#or maybe she just ate it idk

[splankie]

is blowing up a volcano after ur first kiss couple goals

#AAAAA I AM SO PROUD OF THIS #for reference i NEVER draw backgrounds #i just whipped this straight outta my ass #and it was SUPER FUN #also i colour theoried the hell out of this one #and i did it all fast and loose so it was not stressful i just had a great time #thats just the power of percabeth i think #anyway ive been thinking abt them a lot #especially annabeth.... #to this day i really cant think of any other characters that are booksmart with 2 canon learning disabilities #that really meant the world to me when i was first reading this series!!! #also shes just the bestest ever #one of my main gripes with the show was just that i felt annabeth lost a lot of that dimensionality #leah sava jeffries girl u ate that up but im sorry they didnt give u enough to eat #idk maybe thats just me bc i have such an attachment to annabeth #shes really cool guys #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #pjo #pjo fanart #percabeth fanart #art by cricket

[lazylittledragon]

don't you love when you Just stopped feeling guilty about eating the things you like and then one of your parents drops the "i'm concerned about your diet"

#ramble #tw ed #this is because i sometimes eat pasta twice a day btw #which. i didn't think was THAT bad as far as diets go #is that not normal??? is that BAD??? #they would've fainted at some of the shit i ate when i was at uni #also i walk my dog for an hour every day #and also i'm 3 months into hrt and i'm HUNGRY give me a break #i just don't see why you would bring it up if it wasn't something that could ACTUALLY fuck up my health long term #uhghghghghghghghhghghg #also. not that it MATTERS. but i have NEVER had diet/food related health issues outside of IBS #maybe be concerned about my brother who works a full time restaurant job and literally doesn't eat #idk why i'm surprised when my mum thinks she has a terrible diet because she eats chocolate sometimes

[hellfyre]

thinking about how adam was the first human soul in Heaven bc what the fuck happened to Abel. did he go to hell (for some reason?)

like what happened there. he was the first human to ever die so like would the theories saying Eve is the first person to enter hell be therefore incorrect? Because Adam and Eve had another son to replace Abel, Seth. Eve did not die first.

idk i have gripes and confusion about that stuff.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel theories #hazbin hotel spoilers #adam hazbin hotel #like what is happening #because the only thing I can think of is able went to hell and he would have had to go to hell before his mother #or he just went nowhere?? #like. idk the story of cain and abel is interesting and like basic bible canon stuff. #i could maybe see abel was actually shitty in the show and lucifer convinced cain to kill him maybe bc of that since lucifer is not evil #but this show doesnt seem to think very deeply. #it feels more like abel and cain were probably forgotten #but like man i dont know whats going on #hazbin hotel critical #although i guess in the show the first human to enter hell was Lilith regardless #Eve can still be relevant since she *ate* the forbidden fruit first though

[minthara]

ough i'm actually really getting into my selune paladin idea from yesterday... he'd romance shart and it would be so fucking spicy to have an oath breaker/dark justiciar story line... but also him helping her work through leaving shar worship would be cool as well

#petra.txt #i love the oath breaker idea so much though oooooof i ate with that one #im also gonna give him a child but idk if the mother and he should just be split up or if she's tragically dead or smth lmfao #but i think maybe her leaving him fucked him up a little so she might survive

[badolmen]

I want to write a poem about microwave mac n cheese (the girl who hated me in middle school always invited me to her opulent birthday parties where everyone either treated me like a zoo exhibit or ignored me) (the living room was always too loud with too many lights and I’d end up finding her pet budgies in the dining room) (her mom knew I didn’t like pizza and she made me mac n cheese when she realized I hadn’t eaten all night) (every birthday thereafter she specifically bought the same brand of mac n cheese just so I would have something to eat while sitting alone in the quiet dining room) (looking back it kind of feels like an apology for how her daughter treated me) (you want to be here but you hate it here. you don’t understand why they treat you this way but you keep coming back. you put a gift on the only piano you’ve seen outside of a church and spend the rest of the night watching small birds in a small white cage. I can’t stop this. I don’t know how to help you. but I can give you warm food and dimmed lights)

#ra speaks #personal #poetry #maybe??? idk man it’s been a long weekend how is it Monday tomorrow that’s not fair #I’m busy feeling shrimp emotions about the same brand of mac n cheese I ate at age 9 #I eat it every week as an autistic college student I’ll never get sick of it #and it just. she bought it just for me. she made it when she saw me skulk away from the party room to sit by the budgies. #she was so so kind. her daughter was so so cruel. I hope she’s well. I hope she’s grown.

[johndonneswife]

not a sad ‘woe is me’ post so don’t send me weird messages but: the thing abt cycling through every ED possible and being bulimic for like 10 yrs & making yourself vomit up to 10x times per day on ur worst days is that your teeth and gums will eventually give out on you (bc it doesn’t make a difference if you’ve been good & it doesn’t matter how well you’ve taken care of your teeth for the last x years) and u will be 30 years old crying to your very sweet and kind dentist when she tells you about the 1 million things that are wrong with ur teeth

#anyway i feel strongly compelled to quit my job and dedicate my entire life to speaking out abt eating disorders #& doing research & writing & advocating for people who are suffering #women who are suffering #i think this is honestly my life’s calling!!!! i just don’t know where to start #you know movies glamorize having anorexia & it’s always like: she is the most beautiful girl in the world…but so sad…she doesn’t eat :( #i need to make movies that have scenes like that one chapter of i’m glad my mom died: #where jennette has been throwing up like 15 times a day and her tooth falls out #and she’s literally just like: yeah i’ll deal with that later #& instead of writing about a beautiful skinny white girl who is upset about eating carrots at inpatient #i would just force people to read/watch the things in this thread: #https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/s/H1C3JZyvFK #because that’s the reality #the one comment in that thread ‘i ate something poisonous because i hoped it would make me puke’ #like yeah same. LOL. & i always thought i was the only one so fucked in the head #anyway society is very cruel to women and i need to do something about it. genuinely whereeee do i even begin #i guess i have been writing a lot abt my personal experience and all the disgusting things ppl like to avoid talking abt #and how my mother made me this way etc #i could def make a memoir out of it. maybe i’ll do that. #i would love to have more options than just. trauma porn. #ah anyway maybe i’ll open a nonprofit. IDK. i just need to make a lot of noise somehow

[newtness532]

what does a six year old even eat? the only child around that age i can think of is my brother and he is just as bad with food as i am

#would it eat green peas or sth of that sort? #or maybe sth like spanakorizo? #bc the only time i remember my mom forcing me to eat green peas it took me 45 minutes to eat 4 of them and then i didnt eat them again until #i was in highschool #and the one time she tried to make me eat spanakorizo i sobbed until she put my chicken nuggets in a different plate and took the #spanakorizo far away from me. ive only eaten spanakorizo 2 times in my life. one at dad's and one at uni. im never eating that again #and i cant think of any other foods with vegetables #you know what maybe ill just put the vegetables in a pasta sauce. yup okay. i mean that wouldnt work on me but ive seen other people do it #wait do kids eat salads? #i am a picky eater who was a spoiled child and i only ever ate the 5 foods i liked so idk what kids usually eat #jo says stuff #university update

[butnobodycame627]

hhhhhhh I can't have nice things

#well I can but I'll face the consequences #oh what's that? you wanted to have a nice day and fun times? well you are now cursed with horrible stomach pain and nausea!! #go die in the bathroom and try not to wake up your mom because it's midnight #okay she wouldn't mind if it's for this but I'd feel kinda guilty #I did wake up my dad because I needed. someone. to help me. I might cry fuck #surprised I'm not already crying my eyes out but maybe I'm just too tired #anyone else get that? we're you're too tired to spend the extra energy crying? idk #I think it's mostly over now maybe?? but fuck man it might come back #I guess I ate a lot today so maybe it's from that maybe? or maybe my illness is just being a little bitch for no reason #it could maybe be an allergic reaction I guess but I was just with family and my family is usually careful enough to avoid- #-cross contamination so idk #guhhh I am. dying. I am dead actually. this is my tortured ghost soul haunting my sad little tumblr blog

[dulcewrites]

I understand people are not ~happy~ with certain hotd changes compared to f&b. That people feel like characters don’t have enough agency. Valid opinions to have ofc….but I honestly don’t get how that applies to Aemond, and the change made in ep 10. He still wanted Lucerys’ eye. He still got on Vhagar, who is at least 5 times bigger than Arrax. He chased him in a storm. Regardless of the outcome, he made that choice. He wanted luke to be scared. He wanted to assert dominance over someone who not only taunted him (with the help of Aegon and Jace) for not having a dragon, but someone who also took his eye (and depending on how you read the dinner scene in ep 8, someone who doesn’t seem that remorseful). His agency is there. He just didn’t account for the fact that he’s not the only person or thing with agency in this equation.

Aemond is vengeful, he is bitter; he is the second son who feels he he has to put people in their place to gain a semblance of power. And to paraphrase mysaria: you can only get as much power as people give you. He wielded the power that having Vhagar gives him against luke/arrax. Not fully realizing that he only has that power because Vhagar, like any other dragon, has to relinquish some of hers. And sometimes she’s not gonna want to do that… just like the characters on the show. It doesn’t soften him. It makes him fallible. He now has to grapple with accelerating the inevitable. He has to sit with knowing he caused the chaos to come. The idea of wanting/taking power is working in tandem with this undercurrent throughout of the show that the only thing that can hurt the House of the Dragon… are the Targs themselves. This includes the dragons they use to get said power. Aemond, like most of the Targs (and those adjacent), is his own worst enemy.

#idk I think this change ate I’m sorry 😭 maybe I’ll feel different once I get to this in the book #but for NOW it slays and I’m gonna stand beside him yall #also the show hits when you don’t have a book purist in your ear saying it doesn’t 🤣🤷🏽‍♀️ #what will be interesting is to see is if this spurs more self loathing or he leans so hard into it he comes the true monster #theory time but I could totally see him leaning into the kinslayer title bc no way in hell is he #someone who struggled with not having a dragon #gonna admit he can’t control that senile dragon lmao #also why didn’t nyra send actual terms with Luke… I’m sorry she set that boy up to fail just saying they needed to be ‘reminded’ #aemond targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd spoilers

[senseiwu]

MISAKO IS SO PATIENT

She waits until I finish pouring out her food before starting to eat

What a patient baby

I'm used to feeding Wallace. Man just sticks his head in the bowl as soon as one morsel touches it. I used to have to hold him back so dry food wouldn't go everywhere, and so wet food wouldn't get all over his face

#kittysako #im so proud of her she ate all her food #i gave her dinner. changed her litter and put the rest of the wet food pouch in the fridge. and when i came back from taking the old litter #to the rubbish bin outside and washed my hands #she was still eating!!!! #she normally just eats a little bit and then walks away and barely eats #maybe shes used to her dad eating all the food lmao #weasel is a little piggy #i have to bring her to the bowl for her to eat sometimes #i wish shed eat dry food dhsjdh i HATE dealing with wet food... its so gross #at least the dry food just leaves a bad smell and bits on my hands and doesnt make me feel sick if it touches me #Bad Texture #Slimy #Do Not Like #but. she doesnt touch biscuits(?) that are in her bowl so. wet food #for now at least. until i can get her to try to eat dry food #idk how ill do that though #at the moment im just glad shes eating #those first frw days where she didnt eat much really scared me lmao

[whomturgled]

:^(

#feelin like a big lonely loser tonight teehe ^__^ #thought maybe i had plans but then not n everyone else i asked didnt answer or had plans w other ppl too #n i had suggested a plans with stef but she never rlly confirmed or denied but i figured not plus im kinda sick now too but #also called her just to be like hi n i miss u bc idk im SICK n i hate being sick n the way she sounded was weird AaagghGGHHHHH #n im just now realizing maybe she also ended up doing plans w other ppl #just feels like nobody likes me i GUESS which is dramatic but . aagggghhghgh #to be fair a bit of a 180 from i love u so much lemme say it 50 times last night to i call her n say ilu n shes like uhh ok haha #anD I FEEL LIKE EVERYONES GIVING ME RLLY SHORT ANSWERS N LIKE #but i dont know if i have the energy to give a lot of. energy. ?? to expect it back? but its like #an endless cycle of feel bad so less energy or want to bug less so then deserve less in return anyway so feel worse #its kinda feeling like isolation time which i havent done in a hot minute but i tried so hard to get out of it but like . for what yknow #i got to talk to some ppl some more n meet some ppl but at the end of the day i still feel alone n alien teehee #but maybe im just bejng dramatic bc sick. and rsd with the Tones and ppl having Plans With Others #like its perfectly reasonable to have forgotten or just idk had better options or maybe bc i didnt say anything sooner buT . IDK. 😔🥺 #im sick n i hate being sick n i want someone to take care of me ugh #instead i just kinda sat here. played some OW. got mad at OW. ordered pizza to engage in basically food self harm LOL n watched some #of a show ive been meanjng to watch. jts neat so far. but yeah now i just feel like shit i guess #idk how to like. not be insane. or like. ask ppl for like. idk. reassurance or smthn or. share feelings. without feeling like i am.... bad #for doing so or itll end poorly or its excess or burdensome or unreasonable. bc it kkinda is unreasonable but idk not entirely ig yknow #and i really need to shower but i especially dont want to now that i ate food bc id rather die than look at myself naked but yea #YEAH. IDK. i feel. like shit. and garbage. and i can almost see this as being the turning point to me sabotaging my ownnpotential future #whatever ive been slowly building that i just. end up giving up now. #god i wanna call stef or pidge or someone n... ig not even talk abt this bc i dont wanna be a bother but. just hear ppl. u_u #feel like i am wanted in the world slepflsjhggbjwjr #It's My Blog I'll Use It As A Diary / Thought Organizing Thing If I Want To !!!!

[skin-slave]

Fuzzball dug a hole, so I'm taking that as a sign he's happy. Not that I care. 😝 I made an indentation under the hide. Did he use it? Of course not. Ungrateful brat dug in front of the hide and filled in the indent. 🙄 Excuse me for trying to be nice.

Sprinkles has been on top of his hide for 4 days. For a while, he had one foot on the wall, and I wasn't sure if he was settling in or not. But he seems relaxed, no stress curl, and a few times I've caught him being pretty darn sploot-y. He still hates the substrate apparently... Or just really likes his perch.

I read him all of the well wishes. He was so appreciative, he was speechless. 🥰

Think I'm gonna try to feed them in a day or three. 👩‍🍳 Hope they like mealworms.

#tarantula #tarantulas #arachnophobia #sprinkles on his cupcake - the pun is complete #why do i talk about the curly hair like im his evil stepmother #idk it just feels right lol #why do i use he/him 99% of the time for both of them when most ppl use she/her #idk but maybe bc everyone wants a female and im gonna love them regardless so i dont have an expectation to project #idk if fuzzball is his permenant name but i cant keep calling him 'the other one' #also i know the pics thru the side suck i tried to color adjust and whatnot #even if he wont eat ill try to get some good pics while the lid is off #his abdomen is the same size as his carapace so if hes not hungry thats ok #but id love it if they both ate esp if i can get video

[echoing-oursong]

Idk why but I’m thinking about people’s arguments of ‘well Vickie’s a side character’ to a person liking vickie and liking rockie , and it’s like so weird considering that fandom literally loves to hyper fixate on side characters. And they have fixated on other side characters for less!! Sometimes they get half the screen time vickie did and yet fandom goes fucking wild!!! And I’m not just talking about st : I’m literally talking about any fandom ever. We go fucking wild over side characters it’s literally what fandom does.

#stranger things #stranger things fandom critical #idk it’s just so fucking weird considering that people like other side characters and yet vickie is the only one who gets this argument in #this show about how ‘well she’s a side character so obviously people aren’t going to be invested’ #girl people have been invested for less in side characters and I should fuckong know #supernatural legit gave some of their side characters barely anything and yet we ate that shit up : we went crazy #real Jessica is only there in the first ep and has like maybe 10 minutes : 20 if I’m being generous #and a few of those moments are literally her dying!! #and people created a whole ass backstory for her! #literally the thing you’re saying is what fandoms love to do!!!! fandoms love looking and creating stuff for side characters #ITS WHAT FANDOMS DO

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

having actual sweet stuff for the first time in a week or so (bc ED Brain(tm) ) and I figured I'd make enough at once and have it over today and maybe tomorrow and I'm about a third of the way through it and have a horrid headache and feel rotten D:

#also very much like harming. anyway. not going to bed til nine. i am aware of there being a knife in my room. #and for now im listening to music and writing so hopefully this will calm me #not having any more of this stuff tonight #but im maybe starting to panic a wee bit idk if it's reasonable #my calorie intake has been steadily trending downhill like tonight even with this stuff being a solid 200 (mostly bc of milk) still i got #less than 1200 which isn't especially healthy #but i don't know how to stop it #even with the dietitian without other people around who will actually do smth about it i don't know how to do this #i think i *will* talk to my friend's mum maybe asap within the next couple weeks or smth if i can #bc also like. she knows the state of my heart. both from the pov of having known about the whole thing with her son earlier and from going #through similar herself at a similar age. so i can talk to her about general emotional stuff as well as the eating problems - maybe if i ge #brave id also be like o yea and talking to your son i prioritised during conference over eating so i barely ate all week - and maybe also #the suicidal/sh bit to it too. i don't know. maybe. i kinda want to tell her. ive considered confiding in her before. but i don't know #life is hard and people is hard and i just #oh you know the drill. the usual breakdown. gosh i disgust myself #tw ed #tw sh #tw suicide #personal #puddleglum hours #it sure ain't that i don't get joy out of life. just. yeah. i dunno

[avatar-aaang]

the festival was so much fun

#personal #got to hang out all day with Friend and catch up!! #ran into my boss and my manager and they were both happy to see me #which is just incredibly jarring but very nice #saw coworker but he did not see me lmaoooo #got a little burnt on my shoulders despite absolutely lathering myself in sunscreen #but thats the only place and its not bad so im not too worried #listened to some fuckin awesome music #ate some delish food #pet a snake???? she was really cute #didnt get to see manager perform bc his set started at 11 and as i told him (as a joke but turned out to be real) it was past my bedtime #we started yawning at 9 and i was like rip sorry my guy i cant make it another 2.5hrs #maybe ill go back tomorrow but idk

[strayskinny]

today was actually so awful i hate everything,,,,,,

#so last night i had an emotional b!ngl bc i was upset about my pet #so i paid the price this morning bc i v0mited three times bc my body could not handle that much food n i needed to get that shit out #i don’t even p*the that was just my body’s natural response lol #and bc i had to take my pet to the vet to see if there’s literally anything we could do to help him #i wasn’t able to eat or drink anything so i finally made some miso soup n ate a bun bc that’s was the first piece of bread i could find lol #that was like 3hrs ago maybe n now i’m picking on some freeze dried bananas #but the flavor is literally so concentrated bc of the freeze drying i can only eat a few #oh and the vet has no idea what’s wrong with him and bc he’s a small animal it’s really hard to check to see if somethings wrong #like they can’t even do bloodwork bc his veins are so hard to find bc of how tiny he is #but hes literally lost so much weight n idk why idk what happened it was so sudden i can feel all his bones :((((( #they said there’s no real way of knowing what could’ve happened or caused this but the gave us antibiotics to try but i’m not very hopeful #she said it could be organ failure bc she said his kidneys felt very small and he was dehydrated #but that’s not a diagnosis bc there’s no way of confirming if that’s what’s wrong #she suggested we think about saying goodbye to him…. #it fucking hurts so bad man bc he’s always been such a sweet n cuddly boy n he doesn’t deserve to suffer like this #he’s so weak n i’m trying my best to help him by giving him all his fav treats n feeding him critical care n giving him medicine #but it just doesn’t seem to be enough #i hate it man i really do i hate seeing him like this bc ik he must be suffering n i feel so helpless bc there’s nothing more that i can do #n i think his cage mate knows somethings up too bc he’s been very attentive to him recently n he’s been grooming n cuddling with him #and that breaks my heart even more bc he’s gonna be alone soon n he won’t know where his friend went #god i hate it so much #anyway now i’m crying again so that’s cool major slay ahahahaha