#please give me one break guys

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[snailwitdamail2]

If this gorilla guy dies I’m biting Wes Ball’s toes off

#So many gorillas died in the Caesar trilogy 😭 can we give these guys a break please... #ALSO? WHERE THE HECK ARE THE FEMALE GORILLAS??! 💀 #AM I CRAZY OR DID WE NOT SEE A SINGLE ONE IN THE PREVIOUS TRILOGY?? OR ORIGINAL MOVIES? #It’s been a while since I’ve seen the originals and Tim Burton one but like. Hello. Where are they #Wes Ball give me female gorillas and gorilla characters that don’t die I will be forever in your service #Pota #kingdom of the planet of the apes #shut up snail #originally was gonna write “bite Wes Ball’s balls off” #I think In the Revelations tie in book there’s a mention of. ONE. Count em #one!!! #female gorilla 🗿 #planet of the apes

[vurelly]

slaps a sticker on my chest that says "I may be a content creator but that does not entitle you to my artwork, time, or attention."

#vu talks shit #tw vent #in a way i guess it is #just #i know i said the other day that yall can start convos with me and ill talk #but the sheer amount of yall that are in my dms and inbox rn made me close both #because yall are SPAMMING me when i don't answer fast enough #like guys i have a job and i do commissions and i package orders all day i cannot answer immediately and SOMETIMES #i just straight up do not want to speak with strangers #especially not 20 at once #so PLEASE just give me a BREAK #also @ that one mutual who i started speaking with this aint about you #you've been a delight to speak with and i appreciate your patience when i take forever to respond to a message HGUARGVJF

[theofficialuriel]

what’s a girl gotta do to get more bernard dowd post-cult centric fics around here

#:( #PLS GIVE ME MORE TRAUMATIZED CYNICAL BERNARD #y’all already took his shitty parents’ traits and gave them to Tim’s #I need it like a drowning man needs water #I’ve seen like three rly good ones #I’m pretty sure all three are abandoned #PLEASE GUYS #no other character in the world has #break in a school shooting and then immediently joined a cult after #I can’t project him onto another character #guys please l #I need him to be sad and pathetic #funny Bernard is cute but give me sad #bernard dowd #dc comics #tim drake #tim ‘I can fix him’ drake #he did it to Bruce and he’ll do it to Bernard #(I don’t want him to actually fix him but you get the point) #(maybe one of the themes can be Tim’s need to fix people? Idfk) #GIVE ME MOTR TIMBERN POST CULT #timbern #im genuinely tweaking #I’ll give you my fic recs if you give me yours

[heymrspatel]

theme 15: @gallacrafts after dark 🌶

more chokey mickey & part 1 of kinktober

#miss me? #please have this gallacrafts or #part 1 of ? of no theme or prompt/doing whatever gives me the swoop kinktober #can you guys tell i have a neck thing by now oooorrr?? whatever look away #promise to give mickey's neck a break in the next one #gallacrafts #theme 15 #gallacrafts after dark #shamelessnet #myart #mygallacrafts #jdoeskinktober2022 #jgoeskinky #chokeymickey #shameless #shameless fanart #gallavich #gallavich fanart #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #ian x mickey #artists on tumblr

[sapphire-weapon]

My favourite thing ever is the way Ashley gets Leon to smile. Honest to god, his most sincere and genuine smiles are the ones he's given Ashley.

Now if she could just get him to laugh, that would be something completely unprecedented.

Sorry, it just occurred to me literally today that Leon never laughs -- even one time -- at any point in this series. Other protagonists, at the very least, laugh at how stupid a villain's plan is sometimes. Not this guy. Not our Leon. He's too dead inside. Bro doesn't even laugh at OG Salazar, who may as well have circus music playing in the background any time he's on screen. We stan a depressed king.

I was actually thinking about this a little last night -- again, in the context of the whole "Ashley is Leon's anchor to reality/his road back to himself" thing that I've talked about before, while also paired with the shitpost-but-not I made the other day about Leon's sense of self-worth and identity.

Leon drifts further and further away from himself as the series goes on, and not only does he not smile anymore, he becomes downright sullen. There was a time -- a significant period of time, actually -- where you could have said that one of Leon's defining traits was his optimism. That stops being true by the time of Damnation; Leon's optimism is replaced by hollow machismo in a poor attempt at a coping mechanism in that movie -- and, by the time of Vendetta, even the machismo has fallen to the wayside. By the age of 37, Leon has completely and utterly embraced the creeping sense of despair that's been hounding his steps for years.

That has never been who he was. But it's who he is now.

And, as soon as I had that thought, something occurred to me that I somehow had not noticed in the 18 years since RE4 OG has been out:

Ashley is a foil for Ada.

That wasn't her intended purpose when she was created, but it's the narrative role that she's come to inhabit as the series has gone on and Leon's character has progressed without her.

In OG canon, Leon thinks of Ada as a part of himself that he can't let go. But the longer he clings to her, the less of himself he becomes.

And the last person to actually see him as his true self, lifted up from the despair, and without hiding (fully) behind a veneer of machismo was Ashley -- someone he did let go. Even in OG, he is very genuine and very sincere with his affection for her (platonic or not) in a way he really isn't with anyone after RE4.

So, when you point out that his smiles for her are genuine, there's really something to that. He trusts Ashley with a piece of his heart that he doesn't show to anyone else post-RE2. Like, literally, the last person who probably saw him like that was Sherry, and we already know that Leon estranges himself from her almost completely after they're taken into CIA custody following RE2.

And the Remakes make this way more obvious than the OG games did, too -- not only because of the RE engine being great for facial expressions, but because of the way the script changes make certain parts of Leon's character more noticeable. If you go straight from RE2make to RE4make, the entire opening sequence involving the cops and the hunting lodge is absolutely horrifying. If I was a new fan coming in from RE2make to RE4make, I would be knocked on my ass and going "This is not my Leon. This is not the sweet boy that I know. What the fuck happened to him?"

RE4make does such a good job with sharply juxtaposing who Leon was with who he is now. By the time of RE4make, Leon is so beaten down and tired and closed off and angry and, honestly, scared -- that he almost kind of feels like a completely different character. Except, he's not a different character. He's still Leon -- just, Leon with his blinders ripped off and his heart broken.

And, we know that he's still Leon, because every once in a while, the sweet boy that we know comes back. It's infrequent, and it's only for a few moments, but he's still in there. And it always -- every single time -- is only ever Ashley that pulls it out of him.

And Ada? She forces him to retreat again immediately, and he locks himself back up tight.

So, when Ashley gets permanently erased from Leon's life and Ada becomes more of a permanent fixture in it, that sweet boy from RE2 disappears, and he's replaced entirely by the version of Leon that's heartbroken and angry all the time -- because Ada is a constant reminder of all that he's lost, whereas Ashley, as his only true success story, was a hopeful reminder of all that he could potentially be.

I honestly don't think that Capcom even realizes that this is how they've written Leon's character. I don't think it was intentional for Leon's smile to fade with Ashley's absence in his life.

But that's just kind of how it happened.

#resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #ashley graham #meta analysis #this one kind of hurt my heart ngl #i mean i love that leon suffers don't get me wrong #a happy character is a boring character #but goddamn man #can we give this guy a fucking break #can we get him some pussy that won't bum him the fuck out for once #will somebody please just be nice to him #and then fuck him so hard that he temporarily displaces from time and space #and when he snaps back into it he realizes how ridiculously hard he just came #and how stupid the look on his face probably was #and he just starts breathlessly laughing #CAN WE DO THIS FOR HIM PLEASE??? #CAPCOM??? #HELLO???

[st-dionysus]

Guy who lost hos job again and can't catch a break: Bartender, I'll have another glass of the cooking wine and a rum and cock!

The bartender, who is him and unemployed: I can't believe they fired me during pride month. This historic queer bar fired their only transmasculine person for Pride. Anyway, we're out of the cooking wine, so that'll be a double Bacardi with flat coke.

#saint speaks #saint speaks under the influence #can i please catch a break #alch mention #they apologized and wrote me a stupid little letter about how its not my fault #they just don't make enough profit to pay everyone and so someone had to go #and natrually it was the trans guy who had to go #the one the hired a #a literal month ago #going 'oh we can tell profit will pick up soon' only to realize that's not the case and just close the only day i work #and terminate me #but it's fine they;re happy to #give me a 'letter of recomendation' to any other bar in the area #as if any of them are hiring

[asterionscat]

Wow! Y'all really hate bisexual people!

#Martz small talks #Rant #Sorry just saw a post that was like #“bisexual people who identified as gay/lesbians but realised they're bisexual after dating one person #were always lying and were appropriating homosexuality (as being attracted to only one gender)” #Like. brother give me a fucking break #Idk if you've heard but there's this thing called the human experience #And. hear this. It's different for every fucking person #Which means no 2 experiences are identical #And a person can't know what others feel like #Sexuality is not as set in stone or simple or written into your genetic code like some of you believe #The labels you guys love to close people into are as made up as gender #And letting people explore themselves and change their identity if they feel more comfortable or feel like it describes them best #is not letting a person “appropriate” queer culture #It's just called letting people have basic human experiences! #So please stop accusing ever GNC person you meet to be faking or some shit like that #Ok I finished

[lightfulonion]

hii @pierogish-side!!! thank you for tagging me!! <3

Last song: This could be us by Rae Sremmurd

Favorite color: mmm really feeling brown rn

Currently watching: OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH WOOHOO!! its so fun (everyone is going through it)

Last movie: The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar dir. Wes Anderson

Currently reading: im currently studying for uni so im stuck at Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett and The Course of Love by Alain de Botton :(

Sweet/spicy/savory: sweet forever and always

Relationship status: uhhh im dying and rebirthing from my ashes 👍

Current obsession: .....kiribaku..... im back at it again OTZ

Last things I googled: wes anderson (so i could find out what the above movie was called lmao), werewolf (singular), boku no hero academia wiki episodes (this is a call for help)

Currently working on: im in my last year of uni (lmao pierogish... 😭) and i need to finish it so im studying really hard!!! (and trying to not give up) but itll probably be a while until i get my degree. also i bought an old polaroid from a thrift shop and im thinking of making it work

tagging: @skijjiki, @livingonyoghurtandspite,@peachybeesplease, @horson, @mars-matrix

#guys im gonna go back to my bnha era..... this was almost 5 or 6 (??) years ago and i was so happy but like......... #its been so long......... #i miss kiribaku so much and i hadnt had the mood for bnha since season 3 aired #i know whats going on in the manga (bc im noisy) and my interest is piqued and i probably will start reading the manga from the beginning #(im not kidding when i say this is a call for help) #if uni wasnt killing me softly (without a song or anything nice) and life was a little less uh 'much' i would have been reading so much #fanfic and (hopefully) drawing ;-; #i miss drawing #cant wait to reread chonideno's krbk fanfics!! they sure wont break my heart in tiny little pieces!! again!! (big faves please give them #a read if you want) #also i accidentaly (fate?) saw what 'mouthful' means in the 'you said a mouthful' sense and it has a positive meaning #specifically it means 'you are right' #'tasteful' has also positive meaning and 'touchful' doesnt exist (yet?) so thats how far ive come to my research #also completely irrelevant with anything ive said before but please if you can check out duolingo's insta profile and tell #me im not hallucinating #specifically the last and third to last posts. its one photo and one video #does it look like im stalling from my studies? (please say no) #get tagged #onion talks #i hope this whole thing didnt brought you a headache like it did to me...... theres a mismatch of so many different things......... #if you made it this far im gonna share with you one of my favorite songs im listening rn: brutus (Instrumental) by the buttress

[koumeowkami]

i honestly have no idea what's going on with hanadoll anymore i'm sorry hndl oomfies. i failed y'all

#paralive is eating me alive i can't think of anything else #ALSO THESE GUYS ARE RELEASING NEW CONTENT ALL THE TIME LIKE. give me a break please #didn't they release a new album some time ago . why are they already announcing the new one #🌸 ; lyn rambles about stuff

[nixtorr]

eight and liv but they enable eachother’s murderous tendancies instead of their actual dynamic

#eighth doctor #liv chenka #eight and liv but eight is the same eight who would have killed davros gladly if they were the only victims in terror firma #eight and liv but eight takes more traits from caerdroia’s the nasty one #eight and liv but eight resembles the eight who was like ‘give me the code and i shant break your arm’ #gets the code and whomps the guy’s head against a wall in vanishing point #eight and liv but eights character actually makes sense to be like that after de1 #im sorry but eight is rarely an optimist. he is however a hopeful realist #‘despair accords with reality but i insist on hope’ and such #he KNOWS the universe is full of evil but #his hope never stops him from doing horrible things. like killing the clock faced people in anachrophobia #in de1 he is faced with his despair after the death of lucie in the face of ww1 and the daleks and the fake reality made to please him #and when he thought molly had died when she fell. he still had hope. he still climbed back up. but he was still ready to jump back down #with the risk of death #he was going to go to the end of the universe to look for hope. he hurt the tardis and himself for it. #thats all good. thats sexy. but why after all that is he so horribly an optimist #why does he believe that the eleven can change after he's been like that since his second incarnation. lumps of rock evolving into flowers #the only nice incarnation of his being the eight but he was like that since he was born and he was obviously struggling #why does he treat dickbag landlord from better watch out like he has any empathy in him before hes literally dragged to hell #anyway. bitchier eight and bitchier liv i think theyd be great together #actually. the amount of bitch liv is is great already

[hotfuss]

so fun fact: my phone accidentally dropped from my locker yesterday breaking the screen completely, it has one tiny crack but the liquid crystals got busted, a repair will take either 3 to 7 days, depending if the express shipping is successful or not 😭😭

here the thing:

- i had to ask family to lend me an old fashioned alarm clock. i don’t think i have relied on one in almost 20 years!

- i now need to bring some mangas to read at work during my break, i have no news or anything else to read, nor music to listen to. yesterday i was literally bored to death just staring into the void once i was done eating

- no music on my commute unless i use some cds. which is some damage control but i like my music on shuffle!!! (before you get angry at me i listen to new albums in order but once i’m familiar with them they go in the shuffle bin)

- no music at home for the same reason! i either stick to cds or i need to make a huge effort to make a gigantic playlist with all the music on my phone (which is still a tiny fraction of what a normal person listens to but still). i suck doing chores while listening to music, now it’s extra hard mode if i can’t even listen to the music i want. no music i want when i draw or just chill in front of my laptop!! i’m suffering!!

- i never realized how much dependent i am on the small internet, having it on a small device means i can check it while on the bed or couch. now i need to drag my laptop everywhere and it’s more bothersome (needs to be plugged always, the old battery lasts no more than 20/30 minutes)

- i can’t document stellina being the cutest babie ever

- any kind of communication is cut off till i’m home in front of my laptop. and like i’m bound to be glued to it if i want to chat with anyone

#it's wild that i only got a smartphone with an internet connection only in july 2015 #it's barely 8 years and yet it shaped my life in ways i never noticed before #like how did i survive a 30 minutes break at work for 4 years without entertainment???? #also music #i listen to such few bands i can fit them all on my phone but!!! i need to listen to everything on shuffle #i'm so dependent on listening to music this way this is so tragic #anyway please give me the atheist equivalent of praying my phone will be repaired on friday #i got double unlucky bc the repair guy says he gets parts on wednesday but yesterday being tuesday afternoon was too late #if this happened one day prior i would had to suffer only one day... #i couldn't retrieve my old phone bc even if i never threw it away i never recharged it so the battery died for good #p

[dredshirtroberts]

well as it turns out, werewolf transformation is as painful as it looks.

in related news, guess who has memory problems and remembered their hormonal cycle directly impacts their chronic pain issues. (hint: it's meeee)

#like i appreciate the natural alert system i do #i'd like it more if it wasn't like a broken smoke detector going off because you need to change the battery but like that's not relevant rn #it's just like...i'd prefer not to lose half my month to being practically immobile for one week and then also for the next week too #(one for pain the other for Generalized Discomfort and then also sometimes still pain cause fuck me i guess lol) #like i'm not planning on using the eggs though i don't need to be warned that they're not fertilized #like...ninety percent of the reason i'd consider medical transition is because of this shit every month #or in some cases only in some months! i went most of the winter without it! just because! #it kicked back into normal as soon as the weather and lighting changed though and i'm pretty sure this has happened before #it's just like...annoying #like i could be sad about it or feel really bummed out or angry but mostly it's just like #i get one solid week of Being Fine About Everything a month and i just... #like between the pain that has been progressively getting worse beforehand #then the discomfort and such of during AND THEN as if that wasn't enough the DEEP DEPRESSION i can fall into both during and *after* #like it's just come on #come on give me a break here #i am just a little guy i deserve like just *one* win on this health-front please

[hella1975]

being a fearer of intimacy i have of course spent the past week compiling a mental 'pros and cons' list of dating my coworker, and of course one of the natural cons is the age gap. ill be 20 and he'll be 27 and it's just.... iffy, even if he's really nice. HOWEVER the immediate pro my brain met me with??? 'taylor swift was 20 when she dated jake gyllanhall and if he breaks your heart you'll be in your all too well era'

#catch me heartbroken SCREAMING the lyrics to this song like it already hits too hard and now this? okay #help this is so unhealthy i get asked on one date and immediately im preparing not only for a relationship but also the break up #ALSO hiiii guys so i know you might think you know me super well and we're all besties here and WE ARE but please just dont try #and give me advice about the age gap #like talk to me about ANYTHING else #but last time i posted about this i got a lot of 'SOMEONE THAT OLD SHOULDNT EVEN BE LOOKING AT YOU GRRRR' asks #and it's kinda annoying #like im 19 now but im 20 in literally 3 months (AKA WHEN I SEE HIM NEXT) #and dating around this age is very different to dating when you're a younger teenager #im AWARE and CAUTIOUS of the age gap but it's not inherently off limits the way it would be if i was 17 and he was 24 #so just like. dont try parent me bc i have a mother for that and she's much better at it than you #god bless <3 #hella slaves to capitalism #???????? ruining my grind tag with gross emotions ig

[ruthlesslistener]

Do you want to see buff Malenia porn tho? Twitter has some of it 👀

please god send me the links im so fucking starved for good malenia content and good er porn in general

#elden ring #listen. please. im just one bi trans guy thirsty for buff women here #give me a fucking break #anon #reply #nsft

[urostakako]

hhhhhhhh

#bruh. i had so much in my savings. and 700 dollars. SEVEN HUNDRED. went to my brother #are you fucking kidding meeee #im not a stingy person. i like money but im not greedy but are you kidding me. and most of it wasnt even for anything important #can this guy please just get employed and stop mooching off of me X) would be greatly apprrciated #bc i need money too??? #and literally i was sketching when he took it out of my hands and gave it to my grandma HELLO #i love my grandma but like X) maybe not when its literally in my fucking hands please #and shes flipping through it from the beginning brooooo just. give it back #my brother seriously does whatever the fuck he wants and im the one always taking care of everything #im doneeee let me relax for once 😭 im on break and ur literally making me do all this shit and stressing me out #and next week my parents will be gone and he mooches off of them too i'll have to do EVERYTHING my god #ok whatever. whatever #vent post #aricouldyounot