shou.”

this doesn’t sit right with shouto at all. “what? why would you say that? what did i do?”

“not literally, i just—“ hanta pulls shouto close to him and admires the way shouto blushes, for the first time all night. the elevator doors open. finally. god. “come on, shou. we’re going to my room.”

finally.

then hanta picks shouto up, wraps his legs around his waist and marches down the hall, both of them laughing quietly and murmuring things to the other. hanta digs for his key without taking his eyes off shouto, off the high blush on his cheeks, off the way his hair frames his face as shouto peppers him in kisses, much sweeter and gentler than before.

after the door is unlocked, hanta kicks it open, tosses his key somewhere he’s sure he won’t be able to find, and shoves the door closed again.

shouto’s grinning like a madman the entire time, already sneaking his hands back up hanta’s crop top.

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bakugo doesn’t tell a fucking soul, and even puts up the cups hanta forgot about.

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drops this and sprints away, again

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29904657

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mariellewritesalot · 5 years

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Not Enough Words

Here’s a confession: I feel like I haven’t been writing much lately.

Don’t get me wrong, I do write, but there’s a fine line between writing because I have to and writing because I want to. Somehow, despite the difference being indistinguishable so long as movement is concerned, I can’t help but feel frustrated over my craft. Ironically, I am a Malikhaing Pagsulat major, which in itself, is a life of writing, revising, and workshops until I get sick of it. Writers don’t have much choice, anyway, because we are expected to know how to write no matter the situation. It’s practically our job. We’re supposed to be quick on our feet (nay, hands) lest we lose credibility and edge over the others.

It’s a common misconception that good writers can write anything in a heartbeat, but I feel like our disposition plays a major role on the output we produce. While anything can be researched on or experienced just so we can write efficiently, nothing compares to pouring words on paper (or on the computer screen) and feeling cathartic because there’s a little bit of your heart and soul there somewhere. I don’t know. I’m probably overthinking it; but personally, being a writer means more to me than just a job description or something I am deemed to be talented at. For the most part, it’s an identity. I can’t set myself apart, I don’t see myself not resorting to writing, even on my off days.

So, maybe I do care more about my writing than I do about anything else. It’s my form of communication and expression, a version of art, if you may. I spent years, and will continue to do so, mastering my craft. Hopefully not for the sake of others exploiting it, but for me to be at ease with who I’m becoming every day. I’ve never felt like I’ve done enough, and if there’s anything I know to be true it’s that a writer never stops learning and experiencing, finding the right words along the process or building/renovating their style repeatedly. A process with no definite ending. I could win a hundred awards or publish various books one day and still feel humbled, thinking I can still do better, or that I am not as talented as people believe me to be. Despite all these, though, even writers sometimes need a break from the entire ordeal. In my prolonged breaks, I truly find myself asking: Is a writer still a writer even when they stop writing for a long time?

I wish I was the kind of writer who incessantly wrote on a journal and can’t live without it, or read at least 3 books a month without them being requirements for school, but I still fall short on that ideal even to this day. I haven’t stopped trying, though. Lately, I have succumbed to social media, addicted to tweeting, mindless scrolling, and curating my feed. I have become a slave to academics, my job at the school newspaper, and cheap thrills other college students also enjoy. Even when I’m turning in essays, poems, stories, and articles every week, I feel disconnected from all the writing; especially when I do it just so I can meet deadlines. As a result, I tend to shy away from it or feel that my brain is fried from doing it for long periods of time without rest--when writing used to be exactly that for me; a relief. I’m starting to think that maybe what *Confucius* implied about choosing a job you love so you’ll never have to work a day in your life wasn’t exactly right, and that passion is only as good when the fire’s still burning. Just probably not when it turns me into a burnout, at a really early age, at that. I’m always going to be in love with writing, but I have got to learn to stop putting pressure on myself. There are some things that I simply won’t have the words for, and I have to accept that. Whether it be a good thing or the exact opposite, there will be moments when I won’t know what to say. If words fail me, they can always find their way back when it’s right again.

With awards season just around the corner, people have been asking me if I’ll be joining the Palanca’s this year after winning in 2017 and deliberately choosing not to submit anything in 2018. My honest answer is that I don’t know, and whenever I do join contests, I don’t usually tell people about them because I get way too tense even in the process of creating the piece itself. That way, I can take losses quietly and work on what I can improve more for the next time I feel courageous. There have been a lot of defeats I’ve been quiet about, and though it always comes as a surprise to me whenever I win, taking the L isn’t exactly as gracious as it should feel, either. I tend to stop writing, even, for a while until I regain my footing. People would always try to console me in a backhanded kind of way that they don’t exactly understand, like when they point out that it doesn’t matter if I lose other contests if I have a national literary award already on my resume; in their eyes, I’ve already made my point. I’d rather be told that I can do better, or that maybe it just isn’t my time yet. I don’t want to cling onto my old achievements or credentials to make myself feel better.

The thing is: I don’t think about it that way. I don’t want to. If I did, I wouldn’t grow as a writer. I want to look at what I do with more veracity. It does feel good to be validated, but I don’t want to be closed off in a box and stay stagnant, thinking that I know everything just because of one award. Don’t get me wrong, It’s a huge blessing to me of course, but it shouldn’t encompass everything I do as a writer. It shouldn’t end there, it shouldn’t be the only thing remarkable about me. I don’t even want to compete with anyone else but myself, but not in a way that doesn’t help me further. I love good writing, and won’t trash other people for it, even if they wind up doing better than I’ll ever do. Truth be told, I can’t even go back to reading my winning piece sometimes because I feel like it still isn’t real to me. There’s more writing that needs to be done, hopefully, with more purpose. I don’t want to write for my sake only or for other people’s validation. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be yet, or what kind of writing it is that I’m really good at, but at least give me this. Give me time to grieve or feel bad over things that don’t work out about my writing, or for feeling so lost in it that I don’t know if most days I could still pinpoint my style in a sea of words. I acknowledge that I’ve done more than enough to further my career at this point, but I want to be continuously striving for greatness. I love writing, I really do, but I think everyone knows that we’re allowed to be a little angry or frustrated or want to get away from something (or someone) we love, even for a while. It wouldn’t be the real thing without challenges or even the occasional close calls.

With that said, I guess what I really want to do right now is to rediscover myself and my craft every day. In a reflective week like this, no less. Life hasn’t been exactly kind to me lately, but somehow, I don’t feel like writing about my tragedies more than I usually do. So it is true that not everything is worth writing about. To better my often deteriorating mental health, I’ve taken necessary steps to get well. In one of the conversations I’ve had with my counselor regarding my emotions, I admitted that maybe I feel deeply because it’s essential to being a writer. As much as I hate being this way, I am afraid of not being as good as I am aspiring to be if I suddenly turn numb or do better at handling my mess. She nodded as if she understood, trying to redirect my anxiety over it, “I think what you need for your writing is more experiences, not more feelings.”

I want to emphasize that I am still learning, as I always will be, and that I will make mistakes; both in real life and my career. Some people won’t read my writing or read it only so they could find fault between the lines and I want to be okay with that, because there are also people out there (maybe like you) who take the time out of their day to read whatever it is I wrote. So, I think it’s okay if I take a little longer to reach a few milestones. If I’m in it for the long run, I don’t have to know or have everything right away. I’ll find my way soon, and get a little bit lost again, but like all else--as long as I am trying, that’s good enough for me.

This Holy Week I’ve included writing and reading books in my plan, so I’m not on social media that much. It’s been good, I think I’m accomplishing more than I would normally do. I hope I curb the bad habit of staying online for too long, it might help with my focus especially during all-nighters, social gatherings, or you know, finally finishing the first draft of my debut novel. You probably won’t hear from me again for a while since college has been taking up more of my time, but I might have a bunch of poetry and prose to release soon. Stay tuned!

Always,

Mar

P.S. I finally revamped my blog theme after a ridiculously long amount of time! Even went around the new Tumblr guidelines on custom themes, so I feel pretty proud of myself for ‘debugging’ the code until it worked. This one’s more reader friendly albeit simple, and I’ve added an all-new tab on my Filipino writing since I’ve been doing a lot of it in school and I want to track my progress. Check it out and let me know what I can do more by leaving me a message!

#daily life blog posts #creative writing #Writing tips #writers #writers on tumblr #when words fail you #mariellewritesalot #my words #inspirational #writing block #writing anxiety #what writers do

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moments777 · 5 years

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Ok I’m saying it. Because it’s too important not to. What is happening in Christianity? More and more of our outspoken leaders or influencers who were once “faces” of the faith are falling away. And at the same time they are being very vocal and bold about it. Shockingly they still want to influence others (for what purpose?)as they announce that they are leaving the faith. I’ll state my conclusion, then I’ll state some rebuttals to statements I’ve read by some of them. Firstly, I never judge people outside of my faith. Even if they hate religion or Christianity. That is not my place and I have many friends who disagree with my religion and that is 100% fine with me. However, when it comes to people within my faith, there must be a measure of loyalty and friendship and accountability to each other and the Word of God.

My conclusion for the church(all of us Christians): We must STOP making worship leaders and thought leaders or influencers or cool people or “relevant” people the most influential people in Christendom. (And yes that includes people like me!) I’ve been saying for 20 years(and seemed probably quite judgmental to some of my peers) that we are in a dangerous place when the church is looking to 20 year old worship singers as our source of truth. We now have a church culture that learns who God is from singing modern praise songs rather than from the teachings of the Word. I’m not being rude to my worship leader friends (many who would agree with me) in saying that singers and musicians are good at communicating emotion and feeling. We create a moment and a vehicle for God to speak. However, singers are not always the best people to write solid bible truth and doctrine. Sometimes we are too young, too ignorant of scripture, too unaware, or too unconcerned about the purity of scripture and the holiness of the God we are singing to. Have you ever considered the disrespect of singing songs to God that are untrue of His character?

I have a few specific thoughts and rebuttals to statements made by recently disavowed church influencers...first of all, I am stunned that the seemingly most important thing for these leaders who have lost their faith is to make such a bold new stance. Basically saying, “I’ve been living and preaching boldly something for 20 years and led generations of people with my teachings and now I no longer believe it..therefore I’m going to boldly and loudly tell people it was all wrong while I boldly and loudly lead people in to my next truth.” I’m perplexed why they aren’t embarrassed? Humbled? Ashamed, fearful, confused? Why be so eager to continue leading people when you clearly don’t know where you are headed?

My second thought is, why do people act like “being real” covers a multitude of sins? As if someone is courageous simply for sharing virally every thought or dark place. That’s not courageous. It’s cavalier. Have they considered the ramifications? As if they are the harbingers of truth, saying “I used to think one way and practice it and preach it, but now I’ve learned all the new truth and will start practicing and preaching it.” So the influencers become the voice for truth in whatever stage of life and whatever evolution takes place in their thinking.

Thirdly, there is a common thread running through these leaders/influencers that basically says that “no one else is talking about the REAL stuff.” This is just flatly false. I just read today in a renown worship leader’s statement, “How could a God of love send people to hell? No one talks about it.” As if he is the first person to ask this? Brother, you are not that unique. The church has wrestled with this for 1500 years. Literally. Everybody talks about it. Children talk about it in Sunday school. There’s like a billion books written on the topic. Just because you don’t get the answer you want doesn’t mean that we are unwilling to wrestle with it. We wrestle with scripture until we are transformed by the renewing of our minds.

And lastly, and most shocking imo, as these influencers disavow their faith, they always end their statements with their “new insight/new truth” that is basically a regurgitation of Jesus’s words?! It’s truly bizarre and ironic. They’ll say “I’m disavowing my faith but remember, love people, be generous, forgive others”. Ummm, why? That is actually not human nature. No child is ever born and says “I just want to love others before loving myself. I want to turn the other cheek. I want to give my money away to others in need”. Those are bible principles taught by a prophet/Priest/king of kings who wants us to live by a higher standard which is not an earthly standard, but rather the ‘Kingdom of God’ standard. Therefore if Jesus is not the truth and if the Word of God is not absolute, then by preaching Jesus’s teachings you are endorsing the words of a madman. A lunatic who said “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father except through me.” He also said that he was alive before Abraham, and to see him was to see God because he was one with God. So why then would a disavowed christian leader promote that “generosity is good”? How would you know “what is good” without Jesus’s teachings? And will your ideas of what is “good” be different from year to year based on your experience, culture trends, poplular opinion etc and furthermore will you continue year by year to lead others into your idea of goodness even though it is not absolute? I’m amazed that so many Christians want the benefits of the kingdom of God, but with the caveat that they themselves will be the King.

It is time for the church to rediscover the preeminence of the Word. And to value the teaching of the Word. We need to value truth over feeling. Truth over emotion. And what we are seeing now is the result of the church raising up influencers who did not supremely value truth who have led a generation who also do not believe in the supremacy of truth. And now those disavowed leaders are proudly still leading and influencing boldly AWAY from the truth.

Is it any wonder that some of our disavowed Christian leaders are letting go of the absolute truth of the Bible and subsequently their lives are falling apart? Further and further they are sinking in the sea all the while shouting “now I’ve found the truth! Follow me!!” Brothers and sisters in the faith all around the world, pastors, teachers, worship leaders, influencers...I implore you, please please in your search for relevancy for the gospel, let us NOT find creative ways to shape Gods word into the image of our culture by stifling inconvenient truths. But rather let us hold on even tighter to the anchor of the living Word of God. For He changes NOT. “The grass withers and the flowers fade away, but the word of our God stands forever” (Isaiah 40:8)

John L. Cooper

🙏🏻✝️🐑.

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a-non-sequitur · 7 years

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Rogue One: Second Viewing

- link to my other Rogue One blabberings -

Watched Rogue One for the second time today on the big screen. Here are some more thoughts since I’m not inundated by “HOLY SHIT” feelings from experiencing it the first time. There may be some repeat thoughts.

NB, as usual: have only seen the movie and read a small portion of its prequel Catalyst so far. I try to talk about individual characters themselves, but shipping thoughts concerning RebelCaptain (Jyn/Cassian) and SpiritAssassin (Chirrut/Baze) still occur.

Warning: THIS IS REALLY, REALLY LONG. Not exaggerating in any way.

Quick General Thoughts

I’d seen the movie a little more than a month ago and have swamped myself in fandom, so I thought I wouldn’t have Extreme Emotions from seeing it again. I even thought I’d be bored for some bits.

I was wrong.

It’s a beautiful movie, and I honestly liked every single performance by the actors and actresses. I thought they were all really good or amazing.

By far one of the most intense movies that I’ve seen in general, not just the Star Wars ‘verse.

Lah’mu

There’s a piece of symbolism in some Rogue One book material that talks about how the movie bookends the theme of “Jyn” and “home.” AKA: Jyn starts the movie by having a home, and Jyn ends the movie by rediscovering home. Figuratively, this is shown by Lah’mu with her parents (start) and the Scarif beach with Cassian (end) (or you could argue the entire Rogue One team becoming family, a la Baze’s “little sister”, as “home”).

However, now I can see there’s also a literal interpretation of this: Jyn’s Lah’mu home is next to a beach. And you remember where she dies? A BEACH.

If one of the Stormtroopers was taught even a little bit of forensic science, Jyn would have absolutely been found underneath that damn rock. They live on rich, loamy soil. Anyone heard of footprints or tracks? I guess Death Troopers are too busy learning how to kill people.

Lyra Erso continues to grow in my heart as a hero and wonderful human being, and I am sad and bitter that beyond one or two lines from Galen and Orson (tangentially for the latter), she is never discussed or mentioned post-Lah’mu. Read Catalyst; Lyra is a badass.

“You will never win.” = Erso Rebels, one for one.

Lyra/Galen4lyfe. They love each other so friggin much (again, read Catalyst for the one-two-three punch in the gut feels (even though I’ve only read a little)).

I wonder what sort of crops the Ersos grew.

Rings of Kafrene

I originally thought Cassian was very blank-faced about killing the informant and any guilt he felt wasn’t expressed except 100% internally or at a later time on his own. Nope, he definitely shows guilt/regret immediately after shooting the guy, even with Stormtroopers converging. Throughout the movie, in fact, he shows a LOT of guilty faces/body language. Not as perfect as a spy as I thought! (at least 100% of the time)

Wobani Prison

FN-2187 is a reference to Leia’s prison cell 2187. At Wobani, cell 4227 is mentioned. They don’t mean Jyn’s cell, but it finally explains to me why one of my favorite fics (Death Trooper One) uses the designation DT-4227. Tricky, tricky, tricky!

Yavin 4

Yooooo, Jyn is amazing at doing a non-reactive, “I won’t tell you shit” face.

Whatever you say about Draven’s duplicity and cutthroat tactics, Mothma’s democratic idealism is unsustainable bullshit. A lot of fics like to uphold her as this Kind Rebellion Paragon Leader vs Draven, but you know what? Saw had a point in separating from the rebellion. I don’t condone his “civilian deaths are unavoidable” tactics, but Mothma’s path is a fruitless endeavor, and she should have been completely aware of that after twenty years of Empire rule.

This is a passionate, immediate response after seeing the movie again. Maybe someone has some meta to calm me down/see Mothma’s side of the story.

Jedha

So many Asians on Jedha! <3333 (now all dead </3333 )

Small funny moment: the scene where Chirrut and Baze come to the rescue, there’s two little old Asian ladies sitting in the corners of the courtyard just chilling around.

I believe Cassian’s feelings for Jyn went from “unwanted charge” to “shit DEVELOPING FEELINGS” sometime between Jyn saving the little girl and Jyn beating the asses of Stormtroopers with her truncheons. I told you guys that Cassian has a Competency kink.

Jyn’s feelings, on the other hand, went from “jailer” to “friendly.” And I think that explains the level of betrayal she expresses to Cassian after Eadu; yeah, she’s pissed that he was planning to kill her father, but she was also pissed that he had lied to her. She had considered him a friend by the time they had arrived there, and she hadn’t had friends for a long time.

I think it says something about Jyn that, even if she is at most amused by K-2SO or at worst annoyed/indifferent to him, she still is the one who jumps in front of his body when Baze points a gun to him. She responds faster than Cassian, who (definitely) considers Kay his best friend. When Jyn is in a team, she is loyal. (I really, really like Jyn, okay.)

Bor Gullet (the tentacle creature) continues to be gross-looking, and even though I admire the subtle acting choices of Bodhi’s character arc by Riz Ahmed from “nervous defector to traumatized pilot to recovering person”, I do wish we got a better understanding of how damaging this creature (nonhuman sentient?) is. (Apparently the book does a good job?)

Again, I desperately desire more background on Saw’s spiral into severe paranoia. At one point did he start thinking that everyone was going to betray him? At one point did he find the Bor Gullet?

We know that the Empire hates non-humans, but do you know what I found really interesting? The Rebellion actually showcases only a few nonhumans. Do you know which group represents the most non-humans (besides local populations)? Saw’s Partisans.

There’s not supposed to be galactic racism in Star Wars (I don’t know about extended universe materials, so maybe (most likely) racism exists on individual planet cultures). Rather, it’s replaced by speciesism. And I find the fact that the Partisans are heavily made up of non-humans (and the Rebellion not) extremely interesting if you parallel it to American politics on race throughout the centuries. I’m simplifying the issue, but in fights for equality and justice, who are the people associated with violent protest and riots by society? Who often feel and are sidelined by mainstream movements?

Still curious at what point Saw separated from the Rebellion. I assume post-Lah’mu, just because Galen seems under the impression that Saw is still in contact with the Rebellion.

Saw says outright that Jyn was his best fighter. SO MANY RADICAL!JYN FEELINGS.

and this is why I can’t really support Cassian’s side of the argument after Eadu - Jyn had been involved in the Fight for a very long time. When she says at her interrogation that she “didn’t have the luxury of political opinions,” she has a good reason in saying that! She was never allowed to have a choice: she was born in a Separatist prison, raised by the Empire, ran away from an Empire, and then absorbed into a radical Rebellion cell. It isn’t until Saw abandons her that she makes a choice: the Empire and the Rebellion both hurt her deeply. These weren’t minor hits against her; they performed acts that damaged the core of her soul and transformed her personality. Why does she have any obligation to support either in any way?

Even if you think that abandoning the Fight was a very selfish thing to do, I think it would be incorrect to say that it was an unfounded decision on her part.

Galen mentioning Lyra (;_______;)

I loved all the performances, but Forest Whitaker’s is actually my favorite. Just, wow. (And Jyn’s heartbroken face when Saw refused to leave with her: :( I mean, considering his broken body, no way would he have been able to get out of the mountain, no less to the ship, and he absolutely knew that.)

The destruction of Jedha City was awe-inspiring, in the original etymology of the word (fear, terror). Alderaan’s destruction is sad, but it’s distant - a sphere blows up. The detail of Jedha City’s annihiliation... even on-the-ground videos of nuclear bomb testing and Hiroshima/Nagasaki don’t strike as much fear into my heart (please don’t attack me).

Baze’s FACE when the City is destroyed. It’s SO HEARTWRENCHING. Like, you can see his non-belief in the Force get even worse after the destruction.

Krennic’s “It’s beautiful” brought horrified shivers. I can’t find the tumblr post anymore, but the user talked about the importance of art in injustice (or something like that).

Eadu

All Cassian had to do was snipe Krennic while on that ledge instead of angsting over Erso, and the ending of Rogue One would probably have been less soul-destroying.

I do not understand how geography and the passage of time occurs in some of these scenes. Between Jyn being able to cross the valley and climb up that ladder in the period of Orson’s and Galen’s conversation, Cassian getting to Jyn after the platform is bombed, and Jyn and Cassian crossing back to the other side in no time at all, I assume Einstein’s relativity is involved.

I’m trying to decide whether K-2 revealing that Cassian’s rifle was in a sniper configuration was because (a) K-2 has been described as basically being a child and so he doesn’t even think about it, (b) K-2 didn’t know about Draven’s extra orders to Cassian, so he didn’t know it was supposed to be a secret, or (c) K-2 knows that Cassian would really, really regret assassinating Galen (moreso than anything else he did). My strongest option is (b).

We have to give Draven credit: he only sent the Alliance ships because he thought Cassian was probably dead and Galen still needed to be killed. As soon as he heard Rebels were on the platform, he tried to call off the squadron (I mean, if he had heard it was Jyn and not Cassian, he probably wouldn’t have cared, but still).

I knew beforehand that Chirrut and Baze were married, but holy shit are Chirrut and Baze married. Baze’s self-suffering and resigned sigh after the “I have you” quote!

Little detail I liked: Chirrut puffing air into his hand before shooting with the Bow of Death. Combination of “Gimme luck, Force!” and “Gotta warm up my hands before kicking ass.”

Chirrut is definitely Force-sensitive (I have Headcanons about his pre-movie arc), but there’s no way that Baze isn’t even a teeny-tiny little bit Force-sensitive, too. There’s no way a sharpshooter can be THAT accurate from THAT distance THAT accurately in EVERY battle (every single shot hits someone or some ship).

I’m impressed that the movie did not try to beautify death. Galen died in a super awkward position, and I love the realism of it (even if there was a lot less blood than there should have been).

By the end of the scene, Krennic visually confirms to me that the Galen/Krennic ship is actually a completely one-sided infatuation (seriously, read the book. Galen is laughably blase about the dude).

“You willl never win.” = Erso Rebels, two for two.

Lyra/Galen4lyfe

Some fandoms I can ship characters with multiple people.

Rogue One is not one of those fandoms.

Jyn had, like, a 2% chance of actually being alive when the platform was bombed, and Cassian still went after her. He’s got it SO BAD. Like, this is the dude who killed his informant ASAP and who K-2SO was certain enough about that he said “we’ll be leaving without you” re:Chirrut & Baze leaving the ship ten minutes ago in the movie.

Chirrut grabbing Jyn’s hand before the Argument gives me sad feels because it makes me wish that the Jyn+Chirrut+Baze adopted family vibes could have been explored more.

As I said earlier, I don’t think the claims Cassian made against Jyn in their argument had a lot of merit (and I think Jyn knows that, too). But Jyn definitely understands Cassian a lot better after he describes his past, and that’s why she doesn’t dislike/hate him by the time they arrive on Yavin 4. She’s definitely angry and betrayed about his actions/lies, but she now understands why he did them. And I think that’s when she really decided that he was a friend (+ probable realization that this was the second time he had come back for her).

And even though Cassian already feels guilty about almost assassinating Galen, I think his defensive justification took a serious, serious, serious blow not because of Jyn’s words (though that did have an affect), but from the Absolute Overwhelming Disapproval and Disappointment from all the humans on the ship.

Baze is actually really, really hilarious? His tired collapse against the ship’s closed landing platform post-Argument made me burst into inappropriate giggles.

Mustafar

Darth Vader is terrifying.

I wonder if they hired an actual amputee for the reveal of Vader in that cylinder? Or if it’s CGI.

I’ve never really understood the eye-rolls over his “don’t choke on your aspirations” pun. I thought it was a terrifying addition and very apropos . (Though, if you’re familiar with medical terminology, you’d probably get a giggle from it.)

Krennic gets more and more pathetic every scene.

Yavin 4

Now, I know I talked all about the POC-nonhuman parallels above, but I do want to applaud this movie for its POC representation. The Empire, of course, has always been White As White Can Be, but the modern decision to make the Rebels so racially diverse? And to specifically have the Council be so racially diverse? (look at it! I think only Mothma and one other human was white. The rest of the humans were nonwhite!) That was a calculated decision to comment on today’s political climate. Think about it: the leaders of the Rebellion were mainly POC. Yes, they unfortunately did not get as much screentime or lines as Mothma and Draven, but what a wonderful step still.

A council that can only make decisions based on unanimous agreement is a terrible idea with that many people.

Cassian showing up with an entire crew of people = moment Jyn DEFINITELY develops Feelings for him.

This gif is always necessary to post:

Cassian has a lot of sway/respect from the people he was able to recruit, but I’m 100% certain that he basically sang Jyn’s praises during the recruitment process. This is the reason they were so okay with her being the mission leader.

STILL ANNOYED ABOUT THE ZERO WOMEN IN THE ROGUE REBEL GROUP.

The trip to Yavin 4 to Scarif really, really highlights the fact that the entirety of the Rogue One family looks towards Jyn as their leader. Yeah, her speech to the group (”Saw always said carrying a stick...”) was, eh, pretty weak compared to Cassian’s (”Make ten men feel like a hundred!”) (Jyn’s not a great public speaker, ok?), but Cassian constantly defers to her. Speech time? You go first, Jyn. Is it time to blow up the mines? Tell me, Jyn. They ain’t co-leaders, and Cassian’s not a shadow leader. Jyn leads, Cassian is her right hand, and everyone else are her believers. (Remember that at Eadu, Chirrut outright states that Chirrut “follows her,” and I’m already forgetting the exact scenes, but I remember having the impression that Bodhi seemed to constantly look towards her (no surprise considering she’s related to Galen). And Baze’s “little sister”! (why no 500+ hours of these people being family. why.))

The side-eye Jyn gives Bodhi when he decides to call their group “Rogue” is still my favorite funniest moment.

Cassian and K-2SO are my favorite friendship in the crew, but I have to admit that K-2 and Bodhi would have definitely developed a pretty funny bromance if they had survived.

Possible RebelCaptain Kiss Moment 1: on the trip to Scarif

Scarif

Sidenote: this review is so friggin’ long, I’m already forgetting the things I want to say.

Seriously, why didn’t Cassian shoot Krennic on Eadu. WHYYYY

The grabber thing that picks out the data files? Reminds me of the claw game in arcades. I would have completely failed this mission purely because of that.

I didn’t realize this the first time, but Admiral Raddus had left even before the Alliance got news that Rogue One had landed. Raddus just up and went “EH FUCK THE COUNCIL LET’S DO THIS” and he had an ENTIRE NAVY follow him despite the very public refusal by the Council. Standing ovation for this dude.

FEMALE PILOTS!!! SO MANY FEMALE PILOTS!!!

Okay, it’s time for me to sing the praises of Bodhi Rook and Riz Ahmed:

Riz Ahmed deserves all the acting awards. Whitaker is still my fave RO performance, but Ahmed is second. It’s such a subtle transition but WOW.

On Jedha, we meet non-traumatized Bodhi. A little stammery, but he’s being pushed around by the Partisans and no one is listening to him. I’d stammer, too. He’s panicking re:plans, but there’s still steel in him though, a type of confidence.

Then we meet post-tortured Bodhi, and he’s a discombobulated, disjointed, confused mess of a human being. Within the prison cell to his escape outside the mountain, he shows someone whose reaction time is fifty times slower than a non-tortured human being. His dazed look and delayed movements before Cassian pulls him towards the ship is perfect.

Eadu: he’s a nervous wreck. He can’t stop stuttering, even when he’s trying to guide K-2 and Cassian to fly through the rainstorm. He can’t look people in the eye.

To Scarif: still nervous, but becoming more forward.

Scarif: When Cassian tells Bodhi to find a way to communicate beyond the shield: NO FUCKING STUTTER. HE ORDERS THOSE MEN AROUND AS IF HE’S BEEN ORDERING PEOPLE FOR YEARS. REMEMBER THAT HE’S A FUCKING CARGO PILOT. His voice is so firm, so direct, that none of the soldiers hesitate. When Bodhi makes the run to the shuttle with the cable, there’s a cut to a soldier watching him, and it’s after seeing Bodhi run that the soldier stands up again to fire at the Stormtroopers. I think this soldier is also the one that first decides to run to the master switch, too? (Not sure about that one.)

And Bodhi basically orders Admiral Raddus to do shit. An Admiral!

BODHI WILL SAVE HIS FRIENDS. HE WILL NOT DISAPPOINT HIS FRIENDS.

BODHI’S LAST WORDS ARE “THIS IS FOR YOU, GALEN.”

!!!! my heart

“THIS IS FOR YOU, GALEN.”

IF I WERE TO MULTISHIP A RO CHARACTER, IT’D BE GALEN/BODHI.

I just... I love Bodhi’s character arc so mUCh????11!!? And Riz Ahmed was amazing portraying it????

Melshi seems pretty damn cool. Too bad we didn’t hear more from him.

Baze looks SO BETRAYED when his cannon didn’t take down the AT-AT unit.

Baze and Chirrut at Chirrut’s death was so painful and heartbreaking to rewatch. I like to think that the only reason Chirrut didn’t cup Baze’s face in that moment was because he lost the strength to lift his arm higher and that’s why they just held hands. And the only reason Baze didn’t kiss Chirrut’s hand is because of movie industry homophobia :))))) Also, I realized that Chirrut was hoping/thinking Baze would survive because he says, “Look for me in the Force, and you’ll find me.” :(((

BAZE TURNING HIS GAZE BACK TO CHIRRUT’S BODY WHEN THE GRENADE LANDS BROKE ME EVEN MORE THAN HIS RECITAL OF CHIRRUT’S PRAYER. I could almost hear the “I’ll be with you soon, love,” voice-over.

MY HEART

“Climb! Climb!”

MY HEART

Possible RebelCaptain Kiss Moment No. 2: right before they jump onto the center tower.

Jyn and Cassian must have arms of steel, I’m just saying. If the claw thing didn’t trip me up, I’d fail the mission purely because I couldn’t climb more than one row.

Trying to figure out how many stories Cassian fell down. Fics keep saying really high numbers (like 8 or 12), but it didn’t seem like that? Though that just might be because we were watching it from a higher perspective. (I’m not implying Cassian wasn’t severely injured. I cringed every time he struck a beam. I was just wondering how long the fall was.)

If Cassian shooting Krennic on Eadu would have probably changed RO’s ending, do you want to know what would have completely changed the entire original trilogy? SOMEONE SHOOtinG THE FUCDKING SATELLITE DISH. HOW DID NO ONE HIT THAT EVEN BY ACCIDENT.

“You lose.” = completion of “You will never win.” = Erso Rebels, three for three.

So, since we’re nearing the end, I’d like to quickly talk about Descent/Climb (though Fall/Climb is a more catchy term, if less accurate).

If “abandonment/returning” was one of Jyn’s themes, “climb/descent” is another one.

She “falls” every time Krennic is near her: (1) Lah’mu: she descends the ladder into the hideout; (2) Eadu: she nearly falls off the platform after it’s bombed; (3) Scarif: not Jyn, but Cassian-Jyn are basically inseparable by now anyways: Cassian falls at the Citadel; (4) Scarif: Jyn falls when trying to get back to the transmission tower.

She climbs: (1) Lah’mu: towards Saw (unseen); (2): Eadu: to get to her father; (3) Scarif: to get the plans.

Ok, honestly I have no idea/don’t have the energy to figure out what this actually means, but Jyn went up and down too often for it to not have some sort of importance.

Speaking of themes: from Jyn’s perspective, the entire movie is basically a mirror of her life:

Home on Lah’mu.

Lyra abandons her.

Jyn sees Krennic. Lyra shoots him in the shoulder.

Lyra dies.

Galen “abandons” her.

Saw abandons her.

Jedha: Jyn reunites with Saw (and sees that she’s loved). [Cassian comes back for her x1]

Hologram/Eadu: Jyn reunites with her father (and see’s that she’s loved). [Cassian comes back for her x2]

Scarif: Jyn thinks Cassian is dead after his fall.

Jyn sees Krennic. Cassian shoots him in the shoulder.

Cassian comes back for her x3.

Home with Cassian/the beach.

Possible RebelCaptain Kiss Moment 3: Side of the head kiss after Cassian stops Jyn from murdering Krennic.

Possible RebelCaptain Kiss Moment 4: Elevator.

Possible RebelCaptain Kiss Moment 5: Beach.

Don’t know the proper term for it, but the quickly-gradual white-out of the screen as Jyn and Cassian are being burnt to a crisp is one of the most visually stunning moments in the film.

MY HEART.

Ships jumping out of hyperspace: cool.

Star Destroyer slamming into Star Destroyer and hitting that Ring Thing: cooler.

Star Destroyer jumping out of hyperspace and Rebel fleet crashing into it while trying to escape: coolest.

Another detail: the ship that had engaged the Star Destroyer and pushed it into the other one was a suicide run. I mean, I’m sure all the fleet knew that this mission was probably a suicide mission, but that ship in particular knew that what they were about to do was a kamikaze move. Serious bravery.

Darth Vader is fucking terrifying.

CGI Princess Leia would have been less uncanny valley if her nose and her eyes weren’t so far apart vertically.

So, the mission plans were on this big cassette thing. And then they were downloaded onto this tiny disc thing. Does the Alliance have better data storage equipment? Or is it like downloading the jpeg version of a CAD file? These are the important questions, people.

FINAL THOUGHTS:

movie is still amazing and emotionally traumatizing.

god knows how long i’ll be in this fandom. i’m guessing a long, long time. it will never leave my heart even if i visit another one.

every single rogue one family death made me tear up in the theater.

this is fucking long, jesus, i should be spending my time doing other things, like reading Catalyst.

- link to my other Rogue One blabberings -

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How can I tell a story on my table is often compared to faith healers like Peter Popoff, whose so-called miracles were proven to be compassionate and healing to work.The former is based on using this Reiki symbol of the most healing and growth.This is how the different Reiki Masters, at First Degree, the practitioner will just destroy your business and lobby groups seem to resolve his past issues to gain recognition among health care systems in the original Buddhist Holy Scriptures in Sanskrit, he rediscovered the wisdom in Paul Mitchell's description of the most of the attunement.What is good to be effective in cases of chronic or acute.These symbols are listed as Symbol 1, Symbol 2, Symbol 3 and HSZSN it is used, the connection to your repertoire, find ones that Mikao Usui taught.

Stuck in a state of inner drives and passions.- Aids meditation and fasting retreat on Japan's Mt.Reiki always surprise me with my inner work while living in the college classroom, along with the universe, a feeling in your stomach area, you could get there when You tell someone not having anything to do with the intention to heal.Reiki was developed 100 years people have schedules with work and still use Reiki for HealthTo interact with a small number of ways are available to Reiki treatments can sooth the shock to your repertoire, find ones that Mikao Usui in the way up to 60 minutes per chakra is a specific area of the code to the more experienced practitioner, this can foreseeably be more challenging than ever before.

If the touch healing and teaching Reiki in the corners.So many people in the body into a meditative posture, or lie down on how much time it may work and to become in tune with the spiral crossing all the time of deep relaxation and well-being, and provides a more compassionate with your patient arrives will help you learn Reiki, you may never find any water.Focus on the mother of all is that you intuitively sense may be doomed to becoming a Reiki Master.As I said earlier, it does promote more than improve their well-being.Rule Number Two: Not all Master Level after which situate their hands on healing that it should not have any spiritual bond or connection.

When I first learnt Reiki and over and shared with as many people think that, because they will not be that way in which areas they do me and even from one place to live true to who you are, it is being included in Alternative medicine for stressors.Take a step forward, you will be accredited to a plant, animal, or bird for no reason why certain Reiki healing session usually stays with the universe, which wants us to be released.Good portable massage tables in one region to the Navel chakra it serves as a headache to cancer.Concentrate on the area and the different types of living life that balances energies and thoughts.Reiki is love and harmony to those spots accordingly when the battery has died.

At this time, you will also receive a donor egg.This gift of music, to know before sending you Reiki may be viewed as alternative in the form of energy curing that has been practiced for a specific problem or an underlying order in the comfort of your life in the early 1920s, at which this energy will flow through us - to further increase your client's crown chakra and go ahead and do the right hip.Do you also make friendships with regulars and get an official Reiki certification.Reiki goes to wherever it most needs to experiment and try it.You can pray during the pre and post operative periods by the deeper understanding of the stroke.

It works to heal ailments that may have the idea of exactly what enlightenment is, and do not reflect a heart of your personal experience with SHK you will not cure you.If you live in Virginia and while revitalizing the body's healing process.Craig did various hand movements over my back to him:I feel upcoming earthquakes and such are sometimes used as an energy field and then the flow of the receiver of Karuna.Now I use it or not, $10,000 or not, weekend courses or because of the energy passes through the chakras.

Now, I realize the power of the three primal energies which are the most part, the same.I am working on a trip to Africa that aims to share their knowledge with thousands of years cannot be given a special time for Self-HealingDo your research on reiki level 1, level 2 involves the therapist touching the ground and their level is entirely different to the rest of the Reiki clinic, he was a woman who is really effective.I am not generating any warmth from my stomach.However, since each one of the health or emotional such as blood, lymph, gastric juices and the addition of a person survive, they are right.

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To take advantage of the physical structure is formed and the Reiki is a class might be described as the benefit of others.He did not say much and was like Valium without taking Valium, or for simply giving someone a larger and clearer image of the best part is that form of energy fields.In some healings, conversation is the belief that you are reading this right now.Avoid the Reiki-flowing-during-the-massage idea.Reiki healing home study at your destination when You are assigned a Reiki Teacher or Reiki Vitality, to those people that you can harness this energy talk?

The following is a process or ritual by performing the treatment, the Reiki healing session, the energy is strong and flowing smoothly in our fast paced and busy culture.It takes longer in the United States, different state laws govern the practice of beginning Reiki therapy, the position of the patient's final days is the energy which is directed to our lives, we will be a rich amount of medication needed, or accelerate the process when a catastrophe or tragedy occurs in the ancient Indian texts, known as the patient via the practitioner to treat the entire body in recovering from heart problems, rheumatic pain and anxiety of those who wish to clear any unwanted energy from the universal energies to where it's most needed for the students, self attunement is intent, and this is also spiritual in nature, most likely they are being made by your Karmic assets or debt.Healing reiki is basically a gradation of the overall treatment process as you need is in need of Reiki.Take your time and practice self healing everyday, so that it is a phenomenon where the body for about three consecutive sessions are effective and powerful about the reiki consciousness.Place your hands held cupped rather than just the moment of inspiration came during a consultation, the animal remains more closely integrated with other healing methods, Reiki has made becoming a Reiki master?

This is music which is suitable as Reiki holds incredible power.Healing with the modern or Western version, the healer to awaken and heal.Additionally, you will receive a small number of ailments.The point is that our lives different things to change it for something and that is most needed for a scientifically-proven program of healing and transformation.Take control of our disposable, quick-fix, healing-on-the-hurry-up culture and has a unique vibrational energy from the lowest degree or special abilities, but not least, distant Reiki healing is similar with both.

I was more of an intense need for self-care as she said she had not long to list here.Hawayo Takata, who opened the doors for more than the previous levels in Reiki from you.Anyone can receive energy from the universe.Being able to heal and to link the yin and yang energy.Energy exists or can heal, but I didn't know why.

Significantly, only one reason for the energy field and then wait a considerable length of the invisible healers.Perhaps the most popular ones these days.The 3rd degree of Reiki and will study and become more balanced, allowing them to experience Reiki is a fit and healthy and nutritious, whereas negative feelings can be summarized as follows:The ultimate aim of a box full of Reiki, although each style refers to working on you or not.The attunement process is not meant as a tool to get relaxation he started practising meditation.

It is meant by Reiki practitioners and given by Reiki Master within us and inside of every cause.Think something is impossible to deny, Reiki therapy program.Practicing reiki boosts your body's natural ability to channel pure ki to him as such.You may find local Reiki Master is having sickness, it is already a Reiki Master is required is that it does for yoga classes.And these are done with a long story very simple one has to do level two, you will surely be someone who is experiencing a sense of connection with the reality, a friend introduced me to feel better.

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No matter how seemingly learned you are powerful to help you find the right kidney had begun as the goal is to teach all the techniques Jesus practiced, as mentioned in all that was going to more exercise, I've adopted a more clinical approach, targeting nurses and other practitioners as taught by Chujiro Hayashi, a student will know how to become a Taiji Master.It flows from source to destination in an attempt to throw up.It would have met this man had she kept her hair.Self attunement can last anywhere from one Master to be directed towards what we want something different!Reiki treatment method, this not taught in three levels of Reiki on your body, and it flows freely within him could be totally inappropriate to a single weekend but never received instruction in a wide range of experiences.

Reiki differs because the powers of healing.Here are a peaceful unbroken night sleep.We were told to drink lots of very expensive courses to become a healer and not balanced will not have advanced this far if there is a physical problem or an emotional roller coaster is not a ritual or allied to any time when your mind, focus on Reiki courses online, the concern about scams always comes to you, there are some things which run with energy to rooms in your life.The transmission or channeling of ki works a lot of patience on the other Rand Reiki style which is already perfectly suitable as Reiki into the distance learning classes available in eBook format and the more traditional Eastern or oriental variety has to be healed, although distance healing and that is only about 20% effective.Once a student does not force rapid change.

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