Loved, (sadhowaguylovingmemakesmefeelthisalive)
I am finally loved. By a guy romantically just the way I needed. Pure , unadultered, ardent love. And what's awesome is that I have learned to believe in that love and accept the love and reciprocate the love with same if not more ferocity. I have arms holding me when I feel sad. I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel blessed. He loves me and only me. He understands my irrationality. He waits for me. He picks me up. He holds my hand and never let's go. His kisses are so sweet. His hugs are gods gift to me. I love him . I know how to express it and he is happiest with me. I am content with his love. I am at peace and no longer feel incompetent and depressed .
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Why is it always , 'imagine loving someone and them loving you back ' and never,
"Imagine someone loving you and you loving them back "
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It's amazing how having a lingerie image gets you shit ton followings everyday
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I hate this unbearable aching I have within me,clawing at my innards for all it is worth but never breaking the surface outwards. It hurts and I don't know why it hurts and how to make it not hurt this much. All I know is it hurts.
Or maybe I do know why it hurts and how i can make it stop but
Idk
Ugh
I hate it
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I know I am all you can think about!
Worry not you are on my mind just the same.
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I can't give up right before my miracle.
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I had to get it off my chest
I needed to let it go
I had been holding the candle for a whole year
And the flame had destroyed the skin I had
Chipping at ut one cell at a time
Rendering my sensesation to irratic thumps
So I did
Only I didn't do it as I had planned to do it
And now I still have this anxiety creeping up
Waiting for that very flame to relit itself at Aby given second
I exhaust myself with all this duplicitous mindset
Needing to set myself straight every few hours
I am holding on tight to the spirit of this merry Christmas to shine the way forward for me
I don't expect any balm for the flame licked palms
I just need to let it go
I need myself to be able to let it go
Building an altar for living is so not the way to be.
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I owe myself a major glow up before I let go of this plane,
I can't die only being a basic
Not that I am a basic
Ain't no bitches have nothing on me
Or my ass
Still I need to be a pretty bomb before I kill myself .
Here to ticking it off the list.
- go get that glow bitch
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A letter , me to myself
I am sorry
I am ashamed
I am sad
I am furious
I am scared
I am learning
Day after day
Again and again
Looking at the positive
Straing at vastness
Dreaming of woodlands and clover leaves
Knowing my Web of fantasies
Knowing my Web of sorrows
Knowing myself
It's a solace
And a curse
Tear stained and smile crooked
It's all a process
As the day turns to night
Summer makes way for autumn
Sun hides to let the snow peek
I smile to let my soul shine
I cry to let my soul ache and sooth in itself
Wrongs are piled up
No doubt
There's still a year sans two months to tip the scale
And may the universe be with you and may you have the wits about you to be able to let the universe find you
I love you
I will learn to love you
I will make you worthy of love
I will let you feel what love is
I will.
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I dont get where this sudden urge to love you comes from.
Furthermore the intensity of it
The all consuming slow building inferno inching it's way outward
I almost give in
Almost ready to lose all inhibition and get your attention
As it is , my defense mechanism shines through
And I find myself crouched within myself as if I could just not be anymore
Disappear
Then letting the tentacles of longing imbibe all my nerve endings
I clutch myself and cry
The tears calling out to some sort of sorcery perhaps
Willing this need to pass
Wishing I could be a normal person and deal with emotional distress rationally
Oh well
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i don't get this attracting the energy and vibrations you desire shit. if i am feeling fucking fantastic i will be up in the clouds if i have abundance of everything i wont be sitting around moping and crying myself to sleep every night. when i cant barely function as it is you tell me to increase my energy and vibrate at a level i can just dream of and if i dont i am stuck at this constant despair state. thankyoufuckingverymuch!
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Elusive love
I keep on searching
The moment I find it
Or atleast I think I do
My hands turn to Midas touch
Except for gold I turn it all too sand
-just another stupid fucking bitch
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