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normal-thoughts-official · 4 years

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Do u think magnus's character has any flaw? Like something that u don't like about him? Your least favourite thing about him?

daiudhsaiudhaisdsajdsa i swear to god pasta, if i didn’t know that this was you i’d have thought that this was bait

anyway, alright, imma start this one by saying that i don’t think of “flaws” in a, like, maniqueist sense of the word, if that makes sense. a “flaw” to me doesn’t necessarily make you a bad person, nor is it something that is your fault, in the christian guilt sense of the word. you know? so i just want to make that clear, i’m not condemning magnus for anything here. so i’m taking “flaw” here to mean common behaviors or personality traits that hurt others, your relationship with others, or yourself

so in that sense, i think that magnus’ greatest flaw is his struggle to communicate honestly

again, i’m not condemning him. hell, i identify with him a lot. throughout the whole story, we see magnus faking smiles, saying that it’s okay, that he’s not upset, trying to hide how he feels. he lied to alec about being alright with the loss of magic, he didn’t want alec to know about his past, he constantly pushed himself beyond his limit, almost depleted his magic a thousand times, etc. he always tried to hide when he was feeling unwell, and he struggled a lot with communicating what he wanted, what he didn’t want, what he could and couldn’t do, what his limits were

and that hurts his relationship with others, as well as himself, a lot, so i consider that his greatest flaw in that sense. i mean, it’s not like he’s that great of a liar, alec is just a dumb bitch and i remember tearing my goddamn hair out at how blind he was, but still, it’s hard to guess when you are still navigating your first relationship and you haven’t known each other for very long. and things could have been a lot smoother for the both of them if magnus didn’t struggle so much with opening up

one more time in case it wasn’t clear: I’M NOT SAYING IT WAS HIS FAULT. at this point we all know that magnus does that as both a result of his abuse, be it from Camille, Asmodeus, or the shadowhunters in general - whom all taught him that his needs weren’t important and pushed him until well beyond his physical and emotional limits, wore him out, tore him down, and built that as the default, as Magnus’ normal - and a defense mechanism (because if he’s not vulnerable, he can’t be hurt; if he doesn’t open up about the sides of himself that he doesn’t like, about his imperfections, his fears, and everything that might make him difficult to be with, maybe people will like him, and he doesn’t want to be alone). so saying that this makes magnus a bad person, or a liar, or a bad partner, or whatever, is just ridiculous. especially because the person most hurt by this tendency of magnus’ is himself. he hurts himself and puts his own wellbeing on the line constantly, he hides and he feels alone and like no one will understand him. he struggles to form close relationships because he never opens up, and he doesn’t get the emotional support that he craves because he can’t allow himself to let the weight off his own shoulders. and it hurts his relationship(s) (because obviously this is not just about his relationship with alec, it’s also about his relationship with Raphael, whom he’s always taking care of but rarely lets him do it back even when he wants to, whom he’s always protecting but can’t be fully honest about his fears with; with Catarina, with Ragnor, with Dot, with basically everyone close to him, because he has unlearnt how to let people give back to him. and that also means that he gets into a lot of bad relationships - romantic, friendly, or even just working relationships - because if the other person isn’t interested in reciprocating, well. they just won’t and magnus will take it), because people feel like he doesn’t trust them, or end up hurting him unknowingly, or struggle to know where the limits lie even when they want to respect them, because it’s kind of trial and error until you learn his telltale signs

so, yeah. that’d definitely be my #1 priority for him to work out in therapy lmao just. relearning to trust and to be honest and to listen to his own needs (because i do get the feeling that, after so long, he’s kind of unable to realize when he’s pushing himself too far until he’s too exhausted to keep going. and that doesn’t only apply to his magic and his work, but also to things like realizing that small things upset or hurt him, or that maybe he’s too tired to deal with a certain problem right now, or to ask for help or even a shoulder to cry on when he’s sad) and express them. and then learn to not take anything less than reciprocity. to put his own needs beside the needs of others, not behind, to let others care for him too. let magnus bane go to therapy 20forever

im not sure if that answers ur question since u said something that i dont like about him, which i think there isn’t really lmao but that’s definitely something that he needs to work on, for his own good above anything else

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normal-thoughts-official · 4 years

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3×12 as magnus's to do list: Make breakfast Tease Alec Be a brat in the name of training Get wrecked get dommed get tamed Go on a date Take pictures ALL IN ONE DAMN DAY!! Do u think he suddenly wanted Alec to be rough with him during sex because he thought he was undeserving of gentle lovemaking and that it might serve as reminder of Alec not leaving or he wanted to savour the moments he had left with Alec before he leaves him for good :)) ?? U can ignore this if u want gbgbyb

this ask has two very distinct vibes pasta

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normal-thoughts-official · 5 years

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At what exact moment do you think malec fall in love?that moment in 1×06 when Magnus uses Alec's strength and then falls down exhausted? It's such an underrated moment but one can write a whole essay on it

as a matter of fact, yes, i do believe it was the moment in 1.06 (there is a reason it is my header, after all) and im really glad u asked because its one of my favorite moments and Ive been thinking of making a post about it in forever but never got to it so [cracks knuckles]

well, actually, i think 1.06 was the moment magnus fell in love. i dont know when alec fell in love, to be honest - i think with him, it was just something that kind of settled and clicked into place, you know? there was that attraction and there was the fact that magnus was an amazing person who had amazing chemistry with alec and who fought for him and extended his hand and tried to comfort him without judgement when no one would really allow him to be himself - and who gave him a space to be more of him than any other. but i dont think there was a precise moment when it hit Alec, and suddenly he had fallen; i think he realised he loved magnus when he said he loved him, but at that point it was already cemented. alec is a steady, careful guy; when he falls, he falls hard and becomes an absolute imbecile but until then it kind of settles in slowly, lodges itself inside of him until its carefully in place, and he doesnt really know when it happened. honestly, i relate to that because that's how it works for me, too.

but with Magnus, it was a little different - he had closed himself off from love for centuries, and while obviously he only fell in love with alec because he was already on the pathway to recover and had been for a while now, sure and steady (alec is definitely the right person for him, but he also came at the right time, cuz if he hadnt Magnus wouldnt really be able to allow himself to give in to the obvious pull they had), breaking that kind of wall is hard and is, for many people, something that happens suddenly, all at once, like the crash of a tsunami wave; it kind of isnt there until it suddenly is, flooding out and filling you. and with magnus that's definitely what happened; he had a click moment, when suddenly his walls were down and he found himself feeling, despite himself

you can see a clear difference in how magnus treats alec in 1.04-05 and how he does in 1.06. in 1.04-05 hes flirty, yes, obviously interested, but hes doing it teasingly, playfully, confident in a way that is only possible when theres not much on the line. don't get me wrong, i dont think he was using alec or lying to him - that's not the kind of person Magnus is at all - i just think that it was harmless flirting and interest with not much at stake. he was keeping his kind of playboy, devil-may-care persona (with the exception of the moment when he told alec there was nothing to be ashamed of, because of course magnus "compulsive emotional support" bane would immediately drop the act when he sees someone struggle. ugh. and alec notices this, too, all right, he can see right through to the person magnus really is in that moment, even if he closes himself off). and that wasnt even just in front of Alec; the whole "playing hard to get, i love a challenge" thing was after alec had hung up, there was no one there, he was just talking to himself the dumb dork and it is clear there is not much at stake for him here; he isnt in love, so theres no chance of heartbreak

compare that to the way he acted during drinks with Alec in 1.06. its a completely different person. even in his posture, the way he looks at Alec and moves around him, his facial expressions, theres a softness and vulnerability that just wasnt there at any point before (did yall thank Harry Shum Jr for ur rights today? seriously the man is such a great actor his talent is unbelievable). and for magnus to allow himself to be vulnerable- well, that's big. that's what he was scared of, after all. that's what has brought him hurt and made him swear off romantic relationships for so long

and he says this; he opens up to alec, a person he barely knows, tells him a little about his past, tells Alec hes unlocked something in him. it's not harmless flirting anymore, its not just a mere pursuit of someone hes casually interested in; theres something way, way deeper going on, and this is abundantly clear throughout the whole scene and every single one of magnus' actions. magnus has fallen. this is serious now; hes feeling things he didnt even remember how to, and his entire demeanor changes.

and look, that's really important to me, okay, because i hate the whole love at first sight thing. so when i started watching sh, i was kind of turned off from malec because i was like "oh theyre gonna suddenly fall in love for no reason" but no. that's not what happened. they had attraction, and chemistry, yes, for sure, definitely, but the feelings that sparked inside of them were very much real and solid and built organically, even if quickly. malec is so powerful because their attraction and devotion to each other makes sense, and because their relationship is so trusting, happy, fun, and healthy.

so lets go to 1.06 - the defining moment, the big game changer for the both of them. i know the exact milisecond magnus falls in love - its this one

(gif isnt mine, i had it saved on my phone and dont remember who made it; if you do, please let me know so i can credit them)

bitch, you are seeing it happen!!! you're watching it, right now!! the way he looks up and his whole face changes; he goes from heavy breaths to these little puffs of air, looks up at alec in awe, and it's all over his face, the softness in his features, the open vulnerability hes showing for the very first time in the entire show - even when he was almost running out of magic, he still looked way more put together than he does in this moment; in here he is open, he has no masks, and hes absolutely soft and open and vulnerable. and you can see it dawn on him too, the realisation that he let alec in, just late enough for it to be too late. it's done. god, i cant fucking believe harry shum jr invented acting. like holy shit, dude

and alec sees it too; in this moment he looks down and he sees the vulnerability in magnus' face and he knows this is the real magnus; that's what he looks like without all the walls and masks, and it's just- beautiful. incredible. you can see the love and the softness inside of him and it's just so easy to find a home in those eyes of his, and ugh, i might be changing my mind, this was the moment alec fell in love too

but anygays, why now, right? what was the big gamechanger in this scene?

well, first of all, id like to stress again, just for good measure, that magnus was already well on his path to recovery from abuse and beginning to open up again; his journey through finding self love and strength to stand on his own feet and be able to open himself for others is his and his alone. alec could be his perfect match (and he is) (fuck it i dont care they are perfect for each other, i never really thought there was such a thing even in fictional couples but shit dude they really are as perfect as it gets, malec truly invented love its unbelievable) and it still wouldnt matter if magnus wasnt ready not only to open up, but to get in a relationship as his own person, and not putting himself down like with camille. of course, he still has a long way to go, and recovery is not a straight line, so he still does things like not tell him when hes hurt and downplay his own pain so as not to "annoy" him or whatever, but he is on equal ground. the very first thing that happens when they finally get together (after the whole wedding ordeal) is, they fight. because alec was being an asshole and treated magnus badly and was really rude and magnus was hurt and he was tired of always being the one to chase after Alec, and he told him that. that's extremely important, because it establishes that Magnus isnt just running after Alec or doing anything for him - he wants a mutually fulfilling relationship and hes willing to fight for it, demand it, not accept less than it. and that's fucking recovery right here, folks. it's so hard for previously abused people to do that. so hard. it still is hard for him, but hes doing it. so, again: Magnus' journey to opening up and finding space for a healthy relationship in his life is his and his alone. and they were lucky as shit to have met when they did.

so, with that being said: 1.06 (god, this answer is such a mess, im ndjdjdidicn). you can see magnus fall in love, right then and there. the moment it happens: when he falls, and realises Alec is still holding him, making sure hes steady. not just that, but holding his hand (despite that being totally unnecessary now), and asking him if he's okay.

it's really unsubtle symbolism (and i mean that in the best possible way): Alec holding him when he fell symbolizes support; holding his hand symbolizes caring, because he could just hold him as to not let him fall, but the fact that hes holding his hand shows that hes trying to support him not just physically, but emotionally; and asking if hes okay shows genuine worry and desire to listen to his needs. again, really unsubtle; but fuck it, that's also part of what makes it powerful, because when was the last time magnus had that, that open caring and supporting and reaching out for him? i mean, obviously Magnus has his friends who are amazing and great to him, but this feeling, of being cared for, so easily, so openly, so obviously, from someone who barely knows him, hell, from a shadowhunter - this is new. both because he hasnt really allowed it - after all, you need to fall for someone to catch you - and because he just. hasnt had that. every time before, when he showed vulnerability, he had his wounds open wide and used against him - with asmodeus after his mom, with Camille after whatever happened that made him consider suicide. and then suddenly this guy shows up, and Magnus didnt even mean to be vulnerable in front of him, not really, he was supposed to hold it, but he does and what he finds is just- caring. worrying. sweetness. a grounding presence and touch. alec is completely focused on him, and isnt rushing him to get back on his feet or anything - hes just holding him and being there for him. he wasnt even looking for it, and suddenly there it is - that trust and reciprocity hed been craving for so long.

and yeah, its unsubtle, but that's also there in more subtle ways; magnus asks for his help, and alec comes without questioning, even if he's mad with pretty much everyone involved. he asks Alec to give him his strength, and he does, openly, without walls - dude, that is so intimate, and you can see how easily the magic flows between them; that's something that can only happen so smoothly if the required trust is given without a second thought. alec is giving his life force to this guy, whom he barely knows, and he doesnt hold back at all - Magnus needs it, he gives it. easy, simple. trusting. an open, clear connection. hes worried about Magnus from the start; he gets in and his first reaction is yelling for magnus and kneeling beside him to make sure hes okay. hes already kind of holding magnus even before magnus falls; he puts himself in a position where hes kind of supporting magnus' weight, and just focuses on giving magnus what he needs. up to this point no one even bothered to ask magnus what he needs. and look, Alec isnt perfect, and he definitely still has his prejudices and ignorance at this point, but this is something special. having someone just give it their all to make sure ur okay, from the get-go, trusting you like that- that's not everyday. specially not for magnus. I think maybe Magnus wouldnt even have lowered his guard enough to have that stumble if Alec hadnt been so easily showing him hes in there together with him, as equals, without so much as a second thought- magnus' persona is polished. hes been through worse without stumbling both before and after. his guard was already down, because Alec had been showing himself to be trustworthy from the start.

and after that, it just keeps going. alec helps him clean up his apartment, without being asked, long after everyone else has already gone - he listens to Magnus talk about his past, attentively, without judgement. he even shows some vulnerability of his own - that fucked-stupid smile when magnus raised his hand to his lips, the glances he throws magnus' way, the way he even manages to talk a bit about his insecurities and confusion; hes opening himself up to Magnus, too. hes smitten. hes interested. the connection is established. he stays the night, and they end up talking all night long, despite the fact that Alec was called to work, and we dont even know about what. we know they are similarly competitive and have a good chemistry, so clearly this was a good, fun talk; but theres something running way deeper in there, too. magnus is showing alec a lot of himself, and alec is not only welcoming it, but reciprocating it as best as he can. that moment of spark isnt gone; it keeps growing, the bond that was formed gets stronger. at this point, Magnus has fallen (i firmly believe that he fell in that exact moment he looked up at Alec) but it gains shape and strength during that night and talk; its a little frustrating because Alec cant face what he wants, but the pull is real and strong enough for it to get stronger, the shapes clearer.

so- yeah. Magnus fell for Alec in 1.06, the moment he realised that he was willing to have his back, to see him as he was and welcome it and treat it with care; and to give him back in return. Magnus fell for Alec when he realised that, somehow, he had already formed the beginnings of a bond with him - the kind that's solid, that means trust and care and effort while also being easy, fun, nice. alec fell for magnus when he looked at him and saw someone that was also struggling with showing who he was, but who wasnt scared; someone who was kind, and good, and willing to listen to him and try to help him and who valued him. and that is so. fucking. important.

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normal-thoughts-official · 4 years

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U don't need to tell me I failed the vibe check that's just how I roll... Bitch want some angsty smut hcs It's me I m bitches And I can't msg u this coz tumblr decided I ain't verified so here I m again ctvrvfvgbhb Also if u have any angsty smut hcs rolling in your mind pwease do shware uwu

for fuck's sake pasta open your e-mail and click on the little link to verify your account its been months

also u could just use discord. but i dont mind the asks

also i mean. u know I'm a slut for angsty smut so idk what you want me to say here. i feel like Ive talked quite a lot about how Magnus uses sex as a means to prove his worth (to his lovers or to himself) like he needs to do it to deserve ppl caring for him. or, to be more accurate, to make up for people's caring of him, because he sees himself as nothing but a hassle to those he loves, and their genuine affection and caring for him as a chore that he forces them to endure

and that's a direct result of Camille's shit, because she would get bored and tired of him so easily, of his clinginess, of his moodiness, of his constant damn drama. (of course thats not how he is, but it's what she described him as). always complaining, always needing more, always crying, hurt by every little comment she makes. she would pull away and completely deny him any form of affection or even talking when he got to be "too much", and sex? sex was what made her stay and interact with him again, even if for a short period of time. and he'd run himself thin trying to make it as good as possible for her, so she wouldnt get bored of that, too. especially with the way he, you know, lacks :) because he's trans and can't give her what he wants

so yeah i think that magnus initiating sex after he has an emotional moment with alec or when he feels like alec has been taking care of him too much, or just when he feels bad and worthless, or even as a decoy to distract alec and keep him from asking him if he's alright, is a common trope. and it takes alec a while to realize that, too, because hes a horndog, but eventually he does, especially because when magnus is making making-up-for-his-flaws sex he's different than usual, more franctic, more stiff, and enjoying himself way less. and that alec can tell, because he pays a lot of attention to his reactions during sex

so that's definitely an angsty smut headcanon i have, although usually by this point alec stops and i like to think that eventually he grows braincells and starts to notice the pattern before they get to that point, but that opens the gate to many difficult conversations

also this is more hurt/comfort than angsty per se but i do like to think that the first time he has sex with Alec he's just, like. in shock. because he's forgotten sex with a partner could be this good. of course he's had sex after Camille, plenty of it even, but it's always been him pleasuring the other person, not really a mutual exchange. so in that sense, alec is his first, and it's just mindblowing, like. alec will move and it'll make him uncomfortable and he winces? Alec stops and says sorry and kisses his shoulder and asks if hes okay, and Magnus is just in awe because that never happened with Camille, he would have to verbally express that he was uncomfortable/hurt and that usually wasnt worth the backlash he'd get, anyway. and of course he knows rationally that that's not how it's supposed to be, but to have proof of that, to see alec immediately notice and stop without him having to say anything? it's fucking mindblowing

that's what i have for now yfdstyb but everyone should feel free to bring me angsty smut headcanons lets get this bread

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normal-thoughts-official · 5 years

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Umm teenage malec au where Magnus is a chem-genius and Alec is a secret superhero in need of a Chem-genius...

i smell shenanigans???? mayhaps a secret identity drama??????? mutual pining???? do i hear the sounds of cliché drama 2nite?

really tho. call me cliché and uninspired but. Alec knows Magnus from uni. Magnus is still majoring in chemistry but hes clearly so talented and smart he already has made some incredible discoveries and is working and studying in like doctorate level classes. he's a genius, and he's creative, and he wants to use his knowledge to create good and accessible stuff. hes also beautiful and fine maybe Alec has a crush on him.

"sue me" - Alec, probably

but hes never really had,,,, the Opportunity to talk to him? theyve done a few group projects together and they got along fine but Magnus is always busy with his research and his thousands of groups and studies you know

anyway Alec is like.... an unwilling superhero because his sister is fucking crazy but also he loves her and ain't gonna let her deal with criminals™ alone so now he's her sidekick. his superhero persona is even grumpier than his usual persona and that is definitely saying something

anyway, they need magnus' help with some shit, i dont know, identifying some supervillain who leaves these weird substances behind? dude i dont know

so naturally Alec is like "well we could get magnus' help... you know.... hes smart...... and right there...... and hes nice hed probably help us" and izzy is like "yes Alec you should totally ask him out" and Alec is like "shut up"

so he goes to magnus as his superhero persona and asks him for help? and of course it isnt as simple as it looks so they need to come to magnus for help A Lot and him (as his superhero persona) and Magnus become pretty good friends and ah yes fuck this crush is starting to grow

magnus becomes kind of an honorary member of their little team after that and helps them with most cases. theres always something he can help them with. even when its not chemistry-related, hes smart and good at profiling and reading people. and he helps Alec relax. you know. and that makes it easier for everyone. right? yea

but look, look. he needs to keep his distance. its dangerous enough as it is and if magnus gets too involved that's gonna put him in danger. the last thing he wanted was to get another person he loved liked knew in danger. and if Magnus knew about their secret identities that would compromise izzy and he cant do that. not even their little brother Max knows!! so like, distance. totally

except he sucks, of course, and finds himself talking to Magnus for hours on end instead of actually doing his thing more often than not. and he totally falls in love. like completely. fuck

and on magnus' end........ well, hes hurt, because hes falling for this grumpy little weirdo whos so attached to rules and yet is willing to throw them out of the window to protect his little sister, who is genuinely interest in magnus' babble that only the other chem guys listen to (but are too busy trying to prove theyre better than him to actually have a nice, interesting conversation), who cares for his interest, cares for him. asks how hes doing and demands that he sleeps well and listens to his complaints. you know. he likes the both of them a lot, and for the first times he feels not only like he belongs, but like he's allowed to be. not to mention wanted and cared for.

but they dont trust him. which, look - its stupid. they dont owe him anything! and they are friends. they do tell him stuff that matters. he knows everything about their lifes but their names and the names of the people in their lives. and they have a lot at stake! and Magnus is an eccentric weirdo anyway. its good enough that theyre friends! really!

but hes pining, because theres this guy whom Magnus doesnt even know the appearance of, and who likes him, but doesnt trust him. he knows if it were up to the sister theyd have told him by now and it hurts that he doesnt trust him.

but it makes sense, too, again, Magnus shouldn't be demanding him that. but fuck hes fallen in love with him and he doesnt even trust magnus in return

it just hurts

and theres lots and lots of mutual pining and issues and Magnus not voicing his concerns because its fine!!! and he has no right to be upset!! and hes being stupid anyway and theyre right not to tell him

and he closes off in that way he does - by always being extra smooth and casual and using that as armor. and Alec is hurt, too, because he knows Magnus is closing off, but who the fuck is him to ask? Magnus just thinks their whole superhero thing is interesting. and he cant really demand anything out of Magnus when he cant be open with Magnus, either, and anyway he deserves better than this mess

anyway theres lots of drama for a while until eventually of course the dam breaks somehow. idk, i like to think Alec decided to tell him rather than him finding out on accident, but i dont know what exactly would lead him to do that. maybe he just gets tired of it and snaps. maybe he just shows up at Magnus' in civilian clothes like "hello it is me". maybe he just gets tired one night and it's like. hes already tired of lying and hiding and Magnus is already in too deep anyway, and hes thinking it over, he is, hes gonna tell him... and then something happens that would mean it would be slightly inconveniencing for him to turn around so as to not reveal his identity (like, idk, he needs to look at something but he cant see right with the mask lol) and hes like "fuck it [removes mask] my names Alec btw" and Magnus is like "woah ur the hot guy from that group project????"

anyway because im really slowburning today that doesn't mean they tell each other how they feel, of course. Magnus is still convinced Alec isnt into him (hes just told Magnus who he is! really, this is more than enough) and Alec is still an idiot. but it does have the upside of them getting to talk during the day and stuff! which is great, except awful because now they can Pine at any time of the day

anyway i dont even know how this gets solved tbh irhejdndkd its already too long, i dont wanna go the "Magnus is kidnapped and Alec realizes life is short" route because this is cliché enough but. uhh i dont know Magnus gets some prize on his research on uuuhhhhh clean energy? fuck if i know. and Alec attends and hes just so proud of him and so happy for him he kind of does the whole "i love you" thing and Magnus is like "you do??" and Alec is like "Magnus. Of course" and they kiss the end

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normal-thoughts-official · 5 years

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Also that drink "date" is the proof of their newfound feelings. Sorry IDK how to reply to ur ans other than bombarding you with asks again 😅

I mean ur 100% welcome to bombard me with asks, i legit love getting them, no exceptions, and it's good to know yall like my answers lol

and yeah absolutely. it's not just proof but its also, like i said, a cementing moment; because theres always that sets the sparks aflame, but you can still either feed it or let it die out when its just starting to take shape. i think if that were it magnus wouldnt have chased after alec as much as he did; hed be like "whatever, im being too much, hes not into me, im being annoying, im just projecting me wanting to be cared for on him" or smth and would have gotten over it; he barely knows alec. it's when alec stays that:

his initial impression is confirmed - alec is a very caring and giving person who does care about his well being and about accomodating him;

he realizes they do in fact have chemistry and a good, fun dynamic; again, they stay up talking all night - or well, most of it. they dont show this, but we learn afterwards that malec have a good, slightly teasing dynamic and have a lot of fun together, and that was definitely present in that talk

he sees that alec reciprocates

that's super important. alec clearly, openly reciprocates (at least when theyre alone, for now). he stays with him after the others are gone, joins him for drinks even if he hates it, ditches his job when his mom directly called him (and magnus is not an idiot, its clearly that alec is a very work-centered person; also, he knows what shadowhunters are like. alec staying means a lot and magnus knows exactly what it means), looks at him like magnus has just kissed his brains out, all wonder and fucked-stupid smile, because magnus slightly hovered his finger over alecs lips; hell, he tells magnus he trusts him. they barely know each other!!!!! and coming from such a closed-off guy, this means one hell of a lot about how open to him alec is.

that's important because that's what allows magnus to fully give in to what he wants - being so clearly reciprocated helps him break out of his shell, because if he were giving mixed signals at this point, magnus would probably not have allowed himself to fully open up; but for each step magnus took in alecs direction, there was another from alec, even if it was fearful. then of course he decided to be a dumb stupid bitch with no brains afterwards, but at this point alec is showing to magnus, very clearly, that he's interested, that he's willing to open up to him, to be vulnerable as well.

it's why magnus insists, too; he knows hes reciprocated and he knows alec is going to fuck up his own shot at happiness - not being with Magnus, but being open about who he is. if he didnt, i think he would have left him alone. hell, he doesnt ever even touch alec or try initiate something; he just wants alec to consider not being a stupid bitch for once. and it's not just about magnus or even about them, its also about alec, about Lydia, about how stupid sh culture is

so..... yeah. that was the moment these feelings really took form and settled into both magnus and alec; again, i think with alec falling in love was more of a slow process than an actual fall, but it definitely started in that talk that night. and for magnus, that's when the possibilities he had seen with alec in these seconds when he was being held by him showed themselves to be attainable, true, and to hold promises f something good and special. god, i really wish we knew what they talked about. that scene was so so amazing and important. ugh

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Hey I m just curious..What are your headcanons on how malec brought unity in shadow world after being married?what are they up-to now? What happened in the one year gap we see in the finale?how is being high warlock of Alicante really been for Magnus?Do you think being in Edom has brought a change in his magic coz IDK but he looked kinda different & more powerful in Edom.He must have gone through mental struggle after that which was never addressed. Sorry this is too long so feel free to avoid

nah this is great and i love ur asks! im sorry it took me so long to answer this euaeiusndjandsa but anyway, right, what are malec up to politically speaking

honestly i dont really know about alec because, uh, first of all the show fucked up yet again by making alec inquisitor, which is kind of like, the equivalent of the judiciary power in the shadow world? so he’s not really being able to change the law, just kind of applying it, which is. hmmmm. i mean i guess we don’t even know if shadowhunters have a tri-partition of the power anyway, and i wouldn’t be surprised if they didn’t because their society sucks, so maybe the judiciary and legislative power are the same, who the fuck knows. and i mean in the brazilian context at least the judiciary power has been really important in keeping the executive power (aka the president bolsonaro, aka a completely nuts fascist) at bay, because they basically rule his most like clearly authoritarian ideas out. but that’s because they can because most of what bolsonaro tries to do is not even constitutional, and brazil actually has one of the most progressive constitutions in the world from what i’ve heard - it mostly just doesn’t translate into practice lmao. so do shadowhunters have a constitution? like technically they claim that one of the reason the shadowhunters exist is to protect downworlders, so maybe as inquisitor he is going around being like “this is against the principle of protecting downworlders, im ruling this out” and deeply frustrating the clave legislative and executive powers, which is a nice mental image. so maybe that’s what he’s doing? like i don’t really believe in “changing the system from the inside” but it is good to have an ally in such a position of power so that’s definitely useful to fight off the brand new ways in which the clave decides to fuck downworlders over

as for magnus!!! i know quite a number of people, especially magnus stans, hate the whole “high warlock of alicante” thing and i can understand why - i deeply hated that magnus lost his position as high warlock of brooklyn for making basically the smartest decision at the time and it does feel kind of shadowhunter-centric, like, oh alec is in idris so i guess magnus has to be, too. but i actually think the whole “high warlock of alicante” thing has such amazing potential that is almost never discussed neither by the part of the fandom that is enthusiastic about it nor by the part that is wary of it. like first of all, the very existence of this position means that magnus made, and is making, history. warlocks weren’t even allowed in alicante before. somehow, within a year, the organized downworlder resistance has managed to rule this out and not only be allowed in alicante, but to be politically organized in the very heart of the clave. and magnus was chosen as their representative in what is possibly the most tense place for them politically. i know the finale was kind of like “racism is over now” with the whole “magnus getting constant calls to update wards so they allow downworlders in” thing, but i’m gonna ignore that because it’s not that quick or that easy. but the idea that the downworlders are occupying a space that has been denied for them since always, choosing representatives for them, and organizing to fight shadowhunter bigotry???? is rad as hell. i also think that from that point of view magnus’ position is way more important than alec’s, and that might be because, again, i don’t really believe in “changing the system from the inside” even if i do believe in haing allies there. but while alec is like, mostly keeping the worst at bay, magnus is being able to actually put forward warlock political demands and calls for rights, fighting the clave from outside of it, pressuring it and keeping the downworlders organized. im thinking like downworlder assemblies - we don’t really know how the whole “high warlock” thing works but i’m gonna choose to believe it’s a way more democratic position than the show implies, especially because i mean, magnus would want to listen to everyone he’s supposed to be representing and make the whole process as participative as possible. that’s also important to keep a community organized and if they weren’t there’s no way there would have been so many changes. so i think the downworlders in general, but particularly warlocks (since seelies, wolves and even vampires seem to have an organization thats closest to monarchy, and warlocks organization beyond the fact that high warlocks exist and are voted for was never mentioned. also i just love the warlock community as y’all probably already know, i’m a sucker for them and i think they’re amazing) have assemblies and places of political discussion in Idris. so the idea that magnus gets to be the high warlock, that he’s trusted to lead them in such a delicate moment in shadow world history, that he’s succeeding, sounds actually amazing to me.

i just love imagining that they have regular assemblies, where they discuss their next steps on the fight and demand for equal rights. downworlders striking? beautiful. downworlders building their own self-organized spaces in idris, such as schools and health centers where they can be treated or taught without the bigotry that goes on in shadowhunter schools? stunning. downworlders building a tight community together in idris, rather than keeping their own council separated like they used to, looking for unity while still respecting their cultural differences and right to isonomy? chef’s kiss. downworlders rallying to push for political changes? brilliant. i think the potential magnus’ position has in this context is so underrated. there’s so much he could be doing - and i’m sure is doing - with that. the finale pushes a little too far with the whole “everything is good now” thing, i think, and it was definitely harder and bumpier than they make it look - a lot of defeats, a lot of struggle, a lot of fights both within and outside the community and even more with the clave. they’ve definitely been working their asses off and getting frustrated constantly, but they’re also building something amazing as downworlders. they are effectively changing a lot and the very existence of magnus’ position proves that. the downworlder community in idris is possibly stronger than anywhere else and has a lot of its own spaces that are being built and while i don’t like the idea of “leaders” particularly because i’m a dirty little anarchist, i think a lot of that is thanks to magnus. so yeah i think this has a lot of potential and also it’s very possible that lorenzo is eating his heart out in jealousy, which is always my jam

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