#our doesnt look like a word

[bluupxels]

#ok im done now #court rambles #our doesnt look like a word

[torahtot]

ok ive had enough of queering judaism. can we start judaizing queerness now. or something

#like. it feels like so much of this queering judaism shtus just layers an american/secular queer identity over judaism #which i guess is fine for certain communities. but it's only going to push you away from orthodoxy #and if as queer jews we already feel like our queerness makes us into secularized outsiders in our own communities #how does this help? is trying to get our communities to embrace an essentially secular american iteration of queer identity supposed to mak #us feel LESS like outsiders? it's not quite doing it for me #we need a queerness that comes from within judaism that is essentially jewish #ive seen a couple of articles recently from ppl talking abt how word/concept of butch doesnt exist in their language & culture #but they use it anyway #& like. i love being butch. it's important to me ill never give it up #& i am american too. but my whole identity as a butch he/him lesbian is exclusively secular american it came from the outsifr #which is definitely due in large part to the fact that my Gender Problems were really tied up w orthodox jewish gender roles #so naturally to get out of that i'd pull on something not jewish. but i wish there was another option? idk if that's possible #or how it would look #maybe that's why im obsessed w the idea of a butch w long curly payos.... 😦 #i forgot where i was going w this but yeah it's frustrating #this is a large part of why im wary of starting a queer Jewish club on campus bc the people who would wanna start it w mr #well no offense but they are insufferable about this #(incidentally they're also insufferable about chanukah. no surprises there) #nachi speaks #jew blogging #others have Actually written abt all this tho

[seariii]

Thinking about how in emotional stuff intp self has actually been popping out more often, even before... Questioning if that's good or bad... Maybe means I'm emotionally exhausted?

#she has helped before right...? ... i think she has only made people upset... #then again she's the one that has been able to put boundaries and that convinced us that it's okay... #hm.... she still feels bad tho... i wonder if people actually like that side of me... i feel like people wouldnt... #and like the ones that have seen it probably dont.... the bestie adores her so thats comforting #'its part of who you are' ... yeah... and intp self is very helpful... and i still think its fun the way she looks at the world #but yeah i think people dont like her... me..? um... its me but if i say me sounds too personal #im just thinking about previous moments and yeah she has made others upset and infp self has had to ease everything with kind words and #warmth... intp... is kind but... she... i feel... no. im being too hard on myself. she is a good person. #boundaries and caring about ourselves isnt bad. failing at social interactions doesnt make me a bad person either #... in any case i have to go now and catch the bus i should be at my grandma's by now #seari talks #our silly doodles #vent post #< kinda

[itspotatocatto]

I major in bad habits Like thievery and skag it's A lifestyle not built to last this I know. My love life's flawed 'cause I Only go for girls who go for guys But at least my heart never gets broke.

Katy Shaw in Katy Shaw from Katy Shaw & The Search for the Stolen Secret by Paul Shapera

#shaperaverse #paul shapera #katy shaw and the search for the stolen secret #katy shaw & the search for the stolen secret #katy shaw #new albion #katy in katy from katy #katy doesnt look like a word anymore #anyways katy shaw our beloved <3 #the saddest lesbian there ever was #maybe #she and helen can compete for that title

[dirt-str1der]

just wanna say im obsessed with your mind and i read your posts about kiryu like the morning paper. thank you for your service

(Sweats) e-even the ones about him laying eggs ?

#Thanks for the ask ! #HIIIIII thank you for reading my posts im really a serial rambler so that is no easy feat. i just had a lowkey nightmare that was insect #based so its nice to think about different kinds of eggs once in a while. sorry for the eggs i just learned the word gravid and i cant stop #saying it !!! i literally opened tumblr to make another post about kiryu i was gonna say he was probably antisocial in his childhood which #is really a miracle any girls managed to notice him at all. and i believe that he was very dismissive of his clothing and appearance because #you know when youre young and trans and havent realised it but you just randomly hate everything about your appearance and dont even knowwhy #i think his hair was always too long and too shaggy and he would let nishiki comb it sometimes because he really could not stand his mane #and sometimes when it gets wayy too long and shitty the sunflower caretaker would drag him outside and just cut a chunk of it off with a #knife and kiryu would have shoulder length hair for a little while... anyway i need to give him a little girlfriend like how rikiya had one #when he was in school because all trans guys need a little girlfriend or an all girl group of friends to be his girlfriends when hes a kid #so he can carry their shopping bags and wait for them outside the changing room etc and kiryu cant resist a girl so he gets a letter from #nishiki and he tells him yeah this is probably a prank to have you wait there for hours or there might be guys waiting to ambush you and #beat the crap out of you. and kiryus like Nobody beats the crap out of me except our dad. and goes to meet this girl and he actually agrees #to go out with her and this is the thing that keeps him in school because otherwise he would literally not go. like hed walk with yumi and #nishiki and the rest of the kids at sunflower that he doesnt care about to remember the names of. and he would just wave them off at the #gate and wander the town in his school uniform and then after school he’ll meet nishiki and possibly yumi at the gate (yumi probably makes #other friends but its a Must to walk nishiki home because he’ll get lonely) and when kiryu starts going out with this girl hes obligated to #walk her home so he already broke rule one but nishikis like happy for him But he has to walk home with some other random guys now and #eventually theyll broach the topic of ‘his psycho sister’ and nishiki literally has to beat a few guys up to defend kiryus honour and when #he comes back with news of how unpopular kiryu is with the rest of the guys because he looks better with short hair than they do and has a #girlfriend whos super cute. kiryu is just like damn did you commit social suicide to protect my honour? youre my best friend. but whatever #kids get over it fast. but parents dont!! and kiryu walks his girlfriend right to her front door and soon enough her parents are going to #find out that the boyfriend she keeps gushing about is a girl and straight up take her out of school to make her stop being gay and kiryus #like but ... im a boy ... punches the ground and screams to the sky. anyway enough about dysphoria simulator im here to talk about this guy #when hes a bit older because im salivating and shaking over the thought of his bootyass rip kiryu you woulda loved thongs. i think hed hate #ripped jeans but only because he thinks theyre a waste of manufacturing. its literally better for the world that kiryu decided 2 transition #because can you imagine if she was a girl and needed to wear a bra? like she would literally have an itchy back all the time which would #give her a hair trigger temper which means kamurocho a&e room will be very healthily plush indeed. god my battery is dying i need to take a #shower noww anyway really thank you for the nice message you are so sweet ... hi ...

[baekuras]

Tomorrow I need to do an eye checkup in english (instead of german aka the norm) and I just checked if there are any better ways to explains things or tell people what to do etc instead of my basically direct translations and turns out

nope

it sounds exactly as stupid as i already worded it, no special words or better formed sentences around 10/10 school english is good enough (nice)

#txts #i am not excited #bc its always difficult to do specialized shit in another language #AND the person i am examining doesnt even know english and has a translator #so I speak english and the translator translates it over #which CAN be fine #but for finer reactions it can screw things over a bit so i hope thats not the case (: #also my coworker who can also do these in english got salty and decided to not do them anymore bc its not in his job description #which like-great i guess we can all just decide not to do things #like....an eye exam which IS in our job description with no languages specified (: #but then he is also the first to cry about ppl not going above and beyond #truly amazing thinking there #its not even like its truly hard its just annoying to do if the person you examin doesnt fucking understand you #goes for native german speakers as well #some ppl just dont have braincells #'please look at the number 9 in the 3 line' #//begins to read the entire thing from the top again #look-stupidity is not a sin and neither is misunderstanding stuff even if sometimes idek how you could #but also.....pls just actually listen and comprehend the words i am using #also dont suddenly throw out a 3rd or 4th option on a 2 question answer #or dont fucking interrupt me during a question either (: #'alright so do you prefer 1 or-' 'URGH NO THATS SO BAD NO NEVER' 'OR 2' 'NOOOOOO THATS BAD!!!!! I CANT SEE!!!' #yes m'am we are fuCKING WORKING ON IT #RELAX PLEASE DEAR FUCKNG GOD WE ARE LIKE 30SECONDS IN #this suddenly turned into a tags-rant oops #but yeah #pet peeve is ppl fucking interrupting me (: or not listening at all ever (:

[hella1975]

for a popular band i dont see nearly enough people freaking the fuck out about the lumineers on here! i have to do everything my damn self! anyway listen to their album III in order WITH the music videos and maybe you'll feel significantly worse about everything ever

#every time one of the songs from this album came on in the car id so casually go to boom like 'oh so this one is about ___' #and it's just an album about a dysfunctional family. like that is literally the plot of the album. they r called the sparks #it starts with donna and follows her alcoholic daughter who starts the abuse (it's technically started by donna but the album doesnt #focus on her so it 'starts' with gloria) #and how her addiction and abuse bleeds into her son who becomes a gambler and how his son then turns out etc etc #all to the most boptastic sounds and vocals you ever heard #like oh my fucking god the way they released this album was SUCH an experience #because it was done in three parts (gloria to her son jimmy to his son junior respectively) #so you had to like. wait for the rest of the album with each part and each part added a generation to what you knew from the beginning #was going to be tragic like you know from donna's song at the very start when it's said 'you hate the name junior' #that the rot will travel all the way down to junior's generation #they're doomed from the start. they're a family. they tried. they failed #and also 'leader of the landslide' as a song alone is batshit insane and one of my favourite songs ever #but as an expression on generational trauma? HOLY SHIT? #like looking at the person who started the trauma and caused this constant awful cycle #and instead of saying all those clinical overused words instead calling them THE LEADER OF THE LANDSLIDE #LIKE YEAH ACTUALLY? THEY GOT BURIED TOO BUT THEY FUCKING STARTED IT #AND WE'RE ALL CRAWLING THROUHG THE DIRT BECAUSE OF IT JUST TRYING TO FIND OUR FEET #IN THE WAKE OF THIS DISASTER THAT YOU CAUSED. YOU LEAD US HERE #going insane #the lumineers #'why r u talking about this album specifically when u heavily implied to aiaia about writing a touya fic' shhhhhhhh

[horce-divorce]

So to be clear tumblr is the only social media i actually bother to use with any regularly, but sometimes you crave variety. For example sometimes going on reddit is a nice distraction, and my feed is all really interesting silly low-investment type posts that i can scroll thru and be entertained by without feeling like i have to engage. and other times it feels exactly like facebook. just suggested post after suggested post that makes me say "god you people are so fucking unbelievably stupid." posts seemingly hand picked to make me so enraged, the exact kind of shit I go online to AVOID.

currently it's recommending me a bunch of posts about "why does America have so much looting?" That have a bunch of responses like, "Because of the crime wave, no one prosecutes shoplifters, people have just noticed its so easy to get a group together on whatsapp, etc" and WHY? It thinks I would want or need these posts? Idfk??? I hang out in r/antiwork and like 3 other main subs about being homeless and random entertainment topics. I don't use reddit for politics or world events. I do NOT get my news from there.

Anyway there was also one recommended thread about "why do rural folk feel looked down upon by city folks?" And all the responses were, "yeah! It's them who are rude to the city people!" And when someone mentioned the lack of resources in rural areas, another person chimed in to say "well I lived in Detroit and now I live in a rural area and we have WAY more food and resources than Detroit does!" But the second anyone brings up, you know, the socioeconomic factors that influence that shit, everyone's like whining and crying bc their little brains can't handle ""bringing race into it."" someone had a different life experience than you?! Pft, sure, and then all the bystanders clapped! 🙄

idk it's like. the more time goes on, the wider economic gaps become, the more obvious it is how effectively people are brainwashed. It's not like the answers to these questions are hidden esoteric mysteries. It's not like people having different, individual experiences in life is new. Even my grandma understands that a) people aren't actually looting that much and b) even if they were, have you bought groceries in the past 3 years? if so, why are you even asking that question?? But you try to actually talk about how bad shits getting and these fuckers go into high gear defending The American Way Of Life and blaming individual choices. Ppl are drinking the Kool aid so hard and they think water is just supposed to fucking taste like that

#me #they put the kool aid in to cover up the taste of lead. #flint still doesnt have clean water. btw. #thats such a perfect example of what im talking about too #for YEARS its been common knowledge that we are poisoning and killing the people of flint (very near detroit fwiw. related topics) #and its like #idk i feel like i meet ppl who assume that bc Everyone Knows About Flint that means that it got fixed or smth #it fucking didnt #doesn't it feel kinda like. w wages and inflation. or covid. or anything else. #we declare oh yeah X is happening! its in the media. heres the numbers. everyones talking about it. finally out in the open. here we go #its in the news cycle for a few weeks and then bam. gone. nothing. #and everyone thinks oh its gone now. i guess its over #covid is still rampant and terrifying but its not on everyones minds anymore so no one wears masks. problem fucking solved am i right #everyone knows inflation is untenable. ceos make 400x workers. rent is all of your income. no one can afford food #we wont change wages tho. and everyone is just like. well if employers dont wanna pay more thats ok. just look harder for work. #just try harder. just work more jobs. just sell your blood in addition to your time body heart and soul. #its like people are hearing 'socioeconomic factors beyond our control influence how we live our lives' and they still go #'but why dont you wanna just buy more money?' #theyre HEARING words but they arent LISTENING #ONE person in that looting threads comments mentioned police brutality. one. #and they shockingly weren't getting downvoted into the negatives but they definitely werent being heard either #i feel like thats the most glaringly obvious one #like the entire world saw our police force going apeshit and they went 'woah are black ppl in america ok?' #and everyone said NO PLEASE HELP #and... nothing fucking changed!!! #everyone supported water protectors that 1 time. but the water protectors in the great lakes region still fighting?? crickets #i dont get it. i dont get it!!!! #in the news: heres 20 current events making life untenable for disenfranchised people #everyone: i dont get it? why are they breaking stuff

[spooky-kakashi]

i just heard a youtuber say age is a social construct???!!! girl what?!! i get that we shoudl reject ageism but age is not a social construct otherwise carbon dating wouldnt work??? and we wouldn’t get old??? like yes lets reject ageism and the trend that 30yo are old but lets not say absolute lies on youtube to your million subs

#age is a social construct!!!! girl age is not money #like if everyone stopped believing in the power of age that doesnt mean our bodies are going to stop ageing #so much research that went into the video and you end it with the dumbest take ever🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ #i think we should look up some words in the dictionary before using them

[k66-official]

//sorry to ruin your fun mr sergeant major kululu sir

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #gempost #giropost #kulupost #but if we're in japan. and gem is here. then who is plane -966 #and now a word from our host: #don't look too deep into it. #hehe we look like ketchup mustard and relish (<- doesnt like any of these condiments) #put us on a hot dog (<- does not like hot dogs) #i am trying to maintain approximately the age rating of a scott the woz video. #might be my only post today i have to pack in the evenin

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[sp3llboundgirl]

I wish my psychiatrist was more interested in actually listening to me than trying to prove that she's right about everything 🙃

#she uses up all of our appointment time telling me stuff i already know #or just ignoring me and pretending that im dumb and self diagnosing with every single mental illness which im not even close to doing #people like her motivate me so much to work in the mental health field #i finally convinced her that i have ptsd but of course she had to say that not everyone who would be in my situation would develop ptsd #and i probably did because im an exessively anxious person #and she doesnt believe im autistic because according to her autistic people are emotionally disconnected and only ever think with logic #and she doesnt see that in me #she told me that im not full on autistic but neurodivergent because i have autistic traits but not enough #she asked me if i wanted her to write down the word neurodivergent for me to look it up later #and i was like its okay i already know that word.. #then at some point she was like “youre not schizophrenic” and i said no and she said “youre not bipolar” and i said no #and then she said “you have anxiety problems” and i said yes #but i said no shit sherlock in my head lmao #i never said i thought i was schizophrenic or bipolar so idk why she was telling me this in the hopes of offending me #oh and she says i used to have a problem with cutting myself only because of teenage hormones so thats wonderful

[mejomonster]

Every time I go on a dating app I feel hopeless -.-

#rant #genuinely frankly i would probably do better at speed dating im person but that doesnt exist here #i go on app. i see poly partnered people looking for another partner. i do not seek to be that #i almost talk myself into just trying to be friends in case They know someone id like before i realize #thats a bit convoluted. i see one person actually just looking for friends like me and feel relief #and maybe i could make a friend but i want love i want romance and is pursuing that instead primarily #exactly why im a great friend whos been single for years? i see several men who absolutely did not read #rhat im fucking nonbinary. i see a person whos single and wants only hookups so my demi ass is out #i see a single person with no fucking hobbies jn common who i dont personally find aesthetically appealing #i see someone hot finally and immediatelt wonder what Red Flag theyre unavailable i must be subconciouslt clocking into #ah. yes. theyre oceans away making our chances of intimate long term commitment slim unless we both are significantly interested #and they give one word answers indicating theg dont want to chat. which us the only way i have to build a connection for now. #and then i wonder if im picky cayse im noticing incompatibikities. or cause no one compatible is around on my app #or is it self sabotage? or would Dating a red flag be sabotage?? or am i too demi to fucking do this i fucking hate this #i dont even know if id like someone in 5 months IF they were compatible and single. and then rhe chances of them liking me thay long? #well lers just say ive not yet had a partner ever say they liked me back. i mean theyve lied for several months. then come clean rhat #they never actually liked me and i was just convienient so :/ #i am so tired. i hate dating apps. i could probably self sabotage in 1 minute tho and message a married poly person #who cannot therefore marry me and who i cannot be the primary priority of. then i guess that would be self sabotage #cause id So clearly be letting myself crysh on someone unavailable wooh. -.- #jm so so tired man. i jusr wanna crush kn someone. kiss someone. bang regularly for decades. #oh and id Reallt like to fall in mutual love. the awful state of things? mt parents suggested to me #i get with someone i dont like romanrically and just make myself have a relationship #cause i guess they have no faith in me finding mutual love. which ngl makes me so incredibly sad even rhey dont believe i can

[todayisafridaynight]

GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3

ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie

Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3

Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3

AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….

OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..

#snap chats #cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3 #anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda #A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM. #HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD #WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER. #I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET #its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT #$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this #at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig… #STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20 #NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on. #at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy… #was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester #and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’ #and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name…. #the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve #today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today… #i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5 #plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO #anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴 #this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3

[theygender]

Christians in the southern US are so weird, like dude why are you proselytizing to me we live in the bible belt. I promise I've heard of jesus before

#they always seem SO certain that this will be new information to someone #like theyre gonna walk up to someone door and the person will be like 'church? what is this church you speak of please tell me more' #or like the copy of the new testament theyre handing out will be the first one someone has ever seen #'oh wow a bible? papá doesnt let us have these on the atheism farm' #like dude once again. we are literally in the bible belt. i was raised christian. we basically all were #my mom and grandparents took me to church semi-consistently all the way through elementary school #and then my mom sent me to a christian private school in sixth grade #7th-9th grade i was back in public school but i spent every single sunday morning wednesday evening AND school lunch period in church #all of my own free will in fact #and i know this is how proselytizers think bc my youth group fucking took us proselytizing #in our small town where everyone but like two (2) people in my high school attended the christian lunch group #and there were two churches on every corner #they still sent us out to spread the word of jesus and tell people about church #which. looking back on it now. why? what was the point? #rambling #anyways. there was a dude handing out copies of the new testament at my college today and getting angry if people said no thank you #if i had more free time i would be tempted to go stand on the opposite side of the street from him #and hand out 'agnostic bibles' that are just blank notebooks

[haemosexuality]

today i got asked if i consider myself black. i have literally no fucking clue do you understand the can of worms you just tried to open

#do you want the ''idk'' answer or the 1 hour discussion #like uuuuuh. uh. well #cause you see my birth certificate says ''parda'' (brazilian term for ppl of mixed ethnities that are like. too mixed or too light to be #just something) but people say that thats an outdated term used only to make brazils population not look as black and indigenous as it is #and pardos should just consider themselves what they are so ig im black but i have never suffered any racism or literally anything bc of my #skin color or features so it feels shitty to call myself black if ive never lived it but doesnt saying that resume the experience of black #people to racism which sucks and ive had a friend who was lighter than me and considered herself black say im ''basically white'' but ive #also had a black friend who was darker than me say i was the only other black person in our class but also i feel like the word black #is more for people who are more visibly black than i am cuz i feel like im just the midway point between pale and brown i just look like #half of the population here and i didnt even realize i Was black until i was like 11 and read ''pardo isnt a color'' on facebook bc before #that i was always just ''moreninha'' or ''neguinha de mamae'' or whatever and THEN theres the fact that like 2 years ago i realized my dad #is probably actually indigenous and not black and just never knew cause idk he didnt live in a forest ig so ppl assume hes just black #even tho his features and state hes from kinda indicate he is indigenous and that means IM actually indigenous too not just the black from #my moms side which is a whole other fucking thing but honestly at the end of the day i csnt afford a dna test and it wouldnt change my life #in the slightest to know all that so the final answer to your question is: #idk