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#pretty sure i wasnt that much faster than yesterday because i thought hey getting off is a pretty efficient way to warm up the whole body
looselipssinkships-x · 5 months
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6mi//9.65km -> 51min:42sec (okay like 52-ish minutes. I was gonna cut it short to 5.5mi but changed my mind and walked back to where I'd changed paths and tried to match the music back up but my fingers were real cold so idk)
✨ slightly improved playlist ✨
- the sharpest lives (mcr) - hold me like a grudge (fob) - mama (mcr) - ohio is for lovers (hawthorne heights) - in bloom (neck deep) - saturday night again (pstump) - death valley (fob) - tiffany blews (fob) - sleeping in (atl) - flu game (fob) - g.i.n.a.s.f.s. (fob) - the kintsugi kid (ten years) ((fob)) - rat a tat (fob) - twin skeletons (hotel in nyc) ((fob)) - so much (for) stardust (fob) -
A few tweaks to yesterday's playlist! Overall I liked it. Once again typing this from directly in front of my heater because I realized the landlord is supposed to pay heat (there is definitely something wrong with my heater and im not comfy leaving it running constantly but it's nice to sit in front of for quick thaws). It was a whole degree warmer today (5*F/-15*C lmao)! I finished my run most of the way through twin skeletons (esqueletos gemelos en español as i learned) and spent smfs stretching and sitting on the railing of the porch watching my breath spill out because once again, the song demands it.
Now to wait for the gym to open at 7a, then come home and shower before catching the 9:30a bus to the mall to get a spanish workbook and take a lil walk <3
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into1-wonderland · 3 years
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Baby!Into1 x Daycare au | Intro
(ft. Bo Yuan as the caretaker of the 10 chaotic bunch, ranging from the ages of 3-5)
a/n: hello hello yumi here~ so this is the first into1 au of mine that will ever see the light of day. at first I was going to write things for it, but honestly I'm going to make it into a series with incorrect quotes to attach with it. this post will be the bios of all the babies and our lovely caretaker Bo Yuan, so enough of me babbling and I hope you guys could enjoy~
First off, we have the Caretaker™ Bo Yuan:
my mans is like in his 20's rn
wanted to open up a little day care as like side job/internship because he wanted to teach kids in the future so he was like “might as well start working with kids now!”
and so
he did it
only regretted his life decisions when his devil number 1 and devil number 2 does something bad
other times he really enjoy looking after them! and he doesn’t even feel like it’s a job!
has been thinking about taking a field trip with all 10 of them but he’s afraid: 1) he might lose one 2) he might lose himself 3) can they behave themselves
his favorite thing to do is having all of them gather around while reading a fairytale to them for nap time
or sometimes he would sing a song
he has a lot of favorite things in day care, literally having all 10 of them just there makes him happy
except when lin mo and nine is having a scream off:
lin mo: ahh
nine: aHH
lin mo: AHH
nine: AHHHHH-
bo yuan, running into the room: what’s wrong?
ak: screaming
bo yuan: why?
patrick, with his hands over his ears: TO SEE WHOS LOUDER
all the other boys: *nods*
isnt always watching the kids 24/7, since day 1 when the kids came in he told them the rules of the daycare and kinda just let them familiarize the place
(bo yuan: its a daycare, and they are kids, they are suppose to have fun!
keyu, in the back, mumbles: i wanna climb the tree in the yard
bo yuan, turns around: keyu no)
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And now we have the kids!!
Liu Yu:
4 years old
very quiet, just likes to sit and read and draw
the most obedient one, and likes to follow around bo yuan
well,, most of the time
he’s played a few pranks on bo yuan like:
bo yuan: liu yu nap time is over you have to wake up
liu yu: *not moving*
bo yuan, gently nudged liu yu: liu yu wake up!
liu yu: *continues to fake sleep and not move*
bo yuan: *leans closer to liu yu’s face to make sure hes not sick or has a fever*
liu yu, scares bo yuan: WAH
bo yuan: liu yu dont do that! you scared me!
liu yu: *giggles*
likes to stretch and bend himself in odd positions
(bo yuan: everyday I’m in fear that he will snap himself in half)
kinda an introvert but once he hangs around everyone for a bit he will open up to them and fit himself in very well
likes to organize and keep things how he found them/have special places where he organizes his toys
jiayuan: *moves liu yu’s fan*
liu yu: hey! put that back!!
has really good etiquettes and never really fights or argues or bicker with the other kids
but likes to joke around and mess around with once in a while
patrick: wahhh i put my cupcakes here who took one!
liu yu, hiding it behind his back: idk maybe keyu took it?
the least of bo yuan’s worries since he’s always in bo yuan’s sight, also he’s aware of his surroundings so he actually helps bo yuan make sure everything’s okay
(bo yuan: i made a checklist for myself on the whiteboard and liu yu likes to check things off for me, he said “coloring in the boxes is fun” so now he's the reason why i get all my work done)
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Santa:
4 years old
riki’s best friend
super happy and bright, like a ray of sunshine
is easily scared
lin mo: hi
santa: WAHHHHH BO YUAN GEGE
really likes bo yuan, would stick on to him a lot and ask him about everything
santa: bo yuan gege whats this?
santa: bo yuan gege what’s that?
santa: bo yuan gege what are you making right now?
hangs out with liu yu and mika a lot (other than riki)
riki is older than him but would hold riki’s hand and take him around like a didi
also really likes racing with mika for E V E R Y T H I N G
(bo yuan: yeah couple days ago they tried to race who can fall asleep faster but because they kept on peeking at each other so they basically didn’t sleep till i said i’ll watch for them)
really likes to dance, every time he hears music he would start grooving around
loves learning new things, which is probably the reason why he always asks bo yuan so many questions
also least one of bo yuan’s worries, just gotta make sure jiayuan and lin mo don’t pull pranks on him
(bo yuan: well they dont really pull prank pranks, its just once lin mo grabbed a frog and started running around and showing it to everyone, but lin mo lost grip and the frog jumped on santa)
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Rikimaru:
5 years old
looks like he’s 3, acts like he’s 3, but is actually 5
best friends with santa! always sticks around him and likes to tug on a corner of his shirt out of habit
bo yuan: alright everyone it’s nap time! i’ve made the beds for everyone
riki, sees his bed is not next to santa: bo yuan gege can you switch my bed next to santa? i wanna be next to santa
he didn’t start speaking till he was 4 so he often stutters when he talk and just looks confused a lot (it's because he’s thinking and formulating his words)
santa and the other kids would always have to interpret for him
bo yuan: riki I brought some snacks today do you want cookies or marshmallows?
riki: ???
santa, motioning with his hands: bo yuan gege said do you want the white fluffies or brown crunchies
riki: oh! crunchies!
squishy cheeks,, bo yuan’s favorite thing is to squish his cheek everytime he sees him
riki: gud mooning bo yuan gege!
bo yuan, squishes riki’s cheeks: ahh I haven’t seen you in so long good morning!!
nine: wait wasnt riki here yesterday??
also likes to stretch,, often seen around with liu yu and they just help each other
(bo yuan: i am afraid he will snap himself in half too)
not too much of bo yuan’s worries, besides the fact that he might get kidnapped because he’s so oblivious
(bo yuan: we were playing outside in the yard once and riki just wandered off because he thought the neighbor’s flowers were pretty)
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Mika:
4 years old
also kinda an introvert, doesn’t interact with too many people
usually it’s santa that approaches him first or keyu^^
found a ukulele in the toy bin one time and wouldn’t let go of it (he claims it’s his now)
his favorite activity at daycare is when they all sing together, that’s when he smiles the most and has the most fun
the one that likes to nap the most
also likes to help bo yuan cook once in a while (mostly just having mika washing vegetables and passing things to bo yuan)
very laid back and not noisy (till he starts playing the ukulele)
often gets scared by lin mo’s sudden screams (actually, lin mo scares a lot of people, sorry to mika’s ears)
also not one of bo yuan’s worries, literally there’s nothing to worry about with mika, all the kids just likes to sit around mika and pet his head so he keeps everyone safe
(bo yuan: one time I couldn’t find any of the kids in the play room, apparently they were all in the napping corner petting mika’s head since he just got a hair cut)
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Nine:
4 years old
loud, very loud.
pouts a lot
everyone calls nine cute, even the boys who are younger than him
likes to boss around patrick because he’s older
nine: patrick gimme that juice box!
patrick: you’re closer you get it!
nine: i’m older than you!
literally scared of everything
if he hasn’t seen it before and it’s living, he’s scared
jiayuan: *holds a bowl of tadpoles*
nine, several feet away: WAHHH WHAT IS THAT
the happiest when he gets snacks + real food food
also really likes to sing!! his favorite thing is watching disney movies because there’s so much music in it and he just loves to sing along
he’s not part of bo yuan’s worries because he’s literally scared of everything, but nine is really naive and would do things that the other kids tell him to do so, it’s a 50/50 on nine
(bo yuan: there was an edible decorative flower on keyu’s birthday cake couple days ago, and somehow jiayuan convinced nine all flowers were edible. so today during outside time nine almost ate the neighbor’s flowers)
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Lin Mo:
3 years old
LOUD. VERY LOUD.
probably the craziest most hyper one out of them all
he and jiayuan always have something bad planned
literally doesn’t have a moment where he’s calm
constantly in bickering mode with ak
lin mo: NO IM RIGHT
ak: NO. IM RIGHT
patrick: what are they arguing about?
keyu: *shrugs*
but is also best friends with ak so he’s also calm around him
(bo yuan: yeah these two have on and off days, you can never predict it)
and also constantly naruto runs around the daycare
bo yuan: lin mo stop running!
lin mo: *nyoom*
he also once nyoomed into keyu
keyu: ow what was that for?
lin mo: you were in my way!
and now he nyooms into keyu for fun
a very good mood maker
likes to smile/laugh a lot
would calm down if you show him a movie or a cartoon
number 2 on bo yuan’s worry list because he’s the "bad influence" for everyone, also he reduces hearing for everyone
(bo yuan: i’ve secretly made a tally book on how many times i have to say “lin mo” in a concerning tone this week and he came in 2nd. he was only here for like 3 days!)
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Zhang Jiayuan:
3 years old
YOURE THREE STOP SMIRKING LIKE THAT
couple months younger than lin mo but this is the real culprit under a lot of his and lin mo‘s plans
it’s just because jiayuan has a lot of crazy ideas and he says them out loud and lin mo is just like “yes”
also sometimes they are just accidents, but he's always doing weird questionable things with lin mo
got really sad one time because he brought tadpoles and put them in the fish tank and killed them since the fish went nom
but then started to constantly catch for tadpoles to feed the fishes
bo yuan: jiayuan stop, you’re killing the frog population!
jiayuan: but the fishies are hungry *pouts*
likes to fight/mess around with keyu for no reason
keyu: *sitting there, drawing*
jiayuan, with a squishy hammer: *bops keyu’s head*
but also will protect keyu if anyone tries to mess with him
lin mo: *nyooms into keyu for the 3rd time of the day* jiayuan, hugs keyu: stop hurting him!
the calmest thing he likes to do is taking care of plants, probably because he saw bo yuan spraying the plants one time and he like to squeeze the spray bottle
number 1 on bo yuan’s worry list, this child is literally not safe alone or with anyone. they were trying to celebrate keyu’s birthday and jiayuan tried to touch the candles, while it was lit, by the flame.
(bo yuan: i just got the tablets and haven’t set up children mode, so i’ll take the blame for this one. but also why are kids so good with technologies nowadays??)
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Patrick:
3 years old
squishy :D
smiley :DD
favorite thing is nap time and snack time
somehow knows every location where bo yuan hides their snacks
bo yuan: *getting the snacks that he hid in the piano*
patrick: *sitting next to the window sill with the snack* hi~
of course bo yuan can never get mad at patrick for eating the snacks because patrick doesn’t do anything bad
also he's a growing child
best friends with keyu,, and drags him on to “adventures”
*the daycare got a new toy play house*
patrick: bo yuan gege, keyu and I are moving out so we can go on an adventure!
keyu: I didnt agree to this??
wants bo yuan to add dress up into the daycare games, since he wants to dress up the other boys in the daycare
patrick: i call it, patrick fashion!
not part of bo yuan’s worries till he’s on his hunt for the hidden snacks, just because bo yuan is afraid he might hurt himself
(bo yuan: i started hiding the snacks higher up and one time i saw him trying to climb on keyu’s shoulders to grab it)
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Zhou Keyu:
3 years old
smart, but really clueless at the same time
tall, but has the personality of smol
likes to draw
also likes to read with patrick,, but usually patrick falls asleep so it’s him, the book, and a sleeping patrick
wears glasses all the time since his vision isn’t so good but somehow he makes glasses look good on him???
has a chain with his glasses because there too many glasses incident with keyu
glasses #1 keyu: I don’t like them! *takes it off and loses it*
glasses #2 keyu: *takes them off for nap time, but riki accidentally rolled on to them and snapped it*
glasses # we don’t know how many: *disconnected from the keyu universe*
also like a month younger than lin mo but literally has to make sure lin mo doesnt “blow” the place up
lin mo: what if I stuck this fork into the pluggie thing?
keyu, picking lin mo up: nope you’re not
when keyu is clueless he either stands there or just sit there and space out, not really noticeable but bo yuan ran into him doing that a couple times
(bo yuan: I thought he was an ai that was malfunctioning, it scared me at first but now I know he just doesn’t remember what he’s doing)
oh did I mention this,, even though he’s one of the youngest, he’s the tallest, with that advantage he likes to try to pick people up
jiayuan: keyu pick me up!
keyu: no
patrick: keyu likes me more he will pick me up!
keyu: no
patrick: *pouts*
keyu: *tries to pick both jiayuan and patrick up at the same time*
bo yuan, running over: ZHOU KEYU PUT THEM DOWN YOULL BREAK YOURSELF
not too high up on bo yuan’s worry list, give him a piece of paper or book or anything he would just calmly sit there and do something with it
(bo yuan: every time when we do art or reading its so hard to pry keyu away, he has to finish what he was doing and he’s so concentrated he doesn’t hear anybody)
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Liu Zhang (AK):
4 years old
loud, VERY LOUD.
he doesn’t know he’s loud
bo yuan: ak you don’t have to yell
ak: OKAY
monopolized over all the instrument music type of toys in the daycare
bo yuan: ak you know you have to share your toys right?
ak: I gave the ukulele to mika
honestly having ak is like having a walking megaphone so bo yuan ended up actually making ak his little helper for announcements
bo yuan: ak go tell everyone is lunch time
ak: alright!
ak: *da da da running to fetch his little stool*
ak, stands on a little stool in the middle of the play room: ITS LUNCH TIMEEEEEE-
nine, swats ak’s leg: YOU SCARED ME
the only time ak is quiet is when he’s around lin mo, he kinda just likes to watch lin mo and follow him around so that’s that
unless lin mo starts messing with him, then you just lose your hearing for the day
also at first bo yuan was trying to see what ak is interested in, and he taught ak hot cross buns on the bells and thought that would calm ak down,, but oops ak ended up making more noises
patrick: I WANNA SLEEP AK
(bo yuan: I swear something happened to this kid or something. he’s not hard of hearing but he’s just naturally so loud)
i too would lose my hearing if im around ak so much
not to high on bo yuan’s worries but he just make sure ak isn’t being too loud and bothering the other kids, usually he’s pretty good about that but you never know when a little patrick will start napping or anyone really so gotta contain his energy
(bo yuan: ak is usually the first one that’s awake from nap time but its usually like 5-10min before everyone else so i told him he can go and play but he just has to be quiet)
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alrighty !! now you've met everyone in the daycare, what kind of fun and chaotic adventures are they going to have??
(all future daycare au things will be incorrect quotes + short little one shots, this intro mostly served as a bio so you understand their personalities a bit, and i hope you enjoyed it!)
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qilwashere · 3 years
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Hinata Shoyo
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Hinata is your neighbor, and you've known each other for the past few years.
You met him near the bathrooms by the water fountains at one of his games, ironically, right after he had gone into the men's room to empty his stomach, since he used to get nervous all the time before a match. Since then he's gotten better, but you still worry for him sometimes.
You always help each other with homework or volleyball, although it's kind of one-sided, since you're super smart and he's very dedicated to being a middle blocker.
You always thought of him as a best friend, nothing more, although over the past few weeks, you'd been questioning yourself about that. He's been hanging out with you less, but youre pretty sure it's just because he's been busier lately. Sometimes your anxiety gets the best of you and you wonder if you did something to provoke him to not want to be around you. Every time this thought pops up in your head you have to take a deep breath to rid your brain of it.
At school his grades have gradually getting worse so you proposed a study date. As soon as you asked him you went red, hoping he didn't take it the wrong way. "I-I didn't mean a real date, it's not like--" you stumbled over your words, but he interrupted you with a laugh and said "Sure, that'd be nice. Whatever day you're free," he smiled at you. You nodded quickly and agreed on a Wednesday. You both parted ways until the set date.
At around 5:40 that Wednesday, you pace around your bedroom waiting for that familiar chime coming from your front door, letting you know that Hinata was there. It never arrives, and your worries that he's trying to keep out of contact with you come flooding your mind once again. You hope that at least he'll text you that he couldn't make it, but no chimes come from your phone either.
The next day, Thursday, at school, you don't see him in any of your usual classes together, which concerns you because he almost never misses a day. Is he sick? you wonder to yourself, and can't get him off your mind until your friend Yachi invites you to her table at lunch to discuss the new club openings that they could join together.
You start to ask her if she's seen Hinata but stop yourself mid-phrase and continue eating.
The days drag along. You haven't heard a thing from Shoyo all week.
You make a last attempt to contact him by texting, "Hey, we missed our study session :p wanna try again tomorrow?" It was a Sunday, so you felt like the next day would be a good time. It surprises you when he responds almost immediately after with "Sure :D See you at school :)". Your heart leaps but you remember that this could all be a set up.
Nah, you reassure yourself, Shoyo's way too nice for that.
For the rest of the day you surprise yourself when your feet guide you to the school gymnasium. You walk in hesitantly towards the door and remember that--
Of course. Why did you think the gym would just be open to anyone? On a Sunday, at that? You bury your face in your hand and turn back when someone comes up behind you-- Yachi.
"Hi Y/N! What are you doing here? I came because I was forgot my bag in here on Friday and never got a chance to get it back. I figured I'd stop by and pick it up before school tomorrow," she says casually. You stare at her wide-eyed. "...Is something wrong?" She asks you. You shake you head no but reply, "I was.. uh, well I was hoping to practice volleyball drills for a bit." Your response surprises you, since you'd been happy to talk with people about it but never really played the sport, or seemed interested in doing so.
"We can't get in without the key, though, so--" you start, but Yachi cuts you off: "Oh, that's no problem, I'm the manager of the volleyball club! I thought I told you... Anyways, let me just make sure I have it on me--" she pauses and pats herself down until she finds a keychain in her pocket, "--we're good!" She says cheerfully.
Your bubbly friend unlocks the key to the Karasuno gym and pulls the basket of volleyballs out of the corner. You grab a ball and toss it up, lace your hands together and face your forearms towards the ceiling, and bend your knees to receive.
The toss was off so you have to shift to the left a little to receive it right, but the feeling of it bouncing off of your arms is so... exciting. You shuffle your feet quickly forward to get directly under the ball again and - POOMF - you hit it up perfectly again. The ball comes down once more and this time when you receive it, you decide to send it over and aim for the left corner of the court. You brace your arms, wait for the point of contact, shrug your shoulders and send the ball flying up... Over... And right inside the left lines on the other side of the net.
You pat yourself on the back for a second and continue doing some volleyball practice. You practice aiming your tosses and have Yachi (attempt to) give you some good sets for spikes. After about an hour and a half, the sun starts to disappear behind the hills. You pick up the balls with the new club manager and say your goodbyes before heading home.
Once you get to your room, you notice that your laptop is open so you decide to check your socials. You try to deny it but you know you're secretly hoping for a DM from Shoyo. As you scroll through your messages you start seeing chats that you hadn't opened in a good while. They don't interest you, though, because you just want to hear from that energetic tangerine-haired boy.
You slump onto your bouncy mattress and it seems to groan in agony as you get comfortable. Eventually your eyelids grow heavy and you decide to rest.
That next day, Hinata comes over to your house,  and you're just hopping into your neatest skirt when you open the door. You're ready for your study date, but before you can stay anything, he grabs your hand and almost drags you down the block to a wide field. As you're jogging beside him on that cloudy day, struggling to keep up, you sneak a glance at him and notice that he's looking happier than you'd ever seen him. You smile to yourself, look down, up again, and run faster to challenge his speed.
"No fair, you got a head start!" He pants, and you laugh.
Eventually you get to a large field with tall grass and a few dandelions.
"I... Need a break," you can barely get out as you bend over and breathe hard. Hinata does the same thing, and after a moment he says, "Hey, (Y/N), see that really tall blade of grass over there?" He says to you. "You mean the one that's taller than you?" You joke, and he scowls. "....Yeah, that one. I'll race you to it!" He taunts, and you gladly accept the challenge. Forgetting about school for a while, you sprint towards the grass towering over all the rest. He beats you, as always, but you don't care because even if you lost, you had more time to spend with him and that's all you needed.
By the time you reach the grass, you're both too weak to stand up, so you lay in the field, next to each other, hands just barely touching, and look at the clouds in the sky. You breathe hard and think about your best friend beside you, and feel yourself blush as you smile to yourself again.
It's quiet so as you push yourself up on your elbows, you try think of a way to start a conversation. "I, uh... I practiced some volleyball yesterday." You stumble over your words, but he perks right up at this, wide-eyed since you're not exactly the athletic type.
"Really?! How was it? Did you hit a spike? Did you practice your tosses? How were your receives? When the ball hit your arm did it go 'poomf?'" He bombards you with questions, doing the same movements he usually would on the court, since this is his area of expertise.
You try to answer him the best you can, "Well, actually, I did try to hit the ball over - Yachi, the new manager, tossed some balls to me - but they always hit the net... My sets were pretty good, and, I could control my receives!" You got excited near the end, almost bouncing, because the few times you practiced with Hinata, strangely, you struggled the most with your receives.
Hinata seems to remember that, because when you mention your improvement, he almost yells, "That's great Y/N! We should practice one day!" You agree with a giggle.
After a few minutes, the world seems to calm down, and so do you. Taking in loads of air at a time, you stare at the sky and try to trace shapes in the clouds.
"I miss you," Hinata says suddenly, almost under his breath. It surprises you and you go silent for a while. "I..I missed you too. A lot," you add, unsure of how to really respond.
He sits up and says, "I'm sorry we haven't talked, it was an accident. I got caught up in volleyball and my failing grades but-- but the few days I haven't seen you made me realize that I want you... More than you, or I, even know..." He trails off, playing with his fingers, and your heart skips a beat.
"I need you, (Y/N)." Hinata mumbles, staring at your bright (E/C) eyes. You nod, not knowing what to say. "Can I.. can I have you?" He asks, embarrassed. You nod again, harder, and grin at him. "Yeah," you just barely whisper, gazing at him as if he were the only thing in the world, and for that minute, he was.
He returns the smile, and it seems like, for that second that he does, the clouds go away, almost like they're making room for the ball of sunshine sitting next to you.
In that moment, with the (real) sun setting, and the dandelions swaying in the slight breeze, you realize that you do love this boy, and that you'd do anything for him. You move your hand slightly to the right so that your pinkie is resting on top of his. You sneak glances at him, and wonder if something's gonna happen.
Shoyo is quiet for the  rest of the time, and you don't kiss, but that's okay because...
Because he's yours. And you're his. And that's a better feeling than any kiss could've granted you.
|~Fin~|
AHHH I know there wasnt much action lol I just had to do this lol. As always thanks for reading <3
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avangee · 7 years
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Vodka Redbulls (Joshler/AU)
Tyler was drunk. He doesn’t really understand why or how he got this fucking pissed. He only wanted a vodka redbull, just to see if the alcohol would make it taste bad. He did it for science! And science led him to drink nine more vodka redbulls, for trials obviously, Tyler had to try every redbull flavour with vodka for science. Not because he wanted to get drunk. No, just because his best friend got a girlfriend who is just beautiful and one hundred times better than Tyler, doesn’t mean he wanted to get so drunk he can’t remember it. Alright, maybe he did want to get a little drunk. Debby was cute and pretty and great, Josh really liked her. Josh and Debby have been dating one week, Tyler was happy that Josh had found someone, at first. What he didn’t realize was that Josh wouldn’t call him at three am to talk about a hypothetical alien invasion anymore or that they wouldn't  hang out and watch crappy sci-fi movies together on Tyler’s couch on top of eachother because sitting up is tiring.
Tyler didn’t want to loose his best friend at all, ever. Apparently, the universe did not agree, they wanted him to suffer without Josh to complain to because Tyler’s only fricking friend’s always fricking busy with Debby.  Yesterday it was going on a cute romantic picnic with Debby. Thursday it was going to Taco bell, Tyler’s favorite fricking restaurant, with Debby. Wednesday it was studying for mid-terms with Debby after Josh had promised Tyler they would hang out. And it goes on up until last Friday when Debby asked out Josh to Starbucks, when Tyler had planned to stay up all night with his friend playing video games and laughing at nothing.
Brendon was friends with Josh, and Dallon was a friend of Brendon, Tyler didn’t really know either so when they asked him to come to their party, he was kind of surprised. After lunch period, where Josh said he was going to be with Debby tonight, Tyler gave his answer to Dallon. He was frustrated his only friend didn’t seem to have any time for him. All Tyler wanted to do was make out with some cute chick and maybe see if a vodka redbull tasted good or not. He did not expect to be aggressively grinding on Dallon, the literal human tree, to the sound of some bad pop music and drunk off his butt. Dallon seemed to be into Tyler’s dancing, the tree was grinding back and dragging his hands up and down Tyler’s torso. It felt good, Tyler liked this way better than what he did with Jenna, his only ex-girlfriend. Maybe it was because he was drunk, or maybe it was because he might actually not be as straight as he thought, but Tyler was extremely turned on. Both him and Dallon were sweating heavily, the song changed to some song about a toothbrush or something, it was faster and Dallon grinded against a spot that made Tyler loose all self control. He moaned softly, and kissed the tree human with everything he had. It was fricking amazing, way better than the three chicks that had kissed him. Definitely not straight, he decided. He pulled off of Dallon and giggled, telling the tall one that he was going to get another drink.
In the kitchen, realization struck. Tyler made out with a dude, Dallon’s a pretty chill one but Tyler hadn’t ever though he was going to be tasting the inside of his mouth. Also, Tyler liked the scratch of stubble and the harshness of Dallon’s lips, way better than any kisses he had ever had from girls. Maybe he’s gay. Well, obviously he’s gay or at least bi. He downed a cup of straight vodka, no redbull this time, before he walked back out.
Brendon walked over to him and high-fived him, “Dude, I didn’t know you liked dudes. Also nice, if I wasn’t dating Ryan I would definitely be all over that tall glass of lemonade.”
Tyler laughed at the big-foreheaded guy, “I didn’t know either,” he said. Well, he meant to say that, instead he said, completely against his will, something about how he wanted to kiss Brendon’s forehead. Obviously, he did at that moment, but that’s a weird thing to tell someone. Fortunately, Brendon just laughed it off.
“Hey what’s the deal with Josh and Debby?” Brendon asked, he looked kind of confused, Tyler wasn’t sure what of though.
“They’re dating. And now Josh can’t even make time to cuddle his best friend while we watch Star Wars  because he’s off on some romantic picnic with Debby. Damn, they probably kiss like me and Dallon did. Is it weird that I kind of wanted Josh to kiss me that way?” Tyler rambled, only some of his words entirely clear because he was very drunk.
“Y'know I saw Debby with that girl Jenna like, it was insane. They were making out earlier upstairs.”
Tyler made some sort of gasping/ coughing noise, really? Debby was cheating on Josh? Tyler absolutely had to call his friend about this, only to make sure Josh wasn’t going to get hurt. Yeah, that’s the only reason.
“Hey, Ty, wassup?” he was greeted with when he made it outside where it was slightly quieter.
“Hey Joshy babe, I’m gonna n-need you to p-pick me up!” well, it’s not entirely a lie.
“Are you drunk? What the frick, man?”wow, Josh seemed worried about him.  He wasn’t worried when Tyler was texting him about his parents two days ago.
“Now you c-care? You didn’t care w-when I was crying w-when I j-just wanted you to h-hug me after m-me, when- I d-dun know wh-at I’m s-saying, alright just. I’m at Beebo’s, the f-forehead’s house, can you pick me u-up?” Tyler honestly didn’t know what he was trying to say with that, he didn’t even remember what he called Josh for after he hung up.
He walked back into the party, he felt sad for some reason. He poured himself another red cup full of vodka and chugged it. Dallon walked into the kitchen with some red haired guy who was in Tyler’s art class, Gerald or something. Tyler didn’t hesitate to pin Dallon against the fridge and attack the tall one’s lips with his own. It didn’t feel like it did while they were dancing, it felt empty so Tyler kissed harder. Dallon put his hands right under Tyler’s butt, it felt different but good, then Dallon picked him up and Tyler didn’t have to look up to kiss the other anymore. He wrapped his legs around the tall one’s waist, the position was perfect for Tyler to roll his hips against Dallon’s, so he did. He earned a moan from the other, it was amazing to feel the hot breath against his lips. Dallon moved his swollen lips to leave sloppy, wet kisses down Tyler’s jaw. Tyler tried to hold back a loud moan when Dallon bit down against the skin on his neck. Way better than any girl could do. The tall one walked to one of the kitchen counters still sucking and biting on Tyler’s neck. It really was amazing. Tyler felt Dallon’s hands move from his thighs only for them to be replaced by a countertop. That freed Dallon’s hand, and with that freedom long fingers began moving under Tyler’s shirt and pinching his nipples. Tyler’s gasp turned into a moan, it was way louder than what was probably alright in someone else’s kitchen. He liked it, so much, it felt so good.
Someone coughed behind them, Tyler opened half-lidded eyes to see highlighter-yellow hair attached to his best friend. He smirked and rolled his hips into Dallon’s, he didn’t exactly know what he was thinking in his drunken haze but he put on a show for Josh. He moaned, gasped and let his hands roam all over Dallon’s body. All while staring at Josh.
“Hey, Ty, I’ve gotta head back so if you still need a ride, I’ll just be in my car for the next ten minutes or so,” Josh explained after Tyler had started to rub himself through his jeans, but the yellow haired teen didn’t leave.
“Sorry, Dally, I gotta go. I might make up for leaving you like this n-next time, you’d like my mouth on you wouldn’t you?” Tyler looked right at Josh when he said the last part.
Dallon nodded, and Josh hurried out of the kitchen. Tyler hopped off the counter and kissed Dallon one last time before setting off towards where he thought might be the front door. The outside Columbus air felt great, he was way too warm from being around so many people all at once. Tyler spotted Josh’s car but not the owner, so he leaned against the front tire while sitting on the curb with his eyes closed until he heard grass being crushed in front of him. He opened his eyes to see his best friend, silent tears falling from Josh’s eyes.
“H-hey, what’s up?” Tyler asked, he never liked to see Josh sad for any reason, he wanted to make his friend feel better.
“Debby,” was all he got in response, Brendon’s words came back into Tyler’s mind. Frick, no this was a situation worthy of a real curse word. Fuck.
“Dude, I’m sorry,” Tyler slurred his words, and then laughed at himself before remembering Josh was sad, “Hey, w-wanna cry together at my place?”
Tyler saw Josh furrow his eyebrows, but the highlighter-haired one unlocked the car and got in. The drunk boy hopped into the car as his friend turned the ignition. Tyler looked at Josh, taking in his features. His brown roots were starting to show, and it looked like three day hair. He giggled at the thought of Josh passing up on showers just to do nothing, then he remembered that Josh wasnt doing nothing, Josh was with Debby for those three days. He felt sad again, it was like a twist in his gut. It was probably because Josh was his only friend, ever and it was real then just how easily he could be forgotten from the mind of his best fricking friend. He thought he might be depressed, Josh had left him and he had no one for an entire week. Then he went to a stereotypical college party to get drunk out of his mind. That might be grounds of depression.
“You’re hair’s p-pretty, Joshy babe.”
That was what came out of all Tyler’s thoughts of abandonment, not that he was angry with Josh, he absolutely should be, or that he was scared that he could be alone so fast, but that he liked Josh’s hair. Josh laughed a little, probably at how ridiculous Tyler is. How needy and clingy Tyler was. How Tyler was annoying and a whore. He definitely was acting like a whore with Dallon, he was minutes from actually having sex with the tall one. He didn’t mean to be a whore. He just wanted to have fun and to not be sad anymore.
“I-” Tyler broke off into a sob “-I-i’m I’m s-sorry.”
Josh looked over at him, he was a pathetic mess. Sobbing over nothing, dragging Josh into his drunken mess. He kept repeating the apology until he couldn’t speak through the sobs anymore. Josh had pulled into a parking lot of some store, and that made Tyler want to cry more. His friend probably wanted to go to sleep, or cry over Debby, not have to babysit a clingy whore while he cries.
Josh rubbed circles on Tyler’s back, Tyler didn’t deserve to be comforted. He deserved to die like the weak little child he was, he couldn’t even hear the words his only friend was saying to him and that made him cry harder. Tyler kept trying to say he was sorry but the words weren’t coming out, why couldn’t he do anything right? It doesn’t make sense, why was he even crying? Because he’s weak and he doesn’t deserve anything. He doesn’t want Josh to have to baby him.
“G-go, j-just just go,” Tyler laughed, he didn’t want to have Josh wait for him like some spoiled brat.
Josh drove off towards his house, thankfully. Tyler was trying hard not to make anymore noise, he didn’t want to embarrass himself. Apparently, vodka makes him way more anxious, he never used to over analyze anything with Josh but then he was scared to talk to his friend or even make a fricking sound. The car was silent the next seven minutes, Tyler knew it had been exactly seven minutes because he had fixated his gaze on the digital clock where a car radio used to be before it got stolen. It was a solar powered clock the two had bought at Target, Tyler found it ridiculous to put a small clock where a giant hole was but Josh loved it. Then came the unbearable silence. After only a day of driving without a car radio, both had elected to just play music from their phones.
Now there was no music and Tyler was completely lost in his thoughts.
They pulled up into Josh’s driveway, his parents didn’t seem to be home so that would let Tyler cry as loud as he fricking pleased. Josh didn’t make any move to get out of the car so neither did Tyler, ten unbearably long seconds of awkward silence Tyler started to unbuckle the seat belt he didn’t remember putting on. Josh grabbed his arm before he could leave, keeping him in the car. Tyler was ready to apologize for anything, fricking heck, he messed with Josh at one am on a Saturday. He didn’t want to look at Josh.
“I’m so-” Tyler was starting to say before he was suddenly pulled into a hug.
“I love you, you know that? I love you,” Tyler felt some sort of hope in those words that maybe life couldn’t be that hard if Josh Dun loved him. He didn’t get it. He didn’t get how with a few words Josh could make him feel all fuzzy and warm.
Josh pulled back from the hug but Tyler never wanted to let go. He wanted to hold his friend forever, and feel arms around him so he knows that someone loves him. Tyler pushed his forehead against Josh’s, it was uncomfortable maneuvering around the car’s interior.
“I love you too, Josh.”
He had said those words before, but this time felt different. Not only because of the vodka redbulls, but he felt everything in that moment. The slight choke of Josh’s breath, the way Josh’s eyes flicked from his eyes to his lips. Tyler felt everything in that moment. And nothing could ever top the feeling of Josh’s lips.
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